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He still has his baby mouth!
#I don't know if I will ever recover from the joy of seeing these baby birds#birblr#wild birds#UK birds#blue tit#baby birds#photos#birbs
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moony i have been THINKING about soft dom abby and i think i might explode bc of it. i just know she talks you through it
do you mean ,,, farm hand abby ,,,, because im thinking it ,,, @pinknightsinmymind my brain is being rotted
because farm hand abby is such a soft dom. she knows she's strong and she would never wanna hurt her girl! so she's extra careful during sex.
her grip is always firm but never hard, her hands planted on your hips to pull you back into her. even when she's trying to be so gentle, she sees the bruises she leaves on your hips. she's really sad about them until you tell her how much you like them. then she gets all flustered and needy when she sees them.
speaking of marks, farm abby is a sucker for hickies. she's so gentle with you, leaving them on you when she's trailing down your body, kissing over each mark. while she's still a farmhand, she leaves them in spots only she would have access to, like your inner thighs, your lower tummy, and your tits. she doesn't want her boss – your uncle – to see them, but she can't help but leave pretty little bites on you. you're just too delicious :(
she also loves when you leave marks on her! if you have nails long enough to leave a mark, those scratches are her pride and joy. when she's got you on your back, whining and moaning and soaking her cock, and she feels the sting of your nails on her back? she's going feral, grinding as deep as possible and pushing you over the edge.
soft dom abby my love, she's 100% a praise girl. literally unable to shut up when she's pleasing you. when she's eating you out on the front porch (farmer abby) or behind one of the barns (farmhand abby)? "That's it, you taste so good baby, fucking delicious"
when she's got you pinned under her, taking her strap and pawing at her, eyes rolled back? "look at you fucking taking it, such a good girl f'me, so pretty taking my dick like that"
when you're going down on her, having begged her to let you eat her out after she's been working so hard on the farm? like you're literally on your knees on the front porch, hands gripping her thighs and begging her, until you've got your mouth latched onto her sensitive clit, fingers working against her needy cunt? "sh-shit, feels so good baby - ah - fuck, making me feel so good princess, look so pretty looking up at me like that, gonna make me cum"
soft dom abby when two inherit the farm because your uncle goes to live with your parents, letting y'all take over the business,,,,, omgomgomg
it's like it's your fucking wedding night, she carries you into the house and up to your bedroom, laying you down on the bed and stripping you piece by piece. I wanna write a full thing about this, but it's the most beautiful, gentle, loving sex you've ever had. y'all have been dating for years at this point, but now everything y'all have ever wanted is being realized: y'all have the farm and a house and a stable future together. I'm not kidding when I say she fucks you like it's your wedding night, because it practically is. makes you cum over and over again, letting you recover from each one so you don't get too too overstimulated.
soft dom abby who loves fucking you in the morning. this is absolutely bc I can't stop thinking of the plowing farmhand audio by @jupiter-va,,,,,
abby who sees you come out super early in the morning, hiding something behind your back, and immediately knows you're needy. it's not made any better by the tiny sleep shorts you wear with nothing underneath, and one of her old shirts. it always ends with her bouncing you on her strap, doing all the work while you whine and writhe and paw at her as you two sit on one of the porch chairs.
"darlin', just couldn't help it could ya? didn't I fuck you enough last night? sweet girl just needed to be taken care of, mhm?"
sometimes she's sweet and gentle, but sometimes she just can't control herself. cue her laying you down in the grass and fucking you until you leak all over her strap. or her guiding you down onto your hands and knees before hauling you back onto her cock and laughing at your sweet lil whines, and the hand you use to reach behind and push at her tummy that she just grabs and pins to your lower back before going even harder.
can I just say,,,, soft dom abby with a southern accent ,,,,, drooling. every she says sounds fucking beautiful, and if you're not Southern she Knows her accent has a profound effect on you.
farm abby ,,, her n sevika are taking over my brain,,,, woof
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Boydad!Simon is something I feel like would be really healing for him to break the generational trauma
When you first told him you were pregnant after being married for a while. He was shocked. You both wanted children and talked about it before... but now it's real, and he's gonna be a father
His first thought that came in his mind was excitement and joy...but then he thought too "What if I fuck this up" but he didn't want you to think that he wasn't excited because he was happy that he would have a child with you.... but he was worried... so he hid his concern for now
He went to all of your appointments with you, he took time off work anytime you had to go so he wouldnt miss them. Simon wanted to see the baby on the ultrasound and see for himself that the baby and you are ok
Simon was there with you throughout the entire delivery holding your hand, encouraging you and cutting the baby boys cord. A boy. Simon had a son... throughout your pregnancy, Simon still didn't mention his fear that he would fail as a father. And now that he has a son, he's even more scared that he'll just be like his dad
As you're recovering the following days from the birth, Simon was super helpful he'd get up during the night and take care of the baby so you could sleep and heal. He was doing everything he could to help you and the baby
He would just stare at his son at nights and look at him and hope that he'll be better then his dad...he needs to talk to you he knows that...but how is he gonna tell you his fears without saying the wrong thing and scaring you into thinking hell be his father and become a failure not just for his son and well a failure for you too
Simon did come to you a few weeks after the birth. He had just laid the baby down while you got ready for bed. "Honey, can you come here?" he calls you softly to the bedroom. "Yeah, what is it, Si?" You ask with concern seeing his face etched in worry
"Im afraid...fuck...I'm afraid that I won't be a good enough father for our son." he spits the words out fast like they burned him. "Oh, Simon... you could have talked to me about this." You crawl up the bed and into his lap, wrapping your arms around his neck. Trying to comfort him the best way you know how
"I haven't wanted to tell you and admit it out loud... and make you think that I couldn't be a good Dad." he looks away from you, ashamed for saying it. "I know that you can be a dad, Simon. I watched you throughout my entire pregnancy already being a dad... being there for our son and for me. " You press your forehead to his. "These past few weeks, all you've done is be a good father...a great father Simon." You say to him softly
"I don't want him to think of me in the future like I think of my father...I don't want that." his face is breaking your heart. He looks so concerned and upset about it. "He won't ever think of you like that because you're not like that at all... if you can't tell already that little boy loves you so much he looks at you and he just sees love" you tell him as you comb your fingers through his hair
"I look at him, and I see that too...I see you and see love too," Simon says softly, his worry slowly going away from talking to you. "You're the best, Dad Simon. He's lucky to have you, and im lucky to have you as my husband. " You say into his chest as he starts falling asleep from calming down after talking, and you easing his worries
*15 years later*
"Dad, can you come outside and help me with this!!" You and Simon hear your oldest son from the backyard while you watch TV together. "I'll be right out!!" He calls back out to him. "Have fun," you say as he walks to the backyard
Simon had found this perfect home in the countryside after you guys had your second son. He wanted to give the boys lots to room to grow and run around and be happy like he didn't get to have. After your third son, Simon was very glad he had found this home. All three boys were just getting taller and bigger, just like their father. The boys also looked just like Simon too but with your eye color
"What do you need help with, Son?" Simon asks his son. "I can't get the ball into the net from this side...I just keeps missing it," he says, frustrated. "Alright, well, I can help with that," Simon says with a smile, earning him a smile from his son too
Anytime any of his boys smiled at him, his heart could've burst. Simon watched him first kick the ball to see how to help him. He went through the moves with him afterward to show just how to do it. Simon couldn't remember ever doing such a thing with his dad... being patient with him and teaching him. But Simon was different from his father. He was patient, caring, attentive, and loved all the boys deeply...and of course you too. The one who proved time and time again that he could do this
"You can do this son give it a go," Simon encourages him. He goes to try again, and sure enough, he made it with Simon's help. "YES FINALLY," your son screams out so loud that you even walk outside to see what happened
"What on earth happened!?" You call out as you see Simon and your son embracing. "He finally got it, didn't you hear?" Simon laughs while you shake your head in laughter. "Boys, put your shoes on. Let's go out back!" You call upstairs to your other two sons who were upstairs
They run right past you, heading straight towards Simon and your oldest. Not slowing down and pile driving them onto the grass. "Christ," you hear Simon say as he takes the weight of all three huge boys. "You guys are gonna squish your father to death one day," you say as you walk up to all of them. Still all on top of each other and poor Simon at the bottom
But it wasn't poor Simon...because he couldn't be happier right now. He couldn't have been any luckier in life. Finding you and your strength that helped him become who he is now. He couldn't be happier with his three boys on top of him, and with you laughing at them
So I did finally write boydad!simon and let me know what yall think...because I do love this 🥹
#simon ghost riley#dad!simon ghost riley#dad!simon riley#simon riley fanfic#simon riley fluff#simon ghost riley fanfiction#ghost simon riley#ghost simon riley fluff#cod simon ghost riley
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Anybody who says Katniss was bullied into marriage and having children either, A.) Doesn't know Katniss Everdeen, and therefore did NOT read the books, or B.) They have completely misinterpreted the entire message of The Hunger Games series and are incapable of seeing the bigger picture.
Which is that Katniss never wanted to be anything more than free. She just wanted to take care of her family and live her life freely. All these people harping on her for getting married and having babies forget that Katniss made her vow not to marry as a reaction to her father's death and her mother's abandonment.
That decision and almost all of her subsequent decisions in the books up until the end of Mockingjay regarding love and marriage revolve around fear.
The message of the Hunger Games when it comes to love is not that there is nothing to fear about falling in love or getting attached to people. All through the series its proved time and again that love and emotional attachment is costly. Because everytime Katniss allows herself to get close to someone they get hurt.
But what Katniss learns is that love and caring for others cannot be avoided completely. It's part of the human experience that cannot be denied unless you want to end up like President Snow, emotionally dead inside, caring only about yourself and what people can do for you. And avoiding/running away from human connection is often just as painful as losing it. And it is detrimental to people.
Katniss loses her sister in the war and almost loses herself because feels she failed at protecting the people she cared for. Everyone from Prim, to Rue, to Cinna, Squad 451, Finnick, and Peeta. She is barely alive and barely hanging onto her sanity after the war.
The thing that brings her back to life is Peeta moving back to District 12. His return is the sign that she can rebuild her life after losing nearly everything.
Because Peeta too, lost nearly everything including his own mind. But he fought hard to reclaim his memories and his mental health. He helps Katniss recover from the mental and emotional toll the war and everything that came before.
Because at the foundation of their relationship is their enduring promise to keep each other alive, to protect each other, and it goes so much deeper than romance or sex and whatnot.
They've been through hell and back many times and know each other inside out. When they fall back in love it's not because they feel pressured, but because they finally feel free to do so. It's just them and Haymitch in the Victors village and they know they don't have to put on an act for him, or anyone really.
Their relationship is finally allowed to take it's natural course, which Katniss clearly states was inevitable.
This would have happened anyway people.
And when she decides to have children she is afraid at first. From personal experience I can tell you it's terrifying, the idea of bringing new life into the world. It's a feeling of responsibility that never gets easier or ever really goes away. But the joy of allowing yourself to love and be loved in return is incomparable.
Not every heroine needs to get married and have babies, I will admit. But for Katniss it closes out her character arc perfectly.
She fights so hard, and loses so much, but ultimately rebuilds and faces her deepest fears. She doesn't let her loses define her. She believes her life can be good again. And then she makes it good again. One day at a time.
Which is a lesson to all of us about the endurance of the human spirit and about how female characters are allowed to find happiness and contentment in whatever form they chose. Flower dresses and chubby newborns and all.
#thg#katnisseverdeen#my opinions#but also they are the correct ones#katniss chose her happy ending#i will fight anyone who says different
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i expect your nichest hc's as well my friend
Ah, the price of my folly come back upon me. I shall do this in the hopes that it brings you a little bit of joy whilst you (speedily, I hope) recover from your illness.
Twilight -- I think that he would make a good horse farrier. Like the shoe guy? I HC that he was apprenticing in Ordon before his adventures, and he's just never gotten back to it. But he was good at keeping horses calm and stuff while he takes care of them. I think he's a little less good at the blacksmithing part of it, but hey maybe Four could teach him.
Hyrule -- I have many out there HCs about him. Honestly, he's part of the reason I'm considering whether I should tag BDOR as an AU. But also, I like to lean into his fairy background, I think that his mana potions are just bottles of sparkling sugar water. Legend nearly spits it out when he borrows one, thinking they're actual mana potions.
Time and Wind -- they're connected. I HC that they met in Mario Kart, sometime in Wind's future and Time's past. Yes, this is a crack head canon. Yes, I am aware that neither of their official versions are actually in the games. I do not care. They met, Wind was finally old enough to get his license, and they SHREDDED RUBBER BABY. Time will never tell him before their adventure ends. If I ever tag you in my fic with no other notes at the bottom, know this is what is being referenced.
Wild -- I head canon that the boy has TRAUMA when it comes to his hair. I don't know how niche of a head canon this is, as back in the older days of the fandom I remember seeing it a lot. But I haven't seen a lot of it recently.
#@needfantasticstories you know my thoughts about Hyrule XD#best boy sweet boy favorite boy#lu twilight#twilight linked universe#lu hyrule#hyrule linked universe#lu time#time linked universe#lu wind#wind linked universe#lu wild#wild linked universe#yeah some of these are crack sorry#and some just not based in reality at all#i look at canon and i go#lovely#but what if we did a completely different thing
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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love!
Tagged by @estrellami-1 - thank you, my dear! <3
Let's see, fanfic specifically, not original works, I imagine...well, I've got a lot! The question is, which...
Okay, these are just my personal favs, not even necessarily the ones I think might be the best-written, and I'm also excluding co-authored fic because that would be a very different list! (For one thing, Amateur Cartography, with Reg....)
1. straight from your heart (Stucky) - lots of people seem to like this one (thank you!) and I do too - I love recovering!Bucky stories, I loved the premise (it was written for a fest prompt), and I love the idea of Steve and Bucky working out what they want to incorporate, and play with, and reclaim, as far as identities (and, okay, some kink; it's me!).
2. Like Sugar (Evanstan; series) - okay, this is probably cheating because it's a whole series, but I can't separate them! This might be the thing people know me for most, maybe, and it was at the time the longest and most detailed story I'd ever written, and one of those that was (mostly) easy to write - words and scenes just turned up and flowed. I sometimes go back and reread my writing and am honestly impressed by myself. I do love this whole giant thing.
3. tempt me, tease me (leave me breathless) & (baby won't you please) run your fingers through my hair (both Evanstan, both sort of gentle kink) - okay, this is also kind of cheating, because they're two separate stories - except they're sort of linked, in my head? They have vaguely similar premises, about Chris discovering some things about Seb's preferences, and love confessions, and kink, and comfort, and...I don't know, they just have a similar 'feel' to my writer-brain. They both have specific lines that I've put on "top ten favorite sentences I've written" lists before, and I love my writing at this point.
4. never mind the why and wherefore (Johnny Storm/TJ Hammond Fantastic Four/Political Animals no-powers AU crossover) - this is an odd random one but I genuinely love it! In the category of "stories I never expected to write"...and then friends made me think about it...and then suddenly it practically wrote itself and I had 45k of story. One of the best and most unexpected and consequently wonderful writing experiences I've ever had, plus of course TJ deserves all the happiness!
5. Know That It's True (Cherik, X-Men: First Class era) - pulling out a real old-school one: this was my first-ever X-Men fic! Well, to be fair, that depends on how you count - it's the first one I started writing, but then I stopped and wrote and finished something else short, and then went back to this one! These days my writing style has evolved a bit, and there're some things I'd do differently - but the sheer sense of fun to it, the absolute joy, the "oh gosh YES" rush of feels while writing, posting, being so nervous about it as a new(ish) writer...oh, I love it. And I tumbled into so many communities and friendships and fan events and fests and, oh, the shared love - really, without this, I don't know where I'd be. So that's always got to be on a list of favorites. *hugs you all*
Tagging people, oh, let's see... @musette22 @significantowl @ninemoons42 @thebestpersonherelovesbucky @rozf and anyone else who wants to! love you!
#my fic#tag game#favorite fic#thank you!#stucky#evanstan#cherik#x-men#marvel#rpf#fanfic#xmfc#tj hammond#johnny storm
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Could Edward ever lose his pedestal worship for Carlisle (without Carlisle acting OOC)?
Ooh, very tricky question that.
Let's dive in.
Difficult, Very Difficult
The trouble is that Edward doesn't simply admire Carlisle for who he is but is also haunted by feelings of guilt and shame over his own actions.
A few years after turning, Edward left Carlisle to devour humans, believing Carlisle had been depriving him of the one meaningful joy in a vampire's life and that if Edward chose his victims carefully then his feeding habits could even be a good thing for human society/better than what Carlisle does who doesn't seem to do anything about bad humans or man eating vampires.
Edward however not only comes to regret this and returns but is terrified of the meaninglessness of his life in such cases and how he himself was not simply a murderer but one who far exceeded any human's crimes.
As a result, what we see of Edward in canon, is a person who can't afford to not worship Carlisle/be favored by him because then he'll be back in the headspace he was in during the years on his own.
I don't think Edward ever truly recovered from leaving, in other words, and that means he desperately needs the Cullens and Carlisle especially to be his safe haven.
Carlisle is Who Edward Wants to Be
The thing is, in character Carlisle is the man Edward desperately wants to be. As a result, Edward's not going to look to critically at him and doubt himself before he'd doubt Carlisle.
There's Also a Lot of Excuses
The other issue is that Edward can easily make up excuses for why Carlisle's not behaving in a way that Edward would appreciate.
If Carlisle gathers only witnesses during the Volturi trial, rather than an army, it is because Carlisle is naive and believes too well of even people who are not his friends. Edward doesn't see this as a fault but instead an admirable trait.
In the case of not aborting Bella's child, Edward blames Esme. Carlisle chooses not to abort Bella because doing so would upset Esme. It's the only thing holding him back, Edward's certain of it.
The vote to turn Bella into a vampire, Edward truly is upset over, and we don't know his thoughts on it but my guess would be he sees it as Carlisle making a terrible sacrifice so that Edward can live and be happy. Edward doesn't agree but he's not upset with Carlisle over it (and he just has to convince Bella to say no).
If Carlisle were ever to truly do something Edward sees as a betrayal of the family post-New Moon/Breaking Dawn then Edward would blame the Volturi. Either they're threatening Carlisle somehow or else Carlisle's under Chelsea's thrall.
This last especially means that Edward has endless excuses as for why Carlisle isn't disappointing him but is instead either simply too naive, swayed by his love for Esme, or else controlled against his will by an outside party.
So, How Do We Do It?
The obvious one is when Edward left: Carlisle certainly wasn't on any kind of pedestal then. Edward, rather than choose to return, could have been too afraid and ashamed to and his desire to return could have instead become resentment over the certainty that Carlisle would humiliate him and throw him out if Edward tried to come crawling back.
Then, Carlisle would become a figure of contempt and loathing, and I imagine Edward would slowly change so that his every action is to spite the imaginary Carlisle who ruined his life.
Of course, Carlisle's still on a pedestal in a way here, it's just uh a pedestal of hatred I guess we'll call it.
If you mean in canon...
The Blue Moon route.
Should Edward bully Carlisle (with Esme's help) into giving Bella her human experience, Bella then gets pregnant, and Carlisle then refuses to abort the child then it's not him protecting the baby for Esme (as this is the child of an affair and an unholy demon) but it's him committing adultery in a way that Edward did not condone (fuck Bella sure, get her pregnant, no)
Edward would view Carlisle as an adulterer, cheating on Esme who is the greatest of women, condemning the love of Edward's life to death, and having committed the greatest betrayal of Edward.
It's so personal that Edward doesn't even consider the Volturi angle, this is just Carlisle stabbing him in the back and then laughing merrily.
"I DON'T KNOW YOU" - Edward Cullen
#twilight#twilight meta#twilight headcanon#twilight renaissance#blue moon#carlisle cullen#edward cullen#anti edward cullen#meta#headcanon#opinion
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List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers ♡
Usually I don't do a lot of chain asks like this but today I feel like it 💜 Thanks for the ask, @synobun 💜💜💜
5 things that make me happy:
Spud. Of course my baby is number one on this list. He's been my angel for the past five years and I adore him so much. He's the best kitty ever and I would do anything for him. He's (very literally) the reason I am still alive today. His floof is healing.
My friends/family. I love my friends, and I'm so happy to finally be living within a half-hour of two of my best friends. They're amazing people and I absolutely love them. My siblings mean the world to me and I am so proud of them. They're both younger than me, and seeing all their accomplishments feels me with so much happiness to see how much they've grown. I love them and I want only the best for them. Jumping off of that, I have a set of cousins older than me who act like older sisters and it makes me feel so loved and wanted every time they invite me over or send me messages. I love them so so so much. I even have many online friends who fill me with joy every day! 💜💜💜💜
Writing. I will never stop writing. Maybe one day I'll publish some of my original works, and then maybe one day I'll publish enough that I can work more casual at my current job, because I love my job and the sense of happiness it can give me, but it is so hard some days and I'm still recovering from a fullblown burnout 2 years ago (they say it takes 3-5 years to fully recover, and I'm doing my best to give myself time but it's hard some days). Anyway; I have stories to tell, thoughts and ideas to share, and a whole lotta world-building that I've been dying to get down on paper. I will be writing until I die, guaranteed.
Singing. I sing all the time. I sing in the car, I sing while I cook, I sing while I clean, I sing along to music while I write, and sometimes I just sing while I'm not doing anything. Music makes me happy, and I need to express myself through music. Even if I'm singing a sad song, the catharsis it gives me makes me feel satisfied and content after.
Horror movies. Is anyone surprised at this point? I watch them on my own, with friends, at home, in theatres...I just love them. They're so fun! And deal with such interesting topics. I love the discussion some of them can bring up. (I do not love the discussion of what "should be" allowed in horror. Horror is subjective. Also, if it makes you highly disgusted and/or disturbs you, then it likely *does* belong in horror. Like, name a better genre for that? smh, some people...) I love love love learning about my favourite horror movies too. Like, everything I know that is "extra" or "behind the scenes" on Hellraiser fills me with such joy. I adore the Saw movies. Human Centipede, my beloved. Crimson Peak. Terrifier. Misery. There's just so many I find interesting and enjoy watching! The special effects are so cool; especially the practical effects and makeup. Like, ok ok, sidetrack, but DID YOU KNOW in Misery, the famous hobbling scene? Kathy Bates used a real sledgehammer and swung hard. The legs on the bed? Those were prosthetic legs built to look like James Caan's legs, made out of gelatin, PVC pipe, and a hinge in the ankles. The camera zoomed in completely focused on the hammer and legs, which made the iconic scene. Anyway, I love that tidbit and if you didn't know it before, well now you do :D (source 1; source 2)
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If you don't mind can i request an angst to fluff scenario with shirabu where his newborn baby is very sick and still hasn't able to leave the nicu as a doctor shirabu feels utterly useless and couldn't even bear to look at his baby but seeing his wife visiting their baby everyday and hearing her assurance that it's not his fault and that their baby will be ok he finally decide to visit with his wife as much as possible and apologize to his baby for not being there then gradually their baby show enough signs of improvements to go home and the parents just cry tears of joy 😭
I know this isn't what i usually request and it's a pretty heavy scenario but i just couldn't get it out of my head and shirabu is like perfect for it 😔 you don't have to write it if you don't want to or if it makes you uncomfortable of course!
Bestie I’ll be honest I wasn’t sure if I wanted to write this because I don’t have much experience with the nicu and premie babies and I don’t want to be insensitive because that’s a very touchy subject for lots of people, but I’m hoping this doesn’t come out insensitive (if anyone finds this insensitive pls let me know so I can fix it!!)
Part two here!
Tw: premature birth, nicu stays, premature baby, angst to fluff, guilt, crying, possibly a breach in hippa guide lines(the doctors talk about declining healths of patients), baby comes home for the first time, cursing
He could feel the guilt eating at him everyday. Everyday he’d come home from the hospital to you crying because your precious little girl had been born premature, this meant she would have to stay in the nicu for a while before she could come home to ensure she’d be healthy.
He couldn’t help his own daughter because he’d be a conflict of interest and it only made him feel worse, how was he supposed to trust his colleges with her? He’s heard how they gather around the coffee machine whispering under their breaths about how certain patients were declining in health. Could he ever recover if the subject of their gossip were to become his daughter?
Seeing you come from the nicu everyday a sad smile on your face knowing you’d have to wait until tomorrow to see her again. He couldn’t even bring himself to see her after she was born and he felt like shit because of it, he’d seen her from across the room after you went into labor but that was really it.
Slowly say by day, your crying died down which Shirabu was thankful for, assuming it meant she was doing better. Any free time you’d had was spent telling him about all the little things she’d done during your visit and how they were preparing for her to go home soon!
“Shirabu?” He hears you call tiredly as he sits in the living room quickly wiping at his face, “what’s wrong?” You ask seeing him wipe at his face.
“I just feel like it’s my fault” he breaks down at the question, you quickly move over wrapping your arms around him as he cries into your shoulder.
“Listen, Kenjiro I felt like that at first too, but I talked with the nurse and she said it’s normal to feel that way when this happens but it’s important to know that there wasn’t a thing either of us could have done to prevent it.” He looks up at you with watery eyes as he nods.
“Besides, she’s ok now, they told me she’s going to come home soon as well.”
And you were right, after a few more days, the two of you were leaving the hospital with your little girl, Shirabu didn’t really know how to react, when he’d seen the nurse holding her he wanted to sob, she looked so much different from when he’d seen her in the delivery room, she looked healthier. Maybe that’s what he was scared of seeing her and she’d been worse than before.
After getting through all the paperwork and getting home he was hurrying to set her car seat down asking you if he could hold her.
“She’s your baby to you know” you tell him looking up as you unbuckle her lifting her gently before handing her over.
“Yea…of course I knew that” he replies but it doesn’t have his usual bitter bite to it, it’s softer almost a whisper full of emotions.
If anyone has more experience with the nicu and knows that something is particular wrong(I tried not to be too detailed to avoid this!) pls let me know so I can fix it!!
Anyways let me know if you guys want me to write anything else because I love writing requests!
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((Little ones imagine))
** seven anons requested this so here ya go**
Wild swim to the spot land to quickly be with sia as hyrule and four help the few chain members get in dry land so they don't have to stay wet and miserable.
Once the wet chain members on dry spot of land and try squeeze out the extra water from their clothes they all stop to hear not one but two babies crys and they now notice they don't see sia's monstrous beast body so they knew she back in her other body and slow peek around to see wild very close to sia and that her animal pelts is in the two arms wrap around clearly two babies as the babies clam down as they give the two parents a moment to bond with their newborns and legend smile and pinching his own cheek to force himself not to cry to hear his great grandbabies are here but he shed tears of joy.
Wild smile softly hold his newborn son in his arms, and gently place a kiss on his son head and look over to his wife and his newborn daughter and couldn't stop smiling and he gently kiss his daughter head as the daughter make a soft noise to felt her father as sia smile as tears of joy fell from her face to see her two newborns here and safe.
Sia: link...our babies..their-
Wild: I know, I love them. Your did amazingly to bring them here into the world sia. My beloved wife,mother to our babies.
Sia see wild free one arm and use it to place it on her side as in to side hug her and she close her eyes lean to wild to taken in the moment and open her eyes again to look at their babies.
Their daughter and son are snuggle in sia's animal pelt and they are health ease sia worries and smile to see her son slowly open his eyes and see he have purple blue eyes, blond hair clearly he's wild's son but have tiny monsterish scales around his chest,belly but sia isn't worry since he'll make change when he's older. Their daughter like fully hyrulian, black brown hair but can see tiny feathers around her ears and when their daughter open her eyes are fully blue like wild. Their daughter manged to stick her tiny arms out and reaching to her parents and sia,wild lean close a bit so her tiny hands touch their faces. Once the two have a few moments with their newborns and sia recover enough to shifted to her other body to bring the chain that under the surface back up safety with the newborns too. Each of the chain taken turns to hold the newborns.
Time: he hold both of them and they look at time with a look that hard for the group to figure put but time knew he's loves his grandchildren, and time will smile softly to the newborns that the chain are shocked to see time face but the newborns see and coo out sweetly and time will hold them longer than anyone he'll even hum them a lullaby and gently rub their soft cheeks with his thumbs.
Twilight : he gently hold both babies and happy to meet his God children that he didn't know he's crying of tears of joy. He'll softly woof to the newborns and the babies will make a noise back to twilight that he wish to save this moment in his memory, heart forever.
Legend : he hold the newborns and take a long time to get the newborns back since he trying not to be happy emotional of the newborns, and he tell a safe story for kids of why he doesn't wear pants to them even though they don't understand but he's okay really.
Hyrule : he's nervous but he hold both babies and is zap with the babies magic immediately and it's warm and sweet like sugar that he relax himself and is a smiley fool. He take a moment longer with the newborns that he overload himself by the newborn fresh magic but it's worth it.
Four: like wind, he can only hold one at a time but he couldn't stop smiling too and he let the babies tiny hands touching his face and when he hears the babies coo..the colors are from zero to a hundred in *we will be the best uncles those kiddos ever have in this lifetime!!!*
Warrior : he holding both newborns and is happy to met them even when the newborns are cooing warrior felt weak since their adorable and he will secretly scold them. Even if he have to do it behind wild's back.
Wind: he have to hold one baby at a time gently and carefully since their very small,weak and wind smile to the babies in a soft voice not to loud in case and not taken his eyes off them and loves his cousins.
Sky: sky is very happy to hold and met the newborns, he talk to the newborns and the newborns coo back to their uncle and three people are quick to get to sky sizes to hold him up since he nearly fainted saying *my nephew,niece are so cute. I can died like this!* as the newborns coo after since uncle sky is funny guy. Sky is the one to play his harp to them to get them to nap or be their personal bed since all three can be sleeping buddies together.
Wild have his shikiah stale taken many many pictures of his children with the chain as sia smile seeing how the chain are with her newborns and smile til they hear a portal noise close by and they all know that they need to get on moving and whoever have the newborns hand them back to sia and wild and the whole group start to move to the portal to their next jump.
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thinking of ending it because i'm bored
not even because i'm sad. i already know what it's like. this time is different.
as a girl who recovered from her depression a couple of years ago due to medication, i think my suicidal tendencies is back and it just evolved into a new monster: boredom.
when i was sad, i cried a lot because i was in turmoil with my emotions. i was in conflict with certain figures in my life, so there was an actual problem that i know that's causing me to feel that way. and when there's a problem, there's a solution. it was solved.
this time, however, what can possibly solve my boredom?
is this really only what life has to offer? is this it? there is no sadness in me and there is no joy in me. don't get me wrong tho, i feel sad and i feel joy and i have fun, but nothing ever penetrates the soul.
they all leave a couple of hours later and i'm back to my boredom, baby.
how eternally boring is life, and i'd rather not see the whole of it. i want to end it. maybe ending it is the only solution, because by then i wont have to constantly, constantly search and be anxious over things and decisions i have to make just to have that little taste of fun.
i don't feel anything. i'm just bored and i fear that if i continue living, i might have to just be bored for the rest of my life.
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instagram part two
𝓲𝓶𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓮 - instagram part two
𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 - none
𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓹𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 - a series of instagram posts from users alexandercalvert and yncalvert.
𝓪𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻'𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮 - i had so much fun writing the first part that i knew i had to do it again and just because i really love alexander calvert
masterlist read part one here!
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yncalvert what you don't see in the first photo is me laughing at alex crying at his realisation that we now share the same last names
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alexandercalvert yes expose me mrs calvert because it was going to happen one way or another
jaredpadalecki all of us were crying at one stage i think
alexandercalvert jaredpadalecki but remember to take y.n out of that equation, jared cause she didn't cry like once i don't think
jensenackles best wedding i have ever attended!
misha congratulations to you both y.n. what a beautiful wedding it was
robenedict i'll always be you and alex's wedding singer 🤍
ruthie_connell you guys are so fucking cute 🤍
genpadalecki lol, me in the right-hand corner just screaming in joy
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alexandercalvert i absolutely adore you, mrs calvert, more than any words in any of the english or any other language can explain. the reason i cried all day was that i hadn't ever woken up as happy as i did this morning with the knowledge that i was going to be marrying my best friend. i cried all day because i got to fulfil the dream that your dad dreamt and made for you before he could have the opportunity to follow through with it and see his wonderful little girl get married to the love of her life. i cried all day because i didn't get to see my wife be walked down the aisle by her dad. i cried all day because we got to see my wife do that walk on her own before mishastood up and walked her the rest of the way down the aisle. i cried because i finally got to vow my everlasting love to my soulmate. i cried because i fulfilled my father-in-law's wish of marrying his little girl, just like he wanted me to do. which was what he had written down on his bucket list of "last things to do before i die". i love you so much mrs calvert and i promise to love you every single day in the same way that your father loved your mom.
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yncalvert i love you so much mr calvert. it was a perfect day, even without dad here to witness it
jaredpadalecki these photos and this caption is beautiful alex!
robenedict what a special moment it was to see misha stand up and help y.n finish the walk down the aisle to you, alex. it was beautiful
misha it was an honour to walk y.n down those last couple meters to you, alex. and i'd do it again and again 🤍
genpadalecki this post is lovely alex. and so was the wedding 🤍
jensenackles why am i crying over this again?
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yncalvert did anyone order a baby calvert?
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alexandercalvert yeah, i ordered it like a few months ago but it still hasn't arrived yet
yncalvert alexandercalvert wow that is so rude! it's complete blasphemy that it's taking this long to arrive!
ruthie_connell you guys just got married...and now you're having a baby?!
danneelackles512 i think i just choked on my own saliva!
genpadalecki i've literally only just recovered from your wedding and now you're having a baby?!
kimrhodes4reals well...we should have expected this when you consider that y.n wasn't drinking alcohol all evening of her and alex's wedding
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alexandercalvert i know everyone's been waiting for this but, lemme introduce y'all to sage eleanor genevieve calvert.
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yncalvert my two precious angels
genpadalecki the sweetest little baby girl in the world and with the sweetest name in the world too
jaredpadalecki sage is gorgeous alex! you and y.n did a wonderful job
jensenackles now that is the best name i think i've ever heard! and that's saying something since i've got three of these mini humans
misha sage eleanor genevieve is a beautiful name alex! and she is a gorgeous baby as well
robenedict aw isn't she just the cutest! i cannot wait to meet her alex!
username who named sage, alex?
alexandercalvert username it was a joint effort actually. i came up with the sage eleanor bit and then y.n decided to add in genevieve and it just flowed and was beautiful. there was no hesitation to name our little one after the lovely gen who was me and y.n's little cupid and got us to fall in love
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yncalvert alex, today is all about you and the amazing daddy you are to our sage eleanor genevieve. you love our daughter in ways i've never seen until i told you we were pregnant with her. you always know what she needs when she needs it and how to do it in the right way. you always make sure to give sage all the attention in the world and it's so obvious how much she adores you. i am so grateful its you that i get to parent sage alongside because i couldn't imagine someone else knowing how to take care of our perfect little half-human half-angel. i love you so much alcal, today is for you 🤍
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alexandercalvert stop it babe, you're gonna make me cry! i love you so much and i am forever grateful for our little half-human half-angel, sage 🤍
yncalvert alexandercalvert i love you so much more 🤍
jaredpadalecki happy father's day alcal
misha happy father's day alex
danneelackles512 aw this is so sweet, y.n! happy father's day alex 🤍
genpadalecki happy father's day to the best dad to the best half-human half-angel 🤍
robenedict happy father's day alex!
jensenackles happy father's day alex! enjoy it whilst it lasts 🤍
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alexandercalvert happy mother's day mrs calvert. you are the best mother to sage and we are so grateful to have you in our lives. it was magical to see the way your body changed during the pregnancy with our daughter and just how gorgeous you looked. seeing you nurture her before and after she was born whilst still being a kick arse in supernatural will always and forever amaze me and make me teary-eyed and motivates me to be better in general because you were born to be a natural mother. sage is the luckiest little girl in the world, just like i'm the luckiest husband in the world. sage eleanor genevieve and i love you every single day and whilst today is mother's day, there is never a day of the week you are not celebrated or appreciated.
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yncalvert thank you love! i love you mr calvert
genpadalecki happy mother's day y.n!
danneelackles512 the best mommy to the best daughter!
ruthie_connell we love mrs calvert all day every day!
officialbrianab this is a gorgeous post to your wife, alex!
jaredpadalecki happy mother's day y.n!
jensenackles happy mother's day mrs calvert!
misha happy mother's day y.n!
robenedict happy mother's day y.n!
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this one-shot is always so much fun to write and i'm glad i finally did a supernatural cast version of it but now i lowkey am imagining what it would be like if the supernatural universe had social media and used it.
ok ily bye xx
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I'm seeing my best friend for the first time in three years in about a week and a half. I'm proud of her for everything she's accomplished, but I feel left behind. If I'm being honest, it's how I feel about a lot of my friends. They're either getting married, dream careers, everything they want. While I struggle. I had to watch one of my friends succumb to terminal illness, and I never got to say goodbye, (I physically could not get out of bed when she died).
It feels like everyone I know gets everything they want. New friends? Got it! Money? Got it! I have been recovering from years of trauma and all I get is more shit. More lies, more hurt. It never ends. I try to be positive, or journal about it. But I'm just hurting and angry. I got to watch my 2 best friends' mutual friend (who I used to be friends with, but she turned out to be a bigoted bully who would tell me to kill myself and other graphic things every day) succeed. My two closest friends don't even blink an eye to what she did to me, I often hear "Oh she's changed!" Homies, she wanted me dead, she made me apologize to her for her putting death threats in my old bag when I had to be around her.
I feel lonely in my LDR. My partner was supposed to come this week, and we'd finally get to see each other (we're nevermets), but things got messed up, and now I don't know when I'll see them. Or if I'll ever see them. Which I love them dearly!!!! But I need physical affection, and hugging myself isn't the cure all! I can't imagine myself without them, but at the same time, I feel so lonely. I hate "dating a phone" sometimes. It sucks. My friend that is getting married (to a guy that's financially using her but if I say something she'll flip out), told me I will never find someone who loves me for me. And I have found that person, unfortunately the universe said "Nope y'all can't see each other"
And then my grandmother who physically and mentally abused my mother, well grandma is dying from cancer. Everyone expects me to be sad and praying for her. I feel nothing for this woman who used to lock me in her shed, would physically and mentally abuse me and my sister, give my baby cousin trauma from the things he witnessed her do to me. The only good thing, is my baby cousin and I have been closer for the first time in years. We used to be so close as little kids, and then we drifted apart. And now here we are calling each other to bring joy every day or sending memes or whatever. I guess some good things come from some horrors.
This is small, but I invited my friends to come over Saturday just to hang out, nothing crazy. Nobody said yes or no. I guess it's a trip to the bookstore for me! :')
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SaL anon here friend and while KR may try and very well might suck the joy out of the rest of this season I refuse to let her take away the joy of this last episode, so its song time!! And in honor of the lovely, poignant Chim and Ravi storyline this episode, I think we should talk about The Projectionist. Admittedly I honed in on this one because Chim's "hand it off" to Ravi gave me strong "we're leaving our shadows behind us now" vibes, but the closure they both got definitely felt summed up nicely by "makes us brave again". There start of this one made me think of Chimney Begins, and the "truth is heavier than fiction" struck hard for him and Ravi's story (which for some reason happened entirely off screen and was never mentioned 😠😠😠), so hope you enjoy this one too!!
Also no regrets on you roping me into 911!! Its been frustrating lately but its also has been gratifying seeing what a well thought out drama can be, especially in a wee woo show which normally wouldn't be on my radar. And like you said, we survived RNM and while I may have a lot to bitch about in these last 2 seasons, it hasn't reached that level of terrible with the incredible speed RNM managed it to. Actually now that I think of it all (Eddie getting sidelined reminding me of Alex, Buck's reconned growth being like Michael, BT drug on even though it was painful to watch exactly like you know what, the constant praise of L and inserting her where she isn't needed....) bestie I think I know where KR gets her "ideas" from (hopefully I didn't just totally corrupt our song post)!!
Oh I'm glad you've got a song for me because I am very busy trying to be "I do not see, I do not perceive" about this new woman but naturally no one ever tags for anything so the constant stream of "oh god, they're soooo cute together! She's soooo pretty! I don't mind if we don't get Buddie if he's with her!" (while knowing zero things about what kind of person she is beyond her looks. How very progressive and feminist of you 🙄)
ANYWAY, I started on a fic, wrote some smut for the first time ever, and I'm getting ready to go chill and work on puzzles and paint my nails. Agreed that this show still is able to deliver sometimes which is more than we ever got with RNM after that last episode of season 1 tanked things and never recovered, so at least there's that!
So in the spirit of focusing on the good stuff, lets talk about Ravi and Chim!
When I was young, I fell in love with story
With the eleventh hour, with the blaze of glory
The theatre lights dim and all goes quiet
In the darkest of rooms, light shines the brightest
This is such a good song because it's all about the love of movies and storytelling which is SO good for Chim since we know he's a movie buff! I'm also thinking of little baby Ravi being so sick who probably spent a lot of time in hospital beds, watching movies and imagining being somewhere else. BRB gotta go cry about that for a minute. Also, the idea of falling in love with the last minute save and them both having jobs that are intense and they have seconds to save people, and how this show has a foundation of hope and that light shining through even when things look dark and hopeless.
When hands are tied and clocks are ticking
An audience convinced: we're leaning in
Holding our breath again
Just when we thought the game was over
The music lifts and our dying soldier lives
And we breathe a sigh of relief
we’re leaving, we’re leaving our shadows behind us now.
we’re leaving, we’re leaving it all behind for now.
This ties into the hope of the show too, of us the audience holding our breaths through these rescues and breathing a sigh of relief with the character when they pull off a save. But I'm also thinking about holding my breath through Ravi's story and how he thought he was pulling off this heroic save, but not only did he lose a child, he save the man that was trying to kill his kids. He didn't get to have that sigh of relief and he's still be holding his breath this whole time until Chim lets him know it's okay to breathe again.
I love that talk with Chim and Ravi and you're right it fits so perfectly with that last line, and learning to leave those shadows behind so they can work on saving the next one.
but even dust was made to settle
and if we’re made of dust, then what makes us any different?
i guess we give what we’ve been given:
a family tree so very good at giving up
when we’ve had enough.
though truth is heavier than fiction,
gravity lifts as the projectionist rolls tape.
and it makes us brave again
and it makes us brave again
and it makes us brave.
I love that line “even dust was made to settle/and if we’re made of dust, then what makes us any different?” like, nature is pulling everything to settle and you need to accept it and let the shadow go and settle in the with dust where you belong. AND THEN!! You have that brilliant line “I guess we give what we’ve been given: a family tree so very good at giving up when we’ve had enough” like !!! That’s Chim!! He has this family that just gave up on trying to deal with him, and he finally, to protect himself, gave up on trying to reach out to them. And even now, we see that he’s trying to let the hurt go, but he’s not expending any more energy on that relationship. But compare that with Chim and his firefam and his job! He NEVER gives up! He pushes back against a bad captain to make sure Hen has a place, he pushes Hen and Karen because he knows how good they are for each other, he pushes Buck and Bobby, he goes after Maddie because he knows that she needs some space but she also needs to know that he is right there waiting for her when she’s ready.
Then of course you have that whole “truth is heaver than fiction” bit which strikes me as Chim having to pull back from the “movie” aspect of the job (something that inspired Buck to join as well and a lesson he also had to learn) because it’s not always easy to brush off when the perfect movie save doesn’t happen and a patient it lost. It’s not always easy when the one you save is the one that was hurting the one who didn’t make it. But facing that truth, letting it be heavy, letting it carry weight and learning to not let the weight drag you down, is what it means to be brave and do the job.
so we’re leaving, we’re leaving our shadows behind us now.
we’re leaving, we’re leaving it all behind for now.
and it makes us brave again
and it makes us brave.
we’re leaving, we’re leaving ‘em all behind for now.
I love this song, I just listened to it the other day and it was such a good one for this week! Chim and Ravi’s conversations really felt like them making the choice to be brave and leave those shadows behind and I love love loved seeing Ravi welcomed back to the firefam with open arms. This episode was a real highlight this season for me, so I’m so happy we got to talk about a song for this one. All the love for Chim and Ravi!
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Mafia!Ateez reaction to s/o being abused by her family
Warnings: READ AT YOUR OWN RISK domestic abuse, bruises, scars, toxic family behaviour, manipulation, torture, mentions of blood, smoking, murder, death
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It only gets darker and longer with the next member
Hongjoong
He came home early so you weren't prepared and were wearing a tanktop with shorts
He saw the bruises on your back and thighs
When he asked you about it later that day, you sobbed and told him that your brothers beat you because you insisted on moving in with Hongjoong
Would pretend that it didn't affect him but on the inside he's furious
He himself doesn't like to physically discipline anyone unless it is necessary or they get on his nerves and bring him to that point
How dare they lay a finger on you
He wouldn't change his behaviour with you, he'd be his usual caring self, all the while planning to knock some sense into your brothers
He laid a trap for your brothers to fall right into and met with them personally
He's a reasonable man so he started with talking to them but when they didn't listen and called him slurs he threatened to murder them
They knew Hongjoong was a part of a mafia and didn't want to anger him any further
They promised him that they would treat you better
Seonghwa
You told him you tripped and fell while you were packing your things to move in with him and that's how you got the bruise on your head and a busted lip
He bought it honestly because he's soft for you and couldn't see you like that so his focus was to get you the medical treatment you needed
You were happy with him and spent almost all of your time with him but he didn't want to hold you back form meeting your friends and family
You were ecstatic to meet your friends but not your family
They hurt you after all
So when he had someone drop you off to your family house, you were nervous but still went inside to meet them
What you got was taunts and verbal abuse
When you tried convincing them that Seonghwa was indeed very kind and loving towards you, they hit you so hard, you lost your balance and your back hit the glass corner of the table which you tried holding onto and ended up scratching your upper arm, drawing blood
You were shocked and hurt and ran out of the house
You hailed a taxi and went to your friend's house and told Seonghwa to pick you up from there
When he came home that night, you were already asleep
In the morning he woke up and found you in the kitchen at the brink of tears and you cheek was a little swollen and purplish
He asked you what happened but you said you liked hanging out with your friends yesterday and these were tears of joy and that your swollen cheek was because you ran into a glass wall
He believed you like always and wrapped his arms around you to pull you into an embrace and accidentally put pressure on the bruise on your back from yesterday
You yelped and arched your back
This time he didn't ask you but lifted your shirt to see for himself, despite your protests and was shocked to say the least
He made you feel comfortable enough to tell him that it was your family's doing
He reassured you that everything will be okay and that you could stay with him forever
That night he paid your family a visit after you went to sleep
They never contacted you again
Yunho
Your family was very religious and never really messed with you because Yunho made it very clear how protective he was towards you
Any bitter comment from your family would earn them a death glare from Yunho
He'd stare them down until they got super uncomfortable
Nobody knew what he was capable of, other than the fact that he was involved with a mafia
Your family wanted you to stay away from him but you loved him and he had promised to protect you and shield you from the mafia life
Yunho's girlfriend had no face, no one in the mafia world had ever seen you
One day you were visiting your family to celebrate your sister's birthday
You felt unwelcomed, you own blood was making you feel uncomfortable
When the guests had left and it was time to open the presents, your brother told you to go home
You were embarrassed but tried to reason with him that you guys were family
He started saying hurtful things and called you a slut and accused you of selling yourself to a dirty mafia rat who kills people for a living. He said you are nothing but his whore and he will replace you one day when he is tired of you and then you will have no one to turn to because they didn't consider you family anymore
You got up and went to the home. The home Yunho had made in the middle of a dense forest to hide you and came to see you almost every day
Yunho had decided to complete his work in advance today so he could spend more time with you in the next days, since you said you would be at your family house today
You unlocked the door and went in crying. You were wailing so hard that you laid on the floor in the lobby
You screamed when you felt someone grab you by your arms and made you sit up
Yunho looked at you in shock and worry, you nuzzled your face in the crook of his neck and cried your heart out, not caring if you were being loud and looking like a mess
You didn't need to tell him what had happened because he was aware your family had something to do with this
You woke up in bed the next day, feeling numb but had a severe headache
You looked around the room and saw a shirtless Yunho starting outside the window, you called out to him "Yunho..."
"I don't want to know what they did or said. I'm never ever going to allow you to meet them again. It took everything I had in me to stop from murdering them because I don't want to hurt you, but I can't have anyone else hurting you either"
He turned around and looked furious, you had only once seen him this angry when a spy from another mafia broke into your house and tried to stab you. Yunho had ripped his jaw off of his face with his bare hands in front of you and you fainted from shock from the intensity of the situation
Right now he had the same look on his face and you didn't want to anger him any further
Yeosang
He had never been the one to talk a lot
His calm and collected nature made people underestimate him
Your family used to love Yeosang and were supportive of your relationship with him, they were happy when you moved in with him, but that was before they knew who he was
Only you knew that Yeosang was a cold blooded killer. He was his gang's ace, he was sharp, very intelligent and very manipulative, not to mention he was the second most strongest member and was very good with weapons, his speciality being butterfly knives. He killed people the bad guys and felt no remorse. His gang members often joke that he only feels two emotions, rage when the bad guys cause menace and love towards you.
He got you pregnant and you were now worried but Yeosang had reassured you that no one in this world will ever lay a finger on you as long as he is by your side. He made you feel safe and loved. He didn't trust anyone to help you around the house so he stayed home to help you.
One day your family came over to meet you and ask after you unannounced, you being 7 months pregnant, were home alone
They wanted to see your huge house, you were nervous because you didn't want them to see some rooms but couldn't keep up with them because you got tired from walking
Then the unthinkable happened, they saw everything. They saw Yeosang's training room, his collection of knives and bulletin boards with photos of people, nasty looking people. One board had two sets of photos of the same person, one photo was for Yeosang to know who to attack and the other photo of the same person killed by him. Yeosang never wanted you to see the contents of the room, let alone your family.
They told you to come with them and to leave Yeosang but you tried to tell them that you were more than okay and wanted to stay with him
It all happened too fast, your father grabbed you by your arm, dragged you outside and forced you to sit in the car while your mother pleaded to him to not shove you around like that in this state. They didn't drive home, they were fleeing the city to get as far away from Yeosang as possible
You were screaming, your parents paid no attention to you, they thought you were protesting but actually you were screaming because of the excruciating pain you were experiencing. You were bleeding and your mom had noticed it but they were on a highway and there was no hospital nearby. They couldn't do anything about it so they kept driving out of the city, your father hoping the child would die in your womb because he now hated Yeosang and wouldn't be able to love his child either.
You fainted and after 2 hours of driving, they got to a hospital. No one knew but you were carrying twins, sadly one of them had died in your womb while the other was born healthy. You were now fighting for your life. Your parents were scared for you and afraid of being tracked down by Yeosang.
You and your baby spent a month in the hospital and recovered enough for your parents take you with them
On the other side Yeosang was on the verge of a mental breakdown. He was out looking for you, now scared and confused and in rage. He didn't know who had taken you away and was frustrated and tired but he couldn't let you go. You were the love of his life and the only person in the world who ever loved him.
He got a lead on you and within hours was outside the house where your parents were hiding you.
He broke in the house in the middle of the night and found you crying on the bed with a sleeping child by your side. He instantly became soft at the sight, all the rage he had in him was replaced by love. He softly called to you and you whipped your head up and instantly ran to him.
You begged him not to harm your parents and he couldn't say no. He silently took you and his month old son back home in the dead of the night
San
San was not one person, he had two kinds of personalities, one was a ruthless assassin and the other, a passionate lover. Both personalities had him being manipulative in common
He absolutely hated your family because you were a free spirit and liked taking risks while they were the complete opposites and often tried holding you back but you always loved an adventure and that's how you ended up with Choi San.
You dispised your family the same as they did you. You were so used to the beating that you felt nothing now. Profanities were very common too and you wanted nothing but to slap each and every one of them and run away.
You were head over heals for him the moment he crossed paths with you but you didn't show that to him. He tried manipulating you into getting you to sleep with him but you knew better and brushed him off
He was used to women being on their knees for him so you not doing that was a challenge for him and he was hell bent on getting you to like him
He was going crazy over you and started meeting you at your workplace during his missions, like he had to kill a man in 30 minutes but he just had to see you first
When you weren't giving in to his art of seduction, he tried a different way
He asked you out like a decent human being and you said yes, wow that was easy, right?
No, you made him work hard for your love and affection and he was obsessed with making you happy to feel loved by you and by the time San realized what was going on, it was too late
He was madly in love with you and practically drooling over you
He finally asked you to move in with him and you said yes even though you knew your family would disapprove. You went home and packed your stuff and tried to leave but your family members didn't let you leave and in an effort of saving you from inevitable destruction which was Choi San, they beat you to the point you passed out.
They texted San from your phone, pretending to be you and told him to stay away and leave you alone, that you wanted nothing to do with him.
San was confused and scared when he got that text from you and texted you back to take your time and rethink your decision.
You woke up in your room at some point during the night, unable to open one eye because it had been bruised badly. Your head was bleeding and the blood had dried on your face. You left leg hurt a lot because of you lying in an unnatural position. You didn't have your phone or anything else
You felt empty and all you wanted was to be in San's loving embrace
It was now or never
You escaped from your window and somehow managed to get to San's front door, it was almost morning
You knocked on his door and called for him
He opened the door after some time and took in your form
He was in too much rage but he had to tend to you first
A few weeks later he came home and told you that he made sure your family is now in another city far away from you and won't contact you again
A tear slipped down your face, you were free from their torment
You kissed San and thanked him
He would do anything to make you happy
Mingi
Mingi was the notorious mafia leader who has connections with the government and the dark world
He had money and fame (the good and bad kind) and all that was missing was love and you filled that void
He loved you too much and would never let anyone hurt you
People knew better
So your own family, your own blood hurting you for wanting to live with Mingi didn't sit well with him
He was distracted at work and all he could see was your face, your tear filled eyes, your bruised arm and your distraught state
He wished he had sent someone to get you from your family house sooner so you didn't have to go through the abuse
He wished you never told them about it and just moved in with him
You were in his home, resting in his bed, thinking about what had happened
Did they really didn't see any good in Mingi?
Did they really have to hit you?
Did you do the right thing?
These thoughts flooded your mind and you were just as distracted
Mingi came home in a hurry and told you to come with him
You asked him where you guys are going and he says we're going to get back at them
He took you to your house and barged right in, unannounced
Seeing Mingi in person was overwhelming and your family were scared, pleading to him to let them go
Mingi told them that he was going to kill them for hurting you and there was panic and chaos
You came to stand next to him, squeezed his hand and softly told him that you want to go home
He couldn't say no to you so he warned them that this isn't over and took you home
You talked to Mingi and convinced him to let them go because they were your family after all
He's the one who said that if the loved toy and cared for you, they wouldn't hurt you like this and family doesn't mean you have to tolerate this kind I'd behavior when you're old enough to make decisions for yourself
You kissed him and wondered why couldn't your family see the good in him
Wooyoung
It started off with you slowly telling your folks about what Wooyoung did for a living
You were smart, so you didn't tell them about his business until you moved in with him otherwise they would have disapproved
You didn't mention that he tortured people and killed them without remorse, no, you said that he works with an organization that eliminates evil people which was true in essence
Your family was having none of it
They wanted you as far away from him as possible
You loved him and he loved you but they didn't believe it
They kept you from leaving the house and since Wooyoung was away for some time on a mission he didn't know
It was only when he got home that he found out that you hadn't returned, but he didn't think much of it because you were with your family
You on the other hand were panicking not only because you were being forced to stay away from Wooyoung but also because you just found out that you were pregnant
You had to get back to him no matter what
You refused to eat or talk to your family members, only demanding to meet Wooyoung
When he didn't get any message from you he began to get suspicious
He sent someone disguised as a delivery boy over to your house to check up on you and got word that you were sick and locked in your room
He got up and drove to your house in the middle of the night and broke through the front door. He didn't care who got in his way and pushed and punched whoever protested
He got to your room and demanded that you open it
You did and jumped at him, told him you were pregnant and they were keeping you from going back to him and cried
He took you in his arms and was taking you back with him
Your father threatened to call the police and Wooyoung simply said "say hi to chief inspector Jeon from me" leaving the father shocked
You were happy to be back with your lover and were excited about the baby, the same as Wooyoung
Jongho
Probably the strongest man in the whole mafia world
Everyone feared him
He didn't have to say twice for what he wanted because people had heard how he smashed someone's skull open with his bare fists
He had asked you to move in with him and you happily said yes
But when you told your family about your decision they asked you if you were crazy
You didn't listen to them and started packing
They weren't going to let you go to some barbarian
But you weren't listening so they had to do it the hard way
Deep down you were happy to leave because your family had always been abusive and toxic
When you were asked to leave with your suitcases your father grabbed you by your arm and shoved you against the wall
"you bitch, you really think you can disobey me?"
Your mother held you by your hair and slapped you so hard your nose started bleeding
They beat you severely and you had stopped screaming at this point
You thought you were going to die when they left you like this on the kitchen floor
You don't know what got into you but you got on your feet and ran out the front door where you were stopped by Jongho waiting for you beside his car
He saw you and gently pushed you aside and went straight inside the house
He came out after almost 20 minutes, blood splattered on his face and clothes
You were already in shock from the beating that you didn't question him
He got in the car with you, held your face in his hands and said "don't worry, I called an ambulance for them, they just might be okay"
With that your heart sank but you were too shaken to feel sad for them so you just cried
Jongho took you home
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Arackniss has a nightmare.
Arackniss entered the apartment you shared, but instantly notice something was off.
All the colour seemed to have been drained out, shadow stretched light becomes harsh, as though the entire thing was in some noire film.
Walking down the hall, everything seem distorted, the picture were blured, plants dead, eventually he reached the kitchen, where he found you.
Joy swelled in his chest upon seeing you.
You were sat at the dinner table, pouring a drink from a grey bottle into a glass.
You took a long swig before you seemed to noticed him.
Taking another swig from your glass you turn to him. 'Oh its you.' You say in a tone far to similar to his fathers
You looked him with dead eyes, those beautiful eyes that used to bring warmth to his heart everytime he saw them, now they looked right through him.
Arackniss spoke up, 'Is there something wrong, Cuore mio?'
You looked at him like he'd sprouted another head. 'Something wrong?' You asked incredulously.
Taking another swig you a scowl grew on your face. 'You really think i wouldn't figure it out?'
Arackniss went cold, 'W-what do you mean? Figure out what?' He asked, fear tightening his throat.
You actually laughed at him, taking another drink. 'You didn't think I'd find out about all the things you've done?'
Arackniss pulled back. 'What-What do you mean, I never hid anything from you.'
'"Never hid anything from me"?' You almost screamed. Standing up you threw a stack of papers at him.
Arackniss moved back, looking up at you. you stared back coldly.
Looking down he found papers at his feet. Looking back up he found youd disappeared.
Bending down he picked up a photo.
Arackniss froze.
The photo was of a dead sinner. He remembered him, he killed him in a bar a few months before he met you.
He dropped the photo, only to find he was suddenly in a void, an ocean of photos surrounding him.
Each one was a photo of someone dead, and he somehow knew. He'd killed them all... there must have been thousands.
Arackniss stumbled back, bumping into something.
Turning around he found you. You stared down at him like an insect.
'Wh-Whats going on, I-I-I thought you loved me, I thought you accepted me!' He his voice shaky, pleading.
You scoffed, 'How could I love someone who's killed so many. How could I feel safe with a person whos hands are covered in blood.' You told him, your voice haunting dull.
Arackniss clutched his head. 'No. NO! You wouldn't say this, You love me. You don't care what ive done.' He whimpered through clutched teeth.
He was suddenly blinded by light, shielding himself he found himself in a new room.
He stood in the centre of a spot light. Looking around he called out. 'Hello?'
Another light flashed on behind him, a thin trail of light connecting the two.
Walking over to the other light, he found a large white cloth drapped over... something.
He didn't know what it was, but something within him demanded he lift the cloth.
So he did.
He reached down and slowly pulled the cloth back.
Arackniss stumbled back, under the cloth was body. Your eyes were cloudy, lifeless, stareing up at him. Pain and horror twisted across your face.
Arackniss was freaking out, his heart beating like a drum.
Icy hands gripped his throat. Arackniss' hands came up to meet them. Something breathing into his ear.
It was your voice he heard, but it sounded like you hadn't spoken in centuries, your voice horse and brittle. Whispered in his ear.
'This is my future with you'
Arackniss woke up with a sound somewhere between a scream and a gasp, panting and sweating like he'd just ran a marathon.
He ran his hands down his face, pulling them away he found he couldn't stop his hands from shaking.
Arackniss' sudden movement woke you, sitting up you found the spider demon turned away from you, hunched over and sobbing.
'Baby, what's wrong?' You asked panic beginning to infect your voice, reaching out to him.
As soon as your hand touched him the spider threw himself away from you.
He slammed into the wall, scrambling away from you.
Quickly turning the lamp, you threw of the covers and dashed to him.
Coming to his side, you find him curled up against the wall, sobbing into his hands. His other arms wrapped around himself.
You reached for him 'Arackniss, what's wrong? What happened?'
The moment you touched him, he freaked out again. Pushing himself away from you.
'DONT TOUCH ME!' He shrieked before bursting into another fit of sobs. 'Don't touch me, please I don't... I don't wanna...'
'Dont want to what, Arackniss?' You asked after a moment. Moving closer, you restrained yourself from touching him. 'What don't you want to do, Arackniss? Please just tell me.'
Arackniss gripped his head harder, claws sinking into his scalp. 'I don't wanna.... I dont want to hurt you...'
You sit down, across from him. 'How could you hurt me?' You asked, almost laughing at the idea.
Arackniss didn't answer, deciding instead to curl into himself. 'Arackniss. Speak to me, please. Help me understand what's wrong.'
Arackniss' breathing came out like a dying motor. Shaky breaths in and out, interjected with anguished sobs.
You moved forward reaching out a hand, and placing it on his shoulder. Arackniss acting without though pushed you away. Falling back you hissed in pain as your back met the side of the bed.
Arackniss instantly moved forward, rushing to your aid, terrified he'd hurt you.
The fall had hurt, but you were quick to recover and as soon as Arackniss was close enough you pounced.
You locked your arms around him and pulled him into your chest.
Arackniss squirmed, pushing you away. 'Let me go! Just let me go! I don't wanna... Please...'
But you didn't let him go. You held him close. 'No! NO, I'm not letting you go until you tell me what's wrong.'
Arackniss pulled and pushed and squirmed, desperately trying to escape your grip.
You held him close, letting him tire himself out. Eventually he slowed down, surrendering and just laying against your chest.
A few moments of silence go by as just hild him against you.
You nuzzled into his hair, holding him close. 'It was a nightmare... wasnt it?'
You knew the answer, but you wanted him to say it. Acknowledge it.
The spider just nodded into your chest, releasing a little hum.
'And you hurt me in the nightmare, didn't you?' You asked, Arackniss just nodded again.
You brought your palm to his jaw, adjusting his pose across your lap, running your thumb over his cheekbone.
'Amore mio... would you ever hurt me?' You asked. Arackniss' head shot up, staring up at you with indignation.
'NO! No, never. I would never... no, I would never hurt you. Never.' He told you, his voice thick with emotion.
Your other hand came up and held his face, looking him dead in his eyes 'Do you love me?' You asked, thumb running just below his right eyes.
Arackniss turns to the side 'Of course I love you.' He whispered, pulling in on himself, nuzzling into your collar.
'...Do you love me?' He asked, so quietly you almost didn't hear him.
You smiled at his meekness, running your hand up his neck into his hair, you pulled him against you.
'I love you, Arackniss.' You brought one of his hands up, kissed the back of it. 'With all my heart.'
'Say it again' he whispered. You smiled again before complying, 'I love you, Arackniss.'
'Again' he says, this time moving his head below your chin. You complied, 'I love you, Amore mio.'
'Again' he whispered. You brought your hand to his chin. Bring up his face, you looked into his crimson eyes and you told him 'I love you arackniss, I love you with all my heart and nothing, Nothing! will ever change that.'
Arackniss didn't say anything, he didn't need to, he just leaned forward. The two of you locking lips.
Arackniss wrapped his arms around you, holding you as close as possible, desperate not to be parted from you.
And so you kissed him back, pouring all your love into the kiss.
You eventually picked him up, holding him close, as you walked around the bed before sitting down.
You shimmied into the bed, before breaking the kiss to turn the lamp off.
Before you could pull the cord, Arackniss grabbed your arm. 'Please don't.' He asked, his tone just shy of begging. 'Leave the light on tonight. Please?'
You smile down on him, 'Of course, Amore mio, anything for you.'
Arackniss layed against you, relishing the sound of your heart beat. The two of you just laid there, holding each other.
Arackniss held you close as he drifted off to sleep.
Arackniss didn't have any more nightmares that night, not while he had you. Not while you held him close.
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