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practically-an-x-man · 3 months

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Pit of Vipers (Nikoletta x Abner)

Summary: While in Belle Reve, Nikoletta realizes that a fight broke out the night before - and Abner didn't even try to fight back

Tags: pre-relationship, angst, violence, depictions of injuries, brief references to suicide

Word Count: 3.1k

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“Adrian.”

She appeared out of the shadows and slid onto the bench beside him, and Adrian just about jumped out of his skin.

“Jesus Christ- don’t do that!” he blurted, glaring at her from behind his glasses, “Do you know how close I get to punching you in the face when you do that? It’s a reflex.”

“But you never have.” Nikoletta pointed out, giving him a slanted grin.

“Yeah, ‘cause I stop myself every time. Those aren’t exactly the knuckle tattoos I’d want,” Adrian said, wringing his hands together as he imagined it. Nikoletta scoffed. He talked a lot of big game, she thought, but she’d only ever seen him fight when it was premeditated. He didn’t strike a single blow without considering it first. It was part of why she chose him as a confidant. He wasn’t reckless like the others were.

“So… what sends you popping up over my shoulder like my sleep paralysis demon this time?” he asked, seemingly recovered from his bout of shock, and shot her a broad grin. Someone else probably would have found it charming. Nikoletta just pressed her lips together.

“Someone’s missing.” she said, dark eyes scanning the cafeteria around her, “One of the newbies.”

“Hm. Yeah. The skinny one, right? With the-” Adrian guessed, gesturing vaguely at his own neck, “The one who always looks like he’s sad he can’t hang himself from the bars of his cell like the guy in Goonies?”

“He doesn’t-” Nikoletta started, but cut herself off with a huff, “The guy from Goonies didn't actually hang himself. But… right. Him.”

“Oh, yeah, he’s in medical,” Adrian pressed on, his voice just as light and conversational as it had been in the moments before, “Couple’a guys jumped him late last night. Didn’t see who, but they got some good hits in before the guards got there. Looked pretty bad.”

“Bastards.” Nikoletta growled, “They know the rules. He wasn’t marked.”

“Maybe they thought nobody would care.” he guessed, casually picking through his French fries without a care in the world. Sometimes he scared her. “I mean, the guy doesn’t even talk, why’s he even worth protecting?”

“It’s not about being worth protecting,” she said, “Why do you pay your insurance premium if you never get sick?”

“Ah, I never had insurance. Even the cheap ones denied me. I get in too many fights.”

“But you know how insurance works, don’t you?”

“Sort of.” Adrian said with a one-sided shrug. Nikoletta rolled her eyes.

“Good enough.” she decided, “What I’m saying is… whether he’s ‘worth it’ or not, everyone gets my protection, whether they need it or not, unless they decide to stir up trouble. And he hasn’t stirred up any trouble. They shouldn’t have gone after him.”

This was far from the first time something like this had happened. Even with her system in place, there was no way to control every stroke of violence in Belle Reve. People got… pent-up after a while. Marking the unruly prisoners kept things peaceful in more ways than one - removing some violence from the pool entirely, and giving the others a chance to release their frustrations - but it wasn’t a perfect solution. She doubted there was any perfect solution to be found.

And it was always the quiet ones who seemed to slip through the cracks.

“I need to find out who did this,” Nikoletta said, standing up from her seat in one decisive motion. Adrian twisted around to look at her, giving her a strange look.

“Y’know, if it were up to me, I’d just mark him now. Just to get it over with. His blood’s already in the water. I’d be willing to bet someone’s gonna rip him apart eventually. Might be better just to let it happen, save yourself a bigger fight. I mean… you’ve seen him, Nikki, the guy’s a walking target.”

This was the side of him that Nikoletta had to keep on a very short leash. Underneath his lighthearted and even charming exterior was the same thirst for violence as anyone else in Belle Reve, and she knew that. And as much as she liked having Adrian as her right hand man, she had to be careful about that ruthless streak of his. She had the sense that if it was a matter of his safety, even his escape from Belle Reve, he’d would break anybody’s neck without hesitation. Even hers. He was only loyal to her because she set her terms clearly and followed them.

In a way, that was more comforting. Loyalty based on emotion always felt… shaky. At least here, she didn't have to worry about some social faux pas meaning the difference between ally or enemy. She didn't need an emotional bond with Adrian. Really, she wasn't sure he formed emotional bonds with anyone. But as long as she kept her rules transparent, consistent, she could trust that he had her back.

Even when his ruthless side showed its face.

“No.” she replied with a shake of her head, “He hasn't done anything to deserve being marked.”

“C’mon, Nikki. I know you like him, but-”

“It’s not a matter of liking him. It's a matter of principle.” she huffed, “If I mark him without warning, people are going to start to wonder if they’re next. That’s just the fast track to me losing what little control I’ve managed to scrape together in here- and if I go down, you’re coming with me. And it’s a Band-Aid over a bullet wound. The ones who attacked him are just going to find another target if he’s gone. It doesn’t solve anything.”

She took a step back, comforted by the brush of shadows against her skin. There she paused, just for a moment, and met Adrian’s eyes.

“And I don’t like him. He’s just another prisoner.”

“I dunno, you didn’t get this mad about the last guy who got beat up.”

“You were the last guy who got beat up.”

“That’s what I’m saying!”

Nikoletta rolled her eyes and fell into the shadows.

She reemerged from a pool of darkness in the corner of the medbay, suddenly enough that a nurse in the hall flinched at the sight of her. Most of the staff had grown used to Nikoletta’s habit of slipping between rooms, but that didn’t make it any less startling to see her suddenly appear in a once-empty room like some kind of apparition.

It didn’t take long for her to find Abner. He was in the bay closest to the wall, far away from anyone or anything else. Ever since he’d arrived, she’d gotten the sense that the staff was a little afraid of him. She didn’t understand it - aside from the power dampener, he was about the most unassuming guy she could have imagined in a place like this. She doubted he even tried to shoo away the rats that sometimes scurried through the halls.

But the staff were afraid of her too. She didn’t usually give it a lot of stock.

Abner’s eyes were closed, but the faintly pained expression on his face told her he wasn’t asleep. She didn’t blame him. Half his face was swollen in a brutal black eye, and the rest of his skin was equally littered with bruises and dried blood. Nikoletta wondered, briefly, if he’d even fought back. From the nature of the wounds, harsh and dark and from every direction, she guessed that he hadn’t. The power dampener had been removed from his neck, showcasing a dark band of bruising around his throat - like he’d been shoved to the ground and landed hard on the dampener. Nikoletta couldn’t help but wince at the sight. Some of the bruises were almost dark enough to look like her shadows, save for the faintest purple-red tint.

“Who attacked you?”

She must have been moving more quietly than she realized. Abner’s eyes snapped open with a sharp gasp, and he jolted upwards in the bed. A faint light glowed from somewhere near his wrists, but he tamped it down with a grimace just a moment later.

“Nikoletta?”

“Who else?” she replied, planting her hands on her hips and frowning again at the bruises painting his skin. She waved a hand vaguely in his direction, every movement sharp. “Who did this? Who attacked you?”

He opened his mouth to respond, then frowned and shut it again. He shook his head.

“You won’t tell me.” Nikoletta guessed, clenching her jaw in anger, “Goddammit, Abner, I’m trying to help you! I’m trying to make sure this doesn’t happen again!”

“It won’t fix anything.”

“This isn’t like grade school bullies,” she insisted, “If you tell me who did it, the problem will go away. Permanently. I need to know who did this.”

“So you can kill them?”

“I haven’t killed anyone.” Nikoletta snapped. The words came out too harsh, and she wanted to wince. Abner flinched, but there was something deeper in his eyes. He raised his eyebrows. Nikoletta resisted the urge to scoff. “Listen. All I do is mark the ones who have it coming to them. I don’t sponsor any violence of my own, I just… rescind my protection. Anyone who’s marked has to fend for themself. That’s how it works.”

“But they all die anyway, don’t they?” he asked. His voice had gone soft. It sent a maelstrom of emotion through Nikoletta’s chest. She wanted to be angry - with him for poking holes in all the rules that should have kept him safe, and with his attackers for sparking all this to begin with - but strangely couldn’t find the emotion within herself. Abner’s eyes were tired and sad, the effect only magnified by the fact that one was nearly swollen shut.

“Yes.” Nikoletta finally hissed, “They die. That’s the nature of Belle Reve. If I didn’t have my system in place, they’d have killed you too.”

“Maybe that’s not so bad…”

If it were up to me, I’d just mark him now. Just to get it over with.

Nikoletta grimaced as the words echoed in her mind. Adrian wanted her to mark him. Whoever had attacked Abner wanted her to mark him. Hell- it seemed like Abner himself wanted her to mark him, just to rip the Band-Aid off.

For the slimmest moment, she was tempted.

But only for that one moment.

“Stop that. You’re in pain. Death won’t bring you the relief you want.” Nikoletta muttered, “Trust me, I’ve been there myself. The only way to make things better is to fix them yourself. Now tell me who attacked you.”

“STAR Labs?” he asked instead, apparently ignoring her demands, “Is that what brought you there? Is that why you… you hurt like that?”

“Of course it was fucking STAR Labs.” she said, reaching for the sleeve of her jumpsuit and tugging it up to expose the silvery track marks at her elbows, “You think I had these before STAR Labs? You think I was in prison before STAR Labs? You think I had to cover every fucking inch of my skin before STAR Labs?”

“Why are you angry?”

“Why aren’t you?” she fired back, “Look at yourself. Look at the bruises. It’s going to happen again if you don’t tell me who gave them to you.”

Abner was quiet for a long time. He stared down at his hands with a distant look in his eyes. Nikoletta shifted on her feet. It shouldn’t have been this difficult of a decision to make. It was a choice between safety or pain, and he didn’t have to do anything but give her a name. There wouldn’t even be any guilt in it, she thought. They’d struck the first blow. The Queen of Belle Reve had very particular rules, and those rules had been broken. It was all fair play.

Finally he looked up and met her eyes. Nikoletta lifted her eyebrows, awaiting his response.

“Will you do me a favor?”

“Hm?”

“Will you get me a glass of water? Please?” Abner asked, his voice falling back to that near-whisper of his, “The nurses don’t like coming over here. Not when I don’t have the…”

He trailed off but gestured vaguely at his neck. Nikoletta nodded. She still wasn’t sure what power it was that had the nurses so afraid of him - something to do with that odd light when she startled him, she was sure - but it must have been something big. Most things that came from STAR Labs were.

Nikoletta took a step back and melted into the shadows. She was back a moment later, a half-filled plastic cup clutched in one gloved hand. She held it out, and Abner took the cup with a faint but grateful smile. He sat up and took a sip, grimacing like every motion hurt. Looking at him, she believed it. She hoped the nurses had at least given him some sort of painkiller before they vanished.

“I don’t like killing people.” Abner mumbled after a few long moments of silence. His fingers worried at the edges of the cup. He refused to meet her eyes.

“So you’d rather let yourself get beat to shit like this than tell me who did it? None of the blood is on your hands here, Abner. They attacked someone under my protection, so they deserve to have their own protections stripped away. It’s all just turnabout. Fairness. Really… if you tell me now, they’ll probably be gone before you get out of that bed. Why the fuck are you protecting them?”

“Because it’s still…”

Abner trailed off, shaking his head with a low sigh.

“I’m sorry, Nik. I can’t.”

Nikoletta scoffed and took a step back from him. She couldn’t believe this - beaten so badly he’d landed in the medbay, covered in blood and bruises, so severe they’d even removed his power dampener, and he still refused to give her a name. Did he really have so much guilt for something he hadn’t even done? How had he managed to take down STAR Labs, with a hyperactive conscience like that?

The sadness in Abner’s eyes only deepened as Nikoletta took another step back. It was hard to look at. She sighed.

“Do you need anything else? Before I go?”

“Um… no. I don’t think so.” he said, “But if you… if you wanted to come back sometime? Just to talk for a while? This place, it reminds me of the lab. It’s hard to be here.”

She could understand that. Normally she avoided the medbay like the plague for that same reason. She didn’t like her cell much either, but this was… worse. Nikoletta pursed her lips but gave him a singular nod.

“I’ll be back in a few hours. Try to think of some things you want to talk about before I get back.”

She took a final step back, returning to the familiar not-quite-comfort of her shadows, and had already begin to slip into that other realm when she heard Abner’s soft voice one more time.

“Nikoletta. Thank you.”

She was back in the cafeteria before she could even think to respond, but the words rattled around in her mind much longer than they should have. That whole interaction had been… odd. He was an odd man. In a lot of ways. She didn’t quite mind it, but it was certainly different from the interactions she was used to.

“Any luck?” Adrian’s voice, deceptively chipper, pulled her from her thoughts. Nikoletta shot him a lukewarm look, irritation bubbling just underneath the surface.

“No. He won’t give them up. For whatever God-forsaken reason.” she said, shaking her head, “Lands himself in a hospital bed but won’t even tell me who put him there.”

“I’m telling you, Nik, you could save yourself a lot of trouble if you just-”

“I’m not marking him. Especially not now. That sets a precedent I don’t want to set.”

“Suit yourself.” he muttered, though he clearly didn’t agree with her decision in the slightest. After a moment he shrugged, tossing it aside like water off a duck’s back. He waved a hand towards the opposite side of the cafeteria. “Well, in that case… I’ve been doing a little recon-”

“I’m assuming that means you walked straight up to their table and dared them to give you the gossip?”

“It was recon. I was very subtle.” Adrian repeated with a huff, “And it sounds like one of the guys that jumped him was that calendar guy, with all the tattoos? Heard one of the cameras got footage of it, just a couple frames. Y’know, it’s probably not a great idea to attack a guy in the middle of the night if you’re one of the four prisoners in here who can be recognized from the back si-”

“Thanks.” she said, cutting him off before he could get into one of his diatribes, “I’ll take care of it.”

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“Julian.”

This time, she meant to be startling. The tattooed criminal sat bolt upright in his cot, frantically scanning the shadows for where her voice had come from. Nikoletta took a step forward, allowing herself to be lit by the dull yellow bulbs that shone in from the hallway. The sight of her didn’t ease the fear on his face.

“I heard you broke my rules.” Nikoletta continued, drawing each word out, “You attacked a prisoner who wasn’t marked. You know what the punishment for that is.”

All lingering dredges of sleep had vanished from his posture, and he looked at her with wary eyes. His fingers were curled tightly into his bedsheet, as if he were debating trying to smother her with it. Surely he had to know he was outmatched here. Surely he had to know that was why she confronted him in the dead of night, blanketed on all sides by her shadows.

“So what? Not like I did anything big, just knocked him around a little. Fuckin’ creep deserved it, too.” he replied, the words so loud and barbed that she could hear cots creaking in the neighboring cells. Tension drew into Nikoletta’s posture, both from the words and the growing audience to them. She took a step closer, aiming to administer her punishment swiftly and potently. With a mark, and with all the gossip that had been swirling over the ordeal, he’d be gone by breakfast.

But they all die anyway, don’t they?

I don’t like killing people.

Nikoletta froze on the spot, jaw clenched so tightly it hurt. It was a matter of principle. Julian broke her rules, she administered punishment, it resolved the conflict that landed Abner in the medical wing and secured Nikoletta’s reputation as a strict but objective ruler. Half a second’s action to repair a host of issues. All it took was one little death.

But she found herself stepping back. Confusion crested across Julian’s face, in equal share with the same sharp wariness.

“No more second chances.” Nikoletta warned, darkness dripping off every word, “Do better. This will be the only mercy you’ll get from me.”

And with that, she vanished into the dark.

#did i just post a nikoletta fic yesterday? yes. did I write this one over the course of one day and decided to post it anyway? also yes #my writing #my ocs #nikoletta bordeaux #oneshot #angst #tw swearing #tw violence #tw depression mention #the suicide squad #abner krill #polka dot man #adrian chase #vigilante #calendar man

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randomnameless · 4 months

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Three houses get more representation in heroes because its popular ?

I guess?

My issue isn't with how popular or loved Fodlan is, but what FEH was supposed to be.

With FE Cipher, even if Fates and Awakening were very popular, we still had entire sets featuring FE6 characters. Ditto for FE4/5/8 (tfw a Bael got its own card).

CYL is a popularity contest, that much I understand.

And yet, I also understand FEH is supposed to be a celebration of the franchise itself - bla bla FEH is a main game because Vero is a paid DLC in Engage bla but would anyone really pay 60 bucks to play book 1 and 6 about Vero's story? Really ? If this is a main game , then the first warriors game is one too lol - so why are the same 3 games over represented ?

In Cipher, we had a Fates set, then a Jugdral set (featuring CIpher OCs?), then an Archanea set, then an awakening set, then a Valentia one, etc etc.

But if they follow the current FEH, it'd be one fodlan set, one thracia set, one fodlan set, one awakening set, one fodlan set, one tellius set, one fodlan set, one elibe set, one fodlan set etc.

I really get how popular units/games will always sell and the fan favourites are always represented, I played through 2 Tales gacha games lol, Links had basically a bajillion of Leons and Yuris while poor Caius barely existed, and Rowen never got a premium unit!

CYL is a fan event - for sure - but beyond CYL, it's just FEH that tires me - it's not a celebration of the FE series anymore, it's just a cashgrab to take money from some fans using their current obsession (Fateswakening in Year1-2, Fodlan now) so while it never concerned me in the first few years, I dgaf and moved on, wondering if the units I like would ever get a thing (and they did! Saias was released for free lol) but now with the state of powercreep the game has?

You have to roll for units, to get their skills and fodder them to units you care about, and even then, they might not be able to clean PVE content - I like when things are challenging, sure, but the last Seer's Snare was a cruel wake-up : even with the newest shiny skills and whatnot, Caineghis cannot compete with duo!Anna. P!Naesala has the WTA against them? Who gives a fig, he dies on initiation.

Hegemongard was just a prelude to what FEH would become lol - even if, with investment, old units could still put up a fight against her, but you had to get dedicated team to counter her.

Now? With a team with W!Mitris, L!Alear and A!Elincia? Good luck tanking anything lol - sure, Tina is a godsend and I find if hilarious how this random nobody from FE5 is supposed to counter the crazed current meta, but it's the same issue - sell ridiculous units, and sell ridiculous counters.

It's the essence of a gacha game.

Maybe the next A!Caineghis or maybe a L!Caineghis will make the character relevant again - at least if you want to play and use him, but... as far as FEH is concerned, no one gaf about Cain, so he might have gotten a refine and yet he'll not get another unit. Forgive him in you want to play PVE content - or roll for new premium units and field him as a cute mascot.

#anon #replies #fe heroes #heroes salt #at this point i'm more invested in heroes to dissect character lines and characterisation #than to play it proper #i forgot 5 days of the last TT #and didn't vote for 2 days in the last CYL event #what is even the point #i vote for the characters i like but seriously what for?#so FEH will care about them? release them in the future?#We will get 5 Hildas before Amalda is released #and by Hilda I mean the one whose family keeps starving children as servants

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ilikecheeseandchocolatee · 4 months

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Okay a lot more people than I imagined are on tumblr and criticising the people who are anti ai art. Which is probably the first time im seeing the tumblr user base really buy into capitalism stuff I guess. I’m going to summarise the technical stuff in this post, especially for AI art supporters to read.

Thats not the point. The point is not that AI is stealing the jobs of artists. I don’t know if that was EVER the point but it has never been with me. The point is that the way AI art is made is not only unethical but in certain respects also illegal, but those companies have some legal workarounds.

I dont know if this is a thing in the US but I do Further Maths, and one of my modules is Decision Maths. We learn about algorithms, how to make them, how to interpret them, and so on. And as a young programmer I’ve known about algorithms for a long time before this. Algorithms can be wonderful, they can make long tasks so much simpler, easier, quicker. Basically algorithms can be really smart. But they can’t be creative. Algorithms do not have the ability to be creative. They take take input and give you output based on what they’ve been coded to do, but they cant just think up something completely by themselves – thats not how algorithms work, or are made.

That being said, I need to now talk about how AI art algorithms work. I know a lot of people know about this, or think they know about it, but just for clarification im going to say it anyway. As I already stated, the algorithms don’t “look” at other art (reason: they do not have eyes), and get inspired to “create” art. What they CAN do is scan an image of an artwork, and recreate it pixel by pixel, to the last pixel. Basically copying. But thats when there’s one artwork.

The way it functions with its training dataset is, it scrapes all this artwork off the internet, learns to recreate it, identify what certain groups of pixels signify, and when its given a prompt? It spits out something that is an amalgamation of all those artworks its been trained on. Its not just INSPIRED, its quite literally stitching together pixels from all the artworks to create a brand new one.

Some people argue that this is as good as new, some people argue that its still stealing. I dont have an opinion on this, but I DO want to say that even this should be illegal because of copyright laws. According to those laws, an artist has the copyright to their work as soon as it is finished being made. (I want to state that this is the case for my country, and im not 100% sure about the US and other big places, and also that I specifically looked into this when AI art started kicking off so I’d know my rights.) If anyone else wants to use that artwork, they have to get permission from the artist, and pay a royalty if the artist says so. They’re exempt in some cases though, when the art is used for educational or research purposes and such.

Thats the loophole these companies are using. To make these datasets, theyre claiming its for research into like modern art or something and maybe at one point it was. But now AI art algorithms are using those datasets, and its not non-profit anymore. They ARE making profit out of this, believe me or not. Trying to find work as an artist is already almost impossible but now I keep seeing “artists” out there that offer “AI art” as one of their services. It is not. Nonprofit. Anymore. Even companies aren’t keeping it non-profit, there are premium subscription things that I dont know much about.

“Well IM not using it for profit, I’m just using it for fun!” Yeah I’ve seen that one a lot too. Again I’ll say, that is not the point. Do you remember at the start when it was first kicking off, you’d enter a prompt and it would give you 4 options, asking which one is better? That was also training. Training to look better and better resemble what we want. By making AI art at all, you are helping train those models. You’re helping them get better at mimicking human styles, to the point where its going to get really difficult to differentiate between AI art and human art.

And lastly, this is a personal opinion. Humans created machines to make life easy for themselves, to do all the labour so humans can do what we want. Like art, music, entertainment, whatever. Machines are supposed to do the tedious work and give us time to do the fun things. AI art is literally the opposite of that, its doing the fun part of life so that actual human artists, who now don’t have as many clients but still need to make a living, have to do tedious jobs like retail or other things. Its the literal opposite of the main objective of technology. What’s the point, you ask?

I have an answer to that too, even if its not something I personally like. Yeah, machines are supposed to make life a lot easier. And maybe AI art is doing the opposite for artists, but not the clients. Clients are actually getting art a lot more easily now, they just have to put prompts in. Life is easier for them! So AI art cant be all bad right? Okay yeah maybe. But all of the above still stands.

The solution? Get artists’ permission before using their artwork to train AI art models. Pay them royalties if they want. And let me tell you a lot of artists wont even want that royalty, they just want to have a say. Thats it. It might take more time, but it will be a lot more ethical and a lot more people will be happier. So artists who want to make a living will still make a living, but clients who don’t have the funds will still get easily made art. Everyone wins. Thats what it is with vocaloids as well, the voices used to make those algorithms are voices that have consented to being used. How is it so hard to do the same for visual art?

I guess the answer lies in capitalism. It would definitely take longer for companies to improve their models if they had to take consent from every artist. That would mean it would take longer to make that money. And boy do they want that money. They are willing to do everything to get it, as it is with most big corporations around the world.

That being said, we can break the algorithms they currently have so they can’t be used anymore, it’s not too late. Not yet, but soon it might be. We can “poison” the data being fed to the models, and i do this by using Glaze. Not sponsoring, but I honestly think it’s a great thing. It’s basically a software that masks your art, so it doesn’t look so different to the human eye, but algorithms will see really different things, like for example, if you’ve made an illustration of a cat and put it through Glaze, when AI encounters it it might see a dog. AI doesn’t have eyes. I feel like I need to stress that again and again.

So artists, use Glaze when posting your art online. Others, stop making AI art for the time being. We can still save this. When the data sets are officially poisoned the companies can start over again with the knowledge that we don’t consent to being fucked over. Thanks for reading.

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ciefstatten · 3 months

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My biggest problem rn with those web tools that "help" you with poses for drawing is not only that they only have these very basic and stiff reference models that you can only use in the free version, but the fact that their tools are about 30 years behind on literally any other 3D tool that lets you pose characters. IK rigs? Never heard of her, anyways pay us to get access to the actually good and versatile character ref models, plus hundreds of pre-made poses you will have to use because our posing tools are fundamentally shit and outdated so you will pay for the premium. Do yourself a favour as an artist and download Blender, get MB-Lab's addon, and have fun cuz you now have access to 15 base humanoid models that not only you can pose around with full IK rigs (which essentially make it so you can drag hands and the arms will follow, feet and the legs will follow, drop the hips and the legs will bend), but also you have full freedom to modify, scale, and deform these models as you see fit. There is a whole world of tutorials for Blender now and guess what, you can even sketch and reposition those 2d sketches in 3d space inside of the Blender viewport. If you need anything from props, rough space reference in full 3d or need multiple characters interacting, you can simply download or even model those and add them to your scene! There are so many free models out there a google away on Sketchfab and other places. This is a quick post about all the stuff you can do with Blender as a 2d artist because I saw my partner struggling with those """free""" pose ref sites and got really angry that they're not even good tools, but still prey on artists who don't know any better to pay for slightly less mediocre tools. Feel free to reblog with more info!

#drawing #art tools #art resources #art ref #meta post #pose reference #3d art #2d art #mixed media #text

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iverna · 1 year

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Tbh I have a suspicion that the Redbubble thing is at least partly due to the AI "art" influx. They've introduced "tiers" now, where most accounts are "Standard", meaning you're charged an extra flat fee if you make any sales. "Premium" and "Pro" accounts don't pay that fee. The criteria for what tier you get classed at seem kind of vague from everything I've seen. So is the flat fee.

Almost all new accounts are "Standard" by default, and afaik most existing accounts have been classified as that too. From what I can tell, basically the people who are already not making any/a lot of money are being charged extra. Which is very unfair. "You make less money so we're charging you more." Welcome to capitalism.

I'm just guessing at the reasoning behind the change, and to me, it only makes sense to do this if you're trying to drive those people off your platform. They want a smaller group of artists who make more sales, they want the overall "look" of Redbubble to be more exclusive, less cluttered with low-effort designs, photomanips using copyrighted pics, stolen art, etc. And it's true that Redbubble is overrun with that stuff.

That's not to say all "Standard" accounts are like that, they're not. But it's not like RB loses a lot if some legitimate artists get caught up in the filter and end up leaving, if they weren't making many sales, so RB has no reason to care. And after all, if you're serious about your RB shop (lol) you can work your way up to one of the other tiers. Probably.

I imagine RB has crunched the numbers here and realised they can save money or increase their profits by charging "Standard" accounts more, and either driving them off the platform thereby increasing the overall value of the platform, or taking more of their money to make up for the "cost" in value. I don't know. Again, this is just my guess at their motivation.

With the rise in AI "art" especially, there's an influx all over the print-on-demand sphere. It's on Etsy too. People upload their AI-generated pictures to a POD service and sit back and wait for the money to come in. And the money never comes in because no one's buying their crap and they're not even promoting it or making any actual effort. For the POD companies it's a waste of bandwidth and other resources. You've got all these people with accounts that you have to go through for payouts, and most of them never or rarely have anything to be paid, but you're still having to maintain all those accounts.

So it's not surprising that they want to discourage that. It just really, really sucks that once again, legitimate artists are feeling the consequences.

#redbubble #no idea how this'll play out for them tbh #just guessing at what their goals are with this #my opinion

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Now there are more questions in my mind!Why are BTS being pursued by their parents about what career decision they should take?And why that ministry visited Jimin's father and not Jungkook's father?Was there a prior connection there like being friends in personal life? I will not get ahead of myself and swear on Jimin and his father's innocence. But I will give them the benefit of doubt. Corruption and hiding it using seasonal charity is used by most closeted corrupt people so if Jimin is doing it,he will not be the first one in the universe to do it. It's easy to cry defamation and libel when you have money and specially if there is corruption to hide. But there is also a possibility that these are baseless accusations .I guess I cannot reach a conclusion just hearing someone else's opinion.However this now has my interest .I find it abnormal why BTS' parents are dictating or expressing wishes about their sons' careers to their sons so that they fulfil them.

This is borderline anti behavior. Allow me to set you straight here:

Jimin's father was approached by a representative of the government at his public business, was a good host to that person and heard him out, talked about the benefits of the expo for his city, and relayed the message to those involved. You can find this information by googling articles from legitimate news sources.

Nowhere in a legitimate source is it implied that he or JK's father pressured or dictated anything to their sons and it's really concerning your mind would immediately leap there (where the antis are barking). The entertainment industry relies heavily on networking. Even our own White House uses entertainers to relay important messages and drum up support for initiatives (see: Elvis, Johnny Cash, Beyoncé, and BTS).

BTS made the decision to be ambassadors for the expo because it worked for them. No one forces BTS to do anything. The current (conservative) President of the country asked them to perform at his inauguration and they flat-out refused. They always have right of refusal. There is no scandal here.

You don't need to swear on anyone's innocence or guilt. You need to review facts from reputable sources and form an opinion based on careful review of all evidence.

Jimin and his father never breathed a word about their charitable giving. The CHARITIES chose to highlight their involvement and thank them (it's called donor stewardship and it's best practice unless the donor insists on absolute anonymity).

Jimin has never done anything scandalous. He played a forehead-flicking game with a girl at a pub in Paris and he didn't know to pay his insurance premiums because he didn't get his mail, and the SHITSTORM the media caused about these two innocent incidences is disgusting. So when you write "there's a possibility that these are baseless accusations" instead of "there's a possibility these baseless accusations may be true" it lets me know you are already biased to believe the worst.

The GLEE I'm reading from your tone is most concerning--like you're super excited to have a bit of juicy gossip, here. Parents and children in every culture discuss kids' careers and business opportunities--it's normal. Jimin's father is the kind of father who drove his kid to dance practice every day for years even though he wanted him to be a scientist, called his kid every month and brought him food for the whole team during idol training, gives his son flowers and a handwritten note every birthday, texts him encouragement before big concerts, proudly displays his photos and merch and plays his music at his business (even before BTS got famous), and never hesitates to speak well of his son to customers or anyone who will listen. I find it abnormal that you doubt their relationship and integrity--that's really more character revealing of you.

Please check yourself.

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Hu Tao Harasses you With Funeral Advertisements

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→ ABOUT / As your s/o Childe exits your house in Liyue, a girl from Wangsheng Funeral Parlor approaches you with a promotion.

→ DEMOGRAPHIC / gn ! reader

→ CW / hu tao + minor fluff

→ EXTRA / I was going to write this a few days ago but then foot stuff happened and well here we are

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Childe hugs you as he leaves the premise; you watch him go off into the distance down the streets of Liyue on a trip for ingredients.

Relaxing, you sit back down on your porch, rocking in an old wooden chair and reading the latest on the newspaper; Ningguang is committing tax evasion again? Who would've guessed.

From your field of vision you see a short girl with dark purple hair strut her way over to your porch, holding a stack of flyers. Her outfit was black, with red flowers and fancy robes, smiling brightly; brighter than the lanterns of Liyue.

Still grinning, she walks up to you, and holds out a flyer. "Hu Tao here from Wangsheng Funeral Parlor; I have a proposal, if you have the time," she twirled once, awaiting your response.

"I'm not interested," you sigh, scanning over the flyer once before going back to reading the newspaper.

"Hang on buster, I'm not done promoting our service yet," she held up one of her own flyers, putting her finger under the line which said Pre-Order a Funeral Today for 50% Off . "Now's your once-in-a-lifetime (literally) chance to get 50% off your funeral when that day comes around; you never know, you could die tomorrow of all times and you won't be prepared for your buria-"

"I said I'm not interested," you scoff, staring her dead in the eyes.

"Well, I know just what can up this offer," Hu Tao grabbed an album out of the bag she was hauling with her. Flipping it open to about halfway through, she pulled out a fine printed drawing of a casket, a bit bigger than your typical model. "Order within the next 24 hours, and you can have this premium, tip-top quality casket, made with Inazuman wood and made by Mr. Zhongli himself. You've gotta' buy it--I mean, come on. Who wouldn't want Mr. Zhongli to put together your casket with his mystical hands- sorry, I'm getting off topic," she was still smiling, convinced you'd take her up on this offer.

"I have a boyfriend already," you sigh. "If you think putting some conventionally attractive businessman in your promotional material is going to sway me, you're sorely mistaken."

"Well well, is that not enough then still? I didn't want to have to do this, but," Hu Tao put back the album, this time pulling out a tattered portrait of a fine man with a moustache. "For free, with your purchase, I'll subcontract this world-renowned embalmer to help preserve your body right from the day you die. Let's be real, who would want to look at a gross rotting corpse at your grand funeral in a few decades?"

"Stop being so morbid, I'm not planning on dying anytime soon."

"We can change that rather quickly," Hu Tao's expression instantly changed, being even more morbid than before. Cracking her knuckles, and laughing almost manically, you now felt intimidated by her mere presence. "So, about that purchase?"

Frantically, you reach your hand out. "Please, let's get this over with."

Hu Tao handed you a pen and a document, on which you signed your name at the bottom without even reading it through; big mistake.

"Well, oopsies- that was the contract for a full-price service, without the benefits. That's a shame, though, I best be off now. You can keep the flyer," as if she was trying to get out of there as fast as possible, Hu Tao essentially sprinted away from the scene, out of sight from anyone.

What an interesting situation you found yourself in. Childe would be concerned as to how this happened, however, he could definitely pay for all of the costs.

LATER ✨

"Did you find everything?" You ask Childe, as he walks back in your home together, carrying several bags full of fresh goods from the market.

"I did," he smiled, setting the bags down to hold your hand. "Anything exciting happen while I was gone?"

You sigh, "I signed an expensive contract for my funeral when I eventually die. I'm not sure what I was thinking."

He doesn't even look surprised, and just sighs. "It's okay, I can pay for that," releasing from the tension regarding your encounter with Hu Tao, you enjoy the rest of your night with him, cooking and having a good rest.

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Jailhouse Rock

'Went to a party in the county jail

had an orange cellmate who couldn't make bail.

Sent out a request, asking for some money

So he could avoid being another con's honey.

Let's Rock!'

Donald, Donald, Donald. I had promised myself not to write another blog about you, but when you are searching for gold dust in the mountains and a large nugget rolls past you have to pick it up and run with it. Carpe Diem. (For those of you who were never an altar boy or didn't study Latin in school this does not mean go buy fish for ten cents.)

The Donald is angry. So angry in fact that his first thoughts upon being indicted were 'how can I make money from this? Guess what, he is. Regardless of what you think of him you have to admit he knows how to play people and pull cash out of their wallets. He could have been a very successful TV evangelist.

It's not that he won't need money. Au contraire. (wow. Three languages in one blog) Things can get pretty expensive for him where he should be going. I have taken the time to put together some of the expenses he will be facing, making cash a premium.

Conjugal visits. Based on his history this will cost him $130,000 per visit. That is for his satisfaction. If he wants to satisfy the other cellmates he can do that for free.

As an ex-president he has to have around the clock secret service people with him. He is not sure if he has to cover the cost personally for their lodgings but he figures $20 million should cover it.

To avoid head lice he will need to see a prison barber on a regular basis. I am quite positive that will also require some hush money.

Now that she is free I can see Melania running up his credit cards quite a bit.

Uber Eats and Skip the dishes will be charging a premium to get him his fix on KFC and McDonald's into the facility.

I doubt the commissary will be carrying orange dye #8 so he will need to bring in a lifetime supply.

He is accustomed to getting free pillows from that My Pillow guy and that well will run dry.

Finally, with no health care in the states he will have to pay for numerous surgeries to have all those Republican heads removed from his butt.

I am hoping he doesn't do anything stupid again so that I can go back to ignoring him but I somehow doubt that very much.

THOUGHT OF THE WEEK: To quote the theme from Barretta: 'Don't do the crime if you can't do the time...'

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WWE Summerslam 2022 - Quickfire Thoughts and Reaction

A new era has begun in WWE, Triple H is back in the creative chair and has promised some shakeups

While Raw and Smackdowns have taken place since, this is the first true event where the McMahon-Helmsley era of WWE ownership begins. Let's see how it goes

Spoilers for the PPV

Kickoff

I'll be honest, I didn't watch the Kickoff, I scrubbed through the video and since there were 0 matches again, I didn't bother.

Main Card

Ah they're still calling it a 'premium live event'?

Those sound like peppered boos from Becky and is that an Alundra Blayze-themed attire?

Commentary noting that Becky went through a full on losing streak only to win 2 matches and get a title shot does expose the poor booking choice though

Bianca doing a blue chaps attire for hometown Nashville

No quickfire squash for this one, thankfully

I also want to take this moment to say Fuck Kevin Dunn for attempting to derail Becky and others from getting tv time and pushes simply because he didn't get a hard on for them. This is meant to be a wrestling show, and Becky is beautiful anyway

Becky whipping out Diamond Dust now? Love seeing wrestlers whip out a new move

That Manhandle Slam sell was great too, completely folded

Super Spanish Fly and KOD wins it for Bianca. It was a good match, strong opener, not better than their Mania show stealer but that is a high bar

And a handshake hints at a face turn maybe? Would be overdue because the crowd reaction has always been strong for Becky even as a heel

But now Bayley is back! And she brought Io and Kota!!!

Trips making a statement; 3 big Black and Gold NXT names back (long overdue callups too because 2.0 was not working for them), women's opener and the hometown girl wins.

I will have to wonder though, because all 3 women deserve to be world champion and there's only 2 main roster titles, unless Trips intend to bring back Black and Gold. I guess they could reignite the women's tag titles but I feel like Trips would want Sasha and Naomi back as a priority

Ha, Logan Paul didn't get cheered even against Miz XD Didn't even get new attire

Camera is getting over the top again

Is, Paul selling the Figure Four he has locked in? He kept shooting back like he had been poked in the eye

Ciampa is about to get ejected (effectively by being caught on the apron) but refuses so AJ's music plays to blindside him

Table spot to try and pop the crowd, very Shane McMahon move

Maryse is caught on the apron: doesn't get ejected

Paul wins via Skull Crushing Finale from dodging being hit by a...polaroid? It was, fine, kinda by the numbers aside from two moonsaults, I don't care for it really

Didn't care for the Maximum Male Models ad put right in between a Brock and Reigns package...

No love for Theory, still

Ash yes, because nothing says USA like Leeds United FC

Briefcase attack pre-match for heat and to imply doubt

Match was pretty short really, Lashley missed the spear, so Theory tried to do a rolling Cutter but got Gorilla Pressed into the Hurt Lock. Didn't need to be there, but I guess tapping quickly is Theory's plan for staying fresh for the main event

Hmmm, more 2 day Manias, who was the one who didn't want it again?

I don't agree with Road Dogg on a lot of things, but I do agree that WWE book Rey as a terrible babyface; he never wins the feud even when it's personal, most of his wins involve interference or cheating and he approves matches like this knowing Rhea will get involved

Also McDonalds colours is not it guys

It's No DQ why are there still legal tags?

Rhea please you're too beautiful to make me pay attention to the match

Rey is 47 remember, he's still this good and deserves more. I hope before he retires (a sad day that'll be) he has a Liger-esque tour of dream matches across all promotions

Edgy Edge comes back mid-match, spearing the JDs to set up a 619 after Rhea thwarted it

Surprised but not mad that the Mysterios won, but it did feel like they were just props for Edge's return, the No DQ format was barely even used too

Owens will for sure benefit from Trips' booking

The Joker even showed up to Summerslam

Couldn't get Seven Nation Army again I see

Reminder that including this, McAfee has had only 2 more matches than Logan Paul and two happened on the same night

Ugh, Ref Bump leads to McAfee low blowing Corbin and then a Code Red

I must admit it still smarts me that there are full time wrestlers booked worse than a commentator

Drew came out to promote Clash at the Castle, it was a good promo tbf, Drew's a great Babyface

Can't do a PPV in an American Football stadium without using their cheerleaders

Those holograms were not in sync

Ha! 'You lose, you go to the bottom of the ladder' is one hell of a lie

The pop-up neckbreaker was a nice move

Tezzy don't do it

*sigh* Welp, Profits lost AGAIN, credit to Jarrett calling it down the middle but it does defeat the drama of having a special guest ref. Didn't get any post-match or heel turn either

So now I ask again, what do we do with the tag division? There's not a Babyface team out there that's able to beat the Usos now, Mysterios are feuding with JD with Edge and New Day are feuding with the Viking Raiders

And we're bringing Charlotte back with a package reminding how much WWE has overpushed her

That is 1000000 times less Kid Rock than I ever needed to see...

Riddle's here too calling out Seth despite not being cleared

Seth comes out, brawls and stomps Riddle before leaving, asking the question why?

Ronda's mascara job is another miss

Liv getting the bigger pop than Ronda still

What. Was That? Let's not ignore the fact that bell to bell that was 4 and a half minutes long, but this was basically Liv being squashed and having a dusty win by the fact that she tapped out (before 3 as well) while pinning Ronda who had her in an armbar just to spare Rousey's blushes

Was this really to turn Ronda heel? Attacking Liv and the Ref, because we made Liv look so damn weak for no reason but to keep Rousey looking strong. It's always the same kind of defeat with her too

Ugh, Mayor of Knox County

Really stretching their 'first time evers' by saying it's the first Last Man Standing Match of Summerslam

Start the main event with a promo, okay

Lesnar here with a tractor that apparently Roman never saw when coming down the ramp

Judy Bagwell thanking her lucky stars she isn't on that thing, but it reminds me of Lesnar vs Big Show's stretcher match, right down to diving off the vehicle

This was just a squash trade to start, Brock beat down Roman using the steps and barricade, then Roman beat down Brock with table bumps, then Brock beats down Roman with steps and the table fragments

After dropping him out of a tractor, Brock beat him down some more, Reigns got the Guillotine but then Brock got the Kimura, since Reigns got up he upends the entire ring with the tractor

Usos finally get involved, Heyman takes a table bump and Brock gets speared

And out comes Theory...he hits Roman with the briefcase but then gets F-5'd

Brock survives a double superkick and gets speared again, survives that so Roman beats him with the briefcase, survives some more, belt shot, survives again...this isn't dramatic

Hey now you can't start a count while the guy is still being attacked, that's a rule of the match, another belt shot and the bloodline bury Brock under furniture to 'win'

Chaotic? Yes, Good? Not sure about it, don't think I was captivated by it, just felt like they were doing big spots for the sake of it

Theory's still MITB holder too don't forget about that

Conclusion

So, Summerslam. Triple H's new vision looks to have some foundation, but it needs work still.

The opener was great, we've set up a new faction full of incredibly talented women, one I hope will be a cross-brand faction so all three can have their touch of gold (admittedly I would've brought Bayley to confront Liv rather than Bianca because SD's women's division is the one lacking depth). We also have Becky turning face which is overdue.

Despite this though, the rest of the show was fine to baffling. Don't care for Paul so the match weren't for me, Lashley match didn't need to be there either, the Mysterios got a surprise win because Edge came back (I guess Rhea vs Bianca will have to wait) which is kinda nice but also, Rey's first main card PPV win since May 2021 (if you include kickoff show then it's first since February) is due to interference, we celebrated 20 years since his debut this week. I guess Pat winning was fine too.

But the rest of the card is just muddled; Tag division is a mess, we shorthanded the SD Women's championship match to 4 and a half minutes (reminder that AEW's women's division got flack for having a 10 minute women's title match with a challenger who had beaten the champion earlier) and our finale was a mess.

Overall, good start but shoddy booking petered the show out, there's some positives to take but a lot of negatives still present from the old era. Rome, however, was not built in a day.

Results and Predictions

Bianca Belair (c) def. Becky Lynch - Pinfall via KOD Logan Paul def. The Miz (w/Maryse & Ciampa) - Pinfall via Skull-Crushing Finale Bobby Lashley (c) def. Theory - Submission via Hurt Lock The Mysterios def. Judgement Day - Pinfall on Priest by Rey via Splash Pat McAfee def. Happy Corbin - Pinfall via Code Red The Usos (c) def. Street Profits - Pinfall on Dawkins by Jimmy via 1-D Liv Morgan (c) def.? Ronda Rousey - Pinfall* [*Liv tapped to Ronda's Armbar before 3 but ref didn't see] Roman Reigns (c) (w/The Usos & Paul Heyman) def. Brock Lesnar - Lesnar does not answer the 10 count

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🤡😈🎶 for the fic writer asks and 4, 19, and 31 for the OC asks! ^^

🤡 - What's a line, scene or exchange you've written that made you laugh?

Honestly there's three main ones that come to mind and I was so disappointed that none of them got attention from readers, although I guess that just tells me that my sense of humour isn't very good.

Two of them are from my P5R Chat fic, the first one being the group talking about Goro giving Ren his phone number after the interview where Ren says the Thieves do more than the cops and everyone laughing at Goro with Futaba jokingly saying "Oh shit, this guy called a loser on national TV, I have to slide into those DMs"

The other P5R Chat fic one is from the showbiz chat (between Goro, Ann, Sumire and Hifumi) and they're talking about all the interviews Goro used to do and how often he'd be asked about his type of woman when, in this fic, Goro is gay. So he remarks about "What was I supposed to say? 'What do you look for in a woman?' I don't. I look elsewhere."

And the last one was from my Gorotaba siblings fic where Futaba is teasing Goro over text about his crush on Ren and how he won't admit it, so she sends a link and says it's Goro and I actually put a link in the fic and it sends you to a YouTube video of I Won't Say I'm In Love from Hercules.

Explaining these jokes here suddenly makes them not seem funny anymore and now I'm just embarrassed. Also, I've noticed that all three examples are me teasing Goro. I love this boy, but I love teasing him even more.

😈 - Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

I never really write sad stuff to be mean. Mostly I just have a sad idea, it makes me sad and I realise it would work really well so I write it and sometimes it comes out sadder than I first thought. For example, For The Best was the first fic that made me cry while writing it and that caught me completely off guard.

However, I will admit, I did add in some extra scenes in the flashback section of Someone I Used To Know just because it would make it more painful and while, yes I was grinning when the idea hit me, I don't consider it playfully mean because I was hurting myself too.

🎶 - Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

I'm stuck on my phone so listening to music is pretty much the only thing I can do while writing because fuck you I'm not paying for YouTube premium even though it would really help me focus because for some reason hearing people talking instead of music helps me focus more.

And unfortunately, I'm stuck listening to the same songs on repeat and have been for months because my phone's music app is weird and randomly deleted a bunch of songs and won't let me get more. No, I don't know how to fix it. And yes, being stuck with the same 200 songs on repeat for the past... Half a year? Has been driving me to insanity, thanks for asking.

Don't even suggest using Spotify because I am a grandma in a 22 year old's body and I have no fucking clue how to use technology.

4 - A character you rarely talk about

Unfortunately, that's most of them... Especially since certain ones get a lot more attention than others. But it's mostly the ones with personalities I find difficult to write... So usually the serious, responsible members of the group because chaos is way easier to write.

19 - Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)

Honestly? Probably Sora. Because I made them after realising I was non-binary so they're my first OC who doesn't fall within the gender binary (They're genderfluid) and I basically made their personality just a free spirit like they're cheeky, they're loud, they're confident, they're unapologetic. They're basically everything I wish I was. Except for their fashion sense, I deliberately made their fashion sense terrible to make them more endearing and funny... And to piss off Kenji, who is extremely fashion conscious.

31 - Pick one OC of yours and explain what their Tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

Oh god, describing things has always been the thing I'm worst at... I dunno... I guess Aki? His blog would be full of pictures of him skating, his friends, food he really enjoyed and random rants about whatever series he's watching at the time??? And I don't even know the first thing about layouts... I meant it when I said I was useless with technology, okay?

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I'm gonna vent again because I just keep falling into it.

Every day is the same day, but I go to work and resort to making home my blueprint, trying to find a way out. Once I get my current writings done then I'll feel at some sort of peace with having tried. But every day I come home and I go straight for the shower and my dad goes "Who's there?" or something stupid and I get tired of it because it's every damn day and you still don't get the routine? Yeah, it's me, get over it, I'm half naked already by the time it takes you to notice.

I don't say hi because it's like I never left, I live here for gosh sake, it's not like they're gonna throw me a party, it's not like I have any news or conversation, we don't eat with each other or have those pass the salt moments, you saw me 3 hours ago for lunch. But because I didn't fake anything and just said "yeah" my dad thinks he's looking into it and says "well that was a sad yeah." or something along those lines. "Yeah, it's nothing. I don't know what you want." and he digs deeper and he asks if I'm mad. Of course, I wasn't mad before this but pointing it out does indeed make me mad because it reminds me that "oh yeah, there is something going on and I can't do anything to stop it." He pries and has the balls to ask for money all in the same breadth and I just say to leave me alone for a while so I can get over it.

I shower, eat, play a game to get it out, my dad seemed to drop it and show me his plane jpg that he saved on his computer that he was excited about and all isn't so bad...then he comes back and he does that ear grating knock, I don't know how to describe it but you know exactly what it is, it's a classic tune of pop goes the weasel or something I don't know. But I turn because I already know who does that knock and I already know this situation is about to be brought up again. It was.

The thing about someone talking about being angry is that it's not just me having a conversation with you, it's me having a conversation with myself and you at the same time which turns into an internal fight that goes beyond our conversation and I try to decide how to mediate it. "Fighting myself, I always lose" but he says that he has a suggestion and it's a kicker. Whether I considered online dating. And I was like- "yeah". I didn't clarify that I tried very nearly every site without paying and ended up deleting them all because they sucked. Here's just one of them. It wasn't really the way I wanted to go about it anyway, it was more to experience what it was but he ticked that "since I don't go out and do anything." uh, yeah, I just said that and complained that that's part of what's wrong with me and said I don't have enough money to do anything like that to which you responded to give you money. So he says that I'm getting in my own way.

What do you want from me? Now I'm all unsettled again. I flicked it off and said that I didn't want to talk about it. I didn't want to explain my love struggles or what I really think. I've considered getting a therapist but insurance is a fraud anyway, I don't even know why I have it if I still need-

So I guess premiums don't count? I get all my pills at a discounted price ($60 a bottle which isn't great but better than list 325) so it was either 11+ bottles of pills to finally hit the mark or use the coupon, I couldn't do both apparently to make it count. You see why I get so worked up? That 125 is actually the therapy charge that was supposed to be free for the first visit...I reported it as fraudulent on my card so it might not even stay there. Shouldn't I get rewarded for not getting hurt? Like wtf. Next you're gonna tell me that people in my area are getting hurt more often so my rates have gone up. The therapist wasn't very helpful either, I might've talked about it already, I don't know. Therapy would be a perfect excuse to build up that deductible but-3700 could be used towards so much, I just can't submit to subscribe to anything.

I saw Scrooge McDuck saying that money shouldn't be dormant, it needs to circulate and that's true if everyone does it and I like that theory but where can I put it to work? Where can I spend to make? I don't like gambling and that's basically stocks so...I'm not sure what specifics he had in mind.

#ay yi yi #my favorite line right now #fighting myself #dad #today #angry

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stardustbythepocketful · 3 months

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Name ; Ethan Fisher Nicknames: n/a Fandom ; The Summer I Turned Pretty / OBX Faceclaim ; Chase Stokes Trigger warnings ; n/a

✰ 18-28. heterosexual / heteroromantic. kook. high school student graduate, currently in college studying programing

✰ gender male. pronouns he / him hair light brown to blonde . eyes blue. height 6'1”. species human. languages english, html coding

✰ parents Gabriel Fisher , Michelle Fisher siblings John B Routledge ( verse dependent ) , Bailey Routledge ( verse dependent )

Personality:

+ : Ethan is an easily going guy, always up for a laugh. While he isn't one to go out and party he will usually attend if his cousins, Conrad and Jeremiah are in tow. He likes problem solving and figuring out how things work at their core. He's a good student and focused. When it comes to his love life he can be a bit of a romantic, but also a tad goofy. - : Impatient sometimes, wanting results then and there. Has been called a 'total bummer' to hang out with on his bad days.

♡ - computers, games, the beach, summer, hanging out with his cousins, his aunt Susannah because she is awesome, surfing or at least learning how to do so. A couple of sports of his choice like volleyball and hockey. ✗- his uncle Adam, those who don't tell him what they want and would rather dance around it. Commercials on spotify, but he doesn't want to pay for premium, people who hold loud conversations on their cellphone in public.

Background:

He knows he's adopted, but that never stopped him from loving his parents as much as he does. Besides, with his looks he almost blends right in to it without second guessing. He gets along wonderful with his parents and his aunt Susannah that he adores so much. She's a cheerleader for all that he does, and his cousins are his best friends who he looks after like brothers.

A lot of summers he's spent with other friends and family, but he got to see them around the holidays. But now his summers are being spent at the infamous house getting to know the family friends he's never had a chance to meet before.

Trying to survive school he is trying to primarily put his focus into his studies as he hopes to maybe one day he can help improve the world with one code at a time. Until then though he knows he's still young and, well, a little fun has to happen every now and again right?

Additional Info :

• has cheated on a girlfriend and has been cheated on. He was young. The 'once a cheater always a cheater' does not apply. • He's built his own computers from the ground up since he was 12. • His favorite sport to watch and play is hockey. • Was voted most likely to become president in 10th grade. He doesn't really have that ambition. • •

Verses:

OBX : in this verse, Ethan is the twin brother to John B who was given up for adoption , getting what they would call the 'kook' life, opposite of what his brother knew. Becauses of this there is a hint of a strain on the relationship they could possibly have.

#fandom : tsitp #bio : ethan fisher

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incarnateirony · 4 months

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KDJHFKSDJFSKDJF THIS IS THE THIRD DAY IN THE ROW MY BOSS CAME IN TO "LEAVE A MESSAGE" DROPPING IMAGES OF THE FLASH. IM ON THE WALL IM ON THE FLOOR IM ON THE OCTOPATH TRAVELLER TOUR

honestly I shouldn't be surprised, it's all psychology and psychiatry up in here. It's basically the modern church-and-acts-of-hermeticism, science edition, but I'd bet good money there's others in the walls just like me here behind the phds.

Yeah shea. Imagine that. An actual path with an actual job and an actual methodology for actual works with actual results that actually aligns with my deity. I guess technically you might fall under Markets And Thieves, but I don't think that's what you're going for or airing at and it didn't work great for you with the cryptoscammer so, no? He just don't like your ass, tbh. Like, you're too stupid to be a real thief he'd honor, literally. You're not sharp enough. You have the street smarts of my central AC. You stole a joke, to then label yourself as one. Excellent work. Yeah he covered that domain for you 23 years early to tee you up for that fucking shot, oh my god.

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"I love you" "HUH?" "I love you." "?!??!?!?!" // "Hey, what did that mean?" "Oh, it meant, I can't pay you back the money I owe you."

Back at the seaside, the mazoku praises the octopi and Wise Octopus tells him to destroy the humans, but the mazoku says he first wants to eat "hateful octopi." The octopi are devastated to hear that their "protector" will eat them so readily.

and no, Shea. No, we won't stop. We gave you three years to stop. You have one very easy way to make it stop and you refuse, so you can enjoy three years in return, if you aren't killed by the karma first. Or your own conscience and awareness and whatever you have on hand. How you haven't already died of embarrassment, I'll never understand.

No, we're not joking. Technically, we're allowed nine years with you now. Well technically we're allowed infinity with you because you signed yourself over to your obsession and thievery but potato potato. This is that motherfucking attention you wanted so goddamn bad for three years. How do you like it?

Like there's two options here. Move on. Let Go. Stop replicating us. Stop stalking us and admit the truth including unassigning a joke that doesn't belong to you (and thus even freeing yourself from the contract you unwittingly signed), or basically go through this cycle of saving a joke to be a joke to die for a joke, ultimately, to try to temporarily spare yourself from the consequences of your own actions to the sheep you have led astray. And let a millstone be hung around the neck of he who misleads the little ones. Days, weeks, years. When and how you end it is really up to you. Well, that or the timer he set, but we'll cross that bridge when we get to it.

It's the afterlife bridge, Shea. Stop fucking around. Because so help him Him, he will bring a himdamn forklift to bring you over that bridge at this rate. Maybe a construction team, have the guys tip the bridge pylons a little bit so they can just roll you in.

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lauvra · 9 months

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I've been reading a Camus biography, he'd intended the most mature of his work be produced between 1960 and '65 but in early January of 1960 he died in a car accident. It sends a shiver down my spine, his last incomplete manuscript found in a box nearby the wreckage. His daughter published the unfinished work thirty-five years later. The day after reading I found a copy of The Last Man in that magical used book store. It was still there today so I took it. I tell the attendant I'm not sure how I'd feel about all that. Guess I'd be dead. I pile it with a book I once ordered online that never arrived; Bob Dylan's 'Writings and Drawings' and a curious book on the science of graphonomy; 'The Hidden Language of your Handwriting.' As much as possible I avoid showing mine, having long sensed it's revelatory nature: Horrible. I almost forgot to mention the virgin to the magical book store, a tall man with a stutter. God I love a stutter, in a deep way and I wish it were polite to point out the elephant in the room sometimes especially when it's to compliment the elephant. I'd likely be chastised for the fetishization of an impediment. Would pay premium to hear him attempt that sentence. On Sydney rd. passing by the 'PAINT THE TOWN RED' posters in bloody fascist text, pasted over by the smaller posters of anti-racist organisers I began to feel a little self-conscious in my bright red boob-tube. Founded by X in 'XX reminiscent of X, if you like X then you'll love X! Sludge tones, violent / ambient, ambassador of X. X King of late night drone. 100 total pressed. Scottish Black Metal; 'cause why not? Brutal! $45. Having finished in the experimental section, I finger through the crates of Metal vinyl, mostly LP's. I'm having a temporary aneurysm over prices, forgetting LP means Long-Playing. I'm only here because the tobacco shop is closed and I'd decided to indulge a secret other futile mission on prior request of someone who'll probably never speak to me again. I leave a quarter of the vinyls unexamined when someone moves to stand opposite and I can no longer control the pursing of my lips. It's this nervous thing I do. My lips are the first to betray me when I'm feeling shy, I might look mean. I call it resting fish-face. I suck them in 'til they disappear, bite them, become aware of my saliva production and in doing so produce too much more. If I opened my mouth I might just drool all down my front, then I'd have to wink at the person opposite me. It's easier to leave. Small mouth, Great blow jobs. "M'sorwy." While squinting into the lamp, a mouthful of Dentist's hands, I'm assured it's a good thing and respond with a grateful gurgle. I was about to pass the tobacconist again but the OPEN sign was now up instead so I pushed my way in. "Did you leave the painting outside?" B holds up a landscape picture as I honestly deny any involvement and assert that if I left one it'd be dripping in bloody aerosol. I realise I'm now pretty comfortable lingering like I fucking live here but I'm hardly intent on furnishing the place. After our D&M about drinking, someone else enters and I make my way out, balancing my haul. I'm still having what Jack described earlier as a literary boner (at which point Caine thoughtfully examined my crotch) when I saunter dutifully into my last op shop and warmly meet the attendants eyes. They're all she'll reveal outside of home. On the back shelf beneath books I judge poorly by their covers, I discover another translation of Paradiso. There's no price so the attendant who has by now locked the door suggests "a couple dollars?" I have a fiver and tell her to keep it. Neither in a careless nor charitable fashion but like, a couple dollars didn't feel right plus she was unsure and I know I'd have spent 12 at the other place anyway... P.S. was it fascism or just a misunderstood Doja poster? thoughts and prayers…

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