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thatswhatsushesaid · 4 months

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psa that the day there are no jgy stans left on tumblr dot com is the day i am dead

but rest assured i'll go to my grave exactly as i lived: obnoxiously proclaiming to everyone within earshot how great lianfang-zun is. narratively, metaphorically, spiritually. sexually, too, like why limit myself. i like to keep my options open

#the spirit of su minshan possessed me for a minute there but like. i'm fine with it #jin guangyao #he did crimes??? good for him 😌#editing this post to add that while the tone here is clearly joking #i really am fundamentally still engaged with this fandom #and with this book #almost exlcusively because of my enjoyment of jgy #even xiyao is secondary for me like i love it and i'm ride or die for it obvs #but jgy as a character is the main draw for me. and he would have me by the throat even if there was no zewu-jun #(tho i think jgy's life would be more depressing for his absence obviously)#but he is just. /clenches my fists!!!#THE most compelling character in the story and i cannot stop thinking about him!! cannot will not!!#who else in this book has his range? who else can be the doe-eyed idealist AND the spy with blood on his hands who ends a war?#who else is two different greek tragedies and at least two separate shakespearean tragedies rolled into one antagonist #an antagonist who but for the POV of the novel could very easily have been the protagonist #whose moral event horizon is so deeply entwined with his own trauma and abuse that there is no way to meaningfully separate #the violence he does to others from the systemic violence that was done to him for his whole life?#who else in this book manages to get five separate sect leaders utterly obsessed with him no matter how you choose #to interpret that obsession?#no one!!! that's who!!#ain't no one else in the jianghu doing it like lianfang-zun and that's just a goddamn fact

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puppyeared · 10 months

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Pokeymon

@ask-willowleafeon @ask-shiny-umbreon

#fuckkkk pokeask nostalgia got me by the throat. I can’t do this again Im not strong enough (does it anyway)#drawing eeveelutions is always fun Theyre so shaped. theyre up there on fav pokemon to draw right next to dratini. and maybe shinx #these two stick out to me in my mind just cause like. their designs are so good it kind of squishes my brain the right ways #I never got to draw Percy for an ask or anything but he is. very creature #and willow of course I have a soft spot for. shes so sweet and gentle uuhghhgghhhh I love her #fuck dude .maybe I will come back adhd be damned. I dont fuckin know. really tempting rn #I tell myself that but deep down I know I suck at roleplay. but maybe I’ll do it. but I suck at roleplay. etc #btw leafeon should be allowed to be autumn coloured without being shiny. it would fix me. I just want Some Guy dressed like a maple leaf #without the awe of being a 1/1000 chance. I don’t CAREEEEE gimme the crunchy red leaveeeesss #I also wanna draw Gardevoir with a barn owl face. and leafeon with seaweed leaves #aaahhhhggghhhhh clenches my fists #pokemon #pokemon ask blog #pokeask #others oc #ask-willowleafeon #ask-shiny-umbreon #Percy umbreon #willow leafeon #myart #my art #pokemon oc

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moeggoi · 9 months

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"This man would hurl himself in death's way to save you. You are sure of this -- but why?"

#disco elysium #kim disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #trying to extrapolate the study #i'm clenching my fist trying not to start a whole essay in the tags about how much I love kim #acab except kim #the day i finished the game i printed his portrait and tacked it onto the wall #it's really close to the ceiling so it looks like i'm praying when i'm looking at him #I love the way Kim is written #Absolute angel #but he's also incredibly human and flawed #I mean compared to Harry maybe less flawed but just complex #the whole game is so complex #oh god i started to write alright uhh maybe I'll draw Jean next...#he really grew on me after I got my grubby hands into ao3

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bylertruther · 2 years

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listen. i love el and i think she's a fascinating character. we all know this. i am very clear about this. but like. it really is SO crazy how she really came in and, like... fucked will's life up so fucking bad lmao. i know that it wasn't her fault, and i'm not saying it is, but that's just... such an excruciating writing choice.

it was a choice to have her be the one that opened the gate & essentially sliced will's life into an ugly before and after. it was a choice to have her replace him as mike's number one as soon as she came back into their lives. it was a choice to make her the party's mage and then "change" will from being their wizard to their cleric. it was a choice to make her his sister. it was a choice to purposely have her wear his clothes and have the same bangs. it was a choice to have her ignore him on mike's first day in lenora, despite the fact that he was mike's friend, too, and first. it was a choice to make her oblivious to his feelings.

it was a choice to make them love and genuinely care about each other. it was a choice to make her feel like a monster for everything that'd happened and kept happening. it was a choice to make will not resent her. it was a choice to make him support her enough that he's willing to uphold her lies to mike (!!!) of all people with his inaction.

it was a choice to have him spill his heart out to mike and gift him his painting all in her name. to have him be the one to unknowingly make mike finally say "i love you" to her in response to his confession. to have him realize too late that he's been needlessly pushing mike towards her this whole time.

it was a choice to place will right beside mike, his first ever friend and keeper of his heart, when he told el that his life started just as will's ended.

it was... a bold fucking choice to replace will with el in mike's eyes due to outside influence. it throws them into chaos and disarray because el and will are not interchangeable, and it shows in how...

mike seeks from el everything that will already gives him.

mike readily gives will everything that el begs him for.

el cannot read or understand mike in the innate, wordless, and familiar way that will does.

mike cannot be vulnerable with el, but he opens up to will without even needing to be asked.

mike always heeds, trusts, and listens to will, even when they're arguing or going through a rough patch.

mike always knows just how to mend things with will, because he knows exactly what he needs and he doesn't ever hesitate to do and give it. nor does he need anyone to help him with their conflicts either. he just knows.

el is always left waiting for him to do things for her that he's currently doing for will.

will visibly hates and feels uncomfortable lying to mike, but el can do it consistently with ease.

will is the one that loves mike how he truly wants (and needs) to be loved.

will hasn't been able to move on in full, because he was cast out of his own story and demoted to a supporting role behind the new lead.

el hasn't been able to find out who she really is, because she's been thrust into roles that were never meant for her to begin with. she has always been contorted into the shape of whatever others need or want her to be, but they don't fit because they aren't her.

and, like... there are so many things in this story, which is to say the show as a whole, that would not have happened had the men in el's life not done that. had they allowed her to just be, it's highly likely that the dominoes would've never fallen the way they have.

thankfully, the narrative is set up in such a way that it appears this disorder will rectify itself, but it's still so... upsetting to think about lol.

it all boils down to choices: who gets to make them, what choices they have, why they made those choices, and what happens after. that's all the show is: a series of choices, or a lack thereof, and their consequences with some monster mumbo-jumbo sprinkled on top.

#byler #they were so insane for that and the girlies just ate that shit right up!!!!!#like. wow. they literally did not have to fucking do any of that and yet. they did. they did!!!!!!!!!!!! soap opera moment.#will is so crazy insanely strong and good and full of love and hope because if it was me?! girl. god. i am not ur strongest soldier #i would be the most bitter resentful bitch alive srry . i kno she saved their lives n the world but she was also used to bring tht all upon #them and especially will. like. and then she became his sister and saved his life and became his friend and dated the love of his life #that he's known and has been the closest to literally since forever and she's a good person so it's not like he can even hate her. he can't #even if he wanted to even if he tried to because she's just like him in a way and it's just like . [clenches fist]#this trio is jus so juicy....#mine

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anxiously-sidequesting · 6 months

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Not to keep beating dead horses like I so much love to do but I am still completely Flabbergasted and Astonished at how you (Merle Ambrose) could discover the most terrifying fact that a child that is essentially under your care has been indoctrinated into a cult (which, by the way, a process that has taken over the course of years) ((by an agent that has been stationed in a direct position to make it easier to access and manipulate children, that has easily escaped your notice for such a long time)) that worships a nihilistic entity whose ultimate goal is the absolute and total destruction of Everything and Everyone around you, and your one, single, simple-sentenced response to that is to say "Oh, that's a shame. He (Duncan) always was pretty terrible. Hope he gets better someday." And then to move on from those extremely worrying and dangerous bundle of issues permanently without taking any sort of action to protect the vulnerable and make sure nothing like this ever happens again

#i love ambrose as a character but the things he does makes me clench my fists so hard blood circulation gets cut off #the absolute.... lack of care ambrose has for certain things literally render me speechless #and like okay in his uh. in his uh “defense”. there was like. other stuff going on at the time. i get that #like the end of the world for the 7th time yeah there were other things on ambrose's plate #but i dont know how many different ways to put “your children are being manipulated and kidnapped into a cult that means them harm under-#-your nose and it can absolutely happen again“ and make that stick #you... i #that is a horrifying fact to learn and the response is dismissive at BEST #like im not saying ambrose should adopt all 800 children that go to his school or whatever #but like... DO SOMETHING #you have COMPLETE AND UTTER INFLUENCE OVER THE NATIONAL GUARD. DO YOU REMEMBER THAT? USE THAT #send out watch parties! hold stranger danger assemblies! have adults regularly check in with kids! install a curfew! ANY OF THOSE THINGS?#like even if ambrose couldnt single-handedly stop a powerful cult he could at least make an effort.... AN EFFORT #ONE ATTEMPT. TO MAKE SURE ****HIS**** SCHOOL AND STUDENTS ARE SAFE........#and the fact that he says something along the lines of “well duncan was always fucked up” ☹️☹️☹️☹️#this shouldt surprise me fir the man who for 1. some reason refuses to fix the death school #2. does not care about dworgyn or mortis in the least #3. keeps trying to pressure necromancers to change schools #4. kidnapped US from earth and used us.#it really shouldnt but........ but #im gonna say it and idc (/lh) if its unpopular. ambrose should not be in power #he is incompetent at best. he is harmful at worst.#he does NOTHING 99.9% of the time and the one Tuesday where he takes action it makes something worse. he should not be in power #this post is /lh but idk. im a little angry #NOT SERIOUSLY ANGRY BUT CMON MAN. CMON BRO #if the game utilized ambrose's potential more and pointed out how useless/paranoid/rash he can be i would ascend to heaven #i would like literally one person (who isnt a villain) in the game to look at ambrose and say “wow hes kinda fucked up”#THATS THE BARE MINIMUM BUT I WILL ACCEPT THAT I WILL.#kind of unrelated but im kinda mad that the only person to correctly point out how weird ambrose is is morganthe #the murderous tyrant. the person we're not supposed to listen to. because she's evil. she couldnt POSSIBLY be right about Good Guy Ambrose!

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cairafea · 11 months

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little 3am procrastination doodles, good morning shino nation

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akkivee · 3 months

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they activating the gooner in me!!!!!! it’s getting really bad lmao!!!!!!!!!

#this is vee speaking #no one: but don’t already goon for kuukou—#me: SHUT UP #i’ve been trying to not publicise my descent in nakanishi kuukou stanning but he makes it really difficult LOL #his calf muscles sir………………….. s…. ste…………. step—#this pose……………….. this angle………………… t…. tongue………….. anything you want—#read a report he’s been channeling a lot of hirono kuukou in his performances now like the way hirono-san tended to strip #nakanishi-san has occasionally flashed his arms doing his thing lol #i finally found someone talk about jyushi!!!!!! and he apparently is killing it with his insert raps!!!!!!#like the way sakakihara-san tearfully sang kaigen during bat live day 2 is the energy sakayori jyushi has rapping about his bullies #*clenches fist* i need…………… i need the stream……………… let me in………………. let ME IN—#unrelatedly i think it’s hilarious every day mtr and bat’s merch keeps selling out LOL #the bat stan in me is like that’s so based lol but what i think it is is that nagojuku’s 2nd drb stage battle didn’t get as many votes #and so management assumed their merch wouldn’t sell as well as the others lol #i don’t have many mtr people on my feed anymore but i would like to know how mtr is being received 🤔

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patrice-bergerons · 2 years

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Regret is unprofessional.

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bookwyrminspiration · 6 months

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My dad: hey you wanna play that new game later uh, what was it, ever-something…everglen?

me, soul leaving my body: hmm i don’t think that’s quite right

#kotlc #it’s called everdell actually #but my dad has read the entire kotlc series #so he mixed then up #he clenched his fist at the sky and went ‘dammit!’ when I explained the mix up #and then asked me when the next book was coming out #as he does every single time #as if I am personally responsible for the long waits (in a teasing way)

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dylanconrique · 1 year

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i can’t wait for the angst that’s gonna hit when tim hears a call over his radio that there’s an officer down, immediately ditching his post behind that desk when they give out lucy’s name and badge number to find grey to give him keys to one of the shops so he can get to the scene as fast as possible.

#*and this is icarly!#the rookie #s5 wishlist #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #grey doesn't even fight him at all #he knows there's nothing he can do to stop tim from getting to her #so instead he demands they'll ride there together #oh and the way grey will be grasping at straws trying to ease tim's mind....#gosh anything to see more of that father/son kind of dynamic between tim and grey i really love it #also it's a good excuse to mark 'crying tim bradford' off my bucket list #and i don't just mean crying #i mean the puffy red eyed snot running hyperventilating kind of cry #i just... *clenches fist* i wanna see him emotionally crumble #as if this man hasn't been through enough already i want him to go through more 😅😅#like i truly can't think of any other triggers that would make him break down like that #except with genny #if anything happened to either genny or lucy he'd lose himself

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lanshappycorner · 2 years

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don't know how many asks you have recieved but im curious to see my son Yuka in your art style

UR OC IS SO PRETTY i will not lie your design was already...The Peak so i was like...damn what else could i Lan-ify...💀 but heres my attempt !! i just. added a lot of lace in true lan fashion

#characters with covered eyes make me feel some type of way he is so so gorjest i am *clenches fist*

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winepresswrath · 1 year

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g1deon has more game than anyone else in that universe. he's got Pyrrha leaving the cops for a deranged necromancer he's got Wake fucking a deranged necromancer (him) he's got Pyrrha proxy fucking Wake because she's only ever known two people that insane and it gets her down horrendous. the man is ugly & according to Jod he mostly doesn't fuck. Wake thinks he deserves a quick death. Pyrrha loved him on sight and asked him to kiss her before she died. what is going on with this man.

#wake/g1deon/Pyrrha is just so #clenches fist #the way g1deon and wake are both true believers who will burn!!!#but on opposite sides #and Pyrrha is an I do don't do causes I just love you kind of gal #and somehow! g1deon and wake also fell in some kind of love #everything Pyrrha says about g1deon gets me she's so gentle about him #he was always looking for something to throw himself on #she loved him so much cheers to tamsyn muir for being like here's the hottest woman of all time she bi but obsessed with an ugly man #and im just weeping because their love was so real and he ate part of her soul & now she puppets around his body watching other people make #their old mistakes and it makes me want to scream #conspiracy theory that in their first iteration he held her at arm's length for ages because she wasn't committed to the cause #it's a Leia/Han relationship and she's Han #second life second chance and Jod is so smug about it #like yes it ended in g1deon eating Pyrrha #what of it

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outeremissary · 4 months

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Ritual....

Happy "I'm sure it's still OC Kiss Day 5 somewhere" to all who celebrate. It's me. I celebrate. I was busy coloring something else and forgot what I was doing.

Hey if you didn't read the tags yet I think there's a fun game of "guess what 5e class this 'witch' actually had" here

#may skip day 6 because that one is ummm. labor intensive and I have two other pieces that are way higher priority #one is getting *clenches fist* so close to done #anyway day 5 goes out to my friend who DMed Olin's campaign and got upset when he saw my outline for the week because Olin wasn't there #he would not take protests such as 'Olin is not a kissing guy' or 'I'm not designing new family members for this dude'#this one goes out to you man. Olin kiss day. knocking out the second Carmen of the week and the only Kas that had been on the outline #that guy was funny as fuck for saying Olin couldn't be an Odin follower because it was immersion breaking for an FR module #but also hating FR lore so much he gave me free rein to do whatever I wanted for replacement religion as long as canon names were attached #yeah this is how Mystra works I think. I played a 'Mystra follower' for over a year and only learned about Mystra from BG3 a year later #ockiss24 #emi art #olin foundling

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idiotarsonist · 2 months

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One thing I always enjoy in my rewatches is Judas’s hand gestures. Like they’re effectively emphatic but some of them are so obnoxious. They’re so fun. 👉🙄👈 and all

He’s soooooo obnoxious. All his little grins after he stirs up shit like he’s so proud of himself for getting on people’s nerves. He has such ‘gonna hit me? Better make it count. Better kill me in one shot’ energy through the entire first half.

#and I love that about him tbh #very fun to watch #also the way he sometimes goes from #being shitty to being serious #like right after ‘I don’t know how to love him’#(which like first of all what was that Lmao)#but then he like tries to reach out to #Jesus and he’s super serious #it just makes me *clenches fist* idk #anyways thanks for sending me asks so I can talk about my special little guy #asks

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ickypuppi3 · 2 years

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heather and billy being super close best friends means so much to me because he’s so starved of platonic affection i just think he would thrive so much being around someone who doesn’t want anything from him in return and genuinely loves and sees him for who he is

#billy hargrove #heather holloway #because billy is affectionate #it’s been said a million times #but the way he reacted to el touching his face?#yeah #he needs it #just them cuddling and napping together and her playing with his hair and him picking her up #i’m so #clenches fist #starts sobbing #by anything i mean sex #that’s obvious right #because that’s like the only time billy experiences ‘affection’#which i hate so much #billy ‘wait you wanna spend time with me but you don’t wanna sleep with me? sounds fake’ hargrove #i’m so upset !! about him #he needs friends #he needs platonic affection i’m so serious

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akkivee · 7 months

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kuukou teasingly calling ichiro ‘ichiro-san’ in youthful riot drives me mad utterly crazy and insane and not just because it’s ‘ichiro-san’ lol but it very subtly reinforces that kuukou follows ichiro’s lead down whatever path ichiro chooses because he respects him so much and it may have been a teasing ‘ichiro-san’ but the respect was still there—

#this is vee speaking #tdil that if i type youthful autofill will come thru and supply riot for me showing me i only use those words in conjunction with each other #it’s not embarrassing but i’m feeling tragically attacked tbh lmao #but brains stuck on naughty busters so here’s more nb lol #*clenches fist* i just want to cry over their camaraderie how kuukou’s support manifested in making sure he wasn’t alone #but also guiding opportunities for ichiro to do good when ichiro felt powerless #like peak pragmatic ichiro was right in informing kuukou it’s not easy to break out of abusive situations when there’s so many factors #but kuukou still went and paved a way by simply by checking if it was okay to lend a hand and letting ichiro deal it HES SO—#THEYRE SO—#JUST LEARNING AND GROWING TOGETHER I MISS THAT FOR THEM 😭😭😭#youthful riot is such a good track man it’s so understated but so LOUD lol 😭😭😭😭😭😭#c: ichibro #c: kuukou👑

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