So fucking happy

The daily question is, am I getting th1nn3r or am I delusional?

One of my biggest fears is touching my bones and believing that I am thinner but it is not true, and everything is a product of my mind and my excessive desire to lose weight

Every time I lose weight I love discovering bones that I didn't know existed there before

I'm going to kms

One of the things that bothers me the most about ed movies is that they show the protagonist as if she will NEVER think about food or that she is not starving herself, they make her look like she is always in control when most of us think in food 24/7 and seeing that representation only makes you feel worse

i look so fat today I'm gonna kms

AAAAHH FUCKING DUMB HOW THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING TO TELL MY SISTER THAT I TOLD YOU THAT I INTENTIONALLY VOMITED I'M GOING TO KMS SO MUCH

Guys, I accidentally left my laptop open while I had the #bulimia app in the background and my sister appeared and I think she was staring, I hope she couldn't see properly or she forgot, I literally turned pale, send prayers

How I love when I want to eat something but something happens so I don't have to eat it anymore, it makes me so happy, for example, I wanted to eat toast with scrambled eggs so bad, but my mom told me there was no bread, so I won't be able to eat it anymore and I feel happy

new 3d activity:

was sad and can’t sleep > found out i can feel all parts of my hipbones now, my shin bones rub together alot when i lay on my side, i can touch ribs from the back at 5am > no longer sad and can sleep (oh boy im down the road now….meme not mine)

God, how difficult metabolism day is, there are two extremes, either I feel guilty or I try not to binge

I love feeling dizzy, it's like flying and it feels so good because I feel weak, I love that feeling

God, I hate that moment in the ed where no matter how much you try to restrict you end up having a horrible binge and want to cry and tear your skin off, like one day to the next you lost the ability to be in control so you try to do damage control purging yourself

New year, same disorder 💋