Yeah no I’m done lol

Lowkey never believed in god but he’s all I have .

I know at one point he had my tumblr but idk if he does now. I have this video of us on new years that I watch on repeat. It’s him rubbing my sore leg and saying he loves me in the sweetest way. I still have dreams that your mine and that this was all some nasty dream, that I suddenly wake up crying and your there next to me again. But I just feel worse and worse when I wake up and you’re not there.

Roman stopped sleeping in my bed as much, because in those dreams you touch other women the way you touched me and I can’t stomach it. I heard you got a girlfriend, I’m so proud of you.

I hate how I miss you still after everything that happened, I just want to wake up and hear your voice again. Hear you say you love me and this was all some sick joke.

Im so sorry.

I’ve literally woken up this week with nightmares of him touching another woman. I’ve never not been able to tell someone about what plagues my dreams in so long…I feel so alone.

Last sad post, but I genuinely never understood loneliness till I started waking up to a cold bed and no one next to me, it’s been a weird adjustment over the past month and I’m working on it.

Just sometimes miss the warmth it brought me in the mornings :)

Hey you've survived this long, you've survived all this before, I know you can do it again.

No child should have to go through this, atleast not alone, remember you have us, we're cheering you on from the other side of the screen.

If you want to cry, cry. If you want to scream, scream. You don't have to be strong or put a brave face on all the time, just try not to let people take advantage of you, though then again, that's now always for us choose.

The battle is tough, scary, even frightening but you are so strong to have survived up until now. Be scared, be sad, but know that you can survive this, and you will.

Cheering you on from the other side of the screen, All the best to you.

Thank you so much, your guys’ words mean so much to me and you don’t even know it ❤️❤️

I appreciate you all staying with me during this time in my life and not leaving due to my haitus and more, tysm for the kind words and support ❤️ truly made my week :)

I know my tumblr seems pretty gloomy right now but I want to say one thing before I start writing again,

I shouldn’t be scared to go to school- NO CHILD should be afraid to go to school.

I shouldn’t be afraid everytime someone pops a bag in the cafeteria, and I shouldn’t be worried someone is going to jump me for a rumor that someone else spread. No children should go through that, and it’s 10x worse knowing that me, as a child who’s going to be out of highschool soon is being related to by toddlers in kindergarten and up, it’s disgusting.

I shouldn’t be worried about my teachers trying to make moves on me , I should be worried about having fun, getting friends, and getting good grades.

Not if I’m going to be able to make it home if I go in.

I hate the way I let you do that to me, and I hate the way I can’t hate you for all the damage that you gave me.

Small, fragmented shards of bone.

Cold, yet pulsing flyblown flesh.

Scorched identity, molten fingertips.

Ashen face, still screaming long after death.

Blood, so much blood.

More than a human should have.

Strewn everywhere, walls covered in red, wet, ichor.

Ceilings drip with despair and malice.

Floorboards waterlogged with hate and fear.

A mark on the wall, a smiling moon.

Not a smile of happiness, but one of evil.

I'm starting to question why I took this job.

Was it for the thrill of putting the pieces together?

Did I want to bring solace to the dead?

I never thought I'd see something like this.

This is beautifully written and so vague! Im confused on why it was sent to me but I ADORE IT. Ugh, the word choices this writer made MM

Hello! I’m back from my break yall so I’ll get ALL OF YOUR requests done, I’m also beginning to write my own book so hopefully I’ll be able to keep up with all of them!

Thank you for being so patient..

Struggling with self love straight after making yourself who you’ve always wanted to be is the one thing that’s not talked about enough

Hello, I’m going to take a small break. I’m sorry for the requests not getting done like I said they would be.

I’m going through a nasty breakup right now and can’t really find it in myself to do what I love dearly, please forgive me.

My current hyperfixations are now Hazbin hotel, and Undertale.

All requests should be done by the end of next week, I’m going through some personal stuff so expect them by then ❤️

What do you think about Adam and Mammon smitten with a darling sinner?

Maybe she has a contract with mammon so he's close to her but Adam only came to know about her when Charlie pulled her as a perfect example of a redeeming sinner in the meeting in heaven

Imagine getting the attention of both pricks right

This is going to be in headcannons because I wouldn't know how to start this, I hate mammon but ADAM? Anything with him I will gladly do. (Still a wonderful idea though :) )

When Charlie had thrown you up on that big ol orb inside of the council to say Adam was a bit baffled was an understatement

Lute totally had to hit his shoulder to get him to refocus...

you were a sinner who was allowed outside of the ring surprisingly, probably against Lucifer's wishes but you did have a contract with the big clown guy. Who was practically all over you.

you had a close-knit relationship with Mammon, both loving and hating the attention he gave you as his 'little sinner star', treating you more like a prized possession than anything else but it was good enough for you to realize he was probably flirting

He wasn't good at it, constantly belittling you as a pick-up line? It was a bit awful.

you probably work as a clown, or something celebrity-like. Maybe a singer or something?

He works you to the bone, but then he takes you out for dinner at his place and coos down at you like you are a baby.

Adam is definitely a little confused on how someone so pretty is in hell, usually the people he sees that are hellborns are either ugly or not his type but it seems you fit both of those categories.

Now...you were a sinner so he had to be careful IF he was going to see you, but since you are outside of the ring Lucfer has been letting them in, he can't really visit like he wants to.

Totally started gushing about you to lute , she just has to sit there and deal with it.

I don't see you really being able or wanting to date him straight away if ya met...but he would try his best.

Adam is a very simple man, wanting nothing lavish or something like that.

But you were lavish, you lived lavishly, you had people at your beck and call and you did NOT need him like he thought.

You actually insulted him a couple times, he's not a very charming person. (Or smart..)

He slowly started to come around more despite not being allowed to and watched a couple of your shows,

totally grumbles whenever mammon gets all over you, touching ya however he wants? Thats stupid.

totally called himself the dickmeister whenever you denied him the first time.

after awhile though you slowly got used to him and his loud personality, actually letting it calm you.

MAMMON WAS NOT HAPPY. adam and mammon fighting was...awful. Literally awful, they both act kind of similar and even then they can't really fight one another or it'll start a war, so the passive-aggressive comments are enough for now.

Adam took you on a date to somewhere stupid, and it turns out mammon runs a lot of the restaurants within your price range..

Mammon tried keeping you away from the egotistical angel but it wasn't inside of the contract that he could prevent you from seeing people, so he sadly let you go and do whatever.

didn't mean his pampering of you stopped though lol (Im making a part two of this soon if you would like lol,)

Platonic hazbin hotel cast and gn!teen!reader with the personality of loona from helluva boss 👀

It could be a list of hcs or a oneshot. Either way is fine ^^

Hazbin Hotel x GenZ!Reader Headcannons

Imma do this as headcannons because...I can't really find any storyline for this lol CHARLIE

one of the things that Charlie seemed to actually figure out the most was why you were so moody lol, she went through that emo phase too but...yours was sticking a bit too long to be a phase.

She had mentioned a couple times that they were going to focus on your issues separately to keep you from feeling bad, but she never actually went for it. Scared it would set you off a bit.

outside of that, she thought you were adorable, treating you more like a younger sister than a normal hotel attendee.

Sees more of herself in you than she would like to admit, and doesn't truly understand why you are in hell but...she doesn't push.

VAGGIE

Oh god, you and vaggie DO NOT MIX. It's one thing to put two demons together, but Vaggie already acts like a depressed teen at times.

She doesn't really...demand respect but she tries to act motherly towards you and just fails miserably.

You think she is trying to be controlling because you are younger and don't know as much.

Genuinely thinks you can be redeemed, and that if anyone has shot at it, it would be you.

Despite the fact you two don't get along, you come to her for some issues that you know she would be good with, like trying to get better and maintain friendships. that doesn't happen often tho.

You and her mixed is awful for boardgames too, talk about competitive.

You and her definitely got a lot of bad blood on, especially if you get all mean with charlie and yell.

ANGEL DUST

Oh god, it's a beautiful friendship.

You and angeldust get along more than needed, despite both being assholes at times, you both love each other and think a lot of one another.

You are usually the one taking care of him (along with Husk) Whenever he gets too rowdy at clybs, not only that but he takes care of you when you are unstable as well.

You don't do well with men, or any sort of family figure that is a man so as much as you try you always blow up.

You deeply care for the spider porn star but sometimes your personality makes it harder than you'd like. And he is one of the people inside the hotel that understands this the most, it's what you guys bonded over.

LOVES YOUR ATTITUDE.

He thinks your absolutely hilarious and wishes that when he was your age he had half the courage to say the shit you say. Watching you tell Alastor he was a braindead prick? Oh it made his day.

But that worried him a little bit, while he was happy you hadn't been roped into any sort of deal or contract, he was worried you'd say something to the wrong person. And if you ever did he would be there in a heartbeat

you two usually get drunk together since he doesn't want you going to any bars alone (Which you hate, but understand) So he won't help you with the hangover, but he will be right next to you throwing up in the sink as you throw up in the toilet :) HUSK

If you had to have a father bond with anyone? It would be Husk. He refuses to give you drinks for no reason and even has late-night talks with you.

scolds you for not being careful and respecting yourself, and usually just sits there as you yell at him till you say something truly horrible to him.

(Which isn't a lot, this guy can take more than he admits.)

But at the end of the day, he's there to give you advice and let you ramble on about the shitty stuff going on in your life,

hell he even lets you drink if it's truly bad

he's more scared of you ending up like him than you getting drunk young, you are in hell.

definitely helps you to bed and takes care of you when you are drunk or after you are drunk. Seems like the type to have a soft spot for emotionally troubled drunk teens. ALASTOR

Oh god, he hates you.

if it wasn't for the fact you were a part of the hotel or one of Charlie's favorites. He would have killed you by now due to the comments you threw at him.

He couldn't tell who he would rather be in a room with, velvette? Or you.

Despite all of that he had an open mind to your behavior, understanding you were an emotional teen.

but that did NOT make the whole 'fossil' joke suddenly funny to him.

You two have bonded over a couple things, suits, food, and your insomnia. At the end of the day you still hated each other.

But he would totally cover you up if you fell asleep on the couch or something like that.

If you listen to his radio show he actually might start being nice to you, he's a sucker for teens as well. Especially if you are a girl.

DEFINITELY IMAGINE DEADPOOL AND THE SUPERSONIC GIRL FROM THE FIRST MOVIE.

"So what's it going to be? Mean comment? Or long sullen silence." "....you got me in a corner here." NIFTY

you two were an odd duo, usually, you sat through her horrible roach puppet shows and tried to hype her up, but in the end, you just couldn't.

she still appreciated you watching them and not booing.

Definitely tries not to get on your bad side, but ends up being annoying on accident,

you can't be mad at her though... SIR PENTIOUS (or however you spell it.)

This man obviously had cried multiple times because of your attitude and yelling.

He is a softy at heart, and you try to feel bad but he just makes it so easy.

the snake jokes are never-ending, especially if you two decide to form a bond? but I doubt that would ever happen...man is sensitive.

Didn't catch him during the trust fall, instead gagged about how slimy he was and called him a rude name.

Might make a part 2 to this, it's adorable

Helloo!! I really love your writingss<33

Can we have more domesticated alastor au? ^^ I wanna see how alastor's reaction to a child's first walk

FIRST STEPS

Alastor x Reader (Domesticated AU)

(Domestic Alastor is just...rotting my brain dawg. I can't handle it.) Alastor was a simple man, he enjoyed things in his life like coffee more than anything. And as he grew into his fatherly position in your daughter's life, he continued to be that simple man you knew. He much rather have enjoyed listening to her babble on about something he didn't understand than start talking in full sentences. Scared the little girl he was taking care of would start to grow up too quick. And just like all fathers, he simply hated the idea of her growing up and dealing with the world around them. Alastor held back a little laugh as he looked between you and Maria, eyebrows furrowed slightly as you turned red. Maria had insisted on eating some baby food rosie had made, and while eating it. She seemed to have a small problem. Throwup was all over your (once clean) shirt and your neck. A small frown poking out from your flustered expression as Maria cried. "My dear...that baby food it made it human flesh? May I take it away...?" You blinked a couple of times, covering your mouth and quickly nodding your head. Wrapping your head around the fact you had accidentally fed your baby human flesh. "it's made for children that are 6 years old, dear." He took the little cup and threw it away. Chuckling as you just looked at him sadly. "I'll....be right back. Can you take Maria out of her high chair alastor?" You started to walk out of the kitchen, dragging your feet as you tried to breath out of your mouth. Alastor looked toward maria and gently picked her up, putting her on the counter before starting to work away on cleaning up the mess. "Dah...Dahda! " Alastor hummed, still cleaning off the highchair. "Yes maria??" He threw away the paper towels he was using and sighed, rubbing the bridge of his nose before quickly being pulled out of it by a smiling toddler in his face. "Dadha!" Alastor squinted, trying to remember where he had put you. "Maria did you just walk?" You walked into the room, the little girl happily holding her dads ears with a bright smile. Alastor grabbed onto the child and put her down on the ground, staring for a bit. Had she just walked? He took a couple steps back and sat down on the ground, oddly silent as he looked at Her. Maria turned around slowly and babbled on a bit more, stumbling over to her father. Your eyes widened, laughing a little bit as she fell down into Alastors lap giggling. "Alastor! She just!" Alastor picked her up with a bright smile. Standing up and holding her. "Walked! She's a walking human being!" You took the baby out of his hands. Kissing all over her face. "She just- she's walking! Crap I didn't get that on video..." Alastors radio static got louder at the mention of that. "Right...right....creepy television guy.." (Sorry this was short, I just imagine the poor guy being emotionally stunted when it comes to fatherhood lol.)