Kim Dokja 💮

AM BACK W/ ANOTHER BANGER YALL

The Oldest Dream 🌌

FINALLY DONE

Trigger

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"Why him, and not me?"

Because you gave up and stopped hoping. This might seem understandable for someone millenia old, someone who's died more than a thousand times, but the whole point of Yoo Joonghyuk is that he doesn't give up no matter what. He keeps hoping for the best, he stands up after a loss and keeps walking. He is an honorary Spider-man at this point. And this is exactly what young Kim Dokja needed: someone to show him that he can continue, no matter what horrors may lie ahead, no matter how tired, disillusioned and desperate he gets. He can overcome this, because Yoo Joonghyuk has been through worse and still chose to overcome this. The moment Yoo Joonghyuk stops, he is no longer the Yoo Joonghyuk that Han Sooyoung created for this sad, desperate, suicidal teenager (which is symbolically underlined by Yoo Joonghyuk choosing to call himself something different). True, he is no longer a character, he's broken out of his confinement... but he's also lost the essential part that mattered most to Kim Dokja, the sole reason behind his existence.

What is also interesting is that it's Kim Dokja who gave 1864!Yoo Joonghyuk the will to live again. Yoo Joonghyuk had to keep dying and returning again and again so that Kim Dokja lived, so that they eventually met and Kim Dokja could give Yoo Joonghyuk the hope that Yoo Joonghyuk had been slowly feeding to Kim Dokja through an IV for all these 13 years. This is why it's 1864!Yoo Joonghyuk, and not the Plotter.

(Although I do find it ironic that the Plotter basically gets an umambiguous happy ending with his friends and his adoptive child/sponsor/reason for existence, whilst 1864!Yoo Joonghyuk's suffering is far from over, and we don't even, strictly speaking, see if he's succeeded in bringing Kim Dokja back).

I used the funny yjh brush to draw yhk 🖤💜🤍