honestly how dare people not love me. if you dont love me; what is wrong with you??

*tries to contribute something in a community* (being very vague but yeah)

*is objectively just, less worth/less good at what im doing (next to other ppl) so i get very noticably less noticed/cared about/seen*

More evidence im literally objectively worthless, im gonna have a crash help👍

Like oh my god, i just wondering what its like to be a regular person (unlike me, a worthless person, below regular), wtf does praise feel like? Im not worthy enough for it

I feel like a lot of people forget that people with NPD actually think very poorly of themselves, in reality. One of the reasons NPD can develop is as a response to low self-esteem, or a lack of positive affirmation otherwise.

"i love talking about myself please ask me about myself :3" npd vs "if these people know any honest and genuine traits about me they will stone me to death in the streets" anxiety

npd is terrible because it makes me feel like a kid throwing a temper tantrum whenever literally anything happens. i am Actually just the kid at someone else's birthday party who wanted presents too but with a higher charisma stat

i need to rub my hands together and cartoonishly scheme and plan a way to take my revenge on it right now

I Am Wothless Garbage And Also Everyone Here Sucks But Me

An autobiography

— Mary Lambert

I’m not emotionally unstable in the pitiable, sad, damaged little bitch way . I’m emotionally unstable in the WILL beat the fuck out of you over the slightest perceived criticism and not feel at all bad about it ( in fact, it’d probably turn me on ) way, thank you .

if my disorder was fake could I do this *starts sobbing uncontrollably*

To my fellow narcissists who tend to get sucked into toxic relationships just for some supply

It's not worth it. No amount of supply you get from that person will balance out with the mental damage you take. Just leave them, you're better off alone. You'll find another source of supply but you won't repair your lost time and nerves

I don't think I'm quite at the level of calling everyone around me NPCs or anything but god.... I'd say 90% of the people I know are just absolutely boring. they have interests and hobbies and internal lives of course, but they're all so samey, they lack flavor and depth no matter how much I try to listen to them.

I'm aware I come off as pretty bland too but really, I just can't see anything worthwhile in most of these people

one day i’ll log off and never log back in, what will you all do then? suffer and be sad without seeing my every thought and emotion written out as a play by play for your entertainment

I’m the opposite of a lot of fans of characters in the sense that most people REALLY enjoy a blorbo who is outwardly cold and guarded but is Secretly Such a Sweetheart

But like. In my perspective, a character who consistently tries to act with kindness despite not ‘thinking’ kindly or having ‘ulterior motives’ is a better person.

I despise how people tend to change their mind on a person or character as soon as their thoughts seemingly contradict their actions, and use the thoughts as character appraisal instead of how they ACTUALLY TREAT PEOPLE. Like yes, people who are inwardly ‘kind’ but suffering can act cold as a defense mechanism. But why is a person who actively makes an effort to counteract their ‘nature’ suddenly a bad person?

(Yes this is from an NPD perspective)

‘omg you’re so kind, you’re so empathetic’

Thanks lol it’s fake and I don’t actually give two shits about you. I do it so that you’ll constantly praise me and know how much better I am than you but the recognition is appreciated you dumb fucking bitch.

i get sick of people so easily. if you don’t impress me when you first talk to me then i don’t see any value in keeping you around and you will likely just annoy me

Love me. Be obsessed with me.