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Coronapaused (The Non Raunchy Version)

Hi everybody,

First and foremost i hope everybody is doing well and staying safe during this tough time. It has not been easy, i can only imagine. My thoughts and prayers are with everybody during this time. I’m here tonight to bring some prospective on the current situation at hand. Here is what is on tap.

-The state of the Pandemic

-Conservative vs Liberal Media During this

-Personal Message for President Trump and Congress

-Where i stand

-A Message to my loved ones

In the Great Words of Chris Cuomo, Lets get after it.

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The state of the Pandemic in the US

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Never in my lifetime, never in any of our lifetimes did we ever expect to go through something like this. Ever since the Influenza Pandemic, the swine flu, the H1N1, ebola. Those were easily controllable. CoVid-19, holy dear mother of god this has just gotten out of control. We’re reopening yet the numbers in a good chunk of the country have continued to go up. POTUS yet thinks that is a badge of honor. Seriously?!?!?!?!!??!?!!? In Texas, we are emerging as a hotspot. I’ll address that more in a bit. As i have said before, capitalism has taken over this country where the money talks. If money talks then ok there we go, we’re going to do what the money tells us. That is what the Red states like Texas, Florida, Georgia, etc have done. The Blue states continue to play it smart. New York especially.

The Winners of the CoVid 19 Pandemic

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Doctors

Nurses

Chris Cuomo

My Girlfriend

Joe and Mika Scarborough

Mitt Romney

Dr. Bright

My Father

His Team

H-E-B

Andrew Cuomo (Yes i know about the Nursing Home mistake. He’s been better than most Of Congress however. Congress does shady shit on purpose. No one bats a fucking eye)

Bernie Sanders

The Last Dance Documentary

President Obama

Dr. Fauci

Mayor Adler

Dr. Birks

Senator Lamar Alexander

Bill Lee

Mike DeWine

Liz Cheney

The Losers

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Greg Abbott

Donald Trump

Dan Patrick

Ron DeSantis

Brian Kemp

Fox News

Sean Hannity

Louie Gohmert

The Majority Of the Rest of Congress

Trump Supporters

Now i get it, we all have to make money to survive but the experts continue to say hey reopening without a proper plan is not the way to go but a good chunk of the states especially the red states are saying no no no, we’re reopening anyways. Its because of the fucking money. Yes we need to survive. Yes we need to make money for rent, for food, for bills, for all the responsibilities and then when the responsibilities are caught up then for the fun shit. But if experts are saying woah woah woah hold on a second we’re rushing fast here, if we start to lean back on the things that were working to fight CoVid-19 then we’re going to have a second wave and it’s going to be alot worse. We are going to have to lock back down, and let me tell you what, if that happens Riots are going to happen and more people are going to die. Let me tell you this as well, it scares me.

It scares me for afew reasons.

1. Crimes are going to be at an all time high.

Note: My old man and i are ready to defend ourselves and our castle. If we have to fight to defend ourselves and our loved ones, i won’t be afraid to do so. I’m not going to let the stupidity of our state government and our federal government igniting sick people to start riots stop us from protecting our loved ones.

2. It scares me for my girlfriend and her cat (And i love that cat like it’s my own daughter)

3. It scares me for one of my best friends who lives alone and her dog. (I love that fucking dog like it’s my own nephew and it’s the closest thing to a doggy friend i have since my three dogs left me years ago when they left with my bitch of an ex stepmom)

4. It scares me for the vulnerable

5. Scares me for the kids

6. Scares me for the rest of my loved ones.

It is very disgusting and the more this immature shit continues to happen, the more the riots are likely and i will do whatever i have to do to protect my loved ones. This country is falling apart. Just earlier tonight, i got pissed off when my father told me that a good chunk of people were back downtown and a good chunk of them were not following the safety guidelines just after Dr. Escott said earlier yesterday, we are effectively flattening the curve but we need to continue to do so especially if we want events like ACL and Longhorn football to start on time. Governor Abbott even though he’s a greedy brainless little pussy (i’ll give him some points on SOME not all but some things. More here shortly) has even said now is the time more than ever to continue to follow the guidelines even though we are all getting out of lockdown. (I’m still not out of quarantine unfortunately because i along with my old man have major skepticism of reopening earlier. More on THAT later on) Continue to wear masks even though they’re not required. (Governor, come on. I know you’re alot smarter that. If masks aren’t require then why is A) The numbers continue to go up tremendously to the point of where we are now a hot zone. Oh but wait a minute we’re still going to open. B) Why are people deciding to NOT listen to you and are deciding to say HEY THE VIRUS IS OVER!!!!!!!!)

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I’m sorry no it is not. As a matter of fact, the numbers continue to go up especially in the Lonestar State)

It’s going to be alot worse governor if you don’t do the right thing. We got one shot to do this right so you better pray to god you’re right because the 90,000 deaths are already on POTUS’s doorstep. Right now the Texas numbers recovery wise and death wise are actually pretty good. 29,359 Recovered and less than 2,000 people have died (RIP to those people by the way. My heart goes out to families of the victims of CoVid 19. I’am really deeply sorry that you’re going through this. It is saddening that y’all going through this.) Just really hope you don’t fuck it up governor. The cases continue to go up so hope you’re right and if you aren’t right, i’m going to laugh at you because of your failure and you realizing that ok i’m a moron.

To everyone who has lost someone or something, whether it’s your job, business, or someone you love and care about, i cannot even begin to imagine the pain you are going through. If there’s anything i can do whether it’s pray for you or be here for you just to talk to, i’m here. I will never fully understand but i’m here because i certainly don’t ever want that to happen to my loved ones.

Now before i continue, anybody wanna know why i posted a pic of this scumbag?!?!??!?! Because this ladies and gentlemen is Dan Patrick. Our Lt. Governor. I have criticisms of Abbott but this fuckass right here is well.....a fuckass. I would say Dipass like Rick did one time on Rick and Morty but no i’m going to take it a step further. Fuckass. You Dan Patrick are a die hard fuckass.

Here’s why...........

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fP1GkV06PYY

‘‘I’m sorry to say i was right on this!!”

A scumbag thing to say Mr. Lt Governor. Now what am i talking about?

When this first started, Dan Patrick said and i quote

‘‘There are senior citizens who are willing to die for the rest of us!!” ‘‘There are more important things than living!!”

I’m sorry what?!?!?!?!??!?!?! Yes i know the rest of what he said but Mr. Lt Governor that is the stupidest thing i’ve ever heard and one of the most crooked things i’ve ever heard. You sir i don’t give a rats ass if you’re 70, you deserve to get punched in the face. If not by me then by someone else or if at the very least a bag of diarrhea that consists of shit, hot sauce, the hottest tacos from torchys tacos, chips and queso. Because that is a shitty thing. Wanna know why?

Alot of my loved ones are the elderly. My grandma Sandra, my grandmother Bren, my grandpa Ben, and my grandfather Lou. And that’s just to name a few. But especially My grandma Sandra, Bren, and my grandfather Lou. Very close with them and you know what? I don’t want them to die. I want them to be able to meet the love of my life. And you know what else, i’m not the only one who has elderly loved ones that they’re close with. Alot of people in this country are close with their elderly relatives. That is a very offensive thing especially because almost 100,000 people are dead because of this virus. You should be ashamed of yourself Mr. Patrick. Lets address that second part. More important things than living? Money? Well how can we enjoy the money if we are dead? AHAAAAAAAAAAAAAA See i just answered your own question. Shame on you Patrick shame on you. I would like to be able to have my loved ones meet my love. I would like to meet my queen’s father as well. So shame on you Dan Patrick

Now lets get back to Abbott. Do i think he’s an idiot for not following the guidelines set by the white house that the White house itself and majority itself ain’t following? Oh yeah. But it’s not as bad as DeSantis who apparently is allegedly being accused of asking Florida Scientists to manipulate the numbers? Ok that’s just crooked as hell. So far Abbott hasn’t been found of doing the same thing but if a scientist in Texas came out and said that too....that wouldn’t surprise me but here’s what i will give Abbott credit for.....Actually caring about the nursing homes and the staff and residents especially making the tests available to them. Kudos for that. That doesn’t mean you’re safe from other criticisms but i hope you’re right because we cannot afford to continue the back and forth. Shut down for afew weeks then boom back open. The back and forth needs to not happen. I hope you’re right because i would love to get back to the fight but i will not be surprised if this backfired because you choose Trump over Science.

The Ongoing Liberal Vs Conservative Media War

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The Following are Exempt from this

-Chris Cuomo

- Joe and Mika Scarborough

Show you why here in a minute

But the rest are not exempt. If there is one thing ONE thing that Trump is not wrong on, it is in fact the media except Fox news needs to be added. Mostly His puppet Hannity, Tucker Carlson (Even though i sense and been seeing a turn in him lately) and that Bitch Laura Ingraham. Spewing Conservative conspiracy theories out the wazzoo. The Liberal media isn’t exempt from this either. I’ll get to them next. But conservatives are still spewing lies out of their mouth. Attacking the Medical community and of course STILL NOT LETTING GO OF RUSSIA!!!!!!!!!! CAN WE PLEASE JUST PUT THE FUCKING POLITICS ASIDE FOR ONE SECOND AND ALL OF US WORK TOGETHER!?!?!?!?!?!??!?! I thought this was gonna bring us closer together but no it has divided us further apart. Conservatives on fox news etc saying this is a hoax by the deep state, come on. I always make the joke of conservatives and liberals in the media and in congress need to just lock the door on capital hill for one night and either argue all night or order a shit ton of drugs and fuck it all out with one massive orgy like the orgy in the Seth Rogen animated movie sausage movie. If you don’t know what i’m talking about, watch that movie but viewer discretion advised that movie is raunchy as hell and the final scene where the orgy happens.

(See Alternate version for the joke)

If it gets to the point where Kaitlan Collins is wearing her one night stand outfit and doing the walk of shame then Tomi Lahren and Kayleigh McEnany come up to her and do a threeway kiss on the news and wolf blitzer is asking how was your night with the biggest shit eating grin and Kaitlan Responds ‘’Wolf it was amazing. How was yours?’’ Wolf replies with something and then makes a body movement in regards to his nose being fucked up from snorting cocaine or where Trump and Biden are in the oval office actually working together. If a giant orgy takes them all to work together i’m all for it. LOL I had to get that out there now lets be serious.

https://www.foxnews.com/politics/kayleigh-mcenany-slams-cnns-chris-cuomos-use-of-less-safe-drug-to-fight-coronavirus

I saw that article of Ms. McEnany slamming Chris Cuomo for taking non-hydroxychlorquine. I’m sorry Ms. McEnany, do you realize that you made yourself stupid by saying POTUS knows that his medicine doesn’t work yet SLAMMING CHRIS CUOMO WHO ACTUALLY HAD COVID-19!!!! Kayleigh you ma’am are dumb as rocks. Have you had CoVid-19? No. Chris and his family did. His wife and his son both ended up having CoVid you fucking FUCKASS. Did POTUS? NO!!!!! SO SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH AND JUST FOCUS ON TRYING TO SAVE YOUR JOB!!!!!!!! God such a fuckass.

But lets get to the rest of Fox News, watch this video made by Trevor Noah https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAh4uS4f78o

Then by the now this channel

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5DmW_H4U-MI

See where i’m going with this?!?!?!? THEY LIE!!!!!!!!!!! ONE MINUTE SAYING ITS A HOAX!!!!!!!!! NEXT MINUTE SAYING THEY NEVER SAID THAT!!!!!!

WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?!?!??!?!? ARE YOU DRINKING BLEACH LIKE TRUMP RECOMMENDED!?!?!?!?!? DID YOU DISINFECT YOURSELF WITH DISINFECTANT?!?!?!??! NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR BULLSHIT CONSPIRACY THEORIES AND YES I’M LOOKING AT YOU AS WELL LIBERAL MEDIA!!!!! IF YOUR NAME IS NOT CHRIS CUOMO AND MIKA SCARBOROUGH OR JOE SCARBOROUGH THEN THE REST OF YOU IN THE MEDIA NEED TO REALIZE WHAT ARE WE DOING?!?!?!?!? CONGRESS IS DIVING US!!!!!! THEY CONTINUE TO LIE AND WE FALL FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!!!!!

Now lets go to the Liberal Media of MSNBC and CNN

Before i continue, Shoutout to Miss Mika for this video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khmEjO-FEaE&t=62s

Someone finally had the balls to say it. Enough is enough. Trust me and i called POTUS out weeks ago for his whole Liberation tweets which is what i keep saying is what will lead to riots and i’m just going to say something and i need to get it off my chest. I’ll take it a step further. I have enough of the corruption of our country. Now i’m going to still continue to speak on it but i will not do anything further than that, but if i lose any of my loved ones then its game on. I’ll go to war. I’ll protect my loved ones or i will die trying. Enough is enough. This country is falling apart. Now do i thank the men and women who have risked their lives overseas for our freedoms? Of course. Do i especially now thank all the medical workers for fighting this horrible enemy that is CoVid 19? So that the rest of us are safe and we have a chance despite the fact our country is ran by idiots and also is filled with about 85 percent idiots who don’t give a damn about doing the right thing. Millennials including who think OH MY GOD THIS ISN’T A BIG DEAL!!!!! LETS GO OUT AND GET DRUNK AND POP BOTTLES AND PILLS ETC!!!!! Absolutely. I have a new found appreciation for the medical community.

But i will use my first amendment rights because the United States of America has a brand new nickname

What is it?

The United States of Stupidity

Land of the Rich

Home of the Stupid

That is what this country has become. If anybody is offended by that i’m sorry but it is true and the way congress has handled this CoVid catastrophe has proven my point. With the way POTUS has acted during this, is wrong.

Before i begin the Liberal side,

I’m proud to be an American, i’m proud of all the doctors and nurses, i’m proud of the men and women who have all risked their lives so that the rest of us can be safe. I tell my Girlfriend alot who is a nurse by the way that i’m proud of her and that she is my number 1 hero. Not all heroes wear capes. So to all the doctors and nurses and the military and the firefighters and the police offices (not all cops) i say thank you for your service. To all the doctors and nurses during the CoVid Pandemic, Thank you and god bless you now while i’m proud of them

A good chunk of this country’s citizens and A VERY GREAT CHUNK OF THIS COUNTRY’S LEADERS IN OFFICE, not so much.

Quick story, My old man and i hate Sean Hannity with a passion but one night while we were having Dinner, he did make a very great point why are we not hearing from more survivors of CoVid? I have to give him that but the difference is on the Liberal media we ARE hearing from more CoVid survivors compared to Conservative media. Conservative it’s conspiracy after conspiracy oh they’re going to take your rights away.

Now i have a question for people like Sean Hannity and Laura Ingraham etc. Do you guys have kids? Do you guys love your loved ones like how the rest of us do? What happens if they catch CoVid? Are you still going to think it’s a hoax? Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo because then hopefully you people will wake up and realize what the fuck are we doing? Enough with the conspiracy theories

Now to the liberal media. Guys, you have the opportunity to say why are we doing this? Mika already called out POTUS earlier, you guys could have the opportunity to call for unity with Fox news. Why are you not doing so? When this is over if y’all wanna go back to hating each others guts, fine by me. I will be busy focusing on my loved ones and my future. Matter of fact when this is over , I probably won’t watch the news hardly if ever again unless its Cuomo or Morning Joe. I got a future with my queen to focus on and i got a trip i need to get ready for but right now it’s the time to work together. Now it’s no guarantee that Fox News will budge but at least you can say you tried but seriously can you please just try? Now is not the time for war. Also Fox News for the love of god, Y’ALL ARE PART OF THE MEDIA TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST STOP!!!!!!!!!!! It really dumbfounds me that they can get shown videos of what they said and it’s oh we never said that, it’s just stupid. Hopefully these people will learn but lets be real they won’t

Where i stand with the pandemic

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I have been in quarantine for 8 weeks about to be 9 weeks. Unlike most others, i’m waiting with my old man to see if we don’t go under another lockdown and our state of Texas doesn’t spike to New York Level. As i’ve said earlier, cases not good but recoveries and the death rate, not bad. It’s just up to the others to keep the improvements going. Earlier my father told me that he was downtown at whole foods and as he was driving home, he saw a SHIT TON OF PEOPLE NOT WEARING MASKS And of course he can speak for me on this but i was frustrated. If they don’t want to follow the guidelines especially when more places can reopen soon then if we go back under lockdown, don’t fucking bitch about wahhhhhhhhhhhhh why can’t we go back outside?!?!?!?! Well the answer is simple, you people are fucking dumbasses. You didn’t follow the guidelines like you own the fucking place and here we are again.

My loved ones if they sometimes need a break from the masks, that’s different. There’s going to be times where i need a break from it to give myself some oxygen. All i will say to my loved ones and i’ll say it again later on, please just be safe. I love you guys and i don’t want anything to happen to you guys.

Back to where i stand. These last 8 and a half weeks have been a test. It especially sucks because before all this happened, i made significant progress. My relationship was moving in the right direction, and after leaving my shitty shit shit job, i got the job i wanted for awhile and it was a great feeling. Now to feel like i’m being tested again, it sucks. Especially after coming out of one of the darkest times of my life a year ago that involved me going to a mental hospital to have a safe place to fall apart so i can pick up the pieces where i also discovered i have PTSD after one day waking up not wanting to live anymore. It especially still haunts me because my love had to endure that with me. Fast forward to this pandemic, i was hoping that last year was the end of Dark times for AWHILE especially because my queen deserves the world and i want to be able to take her to the dinner she 100 percent deserves. She works hard, she puts up with alot and i don’t care if i have to pay it off, when i’m cleared (and i’m going to stay cleared. I’m not doing a second round of this shit) i’m fucking taking her to that dinner barring any unforseen even for sticking with me through some of my roughest times. Before i take the rest of my loved ones to dinner, she gets first priority before i get back to my job (after my thyroid hint hint Pops if you’re reading this). She deserves that and i want to be able to give that to her or if i have to cook for her and set up a very nice candle light dinner at her place or mine, barring not having to deal with any more bullshit when i’m cleared. Now if there is one positive i can take away well actually two, its these

1. It has made me realize that i need god in my life more than ever because i refuse to relapse back to the dark side.

2. It has brought me and one of my best friends back to each other to reconcile.

Now i cannot stress this enough, i’m not happy with being under lockdown but i understand why. I’ll get to that here in a minute. I would so much rather be at work, i would much rather be with my queen, i would much rather be with my loved ones. Having a long awaited reunion. Our first since the night one of our own passed away and this time because we’ve all had to do some growing up, hopefully it won’t be sadness. It will be celebration and hijinks lol I’ll make sure of that and if i have to get super drunk, i will because as i’ve always said, i’m a funny funny drunk. I don’t always drink but when i do, i’m hysterical lol.

I do however understand why this is happening and which is why even if it’s frustrating, i will continue to fight for my future with my queen and my job that i busted my ass for. Those are the two things that are important to me. Just think of me as the Sam Ehlinger of everything else.

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I’ve come so far and i’m not going to just give up without a fight. If and when i’m cleared, if i catch CoVid i’ll do whatever it takes to fight it. If i die, i die. It was a good run, at least i went out guns a blazin to fight CoVid. Now before i continue, i’m not saying i want to die. Last year, i had nothing to lose. This year is a different story, i have everything to lose and i’m not going to let anything take my progress away from me. If and godforbid if i have to fight it in the hospital alone, i’ll do what i have to do to beat CoVid. No problem because unlike everything else i’ve been through, i have more to lose now and more to fight for and i’m not giving up easily on anything. Should i catch CoVid and BEAT IT?!?!?!? It will be another story to add to the legacy of the Phoenix Knight. Knock me down, i’ll continue to rise from the ashes again and again and again, nothing will keep me down easily which is why despite the rocky situation i’m in, well that we’re all in. I’m not giving up. Despite that this has kept me from not being able to see my queen in the normal capacity that we both want and that hasn’t been easy for the both of us, i will not give up. As Daniel Bryan once said ‘’If you fight for your dreams then your dreams will fight for you!!!’’ This is a test of my character and i have every intention of passing with flying colors.

Now in three weeks (Bare with me here), my old man and i are going to have a BIG revaluation conversation about where we stand with the pandemic. I’m nervous, scared, yet excited. While i desperately want to get back out there and i’m hoping phase one will lead me there (phase one something i worked on for my father to try to tell my side of the story about why i think i’m ready to get back out there), i will do what is right. I will do what is safe and i will not be like the rest. I will be smart. I refuse to put my loved ones in danger let alone myself in danger as well. One wrong move just like with all the other re-openings then its right back to the start. This is where it’s tricky. So as you all know or well alot of you know, i want to be in san marcos at some point in the very near future. I do not want to fuck it up. My job was step one of that plan before all this happened for i’am not happy here in austin anymore. I need something more quieter but yet something more close to my people. My father, and my 4 best friends. It is not cheap here but because of the pandemic, it has led me to a bit of a rock and a hard place. Now before i continue, i always tell my girlfriend and i guess i need to practice what i preach, we just don’t know what’s going to happen. I don’t know what’s going to happen. Maybe Abbott was right and i look like a jackass and i can get back to a little bit more normal of a life and back on track. I just don’t know. Now here’s the rock and the hard place, it is not easy and not cheap AT ALL here in Austin. If i want to go back to work if it is not safe enough then something different would have to be arranged. Someone i know or by myself. A) I don’t want to get someone else sick. B) If i’m living on my own and i get sick with CoVid god knows what’s going to happen. Or if i’m still here at home, if i get sick i don’t want to get my old man sick with CoVid either. It’s a very tricky situation and that is why i’m nervous about making the wrong move but as long as i keep my team in the loop and they do WHATEVER it takes to help me make sure i’m safe to keep my job and at my location or (Riverside or southpark meadows if SoCo is no longer an option) i guess it’s not terrible but i do miss it but which is why i feel between a rock and a hard place in this. Also if i do crack and say its time for me to try living on my own (has to Be close to work, safe and REASONABLY PRICED) One wrong move and it can set off a giant pandoras box but maybe worse. Just like with the immature state openings, one wrong move and we are back under lockdown. Hence why i want to go to san marcos but like i told my father, the whole point was to transfer there AFTER WORKING at my job for several months to a year and i refuse to go into san marcos dumbfounded. I wanted to go in a smart way but also because it’s cheaper, more quieter and did i mention its cheaper? Lol well its because i want to be able to travel more with my queen and i want to still live my life and do things i want to do all while being responsible.

The perfect scenario: If the curve really is flattened or something like that, the numbers are not too bad and my old man clears me after our revaluation talk or if not, he pretends to not clear me but saves it for my 27th birthday on July 1st and says even though its still tricky, happy birthday YOU’RE CLEARED FROM QUARANTINE!!!!!!!!!! Oh how beautiful that would be. Granted the sooner i’m cleared, the better. I would love for the signs for me to be cleared after our revaluation conversation. The minute i’m cleared, i’m going full Phoenix Knight and i’m not looking back

Message for Congress and POTUS

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I’m going to keep this simple. Ladies and Gentlemen of congress along with President Trump, i’m going to take it a step further along with what Mika said. All of you need to KNOCK IT OFF!!!!!!!!!! Enough with the fucking games and do your job. Orgy joke aside, do what we elected you to do and do your jobs. Enough with the greed, stop using god and religion as an excuse for your bad behavior.

I would say more but Mika took a good chunk of the words out of my mouth

Mr. President, grow up!!! Calling for Liberation in the middle of a crisis, you’re sick bro. Get off twitter and do your job. You think you’re making America Great again? Guess again Donnie, you’re not!!!!!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0239jHlMYY Evidence 1

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hB8icFsfJe0 Evidence 2

Mika already said what i was going to say. Do your job and do it right because the more you fuck up, you are going to be on the wrong side of history.

I’ll leave it at that

Closing statements and a message to my loved ones

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I’m going to close it with this. First by starting off with a plead, to everyone else who isn’t my loved ones, please.....please......please do not be stupid. Please be smart, follow the guidelines, maybe not always but a good chunk of the time, this is not a secret government conspiracy this is a serious situation and the more you don’t be smart, you’re going to ruin it for the rest of us. Normally i would rant but i’m begging you please be smart here. When the virus goes completely away or calms down tremendously, if a good chunk of you want to be stupid, greedy and going back to the clubs to post explicit pics etc popping bottles etc be my guest, but right now, please just be smart and considerate. I’m begging you.

Now for the message to my loved ones.

I’ll start with my queen, my best friend, my love Nicole: Baby, i just want you to know i love you with all my heart. I’m sorry this situation hasn’t been easy. But i appreciate you for sticking it out with me. I promise somehow someway i will make it up to you big time when i’m fully cleared but whatever happens in 3 weeks if its a step in the right direction where at the very very least we can spend more time together again, i’ll take it. I love you and you and Roxie are two of the main things that are keeping me going. I Love you with all my heart and i’m not giving up. Ever since the mental hospital, i just continue to fall more in love with you. I hope i make you proud like how you make me proud. You are one of the most beautiful kind hearted funny smart human beings i know. I’m honored to call you my girlfriend, my hero, my queen, my best friend. I love you with all my heart my pookieroo, my queen.

My father Chris: Pops, well done with the business and advancing with the masks. I’m very proud of you. I’m thankful for all that you have do and have done during this pandemic. I’ll save the rest for phase one

Andria: Thank you for being one of my best friends over the last six years, it has been an incredible ride and because of you, i met three of my other best friends. Love ya dude. I cannot wait for whats to come.

Chris: Brother, words cannot even begin to describe how proud i’ am of you. You have made tremendous progress over the last year and i feel like i got my brother back. I love you man and i’m so blessed that we met and that you have become like a brother to me man. I cannot wait for the new memories to come

Don: I know you’re going to make a funny out of this lol so i’ll leave a good chunk of it to you to make a funny. Just i love ya man and thank you for always making me laugh. (There will be tacos and nachos in your future soon hopefully really soon)

Bri Bri: The biggest blessing to have come out of this pandemic is that i feel like i got one of my best friends back. I know it hasn’t been easy between us but that doesn’t matter now. I’am so blessed you and i are doing well again and that i can see mav again soon, Fucking love that Dog. Anywho, proud of you. You are cool shit. And i got nothing but love for ya. Cannot wait for things to be better than ever.

I hope i make you all proud.

To everyone of my loved ones: Guys, i love y’all. I don’t know whats going to happen next but all i know is that we will get through this together and we will come out of this stronger than ever. I pray for y’all almost every night. My heart and my thoughts are with you guys. Anything y’all need at anytime, i’m here. It may not be easy but we will get through this together. As Bernie Sanders always says ‘’We’re all in this together’’. I love y’all, please stay safe and things will get better. I have faith and in the great words of Bobby Rhoode, it’s going to be glorious!!!!!!

Remember my friends, when you feel what you want to feel, you’re being real and being real is a very big deal.

Stay Safe, Love you guys, God bless you all

Phoenix Knight Forever

-Sky-

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phoenixknightv2 · 4 years

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State of the REALUnion: CoronaPaused (The version with a very raunchy yet funny yet true prospective moment)

Hi everybody,

-The state of the Pandemic

-Conservative vs Liberal Media During this

-Personal Message for President Trump and Congress

-Where i stand

-A Message to my loved ones

In the Great Words of Chris Cuomo, Lets get after it.

The state of the Pandemic in the US

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The Winners of the CoVid 19 Pandemic

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Doctors

Nurses

Chris Cuomo

My Girlfriend

Joe and Mika Scarborough

Mitt Romney

Dr. Bright

My Father

His Team

H-E-B

Andrew Cuomo (Yes i know about the Nursing Home mistake. He’s been better than most Of Congress however. Congress does shady shit on purpose. No one bats a fucking eye)

Bernie Sanders

The Last Dance Documentary

President Obama

Dr. Fauci

Mayor Adler

Dr. Birks

Senator Lamar Alexander

Bill Lee

Mike DeWine

Liz Cheney

The Losers

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Greg Abbott

Donald Trump

Dan Patrick

Ron DeSantis

Brian Kemp

Fox News

Sean Hannity

Louie Gohmert

The Majority Of the Rest of Congress

Trump Supporters

It scares me for afew reasons.

1. Crimes are going to be at an all time high.

2. It scares me for my girlfriend and her cat (And i love that cat like it’s my own daughter)

4. It scares me for the vulnerable

5. Scares me for the kids

6. Scares me for the rest of my loved ones.

I’m sorry no it is not. As a matter of fact, the numbers continue to go up especially in the Lonestar State)

Here’s why...........

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fP1GkV06PYY

‘‘I’m sorry to say i was right on this!!”

A scumbag thing to say Mr. Lt Governor. Now what am i talking about?

When this first started, Dan Patrick said and i quote

‘‘There are senior citizens who are willing to die for the rest of us!!” ‘‘There are more important things than living!!”

The Ongoing Liberal Vs Conservative Media War

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The Following are Exempt from this

-Chris Cuomo

- Joe and Mika Scarborough

Show you why here in a minute

I’m serious.

Does Kaitlan Collins and Kayleigh McEnany need to go down on each other or have a threesome with Mitch McConnell’s wrinkly ass and have a Cuckold while his wife is watching?

Does Rachel Maddow and Poppy Harlow need to use a vibrator on each other while Hannity and Tucker are jerking each other off?

Does Lindsey Graham need to get it in with Tomi Lahren and her Fiance while Chuck Schumer is licking their assholes?

Does Nancy Pelosi and Melania need to take turns swapping POTUS’s cum?

Does Joe Biden and Donald Trump need to have a bisexual fuck in the presidental suite? (House of Cards Reference)

https://www.foxnews.com/politics/kayleigh-mcenany-slams-cnns-chris-cuomos-use-of-less-safe-drug-to-fight-coronavirus

But lets get to the rest of Fox News, watch this video made by Trevor Noah https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAh4uS4f78o

Then by the now this channel

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5DmW_H4U-MI

See where i’m going with this?!?!?!? THEY LIE!!!!!!!!!!! ONE MINUTE SAYING ITS A HOAX!!!!!!!!! NEXT MINUTE SAYING THEY NEVER SAID THAT!!!!!!

Now lets go to the Liberal Media of MSNBC and CNN

Before i continue, Shoutout to Miss Mika for this video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khmEjO-FEaE&t=62s

But i will use my first amendment rights because the United States of America has a brand new nickname

What is it?

The United States of Stupidity

Land of the Rich

Home of the Stupid

Before i begin the Liberal side,

A good chunk of this country’s citizens and A VERY GREAT CHUNK OF THIS COUNTRY’S LEADERS IN OFFICE, not so much.

Where i stand with the pandemic

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1. It has made me realize that i need god in my life more than ever because i refuse to relapse back to the dark side.

2. It has brought me and one of my best friends back to each other to reconcile.

Message for Congress and POTUS

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I would say more but Mika took a good chunk of the words out of my mouth

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0239jHlMYY Evidence 1

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hB8icFsfJe0 Evidence 2

Mika already said what i was going to say. Do your job and do it right because the more you fuck up, you are going to be on the wrong side of history.

I’ll leave it at that

Closing statements and a message to my loved ones

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Now for the message to my loved ones.

I hope i make you all proud.

Remember my friends, when you feel what you want to feel, you’re being real and being real is a very big deal.

Stay Safe, Love you guys, God bless you all

Phoenix Knight Forever

-Sky-

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phoenixknightv2 · 5 years

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New State of the REALUnion plus Drama Vs Trauma The Blog Version

One thing i will say is i’ am so glad that the one thing that has been more true to me than anything or anybody officially returns in 24 hours. I have missed it so much and it has been so long since i needed it back at this level. The first half of this year was amazing. The second half outside of meeting my girlfriend has been a fucking Disaster in so many ways. Felt like the darkest time of my life all over again. Basketball Season especially when it comes to Texas Hoops is like what Kills to Dexter Morgan are. So anybody doesn’t freak out, if you haven’t seen the show Dexter then A) It’s a great show up until the final season but also B)Since he is more of a vigilante, Well......You’ll just have to watch the show to get it. Basketball season keeps me Sane. Not just another team to me, they are a part of me. When they win, i win. When they lose, i lose. Either way, i would be a jackass if i didn’t start off with that. HAPPY BASKETBALL SEASON MOTHERBLEEPERS!!!! I DON’T CARE WHAT ANYBODY SAYS THAT IS THE BEST TIME OF YEAR!!!!!! EVEN BETTER THAN ANY OF THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!

The fact that people in this society put mental health way below the level of importance is just really heartbreaking. I haven’t seen it yet but The Joker movie (which I heard is surprisingly really good) states just that. Before I begin I just want to say a very special shoutout to my mom and my girlfriend who finally get why I do what I do. With my movement and my show. I wanna make one thing clear, I forgave my mom a very long time ago. I just still bring it up on my show and then some because a lot of you out there still don’t get why I do what I do. Why i’am doing all of this!!!! And although like my aunt says I can’t change everything in this broken society, as long as I make even just a little bit of difference then I know I did the best I could.

It’s been awhile my firebirds and realbies. Let’s begin.

Originally posted by allreactions

I’m gonna begin this edition of the real Time blog by saying I’am done. This summer multiple times I’ve had to explain myself multiple times and i’am done. I don’t have to explain myself to all the doubters out there anymore. If you still don’t understand then fine but if you choose not to understand because your ignorance is so far up your ass then those are the ones I’m not explaining myself too. Far as I’m concerned, if you still want to doubt me then as far as I’m concerned you can kiss my ass. The only person I will compromise with regarding my movement somewhat (also because she is right on some things) is of course my girlfriend. Somewhat but just a teeny tiny bit my father only because I live with him still for now (hoping that won’t be the case for much longer) but I do got some things I need to figure out. Tell you one thing, it won’t be here. As a matter of fact, within the next year or year and a half, I don’t want to be in Austin anymore. This city more and more is getting fucked because of shitty leadership and all they care about is Money!!! OH LIKE YOU DUMBASSES DON’T HAVE ENOUGH MONEY!!!!! OH PUHLEASE!!! Fuck off on out of here. Because of that kind of ignorance and greed, this city is falling apart. It’s going to continue to fall apart and same with this society. Yes I get we all have to make money and yes I get it’s a capitalist society but it has gotten too far into greed and corruption. It is fucking up this society and Austin, Texas is an example of that. These news sites and rankings can rank it all it wants but do they not realize that there is a dark side to this city and what they are doing is contributing to said dark side of this city? Apparently not. Who knows maybe they’re getting bought off. But what I do know is I don’t want to be here anymore. It’s not the same city and other than my father and girlfriend, I have nothing here anymore. I mean yes I have the one thing that has been true to me (alas Texas hoops) but it’s not just another team to me. It’s apart of me. However I can’t be held back forever. I gotta do what’s best for me. For my future. Within the next year I want to be in San Marcos for the short term end game and then the long term End game, I wanna be in Miami. More of the Boca/Deerfield beach area. Man wouldn’t it be fun to be in a beach community. It so would.

Lets do the blog edition of Drama vs Trauma. I already did it in the show now it’s time to read it.

-Did I asked to be raped by Some of the neighborhood kids when I was a kid? No. Tell me I’m full of Drama

-Did I asked to be very badly mentally abused by my mom and ex stepmom? Definitely my ex stepmom more? No. Tell me I’m full of drama

-Did I ask for a certain bitch who I was kind of seeing before I started seeing my way better more amazing way hotter more kind hearted girlfriend, do what she did with the whole (country accent) I won’t abandon you one minute but then the next minute she abandoned me? Nah playa tell me I’m full of drama. (yes I’m taking shots at said someone but again I should thank her because her immature actions led me to my amazing girlfriend)

-Did I ask for two of my FORMER best friends at my FORMER job to fuck me over the way they did for about a year? After everything I’ve done for them assholes. Putting everything I got for them, that place, having their back, etc yet it still wasn’t good enough? No, tell me i’m full of drama. I dare you

-DID I ASK FOR A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE SEVERAL YEARS AGO?!?!?!??!?! NO I DIDN’T. TELL ME I’M FULL OF DRAMA!!!!!!!!

-Did i ask for my mom back then to have an affair behind my stepdad’s back with a man who i was pretty much forced to move out with her to his house when i hardly knew him and pretty much forced to look at him like a father figure? NAH FUCK NO I DIDN’T!!!!! TELL ME I’M FULL OF DRAMA I FUCKING DARE YOU!!!!!!!!!

-DID I ASK FOR MANY PEOPLE THROUGHOUT MY LIFE TO FUCKING GIVE ME THEIR WORD AND SHIT ON IT YET I’M THE ONE WHO’S GIVING ALL THE EFFORT?!?!?!?!? NO I DIDN’T!!!!!! AS A MATTER OF FACT, ONE THING I CAN’T STAND IS PEOPLE WHO FUCKING THINK I’M STUPID WHEN I’M ALOT SMARTER THAN YOU THINK!!!!! (Translation: I cannot stand ghosting and as a matter of fact, there’s alot of that going on lately.)

I got something i want to say to that but i’ll say it later on. Basically goes to one of my major points. Back to Drama vs Trauma!!!!!

-Did i ask for a mental condition like Asbergers, Anxiety and depression that have fucked with me my entire life? That made me unfortunately have to take special ed classes in high school? That made me look like a freak to where i was being treated differently and then some? No i didn’t. Tell me i’m full of Drama

-Anything else in my book or my show that alot of you have yet to learn about me, but yet decide to still question me and who i’am, I DARE YOU TO TELL ME TO MY FACE I’M FULL OF DRAMA!!!!!

Finally to end this portion of the REALUnion because there is alot more i got to say,

- DID I ASK FOR ONE OF MY OWN?!?!?!?!? ONE OF MY OWN WHO WAS A GOOD MAN AND LOVED BY SO MANY YET HE WAS SUFFERING TO FUCKING SAY HE COULDN’T DO THIS ANYMORE SO HE DECIDED TO TAKE HIS OWN LIFE?!?!?!?!?! NO, AND ANYBODY GOING FORWARD WHO HAS A PROBLEM WITH WHY I DO WHAT I DO CAN KISS MY ASS

Now before i continue, i know for a fact that i’m not easy and yes, i’ am a little too much at times. I get that i’ am overwhelming at times. However you know what, despite my imperfections i know that i’ am alot better and there are alot of good about me and that i have done alot for alot of people. Some of you see it, the rest unfortunately do not. It’s fine, i’m used to it. But if you think i’m just going to just sit by and take ALL THE BLAME......You clearly don’t know who i’ am.

For so long, i have had people tell me one thing one minute and then a complete different the very next. I can’t even begin to tell you how many times that has fucked with my head. It has happened throughout my entire life. I wonder how anxiety and depression could’ve developed? Hmmmmmm (I say that with major sarcasm)?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!

Also i may have said it already but in case i haven’t. I’ am going back to therapy because with all the events that have been happening lately, i have once again reached the point of wondering if i can do any of this anymore. Let me make one thing clear. A lot of the work is on me, the inner to make myself better. I get that. However like i have said with my anti anxiety medication (I can only take it so much and it can only do so much) the rest needs to do its part. Going back to the first part? I can only do so much work on myself but in any situations, relationships, it takes both sides and after what’s been happening.... i’am done doing all the damn work. Outside of my father,

These are the only ones who i know that will do their part and won’t make me feel like I HAVE TO DO THE DAMN WORK 100 PERCENT

AKA (The i trust you list)

Because i may love you but trust is a much different thing

-My Amazing Girlfriend Nicole (Number 1)

- Andria my amazing long time Best friend and the Big sister i’ve never had

-Glenn

-Michelle

-My Big 12 Country Brothers

-My Longhorn Nation Brothers

-Evan

-My Uncle Dave

-My Aunt Carla (Even if we don’t agree on everything)

-My Grandpa Lou

-My mom

-Will

-Devonna

-Daniel

-Chris(tian)

-Mary

-my Stepdad Jesse

-Jaclyn (My life coach)

-Jon

-Jon’s family

If you have made the list so far, congratulations and thank you for being the people who have been consistently trustworthy. Who have accepted me for who i’ am even when i haven’t been easy.

Now if you haven’t made the list, one of three things.

A) I May love you but i don’t trust you. I’ve had to do all the work and no effort in return. When you need something, i’m there always unconditionally but when i need something, WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?!?!??!?!

B) Because my trust has been violated so many times by so many, if you aren’t consistent then you are under evaluation but you got a chance to earn yourself back into my good graces. I’m done putting everybody at a level 10 when level 10 needs to be me and then 9 needs to be those i trust the most.

C) Don’t talk as much but nothing personal

I made a promise that i was never going to go back to rock bottom again. I made a promise to someone who i gave a tremendous shit about that i would never let anybody who was a good person suffer ever again. Now once again if anybody ever wants to question me, then go right ahead but have the balls to say it to my face. Don’t beat around the bush.

Let me say something that alot of people are probably wondering. ‘’Sky you have a girlfriend? Why are you still acting like the way you are acting?”

Well i’ll respond to it with this, just because my amazing girlfriend is in my life now, doesn’t mean that everything is fixed!!! No my fight and my movement still is going strong and it will continue to get strong. My amazing girlfriend is just my amazing support system. Is there boundaries we have to follow? Especially me? Of course and we both are a constant work in progress. It hasn’t been easy and she’ll even tell you. But you know what, after she read my book even if we won’t agree always on everything, she gets it and she is someone i can confide in. Obviously i don’t want to ALWAYS BE AS REAL AS IT GETS WHEN I’M WITH HER because i do want to enjoy my time with her and i want her to enjoy her time with me. However she gets it and then some. It hasn’t been perfect and hasn’t been easy but we just continue to get stronger and she continues to be an even more amazing girlfriend and amazing partner. It’s why she will always be my number 1. And while to everyone else yes i should sit back and enjoy it (which i do), it doesn’t mean that everything else is fixed. Doesn’t mean that i’m going to be a fake ass SumBitch. That is not how i roll

And once again, IF YOU LIVE BY THE GOOD VIBES ONLY SAYING AND YOU ARE IGNORING SOMEONE WHO IS SUFFERING THEN YOU ARE SO FULL OF SHIT AND YOU ARE PART OF THE PROBLEM OF THIS GREEDY HEAD UP YOUR ASS SOCIETY!!!!! Tired of that saying. Ignorance

One more thing, and this is in regards to something i found out, I’m going to say this one more TIME!!!!! WE ALL HAVE OUR FIGHTS!!!! I GET IT!!!! I GET THAT CERTAIN THINGS ARE PART OF LIFE BUT I’M DOING WHAT I’M DOING AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO BECAUSE THERE COMES A POINT where ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!!!! ALSO I’M JUST ME AND THE PEOPLE AROUND ME!!!! I get that sometimes caring about others before myself is not always the greatest thing but it’s who i’ am. When others suffer, i get upset or i get mad. My girlfriend is the same damn way which is why we are such a great match and indeed soulmates. But unless you know my story then sit down and shut your mouths!!!! Because just like how i don’t get alot of other people and things, alot of other people and things won’t get me. EVER!!!! But at least i care

As of today November 5th, 2019.....Opening night of the one thing that has been true to me more than anything and anybody. The following shit ends here...

-The ghosting fucking ends.

-People who give me their word and then shit on it.

-Me doing things for others and then when i need something, a good chunk is MIA!!!!!

-Everything similar to this summer, if it ever happens again, I WILL SHUT IT DOWN FASTER THAN A HOG TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM A HUNTER TRYING TO PUT A BULLET IN HIS ASSHOLE!!!!!

I will do whatever it takes to never hit rock bottom again but i will do it again. After all the shit that i’ve been surrounded by majority my entire life, NO MORE!!!!! Some of it is indeed out of my control. But the rest, i will get justice. I will continue to be who i’ am, i’ am not changing for anybody. I’ ll tone it down for certain situations (aka things that are important to my girlfriend) but otherwise No!!!! Because although i’ m not perfect and sometimes i’m not easy to be around, i need to remember the great things about myself. and there is alot. I’ am fair and respectful and kind until i have a reason to not be any of those things. I don’t like being the not so good side of me but if i have a reason to be that way and right now after everything again that has happened up until this point, If anybody has the right to be that way, it’s me because as i have said....Smiling and being happy go lucky isn’t always the answer. After what happened with that stupid bitch who i was somewhat seeing before i met my amazing girlfriend (who got together with me right after the last State of the REALUnion which i wrote right after the stupid bitch who i was seeing before i became a couple with my amazing way better girlfriend, what are the odds that me being REAL won me my amazing girlfriend over. Guess i did something right. It’s just hard to do so in this greedy stupid fucked up society these days), just proves my point even more.

Finally in closing, if anybody is wondering and some probably will, why you aren’t on this list? If it’s because i’m not happy with alot of things still and i will put everything else under evaluation until it is revealed whether i can trust you or not? Then you’re damn right because i will not put up with much more for much longer. Things are going to change or i’ m done. I get that life and shit gets in the way, that’s fine. That’s not the issue but it’s the effort and giving me your word and then shitting on it. Everything i’ve said to this final point is basically what i’m saying.

I will rise back up to the top, i will rise from the dead, or i will die trying.

Mr. Real as it gets is back. THE PHOENIX KNIGHT IS BACK!!!

REMEMBER MY FIREBIRDS

I WILL ALWAYS LIGHT THE WAY

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO

LET

THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE

PHOENIX KNIGHT FOREVER

ON TO HOOPS SEASON

TILL NEXT TIME MY REALBIES AND FIREBIRDS

-S-

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Enough is Enough

I don’t what it’s going to take. I don’t know what it’s going to take to continue to move forward. I don’t know what it’s going to take to continue to get better. I don’t even know what it’s going to take to make this stop. What I do know is Enough is Enough.

These last few months have really not been my best in a very long time. From being screwed over by someone who I’ve known for the last couple of years to my job being very stressful to shit going down within my group. Secrets and all that garbage. No trust or nothing. Nobody being honest with each other. Also finding out some damning things as well. Now to the events of Tuesday morning. Tuesday morning, this girl who I was hanging out with and in a way kind of seeing broke my heart and made me realize that I have had enough. For more on the story, see the To a Certain Someone Blog because it is my final word to her because again if she thinks I’m gonna just let her ride off into the sunset for playing me and not have the last word then she’s sadly mistaken. It really fucking Hurts. Because A)She’s a fellow aspie and I seriously thought that this was going to be my time but that’s not as big of a deal as this next reason. B) I’m more hurt that she made a promise that no matter what she wouldn’t be like the others who abandoned me. But after a conversation I had with her Monday night, I thought I got somewhere in general. Not a relationship but nope she was just like everyone else. And she abandoned me. For someone to say, that they care about what happens to me and then they do that, that’s the shittiest fucking thing ever. “I care about what happens to you but yet I’m gonna abandon you”

(see Link at bottom)

Yeah that’s a giant fuck You to the face alright.

I cried a lot Tuesday. Wednesday I did during the day but then after some more damning things I found out about other people that I know, and with the encouragement of others I said NO NO NO!!!! What happened was not ok so I did a very special and yes very angry edition of my Show and a very angry installment of Dirt in your eyes and it was about her because despite other things, she was the one that made me feel the most pain. Yes it is no secret I have anger issues and I finally snapped. Now let me say this, do I like getting angry like how I did on the show? I actually don’t. Unless it’s to protect my loved ones which i’am having questions about some if not most which I will get to here in a few minutes, then otherwise I absolutely hate it. I fucking can’t stand it. It’s the one thing about me I don’t like. Unfortunately it is a part of me that is here because well no matter what no matter how hard I try really with anything these days, nothing is ever enough. Quite honestly I’m tired of putting forth effort in a lot of things and not a lot puts forth effort in return with me.

I’m not doing what i’am doing to get attention. I’m not doing what I’m doing to get people to feel sorry for me. If anything, I’m showing the world that I’m not afraid to feel what I’m feeling because you shouldn’t have to hide anything just to feel accepted in this world. I’m not afraid to hide who i’am. I told my story to show the world that I’m not as bad as most people think. Am I perfect? Nah playa I’m not. Do I have my moments? Yes I do. Something would be wrong with me if I didn’t have my moments. Unlike most people, if something is wrong I just don’t ignore it and be like everything is fine LALLLLAALALALALALALAAAL DAISIES AND ROSES AND SUGAR SPICE AND EVERYTHING NICE!!!! Pussy ass My little pony strawberry shortcake fake ass happiness while ignoring the issue. If there is an issue, I don’t like letting it whither around in the shadows. Trust me, growing up with my mom was not easy. I was being bullied in school, being treated differently all with a not so good home life where although I do love my mom now and she’s gotten so much better, she was not easy back then with her bi-polar and drug issue. Basically I was forced to be “positive” or otherwise I would be in trouble. It was pretty much mental abuse. Almost every single night.

That was the same case regarding my ex stepmom. Only difference is she was more angry with my father for not giving her a baby. But you know what she did? Took it out on me. Said she didn’t know how to be a mom but YET IT WAS AN EXCUSE BECAUSE SHE RESENTED ME and really she didn’t like me.

I’ve had to hold a shit ton of things in my entire life. I had to be what other people wanted me to be because they really couldn’t accept who i’am as a person. Because of my conditions. After a lot of things that have happened, a lot if not all of them which are in my book and my show which by the way a lot of you Rat Bastards out there in general haven’t read or listened to yet, I’ve become more free. Which is why except for said certain situations, the rest of the time I’m free and I say what I want when I want and how I want.

When I look around this society and around me, majority of the things I’ve seen or heard is very fucked up. One day I was on the bus, and there was This young white woman. She was kind of fucked up but not entirely. Fucking Homie looking motherfucker who was definitely ghetto who is also clearly fucked up but more, sits across from her. They’re talking for a few minutes but then he starts asking if He gives her 20 bucks, will they get off, go in an alley way and she shows him her tits and pussy and maybe even sucks his dick and he cums inside her? And I’m sitting right there trying to ignore it playing my switch but a) it was really fucked up and it was disturbing but B) It also triggered my psychical needs of wanting to get laid. Because good god almighty at this Point since I won’t probably be getting a relationship probably ever, I would do anything to get laid and to rub up naked against a beautiful lady. Almost did it once at a strip club. Maybe now that I once again got teased in the relationship department, maybe I should put aside the secret strip club money, give a stripper money so I can go home with her, rock her fucking world and then some. Use all of my frustrations and POUND THE FUCKING SHIT OUT OF HER AND JUST GET IT IN AND GET WET!!!!! Ughhhhh it’s frustrsting. But it’s more frustrating that I now have to wait much longer now for something that I have yet to experience and I now have to go through more crap. While I’m watching others including some of my people in my group be affectionate with one another and I have to sit there feeling depressed and hopeless asking when is that ever going to happen for me? When is a special someone going to just rub my head, tell me I’m great just the way Iam and pillow talk with me? Probably won’t ever happen at this point. I’m starting to lose hope. Maybe some of it is my fault. Not all but some. Either way I’m starting to lose hope in that department

The worst part is because of what has been happening, I got a little something to say. Three years ago, I had no hope. It was the worst year of my life. This past summer outside of SkyBySouthwest, it’s feeling a lot like 2016 in so many ways. Now a lot of people are going to ask me Sky, why are you so down all the time? First of all if you really want to know my story, read my damn book and listen to my damn show. Second I get that there are other people out there who have issues. BUT IM NOT THE MILLIONS OF PEOPLE IN THIS GODFORSAKEN WORLD IM JUST ME AND THE PEOPLE AROUND ME!!!!!!!!!!!! If there’s one thing I will say, there will never be another person who cares more about what happens to his people than me. At this point I really don’t care what happens to me, my people on the other hand despite the questions I’m having, I care very much because it’s who i’am. I will never not care for my people despite the questions I may have. But after what happened this past week, I unfortunately am now starting to have questions about a lot of things including my people and there are things that i’am noticing. However at this time, I will not address it on here because it is between me and whoever and then some, not for here. My point being is it’s sad that I have to have these questions about a lot of things. I already have a lot of questions about this society but to have questions about those closest to me and people who I thought I could trust, makes it harder. Doesn’t mean I’m cutting anybody out. Not yet. But I don’t want it to get to that point. Which is why I’m resetting most if not all back at level 1.

All in all, no matter what, I’m not giving up. The only two ways I would ever give up is if my father ever gets murdered, or if I ever hit rock bottom to the point where I can’t get back up. Otherwise, I’m still here but Enough is Enough.

I have my issues. I have my flaws. I have moments where I fuck up but despite all of that, I know who i’am. I know my story. I don’t have to prove anything to a damn person on this planet anymore. You don’t have to like me. You can make fun of me, laugh at me, tell me what a piece of shit i’am. I don’t care but there’s one thing i’am that majority of this society is not IS REAL AS IT GETS!!! Not afraid to be who i’am despite all I got to work on. But remember, you bite me I’ll bite back.

My name is Sky Benjamin Savittiere. Aka Zane Theodore Phoenix Aka Phoenix Knight aka Captain of Longhorn Nation. I’am 26 years old. I’am an aspie. I have survived many things and I’m still here. I feel like at times I’m a curse but i’am still here. I’m here for a Reason.

I get that certain things are apart of life but when you lose more than you win more, it gets to you after awhile.

Things are going to change. If you got issues, just say it. Dont beat around the bush. Don’t hide. Either way, things are going to Change.

Because

Enough is enough

Im sky and I approve this message

Remember my Firebirds

I’ll always light the way

All you have to do

Let me in

The truth shall set you Free and it has set me free

Phoenix Knight Forever

-Sky-

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To a certain someone

I really didn’t want to have to do this but If you think I’m not gonna go out swinging after the events of Tuesday morning. If you think I’m gonna just forget about this....

YOU ARE SADLY MISTAKEN!!!!!!!!

First of all, I poured my fucking heart and soul out to you. I told you a lot of stuff that I don’t tell a lot of other people. I fucking opened up to you because I thought you understood me because you are also a fellow aspie. I don’t trust a lot of people these days. I FUCKING TRUSTED YOU!!!!!

Yes did I make my mistakes in coming on too strong yes I fucking did. But I said it before and I said it again,

WILL

NEVER

EVER

EVER APOLOGIZE

FOR HOW I FELT

If you think you are so innocent in what happened you are sadly mistaken. Telling me and I Quote “I never had another guy who cared about me and was truthful and honest in general and in the Pursuit of me like you” OH AND ALSO ASKING ME DO I WANT TO MAKE OUT FOR MY BIRTHDAY? THAT YOU HAVENT HAD IT IN AWHILE?!?!? LIKE WHO DOES THAT?!?!?? Especially because of the fact I legitimately gave a rats ass about you. Especially answering your calls at work

But you know what, here’s where I’m really angry. Here’s where I’m really hurt, it’s not the fact that we’re not together. It’s the fact that you made a promise that no matter what I say you won’t abandon me. Cause you’ve heard worse. Then Tuesday morning happens. You say even as friends we can’t talk anymore because you don’t want to be “disrespectful” to the new “relationship” with the guy you apparently are getting serious with.

Oh WAIT A MINUTE YOU TOLD ME YOU DONT WANT A RELATIONSHIP RIGHT NOW WITH ALL YOU’RE DEALING WITH RIGHT NOW!!! YOU WANNA TAKE IT SLOW YOU WANNA GET TO KNOW PEOPLE AND NOW THERES ANOTHER GUY THAT YOU ARE GETTING SERIOUS WITH?!?!?!? WHAT THE FUCK?!?!? WERE YOU PLAYING ME?!?!? WERE YOU TEASING ME BECAUSE IT WAS A SICK GAME TO YOU AND YOU GET OFF ON THAT?!?! THE FUCK IS THE MATTER WITH YOU?!?!? CAUSE I DAMN SURE HAVE QUESTIONS!!!!

MONDAY NIGHT I OPENED UP EVEN MORE IN AN ATTEMPT TO NOT PURSUE A RELATIONSHIP BUT BECAUSE I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THE CRAP I WAS DEALING WITH!!!!!!!! I WAS TRYING TO BE HONEST WITH YOU BECAUSE I WAS LOSING MYSELF AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO AND THEN YOU TURN AROUND AND YOU ARE JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE!!!! WELL YOU KNOW WHAT

While I was very upset the last two days, while you fucking hurt me bad, I should also say thank you. Thank you for giving me the wake up call I needed. Thank you for fucking showing me who you really are. Because you know what, I want you now to feel what I’ve been feeling my entire life and I love myself first so much that I’m not gonna just let this pass and do nothing. After everything I’ve done for you, Tuesday morning was a slap to my face. A hardcore slap. The money I spent, the good time and the care I tried to show you despite what I was dealing with inside myself

What really hurts me is I love your family. Your family is cool. But as History shows I probably won’t ever see you again and you know what, I’m ok with that because I’m done having fake ass people showing fake love to me. Unlike you, I’m not afraid to be verbal and open because I have nothing to hide. Turns out you don’t know who I really am.

Before my closing statement, I’m laughing because if this new guy is from Tinder something you admitted you were trying to get away from and that you hated then you are part of this broken society. You are just as big of a hypocrite as everyone else.

So in my final closing statement, I really do wish you well. I hope things work out for you especially with that guy you are apparently are getting serious with because if it doesn’t Don’t you dare come crying back to me because I won’t be there. I’am done pouring my heart out to people who don’t deserve it. Say whatever you want about me. Talk shit about me. I DONT CARE BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT IM DONE BEING WEAK!!!! I’M DONE BEING THIS SOCIETYS JOKE!!!! Yes I made mistakes and I’ve owned up to them, yes I know I’ve said if it doesn’t happen between us that it would make me question when is my time coming. Because in general, that’s what I’m feeling. Something you clearly don’t understand especially when I’ve been looked at as a freak my entire life and as a joke. But again I’m not mad about that, I’m mad about a promise you made me that you wont abandon me but yet here we are. Last but not least i’am having health problems so at this point if shit continues to hit the fan, if I die then you know what the crap I’ve been dealing with will actually be doing me a major favor then if I die of a heart attack so at this point I have absolutely nothing to lose.

I’m not perfect but I did the very best I could. This wouldn’t have been a damn issue to me had it had not gotten personal like it did but because it did, i take it personally. I really didn’t want to have to do this but I’m not gonna let injustice get away anymore. Plus the frustrations of the pressure I’m under, work, trying to get everything back together.....straw that broke the camels back.

Again I’m not angry that we’re not together, I’m angry because you BROKE A PROMISE!!! You say you care about what happens to me and you won’t abandon me, well Tuesday was a giant fuck you to the face and shows me otherwise. After everything I’ve done for you in the short time I’ve known you, that’s a giant fuck you slap to the face alright.

I have a Question for you. Did any of our conversations mean anything to you? Did the times the great times we had mean anything to you? The fact I cared enough to fix your phone and not ask for anything in return? The fact that I cared enough to be there for you, to answer your calls when I was at work when you were struggling at your Nanny job, to use a shit ton of my money to show you a good time, etc and all I asked for despite my imperfections is the same respect and care I gave you. Does that mean anything to you at all?

I guess not but I guess if this is the end which it probably is as history shows then I got nothing to lose.

One things for certain

The Truth has set Me Free

Remember these three words and remember the name

PHOENIX KNIGHT FOREVER

RECOGNIZE

PHOENIX KNIGHT FOREVER

Now we’re done

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Why Am i doing what i’m doing?

As i’m sitting here on a beautiful thursday night at town lake watching the sunset after a long but kind of boring day otherwise at work, alot is on my mind. The one thing though that is a constant is people always ask why am i doing what i’m doing? Why am i bringing The Real back by starting the REAL Movement?

That question is about to be answered right here tonight right now.

If you knew my full story then you would know by now. But the truth is alot of people still don’t get it. Some of them still have alot to learn but the rest don’t care because the majority of them are too chicken shit or they are too busy living in their delusional peter pan syndrome world. Either way, i’m doing this because i’m done with the way things have been.

Alot of people say there’s nothing i can do about it. They’re right but they are also wrong because believe it or not, i can. Maybe not the way i want to because as i’ve said before and before most of you sensitive pussies out there overreact, i’ve said this before on the show..... i believe that there are some people that do deserve to die. Unfortunately that is against the law but if things were done my way to that degree, then this world would be such a better place. However unlike most people especially those in congress who claim to care about the constitution but then in reality they wipe their ass with it because of greed, corruption and then some in this capitalist society, i follow the rules for the most part but let me be clear and i will continue to do this but if my people are ever hurt or effected by something bad, then the rules can go to hell. I will literally light all the rules on fire and burn everything down until my loved ones are safe. I will do whatever it takes to make sure they are safe and ok. Granted, i know i’m also trying to give a rats ass again for the first time in a long time because let me be honest, i was and yes i still kind of am have wondered countless times if this world is for me. Yes and i’ve shared this on the show even, i have tried to take my life multiple times back in the day because well when you’ve been through what i’ve been through and seen some of the shit i’ve seen, why not. However, if there’s one thing that will always be true about me outside of i will always be Mr. Real As it Gets is i will always be there for my people when they need it and if they are ever fucked with, you can take the rules and shove them up your asses. My main point is unless that happens, the one thing i can and will do is continue to say what needs to be said.

I look around and the truth is, we need someone who needs to have the balls to say what needs to be said. That someone is going to be me. Because hey why not? Alot of people already think bad of me and are apparently are overwhelmed by me alot of the time so hey why not? I got nothing to lose so it’s better to be real and hated by the rest outside of my people than not real and loved by fake ass people who are clearly using me and don’t give a rats ass about me. Which is fine because after all i’ve been through, i don’t really want alot of complications in my life. I get that i’m not always in control of the situation and i understand that but if i can avoid that, i can and i will. And if a complication does come my way that i CAN CONTROL, I will shut that shit down immediately and i don’t give a rats ass if anybody likes it or not. As far as i’m concerned, majority of people outside of my people and some good ones who i have yet to meet because not all are bad, the rest are just a bunch of rat bastards.

Let me ask you a question though and i want you all to think about this long and hard. Why is it that good people have to suffer but the bad people get to get away with shit and get all the good? I mean look at Donald Trump. The son of a bitch is a well known liar, who clearly with the help of attorney general Barr is trying to cover up the Two year LET ME SAY THAT AGAIN TWO FUCKING YEARS of Special Council Robert Mueller’s investigation. But people still love the guy but yet he continues to wipe his ass with the constitution along with his cronies including Lindsey Graham and That Turtleneck Son of A bitch Mitch McConnell. Just doesn’t make sense. Oh and believe me there is more examples especially examples of situations that i’ve dealt with but i’m not going to go there. I’ve done many times and i will when i’m trying to make a point but otherwise no point. But seriously though that is a question that needs to be asked more often but i’ve seen many examples of that and it just bugs me. Before i continue, let me make one thing clear, is the Left side of DC perfect?!?!?!?! Oh hell no. Far from it. I say that out of courtesy to some of my people who are on the right but if anybody in general thinks oh the republican/conservative party is perfect....I’m sorry but that’s just plain and simple not the truth

There is another example i wanted to use but due to respect and courtesy for a certain someone, i’m gonna use another example. I’m gonna use an example regarding my best friend who is now more and more like my Brother. It was the week before the final night of 2018 which was one of the best nights i’ve had in a very long time (Talking about the final night of 2018).

So me and Chris both needed a brothers night. No drama and no bullshit but just a night of fun and yes some real as it gets conversations because when i’m around Chris, he’s one of the people i can be as real as it gets with. He’s one of the people who has had my back and never left my side even if i didn’t deserve to have someone as loyal as him in my corner. Let me tell you and i tell him this all the time, if you want to look up a picture and definition of loyalty and Real, you will most definitely see a picture of him next to it. Anywho so we go to Arcade UFO which is one of me and his favorite places in town. We go and play some games including the Dance Dance Revolution and we even try the cuphead challenge and good god that was super hard. For fuck sakes we didn’t even make it past a full song because that’s how hard it was. Afterwards, we went to get us some fireball minis so we can have a drink at the clock tower because it was his first time with me going to the clock tower. Which in case y’all don’t know by now, at least a couple of times a week i have my ritual at the clock tower on campus around 9pm where i go to reflect and then listen to the clock tower play eyes of texas. We go, we have a toast and we have a drink to how far we’ve come. It was on our way to Canes that something else happened that really just rubbed me the wrong way.

Chris and i are on our way to Canes for a brothers dinner. Chris stopped at the store though and got himself one of those cigars the mini ones because on account of his E-CIG was fucked up. However Chris forgot to get himself a lighter so as we are walking, all he wanted was a quick light. Most of the people he asked while i was with him just looked at him like he was a fucking crazy homeless man which let me be clear, HE WAS NEITHER OF THE TWO!!!!!!!!!!

ALL HE WAS DOING WAS ASKING FOR A QUICK LIGHT!!!!!! LIKE HE’S GOING AROUND ASKING PEOPLE FOR MONEY OR DRUGGED OUT!!!!!!!!! HE WAS WITH ME AND HE WAS NO WHERE CLOSE TO BEING ON DRUGS!!!!!!!!

You have no idea how angry that made me. He wasn’t bothered by it but i sure as hell was. I wanted to say something to the people and make them in public look so stupid. It was right there and then that i realize that i was ready and had an Epiphany that it was time for me to take a stand. Months after i got robbed, it made me realize that enough is ENOUGH. That i’m done holding things in. I’m done standing by and being told there isn’t anything i can do about it. There is. Are there still good people out there? Of course. Are there still good things out there as well? Sure. The thing is those are hard to find right now. Why? Because i look around and most of what i see is pure shit.

I want you all to watch this video of The rapper The Game having a very real response to Kodak Black for what he said after Nipsey was unfortunately taken from us

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What The Game is Referring too is after Nipsey died, was Kodak Black said he was going to give Nipsey’s wife a year and then he will go for her. And like The Game said, this new generation of rap is disrespectful. Well i’m going to take it one step further and plain and simple say almost this new entire generation of Everything and millennial’s is fucked up.

I’ve had enough of it. This is not a world that i want our future generation to grow up. Especially if all things fall into place, my kids. Where greed, corruption, and then some is basically accepted. I’m done with it. Where people continue to ignore the truth. Where it’s after one situation then boom that’s it. Where people have to be something they are not. It’s either one of these two things

-If you are lower class but you are basically out dealing drugs, robbing people, killing, raping women and basically think being gangster is cool.....then you are something.

-Upper class, if you are boujee who loves to party every SINGLE FUCKING NIGHT and basically you are saying to those below you, WE ARE BETTER THAN YOU because OMG LOOK AT US, WE PARTY EVERY SINGLE NIGHT!!!! Also if you are a crooked billionaire or politician, then YOU ARE ALSO SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!

From my experiences, that’s what i’ve seen. Everybody has had their own experiences and again by no means am i saying all of them in those two categories are bad. Because i do know people lower and upper class who are nowhere close to what i just described. However, when again i’m not around my people, the two things that i did describe is what i’ve seen most if not all the later parts of my life.

Which brings me to my next thing. Does anybody remember the story about the woman who lost her mom and she was homeless? Well let me go to that for just a second. Actually, let me go back to the State of Austin, Texas.

As alot of you know, i’ve spoken out against some of the changes that the city is going through. I understand that everything grows but in the almost 8 years that i’ve been here in Austin, i feel like it is going through some immature changes. Immature changes that if the city and most importantly the city council doesn’t wake the fuck up and stop being about the damn money then the so called once Unique city of Austin will become another Detroit or St. Louis where it used to be safe but now it’s nowhere close to it. I mean for fuck sakes if everything else is going to be fucked up which i will get to here in a minute but the one biggest thing that bothers me is WHY IN THE HELL ARE MORE CRIMES HAPPENING ON CAMPUS?!?!?!?!? I thought the Haruka Weiser Situation was enough to wake the city up. Nah instead more crazies are populating on Campus. Let me tell you a quick story that happened recently.

I was on the bus on my way to work. I had to stop at Target but on my way to campus, this crazy obviously messed up druggie got on the bus and boy let me tell you i about said something. He was fucked up. He was threatening the bus driver but it was these two young women who he was harassing that really started to Bug the fuck out of me. I was doing everything i can to hold the Dark Side of me (The Knight of justice side) in. I came close to unleashing on him. That’s how bad it got because also why didn’t the bus driver kick his ass off the bus? I mean the Guy was calling the two young women bitches and cunts. Saying he was gonna rape them and kill them after. LIKE WHAT?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!

I have to give the young women some major props because they just ignored him and i’m very proud of them. I don’t know them personally but once we got off, i just asked if they were ok. Told them to please be careful out there. I was just disgusted and quite honestly very overwhelmed the rest of the day. So back to the main point, when i look around it just feels like it doesn’t matter what happens to anybody else as long as money is involved then other things don’t matter. In the case of why do i say that about campus is because the kids are there to learn. Why should they have to go around LOOKING OVER THEIR SHOULDERS!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!? IT’S JUST WRONG!!!!!!!!!!! Ladies and gentlemen that is what this world is becoming. It’s and it’s sick.

Am i perfect? Oh hell no i’m far from it. I’m not the most good looking guy in the room then some. But i will always be the Realest Guy in the room if need be. It’s why i’m not only The Phoenix Knight. It’s why i’m not only Captain of Longhorn Nation. It’s why i’m also not only Zane Phoenix which is my alter ego. IT’S WHY I’M ADOPTING THE NICKNAME MR. REAL AS IT GETS!!!!!! After dealing with mental abuse twice, once from my mom (who has grown so much and we have a very great relationship now) and then another from my ex stepmom (not so much). After being played and used many times. After being lied too. After all the shit i’ve been through and seen. After being robbed of so many things and actually being robbed, enough is enough.

So i end it with this. I’m not here to control anybody because honestly i can’t. It’s fine. I don’t care. But I’m here to do this for the people out there who deserve good things in this world. Who have had to suffer through so much of the darkness in this world. I’m doing this for the future of this world. For the next generation. For my nieces and nephews. For my kids the day i have them come into this world. I want them to have a world where they do belong and feel accepted. To where they don’t have to be what they are not. I’m doing this for my people and by doing it for them, i’m doing it for me too. Because honestly although i’m trying to get my life back together, i don’t care what happens to me. If i die tomorrow, as long as i know i got something started and brought attention to some things that need to have some light shined on, that i started a movement to bring the REAL Back. To bring some light, some compassion back into this world then i know i did something meaningful. Because when you feel what you want to feel, you’re being real and being real is a VERY Big deal!!!!!!!!! That’s why i’m doing this and whatever it takes for me to bring that back, i will do it. Whether anybody likes it or not, whether anybody gets it yet or not or chooses too, that is why the REAL movement isn’t going anywhere. We’re not Done yet, we are just getting started

Peace and Love

Stay Real My Realbies

-Sky-

#RealTimeWithSky RealAsItGets TheREALMovement BringingTheRealBack

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