is not my fault if you don’t have the balls to deal with my personality

crying while rolling a blunt at 11 pm. it hurts so bad and feels so good man. like yeah we’re sad but let’s get over that shit

i’m so unhappy with where i’m at and i wanna give up and self destruct. but i’m going to be patient and trust the process and trust that things will change as long as i pursue the change. things will change i just have to pursue it. things WILL change, they have to

sometimes i just feel like the most incompetent awkward piece of shit

fuck february! this shit sucks! everything was going so well for me and then it went to shit. i’m literally fine but i’ve just happened to get dumped this month and got my car stolen for a second time four months after the first time! fucking sucks bro i’ve felt like such an idiot and now even more. thought someone was in love with me when they were actually losing feelings!! i didn’t put the stupid bar on the steering wheel and a selfish motherfucker decided it was theirs to take!! but i did also move into my first apartment with my best friend :) so something good happened. it just feels so shitty rn and i’m anxiously waiting for it to pass

my car got stolen again. fuck my life man

don’t date coworkers! then you break up and have to see them all the time and it’s not fun! it’s lowkey torture!!

today has been a bad and really weird day. i’ve been emotional about the breakup and felt foggy and so sluggish. i feel like i shouldn’t be so heartbroken cause it was only a couple months but i did love him so that shit hurt. i just wanna be over it and move on but it still makes me constantly sad. and moving is lonely and tiring and scary as fuck. this shit is so hard but i’m reminding myself it’s temporary

i moved into my apartment today!

i hope i figure out how to live one day

it sucks to know that he’s only a little bummed while i’m so hurt and so sad and feeling like the fool. i don’t want him to suffer but goddamn i want him to suffer the way i’m suffering

it feels like im getting stabbed in the chest over and over and over

i broke down in tears at work bc he said ‘have a good weekend’ and it was so polite and different than how we were it just fucking killed me. like he meant so much to me and now we’re strangers and it fucking hurts and i hate him for doing this to me but i don’t hate him at all

now i have to go to work and see him while i’m still sad :( i’d rather do anything else

i’m flying to see my sister and i bawled my eyes out the whole flight. breakups fucking suck ass