Diego Kang could have sworn he was only attracted to women. He's had his hookups, even back when he went as James Lee where they would let him fuck them senselessly and call them names. But as soon as you walked into his life, he was more then ready to fall off from grace. The first night quickly became into an addiction after experimenting, wanting nothing more then to ride that cock of yours and suck you dry while you hold onto him and call him a whore for that dick of yours. Slap his ass, choke him, fuck him until he forgets everything and only screams your name as he grips onto the sheets. He has a concert? He'll take quickies as long as you fuck him after too. A meeting? He can sneak into the bathroom. He'll literally kill for that cock. That stupid unfazed expression he has 24/7 is no longer as soon as he's in private with you, eyes rolled to the back of his head and jaw slacked open. Diego Kang was just a stupid fuck toy for you and no longer the famous Kpop idol nor the legend of the first generation.
Honestly, at this point, id even read about Cardan and Jude doing the most mundane things like eating breakfast or Cardan giving Jude little morning kisses. I just love them with my everything
Michael never really fit in anywhere. Maybe that's part of why i like him so much. Or maybe i'm just projecting lol – but hear me out.
Michael Shelley maybe really didn't have a purpose in life. Maybe doing research on his trauma was all he had. He was too good, too pure for his human life - a life that probably just wasn't great in general.
Now other people without other purpose in life than supernatural trauma reasearch become happy fulfilled avatars, like Mike Crew. But Mike Crew chose to serve his entity. Michael, on the other hand, was sacrificed to an entity that didn't fit him, that was the opposite of him. He was naive and kind and would never lie to anyone, and the Spiral is the incarnation of gaslighting and lies. Which means the Spiral wasn't good for him, but he also couldn't become a good Spiral avatar vessel. Helen seems to be able to coordinate humanity and inhumanity. Michael wasn't, because Michael Shelley wasn't made for becoming this.
In general - i'm still thinking about how Gertrude stopped the ritual by making Michael the Distortion. Maybe it was just because it disturbed the ritual and it needed to get used to its new identity. Or maybe it was because Michael just wasn't a good distortion. He wasn't strong or talented or spirally enough to complete the ritual. God, i made him tragic.
I gotta say: This seems to contradict what i’ve said before, but i’m only talking about Michael and Michael Shelley as one person to simplify this. What i really mean is the Distortion could never be good at being itself while having Michael’s mind.
Can you imagine? Not only being tied to the embodiment of your failure, but still being your failure. Thinking with a mind that represents the opposite of what you are, that contradicts your very essence. That stops you from living up to your full potential, that stops you from being good at being you.
Posted this already in answer to an ask but I like how it turned out so I decided to make a standalone post for it :) The sequel to this picture featuring Konahrik and the Falmer in an alternate ending for my fic Death and the Maiden.