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deadlypoetacademia · 2 months

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I am just a simple girl, take me to a bookstore and I will tell you about each book I have read, about my tbr, about the genres, and will probably give you 100+ recommendations even if you haven't asked for.

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theorist-influencer-untitled · 10 months

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7.28.23 Friday

4:46 am

Awakened by a dream that I heard that someone is crying or some people are crying.... Weird!

5:15 am

Scanning some post here in tumbler-tumblr someone posted that one way to do therapy is to hold hands with someone and pretend to be the main character... Hahah huh? ( post of "deadlypoetacademia" ).

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It is 5:18 am here in the Philippines--Cavite....For me hmm... holding hands is one way to show that you care or asking help that can you be someone to stand by my side....Holding hands means I will never let you be alone, will just be here as whatever a back-up or your pole from behind in case you need a balance.

6:14 am

Let it slide....

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6:48 am

Another pancake-less day... :(

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2:16 pm

Done, eating lunchie with everyone here or my gang! hahah... Still, having windblow trap... Still, thinking of money... Thankful for today but I want more, I feel bitterish and still self-pitying..

I wanted a fluffy pancake with some bacons & hash brown, hoping in a lil while... Still,thinking of job and personal progress coz everyday I wanna cry having this self-pity coz I need money,angels...

I wanna buy starbucks, I need shampoo and conditioner in a bottle or tube... I HAVE COMPLEX BUT I HAVE MATURITY in a way... But I need and want more....

3:47 pm

Oh! The Johnson's Baby Oil Princess is dead already.

It is somehow weird coz I think I saw someone that looks like her in the mall as well, the day a Nigerian guy approached me... The girl I saw looks like her, wearing a sunglasses hmmm cool! I have eyes angels ..

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7:20 pm

More credits of coffee and more coffee that Uncle DD can't really help me with pride...

My nana commented this am that I should remind Uncle DD to buy a df for Neko, I said no! Nana, we should stop buying df ( dog food ) for awhile coz me? I don't have a lotions and serums, they can't assist me on that... Neko the rottweiler is fine, I'm taking good care of her and she is healthy and eating my porridge that I cooked for her... Probably, will ask them to buy a vitamin C ( as well as John needs his vitamin C and shampoo ) ... But what about our bottled shampoo and conditioner here... Plus, I need coffee for my system or else will be knocked down... I feel weak without coffee...

So, I still have stress thinking of money....Still, need assistance on money and I need a job or I badly need a job and I feel panicky and self-pitying everyday...

In the Nutshell:

Hmm... I need a support system who can be supportive and understanding... I need new friends who are willing to listen and be sensitive on my poorish situation.I want friends who know how to respect someone's boundaries.

I still wanna talk to my 3 main exes, I need a lift...

Sorry, for posting Mr Lopez name here, my mind is flying and about the favour of me asking help here to be my ally, it will be secondary coz in a lil while will work... But if in case Mr Lopez still willing to be an ally on me here, well it is fine... It is about the windblow trap, the job and the guidance in the society...

Another thing on getting a support system, I hope he can understand and will explain here....I don't know if these new pages will be good or bad or weird but definitely will tell some stories here coz I know I have angels here and there to protect me and give me shield if I need it.

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deadlypoetacademia · 23 days

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Is it normal to be happy and sad and hurting and healing and mad and guilty and jealous and calm, all at the same time?

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deadlypoetacademia · 26 days

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Born to be a character written by Jane Austen, with "You have bewitched me body and soul. And I love … I love … I love you." Forced to live up as a character written by dostovesky, miserable, touch starved and touch repulsed.

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deadlypoetacademia · 6 months

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Death doesn't scare me but you know what does, those, 'what if's' and 'maybe's'

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deadlypoetacademia · 5 months

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When i say my hobby is reading, i do not mean it in a cool hobby way, i mean it in a totally obsessing, addicting, sleep schedule fucking way.

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deadlypoetacademia · 5 months

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i have the pain of the paintings i see, the hopelessness of the poems i write, the personality of the last book i read, the anger and calmness of the sea, the hollowness of the sky and the loneliness of the moon.

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deadlypoetacademia · 1 year

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Hey! (with the intention of dancing with you in the rain)

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deadlypoetacademia · 9 months

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I want to write so much, speak so much, scream so much, but I can't. The words inside me are crushing me in. Like I can't breathe beneath the weight of these unsaid words. My heart feels too heavy, too small and too young to hold all of them.

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deadlypoetacademia · 8 months

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Some days i question my sanity, some days i question my insanity

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deadlypoetacademia · 10 days

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Readers being readers: obsessing when their favorite book is taking a TV adaptation and then never being satisfied after actually watching it.

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deadlypoetacademia · 6 months

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How tragic it is to wish to be chosen at first, to be a priority, but to always be left as a choice.

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deadlypoetacademia · 8 months

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In the process of getting everyone to like me, i end up hating myself.

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deadlypoetacademia · 1 year

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Love should be two sided, you write me love letters, and i keep them with me forever.

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deadlypoetacademia · 11 months

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deadlypoetacademia · 5 months

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2024. Like every year began with new excitement, new motivation, new hope and new fears. But, this year, on the days when I am hurting, i wish I'll have the courage to soothe the pain. On the days when I am low, i wish i could stand back and look back on how far i have already reached. I still wish to be in my delulu world though, to be a kid at heart and to be a lot more kind to others. So my dear 2024 please be good. There's a lot, lot and a lot of hope from you.

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