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soryualeksi · 2 years

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Meh.

#basically a coworker is going around claiming to regularly vastly overstep his lawful qualifications #and i asked someone in charge what to do if a coworker does that act of vastly overstepping #and the person in charge was horrified by the idea but also basically told me that if i have no proof #i can't go around making such serious accusations #and that the word of the coworker in question wasn't enough because they might just be lying #so unless i watch it with my own eyes i absolutely have to keep quiet and 'not start rumours'#but the coworker is spreading the rumour themselves gdi and you know what i fully believe them #because they're just that arrogant and think rules apply to other people only #but now *I* look like the mean-spirited person trying to ruin someone's reputation and make serious accusations #sob #note that i didn't say a name because when asked for a name i said 'look I'm no snitch like that' especially since i had no proof #so i wasn't actively telling 'rumours' about another person i just said there IS someone in our station who CLAIMS to be overstepping #and constantly #because 'well i know how to do it'#but now i look like an asshole and like I'm spreading 'accusations' about people without even mentioning a name #and just asking what to do #well it appears that unless i have proof or can at least claim a believable eye witness account from myself what I'm supposed to do #is ignore it and keep quiet #oh well it's not like i didn't try to warn you because I'm sure the prosecution will ask why you didn't put a stop to it #before someone was harmed #not my circus not my monkeys #but i feel bad for basically becoming the person in the wrong #by carefully asking 'there is one coworker who claims to be doing wrong and what should i do about it'#'oh people like this are usually lying'#well enjoy all the paperwork you'll be buried in when someone official hears the tall tales i guess #meh #vent vent vent #see and this is why nobody comes forward with knowledge of medical malpractice because somehow you end up the accused yourself just saying #in this case it's less malpractice and more 'you are absolutely not allowed to do that because your qualification is too low'#'yes even if you've practised it a bit before with a mentor and yes even if you think you know what you're doing'

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sysig · 8 months

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can you draw edgar and scriabin playing on a park like brothers for the vargastober? ty!

Day 7 - Play stupid games

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Edgar #Scriabin #I cannot tell you how tempted I was to make a Les Enfants Terribles reference for this prompt lol #I knew it'd be too much to ask for a daily challenge tho lol so single tube-tunnel for these two!#How /did/ Scriabin get up there tho - did he fly up? Think himself up there? Actually crawl up there?#He generally keeps his abilities pretty realistic when he's a kid which is very cute haha ♥#But even if he did cheat his way up there it's also a very charming thought to realize only in that moment that he's very small and scared #Got himself into a situation he didn't think through and was bad for him! That tracks lol #Edgar goes on a quiet rant about playing safely and Scriabin just ignores him haha #There's also something cute about them both agreeing to cheat for a moment and Edgar pulling him down into the tube with him hehe <3 #''Just close your eyes and fall through!'' ''Catch me!'' It's cute 💕#Kidverse is always cute tho ♪ And sad - but mostly cute!!#Also you know this is Requestober over here right? X3 I'm not doing Vargastober this year!#Shoutout to disposal-blueeee's prompt list tho :) Very cool!#One of these years I'm gonna do a doodle for every chapter of Vargas ♫ There's enough to choose from! Lol

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starflungwaddledee · 3 months

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Ok but what if she went to waddle Dee town in the forgotten land and all the waddle Dee’s just accepted her because they are really nice and not rude and they accept her and she has fun and a good time please I really need this for her

i considered drawing something out to this, and making it a happy ending sort of thing, because i think this is extremely sweet as a concept and i understand the desire for it!

that said, i decided that it would be a disservice to the lore i'm building for her, my biology/magic headcanons, and also the waddle dees as a whole. i might still draw it some day, because i could absolutely perceive a way it would work (ie: all waddle dee signatures messed up by Elfilis's portals, or their magic sensitivity nuked by it.) and i think it would be lovely

but for now, i have too many other things on the backburner to get to this promptly, and i wanted to answer this one sooner rather than leaving it for months

i will say, they're not being rude to her! there might be the odd one or two who is a bit snide, but there are some of those in every society. as a general rule the waddle dees not only understand that she is struggling, they want to accept and help her. many of them even know she's lonely, and feel pretty bad about it. but it's hard, and not just because she makes people uneasy!

i draw parallels with starstruck's gummed up magical signature to autism, as i'm autistic and so by merit (as a sona), so is she. but there are some parts that do not line up with the way autism functions in our world, and one of them is that touching or being around her can be genuinely, literally painful for some of the very sensitive waddle dees.

despite that, her waddle dee doctors actually pushed through it while she was in the castle dedede infirmary. because they were determined to treat her (mostly-surface-seeming) injuries and help her feel better. and they apologised for the reactions that they couldn't control anymore than she could control her signature; the various "sorry"s she parrots in this comic are implied to be from waddle dee doctors.

it's a fine line in alien-storytelling, especially with a real world disability parallel, and i'm trying to tread it as carefully as i can. but i don't intend to villainise the waddle dees at all for their reaction to her; they truly can't help it. many of them even do their best to push through it if she comes into their vicinity, especially because she often arrives with Beloved Celebrity, Captain Bandana Waddle Dee. but like a lot of us, she can tell when she's being tolerated, and so as a rule she just sort of tries to avoid it, one way or another

#also; i'm popping this one in the tags but like... she's frankly A Bit Annoying??? especially early on.#you give her rules but she ignores you. this was kind of evident in the oc secret santa piece i did. over enthusiastic #she can be too loud or too quiet. too much or not enough. extremely bad at reading the room. foot fully in mouth. really clingy.#these aren't necessarily “bad traits” but they're just not for everyone. and that's actually okay!#i simply gave her my personality traits and 'tisms. and *i'm* annoying 😅 so she's annoying too. *shrug*#not to mention that her voice and magic mimicry is straight up Unsettling. imagine seeing someone you don't know with your face!!!#imagine being told by your Beloved King and Number One Celebrity that that was a-okay!! weird as hell!!#it's important to me that she's annoying + weird and strangers don't always give her the time of day but her friends love her.#starstruck dee #asks #ps this is just an aside but i want to warn people off being like... idk. projecting on her too much. i'm glad she's resonating with people #but i don't guarantee that her story is totally happy or light-hearted. i don't want people to be 'personally slighted' or upset #when she inevitably gets turned into strawberry jam. i'm so happy you like her but please please keep this in mind.

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linkedin-offficial · 1 month

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au where falling feather lives and she + quiet water live out their beautiful yuri lives and adopt a baby

#i always loved quiet feather as a couple so i made it a reality. bcus i can #puffin is a sweet little baby but they named him after grey wing #so he has that “i have to live up to others expectations of me now” curse #but its okay . he lives #i love them all sm #these r all technically redesigns bcus the old ones were. so old #so take them. i love them soooo much augrhhrhf (eating my own hands)#warrior cats #wc au #quick feather au #ignore that i accidentally keep calling quick water 'quiet water' . im stupid #quick water #falling feather

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teecupangel · 1 year

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Okay, ignoring cannon and ubisofts total neglect of Elijah. Here's something to think on.

Au where Desmond is active in Elijah's life, maybe after the whole temple and solar flare fiasco he survives, Bill thinks he's dead and he takes the opportunity to per say... retire. Someway somehow Desmond catches wind of his son, the (loving and healthy) banter they'd have would be gut clenching hilarious it'd make you sick from laughing hard.

Desmond: look kid I really need you to cut back on the attitude at the moment

Elijah being the damn near carbon copy of Desmond with twice the sass: for any malfunctions, questions, or complaints, please contact the manufacturer

All the ancestors somehow watching the banter from the sidelines, either laughing or shaking their heads: those are definitely our descendants

They would have an “Elijah, no!”/”Elijah, yes!” and “Dad, no!”/“Dad, yes!” dynamic and everyone who knows they’re father and son would be like “yeah, that tracks.”

You also know Desmond would be the kind of dad that would make dad jokes because he knows it annoys Elijah. The more Elijah looks like the world is conspiring to kill him with his cause of death being embarrassment, the more Desmond does it.

Plot-wise, this could happen while Desmond was trying to tie up loose ends on his side to make sure his ‘death’ is permanent to everyone involved.

This, of course, leads him to learn about Elijah thanks to a file in Abstergo’s database that connects Elijah to his own file so he deletes everything by physically destroying the servers that housed that specific database and then makes his way to find Elijah.

In this scenario, Desmond knew it would be too risky for Elijah and his mom to stay in New York when Abstergo already knows about them and he managed to get his…… Desmond doesn’t even know what to call her… friend? Ex-one-night-stand? Anyway, he managed to get thru to them and they all leave the US because it’s just simply too risky to stay in the country.

(And, as much as Desmond wants to go to Villa Auditore, that would be stupid).

So they go to a country that has minimal ties with his ancestors and sorta try to live like some kind of sitcom family but Desmond and Elijah’s mom have the romantic chemistry of a wet cardboard box so everyone who knows them knows they’re friends raising their son together. Desmond gets a bar and Elijah has a sorta normal school life.

Then Desmond notices Elijah’s smarter than he actually is but hiding it because they are trying to remain incognito.

“Sorry, kid. I know it’s hard pretending to be someone you’re not.”

“I’m not pretending. I don’t want people to know I’m smarter than all of them combined.”

“Okay, take it down a notch, Einstein.”

“Do you know what they think of the smart kids in school? It’s just a different kind of torture, being known as the smartest kid in a government-mandated prison. I’ll probably get pushed all over in the showers if they knew I know how to use all the chemicals in the science lab to build a bomb. ‘God’ forbid I drop my soap…”

“Oh my god.”

Really, Elijah and Desmond say a lot of stuff that gives them headaches but that’s how similar they are. Elijah also likes to stare at the people his parents date and go “good luck” before going back to his room.

And both of them know Elijah is just being a little shit to make the poor innocent ‘date’ paranoid as fuck.

And Desmond would have problems with how to talk to Elijah at the start, of course. He had missed a lot and it was just awkward between them.

Until he realized who Elijah acts like.

Always curious about everything and anything.

A sharp tongue with a habit of sarcastic and dry humor.

A genius who knows he’s a genius.

Oh god.

His son was a mini-Altaïr!

And that is how Desmond realized that the best way to get into Elijah’s skin is to be a loving dad who likes to tease his son.

And Elijah, as much as he pretends to be annoyed by it, actually leans in whenever Desmond ruffles his hair or hugs him.

Not that he was going to say anything about it though.

Nope.

Sidenote:

I kinda like the idea that Elijah’s personality is a mix of a young curious child with the arrogance of Aita. Being kidnapped and watching his mom die made him a quiet child that has anger issues. So this Elijah would be happier and much more polite. He’s only sarcastic when he’s annoyed or close to someone. Also, his first crush will be someone who can kick his ass and Desmond would just stare at him because… yeah, that tracks.

And, if we keep Desmond’s Bleeding Effect, Elijah could interact with his ancestors as well. Might even call them something like variations of ‘grandpa’. They usually try to pretend to be Desmond whenever Elijah’s mom is there but Elijah knows which is which by now.

Desmond knows about it and he can’t help but feel happy that his own son accepts even that part of him.

#we always ignore canon anyway XD #edward can also be included in the bleeding effect #he has a feeling he knows elijah but he can’t be sure #elijah just keeps quiet #oh course #elijah knows he’s a sage #but he’s keeping it all a secret #because he’s afraid desmond would hate him if he knew #he was the sage of a man that loved juno #ask and answer #assassin's creed #desmond miles #elijah miles #teecup writes/has a plot #fic idea: assassin's creed

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gjdraws · 2 years

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For the @ckhalloween22 prompt: Environment of fear. Experimenting with pacing in horror etc etc. Further rambling in tags.

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asiogie · 1 year

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im just so fucking disappointed i loved that mf for so fucking long and now i am rly seeing his true character these last few weeks. he would rather people get hurt than say a simple fucking heartfelt apology. he would rather lose a massive chunk of his fanbase full of people who genuinely love and support him than give them an apology. he would rather one of his (formerly?) closest friends get attacked maliciously online for weeks than show an ounce of positivity towards a project he's been working on for a long time. while that man had nothing but love and praise to give back to him the whole time. i am truly speechless

#ive been keeping relatively quiet about my feelings towards quackity while i was figuring out what those feelings are #but i just dont fucking know anymore today has upset me so much i feel like i've been punched in the gut #but at the same time i guess i should have seen this coming? he's never addressed his past racism or even taken those videos down #so why start now #ignore this im venting

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fragmentedblade · 5 months

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Ratio isn't just socratic nor is his method just socratic. There's a lot of sophist too, with how he is paid and the Genius Society looks down on that.

#I think there's a bit of that playing there too in his concept character-wise #although yeah obviously the socratic method and arguably in general platonism are more present #With the mention and even use of maieutics‚ reductio ad absurdum‚ and the way we argue and dialogue with him to reach conclusions #The way the story with him is played by arguing with him first and then working together to reach conclusions #is so platonic-dialogue-structured‚ especially with the use of memory #Knowledge as something already in us but forgotten that we can get to if pressed with the right questions and perspectives #Very good #I'll stop before I go on about this even further. I was writing more tags than I should. I'll just delete them and stay quiet but. Yeah #I do love this man a lot #And I hate that I do xD I can't believe I'm so easy #I talk too much #Dr. Ratio #Ratio #Traces #Sorry if this appears in the tag I want to keep this idea for later on. Ignore me

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x-brik-x · 1 year

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do transandrophobes think visible trans men can just say "actually I'm a man" whenever we experience misogyny/transphobia?

"male privilege" my ass. oppressors don't give a shit what labels we use for ourselves. they treat us based on whatever label they give us, and when we're talking about transphobia, that label is "victim of female hysteria", or "woman" if we're lucky.

#the dirty transandrophobia truther the tiktok baby queers warned you about #imagine silencing trans men SO MUCH you call the people who listen to us “truthers”#and these people always claim to be allies #psa if youre a trans man and say shit like “transandrophobia truthers dni”#you've fallen for their bait #scaring you into thinking you're as bad as the oppressor if you speak up about your experiences #to keep you quiet so they can ignore the damage they're doing #dont you see it? they want us to shut up #so scream it louder #tw transandrophobia

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brw · 11 months

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i wrote a big long thing but kind of forgot where i was going with it so i'm just gonna write . i think one of the things with krakoa and the mutant metaphor as an extension is that krakoa genuinely like. is a eugenics state. i do not think i could actually live there without in some way being endangered. what i mean by that is that krakoa is not accessible in any of the images we have seen from it. what i mean by that is that krakoa doesn't visibly have an actual functioning hospital & healthcare system so much as it has a bunch of people that happen to either have healing powers or were doctors before krakoa act as the healthcare system, but very little seems to be organised. what i mean by that is that the emphasis on krakoa seems to be first and foremost on curing the disabled and not supporting them. and idk, the frustrating thing is that this isn't really expanded on like... at all by writers because disabled people are not in the writing room at all. it just isn't considered. maybe vaguely alluded too, but there seems to me be very little acknowledgement that krakoa is actively hostile to disabled people in a lot of ways.

#brieuc.txt #this is basically word vomit i might add on later #but i always feel frustrated i guess. abt how the mutant metaphor likes to sometimes aestheticise disability in some storylines #but very rarely is the lived experience of disabled people actually included #bc as i keep saying. if marvel's most icon & well known disabled character (charles) was to live on krakoa as a disabled man.#he would face a lot of barriers! it would be hard! the quiet council is surrounded by steps. there are very few ramps on krakoa etc.#n rather than this be acknowledged like attilan acknowledged it and lent into the issue of eugenics its ignored #idk. thinking abt it

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memorydragon · 4 months

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Yup, still on my gay coproganda bs.

One of the more interesting things about Jiang Ting's character is how much he doesn't actually want to be a character. His defense mechanism is to turn the question around. We first see this when Yan Xie confronts him the first time about being 'Captain Jiang'. He asks Jiang Ting what he has to say about all of the things he'd uncovered about Jiang Ting's past, and Jiang Ting's response is "What do you want 'Captain Jiang' to say? Tell me and I'll say it."

And he does this so often. He could lie, he could tell a half-truth, instead he asks what the other person wants to hear. What they want him to be.

And guess what? I'm totally normal about that. XD

The earliest memory we have of him is as a child, cleaning his father's body and being grateful that he wasn't beaten today. He's too young to understand that his father overdosed (we get no information about his mother) and is already dead. He's too young to realize that the majority of the people in his small village are either addicts or dealers, that it's a miracle he was born without HIV. When he's sent to the orphanage, he's isolated and bullied, internalized that he's unclean and unlovable when he looks in the mirror. When Yan Xie gets angry at the corruption in the orphanage Bu Wei grew up in, he just replies that 'It's like that, in places like these.'

When Ma Xiang confronts him, asking him who he is really. Is he the mole that got Yan Xie shot and nearly killed, lying on an operating room table while they waited for news? Jiang Ting says it himself, he's the most suspicious out of all of them, because even swept under the rug, the rest of the division Knows something is off about their 'Consultant Lu'. Jiang Ting doesn't define himself. He says "I'm who your Yan-ge thinks I am."

Yan Xie listens to the half-truths he's spun about himself after he dragged Jiang Ting out of the river, and Jiang Ting tells him: The safest thing for you is to hand me over to the police. I can't make myself believe you, because I have nothing now. I can't respond to this feeling, because I don't want to lie to you. Whether you hand me in or not is up to you.

He even does this to Wen Shao, when his loyality is probed. "What do you want me to say?" Except Wen Shao thinks he understands Jiang Ting the best, that only Jiang Ting understands him. Jiang Ting tells the truth then, that the one who understood his reasons wasn't him. Yan Xie was the one who correctly guessed the motives.

Because Jiang Ting has never been wanted as himself. He was the child of drug addicts, tossed into a orphanage where the corruption was rampant and money went into the adult's hands more often than not. When he finally found a friend, someone who liked him and didn't chase him away, his first thought is of saving his friend. Wen Shao has money and a family who loves him, so it's okay if he dies as long as Wen Shao lives. When his friend betrays him, saves himself first, Jiang Ting is happy.

Except his first friend, the person who says now everything I have is yours and you will be my only brother, the one person who likes someone like Jiang Ting, is the son of a drug lord. He forces the kidnappers who hurt them to take heroin, then turns to Jiang Ting and asks if he's happy now.

The child who watched his father overdose and has finally learned to understand what drugs are, is forced to watch more people die the same way by the one person who was supposed to love him.

He's happy. He's very happy. (The lie is so weak - he's ten years old and he's never had to hide himself like this before, despite everything. He's only just realizing that his first lie was already made, because he can't be loyal to Wen Shao, not like this. But he lies, because what else can he do? )

Wu Tun adopted him to keep his son, Wen Shao, in check. He's a pawn, put into a good school and groomed to be a policeman with padded pockets who will let the drug cartel off. He hates - hates - that he has no choice in this, he just has to become the pawn Wu Tun wants.

Wen Shao returns and he's brought new, even worse drugs with him. He wants his Red Queen on his side, gives Jiang Ting an apartment to rest in, to take care of things that would be 'inconvienent' otherwise, and Jiang Ting hates and hates even more.

So he plans to kill the King of Spades, then take out the Ace of Clubs. It can't erase what he is, but maybe he can move forward. All the over time, the stress, the loneliness will be worth it. (I'm so very very Normal about how he can't just agree to hanging out with his coworkers, how he over thinks and decides half way to take the agreement back and say 'let's talk about it tomorrow'. Because he wants to go, for the first time in his life he wants to do something as simple as going out with coworkers - possibly friends.)

Except he's been sold out. His plan falls through. His team dies and he'll never be able to talk about it tomorrow, and when he runs into the fire, all that's left for him is three years of being comatose and the King of Spades going free.

When he meets Yan Xie, he hides. He wants to be what Yan Xie wants him to be, but he can't. He's still tied as the Queen of Hearts, haunted by the sins he's committed and the people who died. He comments that Yan Xie is blind falling for someone like him, calling him beautiful all the time. That this crush that he'd never allowed himself to pursue has come back into his life and wants to be picked by him.

The Red Queen's heart that was so full of hate now has something else. But even if Yan Xie was blind now, would he still love Jiang Ting when he saw the truth?

He hides and he hides and lies, and when the cards are drawn, he finally tells the truth, finds something to define himself by. "I love you, Yan Xie."

Yan Xie's faith in him is already broken. It has to be broken further. The best lie is the one that is the truth that no one believes.

#Breaking through the Clouds #Huai Shang #This is Mem's life #Meta and things #This novel is actually a happy ending btw #This one is way less coherent than the previous post I wrote #but normal levels of Unhinged demanded I write more.#Also I adore how Ma Xiang and Han Xiaomei both come to the same conclusion as Yan Xie independently #like they both believe in Jiang Ting despite everything as well #Of course they've heard things #But they trusted in his actions instead of his words and I'm Normal about that #The whole department is just like so yeah we can't talk about Consultant Lu to any of the higher ups #And we're totally keeping the vice captain's piece on the side quiet #because obviously he's a cool guy? Ignore the fact he's supposed to be dead and sold out his previous team #Obviously Consultant Lu has only helped them.#Jiang Ting why are you like this let them love you

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july-19th-club · 1 year

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me age seven being sat down in front of the school’s district child psych lady and being given strange, simple spatial puzzles to solve and then long, complicated worksheets and hammering my way through them at the speed of light while having zero comprehension what their purpose was or why i was here: this is urgent! i have to get a good grade in Weird Puzzles, Or Else, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,

#kjalkjsdalkjasdl mrs button was a nice lady but not one adult in my childhood ever seemed to notice what to me now seems like #a pretty obvious case of the autisms #then again maybe they just didn't look as hard unless it was *really* obvious back then . it was like. what. 2000? a couple years later #everybody was talking about autism but not when i was six or seven then it was usually just when it was Very Visible #a couple years later my cousin who's more visibly on the spectrum than me got her diagnosis so young that she's pretty much always had it #which is...well i think it's just made her life difficult in a different way. people underestimate her or don't treat her like she's her age #but then she's always had the opportunity to get accommodations and people are sometimes more forgiving when she can't do something #whereas i got labeled 'kid that should be ahead of the game' from a pretty young age and then when i struggled adults either ignored it #or it was just a huge hassle to them and even i could see it exasperated them to have to work around me #but because mrs button (nice lady but what were you thinking) hadn't told them to treat me like a kid with a developmental disorder #they didn't do that in good OR bad ways . so i never got any accommodations with school stuff i struggled with which was a fair bit #i wasn't supposed to need extra testing time in a quiet room or tutoring with math or help organizing my abysmally scattered things #the only time i DID get that was in sixth grade when i was sort-of friends with this kid jonathan who was Very On The Spectrum #he wasn't really a talker unless it was about whatever he was reading which suited me fine so we just kind of existed in each other's space #and his TSS was this very smart and nice lady who had clearly clocked that Something Was Going On With Me and even though it wasn't like #her JOB she made a little bit of time for me. mostly with emotional stuff (i think i was under the impression she was a therapist?)#but if i had some problem with being unable to keep friends or being frozen out by the kids i wanted to be liked by (happened often)#she'd be able to just like. be there she'd make the time . wish i could remember her name

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ivan-fyodorovich-k · 28 days

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This is an impossible desire, because of survivorship bias, but I detect in most popular Christian thought we are presented with an implicit, sometimes explicit, suggestion that if we surrender to God, amazing things will happen. They point to Hebrews 11 and other famous passages, the Gospel of John’s promise that Jesus offers us life “to the fullest” and that that life starts now and not later.

For the last several years I’ve countered this with the second half of Hebrews 11, which is to say, well yes sometimes God uses people for amazing things, but God also allows very terrible things to happen to people.

But now I think the piece that I have never had shown to me, that I know realize is my own fate, is that it is very possible that God will have what feels like absolutely nothing at all for you to do.

“Many are called, but few are chosen.” I’ve thought about this through the lens of salvation for most of my life, but it occurs to me that it can relate just to the monotony of our earthy existence.

Gideon gathered thousands of Israelites for his army—when he told those who were afraid to leave, ten thousand Israelites remained, willing to face death. God sent away nine thousand seven hundred of those volunteers.

#Ivan you know it is about God and not you #I think it is just hard to internalize year after year our true insignificance #I mean #I don’t know #I am an unusually bad person #I never meet other Christians who appear to have any struggle with any of this at all #they are all just fully surrendered and content with literally anything that comes their way #I must not be a Christian at all #God I wish I had never lived #I feel like it would be one thing if someone loved me #you know?#and when I say loved I mean #I wish there was someone to whom I am not a terrible disappointment #I wish someone just liked me and liked having me around #who seemed like they understood and resonated #weren’t sighing and frowning whenever I spoke #or whatever it is #but Ivan why can’t you just be better and then maybe people would like having you around #I keep trying to embrace having a quiet and pointless life but…#I guess my commitment is just insufficient #I am too willing to abandon it #people keep telling me what a waste of my abilities that would be but you know #I could try harder to ignore those people #I just fear that if I embrace a life of quiet pointlessness #just like…if I had stayed a draftsman or whatever #stopped thinking about things and so on #I would die and God would say but Ivan look at all the proclivities I gave you #to engage with life in these ways and why did you ignore all that? People told you to follow those impulses and you did not?#and I would say God #I knew thee that thou wert an hard man

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sereiaxz · 7 months

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Its a real struggle when you want to end it all but youre too much of a coward

#should I keep quiet and ignore or just give in and fight #or just let my other thoughts win and just go pick up a knife #tw self destruction #tw self h4rm #tw suicide #I just want to run away very far from here and never see this people ever in my life #is it my fault?#do I seek this or what should I do #god i cant stand this #maybe I am just acting like a victim

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kyuzuberri · 2 months

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man why does my family treat me like im not a human :(((

#Like bro i get it you all just woke up but like #I did not sleep at all + i was studying which made my brain numb #and when i wake up all annoyed you all tell me i got attitude issues???#And lets ignore how my sisters literally TORTURE me to wake me up #And when im quiet all day yall ask me to talk???#Dude talk about what you guys dont even want to listen to me?#and then when i talk to myself and inanimate objects you all start thinking i have a boyfriend?#what is that logic 😻😻😻#maybe start considering me as a human who actually gets hurt and feels stuff ill start acting normal again #in the meantime #keep on using me for only your own purposes and talk to me when it concerns you only #and think of me doing stuff for you all as a “responsibility” that i have #BECAUSE IM NOT A HUMAN !!!#and ofc only my sister is stressed about her exams because i dont cry about it like her #oh no no wait till you find out what i actually did the whole past year cuz #i was so emotionally frustrated and brimming with all that ew emotions that i had to take out out somehow #its a shame how i think they know yet they dont care

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im-still-watching-anime · 10 months

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our cat looking absolutely decadent as she pins my legs in the MOST uncomfortable position

#maam pls #her head keeps falling backwards like she’s a middle aged man watching tv #everyone be quiet she’s going into WIDE mode #even got her little paws crossed all proper #not pictured: my dog curled up in the absolute sweetest way by my feet #bless our cat for preventing me from being able to reach him #because i want to pet him SO bad #but he’s dead asleep and also deaf so he would be So Scared if i did #we’re all having a girls night😌#ignore me posting so much about our animals i have nothing else to do lately rip #life junk #not anime

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