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#not to mention other headmates that don't hold body memories but still having similar exomemories also being fucked up by guilt
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really fucks me up how much i've been told that visibly showing symptoms of depression is inherently abusive
#cw abuse
#cw suicide
#cw self harm
#currently we don't struggle with depression as much as we did in the past
#we're at a point now where it wouldn't be a danger to us really at all
#but i remember how much in high school i would refuse to tell people how i felt and what i wanted to do
#because i was legitimately told repeatedly that telling someone else that you wanted to commit suicide was abusive
#or that harming yourself was inherently abusive to those around you
#not just in terms of things like 'if you don't do X i will harm myself' which can definitely be abuse
#but just. overall. in general. for any reason.
#which didn't make me want to STOP hurting myself. it did the fucking opposite
#it made me isolate myself just to do that which in turn only fucked me up more
#and it made me feel like i *should* get rid of myself because then that'd guarantee i wouldn't hurt people more
#and even now i still feel like. crippling guilt over the fact that i ever even did those things in the first place
#not to mention other headmates that don't hold body memories but still having similar exomemories also being fucked up by guilt
#when literally we were not in full control of our thoughts or actions we were fucking mentally ill
#our circumstances were horrible and people were hurting us simply because we expressed the fact that we were hurt in the first place
#we were literally treated like telling someone 'hey i think i might harm myself can you help me to not do that' was abuse
#and of course the shitty ex that i was with at the time decided to make it worse in her own fun ways too
#so like everyone i asked for help just made it worse so i never ended up getting help until my mental health fully and absolutely collapsed
#simply because. i was told. that my own mental illness hurt other people more than me
#because their annoyance at me being sad was a higher priority than. you know. such overwhelming despair that i didnt want to live.
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