Here's the "Special Version" of Qian & Yuan Love scene without the flashback...enjoy 😉
That "You don't even know what I dream of at night" still gets me everytime 😎🙌
P.S.: This "alternative version" has been released directly by Youku, it's not fanmade because "someone couldn't stand the fact that they grow up together like brothers"...just to be clear 😉
And in Zhiyuan's case they never lied. Kurt did an excellent job at conveying the difficult task of falling in love in plain sight.
Zhiyuan as a character always stayed true to his feelings. He never expresses his desires but his eyes can't follow logic. He always seems to gravitate towards Qian at all times. It seems automatic like he can't help himself but be pulled to attention by his presence. Like a sunflower to the Sun. Like the Moon to the Earth.
And even though he doesn't express (outside of his inner monologue) the struggle of "falling in love with the wrong person" we can see it clearly. His inner thoughts are summed up on furtive glances and pained looks.
We can feel all the emotions and anguish his character has had to overcome until they bloom into acceptance.
His eyes stay glued to its target no matter the outcome or consequence or who might be watching. Because in the end only one pair of eyes does he care to look into.
I have been thinking about the shifting dynamic between Qian and Yuan all week. A ton of people have written really insightful posts about these two, and I can’t get them off my mind.
I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again and again: the tragic backstory is not used as a shock factor or just to make you sympathetic towards a character. It is ingrained into Qian and Yuan’s thoughts, behaviors, actions, and responses. And it contributes to their compelling relationship.
Qian is hesitant around intimacy of any kind. Yuan is eager to care for the person who saved him.
We’ve seen from the beginning how much of a caretaker Yuan is for Qian. The vast majority of intimate physical contact Qian accepts is from Yuan (and by intimate I don’t mean romantic. I mean familiar, personal, etc.).
Qian rarely ventures beyond surface level relationships with people. His experiences growing up left him in a constant state of survival. He focuses on work as a means of survival and doesn’t consider slowing down as an option.
We see this at work, where he is often separated from his coworkers and rarely interacting with them outside of a professional capacity. He often stays late and arrives early at the expense of his own wellbeing.
It’s Yuan who bridges the gap. Who asks coworkers to take care of his brother. Who makes Qian sleep and eat right. Who is there at work and at home ensuring that Qian won’t overwork and exhaust himself.
But their relationship is not one-sided. Qian takes care of Yuan as well, making sure he’s able to take advantage of academic opportunities and clubs and things that Qian never had a chance to partake in. He gives Yuan a life where survival is a guarantee, not something to earn.
Qian protects Yuan through hard work. Yuan protects Qian through tender care.
When Yuan is sent away to study abroad, the time skip works because it isn’t used at the very end of the series to jump to happily ever after. Too often, time skips force us to miss important character growth and leave us unsatisfied and wanting more. By placing the time skip towards the middle of the series and using it as an actual part of the story and character development, we are able to see how Qian and Yuan live during the separation and the impact it has on their relationship.
And their reunion is more than one scene before the credits roll. There’s still many episodes for them to keep learning and growing together.
Once Yuan returns, the line between them has shifted. Qian actively seeks out Yuan’s care in a way he never did before. He’s always watching Yuan, reaching out for him, and aware of his presence. He had always welcomed it, but the separation forced him to feel what the absence of Yuan’s care was like. He was miserable.
Yuan matured on his own and still knows that he loves Qian. Being away only confirmed what he already knew. And Qian is starting to realize that he loves Yuan too.
Yuan knows exactly where the boundary is between them, but he’ll let Qian be the one to break it down. They have complex relationship, and it is being respected, not rushed. Moments are earned, not pulled randomly from the trope bucket.