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every1 that voted rinne as worst husband is so wrong... its literally canon that he cares SO much and fakes his insane persona hes just awkward and embarassed when he gets noticed

i have so many things i can say about this but im really bad at words but theyre stewing around in my brain explodes

what were your thoughts?

i do agree with the ones that mention niki haha those are true rinne is absolutely smitten but the ones that say its like. because hes rinne amagi. and others thay were probably filtered out by the OP... people that either didnt read the main story or just dont want to look further lmao

(cracking my fingers) okay. this may or may not be long. i fear you have struck a bit of a nerve with this (NOT YOU but just as like. a general statement. i feel like u dont know what ur asking. but that is ok)

this whole thing might seem really aggressive at times bc this situation did get me a little heated... plz keep that in mind going in! AGAIN IM NOT ANGRY AT YOU ANON ILY AND THANK YOU FOR ASKING you just happened to ask abt smth i feel very sourly about – not the poll itself but the answers to it – but i tried to be as. tactful as i possibly can while talking abt this

overall im very disappointed in a lot of the answers given for the voting so ive stayed off twitter almost all day today and yesterday. i fear like with stuff like this a very silent population of eng side shines through, the one that specifically Doesnt actually engage with the story and goes off fanon interpretation. look, im not saying its necessarily a bad thing. but when it comes to stuff like this, where people grossly mischaracterize a grand majority of charas or narrow them down to be the butt of a joke, or use it as an excuse to be plain racist/ableist, i feel like people really need to reassess where all of this is coming from. like. not rinne, but KANAME couldnt even be included because the answers used for his votes were, in their majority, apparently ableist, and op (definitely in the right, i think this was the right choice to make) chose not to post at all because they feared the qrts would be just as bad. because for some reason people seem to think that because they're fictional characters that being ableist is somehow ok, that saying they would "pull the plug" on charas like him and eichi is fine because theyre not real people – as if there werent disabled or chronically ill people in this fandom, in every fandom, or hell, around you?

and lets not mention tatsumi and people blatantly misinterpreting his christianity as something he would force upon others – first of all, western christianity does not apply to tatsumi. at all. i understand that people might find it easy to just associate him with that and make "haha, he would make me convert" or "haha he would be a homophobe" quips, and obviously its not necessary to have extensive knowledge on kirishitan history in japan and how they are, to this day, a minority that was persecuted for a lot of japan's modern history. LIKE, EVEN FROM HIS DIALOGUE IN ANY STORY.. when has he given off that impression? cite your sources, he's literally one of the most inclusive and accepting charas in the whole cast! not a prejudiced white christian middle aged mom...

i think that if you absolutely must reduce a character to tasteless jokes, stereotypes that arent even funny to begin with, and you refuse to even read the source content at all to correct yourself, you really need to think about how you engage with any media, not just enstars. if you want to look at the pretty characters just say that! but dont be like this, and don’t speak on things you don’t fully understand as if you did just to make a point or be funny!

OKAY RINNE SORRY LOL i hate it. i hated all of it and judging by the ratio many people seemed to dislike it as well (god bless!). if you havent seen it i wont link it bc tbf i dont feel like looking at it again (peace and love) but the answers summed up are like "oh he would steal my money" "hes selfish and would take stuff from me and not gaf about my wellbeing" "hes married to niki already" the last one being the only one i agree with. and it makes me think about a lot of issues with how a good portion of the fandom sees rinne. ive seen a lot of people read rinne in bad faith, regardless of whether theyve read main story, hot limit or any story rinne is in. and i dont get it, genuinely. YES he can be upsetting! he can be an asshole, he can be rude, he DOES steal money from niki! but these people neglect to see or mention that he gives it back and then some. they fail to talk about how he spends a lot of his time trying to make niki see his self worth!! since hiiro was BORN he's been trying to get him to understand that he's deserving of love!! that YES he can be a dick but ultimately treats crazy:b and his friends with love and wants what's best for them! these are the same ppl that think he's abusive or something idk i can only assume. like yeah rinne has a carefully crafted persona where hes a complete dickhead and ig some players cant really bother to see past that act

unfortunately rinne himself is built on a few harmful stereotypes of ainu culture irt the drinking, being portrayed or viewed as more 'uncouth' by other characters, etc which is why the initial more explicit ties to ainu culture were removed altogether from his and hiiros design and background. it is understandable, which is for example why it's not really my place to say whether he can be interpreted as ainu or not, and even so, i try not to rely on those aspects of him because it still veers into sensitive territory. and its an unfortunate part of his character, but undeniably, rinne amagi DOES drink, (he's one of the only characters in main cast of drinking age anyway) does partake in harmful behaviors, but fsr suddenly that means hes nothing but a drunkard, to a lot of people. when reading rinne you really have to take these things and ofc, consider that theyre relevant to his character, but it's not all there is...? in the slightest..? there used to be a tweet thread explaining this link further but it's either been taken down or the account has been locked. either way, just a bit of googling goes a long way. i'd rather not go into too much detail here because i don't feel informed enough beyond pointing these issues out, and i personally feel like it's not really my place. if anybody wants to add onto this post to cite more specific sources please feel free

he's such a fun loving, cunning, caring guy who helps people get jobs (dance of the white tiger), who volunteers to play with kids at a daycare (asobi), and wishes so badly to become an idol and grant everyone the same opportunities if theyd like to be, as well (main story, sudden death SUDDEN DEATH IS MY FAV STORY AFTER HL BUT THE TL IS DOWN....SORRY. but i really really think it's one of the most important ones when it comes to rinne's character and motivations. also if u can read it in app it's even better bc it's voiced and theres a line where he's like "oh this guy's [niki] is engaged to me" when talking to kohaku's sister AND HE SOUNDS FULLY SERIOUS TOO....)

don't get me started on people who dumb him down as if he wasn't one of the most clever characters in the game. and unknowingly, people that continue to make rinne's character out to simply be a gambling flirty drunkard who doesn't know how to control himself, as if there weren't other facets of him – they lean into stereotypes, bordering on racism, even if its not malicious or theyre not aware. and it makes me so sad. a lot of the time these interpretations are spread around and then liking characters like him becomes some sort of moral debate, esp in current fandom (which is one of the reasons i think this stereotyping? happens? b/c ive found that fandom sometimes has the tendency of grabbing characters and mischaracterizing them so BADLY that liking them makes you a bad person..? not necessarily villains either! i promise it's okay to just dislike characters without making stuff up!)

that aside also suggesting he'd be an awful, neglectful spouse is simply incorrect. i very firmly believe that if rinne is devoted, he will drop every vice, every pretense, to make the other person happy. he's Like That in the story and towards niki because they keep tiptoeing around the subject but the second he gets an inner monologue, or is truly being genuine, you can tell he would do anything for him, if niki would just let him. to say that rinne isn't capable of being a good partner because he'll treat you badly or not care about you just proves to me that you're not reading any scene he is actually in. if rinne loves you, romantic or not, he will go big or go home. read hot limit btw

im not about to pull the story caps out no wait yes i am lol rinniki4ever ✌️

these arent in order bc i had to scroll up like 2k pictures because i take caps of this game every time i blink. i was considering adding hiiro caps, to show his dedication to him as well, but given that this is for like a marriage poll id rather not. either way he cares about his family and loved ones a lot. read chapter 155 if you want to know the exact scene i was thinking about/referring to while typing this

um ok (breathes out) im fine now. theres things i didnt address because it's 1 am and i want to go to sleep. congrats kuro on getting #1 most marriageable tho u deserve it KURO NUMERO 1 CAMPEAO DO MUNDO 💯💯💯🔥

#im not tagging this with anything else #im sorry if i sound snobby or just. idk. mean at all. it isnt even a matter of media literacy anymore its more like #sometimes interpreting stuff on such a surface level and having to make jokes out of everything is not the best way to go #especially when the jokes are harmful/offensive. you dont really see this behavior outside of eng fandom #this isnt meant to be scolding i just wish people understood!!#but like if people say something is offensive rather than just doubling down...listen? please #im not an authority on enstars obviously i havent caught up on anything non alkakurei since like 2018. these are just my thoughts #if you read all of it i appreciate you :)#its not that serious. unless youre being purposely ableist and or racist which in that case it is that serious #mimthinks

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leah-leu · 4 years

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Lean on Me

This Krisho story was inspired by a two quotes:

One is mentioned in the story, but I feel like I need to mention the other one. Kris once said that if he was a king, he would order Suho to massage him, so I figured Suho most be really good as giving massages. Just a warning, when it comes to the massage, there is nothing going on, if you know what I mean. It is just a massage, although I can understand if it appears to be something else, its not.

Also I see that there a few people who like my stories, and I will definitely continue to write. Although it takes me a few months, to post, I will try and write more often. Thank you and enjoy.

D.O stretched his hand out to the side, swallowing what felt like sand. He heaved a cough as his hand wrapped around a cylinder class and placed it under his lips. The cool water trickled down his throat, but it wasn’t enough to calm the desert. He reached his hand further on the night stand to see if there was a bottle there. There wasn’t. He leaned on his elbow contemplating if he should get out of bed. A small tickle at the back of his throat urged him to get up anyway.

Reluctantly he swung his feet over the bed and wobbled to the door. It was dark, his eyes still heavy with sleep, but he manage to successfully reach the door.

He opened and closed the door silently, and walked the hall to get to his destination.

The Kitchen.

Up head he could see a light, which made it a little easier to see, his footsteps became sturdy as he continued on.

The closer he got to the light, his ears started to pick up rustling. He stopped and looked behind him, when he didn’t see or hear anything from behind him he shook his head and continued on.

The closer he got to the light he realized the sound was coming from there.

It must be the TV.

It wasn’t uncommon that one or two of the members would be staying up late watching a movie or TV show.

As he was close to rounding the corner, he stopped, as the noises he heard did not sound like typical TV noise.

It sounded like someone was in pain.

He shook his head. Sleep was still clouding his mind.

He just wanted some water, but for some reason, he felt frozen in his spot.

D.O took a step toward the light when he heard a noise that jolted his whole body.

It was a moan. But not a moan that someone was in pain.

The person hummed, and moaned, and sighed.

D.O was frozen, he wanted to move, but all his brain could register was what was going on beyond the wall he was behind.

“Don’t stop,” the voice sighed.

The voice had a distinct low sound, it had to be Kris.

D.O just knew, his voice sounded different than all the members.

What was he doing here?

According to Suho, there other halves would be here in the morning or afternoon, but it was still night time.

D.Os head twitched as what sounded like fingers clawing at the couch, and another moan.

Then someone laughed, light and airy, it was also familiar.

“Were just getting started.” The second voice teased.

D.O felt his eyes widen, he clamped his hand over his mouth. Suho!

Kris and Suho? What were they doing? He screamed inside his head.

“I bought this. Its your favorite scent right?” Suho spoke.

D.O heard a bottle or a cap being open. There was a pause.

“Oh!” Kris exclaimed, “That smells so good.”

Suho laughed again. “I thought you would like it.”

There was a brief paused, and D.O wondered what was happening.

“Isnt that too much?” Kris asked.

The cap to whatever was opened clicked closed.

“No, you want to be comfortable right.” Suho stated.

“I don’t want it to run over, and get on the couch. Its going to be a pain to clean up.”

“Don’t worry, just relax. Now close your eyes.”

Kris sighed, as if he was taking some risk.

D.O heard the circle motion of Suho’s hands, and then... Kris began to moan again, and again.

D.O’s face warm, but he still couldn’t move. What would they think if they heard him? Never mind his water, he didn’t want to go back to his room. with his jumbled mind. He could easily bump into something if he wasn’t paying attention.

“Right there” Kris hummed. “Harder”

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah, go ahead.” Kris assured Suho.

D.O bit the inside of his cheek. How long was he going to be standing here? His pulse beat wildly in his ears.

He could hear the couched being scratched over and over.

D.O wished he stayed in his bed. He should have just rolled over despite wanting water. Now there was no way for him to go.

D.O heard a cry.

It was Kris.

He turned his head back to the living room. His spine tingling. Legs begging to move.

“Don’t tense up” Suho’s calmly commanded. “Just relax” He crooned.

Kris groaned and sucked in his breath.

After a few tense moments of silence, D.O held in his breath. He heard a sigh from Kris.

“It happens every time,” Kris sighed, like he was tired.

Suho only hummed in response. Then he heard Kris yelp.

D.O jumped in his hidden spot, as Suho chided him.

“You rely too much on those chemically made pills”

What?Pills?

“Ow, hey stop.” Kris yelped again. D.O heard what sounded like a pillow bouncing off the couch

“Yeah, that makes sense coming from you, medicine man,” Kris shot back. “The vitamins I take are top quality.”

“Oh please, I only take vitamins when I need them. You however, use them to replace food entirely. ”

This is certainly not how D.O imagined their conversation going. He was terrified, but now he was confused and curious. Cautiously he pressed his back into the wall. He just wanted to see a glimpse. Turning his head to the side he quietly turned toward the light and moved over.

He could see that their backs was to him, but not by much.

They had clothes on, D.O noted relived.

Kris was leaning to the side. His upper body was facing Suho. Suho was turned just enough to face Kris, but was still comfortable with his resting a little on the couch.

D.O face warmed. Of course they would have clothes on why wouldn’t they. He scolded his inner self. But he couldn’t forget the sounds. He mentally groaned, best not to think about it.

D.O saw Suho’s hand go up and fall and smack on Kris bare calf .

“You need to eat more fruits and vegetables. Your body needs the potassium or your just going to keep cramping up.”

“I don’t like vegetables, I’ll eat some fruit, but…”

“No Kris,” Suho voice became stern. “You need to take better care of yourself. ”

“I do, that’s why I have you, so you can massage my legs whenever I need it.” Kris patted Suho’s shoulder and laughed.

Suho pouted. D.O knew Suho was serious whenever he made that face. “I’m really worried about you,” he mumbled.

Something in the air changed. The smile that Kris had was wiped away. Suho looked at Kris, while Kris turned away and heaved a sigh. Something told D.O that this wasn’t the first time they had this conversation.

D.O strained his ears as he heard Kris reply. “I know.”

They were silent, but the only sound in the room was the faint brush of hand on skin, as Suho gently rubbed Kris legs.

“I’m getting tired.” Kris, rubbed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose before putting his hand down. “I thought trainee life was difficult, but I hoped it would be better when I debuted. But it’s worse. So much worse.” Kris laugh was humorless. He placed his hand on his heart and rubbed it, like he was giving it a hug. “I don’t know how long I can go on.”

D.O felt his own heart skip a beat.

“That’s exactly why I’m worried. You would tell me, if you…”

“Yeah, don’t worry. I can’t imagine leaving you guys. I started with EXO, and I want to end with EXO.” Kris’s words were meant to be light, but D.O could see that Suho was not convinced.

“I’m just missing my mom. It’s difficult to fly back and forth. I feel like my body isn’t able to catch up. Then I can’t slack off, because I’m the leader I feel like I can’t freely express myself, because somehow I’m the voice of the company?” Kris used air quotations for the last part.

Suho nodded, he understood.

“Sometimes I just want a break, well a longer break.”

“It’s difficult now, but it won’t be like this forever.” Suho sighed. “We’ve come a long way.”

“Yeah we have. It’s easier for you though, this is what you wanted.”

“This isn’t want you want?”

“I mean, it is, but I didn’t imagine it to be like this. I was expecting something different.”

“Like what?”

Kris shrugged, “Just different. “ Kris paused, “I don’t feel like myself anymore. Every day is challenging. I wake up to aches in pains, and my legs cramp up all the time. But I can’t do anything because I have to help with everyone’s injuries, or homesickness, cooking and picking up their medicine. I don’t have time for myself. Even if I do get a break, my mind is always working on the others, you know.

Suho nodded sympathetically. “Yeah, it is hard to get a break in now days.”

“I want to do my own thing eventually. I want to share my ideas with the company and produce my own songs.”

“You always say that you are going to do it, but you never do. Just go up there and ask them to listen.”

“But I feel like I’ll be turned down. I still need to work on them.”

“What you have is fine. I like your songs.”

“It’s one thing to share with you, sharing it with the company… It needs to be complete perfection. I don’t want them to change my song, I want them to listen and have it on an album because everything is that good. ”

“It sounds like you need your own label. Or a solo”

“I wish,”

“It can happen one day.”

Kris hummed.

Kris makes music?

Why hadn’t he learned about this? In all the years they’ve known each other, D.O didn’t know this about Kris. At least not on this level, they are all artist, but most of the time Kris never seemed to be engaged, but then again most of the time he is away in China.

“One day we will all have our solos,” Suho leaned his head against the couch and looked up sighing dreamily.

“We’ll be a real powerhouse then. We could have our own label. EXO label, EXO Co,” Kris listed a few names.

Suho head snapped up and looked at Kris, “Yes! Lets make it happen one day, bro.” Suho held his hand up, and Kris slapped his hand with his own. “Yeah, bro.”

They laughed a little before falling into a peaceful silence.

“Your going to do great things Kris, your extremely talented. Don’t be afraid to go after it.”

Silence passed between them again before Kris spoke, “Yeah, well same for you.”

They both shared a smile.

D.O smiled as well as he turned away, from their hushed voices. There was something sweet and intimate about the two of them talking on the couch. He finally felt like he could quietly leave.

He went out to get water, but he doesn’t feel as thirsty now. Taking slow steps back to his room, he thought about something Suho had said once.

“Although we are very different in height, were close friends, and he often leans on me”

“Really” his past self replied in disbelief.

“Yes, when you are not watching”

D.O remembers how bright his smile was when Suho mentioned Kris. He rarely sees them hang out or talk to each other. They must do it more often when the other members are not paying attention.

Indeed they do have a heavy burden to carry. It must be a blessing that they have each other to lean on.

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