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Flying out two days early with Val had proven to be one of the more chaotic decisions Lana had ever made. She wasnāt sure thereād been an hour gone by where she wasnāt drunk. The whole world swam with it, rippled like a hastily dappled pool, reflected the Tuscan skies ā even grass, she swore, at one point, even the beaming face of a sunflower. Her pores had started to smell like fermented grape, ash and wild strawberries ā at some point, a local mustāve been wafting a cigarette, probably around the time heād hoisted her onto a bar top. Or maybe that was after. Before. During. She didnāt have a clear timeline. It was the most lucid sheād been, slipping into the dusty recession of an ancient, cobbled street, prowling an antique store so dark, she half expected every pot to house a Victorian childās teeth. Glitter chipped nails plucked at a lone ceramic, some haunting maiden with hair like Lanaās, a heart torn straight from her chest and her hands gone bloody with it. The organ was hoisted mid air like she was presenting it to someone, showing off a trophy or inviting them to take a bite. It was instant as a doctorās rubber mallet knocking against your kneecap, some deep, ingrained reflex within her, brain jolting right towards Viktor. Sheād show it to Rosa, maybe. Wouldnāt mention the Viktor part. Bite her tongue, resist the urge to ask again. So, likeā¦ how come he isnāt here? It never sounded particularly casual. Lana had never been great at that: stripping the care from her voice, dousing it with bleach. So, wandering back to the stone villa, ornament wrapped in a frail wisp of tissue paper, thatās what she intended to do ā intended to, at least, until a curl of smoke caught her eye from a row in the passing vineyard, even more so the hand attached to it. Strange as it was, sheād memorised his fingers. Knew the way they held things. Rather than any rational question leaving her mouth, cowboy boots rooted and jaw gone slack, Lana simply gawked for a prolonged moment before omitting, in surely ear rupturing volume, a great, whopping, āHUH?!ā @viktorfmā
Heād begun to only exist in peripherals; the shadowy figure at the top of a staircase - holes lining the walls of Kincaid, peeling wallpaper like fingerprints smeared down glass. A silent mark of territory for a spirit who would not cross; heād begun to only exist as a pair of eyes in the dark, the glimpse of something animalistic. A gaunt face in the background of a house party well documented; alive in some sense, but unrecognizable. Split between making his presence known and the white-hot of skin stretched tight, like outgrowing childhood clothes - like thereād been too much of him, somewhere, that he desperately wanted gone. He could split at the seams if he wasnāt careful. Could feel it now, matter of fact - knuckles white and a cigarette clasped between two fingers; small comfort in the way it fit between his lips and the coolness it left there. He could almost ignore the tingling in his fingertips; itād been there for days now, nerves constantly static shocked. Felt like a countdown - felt like his skin was stretching, and by the end of the countdown, heād split - thatās what it felt like. Like everything had been a warning, of sorts. Hadnāt known what his body had been warning him of until it was too late; until marshmallow swamped his mind until heād been stuck in it like tar, until heād been standing in front of a candy storeās selections, suddenly, despite not coming within fifty feet of one in months - he started to avoid them, because it left a twist in his gut and it was too easy to confuse longing with nausea. Until he could feel her eyes on him, before sheād even opened her mouth, because of course he could feel her there, because her presence felt known and felt like white-hot, but felt warm instead of uncomfortable, instead of seam-splitting and rotten and unlike floorboards done up and stripped bare. Viktor let out a laugh. He couldnāt remember the last time heād laughed - only that it felt natural, suddenly, even though heād been sure his muscles would forget the memory; hoarse from tar, hoarse from silence; his laugh cracked. Fizzled, after a moment. Didnāt know what to say after it - was pretty sure his legs had stopped working, and cigarette ash fell onto the toe of his boot, scuffed leather. He pressed hand to cheek, palms into the hollows of his face,Ā āHuh?!ā It felt like a crow mimicking human words, Viktor making a conscious effort to widen his eyes, copy her shock - he let out another laugh. Looked like a madman, almost, in his actions - he still hadnāt drawn closer towards her, couldnāt pinpoint which fear this was because of.Ā āChrist, Lana,ā he said after a moment - when the laughter passed again, short-lived in nature; he hadnāt had to raise his voice to be heard,Ā āYouāre a real... fucking, uh - hoot, sometimes. If thatās the fucking... word.ā
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(MAXENCE DANET-FAUVEL, NONBINARY) - Have you seen VIKTOR SAMUELS? VIKTOR is in HIS/THEIR SENIOR year. The VISUAL ARTS MAJOR is 24 years old & is a CAPRICORN. People say HE/THEY are OBSERVANT, INGENIOUS, RETICENT and DEPENDENT. Rumors say theyāre a member of KINCAID. I heard from the gossip blog that THEY'RE HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH THEIR THERAPIST. (JAMES. 21. EST. THEY/THEM.)
dont. look at me. i know. anyways if it wasnt obvs i abandoned cupid (n darrow) in order 2 bring the two ocs tht he ws inspired by n ws a combination of bt. theyre better as different ppl methinks.
DEATH, HEAVY GRIEF, OVERDOSE / DRUG ADDICTION, HOSPITALIZATION, HYPERSEXUALITY, RELIGION MENTIONS TW
aesthetic.
old tvs and their static, worn tapes, horror movie screams, spilled ink, a sculptorās hands, clay-stained, chicken scratch handwriting, messy notes, messy hair, scoffs and eye-rolls, bruised knuckles, sore throats, funeral homes and a crying preacher, shattered ceramics, knife fights, high ledges, vertically-striped pants, red lights, the moon shrouded in clouds, cigarette butts, graveyards and half-empty wine bottles, sitting there for hours and talking to nothing, about nothing, a god complex, gold rings adorning both hands, barbwire baseball bats, having never played baseball in your life, deep eyebags and broken mirrors, a permanent chip on oneās shoulder, yearning, longing, wishing.
basics.
full name: viktor phillip samuels
nickname(s): icky vicky :/
b.o.d. - january 2nd, 1996
label(s): the black hole, the crepehanger, the impious, the opaque, the tempest, etc.
height: 6ā²1ā³
hometown: preaker, vermont
sexuality: pansexual uwu
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favorite song:Ā disorder, joy division / itās getting faster, moving faster / now itās getting out of hand / on the tenth floor, down the back stairs / itās a no manās land / lights are flashing, cars are crashing / getting frequent now / iāve got the spirit, lose the feeling / let it out somehow
background.
born to mama and papa (preacher) samuels in preaker, vermont - fifteen minutes after his twin sister, tatiana samuels. years later, rosa samuels joined the gang.
was an awkward, quiet kid growing up, he didnāt interact well with others and preferred being left alone to dig up worms and draw on the walls of their childhood home. the only exception was his twin, really.
as he got older he grew out of this, but instead became like ā¦ sort of an asshole? maybe to compensate for years of childhood awkwardness. heās the sort of person who will bite the hand that feeds him & developed into a full time nuisance by middle school, unlike tatiana who was much more subtle about her conniving manners.
always has been a fan of ādarkerā materials. grim & creepy morbid shit. probably the biggest tim burton fan, ever since he was a kid ā¦ not a good look for a preacherās son, but he never really felt āinā with the rest of his family to begin with. classic black sheep syndrome.
drew disturbing pictures as a kid that probably prompted one or two or five phone calls home to assure everything was fine.
just really had a knack for art at a young age, from drawing to painting to playing with clay. itās always been his thing and probably is the only thing heās good at.
being twins with tatiana was hard. they were near opposite besides both being quite mean-spirited. tatiana handled being in public better, left a better image behind - but viktor had talent, more than she did. they loved each other deeply - yāknow, those unbreakable twin bonds as cliche as it sounds - but found each other as competition for their parentsā attention. a rivalry for affection.
in high school is when viktor really started to act out. it started extreme, like losing his virginity in their church and vandalism around the neighborhoods. faked being possessed in the middle of sunday service & almost had an exorcism performed on him.
his only redeemable trait was like ā¦ just his sheer talent in the arts. was in a 3d art ap course and specialized in sculptures. he could pretty much create anything he wanted with enough dedication.
because he was the problem child, the one who deserved to be disciplined for all his antics, tatiana could sneak away and get away with whatever she wanted much easier. on the bright-side, for her, i guess.
not a very motivated person - wasnāt planning on going to college, much less going to yates but his parents literally wrote & sent his college application for him because they werenāt going to house a deadbeat but had too much heart to kick him out onto the streets. cool!
heās actually pretty smart but he just doesnāt apply himself. has a minor in english because he didnāt care for an extra course-load, but heās good at writing & analyzing literature. is going to use it to write and illustrate his own series of children books with a style similar to tim burtonās. not for the kids, but because he likes to leave a trail of terror in whatever he does.
has been experimenting with himself since high school but college is where he really had started to crack down on himself. was out as pansexual & nonbinary by his sophomore year of college just ā¦ not to his parents, who donāt really need to know.
if you asked him if he believed in twins having a psychic connection with each other - heād tell you he wouldnāt know. it felt believable at times, but sometimes he had no idea what was going on inside of tatianaāas head. on the other hand - viktor had always felt oddly transparent to her, like she knew all of his moves before he did. the only person who could predict him accurately.
( tw death, grief, overdose / hospitalization beyond this point )
when tatiana disappeared, viktor knew something was up. it was a twist in his gut, pure instinct that something wasnāt right. and it wasnāt right - and when she was proclaimed missing, they couldnāt find her.
and when tatiana died - viktor knew. it felt wrong, something cut so severely in him he could pinpoint her death to the second. he didnāt know how, or why, but he knew it. knew it before anybody else had.
afterwards he went on a sort of bender. heād begun to struggle with a mild drug addiction late senior year of high school / early college, but he was managing it up until this point.
his mental health had also sunk to an all-time low, when itād never been great to begin with. (manic & depressive episodes. once fixated on a sculpting project for six months and then knocked it off the table and destroyed it as soon as he finished it for no apparent reason.)
tatianaās body wasnāt found immediately, and when it was ā¦ viktor went off the rails. ended up overdosing & being hospitalized. spent six months in & out of psychiatric care after that.
came back to yates to finish his senior year because ā¦ for the reasons above, he hadnāt been able to complete it. just wants to get his credits and get out of here.
is still dealing with a lot of trauma & grief - causes him to spiral and be unpredictable in regards of his mental health. he stopped taking his medication, so. :/ some days are alright, other days are pretty bad.
personality & facts.
the human embodiment of a gremlin that was fed after midnight. a goblin, if you will. one of those cats with a narrow head and really big ears ā¦ thatās them!
a big horror & halloween enthusiast. loves the old campy horror movies & probably has an abundance of masks from different movies. dresses like a grimy millennial beetlejuice more than they should because they just ā¦ love those black & white vertical-striped pants.
can appreciate the ~urban legends~ at yates and likes to feed into the fear that surrounds them. is probably the cause of a few āanomaliesā and āparanormal sightingsā because theyāre just ā¦ a jerk.
fashion alternates between e-boy (they would be tiktok famous if they were 17 & didnāt think that a majorly minor based app was weird.), millennial beetlejuice, and goth in a crop top & sweatpants. big fan of crop tops and a big fan of sweatpants.
they can be really fucking mean? petty, aggressive, a major instigator. will literally spit in your face for little to no reason, you could just look at them the wrong way. the kind of person who will stick their gum into someone elseās hair. other than that? theyāre like ā¦ sort of okay. theyāre not always mean, just a dick about 90% of the time lmao
like okay yeah theyāll call someone a stinky bitch for no reason except they feel like it and believes it. itās fine, theyāre fine, weāre fine.
despite the fact that theyāre probably getting into a fight whenever, considers themself to be a lover and not a fighter but thatāa primarily because they fuck a lot. uses it as a coping mechanism, like theyāre this big fancy carnival show thatās like ācome one, come all! fuck the dead girlās twin brother!ā and itās ā¦ a lot. might have a problem with hypsersexuality but theyāre not fully aware of it.
the preacherās whore son, basically :)
pansexual & nonbinary, switches between he & they pronouns often and without a pattern, but they have such a fragile grip on their identity that you could call them ādog-faced bitchā and theyād turn around like. sup.
vastly impulsive ā¦ like i said, they destroy their own creations for the fun of it. spends all their money on useless shit, will cheat on someone because they feel like it & likes the thrill, screams into the night sky frequently like a cat in heat.
will also spend months creating useless shit for no reason too. spent six of them sculpting a hollowed out tree the size of them & then took a sledgehammer to it.
theyāre very super dramatic. would play the organ at church when nobody was looking after them and service was about to start. would just churn out these super haunting, creepy melodies like they were phantom of the opera. would do the same exact thing at home on their keyboard with the pipe organ setting whenever they got grounded until their parents took it away hbdsjfngkh
will absolutely not talk about their ātime awayā because itās not anyoneās business, not even their own younger sister. still refuses to talk about tatianaās death, or their mental health, or their addiction (fallen back into it but it hasnāt gotten severe ā¦ yet :/), or anything involving their own emotions.
will just change the topic abruptly, no warning. asks about the jonas brothers instead and they fucking hate the jonas brothers.
that being said theyāre absolutely not over tatianaās death & itās to the point of obsession over it. like thereās some kind of secret that needs to be uncovered, even though there just. isnāt. tatiana was their rock and they were pretty much dependent on her. kept them grounded. could control them when nobody else could, got into their head easier than others. itās sort of like rosa lost two siblings that day because viktor hasnāt been the same since.
emotionally unavailable while also crying twice a day. cries during their brawls but still wins. is stony-faced when they tell you they cheated on you with your much hotter best friend.
will tell you straight up what they want from you, no bullshit & no beating around the bush. just blunt. if they want to fuck, nothing else, then thatās it. if they feel deviation or developing feelings then theyāll ghost in less than a second. is awful like that but feels no shame.
but also emotional as shit and itās confusing. will cry on a whim and then flip you off if you try to console them or ask them whatās up. will bite you.
they go to therapy but they just fuck around and wastes their therapistsā time ā¦ also is fucking their therapist, but thatās neither here nor there. so theyāre not really getting the help they need.
likes to be intimidating but not ā¦ with their body or anything because theyāre a twig but uses their love & knowledge of horror and creepy shit to their advantage. has an abundance of fake blood. has channeled the energy of jack nicholson and used it on tatianaās boyfriends before (also is a big fan of sfx makeup & has dabbled in it)
probably chases kids around with a chainsaw without the chain on halloween every year.
generally never doing good, both mental health wise & morally. would probably steal candy from a baby for funsies.
i donāt know if thereās a good to them somewhere deep down, but they donāt see any issues with themself either. nothing really breaks through to them anymore because the only person who ever made them stop and think about their actions was tatiana, and well, yāknow. :/
an introverted reclusive type who doesnāt like most people or going out, but does so anyway if it means a quick high & a cheap thrill.
pretty observant and likes to analyze people even though theyāre often like ā¦ partially wrong. judgmental because they like to make people feel bad, not because theyāre a righteous mighty person. because theyāre not. so like, a hypocrite!
wanted connections.
religious trauma? oh worm ;; three cheers fr <3 guilt <3 anyways uh. just people tht viktor hs known thru the church in some way even tho hes a fkn. freak now. maybe even family friends.Ā
the horror of our love :/ ;; hmm. any romance tht cld b toxic i think this cld fit. just rly a bad fit. viktor doesnt rly know hw to love so nothing rly lasts bt. maybe they try n try n nothing works bt they keep trying. cld also just be anything unrequited.
little fkn gremlins ;; theyre all evil n mean. bt theyre all friends. <3Ā
you are nothing ;; uuh. enemy plots. spicy enemies. rly bad enemies. rivals. they r brutal towards each other bcos nothing viktor does is ever soft.
fuck u dont pity me ;; uh. people who try to get close to viktor n he just. bites at them. heās like no. bc he assumes ppl who r kind in response 2 his vileness r. theres smth wrong w them. n it might hv to do with pity. n he hates pity.
ugh. locals x ;; ppl who also grew up around preaker, vermont. the samuels r <3 well known folks n the uh. hm. the murder is an ongoing case. so they cld know abt it <3
dont tell anybody x ;; this is for soft plots. i dont know much about soft plots but.Ā
maybe i am part of the problem ;; the problem is chlamydiagate. this is a hook-ups connection. fwbs n one night stands. ppl viktor hs brutally ghosted. he doesnt acknowledge their existence outside of these events, perhaps.Ā
dont u just wna go apeshit ;; this is where viktor becomes a bad influence.
bt uh. anything. pelase
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