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dilrmma · 3 days

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soccer!captain boyfriend ━━━ nrk. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ nishimura riki as your boyfriend

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nishimura riki who leaves a drink he got at the cafeteria on your desk every morning before you come in

“they didn’t have the on you liked, so i got you chocolate instead.” riki stands beside your desk with his hands in his pockets as he watches you grab the drink. “you really didn’t have to riki.” “i wanted to.”

nishimura riki who likes to tease you by hiding your pencil case or work book so he can have an excuse to talk to you

nishimura riki who does anything he can to get you both in trouble so you can be in detention together and he has more time to spend with you

nishimura riki who shares his earbuds with you in class and has a specifically curated playlist for you with songs you said you like

nishimura riki who stares at you shamelessly just to watch you blush under his gaze

nishimura riki who flirts with you because he knows about the tiny crush you have on him

“so, what’s your type?” he asks one day while he soplays with your hair. “is it me?” he raises his eyebrows, teasing you but in reality he hopes you say yes.

nishimura riki who invites you to his soccer game with plans on asking you out after + he makes you wear his jersey so everyone knows you’re his

soccer captain!riki who asks you out with an entire poster board held up by his teammates and a bouquet of your favorite flowers

soccer!captain riki who leaves his team zip up at your place so you can wear it to school (also because he loves when it smells like you)

soccer!captain riki who walks you home everyday without fail even though he’s always late to his practice

soccer!captain riki who won’t shut up about you in the locker room and everyone knows who you are despite not meeting you properly

soccer!captain riki who tries hard every game and practice to impress you knowing you’re in the stands watching him

“put your shirt down!” heeseung yells as riki wipes his sweat off—showing his abs and smirking.

soccer!captain riki who introduces himself as your boyfriend to all your friends

soccer!captain riki who thinks your kisses are his lucky charm and cannot go to the field without one of your pecks

“why aren’t you playing?” you run your hands through his hair as he pouts. “you didn’t give me my kiss.” his arms are crosses and he huffs until you give in.

soccer!captain riki who has a shrine of you in his locker and occasionally has conversations with you before his practice (he’s insane)

soccer!captain riki who goes all out for valentine’s day and sends a flower to you every class period until you have a full bouquet

“did you like my surprise?” his arm is around your shoulder as he walks through the halls. “it was nice riki, thank you.” “there’s still more.”

soccer!captain riki who gets jealous easily and doesn’t like it when you give someone else *his* undivided attention, so he gives you the cold shoulder

however, he doesn’t last long until he’s spamming your phone and showing up at your house for late night cuddles

“i’m sorry, i didn’t mean to ignore you.” he mutters while he hides in the crook of your neck feeling nervous but also accomplished.

soccer!captain riki who buys you matching jewelry and clothes because he feels connected even when you both are away from one another

soccer!captain riki who teaches you how to play soccer so he can brag to all his teammates

“so, i’ve been thinking that jake should be replaced by my girlfriend.” “stop it!”

soccer!captain riki who claims that the reason he exists is to be your boyfriend

soccer!captain riki who isn’t shy to say he loves you with all his heart

“i think you’re the coolest person ever, i love you.” he randomly says one night as you both go for a walk, but ultimately you feel the same

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madwomansapologist · 3 days

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shadowheart kinks/turn-ons | shadowheart x tav

a deep dive into what the mean gothic cleric think it's hot. yes, the brain rot is that serious.

cw: if you kink shame me i will get horny just to spite you. do i even need to say this is not for minors? if you can't understand that adults can like whatever they want to without it meaning shit about their morals then you're not welcome here.

an: so since y'all are whores that ate my gale kinks/turn-ons as if it was your last meal, there's more. granting y'all a choice: karlach or wyll next? say "thank you, mama".

NIPPLE CLAMPS

You can you see the visions, can't you? God itself told me so. The bush near my bedroom window is still burning.

Imagine it with me. Shadowheart going on with her day as one would, doing tasks around the farm and taking care of the house, and no one that looked at her would ever suspect she's wearing this.

She still wears a tiara. A different one, depicting a full moon instead of an eclipse, but still held around her head by a chain that also keeps her braids tied tighly. When the moment calls for it, she expends its use to lower on her body.

Sometimes it's about the pain. Sometimes it's about how sensitive this area of her body is, and how easily any sort of stimulation will turn into a craving.

BONDAGE

First things first: Shadowheart is a pillow princess. She earned the title. If you want a service top then Gale is your boy (so smooth, wasn't I?). Futhermore: she will be mean about it. It's written on the World Constitution: hot women can do anything they want. I don't make the rules.

Shadowheart knows she looks amazing. She prefers to be tied with black ropes. The rolls of her pale skin compared to the dark color makes it even more pleasent. She wants it to mark her skin. Shadowheart wants proof of how real everything was.

And she'll put on a show.

The pain and discomfort can be soothing. To feel helplessness, but knowing that a word from her would stop you. The immobility is a huge point for her: to not be able to move makes it easier for her mind to focus on only the pleasure.

Long sessions are a must. She wants you to take your time, get her skin ready with lotion, knot the ropes without rushing. It's occasional, but not on a daily or even weekly basis. It's a moment for you both to forget about the rest of the world. Why do it faster?

(see @/knottydevil)

Have you noticed I'm using catholic guilty logic with Shadowheart?

HUMILIATION KINK

When something about Shadowheart wasn't about shame? Teachings of loss make it clear: to pursue something, to desire something, is to be dirty. For years Shadowheart was taught to let go, embrace loss, not seek comfort or pleasure in others.

Some old habits are hard to forget.

It's different when you're the one acting on those thoughts. She's calling the shots. One word from her and you would never do that again. And still, she allows you to. Not because she feels forced to, because someone told her it was the right thing to do: but because it brings her pleasure.

Put her on a leash. Have her kneeling down, using her back as a support for your feet. Feed her. Tell her to try harder when she's already doing the best to please you. Spit on her face.

Show her that you want her so much nothing Shadowheart could ever do would make you turn your back on her. Show her time after time that you want her so fucking much dignity isn't even a concept in your head anymore. She could be on her lower, and you would still somwhow find a way to kiss her feet.

Use her shame to show her you feel none. Make her feel wanted.

CURE WOUNDS

She can be greedy, but never selfish. She cares so much about you, about your comfort and health. If you're careless or clumsy, Shadowheart will fear having a heart attack out of pure worry.

It started just as her way to make sure you weren't being negligent about your wounds. She would explore your body, handing glowing as her magic worked on you, searching for even the tiniest of scratchs.

It quickly turned into one of her favorite types of foreplay. Her hands wandering, you pretending to need her help lower, just a bit lower, Shadowheart biting your skin just to lick it clean.

Who's to say goth girls can't be playful too?

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just-null-cult · 8 months

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i've always wanted to try out this trend! i didnt think i drew him that different. i was wrong. very wrong.

hes so baby girl in my style what the fuck. oh i know, i was just drawing what gege meant to draw. dw, i got his telepathic brainwaves 👍

[time lapse + my headcanons for Noritoshi's appearance under the cut]

some headcanons i have while drawing him are semi obvious while others are bc i like it ahehahhaheha

cupid's bow lips! this was semi inspired by Mizuki Umetsu, the actor for Noritoshi in the jjk stage play! hes so. pretty. perfect guy for the role imo! i was captivated therefore my views changed.

longer hair! the thought that his bangs(? are the same length, or longer, as the rest of his hair is nice.. it also makes his inevitable haircut much more refreshing! i also just like long hair and its a fucking waste not to do whatever the i want.

thicker brows and visible eyelashes! i naturally draw thicker eyebrows because it looks pretty, but the eyelashes is so fucking canon bro. dont even fight me on this, you'll lose. i read a fic about Noritoshi where it said he took good care of himself and his appearance inspired jealousy. that fucked me up man, so now i draw him as beautiful as i can.

monolids! I've looked through the manga and i think its highly implied that Noritoshi has monolids? yk those lines in between the eye and eyebrow, he doesnt have them in the manga. i thought it was because of the expressions he had, but no. the others have them, except geto! so geto also having monolids is so fr in my head. i like that feature abt him.

loose hairs! the hairs that i draw on his face. they make him look so cute and a bit more relaxed. he's not trying to be perfect nor have a single strand out of place. he's just a bit more at ease... though if there's something important he has to go through, he sharpens up. becomes.. stiffer?

I UNINTENTIONALLY MADE HIS CHEST LOOK A BIT BIGGER IN MY STYLE AND I WANT TO APOLOGIZE, BUT I'D BE A LIAR. DOES THIS COUNT AS A HEADCANON??? I JUST THINK... SINCE. YK. HES AN ARCHER. AND DOES TRAINING. AND COMBAT. AND DOES ALL THOSE HIGH JUMPS... HIS CHEST. ITD BE A BIT BIGGER FOR HIS STATURE.. omfg. that'd imply that his legs are fucking insane. and his arms too, since he has to pull back all those arrows so quickly.. oh my fuck. this. this is a revelation. what are you hiding under those robes noritoshi...???? one day.. one day we'll see...

oh my fucking god i forgot that i wrote shit while drawing. please ignore my fucking stupid writings AND THE STUPID ASS THING IN THE MIDDLE I FORGOT ABT WHILE DRAWING..

#kamo noritoshi #noritoshi kamo #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #dawg my pc is so old. this drawing kept killing it off every few hrs #but nothing will stop my preaching of the gospel #ALSO I DIDNT SAY BUT DRAWING IN THE FUCKING ANIME STYLE WAS SO FUCKING TOUGH???#LIKE I FEEL LIKE IT LOOKS HALF ASSED BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO.#I STRUGGLED HARD BRO #FUCK #but i also learned a lot while doing it so it was hella fun #ahaha..... his lips are cupid's bow.. meaning his words are cupid's arrows.... meaning he could make you fall so hard istg #and hes an archer..... ahhaha... a nickname you could give him is cupid. ahahah. thatd be so cute. ahahaha <- insane #also me explaining fucking eyelid lines was spectacular. wheres my teaching license #AND I CANT FUCKING WAIT FOR THE STAGE PLAY DAWG. noritoshi's clothes flowy and in action..... im gonna study and fawn the FUCK out of that #as for the time lapse. ignore how i ignored the guidelines. why the fuck do i do that. bc im a cult leader thats why. dont question me #AND I APOLOGIZE FOR MY REVELATION AT THE END THERE. IM A DEGENERATE AT HEART. BUT I MUST REMAIN CLEAN. IF NOT TUMBLR GODS WILL KILL OUR CUL #but like i said i can be suggestive. heh. heh.#peep how i said [blank under the cut] heh. wow im such an online person.#oh how cool of me

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itspileofgoodthings · 9 months

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one time my mom was talking about something, I don’t remember what, and she said “have you ever known the poverty of having nothing to say?” and when I say nothing has ever punctured my heart quite like that statement

#I don’t even fully know why. also I don’t think she even meant it how I took it #but there is just some part of me that does believe that that is the greatest poverty #when there are no words in your mind or heart. no phrases—nothing to rely on or fall back on #and you just have to struggle with the human condition and be able to express none of it #and I know that not everyone uses words like I do or relies on them that way but people need some words. they need something #this is why a) I never make fun of those Instagram accounts that are all cheesy inspirational quotes or whatever because people are trying #they are REACHING #also b) that’s why villains who are wordlessly violently destructive make me cry #because it’s just like—-yeah I can understand turning to violence if I didn’t have expression #if I couldn’t get anything out #also also this is not related but I watched some movie or tv show the other day (and I cannot for the life of me remember which one it was)#but there was this couple on a date and the girl asks him to complete all these proverbs after she gives him the first half #because ‘a man who knows his proverbs can’t be all bad’ and it shook. Me. To. My. CORE.#also also!! this is why I teach! it’s the heart of it for me!! And why I make them memorize poetry. like.#and put quotes on the board every day. like. You will have words and images in your mind and your heart from my class if I have anything #to say about it #anyway sometimes my mom says things and casually devastates me #and I think (I think) she was just talking about the poverty of having no news because nothing is going on #and so you have nothing to share with someone. and she was talking about my Grandma and how sometimes she was just so sullen and quiet #but it’s just because there was nothing to say #anyway anyway anyway that is also why the one time on the phone my grandma said who has known the mind of the Lord —shook me so much #because she never really said anything. words were not her thing and she never quoted anything #and suddenly her saying this line of scripture that said more than any words I’d ever said —one of the defining moments of my life #tbh. anyway this is very long I’m sorry. I have woken up this morning crying about this. idk.

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brother-emperors · 2 years

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I was looking at all the Pietro della Vigna conversation illustrations the other day and felt compelled to draw a whole bunch of lines because this canto has been rattling around in my head for 10 years now and oh man, Gustave Doré knows how to make an illustration that'll set my brain on fire

Dante's Divine Comedy (Inferno, Canto 13), trans. Robert M. Durling + the section notes for context

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#OOF uploading this to tumblr really killed how it looks 😬 i did this at 3000px and cut it down to 1200 px for posting and #oughh that 500/540 for tumblr. hmm.#ah well! it is what it is. i dont draw with social media posting sizes in mind so i'll accept my fate #dante's divine comedy #divina commedia #drawing tag #suicide cw #if you ever want to know why i am the way i am a good part of it is that i took a class that covered the divine comedy in highschool #my teacher saw that i was really into it and gave me a copy of her teaching notes and also #recommended this edition because it had the italian with it #and then ANOTHER teacher saw i was reading it during study block and told me that i should listen #to an italian read along of it and that if i ever get the chance i should hear it performed IN italy #me 16/17: i think i can like this a normal amount #several adults in my life: fuck that you should literally fall in love with this stuff instead #and i took that to heart!

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crushed-oranged-angered · 10 days

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Part of me desperately wants to write Scaasic cause there’s NOT ENOUGH and I HAVE IDEAS the rest of me is consumed by this vaguely Mulan-ish AU where Stiles, Scott and Lydia all pass around the roles of Mulan, Mushu and the cricket like hot potato that I can’t get out of my head

#Neither of these parts have touched my issues with writing with a ten foot poll #Also every time I try to write down the Mulan AU it gets dark and in my heart of hearts it should BE SILLY WHY WONT IT STAY SILLY #Teen Wolf #Things to consider when the summer teaching schedule hits I guess #Teen Wolf has given me brain worms I haven’t felt since 2014 #What do they put in that shit

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isfjmel-phleg · 3 months

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#random personal stuff #personal whining feel free to ignore #am currently filled with spite and general I'll-Show-YOU-ness regarding a skill I never learned #it was implied recently that I do not know how to do this thing because of lack of interest #like I just woke up one morning and decided to be a burden on society #I KNOW perfectly well that knowing how to do this would give me greater independence #do you think I haven't been bearing the weight of this guilt most of my life #not learning was a situation beyond my control #long story weird upbringing unhelpful people lack of opportunity resultant anxiety etc.#anyway I've had it and I'd love to go out and prove that I'm not really worthless #...unfortunately I live in a small town where there's no place for someone like me to learn #because the system assumes that you are a teenager and your parents or school will teach you #or else (I suppose) that knowledge of this thing is written on every adult's heart already #so yeah...this is also a lot of why I never learned #(excuse me while I get angry for a moment)#I hate this. I hate the system. I hate living in a small town with extremely limited resources.#I hate whatever motivated the people who should have been helping me not to give me the opportunity and resources to learn.#(rant over sorry)#anyway I will eventually figure this out #but in the meantime it is Frustrating

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specialshinytrinkets · 1 year

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Okay, so I wanted to send my mutual an episode of KikoRiki to familiarise him with Pin — a character I really like (one episode isn't enough to say EVERYTHING about him, but dear god, he's the best, I love the kid robot's German mechanic dad :> )

Which meant I had to watch one episode to see what his name is, since some were changed in the English dub

And holy hell........

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(Original)

The difference is driving me insane. Literally

I know that dubs aren't always good at conveying the original's intent, look no further than Gumball's Russian dub with its censorship of "harsh" words like "butt", but THEY STRAIGHT UP CHANGE LINES TO SOMETHING THAT BARELY MAKES THE DIALOGUE FLOW AND THE VOICES ARE KILLING ME

so yeah i found another thing to be mad at

#random.dusty #kikoriki #смешарики #pls where's the techno scatting in the end what the fuck is 'wally in the house' PLEASE 😭😭😭😭#you don't understand i love pin sm he's just like me fr #i love him speaking german i love him getting mad at things not working i LOVE that he went through essentially #an artist's crisis in one episode i love him laughing at his own stories despite nobody else getting it HE'S SO FUCKINGSTCSRSCSUCWJS #they didn't do justice to him and many others why does sovunya (olga) sound like that she's too young >:(#and losyash (doco)......... despite knowing what happens in the episode i thought that was kar-karych at first #WHERE'S THE BI WITH MALE LEAN VOICE?????? >:[[[[[[#also if you didn't know uh i'm a sovunya x kar-karych x losyash truther they're all married and they love each other sorry 💅💅💅#but anyways barash's (wally's) monologue in the middle about aliens capturing him to teach him their 'horrible' dances #IT'S SO NOT IT IN ENGLISH DUB LIKE MY MAN WHY ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT THIS IT BARELY MAKES SENSE 💀💀💀💀#in rus it's 'did you get scared' 'no i'm not allowed to take anything close to heart. neither good nor bad'#'you're lucky. i get nightmares about aliens taking me on their ship and teaching me their horrible dances'#IT'S SO SIMPLE AND SO FLOWY AND AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #russian media #Youtube

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bylerpoet · 2 years

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i need to see mike and nancy being a team in s5. they could have such a great dynamic i swear. let me see the wheeler siblings in ACTION

#also see: nancy teaching mike how to use a gun #nancy is so much action and determination and i think s4 mike could really have someone to look up to like that #i'd also love to see them having a heart to heart à la will-jonathan but they don't really have that type of relationship idk #in my ideal world nancy helps mike with his feelings towards will #they could have a dynamic similar to steve-dustin idc JUST GIVE ME SOMETHING #duffers brothers pick up the phone #i never understood why they never cared to deepen their relationship like 😭#sometimes it's like they don't even know each other ??? they're siblings but also.... not?#i get that they were brought up differently and whatever but they could've at least given them a little more depth #like they at least talked a bit in s1 #it's like max and b*lly had even more of bond than them 💀 (negatively)#stranger things #mike wheeler #nancy wheeler #not holly tho

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fionarara · 7 months

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still randomly remembering that one time i attended the creator of Minecraft's annual house party even though i've never even played that video game lmao and after getting to watch Skrillex dj in such an intimate setting (surreal), we all hung out and he had like a harem of cute girls surrounding him on the couch, haha it seemed super platonic though and he was really respectful,,, literally he was so kind to me and everyone,, by far the nicest celeb i've ever met besides elijah wood.

#the infinity pool view was truly epic tho. best i've ever seen like #i've been to my fair share of random LA hills parties whenever i'm in california where the house was fire #but this one took the cake #apparently he beat out beyonce n jay-z in getting the property or somethingn.. as i later learned by someone that evening ?/ hm random fact #also he had like a massively ginormous room *inside* his home dedicated to displaying LIFE SIZE transformers and actual cars i felt so tiny #i wish i could remember that moment better but i think the party drugs i was on kicked in right then lol #the uber ride home later was a mess though bc i was p fucked up by the end and i had to teach some guy about #consent with the girl he was with in the backseat and i got really protective of her. she was so grateful she ended up kissing me instead !#like actuallymaking out with me and i was shocked but okay hell ya why not right?#i think the dude understood and got what i was saying in the end tho so that's dope #fuck i love teaching problematic 3D men how to think with their heart and not their cocks<3 #i honestly think i get super off on it. i've done it too many times to count #teachable non-misogyny moments FTW bling~bling! <3 #sorry this is so random i just needed somewhere to dump this thought out bc i could never to do it anywhere else in my actual life lmao #anyway hope y'all have been healthy and well <3 how's the anime world doin...?#haikyuu's comin back soon eh? and AOT too? maybe maaaybe i'll be back around then 👋#➕ara~ara gomen !#minecraft #video games

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vaugarde · 2 years

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so sad watching someone go through each episode of a multi season show and they just get more and more exhausted as the seasons just get worse

#both about drake's mlp liveblog and about the 7 hour spongebob ranking LOL #i forgot how many episodes of spongebob were just plain mean-spirited and i fully agree with him when i say that like #*when he says #they're not problematic or the worst episodes of all time and ''its just a comedy'' but then the mean spirited stuff isnt funny #its just not fun to watch. like black comedy can be really good but like it has to actually be enjoyable #mlp thankfully doesnt have that same mean spirited issue or anything like i think i likelater seasons more than most ppl #bc i got into the show finally when the movie came out. so im used to alicorn twilight and baby flurry heart and. kinda starlight.#but like the tone absolutely just gets weirder as it goes imo. like watching season 1 i can see why ppl prefer it #bc its very charming and later seasons kinda lose that. like ''the magic of friendship'' stops being like a metaphor #and there was sorta less focus on cute lessons about ''listen to your friends when they reach out! ask for help!'' that made the elements wo #work #and friendship somehow becomes like this magical unspeakable force thats barely studied and only ponies understand for real #so they have to teach other people what friendship is so they can also be magical. and how having friends just redeems u immediately #idk if im describing it right but it just feels weird. like in the movie w twilights dramaticline like #''friendship didnt fail me... i failed friendship.'' like that wouldve sounded more natural if she said ''my friends'' instead #idk its not a huge deal but it takes away from the charm for me bc it feels less like power of friendship and more ''this is so mystical''#echoed voice #id say i think this is me also with pokeani but like. idk i feel like thats kinda different inthat its not seasonal rot #its just that theres so so much of the same formula and not every small arc they do isa banger #the casts also shift now and then so it doesnt feel like characters other than ash haveto forget things all the time to function

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amatres · 1 year

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also im obviously very early into it but i feel as though the romance choices in inquisition are only ever flagged are when they are direct flirts, and not actions that would make the character fall in love with the protagonist, which kinda sucks. it's like, as someone who's asexual i found accidentally romancing someone both very funny and much easier than roleplaying a character openly shooting their shot at every opportunity, especially when it's done during a serious conversation.

it makes the relationship feel more organic to me, if that make sense? like yeah, technically you are still just dinging the right options to activate it, but it's narratively built off not just openly making your character available to the npc, but by reaching out to them in a way they find worth loving someone over

i know it was probably a decision to not only make romancing a character easier, but also to make it easier not to romance a character but still :/ it feels a bit more hollow to me, especially if the player wants to roleplay someone who is less forward

#ama mumbles #dragon age #dragon age inquisition critical #there's so many lis in that game but im pt sure the majority of the romance options are just 'directly flirt with them'#the only one i can think of thats not that way is saying you wont let templars take solas in haven im not sure #if you can think of more examples let me know! i am just kinda throwing in the dark here since its been years since i did a full run #this is also why i dont really like the wheel set up bc it does the heart option no! let it be a surprise! let it be organic!#thought this over how many times i accidentally triggered lelianas interest bc i was nice to her #and over remembering one of the romance options for fenris is teaching him to read. its not hawke flirting #its something makes him fall in love with them #does that make sense?#but i could also be completely wrong lol like i said its been a long time #its also why i dont like just one flirt option in a convo which the wheel mechanic unfortunately has to use to streamline dialogue choices

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itspileofgoodthings · 2 years

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as the anti-Helen of Troy my mission is to make the space where men are not something that can be so Fun and Safe.

#at the end of the day #it’s not the pining for the husband that gets me #it’s the missing the other girls when they begin to be romantical #(I know that isn’t a word)#(I mean it IS okay they always come back around and also it’s necessary)#but sometimes I do really know that my mission/ministry/jobs (that’s lofty language but…)#is to keep the feminine-specific place warm for the girls who don’t have anybody yet/for the girls who have someone to come in and out of #and like. i feel it so strongly that I can make it just as fun. and that I can make it something that is so safe #and I want to do that #like. the protectiveness I feel of the female heart #i can’t explain it but it is SO powerful. i am so protective of it #and I love men. and I love to think on the good ones and reflect and appreciate #but it’s not my ministry to do anything with them except teach them #until/if there is a husband #and it’s just like. he better be such a funny icon. because no way I’m letting anybody else into the rose garden space of the just for girls #actually he wouldn’t be allowed into that space either. but I’d come out occasionally just for him. and then start sort of a joint-garden #with him.#because tbh he should be someone who is taking care of men/leading them etc.#making them run the bleachers of life. till the earth etc. etc. etc.#and yes that is a Coach Taylor reference but that’s why I love him!!!#and that’s why he’s my husband #the ultimate complementary ministries #but like. he would KNOW on some level that my first loyalty is always to Women #in the sense of my work. but then he’d be my husband #Maria literally stop doodling on the whiteboard of life again challenge #but actually I won’t because it’s safe to do it here. i can’t say ALL of these things in person #so thanks for listening I’m sure it is confusing. but I am feeling a lot and reflecting a lot #and am very curious to see how things develop and grow #for me and what I want to do #anyway yes yes I’m being insufferable in some ways but also I just mean it all 100% lol

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linda-rose · 2 years

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y'all. i'm so tired.

(vent in tags below no pressure to read I just needed to scream nonsense into the void before I went to bed lmao)

#started my student teaching experience this semester #and holy shit #im not even taking over everything or most yet and im so dead #how tf do actual teachers do this like #also had my first really hard convos wirh kids today who were opening up about really tough stuff.#and like I've just been wanting to cry and think about them and kt all day #all is fine now but there was a whole thing the past week that culminated last night #and then we got some details from guidance and then some from other students who wanted to talk about it and were involved #and like anyway so many more details i cant say obv and again everyone is fine #but the whole thing was just so fucked and sl traumatic #and i just. wish they could be normal teenagers.#and my heart just aches so much for them #and then i was triggered and kind lf ignoring it until i got back and couldn't figure out why i was so affected #bc the content was potentially triggering but i could tell there was something else #then I realized i couldn't stop thinking about how much it sucks that they just couldn't live any semblance of a normal teen life recently #and i was like well #that was me in middle and high school 24/7 #and i just seeing these kids today was like seeing myself i think #idk of that makes sense #but i want to give them a hig and give past me a hug #and i just want better for all of us traumatized and abused and grieving and etc kids #and for adults to literally actually do literally anything ever #and guidance counselors to get a raise bc they truly keep schools going #but anyway they have homecoming this weekend and i hope they can all have a fun and normal teenage time there #sorry huge rant but like. i cant stop thinking about these kids and i think thats the main reason why I'm so exhausted #like i knew this stuff would happen eventually but the amount of constant emotional labor and pain teachers esp woman ones have is WILD #and i just. god im gonna need ectra therapy just for this part of teaching

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viro-lil-goat · 3 months

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I really hope this reaches more people, I'm only reposting this information from Instagram, the least that I can do. (Update: I changed their upbringing as it appears to have been listed wrong) Wiki page

When I just saw this information I couldn't stop crying thinking about it, and now my heart aches. They were the same age as me, I know for a fact like any other teen they dreamt of their future, who they would want to become, what to achieve, create, wondering if they meet those in the future they can call friends, wondeting if it'll get better when they grow up, maybe wished to leave that terrible place or maybe wanted to stay. How could anyone let this happen, why were they discharged from hospital so easily? And the school, we all know why. I hate to think about how, even with all the progress made, these things still happen.

"murdered schoolgirl Brianna Ghey on February 16, 2023. Candlelit vigils are being held across the UK this week for Brianna Ghey, 16, who was stabbed at Linear Park in Culcheth, Cheshire last Saturday. Brianna was a transgender girl and police are now investigating her killing as a hate crime. A boy and girl, both 15, have been charged with her murder"

An article that explains trans hate crime murders as on 2023

I hate everyone who have ever committed such vile hate crimes, I wish them in prison and hell. But i would never go down to their level. But I also blame the government, the school, and even those bigoted online accounts that teach their followers hate. In this case LibsOfTikTok, who targeted the teacher of this school, who supports lgbtq+, so they had to leave their position. It must have been the push for this to happen. I think their tiktok account has been thankfully deleten. But i have no idea about Twitter or any other. Please check and mass report them if it still exists. (Link to Instagram reel that this information is from)

ADDITION, PLEASE MASS REPORT THESE ACCOUNTS

#tw description of violence #tw death #lgbtqia #trans #trans kids #trans news #lgbtq community #lgbtq #lgbtq news #information #boost #Nex Benedict #please share #transgender #lgbtq+#lgbtqiia+#rest in piece #tw hate crime

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cinnamon-notes · 2 months

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my tutor just got the most unfair admonition for standing up for me in front of my boss

#and i didnt find out because she told me. i found out because another colleague gave in when i was begging her to tell me why people were #hating on my tutor today and they were also giving me weird looks #and im currently locked in the restroom with the deep urge to cry and give her a hug as well as my whole heart. instead i dont know what to #do and my boss is a dick & so is this other colleague who's been hating me since day one and found the perfect excuse to trick my boss into #believing my tutor (an excellent and a hard worker who's been doing her job since she was 15!) is incompetent for seeing quite some talent #in me and wanting to teach me the techniques i dont know about and impart me her knowledge since she believes i just need a little practice #to be a noteworthy worker and that it's normal i dont have it yet since ive never studied anything remotely close to my current job but #still i have it #in really grateful to her and im insanely mad at that colleague. not because she thinks im lame and bad and should have another job.#but because her opinions and judgments about ME were used against my TUTOR #cinnamon at work

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