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wordslostforever · 1 year

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Couples Therapy

Ch. 1 "Work with me"

Pairing: Wanda/fem!reader

Summary: When your marriage with Wanda starts to fall apart, you both decide to have a last chance by going to a professional, for your son's sake, and your own.

Warnings: 16+! Established relationship, Angst, mentions of cheating, mention of Vision, implied sex (not smut), arguments, cursing, gaslighting, mentions of divorce.

A/N: Honestly, this is the first Wanda fanfiction I’ve ever written, and I hope I did somewhat okay, plus a little warning, I made up everything about couples therapy, apologies in advance.

Also, my first language is not english, so I’m sorry for any grammatical mistake.

Word count: 2.9k

You don't remember the last time everything with Wanda seemed fine, right.

Little by little, your marriage was becoming untenable with the constant fights and stupid arguments about things that weren't an issue at all, it was as if you didn't know each other, as if your wife didn't know you anymore.

Little by little, the love you once had was vanishing into thin air like smoke in the wind. You tried wearily to pick up those pieces, but they slipped from your hands.

"I never asked you to give up everything for me."

Everything was falling like leaves in autumn, from the ground you tried to grab the dying leaves that changed color.

"I never said you did, Wanda. I gave up everything for you because I wanted to, because I love you. If you brought that up, it's because you resent yourself for it."

So green, so full of life, the leaves turned brown, dry and empty.

"You're unbelievable. I resent myself for what? For making you stay? You're so unbelievable, so damn egocentric and narcissistic" Wanda paused at her words, red eyes crystallized with tears. Her lip quivered as she glared angrily at you, so angry at your straight posture and frown. "I don't even know how I got with you in the first place, you are so full of yourself that I don't know if I fit there with you."

Those eyes looked at you with nothing but resentment, and the love that was hidden in them, faded amidst all those thoughts.

"Jesus Christ!" you said, offended, as you tried to not let out a louder scream. Wanda looked at you indifferently with a raised eyebrow. Your heart was breaking at her gaze, wondering if you would ever see the love you once possessed. "If you want to go and fuck Vision, you should have done it long ago then! Maybe I shouldn't have wasted my time on you either as you seem so fond on thinking that I suck and I'm not worth your fucking time."

"And you brought that again, what the hell is your problem with me and Vision?"

"The problem is that you screwed him all over and I had to forgive you, I had to forgive your crap all the time, but when it comes to me doing something wrong, for once, you're at my neck annoying the crap out of me."

"I can't- You keep making me feel guilty about it, we said- You said you were over it. I'm over it, that's why I stopped apologizing."

"I was never over it, you made me get over it with your shitty apologies and excuses. Fuck! You even made me feel guilty about it." Maybe those were the words that ended what little patience your wife had, maybe your simple words broke what little was left of your marriage. "'Oh, Y/n, We have children together, Tommy and Billy will be broken, we can't do that to them' So full of crap, you're so full of crap."

Tired, it was all too exhausting for you, for her, the words coming out of a part you both didn't know existed.

"Get out." Wanda said ending the conversation, and you laughed indignantly. She crossed her arms over her chest and looked at you, firm, letting you know she meant it this time. "Get out! Leave!"

"And there you go running." At that you turned around grabbing your jacket from the couch roughly, and shook your head. "Again. You're unbelievable."

"Screw you, y/n."

With that you walked out of the house, closing the door delicately trying to calm the rage gathering in your chest. Wanda, on the other hand, burst into tears, frustrated tears covering her cheeks. It wasn't until a sound came from the staircase that she wiped the drops from her face with her palm, trying to fake a smile.

"Where's momma y/n, mom?" The little boy looked at Wanda in confusion, one of his hands gently scratching his eyes as a yawn escaped his mouth.

"She had to work, honey, just go to bed. Is Tommy awake too?" Wanda asked softly, watching him nod. Her heart broke at the images of her children listening to the fight. "Go to bed, I'll go with you in a few minutes, okay? I have to turn the lights off."

You didn't know what happened, how it happened. You loved Wanda as much as she loved you, but from one moment to the next, days passed from fight to fight and everything fell apart. Maybe it wasn't so abrupt, maybe you should have seen it coming after everything that happened between you.

One of the things that you loved most in the world was slipping through your fingers and you had no idea how to fix it... You had no idea if you wanted to fix it.

You spent the night out at Natasha's house, your best friend and co-worker. Tired, you couldn't sleep and when it was time to get out of bed it was almost an impossible mission, but you still did it, and with a forced smile you went to work.

You needed the distraction, work until your brain couldn’t remember the reason why your heart felt tight and broken inside your chest.

“No, what do you mean by that?”

“I mean, maybe if you try to listen to her and put yourself in her shoes, there may be a way for you two to stop fighting.” You gave your best friend an inexpressive look, making her roll her eyes in annoyance. You sighed, fixing your gaze on your plate with salad, rethinking the point Natasha brought up.

“That’s all I have done since that day, I have listened to her. The problem is not me, it’s her. She is the one fighting, she is the one that complains about everything I do. At this point, I think she just hates me.” You said with a grimace, meeting Natasha features, who resembled your expression. “What?”

You turned around in your chair as soon as Natasha pointed with her head at the door of the restaurant. Your eyes fixed on the figure of your wife, who looked around trying to find you, making you bite the inside of your cheek with irritation.

Wanda found your eyes and she walked to you.

Instinctively your eyes roamed through her body, looking how the red dress she was wearing hugged her curves.

"Wanda." You said her name as soon as she approached you with dark circles under her eyes, but you didn't change the serious look you were giving her. "What are you doing here?"

"Can we talk?"

You bit your tongue trying to hold back the words of rejection that threatened to come out and nodded. With a regretful look at Natasha, you got up from the table grabbing your jacket.

You and Wanda walked out of the restaurant in silence and all the way to the small park nearby. You sat down on one of the benches with Wanda next to you. Your gaze remained fixed on the scenery and the people passing by, feeling Wanda's gaze on you, however, you didn't look at her, you didn't want to, knowing perfectly well that all the anger you felt would vanish in those green eyes.

"The kids are asking for you," The mention of your children made you turn your gaze to her and lock your eyes together. Wanda let out a shaky sigh before swallowing the ball that formed in her throat. "And I don't know if they are buying the work excuse anymore, Y/n, they are asking if you are leaving the house."

"I'll pick them up today and we'll go out. We can discuss what to tell them about us now."

"So, you're moving out? Are we done forever this time?" Wanda winced in pain in her place, hands shaking. You looked at her with your head tilted, feeling your chest constrict as her eyes moved from yours closing.

"Isn't that what you want?" Your eyes met Wanda's again, and you sighed when she shook her head. "Then, what do you want?"

"I want to keep loving you."

"I want that too, but this, my love," Your gaze softened at her and you gripped her clenched fist gently as you opened it. Wanda looked at you intently, melting at the nickname, and opening her hand letting it intertwine with yours. "this is not working anymore, you know we aren't."

“Do you want to divorce?”

"What choice do we have? All we do is fight, Wanda." You saw a tear come out of Wanda's eye and you wiped it away with your finger, trying not to cry. "We have a beautiful family and wonderful children, but our marriage is so broken. You're not happy anymore and neither am I."

"We can try to be happy, we can make it work, we always do. Why should we stop now?"

"Because maybe it's too late. Maybe we're too far apart."

"Do you love me?"

"Of course I do."

"Then let's try one last time." Wanda said, placing her hand on your cheek. You closed your eyes feeling the touch and the warmth her hand transmitted. "I want to be with you, Y/n, I want to fix this."

"I want to be with you too." You moved closer to her, your forehead meeting hers delicately as her thumb brushed your lip. Your hands traveled to her waist squeezing gently as you felt her body tremble at the sadness and despair building up in her.

"Please work with me." You felt the warm air of her breath as Wanda whispered the words above your lips as closed her eyes.

"I always will."

*___________________*

After washing your hands, you looked in the mirror one last time, running one of your hands over the dark circles under your eyes and pinching the top of your nose with irritation. Leaving the bathroom, you walked down a long hallway, if you didn’t know what the place was, you would have assumed it was a hotel, but it wasn’t one.

Couples therapy.

How ridiculous. You knew you were doing it for Wanda more than for yourself, you knew the last thing you wanted to do was talk about your marital problems to a complete stranger who would start judging your every decision. You didn't need this, you didn't, but Wanda did, so once again you decided to put aside what you wanted to do for her.

Wanda seemed excited, you would even say happy to be there when the two of you met in front of the office door. She smiled at you and you forced a smile.

"I left the kids with Pietro and Monica."

"Are they back together?" You asked confused as you opened the door and made way for Wanda to enter, before walking in yourself.

"They never broke up, they just took some time apart." Wanda answered, before greeting the woman sitting on a couch, which happened to be across from a longer couch. "Hello."

"Welcome, you must be Wanda Maximoff. Please, take a seat." Wanda sat down on the couch and patted her side looking at you encouragingly. You sighed defeatedly before sitting down as well.

"She is-" Wanda started, but you cut her off with a polite smile toward the woman who nodded while writing something down in her notebook.

"I'm her wife."

"Y/n Maximoff?"

"Oh no, uhm." You stopped in your place clearing your throat at the situation, you knew the last name issue had been a problem between you and Wanda in the past. "I didn't take her last name, it's just Y/L/N."

"We decided after a couple of talks that we didn't want to change them." Wanda explained and you had to bite your tongue to hold the words that formed in your mouth.

The therapist tilted her head and settled back in her seat, looking intently at your actions making you feel self conscious. Wanda looked at you with narrowed and steady eyes, and you scratched your neck tensely before you heard the therapist's voice.

"Why don't we start now then? Y/n, you were about to say something about what Wanda said, but you held the words" You sighed as the therapist looked at you encouragingly. "You can talk here, this is a space where you two can talk freely, say what you really want."

"It's nothing really, it doesn't matter."

"No, I want to hear it." You looked at Wanda incredulously, irritated at the condescending tone she used.

"You decided that we shouldn't change our last name."

"No, we both did, you agreed."

"Because you made me agree, you barely let me say anything."

"Well, it's not my fault that you can't express your mind."

"You don't let me do it. You always overstep on what I say or turn it into something totally different from what I meant." The look in Wanda's eyes made you sigh tiredly, shaking your head in denial. Your gaze softened as you looked back at her, having no energy to fight. "I wanted your last name."

"Fine, then, let's change it."

"No, it's too late. We have been married for eleven years, it wouldn't make sense now."

Wanda rolled her eyes in irritation before crossing her arms in front of her chest and falling silent, turning her attention back to the therapist who seemed to be listening intently to the conversation. You, on the other hand, clenched your fists in frustration looking back at the therapist.

"I see, maybe we should start with the beginning. What do you think is the problem here? I want both of you to be really honest about this."

You snorted at the question before you felt a soft smack to your side from Wanda scolding you for your behavior. You clenched your jaw for a second, then settled back into place and feigned a smile.

“I don’t know, there are many things that could be or… maybe there’s none and this is useless.”

“Why do you think this is useless, Y/n?”

“Don’t you see it, isn’t that supposed to be your job? Figure out what’s wrong?”

“Don’t be rude.” Wanda scolded you, and you frowned. “She is trying to help.”

“I just don’t want to waste my time on this, you know, I’m not even sure if this will work.”

“We could just try.” Wanda said angrily, scoffing when you shook your head. “Just answer the damn question, Y/n.”

“You answer it then because I can think of a million reasons why everything is wrong.”

“So, there are millions of things that I do wrong?”

“I didn’t even say your name, why do you keep doing that? This is not only about you, it’s about us.”

And so the session continued until the hour was up. The truth is that you were tired, tired of the fights and the useless progress you had made. Wanda assured you that it was only the first session and with that you stayed quiet for the rest of the way home after picking up your kids.

Dinner passed as normal, you and Wanda, Billy and Tommy at the table eating and living like a completely perfect family. That wasn't a problem for you, pretending everything was fine with Wanda in front of your kids, pretending the fights behind closed doors didn't exist. That wasn't the problem. The problem came when you had to go to your room and close the door, at that moment the perfect facade of the perfect marriage fell from your hands.

Again, it was back to the same thing, the meaningless fights, the condescending tones. All that was killing you slowly, so slowly that you thought it didn't exist, but the tiredness would come, the headaches, the pain in your chest that prevented you from breathing. The sadness that invaded your being completely.

“You said you’ll work with me.” Wanda said while she took her clothes off, and you stopped in place, dropping the shirt you were trying to get off. “What are you doing?”

“I’m trying, okay? I’m trying.”

“It doesn’t seem like you are.”

“Really, Wanda? Now?” You bit the inside of your cheek looking at her as she pulled the oversized shirt down her body, falling closer to her knees. You took off your pants before shaking your head and taking off your shirt. “I’m tired, just please, don’t start.”

“I’m not trying to pick a fight,” Wanda said once you had your pajamas on, and turned to her. She sat on the edge of the bed, looking at you. “I want us to work.”

You tilted your head towards her as you saw tears falling from her eyes. You approached her gently, kneeling down in front of her as you grabbed the hand that was on her thigh, and giving her a small kiss on the knuckles. Wanda looked up at you, wiping away the tears with her other hand and calmly grabbing your neck, nuzzling you.

That was the first time in months that you saw the love in her eyes, the love that was hidden in between the anger in those fights, the love that you thought no longer existed.

“I love you.'' You released the words naturally, softly, and before standing up, you left a short kiss on her thigh. “I will always love you.”

“I love you too, y/n” Wanda opened her legs to grab you from the waist, pulling you close to her. You smirked when your eyes locked together, watching her eyes darkened slightly and her cheeks take a soft pink color.

Your hands went to her neck after, and a sigh came from your lips when her hands slipped inside your shirt.

You at least had to try, for her and for the love that you had.

#wanda maximoff x reader #wanda maximoff fic #wanda x reader #mcu fanfiction #wanda maximoff x you #scarlet witch x reader

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asmolfolk · 1 year

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Hi! Sooo, theres a tiktok video that is "Ivan, how did you bag that baddie?" and this come to my mind: Tesla, Buddha, Sasaki, Jack and Ares (separate) hcs with a s/o like that? They're like: Idk how, but she picks me up like I'm nothing. Let's just say I can imagine it, lol - Sorry for my English and kisses from Brazil <3

Oh my! A fellow brazilian! I'm also brazilian, so, kisses from the southeast part of Brazil <3 Hope you liked this one, I really loved to make this one, it was very fun!

🥀♥︎.•° Fandom: Shuumatsu no Valkyrie. Characters: Nikola Tesla, Sasaki Kojiro, Jack the Ripper, Buddha and Ares (Separate) Ask: Inspired by the video 'Ivan, how did you bag that baddie?' 🦋♥︎.•°

Nikola Tesla

"Tesla, how did you bag that baddie?" The one who asked him was his friend, Robert... And that got him... Thoughtful. Tesla looked to the side, looking directly at your direction...

He was thinking about the differences between the two of you... And the similarities too. How you react to things, how you smile, how you show affection or interess in something... He is thinking all of those things at the same time. It would be a reason to "Why he stayed", after all, he never showed any interest in love or relationships that were romantical... But seeing that you were just like a Math question... [A lot of outcomes - Needs hard work and understanding to seek the problem...] That was enough to make his mind so... Full of love and interest. Of course, he couldn't not remember how did 'he bag this baddie'... Spoiler, he didn't. He still remember the day you just looked at him and straight up said "Oh, I don't have this color yet" and just picked him up like a cat and walked with him in your arms. He would tell anyone who saw that the exact thing "I accept it for cience!" But the truth was that he just didn't care to be holded... He liked that and the fact that he could still write his notes was a plus one. Since that, both of you started to talk and later on, date... It is still a surprise to most of Tesla's friends... He can still remember the first dates... And now, you are his... Girlfriend, aren't?... He can't be happier. You respect his space and actually, you were the one to start a lot of intimacy stuff with him... You seemed to always knew when he wanted something or when he acknowledges that you want something from him, but was too tired or busy and didn't want to leave you feeling unwanted by his lack of effort... So you - seeming to read his mind - do exactly what he wanted and started to give him some words of affirmation and to be sure that he knows that it's okay to not fit into some category... Or to not want to do something like sex, PDA or others.

It seemed like a he was off for some seconds IRL while in his mind, he just saw yours love story together... When he noticed that, he knew... He knew his answer. He looked to Robert and started his monologue. "Oh, you are surely mistaken, my dear friend. I'm aware of what could give the impression for you to think like that... But!" He stands there, smilling as if he is explaining math to someone "She, indeed, picked me up and straightly putted me into a consensual relationship that I do really, extremely, like." He puts a hand over his heart, as to give emphasys to his next words "This woman has a exceptional mind and strenght... Aren't I a lucky guy? Her mind is as brilliant as mine... Of course, in Differents/Same matters... Do you understand, Robert?" Robert is lost in words, he doesn't know what to say or what to do... After all, he just saw all of his - 'Don't want to date' - friend being so deeply in love with someone... He could only chuckle as his wife carries a surprise and shocked expression. "Oh my! I'm so happy that you found someone that matches you perfectly, Tesla! And her body is so pretty too... She would look awesome in a wedding dress, don't you think so?" "Hm... Wedding? I think it's a strange concept... But if she wants one..." Tesla, even having his disagreements over weddings... He couldn't say no to you. After all... You are his everything.

Sasaki

"Kojiro Sasaki, how did a loser like you bag that baddie over there?" It was the question of his opponent... He was looking directly at your face, seeing how it changed... After all, you were in fiery! How dare them say call Sasaki a loser... And before you could start approaching to 'ora ora' this person face, Sasaki holded your hand to stop you and smiled brightly. "Well... I may be a loser in battle... But she picked me from the ground and made me her boyfriend, resuming the whole story" He told his opponent as he chuckles as he feels you pinching his cheecks a bit "Ow-Ow! Sorry, sweetheart..." He laughing a bit. "It was nothing like that. I saw him on the ground and thought he was deeply hurt, so I carry him home so I could take care of him." You said, explaining it better than Sasaki resume... Or trying to. "...Okay...? Look, I don't really care..." Sasaki's opponent tried to say that but he wasn't heard, now, Sasaki and you were discussing about this first meeting and he seemed overly in joy after hearing your version of the facts. "So... How were you capeable to hold me?" He finally asked "I mean, I'm pretty heavy-" "I carry boxes that weight more than you, Sasaki."

Jack the Ripper

"How a serial killer like you got to bag that baddie?!" That was the question of Hlökk, who was actually curious to know more about this whole relationship between the two of you... After all, nobody seemed to know about Jack's partner. "Oh my... Well, it's interesting that you asked me this... Well, may I just tell you..." He said with his british accent and sweet tone appearing, he was at your side, holding your hand while looking directly at Hlökk. "She was the one and only who got me, who actually had me on her arms... When she was carrying me around." As he said it, his other hand started patting your head "Isn't it the most romantical and sweet thing someone could ever do to their partner? Carrying them around like they weight nothing" His explanation was not meant to make you feel that proud of yourself... Or to blush like you did. But in a way or other, you could only feel how much you matter and is loved by him... He is trully a gentleman. "EWWW, YOU CLINGY OLD MAN!" Hlokk seemed to think in a different way.

Buddha

"Buddha, my deaaaar friend. How did you manage to bag this baddie?!" Said Zeus... The sluttiest god "Oh my me! You should help me get a baddie like her, I swear to you... I give you candies... Hehe" Zeus - again - couldn't hide his horny. "No." A short and straight answer coming from Buddha, who looked unimpressed by Zeus atticts "I'm not helping you cheat on your wife." as he explained that, Zeus only rolled his eyes - remembering that he is married. "Aw,come on, Buddha, my great friend... It's not like I would steal your... Partner~ I just want to know what did you do...!" "...You have some serious problems, Zeus." With that said, Buddha just moved along his way... But Zeus question was enough to make him think about... That. How did this all happened?

You just looked straight at him and picked him up, saying "This is mine." and just straight up runned away from the gods. That was enough to make him be not only proud but happy - that reunion was a really shitty one.

"Hah... It seems like the puberty made her really strong." Remembering that day, Buddha couldn't hide his smile as he made his way towards you... He WILL use you as his pillow, after all, you can pick him up.

Ares

"Not that I don't respect you, Ares... But how did you... And her got together?" Asked Aphrodite with a rather... Amused expression, she seemed to be making fun of him. "How did you just do that? How did you manage that...? Did you finally follow your daddy ways?~ Because I don't see how you couldn't do that properly... You get no bitches at all~" "She isn't a bitch or anything like what dad do with Hera! She is different, I love her... I want her, she is the only one I truly love." He said, with a confused expression. "Oh love? Now you feel that... How patheti-" She is interrupted when you just walked straight to her, looking to her eyes with a hateful rage. "What did you just say to MY partner? Do you have a fucking problem with him?" As you started to swear at Aphrodite... Ares looked at you with a little smile on the face... Finally... He finally has someone who sides with him and stands up for him...

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kjdkive · 1 year

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bubbles and kisses — mark lee.

warnings: lots of fluff cause im lonely and this is mainly for me, suggestive coments, cursing, mark being so sweet it will make you cry cause you will never have him (if there's more i need to warn lmk)

a/n: was feeling a little down and wrote this. hope you like it. english' not my first language so if any mistake please understand and also let me know cause mistakes make me want to throw up

"hi, baby." you greeted your boyfriend as you entered the appartment you shared with him.

mark looked up from his phone, as he was resting on the sofa and inmediatly stood up so he could give you a hug. "hi, my baby." he said while he gave you a kiss on the cheek, smiling but it dissapeared "why do you sigh? is everything alright?"

you smiled. you loved how he noticed the very small details. "it's nothing, babe, i'm just tired. i've been dealing with a lot of clients... the annoying ones." you gave him a little kiss with a little smile.

"oh, i'm sorry, it's okay, you're home now so i guess that's better, right?" mark asked and you nodded. "well, how about i prepare you a nice, warm bath? how does that sound?"

"oh, it sounds amazing, but would you do that for me? it's okay if i just shower." you asked him, you didn't want to bother him. he was probably more tired than you.

"yeah, of course." he brushed your hair out of your face. "i'd prepare you a million baths." he smiled, while giving you another kiss. "meanwhile, why don't you eat the pasta i bought you? cause you know i can't cook for shit, and it's still warm." you laughed and nodded to his offer.

he went away to your shared bathroom and you went to the kitchen to eat the pasta he told you about. he was right, it was still warm, and it was also really good. while you ate, you scrolled on your phone, texted back a few friends that you hadn't replied to because you've been busy with your job and if you weren't doing something related to your job you were sleeping. it was hard to maintain your life, boyfriend, friends, co-workers, clients. you just wanted a break.

"y/n! bath's ready, come here!"

"i'm coming, hold up!"

you saved the left overs of the pasta in the fridge and headed straight to the bathroom. when you opened the door, you were shocked, you couldn't believe what your boyfriend had done even though it was ultra common with him. the bathroom was full of your favorite candles, therefore it was smelling to your favorite scent, the tub was full of bubbles just how you liked it, there was your favorite playlist playing in the background and your favorite person was just there checking the perfect water temperature.

"oh my god, mark, babe, you did not."

"i did, you deserve this after a long, rough day." he smiled. "now, come here." you went to him and he grabbed your cheeks and gave you a long kiss on the lips. "okay, now, let me." he started by taking off your blazer because you were still wearing office attire and then he began to unbotton your blouse.

"fuck yeah, i'm getting laid tonight." you said, while mark now was taking off your blouse.

all he did was laugh. "jesus christ, y/n, stop being a pervert, we're not having sex tonight i'm still tired from yesterday, bro. now just enjoy this and be quiet." mark got on his knees and started taking off your trousers, holding your hands so you get ouf them when the trousers were now at your feet. "do you want me to take off your panties too?"

you had to be honest, he looked so good on his knees ready to take off everything that was on you but you had to shake off the thought. his question, though, was very straight forward, and it made you feel shy and vulnerable. you didn't say anything, you just nodded, letting him know that he could do whatever he wanted to do. and he did. before taking off your underwear, he made sure to give some light kisses to your legs and all you could do was carress his hair. he took the off and then stood up to unhook your bra.

the thing is: he never, once, looked at your body; even though he has seen all of you thousands of times in different contexts, this was different. this was so delicate, so intimate. you felt so safe even in this very vulnerable state, and you knew he would never do anything to hurt you.

he finished taking everything off and gave you a kiss again. "you look beautiful, baby, now get in." he held your hand while you walked on the steps the tub had. you felt like yourself again. the water was perfect, the bubbles felt right on your skin, the smell of the candles flodded your nose. it was all perfect, thanks to your boyfriend.

"aren't you getting in with me?" you asked him.

"i showered before you got home, so don't worry." he kissed your forehead. then he grabbed your hair and tied it in a bun so you wouldn't get it wet.

you just sat there, hugging your knees, feeling the warmth of the water and thinking how you were a really lucky girl to have someone like mark lee in your life and also, to be able to call him your boyfriend. hopefully, one day, your husband.

you opened your eyes and saw your boyfriend sitting on the steps there beside you, just staring at you. "what are you looking at, mark lee?" you asked him.

"just how pretty you are." and he looked really pretty too, resting his head on his hand, on his favorite black t-shirt and pajama pants.

"stop." you smiled.

"you're blushing, you'reeee blushing." he made fun of you and stood up a little bit to give you another kiss, which apparently, kissing you was something he couldn't stop doing tonight. "do you want me to go so you can have some alone time?" he asked.

"no, don't go." you said, inmediatly. "stay with me, please?"

"whatever you want, baby."

you held his hand and gave it a little kiss while you made it rest on your knees. and just stayed there, enjoying his prescence. the silence, the water, the scent and just him. it was perfect, but only because mark was there with you. and not only now, he was there every step of the way just as you were with him.

something hard to find, but totally worth it.

#mark #mark lee #nct #nct 127 #nct dream #nct smut #nct fluff #nct scenarios #nct mark #nct x reader #nct x y/n #i need a boyfriend no i need mark lee #i need a hug too but from him #i need to shower too thats why i wrote this #i need to stfu #i actually hate myself #i actually wrote this once for baekhyun but decided to write this for mark lee instead

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bella-rose29 · 3 months

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episode 2 commentary - Let Go of Me

major spoilers for show and books, swearing, me obsessing over lockwood's hands probably (edit: definitely, and George's)

why did I immediately think jellyfish

omg the flowers

Luce you really shouldn't have taken that

just like @demigoddess-of-ghosts said, why tf are deprac asking if there's anyone else there when Lucy is quite literally screaming 'lockwood'

"miss lockwood" and "lockwood's my partner" 🤭

"we called your mother" ok well her mother is a Bitch so that wasn't a good idea

"rest up until he's given you the all-clear" like fuck she's gonna do that

omg the flowers!!!

ooo spooky green lighting

omg the ghost lock victims ward 🥲

I would love to know what they were planning on doing with this scene actually bc I feel like it sets up some sort of ghost lock victim storyline for the future - maybe using them for science? idk I'd just love to know

oof lockwood's hands

just this whole scene of lockwood

hands

barnes is not fucking around lol

HANDS

the way he sits back in the chair has me WEAK

THE JAW MOVEMENT

can you tell I'm going feral

George's lil run omg

George is so neurospicy I love it

George your posture needs sorting out my love 😭

"You're meant to say no, Lucy" well it's difficult to say no to lockwood when he looks at you with his beautiful eyes and smile and-

"I'd say like a house on fire" 😭

my poor baby looks so tired :( and he definitely needs a shower oh dear

I didn't think I would hear lockwood with his queen's English call someone 'mate'

I love that George just says straight up facts

"posh one who thinks he's god's gift" sounds about right

"his weird mate with zero social skills" also sounds about right

I love that they included the tapes for norrie bc actually it's a great way of adding to the narrative (bc we don't have any voice overs) and we get lucy's view on stuff

and we see her survivor's guilt too - "like how I should have helped you" omg 🥲 (excuse me while I go cry in a corner)

ruby stokes the woman you are

"no it doesn't, it looks like I cooked it in an active volcano" pfffft George I love you

"Andrew lockwood"

"girls are funny about baths" he's trying goddammit

HIS SMILE

"she's not unhinged" "you're hardly the best judge of these things" "you need normal people around you" "you really think you're normal?" your honour I love their friendship

"the world's mad, and normal never fixed anything" gonna make it my motto

"let me... sleep on it" BOY YOU DON'T EVER SLEEP

oh Luce

okay but these special effects are so fucking cool

hang on why the hell did Lucy go to sleep holding the ring

Jesus Christ that scared the shit out of me

ooo green lighting!!!

pfft goes to hold his hand to wake him up

HIS FACE WHEN HE WAKES UP OMG 😭😂

also: NECK and THE FACT HE SLEEPS WITHOUT A SHIRT

I love the disgruntlement of george

WHITE T-SHIRT LOCKWOOD

"trousers are for wimps" ICONIC

omg I love that we get to see George's Touch!!! also his hand??? brb gonna go melt

LOCKWOOD'S HANDS AND FOREARMS WITH THE CHAINS

FOREARMS

omg Georgie it's not a wasp I'm sorry

ARMS

I am dying how the hell did Ali manage to make his voice say "oh shit" like that

LOCKWOOD HAS A RAPIER I'm gonna faint

"I can't believe you stole a Source" GEORGE YOU ARE ONE TO TALK

yeah Luce call him out

"we need to destroy her source and move on. let her go" I have so much to say about this omgggg bc on the one hand the episode is called Let Go of Me and rn I'm 1/3 of the way through this episode and they've repeated those words in different ways so many times it's unreal. and then on the other hand (spoilers for the books) there's the way that Lockwood isn't doing this himself, because he hasn't destroyed the source in his house and let his own ghosts go 😭

omg George loves an experiment you can hear the joy in his voice

NOT THE WAY HE PHYSICALLY MOVES TO PROVE HE'S ON LUCY'S SIDE omg they're becoming friends even if they don't know it yet

ARMS

OH LORD THE HOODIE??? I wanna steal it

NOT THE WAY HE HANDS HER THE RING AND LETS HIS TOUCH LINGER AND LUCY DOES THE SAME OMGGGG

THEY LITERALLY JUST STROKE EACH OTHER'S HANDS I CAN'T TAKE THIS

his smile omg

ruby stokes the woman you are omg

lockwood's face omg he's so conflicted bc on the one hand he's worried but on the other he's trying to not say yes when she goes 'you love me don't you?'

lockwood immediately pushing her aside

HANDS

lockwood you need to stop taking sole responsibility for things

the sadness in his voice when he says 'this place is all that's left of my parents' omg

"Jesus, lockwood, we're screwed!" yep (also the way George says it is so funny help)

HANDS AND RING

barnes isn't taking any shit omg

such an ominous phone call

George's prison outfit (I can't remember who called it that)

omg I want lucy's playsuit

PINK SOCKS

also lockwood get your shoes off the table you heathen

no bc I actually want her playsuit

HANDS

HANDS AND RING AAAAA

HANDSSSSS

"not a braying gallery for bellends" George I love you

BOBBY!!!

Lucy going straight in with the hard facts I love her

omg the scoff

THE SIDE PROFILE OF LOCKWOOD IS KILLING ME

kipps is such an arse

THE STANCE HE TAKES WITH THE SPARE HAND AND UGH

AND YOU NEED A LADDER

the way he says "yes you do" has me in a chokehold

the sMIRK

"irrelevant prick" love it

when the mutual friend leaves and you're left with the one you don't get on with

George you might be a weirdo but I love you for it

Lucy getting the juicy gossip and immediately becoming besties with george

ok well your mum is a bitch

oh lockwood wtf are you doing

"he's a little shit sir"

lockwood why

he looks so proud of himself I can't help it

"you're our biggest asset" oh boy

the regret on his face oops

"my judgement's been a little off recently" yeah bc you just met the love of your life

ok but women with swords 👀 bonus points if they're angry

HANDS

pink socks again

barnes once again not taking shit

she is a child sir you can't just spring that on her

omg Lucy :((((((

"let me go" - is that another reference to the episode title I see?

"lockwood's a charlatan" pfft

DONT YOU TALK ABOUT MY LOCKWOOD LIKE THAT

"they always make the most boring, unimaginative moves possible, don't they" - it's giving Cameron saying that everything is basic

lockwood read the room (cab)

"You were brilliant" boy's in love

"can we talk about this in the car" *taxi drives away*

"you might be able to turn your feelings on and off like a tap, but I am drowning here, lockwood" 😭

"You know sometimes I just... I just think I'd be better off dead" oh Luce 😢

also lockwood's reaction to that omg he pauses for a while and is all glassy eyed and then: "I understand that"

never mind them I am drowning here (in my tears)

"We need you, and it's not because you're an asset" "why then?" "because... because you're..." *looks away and clenches jaw* "Lucy Carlyle" *smiles really widely (I feel like he was considering telling her his feelings)

"we can't let you go" ANOTHER REFERENCE TO THE EPISODE TITLE

"that's why I went on tv, silly" WHERE IS MY BUCKET??? I DONT KNOW WHY HIM SAYING 'SILLY' LIKE THAT PAIRED WITH HOW HE WALKS TOWARDS HER MEANS I NEED MY BUCKET BUT I HAD TO PAUSE THE EPISODE TO MELT A LITTLE

"We're lockwood and co. you, me, and George" FUCK YEAH YOU ARE

"please stay" 🥺 (anything for you my love)

"so you'd look cool" lol

greeeeeeen

"you're more of a liability than an asset, Lucy" HE SAYS WHILE LOOKING AT HER WITH HEART EYES

oh Georgie

OMG HE HAS A PLATE OF BISCUITS AND A TINY GLASS OF MILK

GEORGIEEEE NO DONT YOU HURT MY BOY

green lighting!!!

"I'll take him" says boy with immense confidence

"can I offer you a cup of tea while you ransack my house? one lump or two" *throws torch and misses*

HNNNNNNNN THE NOISE I MADE WHEN HE DOES THE RAPIER THINGY AND GETS INTO HIS STANCE AND TWIRLS THE RAPIER AND PUTS HIS HAND UP

AND THEN WHEN HE DODGES THE TORCH??????? SIR WHO GAVE YOU PERMISSION TO BE THAT FINE DODGING A FUCKING TORCH?????

oh my god the still I paused it on to write the above comment is gonna make me pee myself with laughter 😭😂 I wish I could screenshot to show everyone

ooo I might be completely delusional but Lucy smashes the mirror with her elbow in this scene (and the camera pauses on it for a good couple of seconds) and then plays a part in smashing the bone glass later on??? am I delusional or am I making connections???

Georgie omg

LUCY PICKING UP HIS GLASSES!!! I love this omg I would be lost without mine

HEHEHE STAB THAT INTRUDER

fuck me that neck crack was hot (also could lockwood fuck me please?)

green lighting!!!

also how did I never notice the stairs were spirally?

George you are so funny and I love you

I AM SORRY. WHAT. EVERYONE GO WATCH THIS FIGHT SCENE AND STUDY THE WAY LOCKWOOD FIGHTS/MOVES THE RAPIER IN HIS HAND BECAUSE- I need my bucket holy shit

George hauling those chains around like it's nothing 👀

green lighting!!!

yeah you better run bitch

"we should have people round more often" lolllllll

lockwood can kick me-

"why are you making that face?"

"that's not your normal face, that's your 'I know something you don't' face"

sweaty lockwood

George's face when she pulls the ring out is so funny to me 😂

"you lunatic" *lockwood grinning widely* I love their reactions

aww let Georgie swear :(

#belle's episode commentaries #lockwood and co #lockwood & co #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #george karim/george cubbins #montague barnes #wade

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femalechristxx · 9 months

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Hi!!

I want to say at the beginning that everything is translated, because I don't speak English very well. I'm honestly very tired. I know about manifestation, I thought for a long time that in order to manifest, you need to use methods such as 369. Then I wondered what kind of life I wanted to have and kept putting it off. I've known for several months that I don't need methods and I have my desires. I really do. I had a resolution to live my dream life during the holidays. And the holidays are over and my life is getting worse. I tried to live at the end but I often got discouraged because my mood changes quickly. A few days ago my situation in a toxic home got worse, I sleep worse, I still have pain, I'm afraid to go back to school. I want to point out that I am also a pretty lazy person and I tried different things, but I get tired doing something big. I never discovered any method of my own. I've been trying to get into the void for a while now and I'd really like to get it because I don't know exactly what I want. The only thing that is certain is a complete change of my environment, that is, living under the care of a completely different family, friends, wealth, health, different appearance, some changes in personality and skills and I don't know if it matters but I'm from Europe and I want live in California. I know that a manifestation is a decision, not a process, and I stuck to many good assumptions, but I gave up. It didn't reveal that the manifestation is something immediate and all the posts said that if I don't have my desires, then to start believing. This was making me flustered. I'm afraid that I'm becoming obsessed with void state and that I won't be able to have desires before the start of the year and will be even more unhappy. I was even so desperate that I thought about asking someone to manifest it for me. It's scary and I feel like it seems unreal to me. That's all. I'm not a fan of doing something systematically and I can't try. I've tried meditating, but I can't concentrate, it gets distracting quickly. I also have limited internet and a shared room with my sister. I can't find anything for myself and at the moment everything is gresy I try and be positive, and then I get worse in a worse way of thinking. I feel like I need a reset but I have no idea how. I would also like to rest but I do nothing all day and manifestation is most of what occupies my mind. I feel like I'm thinking unconsciously that I have to do something great to finally have it all. I would love to manifest everything at once. Please advice anything that could help me. Sorry if my post is haotic but that's how I usually think.

Hi luv, my advice for the circustances and the frustration of trying but getting nowhere is to robotically affirm some revision affimations like 'my life has always been perfect', 'i've always manifested so fast and effortlessly' and some self-concept too!

Yes, in the beggining it will feel like you're just straight up lying to yourself and you may even feel weird thinking those things, you may think that your mind is trying to "fight you" with all those opposite thoughts but pls do not give and don't stop affirming! it WILL MANIFEST DON'T MATTER WHAT! i promisse you.

If u want to manifest everything at once you can affirm that you wake-up in your dream reality, living your dream life (you don't have to be specific 'cause your subconscious mind knows exactly what you want!) and the other option that i'd suggest is waking up in the void state and for that just robotically affirm that you always wake up in the void no matter what! also i'd say GET OFF TUMBLR and only comeback after you manifested you dream life! ily and thank you so much for trusting me enough to ask for advice in regards to living your dream life <3

#gigi's mail 💌#loassumption

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ifonotlnow · 6 months

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REVIEW THAT NOBODY CARES ABOUT: LIVE FROMT HE HAUNTED CANDLE SHOP EDITION

sorry

Hydroelectric Viking: 6/10

Yeah, you already know how I feel about instrumentals. Side note, this song would go hard as a beat saber level.

The Saga of You, Confused Destroyer of Planets: 8/10

While this song used to be my favorite on the album, it recently became overshadowed by others. Also, I heard this one cover called The Saga of Ballsack Joe, Confused Destroyer of Bitches by The Ballsacks that is mostly the original lyrics with dirty words stuffed in and the original instrumental playing distorted in the background. When I heard it, I thought it was immature and got all pissed off and couldn't stop ranting in my head about it every time I heard the original song. Moral of the story, I'm a stupid buzzkill and should learn to lighten up a little.

Mr. Wolfgang: 6.75/10

This song was one of the few songs I liked upon first listen to the album, along with TSoY,CDoP and Boat. However, it shortly became overplayed in my head. This song DOES have a slight touch of edginess, but it knows what it's doing and doesn't take itself more seriously than it should. Also, BANG BANG, HE JUST SHOT HIS BOSS. BANG BANG HE JUST SHOT HIS BOSS'S BOSS!

Boat: 8/10

Before I actually liked this album, this song was my favorite from it. While I do like it less than I used to, it's definitely in my album top 3. One of my favorite lyrics in the album is "AEIOU sometimes Y, Why not!" It's a dumb piece of wordplay just kinds stuffed in the song, but it doesn't take itself too seriously, and works in my opinion.

Destructo!: 8/10

NO WAY THEY SAID THE THING! THEY SAID THE THING! THAT'S THE NAME OF THE ALBUM!!!!!

good song

Fiberglass Monkey: 7/10

Don't really have anything to say. Good song. I liked when there was the fiberglass monkey. Classic example of the hero's journey. Kid is haunted by fiberglass monkey. Kid gets bat. Kit hits fiberglass monkey with said bat. Fiberglass monkey dies. What's not to love?

Fly Straight or Drop the Oar and Wreck: 7/10

I like most of the song. I really like the background vocals when he says "plate right now." Also, It's really satisfying when he finally "Fly straight or drop the oar and wreck." The violin at the end of the song is a little drawn out, though.

Oz Explodes 7.5/10

Took me embarrassingly long to realize the song's lyrics were taken directly from the wizard of oz. Iconic kazoo cover, every time I remember I have a kazoo I immediately pull it out and play this song. Also, this song is how I remembered the Pythagorean Theorem when I was taking my standardized test. So thanks, Neil! If you can't tell, I'm not writing this review while extremely tired at 10 P.M. (unlike yesterday's)

Booja Jabooja: 7/10

Don't really LOVE this one, but It's a good song. Also, WHEN DID NEIL TRANSLATE THE CHORUS?? ISNT THE WHOLE THING THAT IT'S GIBBERISH THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE? anyways yeah 7/10

Dance Like an Idiot: 8/10

Very catchy song, with it's own dance too! This sone is the cupid's shuffle for weird losers (me!) Also, I love the synth solo in the middle.

Chu Chu Rocket: 7.5/10

Okay embarrasing story, it took me like two months to realize that

A. This song is a cover and

B. and more embarrassingly, this song is in Japanese

okay, so the first time I heard this song it played right after Booja Jabooja so naturally, I assumed it was another made up language that just so happened to sound a lot like Japanese and English. Actually never mind, there's no defending myself. That was stupid of me.

Switzerland: 9/10

Good song, one of my album favorites. The story does lead me to wonder, though, did the protagonist ever make it to Switzerland? Why couldn't this story have any closure like Fiberglass Monkey did? Oh why, Neil 20 years ago, did you do this???

Party on the Moon: 8/10

8/10 good. Who the hell is Mr. Kenji Akita?

Without My Tonsils: 7/10

this song was my ringtone for, like, a really long time. I like this song, but it radiates with edginess. THAT ENDING WAS GREAT. IT WAS A PERFECTLY FINE, NOT AT ALL DISSAPOINTING ENDING UNTIL HE STARTED REPEATING THE LYRICS "DISSAPOINTING ENDING", THEREFORE MAKING THE ENDING DISSAPOINTING. SCREW YOU NEIL (I don't actually care that much)

Birdhouse In Your Soul: 7.5/10

I don't think that before hearing this version, I had ever listened to the TMBG version. Strangely enough, the song felt very familiar, and when I did eventually listen to the original version it felt very familiar. Side note, if anybody reading this is a TMBG fan, how do you feel about this cover (especially if you listen to they might be giants but haven't listened to the cover yet, listen and tell me how you feel!)

Anyways, good song, both referring to the original and Neil's version

Mold en Mono: 9/10

Love this song, easily my favorite. If you listen close enough, you'll hear the cuica sounds that Neil used before it was even cool (cough cough Baldi's Basics cough cough). Anyway, I love the layering of the lyrics in the outro, and it's very funny to me the origin of the song's title (search it up, I don't feel like typing). Classic Live From The Haunted Candle Shop song.

Movie Night: 6.5/10

It's not a bad song, but it's too slow for my liking. I remember the first couple times I listened to it I would wait for it to get faster and more exciting, and it never happened. Back then, I'd have probably given it a 4/10 but it's since grown on me

OVERALL: 7.5/10

FAVORITE/ LEAST FAVORIE SONGS

Mold en Mono, Hydroelectric viking (dishonorary mention to Movie Night)

I feel like this review was better written than the last one, but not interesting/funny enough for that to make up for it. This one's just boring and bad.

#lemon demon album review #neil cicierega #lemon demon #live from the haunted candle shop #ines's album review

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magicaldreamfox1 · 1 year

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My GMMTV 2023 Commentary & Rating

disclaimer: this is purely based on my opinions and subjective tastes so if u disagree with me that's good for u pls don't be rude to me abt it thank u <3

also! my rating is based on vibes, whether or not i will actually watch a show largely depends on the final trailer!

let's get into it!

Enigma

plot keywords: horror fantasy, mains: prim/win

do u know how mad i am abt this. i'm a win anti first and a human second. but i am also a fucked up schools stan first and a human second AND prim is in this . so i'll literally have to watch it i'm so mad 😭😭😭 it looks SO GOOD 😭😭😭😭

my rating: 8/10

A Boss And A Babe

plot keywords: bl, boss/intern romance, mains: force/book

this looks lame i'm sorry 😔😔😔 i don't like the whole boss/intern thing and i also can't take force seriously as a "serious" boss he just sounds tired </3

my rating: 3/10

Find Yourself

plot keywords: straight romance, boss/intern romance, age gap relationship

even worse than A Boss And A Babe. straight, boss/intern AND age gap??? this is dreamy repellent

my rating: 1/10

Double Savage

plot keywords: rivalry, fighting, family drama

this one is a difficult one. it's basically just 10 Years Ticket the remix and like why. we didn't need this. foei's evil smile in the trailer tho? yeah that's iconic that's history. for this it'll depend on timing & the final trailer i think

my rating: 5/10

Hidden Agenda

plot keywords: bl, dating help, secret crush, uni bl, mains: dunk/joong

it's a uni bl. what more do i have to say. it just seems a bit boring to me ngl, it feels like a mashup of Star In My Mind and FUTS and i've just had enough. also can they give joong a role that shows emotions. please???

my rating: 3/10

23.5

plot keywords: gl, secret admirer, uni gl, mains: milk/love

fucking finally a gl!!! the trailer looked fine, a bit boring ngl but we take what we can get truly gls are allowed to be a little boring for now. now if gmm won't let them kiss in this show i will personally fly to thailand to set gmm hqs on fire. so just putting that out there watch ur fucking back gmm. u're on THIN ICE

my rating: 7/10

Because You're My First Love

plot keywords: straight romance, first love, love triangle, mains: prim/dew(/neo)

do u know how long it took me to find out the english title for this. anyways looks boring as hell! not even prim and neo can save this. and i don't like dew so... next!

my rating: 1/10

Cooking Crush

plot keywords: bl, cooking, uni bl, mains: off/gun

it's an offgun bl what else is there to say truly. now controversially i don't like it and i think it looks boring. this cutesy fluffy plotless type of plot is just not really my thing anymore i think? ik they'll do well tho so love and light

my rating: 4/10

Wednesday Club

plot keywords: ensemble cast, friendgroup, drama

now this???? yeah i was actively tuning in. i love drama i love fucked up situations i love people making bad choices and i love people doing worse than me. i wish joong wasn't in this and also what's up with that fakeass laughing in the trailer???? and also i don't understand why they used that music in the trailer? the trailer in general could've been a little better but i'm putting my faith in the final trailer it's gonna be good i'm manifesting it

my rating: 7/10

Last Twilight

plot keywords: bl, visually impaired person/caretaker, mains: jimmy/sea

LISTEN i love jimmy but this is a no. first of all i don't like the jimmysea pairing (not for any rational reasons but oh well) and i also don't like these kinds of slice of life existential plots that they get here and also had in vice versa. so i will be skipping this sorry jimmy </3

my rating: 3/10

Loneliness Society

plot keywords: straight romance, lying about a relationship

looks boring. i don't really have anything else to say abt this one.

my rating: 1/10

Only Friends

plot keywords: ensemble cast, friendgroup, sort of bl, drama

now THIS??? all the fucking awards there are. best show that was announced this year everybody else go home. it's gay, it's messy, khao and neo are serving severe cunt what else could u possibly want. now idk why they had to throw in forcebook and mark. but not even they can drag this down for me it looks SO GOOD. ask me abt my ideal only friends casting

my rating: 10/10

Faceless Love

plot keywords: straight romance, face blindness, rich/poor, love triangle, mains: dew/kao(/peach)

this is not how face blindness works. this whole show is so embarrassing it's funny. i can't take it seriously. also did she literally cure his face blindness at the end of the trailer. no words

my rating: 1/10

Dangerous Romance

plot keywords: bl, high school, enemies to lovers, rich/poor, tutoring, mains: chimon/perth

when i said i want chimon in a bl this is not what i meant. idk it just didn't hit.

my rating: 5/10

The Jungle

plot keywords: ensemble cast, fuckboys, drama

NOW THIS???? U HAVE NO IDEA HOW FUCKING MAD I AM ABT THIS. first of all. the trailer for this show FUCKS so hard. and yet i know this is gonna be a terrible show. AND fucking krist is in it. WHY. i'm so mad i'm so fucking mad

my rating: 2/10

Midnight Museum

plot keywords: fantasy, magic, mains: gun/tor

there really is not a lot to say abt this plot wise but my god does it fuck hard. the cast is excellent (they already had me at namtan), the visuals are amazing, the concept looks so good. i'm so excited for this

my rating: 10/10

Our Skyy 2

plot keywords: ensemble cast, previous bl couples, special episodes

there's not much to say abt this. it's our skyy 2 it's self explanatory. as for the couples themselves: i will begrudgingly tune in for patpran, depending on the ending on the eclipse i'll decide whether or not to watch akkayan, puentalay no, nuea/kluen probably not, never let me go pondphuwin idk yet depends on whether or not i'll watch the show and how it ends, phuphatian maybe, my school president guys probably not and a boss and a babe forcebook no

my rating: 6/10

Beauty Newbie

plot keywords: straight romance, my id is gangnam beauty remake, mains: baifern/win

so we've reached the final flops. yeah nobody moved. when will win be locked away in gmm's basement. we've seen enough of him.

my rating: 1/10

The Interest

plot keywords: straight romance, debt collector/indebted, violence, main: bright

nobody moved. why are they making this. what is the plot. bright needs to stop being handed main roles i'm so serious.

my rating: 1/10

Final Reflections

overall it's a very mediocre year ngl i was a little disappointed. there were very few shows out of the 18 that i was enthusiastic to watch but otherwise it's all very meh. i hope the final trailers will be better tho i'll stay tuned for them!

#that's it!#tbh it's time win and krist get locked away in the gmm basement. STOP GIVING THEM ROLES #i don't have the energy to tag every show #gmmtv 2023 #dreamy talks

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Heya! Because i am awestruck by your outworldish writing so much, i really wanna know some secrets if you dont mind 👀

What inspires you to go and write out a fic? Like specifically, also these q's meant for jwds only. And how do you build the structure, think of the environment, and research?

Sorry if q's seem too vague

AHHHH! Hey!!

Thank you for your message- it's so nice to talk to you

Secrets, you say?? Hmm, I can share some secrets 👀

What inspires you to go and write out a fic?

When a piece of media consumes me (in the way Beyond Evil has), my mind becomes inundated with possibilities. I'm naturally an overthinker in all areas of my life, and that extends to things I am passionate about. I feel this visceral need to explore the text provided, but also, the subtext. So, the media itself is a massive inspo. I am not the kind of person that can just write whenever I want. For me, writing is an arduous and tiring endeavour that takes me a long time to get through. I cannot write unless I have the bug for it- which makes finishing projects very... interesting. (I'm terrible at finishing books, I'm terrible at finishing fics... it's a problem) I do not tend to plan fics in advance. There are only 3 that I can say were minorly "planned" (Indoctrination, By Desire, and one that isn't written/published yet). But that's because they're all interconnected. Most of the time, the words just present themselves and I have to type them down otherwise I'll forget them forever.

I'll give an example of a few recent inspirations:

Blessed Hands was inspired by some real-life sad shit that I guess my mind needed to process

Your Love's Whore was written because a few weeks ago, there was a scorchingly hot day and I wanted to imagine what a jwds hot girl summer might look like

An unwritten fic I thought of last night was inspired by a scene from One Spring Night (I have an outline and gave it the creative title of "hallway". But I have no intention of actually writing it thus far)

Indoctrination was directly inspired by a cafedecanela post that I can't find nor have the time rn to find (but I will look later and link it)

Another huge inspiration/aid is music!!! I'm like everyone else and absolutely live for music. So, I use it to help direct what I want from a story (the emotions, atmosphere, the "vibe"). A few examples are:

Indoctrination was written whilst I listened to sappy, sad Korean rock on repeat for about 3 weeks straight

Your Love's Whore was heavily inspired by five songs in particular: . Posing in Bondage - Japanese Breakfast . Bedroom Hymns - Florence and the Machine . New Ways - Daughter . Your Clothes - Can't Swim . Your Love's Whore - Wolf Alice . and I listened to the album Brasilian Skies - Masayoshi Takanaka on repeat whilst actually writing as I struggled to write if I can hear English words, my brain gets distracted (I hope that makes sense)

I have a whole long-ass jwds playlist on Spotify (which I made as soon as I finished watching the show back in Feb). I love it so very much because there are some absolute bangers in there that are 100% jwds.

And I'm going to keep adding to it until I grow tired.

And how do you build the structure, think of the environment, and research?

Ooookay, now I'm actually going to have to give this a think. The wonderful thing about fanfiction is that a lot of the worldbuilding and aesthetic has been done for you. (Thank you to the cast and crew of Beyond Evil). So, it's quite easy to impose your own impression onto a piece and explore what's already been established. For the fics I have released, I did do research in the sense that I didn't start my fics first. By that, I mean, when I finished watching BE for the first time, I started writing an essay (which required a lot of research, rewatching the show, dissecting scenes, researching film theory, using my useless art degree lol) exploring the show's queer coding. I wrote about 15K words (mostly were just ramblings) until I realised that I needed to explore these characters in a more artistic way. This really stems from the fact that I feel so connected to Joo Won; he and I share a few unhealthy coping mechanisms... (it's the yikes times). I've always liked Joo Won; I didn't have to adjust to him, I always saw his pov and understood where he was going from. I just felt like I got him (which doesn't mean to say, I didn't also openly laugh at him), so I think I wanted to write to work through some identity stuff I have going on. I've trying to learn Hangul in my spare time, I love Korean cuisines so I've been naturally researching that in my personal life, I also love me some snooping- so I use google maps a lot to just look at South Korea (and anywhere in the world really) and gain an impression of what different areas are like. I look up historical events, I research pop culture, etc... and I basically just try to dive in and ingest as much information as I can to make the characters and their world feel as real as possible. When it comes to writing Joo Won, I also use my own experiences (as an English person) to influence his use of language and mindset. When I first wrote Indoctrination, my partner read some of it and told me to change some of my language choices because I used English slang that isn't very universal. I listened to some of the suggestions but not all because Joo Won would totally call people a "pasty dipshit wanker"; or use words like "chuffed", "gutted", "plastered", "dodgy" (and so on) and use the c-word like it's going out of style (as does almost every English person his age).

In terms of structure, I don't write chronologically. I just write whatever comes to mind and then piece it together and edit like crazy. However, I DO LOVE MAKING NOTES AND WRITING OVERLY DETAILED OUTLINES. So... I guess it depends on the story. My three surprise/procrastination fics that I didn't plan at all (Drone Bomb Me, take my name, and your blessed hands) are some of my favourites. (I wrote DBM in a day- which I don't think I have ever done before lol) We can contrast that against a fic I can't even begin to write because the words refuse to come to me, is living as an 8,000+ word outline.

So..... There's not a lot of method to my madness, just spiteful determination.

(oooooooohhh some cheeky screenshots... now we're getting personal)

Yeah... I'm not sure what else to say. It's all just luck and stress to be honest with you. I haven't written fanfiction in years(!!!). Previously, I was writing an original piece that is currently taking a nap.

I think I have mentioned this to you previously but I'm so very grateful for your kind support and words of encouragement. They mean so, so much to me. I am just a wee insecure baby that is the poster child of dyslexia. I know very little about the proper use (grammar, etc) of my mother tongue because of an unconventional schooling experience, soooo to have you say such lovely things about my work, is just *chef's kiss and tears* perfection. Thank you thank you thank you thank you I hope this answers your questions. I'm not sure I have haha!!

(also, please, get some sleep and make you're eating your favourite foods)

Bye for now!

#answered #beyond evil fanfiction #look at me pretending that I know what I'm doing #what an actress #also I should add tumblr and the fellow creatives on here are a massive inspo #there's some SUPER disgustingly talented people in this fandom #it should be illegal

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redheadbigshoes · 2 years

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Hey, I hope it doesn't sound weird, I really need to talk about this with someone. So... I'm 100% sure I don't like men, I always wondered why did I have to be with a boy when they are ugly and girls are so pretty and I only felt some kind of attraction (spoiler: comphet) towards few celebrities and fictional characters. This year I have tried dating and it's not going that well, I don't understand how everytime there isn't a spark. I know that it's a tough time for me, still going through the various step of grief and mourning some parts of me that are far gone, so I understand that maybe dating rn isn't really the best, and, honestly, I'm also tired of it, I'm waiting for the girl I'm talking to to get tired of me, and it's happening. I've been hiding in my head a lot these days, just daydreaming, and while I do so but I can't help but also think about unattaible men (like impressing them and stuff). It doesn't help that I've been reading stuff that makes me think at a time in which I was happy and gives me comfort, but it also makes me giggly and happy with straight romance. It's probably comphet and all other societal problems, like girls not knowing how to court girls and stuff, but I feel like I'm betraying myself and lesbians in general, how do I dare daydreaming about a stupid anime boy or something like that?

Sorry, this vent is long. Idk if I was as eloquent as I wanted to be, I hope the message passes through (?) English isn't my first language

Some things I’ve learned from experience:

If you don’t think you’re mentally and emotionally ready for a relationship not being in one is for the best. Maybe that’s why you don’t see that spark whenever you try going on dates.

When I first realized my attraction to women I felt so desperate to try things with them, dating them, literally anything with them because I felt like I waisted part of my life focusing on men even though I’ve never been attracted to them. I wanted to make up for the lost time, you know? Idk if that’s your case, but if it is: don’t rush things, being so overly excited, desperate to be in a sapphic relationship might be bad for you, take things slow. I tried rushing things and I regret doing that. Yeah, I did learn a lot from the experiences I had, but I do regret not taking things slow just because I felt like I had been wasting my time with men.

I think whenever someone just figures out their sexuality the best thing to do is not look for a relationship, I’d say the best thing is to look for queer friends. They can help you with things you’re going through related to your identity and they can reassure you when things don’t go exactly how you expected them to be.

Try interacting more with queer media: books, movies, shows… And being a lesbian is very important to be interacting with lesbian media because whenever you feel like you’re not being lesbian enough lesbian media is there for you. That helped me a lot.

#stephanie answers #anon #long post #lesbian #comphet

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purplecai · 1 year

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"HOPE"

So i will share this with you a short story of mine that i created for my performance task in creative writing. Actually i am not literally good at writing stories but i need it for my grades i am really expecting that I'll get low grades because of my wrong grammar and not fluently in english. But guess what?! i got a perfect score. That's why I'm here I'll share with you my work. So, that my thing will not be in stock. Also an additional for letting other people read my interesting short story,so here it goes....

A young woman lives in the province who moves to the city to study Nursing in College. Chloe Silverio is the daughter of laundress Mother Beth and caretaker Father Robert. Chloe is a beautiful lady she has a black straight hair, her nose is small but pointed. Her lips color is like a rose, a broad and sharp thick brows. She has a pinky rosy cheeks that makes her glow. She is a lady who is always wore flowery dress with her checkered. She paired it with her flat sandals, Chloe is a cute length size girl even she's short her look makes her more attractive. Chloe is a smart woman,as a transfer from other school to her new currently popular big campus Bienvinido Partial University,a school of daughters and son of the riches.

In the morning Chloe prepared for her first day of school. while lookin around she's still amazed it looks like harvard she couldn't expect that she'll study in the popular school. While walking in the hallway near to the front door of the school she accidentally bumped from a rich man's daughter named Danica Vida a spoiled brat lady ,gets what it wants she has a seductive looks a black eyes a red lips touch of seductive make-ups her hair is curly blonde looking waves on the sea. Wearing a sport bra, skirt and paired with white shoes.

Danica: What the hell!, Do you just bump me?

Chloe: Im sorry i didn't mean it im just looking in the beauty of my new school.

"I don't care! do you know who i am?, I am the daughter of the owner of the school " Danica said. Chloe felt embarrassed its her first day she's hoping that it will be a god day but it turned out miserable Chloe just bowed her head saying sorry..

Danica: it'll not pay your stupid actions!, I think you need to refreshed. Danica throw her a cup of juice that she gets from the other student walking passed by. Chloe is shock she didn't expect that Danica will throw her a cup of juice. "Hey! What did you do?" Chloe said.

"Well that's what you deserve" Danica said. Danica turned around swaying her hips with her blondy hair not thinking about Chloe after the tense happened other students were still watching and talking about her. Chloe turned around and clean herself and continue walking. She's now finding her room while looking every door she passed by she accidentally out of balance. Because of the banana peel on the floor. Her butt bumps on the floor the lady aches on pain she noticed the tw feet standing in front of her. She looked up and saw a young man he has a white skin a thick brows pink lips and smokey eyes that you can't resist. He's wearing a black long sleeves, ripped jean, paired with white rubber shoes. He also wearing a watch that also added to his looks. His name is Jeff Alfredo a son of a business man from chicago. Jeff's family is always on a trip so that he thinks no one cared or even remember him. He is a kind of man that really quiet but naughty inside he always get into trouble.

The young man asked Chloe if she needs help, Chloe accept the offer and thanks for the help. The two gets close asking name about each other. After their talks they know that they were classmates, they decided to find their room together. The two get late and are caught by their professor. times passed Chloe gets tired she go home and sleep with no eat. Her mother saw her sleeping she felt pity oh her daughter, while sleeping she cover her daughter a blanket and kissed her forehead. Days passed everything went well Jeff and Chloe are now friends. But one day Danica showed up and she wants to be with Jeff so she transfer to Jeff and Chloe's room. That day the thing in chloe and Jeff turned out cold because of Danica. Danica is always by Jeff's side, while Chloe decides to look up into herself focused in her studies.

Chloe and Danica always compete to get a place in honors one day Jeff unexpectedly shows up in the hallway . He's wearing a suit holding purple beautiful tulips and totally prepared. He looks so handsome and simply naturally looks good. the young man was planning for a surprise, the lucky girl was Chloe the students in the campus were shouting out loud because of the romantic ambiance of the scene. Jeff requested one girl from the crowd if she could find her girl. She wants Chloe Silverio to be he's girlfriend. The girl agreed and started to find Chloe, while Jeff and other students are in the hallway shouting.

Chloe gets disturb while reading a book from the library. A strange girl comes to her with a deep breath and asks her to "come with me" , Chloe asks what's happening!?.

Strange girl:" Chloe just listen to me I'll cover your eyes and you just need to listen for what will i say, just trust me".

"Okay then but I'm scared" Chloe said.

Strange girl: "not everything's alright"

Chloe just nods and follows the girl. On their way little by little the sound of music and the noisy sound of the crowd gets louder and louder. Jeff goes closer to Chloe and holds her hands, greets her and guiding he. On the spot they have a shape of heart on the ground. There are 4 boys singing and playing a guitar helping their friend Jeff court Chloe. The strange girl unfolded up her eyes giving Chloe's eyes permission to see what was in front of her. Chloe saw Jeff standing in front of her holding a purple tulips l, gave it to Chloe and sang a song. Chloe felt surprised it is so unexpected because all of the sudden he'll do this thing, even that day the thing between them gets cold. They do not talk to each other again.

Jeff: "Hello beautiful lady can you be my girlfriend?, I don't have any strength to tell this to you before because i am shy".

Chloe: "Wait i don't understand!, All of the sudden?, are you serious? Are you joking?.

"No I'm not the first time i met you i know i like you, then I fell in love with you for months. I have loved you...I'm not rushing you Chloe i just want to know if i have a chance on you?" Jeff's said.

"Yes!" Chloe said.

"What did you just say yes?" Jeff's said

"Yes! I am now your girlfriend" Chloe said.

Jeff: "Really? You don't know how happy i am"

Chloe: "I know!, the feeling is mutual, i like you and i really loved you.

The new lover is happy that the crowd get shouting out loud that makes the atmosphere more romantic. The two lovers hugged and kissed each other, suddenly Danica saw the scene of two she went closely into the lovers and captured the two. She shows it to the new couple saying the picture and video she has will be sent into her parents..

Danica was laughing, "oh! The two love birds, what a pity you Chloe in a minute your parents will know what the stupid actions you did and i felt sorry for you" Danica said.

Chloe: "Hey! Don't you dare send it to Danica!.

Danica: "oh ...sorry i accidentally clicked the button i got sent to your parents my dear".

Chloe felt embarrassed and left Jeff and Danica. To go home fast and catch her parents looking at the picture. They are so angry, Chloe just say sorry and beg for their forgiveness, fighting for her love for Jeff.

Tatay Robert: You just disobey us Chloe!, You don't know what will affect this to your studies you were too young for god sake!. We have more dreams for you!".

Chloe: "I know Dad but i loved him my relationship with Jeff will not be distract to my studies i promise!.. I don't want to lose him".

Tatay Robert: " No!, I don't agree i don't want to see that you're having a boyfriend don't make me lose my patience Chloe!".

The young lady just cries and goes to her room she didn't accept the conditions of her parents. Nanay Beth felt pity for her daughter, she didn't mean to hurt her feelings, they just give their daughter a distance and space. That night Chloe felt her parents treat her like a kid, she doesn't want that so she thinks for a plan how to be with her boyfriend Jeff. She packed her things and went out in her bedroom window. She climbs down the wall from her room.

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hornykittenwithkinks · 2 years

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Like I just really need to say this right now ( might delete later )

I'm very pissed off right now since my cousin went out with a boy since 9 p.m to 1 a.m on a Thursday and I had to lie to my mom and my aunt about where she was, I was supposed to sleep since 8 pm since my work shift starts at 6 am and I'm not really a morning person,I've suffered insomnia my whole life but since my job is very important for me I have been trying so hard to sleep early for the last month and I've made it,but today I'm only sleeping 3 hours and I have to work in 3 hours!!!!! I feel like like all the hard work and commitment I had just disappeared for something it was not my fault ,like I know is not my fault but I can't help to blame myself,I feel like I let myself down

And the worst part is that I was texting and calling her since I didn't know where she was or at what time she was coming but she was rejecting my calls and then just turned down the cellphone ,and there I was very worried about where she was,then she came at 1 am like nothing happened and just said "oh sorry I'm late my phone died " and just went to sleep and here I am with insomnia again ,very mad and even my stomach hurts,plus I have to work in 3 hours

Also there's something that my other cousin said earlier that's on my mind and it upset me a little bit

Like 2 weekends ago I went to a party with my cousins, one girl asked me to kiss her and I had curiosity since I never kissed girls before,so I agreed like it was just one little kiss but the thing is my cousin saw it, and then just started saying that is was okay if I was bi and I should not be ashamed and I was like calm down it was my first time and I don't think I'm bi,like I was just curious ( of course there is nothing wrong with being bi but at that moment I was just processing what happened since like I mentioned it was the first time)

I still don't think I'm bi, however I do post things of girls but I just like the posts and tbh it's my blog so I can post whatever I like

Then one time my cousin asked my sister to use her computer and everything was normal until she went for some reason to the history tab and saw that someone googled how to know if I'm pansexual and she just assumed it was me ,first of all I have my own computer so it wasn't me, second I think it was my other cousin or my sister but they're just insisting that either I'm bi or pan (there is nothing wrong with obviously) but I just don't feel identified as bi or pan,I'm straight and I'm very sure of it but it pisses me off that they mention it everytime they can and even if I say it wasn't me they just tell no worries ,we understand and we accept you

But they simply did not listen to me

I used to think I was bi so on the last party I went I kissed another girl to confirm it but when I did it I realized I didn't like it,and now I'm very sure I'm straight so I really don't know what to do,like I'm not going to obsess with it since it might look like I'm desperate for them to believe me ,so I might just let it go and let them forget that over time

But like I trusted them so now I feel betrayed and if I were them I would just believe what I'm saying

I might not made myself clear writing since English is not my native language but I'm also tired of apologizing to people for my accent or how I write, I'm exhausted

I shouldn't be embarrassed about not knowing something in a different language ,at least I speak more that 1 language and I should be proud of it and no one has the right to make me feel bad for making mistakes or for not saying the things correctly

I feel better now ,like I can try to sleep for a while maybe but I think I'll just keep writing here

I need to make this place ,my safe place since no one really knows me and can't judge me

Here I can be whatever I like and post and do whatever I like so bye for now

And just to make it clear ,I love all people,Trans ,bi,lesbian,gay,straight...

I'm straight however I support you and I will never judge you

This is our safe place

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game-set-canet · 3 years

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Manbuns? Thoughts.

yes, no and it depends 😂 I have a weakness for men with longer hair (Stefanos Tsitsipas, Marco Bezzecchi, Antonio Giovinazzi, Franco Morbidelli, etc.) and there's really nothing like a well-groomed Manbun!

for me personally, there are a few categories that have to be met for me to like the manbun as

it must look really neat

it shouldn't look too straight and too severe, I like it better when sometimes single hairs are hanging out/protruding than when it is completely straight

the hair must be long enough for this - the manbun doesn't look so good with hair that is too short

if someone wears a hairbun I think it looks even better when I KNOW he could wear the hair open and still look good - I don't know if this makes sense for anyone except me but if someone wears a manbun and I KNOW he looks amazing without it, i think this man looks even hotter

let's watch this video: Celestino Vietti's manbun looks good, still not as good as it will look one day, but definitely on the right track - Luca Marini at the other hand looks...uhm...interesting, but there is A LONG WAY to go until this looks like a manbun (if it is ever to become one 😂)...

and now let's discuss some examples:

Adrien Rabiot has a quite average manbun - nothing too fluffy, nothing too spectacular but really nice and suits him so well. He doesn't wear it all the time and also looks good with open hair - an important criterion for me

Franco Morbidelli with some quite fluffy ones. but on race weekends he usually wears a cap over his hair and so the Manbun can never really work, which I think is a shame...he looks so so good with it, but he doesn't show it off and that's sad...

Eamon Farren is quite critical because I first thought his hair is too short for a manbun but he knows how to pull it off, he looks confident and on point with it...(and some single hairs are hanging out and I love this!)

not a real manbun but it's killing me everytime: Stefanos Tsitsipas and his (half)ponytail hairstyle: OH MY GOD how I LOVE Stef's halfponytail (like he had in Tokyo this year but (the even better one) the halfponytail of Laver Cup 2019)! I don't know if there's a photo/video of Stef with a REAL manbun...but for me his halfponytail is...I don't know how to put it into words...just..."🥵🥵🥵" <- that's it.

I would say Antonio Giovinazzi is the best example of a phenomenal manbun. Really. 10/10. Nothing to complain. Just amazing. looks great, not too straight, well-groomed, fits him well, he also looks incredibly hot when he ties his hair up - so what more do I want?

#I loved this question so much #hope my answer was...interesting?#thank you for sending me this!#feel hugged lovely anon #manbun #ask me #it's the name of the game #anonymous #lovely anon #also: sorry for my english I'm so tired I can't thing straight

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burninglesbian · 2 years

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Friendly reminder to the dudebros:

When we say "Venom is gay" we don't necessarily mean homosexual. We mean "Venom is not straight". There's a difference. And no matter what dudebros say about Venom not being gay, they basically prove my point that Venom also isnt straight.

I'm tired of reading all these comments about "Venom can't be gay. He likes Anne!" Hell yeah he likes Anne. He says in the first movie "I like her". But the dudebros seem to forget that he also states That he likes Eddie too. He even says that he LOVES Eddie at the end of the second movie. So have these dudebros ever thought about the fact that Venom might like multiple genders or not care about gender at all (bisexuality and pansexuality, both part of the queer community, so that would make Venom LGBTQ+)

I also hear some people saying "Venom can't be gay, he's asexual". As an asexual lesbian myself I can tell you that your sexual desire has nothing to do with your romantic one. And when we're talking about Venom being asexual, we only mean the way he reproduces. He's an alien, we don't know how they work, he might reproduce asexual and still enjoy sex? (asexuality is also part of the LGBTQ+ community)

Another thing I also hear quite a lot is "Venom has no gender, he can't be gay". Yeah... sorry my non binary friends, you're automatically forbidden to be gay once you're born because the dudebros said so. (Clarification: you can be gay and still have no gender/ not fit into the gender binary. Not to forget that being non binary is also part of the LGBTQ+ community)

Last argument I often hear: "Who even cares about Venom's sexuality?!". Yes you're right, who cares? The dudebros apparently, since I see all of you complaining about it in the comment sections and filming 20 minute long videos on how Venom can't be gay. Just don't care about Venom's sexuality and enjoy the film... or don't enjoy it, depending on who you are.

Not to forget that in a lot of comic runs Eddie and Venom's relationship is very much a romantic one, and if you don't see it, you desperately try to deny seeing it. And if that's the case, maybe you should think about the fact, that you might not be as tolerating as you say you are. Because to a certain point it's just gay erasure, not wanting to accept the fact that the character you like might possibly be gay.

Thank you for listening, please excuse my bad English, feel free to correct me, if I said anything wrong and greetings from Germany.

#venom #venom let there be carnage #symbrock #marvel #venom symbiote #venom movie #venom ltbc #lgbtq

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bbanggami · 2 years

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A normal day like normal people - CHOI BEOMGYU!!

Just a normal day like normal people [one shot] idol!beomgyu x idol!gn!reader

✦this oneshot is part of the "What the heart desires" collab hosted by @enluv

✦genre: fluff, crack, like 1% of angst and valentines day au!

✦warning: cursing, mentions of food, a little bit of lack of communication (idk if there's more so if you catch something plss warn me u.u)

✦word count: 2.3k

✦summary: Valentines day, a day that you should spend with your beloved ones, going out to romantic dates, holding hands on the streets or even posting pictures on your social medias! Sadly for reader and Beomgyu they couldn't pass the holiday like that.

✦a.n.:

• english is not my first language, so I'm sorry for any english mistakes;

• this fic is written in the first person;

• taglist is open, send an ask or comment and I'll add u.

Valentine's day, a day that you should spend with your loved ones, going out on romantic dates, holding hands on the streets or even posting pictures on your social media!

Sadly I couldn't do any of that! For the second year straight I needed to spend Valentine's day at Beomgyu's home. I was so tired of the same old thing, staying at home and watching the same shows and movies, I wanted to go out to hold his hand on the streets without needing to use sunglasses or masks.

"Fuck Dispatch! I'm so tired of this Gyu! Why can't we just have a normal day like normal people?" I said while I walked inside Beomgyu's apartment.

"Maybe because we are not ordinary people!"

"Why do you always act like that?" I murmured

"Like what?"

"Nevermind..."

"Anyways, I already have our day planned!" Beomgyu smiles and comes to hug me "And I really want us to enjoy this day!"

"Me too!" I said quietly.

And here we are, watching "The Notebook” while its sunny outside, its kinda funny being a sunny day even though we are in February, but it could even being raining that I would prefer going outside in the rain than staying inside in a sunny day, maybe this is a price to pay for the fame.

“Are you enjoying the movie?”

“Beomgyu this is the fourth time that we are watching “The Notebook” I already everything that it's going to happen and I even know that you will start to cry in the end! But yes I am enjoying this movie!” I lied and he knew.

“Look I know that you want to go outside, but you need to comprehend that we are idols and people expect us to be perfect and they don't care about our feelings! They will give us hate just because we are in a relationship! Do you think that I don’t want to go outside? I would love to hold hands with you, to go many many places that I can't even count with you, I want to tell everyone that I am with you! But sometimes things don't go as we want!”

“I know it, but I just wish that we could spend it like other people do..."

"You know what? Let's get out of this apartment! I don't want you to be sad today! And what's the worst that could happen? We are idols but we still are ordinary people with """"normal""" lifes that are just a little bit more... Humm... shaky shaky" Beomgyu said with a bright smile on his lips.

"But I thought that you already had our day planned?"

"You know I always have a plan B! Today we are going to have a normal day like normal people!! Like you said fuck Dispatch!"

"Yeah fuck Dispatch!" I said while hugging Beomgyu "But where are we going to?"

"To anywhere you want!"

"Do you know that art museum that you told me you wanted to go to? We can always go there first and then we can have a picnic on the river han at night!"

"It seems good! We can also go to Lotte World before we go to the river han!"

"It's going to be our first time going there together! But don't you think that it's kinda risky?"

"It is but we can not hide forever! Let's go!" Beomgyu said grabbing his jacket .

And here we are now, in a museum with our hands holding, even though we were using masks for the first time in a long time I felt like an ordinary person with a private life.

"I really loved this portrait! Look at the colors, and the emotions that it transmits to us!" I said looking at the portrait.

"I liked this one more. I think that it matches my energy!"

"Chaotic just like you!"

"Damn yn you didn't need to say it like that my heart is weak" Beomgyu put his hand on his chest while making his little drama queen moment.

"Oh my baby is hurt?" I said and after punching his arm.

"YAA! yln yn why are you like this?"

"Because... hum... yes!!"

"I'm going to call the police, my (partner) is crazy"

When he said that I just started to run after him, we were lucky because we already were outside of the museum. Just imagine running after Beomgyu at the museum, the security would probably kick us out.

"YA CHOI BEOMGYU!!!" I screamed "Okay I'll not kick you or punch you, now come here, come here..." And I stopped to run

“Are you telling the truth?”

“Yes, now come here…”

As I said that Beomgyu stopped running and came to my direction, and I wasn't dumb enough so I nip him.

"Ya! You told me that you wouldn’t do anything to me!" He said while pouting.

"I said I would not kick you or punch you! I never said I wouldn't nip you!" I said while crossing our harms.

"I don't know why I trusted you!"

"Okay cry baby, let's just go lunch and then go to the Lotte World, and hope that nobody recognizes us!"

"As you said boss!"

I just can’t believe that Beomgyu really had a plan B, he reserved a whole super chic five star michelin restaurant just for us to lunch. Sometimes I really forget that Beomgyu can be a really surprising person, and that is one of the main reasons why I love him so much.

“We could have gone to a less expensive restaurant, you know?”

“I wanted to make something big, because it’s our first time having lunch outside!”

“I would love anything! To me it doesn't matter the price as long that we are spending time together and that we eat”

“We can make something more simple at night while we are in river Han”

"I'll pay for that, it’s not fair that you paid this whole ass restaurant just for us! And I’ll also pay for our Lotte World tickets! You better not contradict me!”

“Okayyyyy! But now let’s just enjoy our meal!”

“Okie dokie”

When Beomgyu suggested to come to Lotte world I would never have imagined that I would be on a roller coaster with him and that he would be screaming his lungs out.

"OH MY GOD!! SOMEBODY HELP ME, I'M TOO YOUNG TO DIE IN THIS TRAGIC WAY!! MOM I LOVE YOU!! SORRY FOR BEING A BRAT KID! I PROMISE I'LL BE A BETTER KID!! GOD HELP ME!

"CHOI BEOMGYU STOP SCREAMING YOU WILL NOT DIE!"

"I DON'T KNOW IF I LIKE THIS OR IF I HATE THIS! BUT OH MY FUCKING GOD I'M SCARED AS HELL!"

As he said that the roller coaster arrives at the final destination, as soon as we stop Beomgyu gets up and starts to make his mini drama, drama queen moment part two.

"yn I'm telling you I really felt like I was going to die, my heart was beating so fast and I only could scream, oh my God I don't think I'll ever again go to a roller coaster! Oh my God just feel my heart" He said while grabbing my hand and putting it on his chest.

"Damn boy your heart is beating faster than a Ferrari! Is that because of the roller coaster or is it because you are with me?"

"(person) you are crazy! obviously it is for the roller coaster!" He said and I ain't gonna lie it kinda hurt but I didn’t expect for me to start crying.

"Ya yln yn! Are you crying?" He hugged me when he saw my tears. "I was joking! I really like you and my heart is always like that when I'm around you!"

“I don't even know why I am crying! It's just been a lot of stuff happening and I am afraid that you don't like me anymo—”

“YAH! yln yn don't you ever say that again!” He interrupted me.

“I just feel like I am ruining our first outside date and you probably are done with me…”

“Why would I be done with you? It's not like I didn't want to come, this it’s literally what I wanted but I was afraid! But now that we are here, outside of my apartment I really want to enjoy this day with you! I want this to be a memorable day and not just like any other date that we had, if we can call that a date…”

“I loved all of our dates! Even if we weren't outside I enjoy spending any kind of time with you! I love when I have a performance and after that I go to your house, I love to watch “The Notebook'' even if I need to hear you cry for the last 20 minutes of the movie, I love when we make food together and the kitchen becomes a mess…” I say and make a pause “To me it doesn't matter where we are as long as we can spend time together! I really wanted a outside of our houses date but that does not mean that I don't like to stay home with you”

“I think that we should start to communicate more, we need to start talking about our feelings and not just stay quiet when something that bothers us happens! I'm really glad that we opened up about this stuff, even if it happened in Lotte World” Beomgyu says laughing.

“I promise I'll start to communicate more!” I said and picked up my phone “Oh my God, it's already 8pm! We should be going to river Han and have dinner”

“Yeah, we should be going! I didn't even notice that!”

Walking through the streets with our hands hold was comforting, we could have come with Beomgyu’s car or mine, but he insisted to us to come walking, because he wanted to feel like in his high school days when he was not an idol and had a private life, I enjoyed that, I enjoyed to feel normal.

“Today was a sunny day, but now! NOW IT’S FREEZING AS HELL”

“And we can't even warm ourselves because we didn't bring car”

“Let’s just walk faster so then we can arrive to Han river!”

“Walk, walk, walk, fashion baby” I started to sing

“Work and move that bitch crazy” Beomgyu finished

And between songs and laughs we arrived to Han river, we had our dinner and as much as we wanted to stayed there and watched the stars its was freezing to much so we ended up coming to Beomgyu’s apartment, where we started the day,and now we were finishing “The Notebook” I swear to God I don’t know what is the obsession that this boy have with it but I ain’t going to lie, I love to watch it with him.

“Their story is so emotional!” Beomgyu says between soobs.

“I didn’t know that someone could cry this much for a movie, and it's like the tenth time that you are watching it!” I said between laughs.

“Actually it's the twelfth time that I am watching it…”

“Chill, anyways… Thank you Gyu! I really enjoyed spending this day with you!”

“Thank you too! I enjoyed this day too, I think that we should do this again! Holding your hand in the street, having lunch and dinner outside of home, going to Lotte World and screaming like the world is ending! I really enjoyed being with you yln yn! I…” He makes a 5 second pause and then he says “I love you yln yn! I love you so much!”

I was screaming internally, it was the first time that he said those three words to me, those eight letters, and I didn't know how to react. I was so happy that I could explode of happiness at this right moment.

“I love you too” I said it for the first time too, and kissed him.

After breaking our kiss Beomgyu said “Now we need to wait ‘till tomorrow to see if we got caught, but we didn’t survived January 1st for nothing so in my mind wwe did not got caught and Dispatch or any other site like All kpop and Sompi lost”

“Okay we will not get discovered boy I think that we should go to sleep cuz it’s almost midnight and I’m sleepy and I bet you are too”

“Yes I am!” And when Beomgyu said that we got up from the sofa and went to the room to maybe sleep for the next ten hours .

Waking up with Beomgyu beside me was one of the best feeling ever and I am so grateful for having him in my life, I’m looking at him right now and he looks like an angel when he is sleeping, but when he is awaken only God knows how such a brat he is, but he is the brat that I love.

“Good Morning” He says with a raspy voice while sitting on the bed and picking his phone

“Good Morning” I kiss him.

“Well our name it’s not trending” He says putting the phone away.

“Which means that we not only survived January first but we also survived Valentine’s Day!”

“SO I GUESS WE CAN GO ON DATES OUTSIDE WITHOUT GETTING CAUGHT!”

“OH MY GOD I’M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!”

I can’t describe the feeling that I’m feeling right now, but I was finally feeling like an ordinary life and I was loving it, and what is making this feeling more is the fact that I can enjoy it with Beomgyu, I loved my day with Beomgyu, I loved the feeling of being free, and the fact that I was still a ordinary person with a normal life but just a little bit more shaky shaky like Beomgyu said.

February 14 of 2022 was probably the best day of my life and it made me realize that I really want to spend my tomorrow together with Choi Beomgyu.

hiiii hihihi ig this is my debut haha, 1st of all i want say that I really think that I could have done better but I'll make it better next, this literally the first fanfiction that I wrote for tumblr and I really enjoyed being part of this collab, it was a journey that I'll always appreciate... in second place I'll dedicate this oneshot to @moapiaf ik you been going through a lot and I really want to make your day a little bit better!! thank you for always supporting me!! hope u know that I'll be here always u.u I really hope that yall liked this one shot and I promise that next time I'll do better!!! I would also like to apologize for any gramar mistake because english is not my first language... THANK YOU FOR READING AND HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY💓💓

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Stalking | Haitani

Warnings: clumsy english text, typos

Can I just write something before I see these beautiful boys in the new episode?

Ran

You knew for sure that you had already seen this guy. By a stupid accident, one day he helped you collect your things that were scattered all over the street. Since then, he surprisingly often began to catch your eye. You noticed him on the way to and from work when you went to the store or just walked around the city. Sometimes he was passing by you and smile, which was confusing, but sometimes you noticed how he was watching from afar. In the end, it was like being paranoid. It seemed that you were about to see these two braids that callused your eyes, sitting on the sofa in your living room.

And you've come to terms with it. Almost. Until something happened.

"You've been finishing up pretty late lately."

"Eh?...",- the familiar voice sent shivers down your spine. You froze, unable to move. But you didn't want to turn your head because you probably knew it was him. Now it was just like a terrible dream that did not want to let you go.

"Do you need a ride?"

Swallowing, you turned around. Yes, it was him. That creepy guy with those stupid braids that you hated. Leaning on the steering wheel of the bike and propping his chin on his hand, he looked at you with a narrowed eye and a grin.

"Uh...n-no, thank you, I'm not far here...", - but you're lying and it seems that he understands this. The time was really late, and you live far away. But right now you were thinking about how to escape from him. You walked further along the street, periodically glancing at him and speeding up your pace. If you had the opportunity, you would have run with all your might now, but you knew that this opportunity was not there. You definitely can't overtake a bike.

The guy caught up with you, looking right into your face, the grin became even wider when he realized what was going on, it seemed that he felt you too well, - "Are you afraid of me?"

"What?? Of course not", - the words, full of indignation, literally burst out of you. No, you weren't afraid of him, you were already sick of seeing him. Isn't that right? Right? ...

From your harsh words, he looked thoughtfully somewhere up into the night sky, before turning back to you, - "That's how...but…"

But you're already gone.

Pausing in mid-sentence, Ran began to look around, peering into the depths of the dark streets. He pursed his lips when he realized where you went – to a remote alley. The place is not the safest.

Your rapid footsteps echoed hollowly from the concrete walls of the narrow alleys. Hoping to take a shortcut and get out of here as soon as possible, you wound through unfamiliar courtyards until you once again came to a dead end.

"Damn",- your thoughts began to get confused again, a tight lump rose somewhere in your throat, you felt panic. If you go back, he will be there. But you're tired of looking for a way out.

"Hey, baby, are you lost?"

Lost in your thoughts, you did not notice how three criminal-looking guys turned out to be nearby. One of them came up to you with an imposing gait, unceremoniously grabbing you by the waist, the disgusting type pulled you closer to him.

"Why are you so tense, relax, we can help you with this, right, guys?", - the guy looked at his friends and laughed, they also took up his initiative.

Unpleasant laughter causes a headache, for a second you thought that you could just give up, that this is not happening to you and it has gone too far.

"Take your hands off!!", - pushing him away from you with a sharp jerk, you jumped back a couple of steps.

The guy staggered, but stood on his feet, although an unpleasant aching pain spread over his chest, which caused his cheerful mood to instantly evaporate, giving way to anger, - "Catch this bitch."

After these words, you immediately slipped back into the narrow alley along which you came, when the others ran after you. Out of the corner of your ear, you heard threats flying after you. You ran, running out of strength until you found an even narrower alley with containers behind which you could hide.

Footsteps and voices echoed past your shelter, sweat broke out on your face, and your legs were buzzing because of the heavy load, but you were still sitting stiffly on the cold, dirty asphalt, unable to move and breathe calmly.

But the panic again covered you when the steps were approaching in your direction, and the shadow fell on the wall of the building opposite. But you breathed a sigh of relief when you saw the tall figure of a guy you already know. It seems that for the first time you were happy to see him.

"Are you okay?", - an excited expression appeared on his face as he looked you up and down and held out his hand to help you up.

"Yes, I was just a little scared...", - you accepted the help and got up on your numb legs, brushing off your clothes from the dirt, - "Thank you for...oh...you have blood on your cheek", - you didn't understand why you were worried about him, seeing only a small scratch on his face, but...from this angle, you noted that your pursuer was very cute, which made your cheeks turn pink.

"Hmm?", - passing his hand over his cheek, he looked at his fingers, which really had smeared blood on them, but..- "It's not mine", - the guy smiled gently, which caused you confusion, but you were calm.

"Do you see how many problems there are just because you didn't agree to my offer?", - a light chuckle eased the tension between the two of you as he held out his hand to you again, - "So can I give you a ride?"

Confused, even more, you looked uncertainly into his eyes and, not seeing the danger, carefully put your hand in his, - "I think...yes."

Rindou

"I think it's starting to rain...", - a familiar voice drawled thoughtfully to your's right, while you were standing at the intersection and was waiting for the green light.

From surprise, you turned around and shuddered – in the crowd of people waiting for the signal, there was him - a guy with blond hair and a very ordinary sharp face. The purple eyes shine a little, brazenly looking at your's face. Without turning around, he opens his umbrella right at the moment when the first thunderclap sounds somewhere in the distance.

"Aren't you afraid of getting wet?", - It became obvious that this guy was talking to you, taking a light step past those standing around.

"No", - you whisper, taking a step back.

Suddenly, a beep is heard behind him. The cars on the road freeze, and the flow of people rushes forward, carrying you away. Your thoughts were confused as your legs desperately carried you somewhere ahead. You had already passed the crossing, but something made you turn around. Your heart stopped for a moment, then began to pound wildly – you saw him among the huge mass of heads. His blond, disheveled hair shone like the sun from under a black umbrella. It seems that he also noticed you – a friendly smile appeared on his face. Lifting his umbrella, he waved vigorously at you with his free hand.

This innocent gesture caused a wave of icy goosebumps to run down your back, and you hurried to escape from a crowded place to some courtyards.

You ran for a long time, ragged breath coming out of your mouth until the strength left you, and you stopped. You needed to catch your breath. The rain was beating harder and harder on your head. Your hair and clothes were soaked through

"You'll catch a cold if you keep running like this," - he suddenly heard very close to your ear.

You jumped on the spot and turned around. It's him again! And how does he manage to catch up with you, while maintaining an absolutely calm appearance?..

The guy came closer, taking advantage of your confusion. He held out his hand. Cold…

His angular hand slid onto your forearm and, moving up, pulled uncomfortably on your wet sleeve.

"What do you want from me?...", - you whispered very softly. Your voice was hoarse, frightened. You were shaking all over.

A real hurricane of thoughts was spinning in your head. The first meeting was on a clear evening, a sweet, promising conversation. When did everything go wrong? Now he was following your constantly. At first, he seemed unobtrusive and courteous – he met you, accompany you through dangerous streets to the house. But...after one of the meetings, everything changed. Or not?

"I just want to walk you home", - as always, he smiled warmly with his simple smile, as if he did not understand how creepy he looks now, in their "accidental" meeting. - "Yes, and this rain is so not at the right time. And I see you don't take an umbrella…"

"Fuck off already!", - you screamed and started running again, leaving the frightening interlocutor in slight confusion.

The rain was falling harder and harder, blurring the view with a solid wall. Where did you run to? You didn't care anymore. A straight section, a turn, another turn, a wide street that you run diagonally, ignoring the indignant shouts in the back. The lights of the signs and windows dance around you. Everything merges into a strange nightmare, where bright colors are just decorations. Your heart continues to pound wildly, the noise of blood in your ears is deafening.

That's when you bump into someone's thick carcass. An elastic blow throws you to the wet asphalt. Your hands are burning with pain, and you finally come to your senses.

You were now sitting in some dark alley, where neither lonely windows nor the black doors of various eateries do not go out.

A moment of confusion.

"S-sorry", - you rise, leaning on a skinned palm. It stings. – "I just…"

"Are you lost, beautiful?" - A high-pitched adult voice was heard.

You lookup. In front of you is a heavy man significantly exceeding you in height. He chuckles slightly as he looks at you. And now he was reaching out to you

"Let me examine your hands...", - a hard grip shackles your right wrist, pulls forward.

You are overwhelmed by panic, you can't resist it, are absolutely tired. From despair and pain, you began to howl softly.

"Well, well", - the man encouraged you, smiling maliciously, continuing to pull you to him. – "There's nothing terrible here, dear, now I'll help you get rid of the pain…"

The other hand was also close to your body. It seemed that something irreparable was about to happen.

"Don't...please let me go!", - you whimpered and squeezed your eyes shut in a fit of hopelessness.

And then something happened.

You opened one eye, unable to restrain a strange curiosity. The man let go of your hand, and all his attention was now focused on the guy standing almost between them. With one hand he continued to squeeze the umbrella, the water from which was just trickling down the rough man's neck, and with the other, he was squeezing his fat wrist.

"I think they told you to let go," - he said seriously, looking straight into the small, surprising beady eyes.

"What?", - that's all the boar said, after which he tried to crush the stranger with his mass, stepping forward.

What happened next, you remembered vaguely. More precisely, you just didn't have time to remember exactly what happened. The guy only smiled rapaciously at the fat man's movement, after which he made several blows so fast that you simply did not catch them all. Just sharp shadows under the light of a lone lantern suddenly crashed into a thick carcass. The pig didn't even say anything, just fell back, collapsing on the garbage bags against the wall.

Realizing that it was all over, you turned her gaze to your pursuer and were amazed. He stood there, absolutely calm, smiling affably and holding out his hand to her.

"It's dangerous to go home alone. Can I walk you out?"

A lump rose in your throat, but you immediately overcame herself and took the stranger by the hand. - "Yes, I think I should agree"

You smiled sweetly back at him, then obediently stood under a wide umbrella, and together you moved to the exit of the alley.

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