Jared being homophobic is so funny to me like out of all the reasons you could have had to make a mocking comment you choose homophobia and it didn’t work bc they were actually gay

"Whos this then? Your boyfriend?"

"Yes actually"

"Oh" mission failed successfully

okay so remember when jared had that incredibly homophobic moment at a con last year? like i remember it happened. i know it was terribly awful. but i cannot for the life of me remember what he actually said - only that it was horrible. meanwhile, i feel like i will always remember that misha consciously made jokes referring to his inferred queerness for 12 (!!) years all while being heterosexual. like i do believe jared is more maliciously anti-gay but like. i honestly don’t think misha can call himself an ally anymore like it’s just kinda fucked up he did that for so long. like at least i don’t remember wtf jared said. idk maybe this is just me thinking this way but i am miffed.

It’s not just you but i don’t agree. J2 gay jokes are like WOULDNT it be FUNNY if my coworker was GAY and EMASCULATED wouldn’t it be HILARIOUS if he was a gay man. But when someone’s like haha wouldn’t it be funny if you were gay Jared? He’s immediately like. No. It wouldn’t be. It’s fucked up to say that. Never joke about that again. And then turns around and is like haha misha chugs dick round of applause ! Vs misha who mostly makes gay jokes about himself I think and it’s like. In a very #oneofthegirls way. Like Jared and jensen would never be mistaken as a celebrity who is “queer” but hasn’t come out because he doesn’t see the need to. People legit thought misha had been out for years. And I mean. What material harm does he do by acting like he’s a part of the lgbt community? None. What material benefits are conferred to him by acting like he’s part of the lgbt community. None. But it IS very funny that he’s so verklempt over it. And it DOES make young gay teenagers feel safe in an environment (super natural) that was extremely hostile. So again. I think misha collins is the worlds first instance of a bisexual man only attracted to women. I’ll allow it

Let’s talk about the Cockles sunset photos shall we?

Misha posted this collage

Source

Jensen posted this

Source

Jensen also talked about the moment during the j2 gold panel in 2015 after a fan asked him about them.

Disclaimer: I don’t know how to make gifs but I will link the minute marks so don’t worry. Major body language reading speculation wiith my tinhat on.

So a lovely fan asks Jensen about how high he had to jump to get that pose and Jensen smiles fondly, Jared smiles too.  That was so cute.

The fan keeps asking the question and Jensen has the biggest smile and his body is shaking with laughter but he’s trying really hard to conceal it to no avail.

Now what gets me here is Jared’s reaction. Seriously, look at him. What is this face? He’s like dude yeah, tell us. We need to know more.

The fan asks if they had to wait the entire day for the sunset and Jensen being the deflection king that he is, he said “yeah we sat there and it was a taster’s choice moment.” with the biggest grin on his face.

(For those who don’t know what a taster’s moment is, here’s a link. It is quite romantic so Jensen's choice of words was rather sus.)

Now, what makes me think that this was not just bros taking sunset photos is 1) Jensen’s defelcetion with humour as seen above and 2) Jared also trying to deflect Jensn’s deflection or maybe he was just trying to be part of the story, I honestly don’t know.  But he talks about how Misha and Jensen often jump up and down between takes and someone just took photos of them. 

Jensen doesn’t look happy with what Jared is saying. Not in a bad way but Jensen being the romantic he is and not wanting people to understand that no, these were not just bros goofing off but a beautiful romantic moment between him and Mish.

So he does what he needed to do and let his bro down by tellling the truth.He actually laughs like haha, no. Ouch!

Jared smiles uncomfortably because his joke just got debunked so he busies himself with fixing his mic and stops smiling.

Jensen starts telling the story of how it happened and he doesn’t remember something so he asks someone to the side. Jared doesn’t even know because he has a frown on his face and someone on the side tells Jensen where they were. It’s like Jared wasn’t there. IDK.

Aww the way Jensen says, “So I just put my arm around Misha and said we should just...we should like tweet it taster’s moment right now.”

Look how happy he is and look at Jared’s face. He’s like ‘what kinda gay shit is this bro’

Jensen continues and says, how they took the picture and then explains how somebody took the picture from the road blah blah blah. Now at that moment you can see Jared’s frown going like, ‘wait there’s more? wtf?’  there’s more of Jared being like ‘wtf dude? You don’t even remember what happened yesterday and you remember every detail of this shit?’ lol, his face is a journey and I am living for it.

I don’t know who Jensen keeps looking at on the side to confirm what happened. I think it’s Clif. (We need the tell all Clif)

Their smiles when jensen says Misha just happened to pick the one where Jensen looks like a ballerina

Here are gifs for that panel

Introducing my roommate to supernatural through only my favorite episodes (in no particular order):

The French Mistake

-about Sam, “everybody probably wants to sex him”

-“misha? What kinda name is misha?”

-about Jared, “does this guy know how to act?”

-trying not to cry, “they killed misha?”

-about lock and key bit, “I think this is the best acting he’s done”

Changing Channels

-about the intro, “it’s like full house but they’re gay for each other”

-about the sit com scene, “are you sure this isn’t incest because they’re so gay for each other”

-“so monsters are real that’s dope”

-about dean’s reaction to doctor sexy, “that’s not a straight man”

-about sam in nutcracker, “he’s so ugly now I can’t do it”

-after Sam says he has herpes, *just claps*

-about the trickster, “why is his forehead like that?”

-about Dean yelling, “I don’t understand what he’s saying to me, but it’s so funny” *begins barking while making pointing motions*

LARP and the real girl

-copying the sheriff, “horshes”

-“kids these days with their texting and murder”

-about Lance, “is that Lancelot? Is he in the Bible?”

-about the LARPer roasting them, “shit he took them the fuck out”

-when Charlie says stayed for the chicks, “yes! That’s some girl boss shit”

-about Charlie, “she gettin bitches” “oh shit! Oh shit!”

-about handmaiden line, “haha he’s her handmaiden!”

-about Charlie, “is she that bitch from good luck Charlie?”

-when boltar is revealed, “hahaha, fucking King”

-when dean knocks him out, “damn, he fucked”

-about Sam in LARP attire, “who the fuck is that?”

A deep dive into Alexander (2004) directed by Oliver stone ( this definitely isn't my personal thoughts on it )

Let's start with the basics, what is this movie about, it's a "epic dramatic" films about Alexander the Great's life ( played by Colin Pharrell ), it was a runtime if 3 hours and 37 minutes. Yes you heard that right 3 H O U R S. Ahem anyways it tries to explore Alexander's relationship with his mother Olympias ( Angelina Jolie ), his father Phillip ll ( Val kilmer ) and his "close friend" Hephaestion ( Jared Leto )

Next let's talk about what the public thought about this film according to rotten tomatoes, film critics score is 16% and audience score is 35%, and all I have to say is fair enough lol, the film isn't that good, it has alot of moments that stretch out for far too long, weird shots and weird time jumps, time jumps I think are the biggest problem with this film but I will go more into it later. This movie tried to explore Alexander's personal life, childhood, relationship, army life, all the battles he and the army went through all the while trying to make it "epic" and interesting and obviously that's just too much to handle for one movie even for a 3 hours film. Now let's talk about the time jumps, they're too much, too confusing the film starts at a battle then jumps back to Alexander's childhood then jumps to the future and it just keeps going back and forth, I also suffers from what I like to call too many flashbacks syndrome, I just think it would have been so much better if it started with his childhood and slowly progressed to his father's death, his rise to the throne, army life and eventual death.

Now I would like to talk about what the

Greeks

Thought about this film. I am greek and I personally liked it but it might be because I suffer from, I have no sense of judgement syndrome ha...haha.. right anyways. So in little word the Greeks HATED this film for ONE small reason, and my father told me when I asked him about this film "they made Alexander a

Sissy , a faggot, a fig tree"

AH YES HOMOPHOBIA, yes Greece is indeed a homophobic country this film dives DEEP into Alexander's sexuality and is bisexual in this film, his "close friends, comrade fellow army general" Hephaestion and him are obviously in a relationship although it is not explicitly shown, like they share intimate moments and do alot of like touching and shit but like they never kiss or explicitly show in any way shape or form that they're in a relationship ( except from the moment where Olympias yells at Alexander that all of the women think that he is fonder of Hephaestion's thighs rather the theirs ahem ) I would ALSO like to point out that when I watched Alexander on greek television the scene where Alexander like makes out with bagoas or however u spell his name is cut out AND alot of the scenes between Alexander and Hephaestion are cut out e.i the scene that Hephaestion gives Alexander a ring. AHHH I HATE IT HERE like yes hate this film cause it isn't that historically accurate not because of the gay. Now was he gay I'll talk about that in a separate post probably lol.

Right anyways but how is the cinematography ? It's alright all the locations are gorgeous and it has some pretty scenes but like I said most of the scenes are really stretched out. The acting is alright Colin Pharrell is immaculate like he out so much emotion to this role, he's great.

And lastly why isn't it that historically accurate well this film kinda leans to the conspiracy side of Alexander's story cause like there are alot if unanswered questions like why/who killed Phillip and in this one the film falls to the conspiracy that it was a guard that was r*ped by Phillip but also has some subtext of Olympias doing it ?? Idk it's weird.

Finally what are my thoughts on it. Personally I like it, besides it flaws it's a fun film, some might say it boring considering its three hours long but I have an undying love for long films so I like this one. Yes it is bad BUT it's the funny bad and it also had the balls to tackle lgbt themes in 2004, UNLIKE S O M E OTHER FILMS THAT CANE OUT THE SAME YEAR AHEM* TROY *AHEM.

6.9/10 would recommend <3

so for the first time I saw batman: the killing joke.

...

it was okay I guess. but massively overrated. I expected some fucking masterpiece of cinema but instead it was just two unrelated short films that were more style and flash than substance.

so first off, barbara's storyline was mediocre. franz wasn't a compelling villain; just a creep, and a trust fund brat. oh wow he's a mafia kid who stole his family's fortune by hacking. if it was the falcone family I'd have cared more but it wasn't so it's just some faceless deathfodder rando. who gives a shit. the whole situation was just a vehicle to shove batman's dick into babs. which kinda fucks over bruce's character here and judging by the timeline kinda makes him a bit of a groomer, yikes. bruce and gordon have known each other since bruce was a young boy and we know that bruce is way older than babs so yeah bruce totally knew her from birth until present day, he literally utilized an active power dynamic to police her crimefighting activities, and he should have fucking known better and stopped her when she kissed him because it would (and did) compromise their professional dynamic, but hey, batdick. and at least barbara recognized that she was behaving emotionally rather than logically when it came to bruce and paris and took the high road out. that would be a serviceable standalone episode to write her on a bus in a serialization but THIS IS A MOVIE. so for a waste of an already short runtime it's like having an appetizer before your meal but instead of something like a crab cake before stuffed flounder, you get greasy onion petals that are more fried batter than onion before getting a well done cheeseburger that's just a glorified hockey puck on a sponge with a kraft single on top. the animation and vocal delivery were excellent of course, not gonna disparage that aspect, so it was well made, but the writing was just not very good. a polished turd. quantic dream must have developed it then because it feels like I watched a david cage production.

so in a 78 minute movie, five of which were the credits, we had a half hour Disney/Pixar short except those bring joy and this brought boring. also there were a lot of shots of her ass tits and underwear that were obnoxiously male-gazey and there was a token gay for the sole purpose of dangling a carrot on a stick for the queers. look kids, warner brothers and dc comics cares about the lgbts! give us money! a waste of time before the real reason why anyone came to see the movie that literally only exists to pad out the runtime to make it a feature length (even though paying a full ticket would've been a total ripoff because, again, IT WAS ONLY 78. even 9 was 81 minutes long and that had an amazing storyline so I forgave it, but 78 minutes? ugh.

also, GOTHAM RAGE??? CRINGE. SO CRINGE.

alright now for the joker segment.

*ahem*

what the fuck? that sucked! *throws tomato*

mark hamill and the joker's lines and the art and the cinematography and the choreography was all good and the plot was cohesive. I get it.

but holy shit was the writing weak as fuck.

okay so some rando breaks the J-ster out of Arkham (already unlikely but ugh whatever), he didn't turn a trick or recruit or anything, he just went to purchase a carnival. or, steal one. but wait, he DID recruit, but he went to get all of the stereotypical Circus Freak™ stereotypes. little people, fat lady, bearded lady, wolf man, strongman, diaper man (wait, what?), and the two headed woman. I guess if you don't really think about why all of them were super readily available in the outskirts between arkham and gotham [i just realized they both end with -am] then it makes enough sense. and then literally right after that HE RECRUITS SOME GUYS TO HELP HIM KIDNAP GORDON. and then strips and photographs barbara. um. ew. you can tell the writer and director were men. Alan Moore is constantly molesting women in his comics and this one trick pony should be put down already. but whatever. the plot is weak and it only gets saved by the flashback sequences.

oh.

oh no.

they're not that great.

he's a failed unfunny comedian who just wants some money to move his wife to a better house so he turns to thievery with the mob. OR YOU COULD JUST STOP GOING TO THE BAR AND BLOWING IT ALL ON BOOZE. I mean the cops knew where to find him after all so clearly he's a repeat customer (or moore is a bad plot writer who relies on convenience and shut the fuck up and don't critically analyze it). alright so he gets wrapped up in the mob to perform a heist on a playing card factory. GET IT, BECAUSE HE'S THE JOKER??? and he uses the moniker of the red hood to retain his anonymity. I expected the mobsters to be working for francisco but no the paris storyline was only cooked up screenplay for passing the runtime so why would they do something clever and interesting and make the film cohesive? that'd be really stupid to make the movie feel more like one movie and not two short films. at least when grindhouse & planet terror did it they advertised themselves as an anthology film. whatever. he falls in the vat of acid which melts the red hood to his face and I gotta say that's actually a pretty good idea to get his face white and his hair green and his lips red. I like that part. oh wait I forgot about the most important part! his wife gets shoved in the refrigerator. OH WOW THAT'S JUST SO COMPELLING AND ORIGINAL, TOTALLY NOT SOMETHING THAT ALREADY HAPPENED TO GREEN LANTERN. TWICE. although she wasn't literally shoved into a literal refrigerator like alex was. rip in frozen pieces you absolute legend of a trope namer. alright, so... so the joker is sad because his wife died. you know, the wife we saw for two minutes and knew the moment we saw her drenched in sepia she was gonna die. and she died offscreen. kyle's gf died and he was fine. gordon's wife died and he was fine. batman's parents both died and he was fine. oh boo hoo someone I love died! fuck off. I am so goddamn sick of people trying to justify their evil with "I was sad once". it's a stupid trope and it's not compelling. the only valid version is doctor doofenshmirtz' evil(er) version in the PF movie because it's hilarious that it's because of a toy train because that's the emotional depth that fridgewomen is treated with in all of these storylines. but at least batman said so. oh yeah, I almost totally forgot, batman's in this movie.

batman punches people and nonlethally takes them out. by suffocating them and letting them get stabbed and throwing them into pits of spikes and HEY WAIT A GODDAMN SECOND! okay let's just ignore that bit and hope that the little people squeezed between the gaps in the spikes and the strongman could breathe in the face mask and the two headed women had KO gas and the fat lady was fat enough that the knives only stabbed her cellulite. it wouldn't be the biggest reach one would have to make in watching this fucking disaster of a plot mess.

now I did like that it was actually batman, and by that I mean he gave a shit about the insane because he recognizes that mental illness is not a cause of dangerous or criminal behavior, just a potential exacerbating factor if it wasn't treated. yeah he brutalized mobsters and crime lords but they were mostly in self defense while gathering intel. he politely asked sal maroni and the sex workers for information and they gave it to him without violence- he manhandled maroni but only after he reached into his pocket for a cigar which could've been a gun. also batman says sex work should be decriminalized if only by not ratting them out to the cops. he was a genuinely good person in the second half of the movie. too bad it was ruined by the shitty first half that made him a borderline groomer.

joker's song was... bad. mark hamill performed his ass off but the song wasn't that good. it just tried to be willy wonka if he was a voyeuristic monster. oh yeah have the only girl character be paralyzed stripped and photographed only to give her father ManPain™. again... the fuck? joker and batman were both gross but, again. male writers. if it was a one-off I could drop a thermian argument because, alright one and done makes sense, especially 1988 standards. but it saturated and soured the entire goddamn movie because of abhorrent pacing decisions. so you're goddamn right I'm gonna bring it up twice! joker was a creep, his plan was dumb, nolan and burton and lord/miller and even ayer had better motivations. YES I AM SAYING THAT JARED LETO'S JOKER HAD BETTER WRITING THAN MARK HAMILL'S JOKER. not nearly to the level of ledger nicholson or galifanakis but hamill didn't have a lot to work with here and I maintain that his performance was amazing; honestly I like his the best out of all of them but just... not here. but I think I can cut some slack to firelord ozai and luke skywalker even if he just phoned it in here which he didn't. writing was just weak. and that's all there is to it. don't anon me and threaten to remove my bones ok?

alright so batman and joker fought and joker got the upper hand and was gonna kill him but it was a prop gun. haha. they had a heart to heart and batman tells joker that he wants to help him get better, even after joker killed robin and molested barbara and traumatized gordon and did countless other travesties, he still said he would help. but joker said no, and told a joke that was good enough to make batman laugh. and then the credits rolled.

...

what a completely pointless and empty ending. oh it's deep and meaningful and poignant? ok sure, I guess, movie, but you didn't earn that. shyamalan did the same thing a dozen times. that doesn't make him any less of a shit writer.

I can understand the concept of batman laughing at joker's joke, humanizing him.

I get it. I see what they tried to do. I respect it.

but this movie was massively overhyped and overrated and I expected it to be so much better than it was. but overall to me it was just another batman cartoon to throw on top of the pile. maybe it was influential to graphic novels. maybe it shaped batman into what he is today. it published right as tim burton's movie and I can respect its place in the pantheon of comic history. but sometimes things that are classic...

aren't that great.

citizen kane, casablanca, the maltese falcon, the treasure of the sierra madre, gone with the wind, singing in the rain, all of them are classic and legendary pieces of art. but they're just not that good, interesting, appealing, watchable, or FUN. they were good at the time- I mean come on we all know them today- but on going back you'd have to really appreciate the finer details to still love the movies today. and this belongs there, in the vault, to be appreciated from afar. influential if dated.

but god am I still disappointed nonetheless.

TL;DR

it was just okay. had some good ideas, had some really bad ideas, had some ugly stuff. overall mediocre. first half 5/10, second half 7/10, overall 6/10.

Dear Evan Hansen, We’ve been way too out of touch. (Yes, this is a persona fanfic)

(AN: @yusuke-of-valla’s blog, PQ2 but they’re doing DEH.)

“Cmon, Mona! Swallow your pride for me, just nod yes! Act like a mascot for once! For Ann?” Ren says, laughing.

“And prepare, cause something’s in the air!~” quite a few voices speak up.

“I’ve found my people!” Ren screams out, seeking out the voices.

The rest of the sidequest involved Ren, Makoto, Haru, Yusuke, Ann, Goro, Futaba, Yosuke, Rise, Minato, and Minako singing a bunch of musical songs.

Everyone threw Minato and Minako a heathers preformance because Heathers wasn’t out yet in their time.

And then...

“A preformance!” Ren says, flourishing a script.

“A what?” Minako said to him.

“We’re going to preform Dear Evan Hansen!” Futaba says, with an excited look on her face.

“What’s that?” Rise asks, confusedly.

“A musical! It’s kinda dark, but it’s got some killer songs and some hilarious moments!” Ann says, quickly.

“Okay, so who do you want us to be?” Minato asks, immediately bringing everyone on board.

“Okay, I was thinking that Yosuke could be Jared, Haru could be Alana, Yusuke could be Connor, Makoto could be Heidi, and Minato could be Zoe. But there’s are three roles that I have no idea who could be them.” Ren explains.

“Well, what are the characters?”

“Evan, our protag is depressed, oblivious, and ridiculously in love with Zoe. Larry and Cynthia are Connor and Zoe’s parents. They need to be able to argue at a moment’s notice.”

Minato and Minako share a look.

“We might know some people who could fill those roles.” Minako says, a smirk playing at her lips.

And they leave the room.

Twenty minutes later, they drag in Akihiko, Mitsuru, and Yu.

“If I’m Zoe, then my husband should be Evan, shouldn’t he?”

“And you haven’t seen these two really get into an argument.”

Ren smiles.

“Looks like we have our cast!”

And rehearsals begin immediately, with scripts and listens of the songs.

Finally, Makoto and Mitsuru start off “Anybody have a map?”

“Connor finished the-” Minato starts, swinging the milk carton behind him and accidentally hitting Akihiko, who was standing behind him.

“Shit, you alright?” Minato says, basically carrying Akihiko at this point.

“Yeah, fine.” He says, clearly with a broken nose.

Mitsuru sighs and pulls out her evoker.

“Diarahan” she says, with a tight-lipped frown.

And that was only the start.

“Life without you has been rough” Yu starts

“Kin-HAHAHAHAHA” Yosuke tries to say.

He ended up laughing for a full minute.

Ren, Minako, and Hikari hold back snickers.

Requiem comes along.

“Why should I play the grieving gir-”

Minato tries to sing, and ends up yawning.

“Wow, you can’t even stop yawning during a preformance?” Yu quips.

And Minato, deadpan as always, says this.

“I want a divorce.”

Minako and Ren try so, so hard to not die of laughter.

And when they finally get to the end of act 1...

“Even when the dark comes crashing through, you will be found. When you need someone to carry you, you will be found! You will be found!”

Minato and Yu lean in for the kiss.

“Haha!” Futaba yells out, just as their lips are about to meet.

“Futaba! You killed the moment!” Ren yells back to her.

“S-Sorry! It’s just that Hikari told me something hilarious!”

Minako whispers something under her breath.

“Take two!” Hikari says.

“Say darling, hey maybe, fancy a movie night with us?” The wildcards say in sync.

“You guys really need to stop that.”

“No!”

There was somewhat smooth sailing until Good for You.

“And you say what you need to say, and you play who you need to play, and If somebody’s in your way crush them and leave them behind!”

Yu breaks down in tears.

“Cut the music!” Someone screams out.

“Yu, it’s all an act. Please calm down.” Makoto says, with her head in her hands

“Yeah, partner.” Yosuke says, touching Yu’s arm.

“I’m sorry! I’m not a theater kid! I don’t know how to do this!” Yu cry-yells

“Yu, seriously? This is why you join the drama club.” Minato chimes in.

“Oh, and I suppose you’re a part of yours?!”

“...We don’t have a drama club.”

“Technically, we do.” Mitsuru chimes in.

“We have one?!” Minako yells out.

“Well, on paper at least, SEES is the drama club.”

“We’re the WHAT NOW?!”

“...It’s not important, anyhow. The true purpose is to fight shadows, is it not?”

“Is that why Ms. Toriumi sometimes asks me to do dramatic readings in class?” Minato asked, with a degree of uncertainty.

“Most likely, yes.”

“Revelations aside, let’s try again. We need to get this perfectly!” Hikari says, cutting off the conversation.

So they stumble through the rest of the songs, and start with the dialogue.

“You went lurching from one miracle cure to the next.” Akihiko yells.

“Miracle cure? Is that really what you call it?!” Mitsuru says, with all the emotion of a grieving mother.

And then sparks and ice start surrounding them.

“Oh, no-” Minato says out, just as Mitsuru accidentally freezes Akihiko.

“Akihiko!” Mitsuru says as she snaps out of her stupor and catches her frozen best friend.

Shinjiro runs in. “WHAT’S GOING ON MY IDIOT-FRIEND-SENSES ARE TINGLING!”

After they thaw out Akihiko and try again, a similar thing happens. Akihiko shocks her.

Shinjiro has to start sitting in because otherwise his friends are going to kill each other.

Finally, dress rehearsals. Akihiko borrows Yu’s glasses, Yosuke wears his, and everyone dresses a bit more casually. Yusuke’s hair gets poofed up by Ren and Ann.

“Why am I lowkey weak for Inari?! I shouldn’t be lowkey weak for Inari!” Futaba yells out.

Everyone else, is of course, also lowkey weak.

Songs start again.

“Oh, damn!” Minato says as he watches the milk carton fly into the ceiling. “I’ll get it!”

“I’m gonna say the M word!” Futaba yells out, suddenly.

“NO!” Half the team screams.

“Macbeth!” She yells out.

“AAAAAAAA” Minato yells, as he falls off the ladder.

“...Countercurse time?”

“YEAH!”

“What happened??” Minato questions.

“Futaba said the M word!” Minako tells him.

“WHY WOULD YOU SAY THE M WORD IN A THEATER?!”

“If we shadows have offended, think but this and all is mended, that you have but slumbered here, whilst these visions did appear.” Futaba recites.

“Thank you!” Ren told her.

“What’s this superstition? Why shouldn’t you say M-” Yu questions.

“NO!” Once again, half the cast yells.

“Call it ‘The Scottish Play’ or ‘The Bard’s Play’ in a theater” Minako starts.

“Basically, there are multiple stories. Some say it’s because the first ‘Lady’ died and Shakespeare had to go on in her place. There was also the one where the prop daggers were switched for real ones and Duncan was murdered live on stage. There’s also the one that says the spells in the play are actual spells and Witches cursed it because of that.” Ren informed Yu.

“...Oh”

“Yeah. So never say the M-word in a theater.”

“Okay.”

Finally, the preformance.

...You think everything ended here? Oh no, mistakes always happen.

“Dear Evan Hansen, thanks for every note you send!”

“Dear Connor Murphy, I’m just glad to be your friend!”

“Our friendship goes beyond...”

Yu dips Yusuke.

“Your average kind of bond!”

They lean in.

“But not because we’re gay!”

Yu drops Yusuke.

“No, not because we’re gay!”

Yusuke says, as he jumps up. Everyone laughs.

“Did you plan that?! Did you?!” Ann whisper-screams to Ren.

“No! Not at all!” He whispers back.

And then the “You Will Be Found” situation.

The company starts singing. And then we get to Zoe’s part.

Yu trips Minato. Minato is literally pinning Yu to the floor. Minato keeps singing, and then leans in for the kiss when it’s time.

All the other theater kids beg for Yu not to mess up with Akihiko and Mitsuru.

The rest of the show goes without incident.

The finale comes in, and the curtain goes down.

Raucous applause follows it.

...It was hard, but they did it.

Thoughts on Evan's feelings for Jared? I always see people talking about Jared's feelings towards Evan (for obvious reasons), but the mood around Evan is a lot quieter.

really i think part of the reason it’s much more difficult to talk about evan’s feelings about jared in a potentially em ell em sense is because like, canon gives us such a small piece of their relationship and is so vague about the entire Past Decade+ They’ve Known Each Other, and evan’s really not acting very consciously interested in jared in the duration even as Only Friends (haha…it works in two ways there b/c ppl say things like “*just* friends” but also b/c evan and jared are each other’s Only Friend…) and he’s immediately caught up in The Whole Mess before jared’s second appearance so

but also another big issue is that we’re given this whole opportunity to see how evan navigates his Romantic Feelings for someone via his crush and eventual dating relationship with zoe and yet………………………….it gives us hardly any information. it’s very weird

like? okay, so evan is pining from a distance on this girl, and since it’s only the first day of school and he’s talking about messing up a chance to talk to her after a jazz band performance, presumably the crush started in evan’s junior year or earlier………….and Pining From Afar On Someone He’s Never Had A Conversation With isn’t really useful to reference when it comes to his relationship with jared. and maybe the details of Why evan is crushing on zoe in particular potentially could’ve been handy in like, getting a concept of what attracts evan to someone, but like, i guess we get the idea that he’s picking up on her Seeming Nice (which……like, is partly an act? it’s partly an act for him too, so is he picking up on That similarity? that could be interesting but rather it seems like he just….likes that she’s nice, which, okay…) and “if i could tell her”? more like “if [this song] could tell [the audience anything about Why Evan Likes Zoe]” because that’s purportedly what it’s About but it honestly gives us no info. it just lists off unimportant details he’s noticed about her from Afar that can’t necessarily tell anyone that much about what she’s like as a person…..she doodles when bored….probably takes buzzfeed quizzes…..okay

and then when they’re together it continues to be an absolute mystery. even if we ignore all the lying and weirdness re: how it’s all tied up in tcp and connor, and try to focus on What Works to figure out what these two might be looking for in the relationship and what they’re responding to, it’s like, infinite ellipses……they’re seriously always uncomfortable around each other?? like?? once again “only us” pointedly refuses to tell us, say, why zoe likes evan. they Joke Around in that scene and that’s like okay haha bants i guess that’s good, but it seems to be about warding off the tension so………the omnipresent Discomfort……….like can they have a substantial conversation?? imo the moment between them that might like, give us Anything to work with is when evan is accidentally “”””rude”””” in rightly pointing out that zoe seeming to imply that evan wishing his mom was rich rather than poor Stems From Ignorance is a terrible take……and then zoe says she was impressed by his ostensible Not Being Niceness, and yknow, the whole part of the show where she’s getting to be angry and ~rude~ and not getting along with evan is like, most interesting re: her character b/c she’s just refusing to Lie. inchresting moment!!!!! maybe evan and zoe could bond over feeling obligated to Act Nice / Accommodating despite doing so for different reasons!!! but no. the moment just Goes Away instead

we really just….in spite of how much Content in canon is devoted to evan’s feelings about zoe and their relationship, we get like………..no info about why evan likes zoe. she is a girl who is nice? and that’s all we’ve got. cue jared’s off broadway (?) line of: we get it, it’s very heterosexual…….fittingly in response to evan Not Really Answering the question of why he’s so #about zoe………

liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiike my takeaway from these (non)examples of Evan’s Romantic Feelings is…………that evan is pretty freaking clueless about his own feelings? and is hardly deeply analyzing even this nice safe crush on a girl so like. if he Does have latent feelings for jared at that point, i really do not think he is Conscious of them or of their True Nature.

that’s not to say i don’t think it’s possible that he Could have those latent feelings in canon. even though evan ignoring jared is a whole part of the plot / leads up to good for you, and that evan’s dissatisfaction with his and jared’s relationship is like, suggested right off b/c nobody’s signing his cast, when they Do get in sync (literally!! lol! they’re Singing!) in sincerely me it’s very effortless and we see The One Time that evan drops his “gotta be nice and accommodating” facade b/c he’s with jared and nobody else, and the way they interact here (and at other points) speaks to how comfortably familiar they feel with each other and how they’re pretty In Tune with each other. and the sincerely me scene makes jared want more of that experience of being alone together and having fun and being in sync, but evan isn’t pursuing jared at all unless to ask for input about His Zany Situation………see: evan’s cluelessness and Not Really Reflecting On Feelings

like, jared may or may not realize that his feelings for evan are Like That, but we know that it is whole entire Canon that he is conscious of his desire to have a close and real relationship with evan. whereas evan is like, seemingly not tuned into this fact about jared at all

like baaaasically unless it’s an au i don’t think of evan as becoming Aware of any Feelings™ for jared until after canon (or sometime before the Finale 1.5 Yrs Later scene, possibly)………..like, i think those feelings Could be present in canon and could even be affecting events in canon, which is a fun (i mean nothing about canon is particularly Fun) perspective to take, but i don’t think evan like, is going to think about feelings like that in even a “is it Possible it’s a crush” way in canon

but like, mutual pining is great, and even if we have these two Trying to work on communication skills, you Know that even if they’re both at stage Awareness Of Crush, neither is just going to up and talk to the other about it. smh

re: what Could be there in canon that evan’s not yet aware of……i mean, he’s all about Longing for shit, and we can assume he maybe wishes he and jared were closer too, but unlike jared actually trying to make that happen, it kinda feels more like evan just figures that that’s Just Not How Things Are and there’s nothing he can do about that………i also just kinda feel like evan could be at a stage where if there’s even a glimmer of awareness re: A Gay Feeling it’s like oh denial time, what if i were to decide i’m even more committed to this crush on a conveniently Unattainable™ Girl who……seems nice……..yeah awesome

like i really don’t think that Feelings For Jared would truly spring out of nowhere for evan as in “the feelings are nonexistent during canon”…..but it might Seem like it’s ~totally new~ re: a changed perspective when it comes to those feelings, b/c i don’t think of evan-during-canon as aware of that kind of thing or really devoting much thought on it. being an apparent great essayist means that not only must his writing be decent but his Ability To Analyze things must be, too!! let’s have some parallels of jared reading evan’s letter, as it’s all too easy to think he must have, and evan reading jared’s letters, i.e. Fake Connor’s emails to evan. analyze That content evan

anyways yeah i just think of Evan During Canon as totally unawares but i do think that if he Was to reflect on how he feels about jared, which we don’t really see him doing in any significant way thanks in part to being distracted the whole time, it’s entirely possibly there could’ve already been mutual pining lol. like, it’s not that i don’t think The Feelings Could Be There, cuz really, it feels like if there WAS that awareness that yeah we could really be making progress here. but i also think that like, evan needs to shift his broader perspective of jared as well to get to the point that that’s possible. cuz he’s just kind of not seeing ways the relationship could be different than it is and i think that like, the lack of communication, e.g. not directly saying what they want / not talking for stretches of time potentially ((another) e.g. how they apparently hadn’t talked all summer) also plays into Miscommunication……..like, i do think that jared is trying to express friendliness and affection, but evan is just like “Sigh!!! 9_9″ about him and like, focusing on the lack of what he considers Real Connection Ideal Friendship things, like apparently that Open Direct Communication about feelings and dreams and stuff, and frolicking in meadows, and emailing

speaking of, evan nervously refuting any possibility of Being Gay twice in four minutes does not suggest he’s someone ready to think about the love that one man feels for another or anything

and it’s all in line with how jared’s pretty much seeing evan more accurately than evan sees himself, being the Teller Of Truth, the stand-in for The All-Seeing Audience……………..jared’s the more Aware one here, both about evan And himself And everything else that’s going on. he may not have an objective or omniscient perspective on anything, and he’s obviously making mistakes in how he understands things about himself and evan and everything else, but evan’s kind of just careening around knocking shit over and just struggling to keep up rather than really think things over…….and also it’s clear that he’s Avoiding thinking some stuff over thanks to messiness and uncertainty and all that

uhhh in conclusion………………i think evan’s feelings for jared During The Events Of Canon would be repressed and unexamined and he’s just like, put everything in his life in this box of “i hate it” and so he not only has to be willing to really redirect some focus to jared but also like………..really consider him anew and maybe see the good in what’s already existed in their relationship rather than just see how it fails to measure up to what evan Thought was proof of friendship (signing a cast) or the ideal best frienditude (straightforward encouragement, personal lore-sharing, frolicking, etc). basically Stop Ignoring him, which is what would’ve made jared happy in the first place lol. so yeah something like all that

Dear Evan Hansen West End 6/11

•First time seeing the show live and just damnnn. Go see it. Lighting gave me thrills

•I love the stage set up-all the social media stuff emphasising the connection/spread of information to the tranquility of the orchard at the end

• Sam Tutty(Evan) is an absolute god. Seriously, he embodies Evan so perfectly. He really showed the anxiety the start, stuttering and fiddling with his shirt and twisting away from others so naturally. Really reminded me of myself like that. And Damn what a voice- like honey, a perfect transition from soft to loud at the perfect moments.

•I was dubious about Doug Colling as Connor, but he really grew into the role. You could have heard a pin drop in the “how did you break your arm?” bit. Yep he just had good Connor energy

•The audience went wild for Sincerely, me and for good reason....just such a bop, I kept grinning

•instead of punching him on Sincerely Me Connor pats his shoulder and Evan dusts his frantically in return

•Bex McInnis was super as Heidi, at first I wasn’t sure if she’d suit it but the emotion in her voice as she yelled at Evan and with the Murphys was amazing.

•Plus just all of So big, So small

•Jack Loxton as Jared has my heart, really gave of the meme troll vibes but also a lot of insecurity and emotion? His “fuck you Evan, asshole” was impeccable...you could pinpoint his heart breaking

•Oof Requiem, Cynthia hugging Connor’s pillow and Zoe scrunching up the emails

•Lucy as Zoe was generally really good, a really beautiful voice, and wardrobe gave her some good outfits

•Jared telling Evan to nod and agree resulting in him frantically nodding at the Murphy’s the first time

•Connor and Evan literally almost kissed in Sincerely, me before the “but not because we’re gay” line before pulling away lol

•Evan’s speech omg....literally crawled backwards and started hyperventilating while staring at the audience

•Larry’s bit in YWBF gets me every time, he collapsed and hugged Cynthia round the waist

•THE INSANELY COOL JARED KLEINMAN

•it’s kinda implied that Zoe and Evan had sex which is disturbing...they end up lying on the bed in Only us

•Heidi’s reactions to everything in act 2 ahh

•Heidi also pretending to enjoy the Murphy’s wine

•Good for you. That’s it.

•Once Evan started crying that was it for me also his tears were so genuine I love Sam

•The finale had me bawling, so beautiful. Keep thinking about how I found this show when I was in such a bad spot and how it helped

•The cast were so amazing at stage door, got to meet everyone except Cynthia

•When I was getting a picture with Sam Jack came and kissed his cheek saying he loved the show etc haha

A thought on actor-endorsed ships and shipwars resulting.

So I had a thought.

This is kinda wanky discussion points on ships, but a thing about actors that have made supporting statements or negative or whatever else since it’s forever thrown into question.

In the past, Jared semi-endorsed W*ncest. Like, he was never hard-up on it but he used it to make jokes and drop comments in ways his supporters didn’t really feel insulted - And, being not particularly a socially correct savant (no offense intended, but he’s just not), why wouldn’t he? It’s the one ship he has that hasn’t been murdered since Ruby. Given, it was mostly used to prank and torment coworkers, but I mean, once in a blue moon, he’s dropped a few lines. They’re not hard shippy, but - you get me, fam. Sure there’s Saileen but they only got a few episodes, she died, and so on. Unsurprisingly his W*ncesty commentary eased up since Ruby and marrying Gen but it still pops up like one remark every few years or something so I mean. Considering he hasn’t been ever given another long term option, is a fly-by-seat-of-pants comedian and it’s just kinda stuck around... none of us are really surprised, most of us just cringe.

Rachel Miner actively endorses M*gstiel. Pretty actively too. And if she isn’t considering the original Meg and consent issues - why wouldn’t she? It’s the one ship her character ever had that came as close to atoning for her history as she’d be allowed. Of course she’s going to connect to that, the unicorn and rainbow thinker that she is.

Nearly on the daily, Misha endorses Destiel. Why wouldn’t he? From his point of view, and he’s even admitted it, he sees and lives and acts it out; and it’s the one pairing of his that hasn’t ended up in him being murdered, and/or hasn’t been murdered, and it’s just there and huge and he’s supportive and sees it. Why wouldn’t he?

Then we get poor fucking Jensen Ackles. Jensen Ackles, who’s first big ship experience in fandom was W*ncest, which again, was mostly used to torment coworkers. Jensen Ackles, who’s quote about enjoying W*ncest because it was super weird has been truncated for convenience by those who ship it, despite their forums lighting on fire in upset and rage when he said it because they knew it was shade. Jensen Ackles, who was literally introduced to a ship that was, essentially, taken to be like a crackship and a joke among the crew from go. 

So, poor fucking Jensen Ackles, a texas-raised dude, gets flung into slash fiction with this perspective. Then comes Destiel - so - haha, isgay. Oh, wait, people are serious. And uh, I guess gay isn’t unmanly. Jensen Ackles, who tries to be an ally, had to trip and stumble through this discourse while occasionally getting flayed.

Jensen Ackles, who in 2016 said he didn’t want to hear or know about W*ncest in an interview with the NYT. Jensen Ackles, who is frequently employed as a tool by mad hatters everywhere like some weird trophy piece instead of the human being he is because a nonviable ship has been largely buried by one he’s gradually started accepting: Destiel.

And why wouldn’t he? He’s fully aware his character isn’t going to ride into the sunset with a lovely lady, his others have been slaughtered for years. His coworkers adore it. The bulk of the fandom adores it. 

What was once assumed just flagrant sexualization (as, for example, is necessary in an *ncest ship when not just accepting brotherhood) has risen as a series of romantic gestures in art and photo ops - from mixtapes to whatever else; to telling stories of his dinner dates with Misha and encouraging fanfiction; the Jensen Ackles of today is worlds apart from only a few years ago.

And antis hate it. They demand stickers be removed, while trying to instead force forward things that were knowing miswordings as their path to reminding of their ship while screaming down ship content elsewhere; try to bury the one while resurrecting their own - and why wouldn’t they? Somehow they see it as some wild competition to keep Jensen Ackles from seeing it.

From understanding it.

Thing is, I’m starting to believe we’re honestly past that threshold. The last year and a half has been extremely telling. It’s almost like -- hm, how to say -- like something changed shortly, if not immediately, after that public and fateful explosion. And no, not evol Destihellers bullying him into it. Why, if we were to take a page from J2hat books, we’d just yell that the PR team sat him down after that.

But pretending nobody knows what changed after that, the simple fact is: this is becoming a weird, vindictive battle from their end while on Destiel end it’s... literally just trying to enjoy their ship. You know, the one docked at TPTB and wondering if it ever gets a chance to set sail, but everybody there talks about the ship and frequently engages the ship on some level. That ship. Not the tugboat from ten years ago.

If you like that tugboat -- cool, I guess. But choosing a nonviable taboo ship and then expecting it to handle alongside a viable nontaboo cruiser or be taken to the same is foolhardy at best and ridiculous at worst. Your right to have your interest is equal. But not all things in actual product are equal. Products have different values for a reason, Jan, and it’s not because everything is equal. You want your taboo ship, that’s great. 

But trying to repress other ships because one is unwelcome in general society is ridiculous. And if you’re trying to paint queer as in the same taboo problem as incest, we have a bigger problem between us here than ship wars.

And this isn’t like the Detroit: Become Human fandom where people are mental gymnasticsing to make an android and a human not raised even remotely together as incest. Or more hilariously that the people who yelled for years that Cas isn’t family are suddenly trying to argue he’s family so that makes incest -- lmao no Jan. This is literal, blood, raised together, codependent incest if you’re shipping it. It’s never gonna see daylight on a show like SPN. It’s just not.

Whether or not you believe Destiel will or won’t see daylight on SPN doesn’t mean it’s nonviable. Unless, what... angelxhuman will never happ--oh wait. Queer will never--sit down. 

Trying to desperately prevent Jensen Ackles from seeing another ship just because he doesn’t want to see your ship is childish AF. Trying to forcefeed him that ship after he specifically said he didn’t want to see that ship is vindictive. Trying to claim he doesn’t want to see a different-ship-than-yours while pulling these antics, despite him ENCOURAGING that other ship modernly is outright gaslighting and manipulation of people who don’t know better.

The desperation has become particularly thick but in the end, it’s one weirdly wild agenda: Keep Jensen Ackles from enjoying Destiel.

Son, I think you may be a little late to run that interference. No need to protect this fragile flower. He’s too busy telling people to write oil rig fanfics and happy about his western romcom with Misha to care about that. 

I promise he won’t melt if he sees a Destiel Exists sticker after that.

Now, whether or not you choose to blatantly ignore his request to not expose him to W*ncest, that’s up to y’all. But pretending this is anywhere in a morally ambiguous ballpark is hilarity at best. But infuriating on his behalf at worst. Especially with their concern troll tone while blatantly ignoring his request for their own purpose.

Whether or not it “exists,” he encourages it. 

I can’t wait until the show is wrapping up and they decide to get a restraining order on the Fruit Loop gang.

[M4A] [DISCORD] M/M GAY ROMANCE M/M (optional plots included)

Hello! I’m currently looking for someone who’s interested in writing a gay romance with me (don’t care about your actual real-life gender). My preferences are drama, angst, slice of life and so on. For writing, at least 2 paragraphs, proper English, third person only and the quicker you reply, the better (though different timezones are totally okay and real life comes first!). All I ask if that you don’t just disappear on me. If there’s something you don’t like; just tell me. I’m an adult and I can handle it. Expect me to do the same. Character-wise, I’m looking for characters around the age of 25-38. I also require a real-life face claim. I’m into writing with pretty masculine characters, both in appearance and personality.

I include NSFW content, for this reason, I require roleplay partners to be 18 years old or older. As for sexual content; my characters do not take the “top” position.

Due to the fact, a lot of people have had me waste my time writing starters only not to reply; I ask that you write the first starter purely for me to see that you’re serious about writing.

I’ve been roleplaying for 8 years on various platforms and am rather proud to say that people always seem to be amazed by the stories I come up with!

I have a preference for OC’s, though I have 2 ships I’m willing to write out (possible plots below. If these don't interest you we can write something else);

Hephaestion x Alexander (which would be in an ancient setting unless you prefer a modern one).

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qLzu4ondZU

and Colin Farrell x Jared Leto. (Seriously, you’d make me really happy if you’re into one of these ships : )

I also really don’t mind having a good conversation next to the roleplay itself!

We can either write on here or through discord (the latter being my preference). If you’re interested, please shoot me a chat or pm message.

Plot for Jared and Colin: They meet when they’re both trying to become actors as they play a small part in a movie. Colin used to be an alcoholic and is still drinking at that point as Jared goes along in it. While doing small acting jobs on the side the two of them spend their time partying, drinking and Jared even does drugs here and there. They stay at hotels and sleep with women at every chance. One night, they don’t manage each find a girl to sleep with and end up rather sexually frustrated in their hotel room as Jared suggests in a drunk mood that Colin could just fuck him instead which actually happens. After that, they’re basically too busy with each other to even notice others, though they never call it a relationship or tell each other they love each other even though they do. Eventually, Colin decides he wants to better his life and stops drinking which is rather hard with Jared still constantly drinking. He eventually manages to stay clear for 3 months when Jared slips alcohol into his drink in a drunk mood which causes him to fall back into his addiction. He gets so awfully pissed with Jared he tells him he never wants to see him again and with that, he takes his leave. Years later, Jared finds himself in a deep depression and in a wheelchair due to an accident that’s unknown to the public. (In this time period, you could decide yourself what life events shaped Colin). The idea is that there are options for him to walk again, but he just can’t be bothered to pursue them despite the fact it might be too late eventually if he waits. One of his actor friends throws a massive birthday party and the theme is to dress up as a character you played or are to play as Jared dresses up as Rayon (the transgender woman from Dallas buyers club). That movie is on the schedule for “when he walks again”. Basically, Colin thinks he sees a lady sitting all bored by himself and when Jared seems rather confused that Colin is even talking to him he realizes that the “lady” is Jared and assumes that the wheelchair is part of the character. They engage in a somewhat awkward conversation and Colin gets a little annoyed with Jared’s I don’t care attitude as when the man asks him to get him a drink, he gets pissed. Jared worded it weirdly meaning a glass of water and Colin doesn’t know he can’t walk himself so he literally starts about “how the hell can you ask a former alcoholic to get you a drink” and tells him to walk himself putting him on his feet only for Jared to fall down because well, he can’t actually walk. That lands them in Colin’s hotel room who eventually manages him to get the surgery needed and helps him through the process which causes them to bond and slowly fall in love again. That’s basically the main line of events I have up until now. Feel free to change anything haha.

Plot for Alexander and Hephaestion: Basically, Alexander is around 22, the king of Macedon and a little bit of an ignorant asshole feeling as if he's entitled to everything as he's royal. He never questioned everything his father told him. He doesn't have to be kind. He doesn't have to consider peoples feelings for he is a king and for example: slaves are to be obedient. So imagine that a grand party is thrown as there's a slavery auction. Hephaestion, in this story a slave, is part of what is offered and seeing Alexander is the king he is entitled to look through the slaves first and claim those he wants to work at his palace. Now all slaves are obedient until he stands in front of Hephaestion as when he grabs his arm to check for muscle (as you see in the movies ;p) the man simply janks his arm free and dares to spit in the king's face. Instead of hanging him Alexander punishes Hephaestion by making him his personal slave. Actually getting to know him Alexander starts to question if he's wrong to see slaves as a mere object for Hephaestion has personality and might even be more intelligent than some of the men in his personal counsel. He becomes sure of it when Hephaestion challenges him to a fist fight when soldiers are training and when he wins; it proves to him that slaves aren't all that different. Basically, we would turn it into a romance. It would include a whole lot of character development, especially for Alexander. He could change rules of slavery and allow Hephaestion to choose his own career path as he eventually does become a commander and so on? Now men being with men was actually normal back in the day where they are from, but for a king to be with a slave would cause some backlash and so on. We could add things or if there’s something you don’t like leave things out and kinda see where it goes after that slave auction.

OC Plot 1: A has been living on the streets for several years. His father made him leave home after seeing him kiss another guy. A started out with the money he saved and ended up in drugs business. A drug deal went wrong, he leaves the city and does not deal drugs again because the chance of running into the people he got in trouble with is too big. Once again going against everything he stands for, he finds himself standing at the street corner one night ready to sell himself to the first person that shows interested. That is B comes in, a rich man who takes a liking to men but can’t openly sleep around because gay rumors could be bad for business. He takes interest in A and takes him home, offering him a to stay with him in his condo, as well as good pay, if he’s available for sex at all times and A agrees, now having a roof above his head and not having to eat from trash cans.

The idea is that the more time they spend together, the closer they get. B, who’s rather selfish, starts to care about A more than he likes. He sees he’s lonely at home; he gets him a dog. He doesn’t have anything to do; he decides to put him in college. What’s interesting is that their lines are already blurred from the beginning, so what’s just kindness? What's part of the arrangement? What’s a hint at love? : )

OC Plot 2: Characters A and B used to be best friends throughout their entire childhood and high school career. In their senior year, people really start to comment on how close they are and the rumor begins that they are a gay couple. B really dislikes this because he is in love with his best friend and has not come to terms with it yet, to the point where he ends their friendship. A, who is a closeted gay man in love with his best friend is not only hurt by that decision, but also feels like B never truly accepted him. While B stays popular, A becomes kind of a loner and all is good until a picture of A kissing a guy goes around the school. B doesn’t really do anything about the bullying and eventually, A just disappears and there’s no track of him.

Years later, B moves to LA/NY due to a new job. At this point, he’s come to tears with his sexuality. One night when he’s at the station, he finds a familiar face putting down a sleeping bag and approaches A asking what he’s doing on the streets. A is rather rude and refuses help as he’s far from the happy cheery person he used to be. B soon finds out that A pays security a small amount of money to sleep there every night and starts with giving leaving him food at the place he knows he will sleep, though A doesn’t accept anything else. That is until one night when B walks home, he sees A get beaten up and after coming in between he takes the man home despite his protests.  A doesn’t tell him much, though it becomes clear that the picture in high school caused his father to find out about his sexuality resulting in him being kicked out of the house. Feeling somewhat responsible for that event, B offers A to stay with him until he’s financially stable enough to provide for himself and A accepts after a lot of ensuring though it proves to be rather hard as A never graduated high school. B covers the costs to get him a proper education as A starts to open up more as they grow closer again as they eventually fall in love again.

OC plot 3: A and B have been chatting and calling for 2 years, though A has never wished to video chat, saying he’s shy and despite disliking not being able to see it, B accepts it. They’ve never declared what they have a long distance relationship, but they’re well on their way. B is an (interesting sports) player and thinks A is involved in the same sport. He’s doing well and playing an important game 6 months from now and has invited A to come to support and see him in real life for the first time. Though before it gets to that, B saves up enough to go and meet A when A confesses that.. not everything he said was true as he is not the guy in the picture. B doesn’t give him much time to explain and gets angry, then blocks him on all social media. 6 months later, after the important game, B finds a bag with the various things he’s sent A over time in the locker room and when he asks who left it and one of his teammates mentions a guy in a wheelchair. Missing the interaction with A, B tries to find him and eventually does and when A gets frantically upset and starts apologizing he decides to finally listen to him and finds out that A did play the (sport of choice), but got in a car accident right before they started chatting and ended up in a wheelchair. Being in a bad shape, he used a picture of someone who looked like him and assuming he’d play his sport again after getting therapy for his legs, he decided to not mention any of that at all only to find out that his family could not afford to put him through the therapy needed. B needs some time to take it in and forgives him, then proceeds to try and help him himself, asking his parents to pay for A’s therapy with the promise he will pay them back after he finishes college. Basically, A starts living with B in his apartment close to campus and they develop love based on truth this time.

(Swimming would be cute, as B could swim with A even if his legs don’t work).

stargaze, bathbomb, brown sugar!

Okay tumblr mobile sucks. Its trying to post this to a side blog and its not even working haha. Lets try this again

Stargaze - Celebrity crush?

I could write a whole book filled with all of them. So I’ll just name a few off the top of my head. Mike Faist, Laura Dreyfuss, Alex Boniello, Jensen Ackels, Jared Padilecki, Ben Cook, Jeremy Jordan, Kara Lindsay, honestly anyone from Newsies, Melanie Scrofano, Dominique Provost-Chalkley, and probably a ton more haha.

Bath bomb - What is the best form of self care?

I kinda just anwserd this in my last ask. So either that, or just alone time. I’m very introverted and i just like doing a face mask and meditating or something like that. Or i love doing my makeup, i find it calming and its just me time. Plus i look way better onceim done haha

Brown Sugar - What is making your heart warm today?

Today? Probably how gay I’m looking haha. Im wearing my dodie “rainbow” shirt that i got from the concert, a rainbow ribbon in my hair, and today i got some skeleton suspenders, and a bow tie. So im just a walking gay stereo types and i fucking love it. Also there was a guy working at one of the stores i went to and he had a super cute bow tie on and that made me feel nice haha.

Get To Know Me!!! A Little Too Well

1. Name: Nicole 2. Nickname(s): Nik, Nikki 3. Birthday: June 21 4. That makes you: 18 5. Where were you born: Nebraska 6. Location right now: Same place 7. Shoe size: 7 8. How many piercings?: None 9. Tattoos?: None, but I'd love a few <3 10. When you wake up you're: Confused and even more tired 11. When your about to sleep you're: Wide awake 12. Zodiac sign: Cancerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr/Gemini 13. Chinese sign: Rabbit 14. Righty or Lefty: Righty 15. Innie or Outie: Innie 16. School: Out of school :P Section Two: Looks 17. Nationality: White 20. Weight: 110 lbs 21. Height: 5'6 22. Braces? No 23. Glasses? Yes Section Three: Private Life 24. Do you have a boy/girlfriend? I do! 25. If so, who? The love of my life, Nate 26. If not, do you have a crush on someone? My boyfriend 27. Who has a crush on you? No one haha 28. Ever cheated on your bf/gf? Nope 29. Who was your first kiss: Nate, he kisses pretty good 30. Who was your last kiss: Nate <3 31. Are you a virgin? Yes 32. Ever had a threesome before? No 33. NQ- Ever been swarmed by ladybugs?: Nope 34. Have you ever been in love? Yes 35. Broken any hearts? Not that I know of 36. Got your heart broken? Quite a few times 37. Ever liked a friend? Yea 38. What happened? We started dating

Section Four: Past Relationships 39. How many relationships have you been in? 1 40. How many were serious enough to count: I'm in it 41. Who were those serious ones: I've only been in 1 42. NQ- Who USED to be your best friend: Well, he's still my best friend so 43. What made them different: Nothing 44. What happened: We started dating 45. Best boy/girlfriend: The one I'm dating 46. Worst boy/girlfriend: N/A 47. Ever been kissed: Yes 48. Who do you want back: No one 49. What do you regret: Focusing too much on guys 50. Why? Because I would've done so much better in school Section Five: Favourites 51. Song: Sound of Silence 52. Movie: Zootopia 53. Food: Anything really 54. Drink: Apple Juice 55. Store: Gamestop and Hot Topic 56. Television show: Stranger Things and Mom 57. Holiday: Christmas 58. Book: Grace Lost Series 59. Ice cream: Mint Chip 60. Sweets: Chocolate 61. Crisps: Doritos Jacked 62. Type of music: Pretty much every genre 63. Artist: Singer is Luke Bryan, Painter is Bob Ross 64. Word: Loquacious, vernacular 65. Time of day: Evening/night 66. Dressing: Ranch 67. Alcoholic drink: Don't drink 68. Colour(s): Blue, Red, Black, and White 69. Piece of clothing: Beanie 70. Character: My fursona 71. Smell: Fresh rainfall 72. Shampoo: Fructis 73. Soap: Fructis 74. Smiley: >3 75. Board game: Too many tbh 76. Sport: Soccer 77. Number: 5 78. Quote: "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." Franklin D. Roosvelt 79. Animal: Wolf 80. Actor: Ryan Reynolds/Chris Pratt 82. Vegetable: Sugar snap peas 83. Fruit: Grapes 84. Place to be: In my room 85. Thing in your room: Pictures 86. Gum: 5-gum 87. Shape: Circle 88. Country: Europe 89. Mall: Any mall 90. Car: 67 Chevy Impala 91. Boy's name: Christopher 92. Girl's name: Chrissy 93. Family member: My brothers and my dad 94. Restaurant: Johnny Carinos 95. Movie place: The theater 96. Person to go to the movies with: Myself 97. Noise: Falling rain 98. Brand of Shoe: Airwalks 99. Brand of clothing: Aeropostle 100. Body part of a chicken: Thigh 101. Swear word: Asshat 102. Month: December 103. Possession: My ring 104. Team: Don't have a favorite 105. Season: Winter 106. Radio station: Pop station 107. Magazine: Don't read them 108. Favourite grade: Senior year 109. Least favourite grade: 5th grade 110. Teacher: Kindergarten 111. Least favourite teacher: Math teacher in 5th grade, he was a douche 112. Subject: Art/Choir 113. Subject to talk about: Anything and everything Section Six: Family 114. Who's your mum?: Not here 115. Who's your dad?: My role model 116. Any step-parents?: Yea, had a few 117. Any brothers?: 2 118. Any Sisters?: Nope 120. Coolest: Older brother 121. Loudest: Me 122. Best relative: My cousin 123. Worse relative: No one 124. Do you get along with your parents? My dad, yea 125. With your siblings? Mostly, we game with each other 126. Does anyone understand you? Yea 127. Do you have any pets? Nah 128. If so, what kind and name? 129. If not, what do you want as a pet? I want another dog, we had to get rid of ours Section Seven: School 131. Are you still in school? Nope 132. Did you drop out?: 2.75, I didn't pay attention freshman and sophomore year 133. Your current GPA: No thanks 134. Do you buy or bring lunch?: School bill paid for it 135. ABC's?: Know them 136. Favorite class: Choir and art 137. Play any sports at school?: Played soccer 138. Are you popular? With the outcasts 139. Favourite memory: Being the only girl good at soccer 140. Most humiliating moment: Falling in front of my close guy friends 141. Most funniest moment: Hitting someone in the face with a soccer ball 142. Most scared moment: Graduating Section Eight: What do you think of when you hear 145. Chicken: Bawk bawk 146. Dog: Soft puppy 147. Christina Aguilera: Music 148. Ricky Martin: Who? 149. 50 cent: Rapper 150. Poop: Emoji 151. Beach: Sand 152. Dessert: Cactus 153. Water: Blue 154. Osama: Bin Laden 155. Love: Life 156. Your little brother: Xbox One 157. Butt: Nice 158. Clowns: Pennywise 159. Wonder: Over Yander 16o. Brown: Pants 161. Banana: Yum 162. Sex: Rope 163. Parents: One 164. Homosexuals: Jensen and Jared 165. God: Father Section Nine: Do you believe in 166. God: Yes 167. Heaven: Yes 168. Devil: Yes 169. Hell: In a sense 170: Boogey man: No 171. Closet Monsters: Nah 172. Fortune telling: Nope 173. Magic: Nuh uh 174. Love at first sight: Depends 175. Ghosts: Nope 176. Voo-doo dolls: Nah 177. Reincarnation: Nope 178. Yourself: Ehh, not really Section Ten: Do you 179. Smoke: And kill my lungs? No thanks 180. Do drugs: Pfft, why would I? 181. Drink alcohol: Again, I'm not trying to die at a young age 182. Cuss: Yea 183. Sing in the shower: Sometimes... 184. Like school: Yea, it was the best place to be! 185. Want to get married: Mhmm, and I'm glad I found someone 186. Type with all of your fingers: Not really 187. Think you're attractive: Most days 188. Drink and drive: Fuck this 189. Snore: Sometimes 190. Sleep walk: Nope 191. Like watching sunrises and sunsets: Best place to be honestly Section Eleven: Have you ever 192. Flashed someone: On accident 193. Gotten so drunk til you threw up everywhere: I don't drink 194. Told that person how you felt: Yep 195. Been arrested: Nope 196. Gone to jail or juve: No 197. Skateboarded: Yes 198. Skinny dipped: In a bath 199. Rock climbed: Do it every summer 200. Killed someone: Nope 201. Watched porn: Nah 202. Gone on a road trip: Kinda 203. Went out of the country: Nah 204. Talked back to an adult: Yes 205. Broken a law: Nope 206. Got pulled over: Don't drive 208: Cried to get out of trouble: I don't usually do anything bad 209. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: I'm supposed to, I'm there to listen 210. Kissed a brother's or sister's friend: No 211. Kissed a friend's brother or sister: No 212. Dropped something on the floor and let someone eat it anyways: Nah, I usually eat it 213. Mooned someone: Yes, once 214. Shop-lifted: No 215. Worked at McDonald's: No thank you 216. Eaten a dog: A hot dog! 217. Give money to a homeless person: Yea, I've fed them too 218. Glued your hand to yourself: Yes 219. Kissed someone of the same sex: Playing Pocky 220. Had a one night stand: I have two right beside my bed 221. Smoked: Nope 222. Done drugs: No 223. Lose a friend because of your ex: I don't have any exes 224. Slap someone for being stupid: Yes 225. Had cyber sex: Sexted?? Kinda 226. Wish you were the opposite sex: A lot more often than I should sometimes. But for completely different reasons 227. Caught someone doing something: Yea 228. Played a game that removes clothing: Strip truth or dare ;) 229. Cried during a movie: All the damn time 230. Cried over someone: It's hard not to when you can't have an actor love you 231. Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yea, and I did 232. Hooked up with someone you barely met: Nah 233. Ran away from home: Nope 234. Cheated on a test: Once Section Twelve: Would you 235. Bungee jump: Nope 236. Sky dive: Hate heights 237. Swim with dolphins: Yes 238. Steal a friend's bf or gf: That goes against girl code 239. Try to be the opposite sex: No 240. Lie to the police: Hi officer my real name is Nicholas... Cage 241. Run from the police: No 242. Lie to your parents: Done it before 243. Backstab a friend for your own well being: That's just plain rude 244. Be an exotic dancer: Only for my boyfriend <3 245. NQ- Kill the president: Nah Section Thirteen: Are you 246. Shy: Yes, especially around new people 247. Loud: Extremely 248. Nice: I try to be 249: Outgoing: I fake being outgoing haha 250: Quiet: Yea 251. Mean: Depends, I'm mean to those I like 252. Emotional: Sad to say, but yea 253. Sensitive: Mhmm 254. Gay: I'm very happy 255. Strong: I wish, need to start working out 256. Weak: Yea 257. Caring: Yes, especially towards animals 258. Dangerous: Well, does this include caving? 259. Crazy: Uh huh 260. Spontaneous: I am the most random and spontaneous thing out there 261. Funny: I try to be, I fail at it 262. Sweet: To eat ;) 263. Sharing: With most things, but not my food 264. Responsible: Most of the time 265. Trustworthy: Definitely, if you want a secret kept come talk to me 266. Open-minded: Depends on what you mean 267. Creative: For the most part 268. Cute: Um, not even close, no matter how many of y'all say I am 269. Slick: They don't call me Nik the Slick for nothing 270. Smart: Yea 271. Dumb: I act like it 272. Evil: No 273. Ghetto: If only 274. Classy: As in sassy 275. Photogenic: Nope 276. Dependable: Only on a few select things 277. Greedy: Only with food 278. Ugly: Yes, 100 times over 279. Messy: With my life 280. Neat: With everything else 281. Perverted: You can say cookie and it'll go bad 282. Silly: Yea 283. A B****: I can be if you want me to be 284. A Good Listener: Mhmm 285. A Fighter: If you make me mad enough 286. A Party Animal: I'd rather read, thanks 287. A Game Freak: YES 288. A Computer Freak: I literally want to work on computers Section Fourteen: Future 289. Dream job: Animation 290. Dream house: Somewhere out in the country 291. Husband/Wife: My sweet redheaded boyfriend 292. Kids: 2 293. Names: Something with Ns 294. Pets: Literally so many 295. Car: Anything that gets me places 296. Age you would want to get married: I wouldn't mind getting married in the next few years 297. Best Man/Bride's Maid: My best friend Elena 298. Honeymoon: Anyplace that has a bedroom Section Fifteen: Your friends 299. Best friend: Elena, Nate, Jasmine, Kelsey 300. Known the longest: Nate 301. Craziest: Elena 302. Loudest: Elena and I 303. Shyest: Jasmine and Kelsey 304. Best hair: Kelsey 305. Best eyes: Kelsey 306. Best body: Nate 307. Most Athletic: Me 308. Hot-Tempered: Elena 309. Most impatient: Me 310. Shortest: Nate 311. Tallest: Kelsey 312. Skinniest: Me 313. Best singer: Me 314. Funniest: Literally all of us 315. Can always make you laugh: All of them 316. Wish you talked to more: Elena 317. Wish you saw more: All of them 318. Who drives you insane after a while: Elena, but in a good way 319. Who you can stay around forever and never get sick of: All of them 320. Ever lose a friend because you took it to the 'next level': Nah, I'm dating Nate 321. Whose always been there when you need them: All of them 322. Who is like your family: All of them 323. How many friends do you have?: Quite a few, and I love each and every one of them 324. How many are really close? About 10? Section Sixteen: The last 325. Thing you ate: Poptarts 326. Thing you drank: Apple juice 327. Thing you wore: My hoodie 328. Thing you did: This meme 329. Place you went: The store 330. Thing you got pierced or tattooed: Nothing 331. Person you saw: My dad 332. Person you hugged: My dad 333. Person you kissed: Nate 334. NQ- Person you beat to a juicy pulp: I wish I had done that to a couple jerks 335. Person you talked to online: Nate 336. Person you talked to on the phone: Nate 337. Song you heard: Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade 338. Show you saw: Mom 339. Time you fought with your parents: Um... about a month or two? 340. Time you fought with a friend: Haven't for a while 341. Words you said: Fuck you is what I said Section Seventeen: Now 343. What are you eating: Poptart 344. What are you drinking: Apple juice 345. What are you thinking: About my boyfriend 346. What are you wearing: My hoodie 347. What are you doing: Writing this up 349. Hair: Down 350. Mood: Tired 351. Listening to: Spotify 352. Talking to anyone: Yea 353. Watching anything: Nah Section Eighteen: Yes or No 354. Are you a vegetarian: Mostly 355. Are you a carnivore: Nah 356. Are you heterosexual: Yes 357. Do you like penguins: Yes 358. Do you write poetry: Yes 359. Do you see stupid people: Yes 360. You + Me: No 361. Do you like the Osbournes: Yes 362. Can you see flying pigs: No 363. Do you sleep with stuffed animals on your bed: Yes 364. Are you from Afghanistan: No 365. Is Christina Aguilera ugly: No 366. Are you a zombie: No 367. Am i annoying you: Yes 368. Do you bite your nails: Yes 369. Can you cross your eyes: Yes 370. Do you make your bed in the morning: No 371. Have you touched someone's private part: Yes Section Nineteen: This or That 372. Winter or Summer: Winte 373. Spring or Autumn: Autumn 374. Shakira or Britney: Britney 375. MTV or VH1: MTV 376. Black or White: White 377. Yellow or Pink: Pink 378. Football or Basketball: Football 379. Mobile Phone or Pager: Mobile 380. Pen or Pencil: Pencil 381. Cold or Hot: Hot 382. Tattoos or Piercings: Tattoos 383. Inside or Outside: Inside 384. Weed or Alcohol: No 385. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi 386. Tape or Glue: Tape 387. McDonald's or In-n-Out: In-Out Section Twenty: Opinions 388. What do you think about classical music: I like it 389. About boy bands: Nah 390: About suicide: Talk to someone if you're thinking about suicide. It is a very real thing and should not be joked about. I don't want to find out that any of you are no longer here because of suicide. I've lost 2 very close friends that way. 391. About people who try to force their opinions on you: They can kindly fuck off 392. About teen pregnancy: Only if they know they'll be able to take care of the baby 393. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years: With my husband in some country town 394. Who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: Nate, Elena, Kelsey, Jasmine, hopefully all my friends 395. About gay men: They're human too Section Twenty-One: 396. Do you have a website: I'm working on building one 397. Current weather right now: Cold as balls 398. Current time: 7:00 399. Last thoughts: Byyyye

Various ConMan headcanons

There will never be enough content for this ship Sorry its long ;-; and alot of stuff involving homestuck.. Uhhh.. Yeah -Both these boys are just.. A fucking mess and they should be messes together -.....connor counting all of jareds freckles -He wont let jared move until hes done -So a sleepy connor is counting THOUSANDS of freckles on a boy complaining about how connor wont fucking kiss him -Connor will tell people the exact amount of freckles jared has to embarass him -Jared gets antsy when connor is counting his face, jared TRIED to kiss him and connor just "kleinman i swear to fuck if you distract me i will walk out that fucking door and we will have to start over" -Jared tried to make connor eat a bathbomb -Connor licked it, and freaked the fuck out (like a cat with cucumber) -Connor is now scared of fucking bathbombs -Connor: *is sick with like.. Idk something* Jared: ill start a bath for you because.. I love you but damn you reek babe Connor: thank youu Jared:*puts a bathbomb in the tub* Connor: SCREAMS AND SLAPS JARED -They watch old disney movies together, like cinderella, alice in wonderland (only when high/drunk), hercules, prince of egypt, etc. -Jared: beauty and the beast is stalkholm syndrome Connor:jared you know it fucking isnt and here is fuckin why *long rant from my son* why do you say this every time we watch it? J:because i love your voice more than this movieeee -JARED POKES CONNORS SIDES -connor fuckin hates it but he blushes and wiggles every time its super cute -Hes not super ticklish.. But ticklish enough -Jared is the ticklish one -One time jared kicked connor in the dick while connor was giving jared hickeys -Jared is not only covered in freckles: but is also covered in hickeys, evan thought jared joined a fight club or something because he thought the hickeys were bad bruises -Jared and connor died -They both burst out laughing -After jared composes himself: "first rule of fight club, dont talk about fight club" -Sleepy/delerious jared: c-con.. You.. You could do an amazing gamzee cosplay Connor: what the.. Jared you... You never said you were... One of.. /them/ -They have a whole conversation about couples cosplay when they wake up -Connor: jared i will never join your fuckin blood cult Jared: oh come on connor /plllleeeaaassseeeee/ Con:NOOOOO They go as gamzee and tavros for halloween -Jared wouldve much rather been nepeta or kanaya, but.. He had to do the ship -Jared sees kanaya as a fucking gay icon -Jared:rambling about how cool kanaya is Con: dude it would be fucking hot if you could glow in the dark *hes high as ffuuuuuuccckkkk* -Jareds search history: "Glow in the dark paint" "Glow in the dark paint safe for human skin" "How to litteraly glow in the fuckin dark" -Connor borrowed jareds laptop after that -Con: "jared... Why were you googling shit about glowing?" J:b-because.. Yo- BECAUSE I FUCKIN CAN MURPHY *redder than a fucking tomato* -Omfg terrible puns -Jared: *makes a bad pun* Connor: why am i in love with you again? Hmmmm idk.. Guess ill leave *sits up from cuddled* Jared: omfg connor nooooooooooo -Jared has rambled about every troll and kid, he rambles while high and connor loves it Connor will never read homestuck, but he has a favorite character: terezi -His second fav is equius -Jared for sure thought connor would like gamzee or karkat, but nope -Connors thought process: "ive delt with cops so often that terezi seems pretty cool" -Jared every time connor has to leave a cuddle pile: wweh -Connor, with a horrible fake lisp: ill be back fish dick -Jared loves his terrible fake lisp tho -Connor hates it (kinda) but it makes jared happy and thats all that mattets -Cue:jared finds out connors a closet furry -Jared has a full nepeta cosplay.. Obviously. He wears it to school on halloween -Connors mind: "holy shit your boyfriend has a fucking TAILLL it looks so soft?? I?? Ahh??? Oh wait shit fuck time to hide boner shiitttt" -Connor has never kissed jared so pationately -Jared: con i cant believe your a fucking furry Con:well atleast im not into homefuck -Both are offended -One time during sex at jareds: Jared: hey babe.. Want me to get the tail? Connor:...i fucking hate you *red af* -Con:...yes please holy SHIT get the tail -Jared:nope sorry cant Con: but.. Why?? J: oh idk.. Maybe because your dick is in my fucking ass murphy -They have a code word for when their having a bad day and just.. Need affection (its fucking larry) -Connor: *visibly angry, slamming his locker* Jared: con whats wrong? Con: fucking larry -They then skip school and watch bad movies at jareds -Jared to evan: dude i had a great time fucking murphy over the weekend Evan:.. Oh haha Jared /sure/ you did Connor:*comes up behind jared and hugs him from behind, placing his head on top if jareds* hey evan Evan: O.O holyshityouacctualydid -Oblivious Evan who never got the memo or always though they were just joking Jared: "Evan you're invited to Connor and my wedding." Evan: "YOU GUYS ARE DATING???" -Jared:..evan..weve...weve been dating for FOUR YEARS you watched us make out dude WHAT THE FUCK -Evan:i.. I thought you were joking??? -Connor *tired and high*: JARED babe jar reddy boi hun fuck uhh what did i wanna say.. Uhhh can i get a fuckin uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh HELP ME MAKE A FURSONA Jared: connor why the fuck are you at school like this -Con:*falls to the ground and just... Hes asleep.. Holy shit he just fell asleep in the middle of the hallway* -Jared has to take connor "home"(jareds house) and he misses a test he had first period -After that school day: Jared: connor holy fuck i told you to sleep Con:but. . i didnt wanna sleep without youuuuu J:bab thats adorable and cheezy as hell but please i cant miss a test again Con: *slaps his hands together by his mouth* do you.. /really/*moves hands to point at jared with them* care about your grades babe?

I read your post about that j2 hug and how upset jen looked after jared went and hugged g and how jen made a joke about them being ""married"" but I didn't see you mention Tahmoh in the background and his hilarious reactions to it all. You can just see him like "Is anyone else seeing this shit rn" and like "This is getting heated af can I leave now" LMAO I can't stop laughing, the poor guy xD

oh yeah that’s true! well i didn’t talk about tahmoh because first i wanted to focus only on j2 and i just simply don’t really know what to make of tahmoh’s reactions! honestly i don’t know this guy at all, i’ve never seen interviews of him, nor con moments so uuuh… sorry haha that’s why i didn’t talk about him, because im not sure of what he could have been thinking

but there has been people who commented in the reblogs of my post saying kinda the same things as you so im gonna trust you guys ok? lol

im gonna try to quickly look into his reactions because it’s true they really look comical (link to vid):

so first he looks at jared, just like jensen does, when the public reacts to J/G pda

he looks like “what the fuck is that gay guy doing??? hugging this woman in front of his husband??”

and then when jensen says “she’s a little nervous you’ll have to excuse her” he makes that “oooooooooh someone fucked up” face while looking at jared and then smirking at travis (a known ITK) lol:

and then jensen says “she’s also “married” so back off… that’s what i’ve been hearing” and well to me tahmoh’s face is like “wow, is this really happening? whaaaaaaaat????” and it’s all in the eyes quickly looking away and the embarassed smile, so exactly like you said he’s like “uuuh can i leave??”  kinda like when a couple is having a fight in public and people don’t know what to do and are just like “……………………………..awkward lol” 

and also to me the way everyone jumps on the joke when jensen says “that really applies to rob” looks like they’re all trying to take the attention away from jensen and on to rob like “ahahahahaha yeah that rob he’s so silly! hahaha” and rob immediately plays the part without hesitating…

and please as always just enjoy jensen’s completely “done with this shit” face, he was so fucking pissed, i’m still shook everytime i look at it lol

Episode #6: “Can i PLEASE get a blindside.” - Jared

ok so basically the game has been sooo quiet and ive like.  felt dead. idk. i had a breakdown last night bc of it and i cried on my couch (KNOW THERE WAS A LOT MORE THAN THIS LKSDJGKLDSGLS I WOULDNT CRY PURELY BC OF THAT) but yaaa and now im better but like the entire day i was throwing up in class (or like feeling anxious im exaggerating sorry) about going home.

i didnt want mo out but with that being said i didnt want anyone out?? after i mentioned to him that stephen/mo were targeting each other, rhys came to me with the idea that like him jared chloe and i should make a chat, and i was down for that bc it would secure my positioning and like ALSGKSDG who'd flip on an alliance THIS early.. right?? right..

chloe was really not talkative with me. stephen/jared were active so i appreciate that immensely. im just thrown off. i dont really know who i can or cant trust.

OK ALSO SIDE NOTE CHRIS SENT ME [IM NOT EXAGGERATING] 55+ MSGS SPILLING TEA ABOUT HOW THE TUATHA HAD AN OG ALLIANCE WITH EVERYONE BUT MITCH + MAYNOR - which i knew about but LASKGLDKS AHHHH. and he leaked that stephen wanted kori/bryce targeted and i leaked that to bryce to further stephens target. IM JUST SO MESSY LOL

also i kind of predicted a swap likeee omfg. and i dont know how i feel. i kind of felt safe on my tribe??? but like.. oh no. anyway, my tribe isnt super dominant in challenges or anything (compared 2 the other tribe who has bryce/stephen/drew), but i think we can win a lipsync since we have a woman, gay men, and a metrosexual male who has an outgoing personality (and i mean that in the nicest way obviously). IDK I HOPE WE WIN BC THAT TRIBAL WAS HORRIFIC AND I LOVE MO SO MUCH AND AHH.

ill probs give a video soon in more depth with what chris said. yalls deserve it.. oops period.

I HOPE YALL CAN FORGIVE ME. im eating hotdog. bye bye love u all.

Wow I like the whole tribe! Alyssa is probably my front runner of talking and honestly she's great! I am in her spell ahhhh but hey JARED is here too woo! I think at least with Mitch and Zach too I'll be safe but I'll see! This challenge could either go really well or really badly for us but I'm excited to do anything creativity!!

I absolutly love my tribe at the moment, i'm getting along well with alot of them except Kori who i haven't spoken to much at all but im confident in our abilities to win! Jared is talking a little bit about wanting the game to pick up a little bit and i agree to some extent however blindsiding someone just for the sake of a blindside isn't smart gameplay so im just gonna lay low nd continue making those strong bonds here there and everywhere to hopfully come out on top should we end up at tribal

Can i PLEASE get a blindside

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hi it's 6 am but rhys fucking filmed vertically so if we lose he automatically has my vote

I feel good but also scared. I dont think I'll do as good of a job as I hope, but it also is turning out decently so far. My biggest concern is time. With having work tomorrow, I can only do the editing on my lunch break of 90 minutes, then whenever i get home which probably wont be until 6, given the upload time that leaves me with about 3 hours in total. Hopefully I'll be able to work with Rhys and Jack's stuff, as i think it'll be easier for me to do it then. Regardless, I'm gonna be a zombie but LOL this is the second Wednesday in a row I stayed up late except this is not for school and instead of 3 hours, ima get 2 hours of sleep haha that is so sad and funny and heebee jeebee zoinks, alright goodnight

Two things: 1) there's really nothing quite like making a fool of yourself multiple times in a single org, just to be immune for one round. 2) i am horrible at looking for idols

So Matt just told me he thinks we’re gonna have a double tribal right before merge which is like ew I hate that throw it out please, speaking of throwing out uh Kori can go because he’s wearing on my nerves like yes we’re gonna get things done on time calm down please and thanks.

these people are actually delulu if they think that video is winning. no fucking way we are winning. time to go to tribal!

So the swap has happened, and I get what is almost probably my worst case scenario player-wise. All of my close allies, with the exception of Kori, are currently on Cyrena. Meaning that winning immunity isn't even really good, since it puts them in danger.

I think there's a way to make this bad situation good though. Getting to finally work with Michael, Matt, Loris, and Drew can actually be a blessing in disguise. If I get on their good sides now, they might clue me into their plans once merge rolls around. That's the hope, anyway. For now my goal is just to survive being swapped with a bunch of people I've barely spoke to!

The past 24 hours have been major toughie for me. Staying up late and then trying to manage editing a video, work, and time constraints, and I won't lie, its been exhausting, but I didn't want to let my tribe down, or anyone down I guess. A little ways through, I kinda felt pretty defeated and then learning at last minute it was due an hour before I predicted made me panic A LOT internally, but it does seem like the tribe likes it so if we do lose and if they do vote me out, I can look back at this and feel like I did something right.

Well a lots happened and to be honest at times life and this game move too quick for me to even remember if I've mentioned it. We swapped, and I'm trying to just keep myself afloat however I can.

The challenge was overly stressful and I have no idea if we'll pull it out. Editing has been so stressful and I've found new appreciation for the people that do it. I just hope whatever I whip together will just be enough so that I can breathe and really take stalk of my new situation.

So, I haven't been around a whole bunch recently. However I'm glad we didn't go to tribal, that could've been  a reason if my name came up. So I'm glad I have time to more cement my bonds on this tribe and keep my name out of peoples mouths.

We JUST WON IMMUNITY WOOHOO. I was kind of nervous with a music challenge considering the only other one I did previously I did not do the greatest in :P. Both videos were amazing and im so glad Eve and Jones's mom liked ours significantly greater than the other one! As far as my position is concerned, I am reunited with Jared and our relationship is still strong I think so that's good. Stephen I am HOPING will be ok by just latching on to Kori at least for premerge. Those two are still the ones I trust the most, but I also like Alyssa Chris and Zach. I WISH i could connect more with jack, but i feel like every time we play together it gets more difficult to hold a conversation, so that's a yikes. Jared myself and stephen are diligently working on the idol search, but it's likely already found. I'm pretty sure there are too many components for someone to just find it by themselves

WELL. Im a target tonight! God we really do love that for me. We really do. Kori, eat my fucking ass. You leave me on read all the time. And then you have the NERVE. THE ACTUAL NERVE. to be like "omg stop slipping in my dm's!" Boo if you didn't leave me on read constantly then maybe i would actually want to speak to you! an actual moron. And then STEPHEN HAS THE FUCKING AUDACITY to me like "ya lol i'll be at tribal i'll make the decision between you and Kori at tribal!". BOI. THAT IS NOT HOW YOU GET TRUST IN SOMEONE. Its fucking ridiculous. Thank god Michael is in my corner, hopefully drew and bryce too. I am NOT getting 15th right now, no way. I am BETTER than this. i am going to make it work, tim gunn style. maybe its time to break the fajitas and channel their energy once again

Why do I go on the initiative literally ever? I'm clearly bad at it, I wasn't even remotely thinking things through and I SHOULD have let Stephen or someone else suggest someone but no I had to be mildly greedy and wanna send home Matt whom I barely DM.

I already flopped editing the video, and now here I am flopping the social/stategy game that I love playing supposedly.

Of course I tried reaching out to Michael and Drew FOOLISHLY because I wanted to build trust and maybe work with them. So naturally Michael tells Matt because ofc they'd be close as would Drew probably since he and Michael have been together since Day 1. As it stands I'm stuck praying Loris is gonna vote with me and it just sucks because I'm so bad at this game.

I'm trying to keep a cool head right now because there's still time. Stephen and I are trying to work logistics, see if we need to switch the vote to say Michael in case of an idol, but I'm not sure Loris/Bryce would be on board for that.

There's a pretty good chance that I'm definitely dead. But I'ma fight to the bitter end!

Today I learned from Stephen that Kori is in some dangerous water. He I guess said Matt's name to Michael who told Matt and now them and Drew are voting Kori. However Bryce and Stephen and perhaps Loris are all voting Matt. Now this is good if it works because honestly that group having to endure their numbers dwindling is good for my game. It only leaves Jack and Alyssa but I think we better be careful because I can see both of them slipping through the inevitable war zone that is gonna be happening.

Today's been a pretty informative day for me. After losing the immunity challenge by a hair, I was worried because I didn't think I had bonded very well with my current tribe through One World, luckily for me, that doesn't seem to be their biggest concern at the moment.

During the initial stages of the vote, I talked to Kori and the two of us decided Matt would be the easiest target to take out. I was leaning towards voting Matt because we hadn't talked very much, so hearing Kori was on board right away simplified things for sure. Bryce and Loris both seem to be on board with it too so I shouldn't have anything to worry about at this point.

In the morning, things got a whole lot more complicated. Matt found out he was the target through Michael, and began his campaign to get Kori out instead of himself. I'm not entirely sure why Michael decided to do this, but it doesn't make much of a difference at this point. Matt campaigned to me, and I sorta pretended to be on the fence. I was listening to what he said, but Kori is realistically one of my closest allies, there's no way I'm voting him out to side with people I had just met.

Once campaign season got under way, I had a conversation with Chris. Chris tells me that on original Orfeo, him, Loris, and Zach believed there was an alliance of Chloe/Sharky/Drew/Michael formed. This explains not only why Sharky was seen as an easy boot on swap-Tuatha, but also why Michael wants to keep Matt instead of Kori. With Chloe re-joining after tribal, him/Drew/Chloe/Matt would form a tight majority. Without Matt, they're a minority.

I proposed an idea to switch the vote from Matt to Michael or Drew. I said it was because I was worried about an idol, but this alliance is the real reason I wanted to do it. However, Kori, Loris, and Bryce are comfortable with the status quo and since it's not my neck on the line I didn't feel the need to push too hard.

Me, Kori, and Bryce now also have an alliance with Loris, which is cool? I haven't gotten very close with Loris yet but he seems like a smart player tied to Chris and Zach which spells good things for us working together in the future. Assuming I survive this vote and have a future, of course.

hi I think I might make it past final 15 that’s nice umm... I suggested an alliance of me Bryce Stephen Kori to counter the potential power of chloe Matt Michael and drew once chloe joins our tribe because my brain is massive. but now we’re like scared for idols . scary shih anyways like how r u I’m good.

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oh huh tribes r gonna be even again next round... so I have to make this conf by default just in case of a you know what wait no anna u said no more 24 hour challenges QUEEN ... thank god I can’t be bothered to delete this so she’s being SENT

Right now there's so many things running through my head with the introduction of Matts vote steal, because realistically i could convince him to give to me or i could keep him around as a potential shield. I don't want to do it to the guy but also a vote steal could shift the tides of the game in my favour later down the line. so it's a difficult decision and one id rather have more time to contemplate.

Wooo ok operation vote steal is a go and next round we’ll be swimming in green hopefully but with one world sis og tribe lines just ain’t it!

God im over this tribal. Like ugh these people really are under Kori's mist so like im probably going home. Do I think i might be able to survive? a small glimmer of hope says yes, but i'm not confident. God im just... so annoyed at this. Im clearly on the outs here and I just HOPE i can pull through i just am so scared. I know if i do leave though that I have fought my damn hardest to stay tonight. Im trying to think of the positives because its hard to do so because im being sad atm.. UGH. the fajitas really have failed me tonight, their light has dimmed and their guidance is no more. i am now with the darkness. we r one.

Oh my fucking god my heart is breaking. Matt is basically in such a deep hole he's going to go home, unless he plays an idol. And Alyssa has an idol. And she doesn't think it's smart to use it on him because Michael says he's just gonna go home next round. His social game hasn't been up to snuff and they're gonna boot him regardless, so she wants to keep us with power and let him go. And I agree with her. Which kills me. I'm usually able to just be a robot when it comes to this like yes I will make the smarter decision if it means I'll be emotionally torn, and this is such an instance. Luckily, it's not my idol to give up. Yes Alyssa says it's "our" idol but it's her call end of the day. I just... fuck. This is all stars man. And I'm actually starting to feel, for once.

Well it's about an hour before tribal and at least on it's surface it would seem Matt is going. I'm not confident though because any number of things COULD happen. I'm hoping there's no idol play, just because I feel like pre-merge just isn't a good look for me.

If Matt does pull something off, then kudos to him, and if it's me that'd make this my final confessional for the season. I've had such an amazing time playing and while I feel like I've been playing a lower key game on purpose I feel like I'm doing what I can to really come into my own. I hope the bonds I've made are gonna stick and that everything works out for us.

But if it doesn't I guess I'll have to find a way to be ok with that. This has been such a unique All-Stars experience so far, and I hope I can take what I've gotten from it and make myself better for it. (Also highkey hopefully this isn't my last confessional and I'm getting sentimental for no reason.)

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Kori is voted out 4-3.