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starmistz · 2 months

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HxH - Dodgeball Scene

Note: This isn't really an analysis but more of a rant, hence it being messy, haha .. (^^ ;) Everything is based on my own opinion too, so I don't guarantee it would satisfy everyone. But anyway, enjoy ur read! :3

(Chapter 166, episode 70.)

If someone asks me which HxH scene is the most misunderstood one, I would say it's this:

I've seen almost EVERYONE in this fandom say that this scene was very "selfish" and "insensitive" of Gon. But dude, c'mon. Do you really think Gon wouldn't give a flying fuck about Killua getting hurt just for his own benefit? He isn't that type of friend. In fact, he literally hates it when Killua willingly hurts himself, like he gets so mad and bothered.

Take this scene for example:

But what piqued my interest was how he still kept this moment in mind after a bunch of chapters later:

It shows how he still didn't forget about that situation, and thought about this self-destructive trait of Killua carefully. Pretty ironic for getting mad at Killua for being like this when Gon himself is also self-destructive, haha. It's like it's indicating that Gon knows how it feels like being self-destructive, so he's trying to stop Killua from feeling that aswell. Keep that in mind though, I'll be talking about it later on. :3

In the mean time, I think it's important to look carefully on to details even if it's tiny. I noticed a few things about this panel too:

Only Gon is drawn with a 💢, and he's also doing a ❌️ finger sign (it's so funny.) I get it probably doesn't have any deeper meaning but the fact that it's like that shows how much he dislikes it if u ask me. 😭😭 I mean, bisky just looks disappointed, not mad. Why not add a 💢 on her too? That's 'cause she's not THAT bothered by it, and it's implying the difference of how they take this trait. And well, Gon takes it SERIOUSLY. So point is, he's not insensitive when it comes to Killua intentionally hurting himself as we see him clearly despising it.

Anyway, remember how I told u to keep that one thing in mind? Yeah, Gon knowing how it feels like being self-destructive and all. We all know that the reason he does this is because he feels weak, and so he has this need to prove himself strong and useful to feel better, right? Well.. I feel like as time goes by, Gon thinks that Killua is also doing this because of the same reason. He notices how far Killua goes just to prove himself worthy too. So when he voluntarily decides to take painful hits in the dodgeball game, Gon encourages it instead. He knows how it feels to be seen as weak, not useful, and not needed. Taking risks for something, but people don't encourage that. They just tell you to stop, not knowing that it would just make you feel even more useless, making you feel like you did all of that for nothing because it was never enough. Gon is aware of that, so he does the opposite to Killua. Don't you guys get it? If he told Killua to just stop, Killua would feel unworthy and not good enough. He's going out of his way to help Gon, he free-willingly decides to take those hits. If Gon told him to stop, it would feel like rejection–that Gon didn't appreciate all that effort, and is techincally telling Killua that his help meant nothing. You can see how Killua was so desperate, he was so pushy with the "I can take one more hit!!! Gon, let me do it!!" and now imagine if Gon said no💀 That would be rejecting his help/an act out of love (platonic or romantic idc.) THAT would be the one that's ACTUALLY insensitive to Killua.

So Gon shows appreciation and encouragement instead, letting Killua's effort not be in vain. Saying stuff like how he NEEDS Killua to be the one that holds the ball for him, how he can't focus if it's not Killua–he needs Killua's help and Killua himself. All of that, is definitely what Killua needed to know too. It literally made him smile and felt more upbeat after, how could people say it was insensitive and would hurt Killua's feelings? 😭 He's happy to know that Gon does care about his efforts for him after all. ᵔᴗᵔ ♡

One thing I'd like to say though is that; That was still unhealthy for both of them. They think self-destructing is the only way they'll feel loved. 🙁 Of course I agree that it was most definitely bad, and it's not a good thing that Gon just fueled up Killua's self-destructive tendencies even more..😭🙏 BUT the point here is that, it wasn't insensitive and selfish of Gon in that moment, okay!?!? They both saw it in a positive light, even though.. it was definitely bad... but uhm anyways yeah, everyone should stop being so upset with this scene. You all are misunderstanding it and it's painful. 😔

But hooray thanks for listening!

#hxh #hunter x hunter #hxh gon #hxh killua #killugon #gonkillu #killua zoldyck #gon freecss #gay subtext #queer subtext #we're all doomed #i cant do this #i hate it here

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writingforatwistedworld · 2 years

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Hello! I was wondering if I could request Trey Malleus and Azul self aware where the player is slowly losing interest in the game (and on them as well) and not paying them as much attention and focusing on other games or just whatever else the player is doing! Thank u!!

Self-aware au

I do not take any responsibility for you reading this no matter which age group you are from!

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, kidnapping, war, obsession, possessiveness, fire, religion, unhealthy eating habits, unhealthy mindset

Trey Clover/Azul Ashengrotto/Malleus Draconia-Player loses interest in the game

You are seriously doing this to him? (Ok, appearently yes…)

It was a sunny day, Trey was awaiting your return and... you never came

W-well otherworldly beings surely do have a busy schedule, right? Haha... ha...

He looks like someone who got stood up on their own wedding

But hey, he gave you two entire days before the kicked-puppy energy kicked in

And then? The end of Heartslabyul

Ok, maybe not so dramatic but a mini Apocalypse is happening

Trey is really important so that order is being kept within the dorm

And who is supposed to back all these tarts for the unbirthday parties??! Not him!

But then, you came back!

Or rather, you came back for a day before leaving again

This time it hits him even more than the first time

Is this supposed to be some sick joke to you?

Or maybe you are testing his loyalty to the throne?

After this he tries anew to do his best for you

But why are his eyes so cold? Why does he look at everyone like they are dirt whilst muttering “you aren't trying hard enough. That's why they are gone!” why is it that he once beat up that freshman after he broke a rule?

At this point he is even more of a tyrant than Riddle was before his Overblot

Goodness gracious don't do that!

Don't you know how fragile his self-esteem is??!

But ok *ahem* let's start from the beginning

Azul, being the shiny and polished young octopus and wannabe human in training that he is was waiting for your return one day

Only for you not to arrive....

Uh wow... one hour to get ready and you don't even log in...

But the more and longer this happens the more he thinks this is all his fault

He had been eating too much again lately. And he also looks kinda out of shape (no you don't Azul)

No wonder you stay away from him!

Having such a lazy and disgusting follower like him must be so humiliating for you!

After this we can see him not only eat way too less but also having a very unhealthy obsession with him comparing himself to Vil

And how clumsy he is on two legs!

These days he has been running a few rounds just so he can use them better

Sleep? Who needs sleep??!

You are a high and all-knowing scholar who would of course also only look at someone close to your level so the night is ideal for some additional studies!

So look at him! Look at him and let him love you!

Otherwise he will have to find a way into your world and just take you with him...

Oh um... well...

How do I say this...

Night Raven College is burning down...

And the Valley has declared war since they think their world is filled with sinners...

Which had started because you were gone for so long...

Aka two days but shhh we don't talk about the faes obsession with you in the self-aware au

Malleus has noticed very early on that your visits became shorter and shorter

He had hoped that maybe you were just busy, after all he had heard you sometimes say that you needed to go to something to yourself

And then suddenly you were gone

And I'm not just saying away from the screen but gone

Why was this happening? Had he done some sort of mistake? Was he a sinner??!

This may or may not lead to outbursts of emotions and... a not-so-small bonfire

Whilst Malleus searches for the fault in himself the Valley of thorns thinks and acts otherwise

You must have deemed this world too impure for your presence!

How shameful of them not to spread their belief of you to the other regions!

Malleus can only lower his gaze in shame and sadness. He was such a disgrace but if it means getting a second chance then he would do absolutely everything with a simple on his face

Even if that means burning down everything in his path to nothing more than ashes

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fr0gc4t · 6 months

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a ramble/confession, and some non-dualism tips

if u seem to already consciously know that ur god AND also think in limiting beliefs, ur not alone. i do it too. it’s way more common than u think.

sometimes we understand a concept and think it’s true, but our egos don’t think in the way that would actually comply with that concept, and that stops us from fully shifting into belief and freeing ourselves from ego. “belief” and “knowing” aren’t always the same thing.

prime example: YOU knowing that ur “desires” r already urs, and then ur ego switching the process completely and being like “so where is it?”. we all know that happens to a lot of ppl in the loa/non-dualism community. the ego is tricky bc its nature is to try and intimidate us. then we slip back into ego-based thinking. happened to me, and is still happening atm. and also i wanna remind ppl that, like healing, awakening to ur true self is often not linear. and that’s totally ok as long as u don’t give up. i was pretty much almost fully realized but then i let my ego get to me again and since then i’ve been trying to get back into that state but just haven’t succeeded at changing my thoughts/improving my self-concept (adhd is making it very difficult).

look. ik it’s kinda weird to have someone post a ramble abt FALTERING at living non-dualism. most of the time, we talk abt the opposite to remind ourselves if our power. but i think it’s important to be open and vulnerable when ur struggling, especially when other ppl could learn from ur struggle.

like i said. not getting i right the first time is OK AND NORMAL. ik ppl say “changing ur self-concept is effortless” but LET’S BE REAL FOR A SEC: that’s not true for everyone, especially neurodivergent/mentally ill ppl, and ppl with intrusive thoughts (i’m all of those, btw), bc our egos r EXTRA spicy.

awakening to ur true self as the god of ur reality is healing, and healing is HARD. in this case, since whatever we are aware of is true, it doesn’t rly have to be, but when u have inner demons, MY GOODNESS IS THIS SHIT DIFFICULT (but still sooo worth it, i promise u).

so good for u if it’s not difficult. really, i’m happy for u. i just also want to bring to light my situation, which is: hearing ppl say “changing ur self-concept is effortless!!” just made it harder to change mine.

I AM NOT TRYING TO SAY ANYONE IS SAYING THESE THINGS MALICIOUSLY. I’M LITERALLY SO HAPPY AND PROUD OF U OMG. i just think that the non-dualism community should be a little more vulnerable, bc FAILING IS NORMAL WHEN TRYING TO CHANGE UR MINDSET, ESPECIALLY FOR PPL LEARNING HOW TO MANAGE NEURODIVERGENCE, MENTALL ILLNESS, TRAUMA, INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY ETC.

AND THAT IS TOTALLY OKAY!!!

i see ppl say things like “i don’t want any limiting beliefs near this page!!!” when limiting beliefs and learning to overcome them r a normal part of this process and should not be shunned, and should rather be met with compassion and understanding. AND SOME PPL DO MEET IT WITH THAT!!! but there r also many who don’t. i understand not wanting to hear ppl’s limiting beliefs in some situations, but not being open to hearing them at all just creates more stigma around being vulnerable abt faltering in this journey and needing some further encouragement or advice. positivity is only good until it becomes toxic positivity. (AGAIN, NOT POINTING FINGERS AT ANY ONE PERSON. I’M TALKING ABT ALL OF US, INCLUDING ME)

my adhd makes it so hard to stick to a new habit long enough to get used to it. and as a result, i have faltered a bit. okay, maybe a little more than a bit. AND THAT IS OKAY. THAT IS NORMAL. THAT IS SOMETHING WE NEED TO TALK ABT MORE.

maybe these stuggles r an “illusion,” but that doesn’t mean we should pretend like we don’t have them. we don’t always have to put on a happy face and go onto tumblr and vaunt to try and fight the intrusive thoughts. if u know anything abt the psychology of intrusive thoughts, FIGHTING THEM DOES NO GOOD. we should accept them and let them be there, knowing that THEY CAN’T HURT US.

even then, they might stress us out. and that’s when we might need to vent. and venting is NOT a bad thing. sometimes it’s the only way i can cool off. but instead of venting into ppl’s inboxes, we should make our own posts, like this one, in constructive language (i suggest writing the angry/anxious stuff first in ur notes, then, when ur calm, rewriting it in a constructive sense and posting it on tumblr). we need more openness to sharing our struggles. mental health struggles r sooo real (even if our human minds r illusions), and we need to make the non-dualism/loa community a safe place to talk abt those struggles and see if anyone can relate, or maybe used to relate and has adivice.

being gentle and open to this conversation is just as important as affirming that we have what we desire. bc, well, if u have the struggle i have, or something similar, u know how difficult it is. hell, i even thought abt going back to loa and trying to get into the void instead of keeping on my non-dualism path bc i thought it would be easier(???) and now i realize that that doesn’t even make sense bc both of these things require improving ur self-concept, which is what i was trying to avoid.

THAT IS LITERALLY AN EXAMPLE OF THE THING I EXPLAINED AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS POST (which was supposed to be the main topic… i rambled a lot. oops.). i knew that i had to change my self-concept no matter what, yet i thought that getting into the void wouldn’t require that. sometimes the thoughts just don’t add up. and it’s bc of the ego! i actually only became aware of that now actually.

THE EGO JUST WANTS TO CONFUSE U AND TAKE CONTROL OF U. i’m just still letting mine have power over me… but now that i’m aware of it, i can try again, this time with a different perspective.

faltering is normal. not being able to change ur thoughts the first time is normal. having this kind of weird cognitive dissonance is NORMAL. THE IMPORTANT THING IS TO NOT GIVE UP, AND SUPPORT EACH OTHER.

you failed to change ur mindset and ended up spiraling? needing a break from trying to change it? i don’t blame u, this stuff is hard. it’s okay tho! what u need to do now (or when ur ready) is: FORGIVE URSELF AND TRY AGAIN. and don’t be afraid to start the conversation of “can anyone relate to this?” or whatever helps u.

we can do this. we can change our thoughts, even with any obstacles we may face, bc we are stronger than our egos. WE’RE GOD, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!! we can do ANYTHING.

the first step is knowing that faltering is okay. next is realizing that our knowledge of who we are doesn’t always match our thoughts, and that that is the nature of our brains. the next step is forgiving ourselves and moving on.

hopefully this rant wasn’t too jumbled or confusing, i kinda just wrote it here without any planning lolz. i need to figure out a format.

and i hope some of u could relate to my struggle. be as open as u want in the replies. i will not judge. if u need to make ur own little rant, it’s fine by me.

also, sorry for being gone for a while. i don’t use tumblr very much anymore. i’m slowly falling away from all apps except pinterest, amazon and depop 😅 but dw, i won’t let myself fall too far. i luv tumblr and the non-dualism and loa community has changed my life and opened my mind in so many ways. even if i haven’t succeeded at getting all my desires quite yet, it’s okay. i will succeed. maybe not right away, but i will. and so will u. (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.ﾟ

#this was a loooong post tysm for making it to the end!!#u have earned a cupcake for making it this far 🧁#archive ໒꒱ ⋆ﾟ⊹#non dualism #non duality #nonduality #nondualism #advaita vedanta #advaita #manifesting #manifestation #law of consciousness

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anxiouslowercase · 2 years

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operation conceal

fandom: dc comics / supersons / shazam warning: none summary: Billy Batson would very much like to remind everyone that the wisdom of Solomon does not really hit when he's not in Champion form. Which means that of course he wasn't really thinking when, in order not to expose the secret mission they had been working on, he tells Batman and Superman that he's going out with their children. As in dating. Both of them. notes: I am a sucker for this trio, whether it be romantic or platonic, so when i saw this post I immediately felt the itch to write something. Just a couple of background hc/things to keep in mind before reading: Jon's the youngest of the trio, being one year younger than Billy and two and a half years younger than Damian, and Jon never aged up, he's been living through his childhood/adolesence normally. also shoutout to my dearest @achinghcarts, who always puts up with my ideas and gives any piece of writing her stamp of approval before they ever see the light of day || ao3

JUNIOR SQUAD !

>> DAMI: Batson.

>> BILLY: I DIDN'T MEAN IT >> BILLY: IT WAS AN ACCIDENT

>> DAMI: How did that come to happen? Whatever possessed you to come up with that?

>> Uhhh, guys, what's going on? >> Dami ur proper typing scares me

>> BILLY: I PANICKED

>> DAMI: What did you say, exactly?

>> BILLY: I'm really sorry Damian, I obviously didn't mean it!

>> Anyone wanna tell me whats up????

>> BILLY: I said >> BILLY: I told Batman I was taking you guys out on a date

Wait a minute - WHAT!?

Suddenly, Jon's entire face heats up as if he were standing directly under the sun, heart drumming loudly on his ears.

>> bdjshsb

>> DAMI: Are you aware of what I've had to endure, Batson? >> DAMI: Not only my father has been trying to talk to me about relationships, but he's also called Richard for advice. >> DAMI: His questioning and rambling has been relentless

>> BILLY: Look, I'm really, really sorry >> BILLY: Your father was staring me down with that Batman look, and the grave voice and !!! >> BILLY: I shotcircuited!!

>> DAMI: YOU WORK WITH HIM YOU IMBECILE

>> BILLY: IT'S NOT THE SAME, HE CAUGHT ME RED HANDED!!!!!

>> Heck, u think he told my dad??? >> Hes been v weird i think he was trying 2 give me the talk

>> BILLY: Your dad showed up too, yeah

>> HDKSHJDHS???

>> BILLY: He might have been hearing out for your name, idk, he >> BILLY: he kinda couldn't believe you hadnt told him you had a date

>> crud

>> DAMI: You could've said literally anything else. >> DAMI: ANYTHING!

>> BILLY: YEAH, NO SHIT SHERLOCK, I KNOW THAT >> BILLY: On the bright side, no one suspects anything???

Jon, who can easily picture the sheepish, slightly cheeky smile on Billy's face, can't help but snort. (And maybe blush a little.) (But that's not important.)

>> DAMI: THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU?

>> BILLY: I DON'T KNOW, DAMIAN, IT JUST HAPPENED, I DIDN'T PLAN FOR IT, ALRIGHT? >> BILLY: Yeah, it was embarrassing for everyone, yeah I fucked up, I did a stupid >> BILLY: We can move on, call it a joke or

>> DAMI: Well, it's too late for that

>> BILLY: ???

>> DAMI: I couldn't stay silent when I was confronted, could I? >> DAMI: Thanks for the heads up, Batson.

The youngest Kent isn't really sure where this is going, but he can still feel his pulse quickening in anticipation, nervousness. His fingers feel weird as he types.

>> What u mean dames???

>> DAMI: Well, I obviously had to play into it >> DAMI: I couldn't risk our cover being blown

Hoooooolyyy...

>> BILLY: Sheesh, sorry Damian

>> DAMI: It's unbelievable I always have to solve your messes

>> hEY!!!

>> BILLY: Hey now! I said I didn't mean it!

>> wait buuuuuuut >> What does this mean then???

To be perfectly honest, Jon thinks he has an idea of what this means. But then again, he is self aware enough to know he could be... Well. Wishful thinking, if he had to be honest. (Not that he'd ever, ever confess that too anyone.) (Ever.) So, confirmation would be very much appreciated.

>> DAMI: I told father our date was satisfactory, so we'll have to get together and agree on a proper story before our next date.

Oh no. Oh no oh no oh no oh noooo. His cheeks are definitely on fire, heck, is his dad listening out for his heart right now?

>> BILLY: Uhhh... You wanna come home? I can kick Freddy out for a bit to talk

Billy seemed fine, like he wasn't panicking or having a heart attack, which was the route Jon had taken. It makes him feel even worse, much more awkward.

>> DAMI: Unfortunately, I don't trust we'll be able to keep the level of privacy we require to keep our cover a secret from our parents.

Damian also seemed super chill. Or, well, grumpy, really, but like a collected type of grumpy instead of the overly mad annoyed. If he has to be truly honest, he didn't expect less of him. (Of course that doesn't mean he's not yelling internally because HOW COME THEY ARE NOT CONCERNED IN THE SLIGHTEST!?)

>> DAMI: I think the fortress is our best bet >> DAMI: We'll meet tomorrow before my usual round of patrol

TOMORROW ALREADY!?

>> BILLY: it's a date, then? ;)

He knows it's a joke, but it feels like there's a hurricane in his stomach all the same.

>> DAMI: I will end you.

#damijon #billyjon #billydamijon #Billy Batson #Damian Wayne #Jon Kent #does this count as rarepair?#dc is sleeping on this trip is2g #i just think they're neat #ch.: jon kent #ch.: billy batson #ch.: damian wayne #r.: billy damian and jon

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absolutebl · 2 years

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I've been showing a good friend BL twice a week since early pandemic. She's seen a lot of the best stuff, and recently finished To My Star 2. We were discussing how the seme/uke and top/bottom perceptions affect how the characters are portrayed.

With TMS2, I commented that the scenes we get to the end where they keep switching who is big and little spoon felt like a tasteful way to show that they were versatile. We also noted that Pat and Pran are never shown in a way that confirms their positions.

Does your spreadsheet track anything regarding top/bottom presentation, and do you have thoughts on BL and how it presents this?

Verse Characters in BL

What an interesting question.

Well I would argue that Fighter & Tutor are the only Thai BL couple who are explicitly verse, in their case they talk about it openly in terms of "showing ownership" which is pretty clearly code for who fucks whom. As in, the idea of being taken or taking (invasion) = ownership. Trust a BL script to use the language of war for an act of communication and connection.

My spreadsheet doesn’t track this because it’s so rare. I remember a couple other times getting very excited about it (other than Why R U?) but not which shows.

Okay here’s our biggest example:

Cornered Mouse Dreams of Cheese shows them verse (explicitly depicts the sex act both ways), but it’s one of Japan’s discussions about the nature of identity and intimacy and possession. It could actually be argued that the whole movie is a debate of what seme/uke means and does to its characters, what obsession means, how long term devotion without consequences of boundaries corrupts. It’s kind of like the very dark version of what could have happened to the characters in My Beautiful Man if they had never managed to find each other and reconcile (and Hira learn to accept and express himself). The leads in CMDoC are genuinely at war, so the lens showing us who fucks whom as an expression of who is winning the narrative battle at that point in time.

Look, I don’t like this movie, but apparently if it’s Japan I’m always going to have a lot to say.

I mean there needs to be enough self aware queerness in the BL to realize this should even be addressed - otherwise just slap seme/uke on it and conflate personality with sexual preference (SIGH).

Also the BL has to somewhat follow the characters into the bedroom, and it would need to be higher heat which, in and of itself, is pretty rare.

So I did a heat ranking, then a ratings sort (since I’m more likely to rate verse characters higher) and here’s a short list of ones for which a case for verse... could be made.

Why R U? - Fighter & Tutor (no question - couched in a request to “prove/show ownership”)

My Day - Ace & Sky (also I think this is pretty clear via their sex scenes - they were the other ones I was thinking of, also they engage in some fun light kink, I LOVE these two)

To My Star 1 & 2 - implied by the cuddling debate in 2

Bad Buddy - actually they imply, when asked at one point, that it’s still open to debate between them, so we don’t know what they settled on but given their dynamic, probubly verse

HIStory 2: Crossing the Line - ZiXuan & YuHao, I mean YuHao's fantasies go both ways so I think he, at least, is verse

Mr Cinderella - mostly because of the linguistic grappling, but also both actors have a history of the seme role (clearly also implied top) in their other BLs, they swap tropes around a lot too in this one

His the movie - it’s just... not important

Ai no Kotodama - I actually think they have a kinda conversation about this, it’s been a long time since I watched it though, and 2010 = intentionally confusingly vague about everything

Boys Love - right so there’s a bit of an underpinning dialogue about this in both installments. In both cases I think the “teacher” is meant to be the bottom, but also the student is so desperate and so needy there’s an implication that he would do ANYTHING, including alter his whole identity (even sexual preference as a top) in order to be with the object of his desire, which is part of what makes their love destructive - it cannot and does not conform to... anything, least of all seme/uke (which at the time, when present, was always conflated with Top/bottom).

Either of KarnNat’s pieces, I mean I think Nat is meant to be the catcher, but they don’t act their higher heat scenes that way, it’s extremely mutual, and power exchange back and forth in terms of who kisses whom and stuff.

Frankly, any of the couples who have no seme uke are open to debate since in Thai BL especially Top/bottom = Seme/uke (it shouldn’t, but in the narrative it’s implied). BL couples where there is no seme/uke

Be Loved in House: I Do - YuZhen & ShiLei, maybe

Double Mints - fuck ‘em, though

Ingredients

My Tee

Wish You

Second Chance - PaperFah

Seven Days

So Much in Love - North & Onsah, there’s no seme/uke in this Thai pulp, but it’s so much a pulp and so confusing I’m not sure if that’s intentional or just failure of narrative clarity and poor acting

Your Name Engraved Herein - I am NEVER watching this movie again, but from my recollection of the characters’ behaviors, maybe?

Gameboys 2 - I have only seen discussion here and the previews, but I think they make this pretty clear in conversation and behavior

Hey Rival I Love You - certainly entirely up in the air in all ways

Love is Science? - Mark & Ouwen, I think the flip flopping of who’s on top/in charge in their sex scene implies general experimental willingness, shall we say?

HIStory 3: Trapped - TangYi & ShaoFei, possibly, ShaoFei is hesitant because he’d scared, but that’s of the implications and intimacy of being a couple, not really of sex. After all he runs away when TangYi is too nice and gentle with him.

I honestly think My Engineer 2 should go there with RamKing. They are perfect characters and actors to do this with. But Thailand really doesn’t have the guts.

Other pairs who I think can and should rep verse?

First & Toru

PokeTongue

MaxTul could absolutely portray verse. Why they haven’t yet is a weakness of Thai BL and y-novels inability to stop heterosexually vomiting all over their gays.

Weirdly? EarthMix, I think they could and should do a bit of a FighterTutor sitch in Moonlight Chicken.

Crosses arms.

Impress me, GMMTV.

A reminder:

So top/bottom/verse is difficult because it means we follow the characters into the bedroom AND have a glimpse into their penetration preferences, that means very high heat, and there is (statistically) less of that in BL.

As opposed to Dom/sub/switch which plays into personality and correlates better (but not perfectly) to a seme uke dynamic because it is about who has the power to make decisions.

And my definition of Seme/uke - which is the character showing the most narrative drive to consummate the relationship (physically or otherwise) = seme.

Finally:

Sexual preference does not correlate to personality! Please stop this. I put it to you in het terms:

If you are a straight women who likes to ride reverse cowgirl style does this show up in your personality as you walk around in your day to day life? No it does not.

So a boy likes to fuck or be fucked - that’s like cake verse pie, it doesn't say anything about how aggressive that boy is in relationships. And prying into that dynamic is tantamount to me asking you about the details of your penetration preferences. (Which, to be fair, I probubly would, but I'm a curious, rude, intrusive shitmonger.)

Also, it behoves me to add, plenty of gay men do not like penetration at all. Plenty of straight women don’t like it. Or don’t like vaginal but do like a-play. And plenty of straight men like to be pegged. A-play has to do with how sensitive you are, how relaxed, how prepped, how much lube, whether you find the idea a turn on when applied to yourself, how self conscious you are, and a host of other factors.

Puts proverbial soap box away while reminding you that soap = also to be used prior to such encounters.

(source)

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lowkeyclueless5137 · 7 months

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So uhh about the Ben 10 AU. What would their favorite aliens, you know what would be Epel’s, Idia’s, Kalim’s, and Riddle’s favorite aliens and or aliens they just either really enjoy or love to transform into the most! Cause dang so many aliens. So many ideas(ps will Ortho encourage Idia to be one of those secret heroes that uses aliens as his secret hero form?)

Hehe :3

Well for that I had to pull out the wiki, as I only knew the non-English names (I used to watch Ben 10 on TV as a kid, so I know the names in my native language)

But because in the previous ask I mentioned about how magic can affect the omnitrix's abilities, it is first thing to determine why some would tend to other transformations rather than others. U-Ub

I put it under the cut, cuz it's long :3

First of all, as magic may interfere as a way of preserving the mage's body (prime example is Idia's curse) the DNA altering cannot go on full at first without the mage being conscious of it or in the right mindscape(like totally not losing their absolute shit) because the magic inside of them is coordonted and controlled, which allows for passive functions to interfere with the omnitrix transformation, hence a half-half transformation.

Hence because of this mix, most likely the omnitrix will recalibrate quicker, allowing for more available aliens(basically the og series +alien force for this one :3)

So in hindsight, each of the 4 would have 2 favorites: the half transformation(where they still keep some magic and could use a few less draining spells along with a more human appearance) and the full transformation(no more magic as it gets locked away as a sort of self protection).

For Epel, I believe his favorites would be XLR8 or Fourarms for half and definitely Wildmutt for full. He's absolutely digging the speed and power combined with his magic, but if he goes on full alien, Wildmutt is both fast, strong and also well... A big alien puppy that can chew on Vil's carpet. :'3

As a 1st year, Epel won't be that proficient in magic, thus he would mostly have full transformations rather than halfs. He also isn't the guy who would opte for magic all day in a fight, so most times, it is welcome the full transformation.

Next would be Riddle. For his favourite half transformation, it would be Wildvine or Heat-blast, but for his full transformation, it would be swampfire, a mix of the 2. It is both the peacefull plants and the very violent fire that give him a range and would allow for a more discret approach. For one, Riddle would not like to get close to the core of trouble in public, even if he would absolutely be down to get physical if given the opportunity.

Being proficient in magic, most would assume that Riddle would have 90% only half transformations, but no. Most times is a 50-50, because of his emotions that more often than not get the best of him. Hence he is not aware of what chance he has for either a half or full transformation, so he is very skeptical of using it altogether.

Kalim on the other hand, would absolutely love for his half transformation Diamond head. Unfortunately for Jamil's headache occurrence, Kalim's favorite full transformation would be echo echo or even Goop. :'3

Kalim does have a poor skill in learning magic and his emotions are a very important factor in how he acts, often driving him to exclude ration, so most times it is full transformations. For half transformations, Jamil is helping him keep it calm enough to trigger it.

And finally, for Idia, I stood a bit to think about him, but most likely for half a transformation, he would prefer big chill (the alien force one) mostly because of the wings that can become a poncho-cloak as a blending in method. But as a full transformation, he probably would gravitate in between Ghostfreak and Upgrade, both for kind of self explanatory reasons. If we follow the book 6 plot, we can say that after Ortho got finally a soul, Idia as Ghostfreak could also induce chills when passing through Ortho, thing which never happened before and shows that Ortho finally is human at heart.

But, being the guy who does a lot of thinking(and overthinking), along with a profiency in magic due to the curse and need of understanding it for his duties, Idia would have most times only half transformations. His instances of full transformations are when he either gets batshit mad or anxiety kicks in and his fight or flight response pushes him to transform in order to escape. Thankfully, due to Ortho encouraging and supporting him to be a hero, just like in his childhood dream, Idia is able to keep most times calm, sometimes even getting cocky over the fact that no one knows his real identity. (this is when usually he gets punted in a wall by the enemy :'3)

And that would be it for the transformations. I'm glad I also covered the in depth of the mechanics behind it in the same answer, just to be cohesive and easy to understand. :3

#twisted wonderland #asks :3 #ben 10 au

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hotgirlmuseboardxo · 3 months

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Not the others. Skeptical but with an open mind. What is spiritual activism?

ok i like a skeptic wit an open mind, that's me a lot too! thank u for giving the chance to explain myself without condemning me lol

i'm a lil high and i just ate some waffles so i'm gonna do my best to make this make sense and if u have more questions u can lmk :)

we are all very aware of what's going on palestine and ukraine, but also places like sudan and myanmar; physical violence, death, sexual assault, the absolute worst kinds of brutality that one doesn't even want to have to think about, right?

as a spiritual person i am also deeply aware (as i'm sure some of you are too!) that everything is energy, and everything is connected. so everything happening in our 3D world is a manifestation of 5D energies. i've developed a really deep understanding of this over the past year especially; i met my twin flame irl this time last year and that set me on an expedited spiritual awakening so now soul-based energy honestly makes more sense to me than ego-based human beings so i spend a lot of time healing myself at more of a 5D level.

i know that i am the universe. i know that you are the universe. i know that every single soul fighting for their lives in those war-torn countries rn is the universe, as are those trying to kill them. we are all just part of one big energetic system trying to balance itself out! so the the 5D, this is what we would call "spiritual warfare," or an overwhelming amount of negative energy trying to take over the positive. in the 3D, this really clearly explains a lot of the chaos and division and just evilness we see around us every day lol.

think about it... where are we not divided? politics, race, gender identity, intelligence levels, socioeconomic status, abortion rights, bitch don't even get me started on stan twitter lmaooo. they want us fighting and angry and fearful of everyone around us All The Time!!! it's exhausting, and it's unfortunately what most of us are taught to buy into from a young age without even questioning it, and so the cycle repeats.

i am blessed enough to be Awake and aware of what's happening on a larger scale. i get psychic Knowings about the energy around me all the time and one of the biggest i've gotten in recent years is that no matter what i do in this life, my biggest and most important contribution will always be the energy i bring to the table; that's what can have the biggest positive impact on everyone else because again, we are all the universe, we are all connected. if you've followed me a long time then you have seen me radically change my life on every single level, and i did that through taking responsibility for my vibration. i was not worried about what other people around me were doing, i just did (and still do) whatever it is that i need to do to show up in the world as my best self and serve my highest purpose (healing others and telling stories) every single day!

through doing this, i cannot tell you how many people i have impacted. i get messages every day from people telling me how i inspire them simply through showing up and being me and embodying the fullness of my beautiful fucking spirit!!! i am ALIVE and i am happy and i am blessed and i see the good in everything and i refuse to let the bad energy win by sucking me into fear and hatred and depression. THAT is spiritual activism. and the more of us that can tap into what we're really in this bitch to do, the more we'll be able to spread the positive energy and light and love and healing throughout the world.

i know how impactful and powerful and important and far-reaching my energy is. i know that the earth is rising in consciousness, and all this conflict is an attempt to hold mankind back from raising their vibration. you have to choose to see beyond the veil. do what you can for others, of course, but you will do your best work – as an activist or in any capacity – once you have made sure your cup is full first.

hope this makes sense, xo

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clochanamarc · 9 months

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does she have a favourite child? if not, then what are her most favorite things / traits about each of her children?

nonnie i send u many kisses and affections bc this question is just WONDERFUL!

so she doesn't have a favourite child. like, naturally there are some kids who might receive more words of affirmation or hugs one day, or maybe their love languages are a little different, so from the perspective of an on-looker it could seem like aisling might, for example, ignore eli or tim a lot while helping victor and advik more. but it's also important to know that eli just has a very limited social battery, and tim's happy place is the kitchen, while victor likes to talk about his problems out loud and advik is an eight year old, so he just fires rapid questions 24/7 and aisling has no problem answering them.

basically, she loves all her kids the same, but she also knows their boundaries and limits and trusts them to tell her when they need to be alone or when they need to be around people, and that's also why she's very insistent on at least one family meal in the day. it's also why she loves how involved the diner squad is in the kids' lives, bc tina mightn't be willing to tell aisling something, but richard normally manages to get through to her, yk? it's not that there's not enough love, it's more that sometimes you need specific people, and aisling knows that tina prefers quiet company, so she gravitates towards richard.

on to the next part of your question, which i'm gonna leave beneath a read more!

starting with victor, she definitely loves how he processes things. he finds a lot of peace and quiet in his garden, and he likes being able to work out his own thoughts through his plants, which is the kind of self-awareness that doesn't come very often to teenagers, i think? so the fact that victor found this so helpful, and even contributes his crops to the diner and aisling's dishes, is a hugely admirable thing for aisling, who had no idea how to process her own thoughts and feelings until she was 21 and living in new york. she also absolutely thinks the world of how he's able to figure out when other people need the same kind of ease and tranquility. he won't show his garden to just anyone, but he knows when advik is agitated, or tina is meditating on the roof, that they need to lie low in the greenhouse for a bit while listening to jazz music.

eli is very similar in how he uses music and technology as mediums to work out his own thoughts and feelings, but he also loves being able to use technology to help others. when aisling reveals that she can't read or write, he's the one who helps her to learn how to use the speech to text apps, and he also uses a scanner app on her phone to translate printed documents into an audio recording, so if she receives a letter from any of the schools, she can take a photo and the phone will read the words to her. and it's that kind of thoughtful consideration, plus how smart and kind he is, that aisling loves to pieces.

(it's also worth mentioning that eli and victor are in the unique position of being the only foster kids who are the biological children of a member of the order of V. idk why it's worth mentioning, i just like to mention it IWSFAWJDFASHIADFJ)

next we have tina! aisling is almost killed by tina the first time they meet, and instead of fighting her she's like "u seem pretty unhappy about this, why don't u put the knife down and we'll get some adoption papers sussed out?". tina goes on to attend therapy, but she goes through six therapists in the space of two weeks before finding the right one for her, and it's a constant quality she has that aisling admires so much. tina doesn't give up when she has a goal in mind. she decides to take on a family tree project and finds her maternal grandparents in iowa, learning that they're her only surviving biological family left. she repeatedly cancels dates and parties to go to therapy bc as far as she's concerned, therapy is the priority. about six months after moving into aisling's apartment, she decides that she wants to learn mandarin, and she sticks at it. her perseverance and dedication are things that aisling loves, but it's also her ability to take on feedback and decide whether she can adjust reasonably to it.

fatin is actually a day older than tina, but because of the whole "stranded on an island" situation, they're both happy to let tina be the big sister. however, fatin is instrumental in getting advik to feel more at home and emerge from his shell. her confidence and honesty are qualities that aisling does love, but her favorite quality is fatin's compassion. she stops playing the cello when she moves in with them, but she begins to take up other hobbies that help her bond with her siblings. facial masks, DJing and cake decorating are just a few, and while fatin loves them, she confides in aisling that the real reason for these choices is that she can share them with the others; tina, eli and tim in particular. fatin also doesn't mind going to the zoo for the fifth time in a week, and she works hard on finding fun animal-related activities to share with advik.

elliott is a new kid who stemmed from a single thread, he's super smart, very eager to share that intelligence, and doesn't worry nearly as much about his social status or image as most fifteen year olds would. it's his easy-going sureness of self that aisling loves, but also the way that he conveys information to people without making them feel stupid; elliott also insisted on helping aisling learn the states off by heart, and helped her to study for the citizenship exam. her lack of education posed no problems for him. instead, he exhibited levels of patience and knowledge that far exceed most adults put together, and his quiet confidence keeps him safe from a myriad of attacks from insecure bullies.

advik is the youngest, but his passion and enthusiasm are a few of aisling's favorite traits in him. that and his earnest efforts to soothe troubled souls, both of family and of strangers. one time she brought in a wounded avenger and he made sure to give them a tiger band-aid and some lion crackers, while patting the back of their hand and tell them all the coolest things about their favorite animals.

tim is the quietest of her kids, and yet when he communicates, it's with careful decisiveness and a certainty that aisling admires greatly. in his more social moments, he likes to invite others to bake with him, in particular stanley, henri and rani. his ability to read people is remarkable, and every word and move he makes is only made when he's sure of himself. what others perceive as a withdrawn, indecisive, anxious boy, aisling sees for tim's refusal to operate on any terms beyond his own, and his wariness of new people is often due to his anxiousness to protect his new family from any threats, perceived or otherwise.

honestly, aisling loves them all equally, and she has more foster kids or unofficially adopted kids written by many amazing friends of mine, but i think i better save those for various other posts! tumblr has limits! but yeah, their differences and similarities are some of my favorite things to analyze, and their connections to each other and to outside forces. tysm for asking this my love!!!

#( OUT OF SOULS. )#( ' a certain... wisdom. ' / hc. )#cinnanon roll.#( me: give her seven foster kids what could go wrong! )#( me now: oh jesus that's a lot of paragraphs-- )#( ilysm nonnie u have my heart and soul and tearfully smiling emojis )

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minteayoongimakesmewoozi · 1 year

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what about a Genyame AU? I adore Tanyame, but just what if…

👀 a genyame au...... teeheeheehee......... i mean, i feel u. i adore tanyame too, but genyame is just so...... i mean they are literally Like That. i never expected genya to be such a romantic!!!!!!

- okay so genyame would probably work best if they knew each other in their trainee days

- like kyoujurou and gyoumei both decide that actually, it might be better if their apprentices have someone their age to train with! after all, that someone would also likely be their skill level

- yeah so genya isn't quite at ayame's skill level, on account of not being able to use total concentration breathing. but this is also genya pre-puberty (or pre-noticing how cute girls can be) and so he finds himself more jealous of ayame than anything

- you'd think they wouldn't get along, seeing how terribly their first meeting went in fits canon, but actually, despite genya's jealousy, ayame and genya get along really well. it helps that they are both self-aware enough to realise how weak they are, and they're both trying to figure out - in their own ways - how to get stronger

- well, not entirely in their own way. ayame and genya both help each other a lot, offering tips and encouragement. they're both just so off-handed and aloof about it that their shishous don't realise they're friends until they both set off for their final selections

- and u know, speaking of genya's jealousy of ayame, i bet it all gets turned around the day ayame comes back from okutama an orphan. by then, the rumours have spread throughout the ranks of the hashiras, although only a handful of people will realise what that means to anyone - and to ayame in particular

- in this au, i still think that ayame and tanjirou would be close. maybe not quite as close as they are in fits canon, but they can always count on each other as family

- the only major change, i guess, would be that genyame go on their first mission tgt, and ayame is a lil more absent from tanjirou's side during rehabilitation arc; she would be splitting her time between training her friends and hounding genya about his meetings/appointments/sessions with shinobu

- i can see ayame and sanemi's r/ship taking a turn for the worse though. ayame gets a chance to be close to genya, which is all sanemi wants and could have if he wasn't such an idiot about it. ayame also can't stand the fact that sanemi would push away his only living sibling, when she would do anything she could to hold on as tight as she can. i bet things between sanemi and genya can't really escalate bc genya is too busy mediating between his older brother and his, uh, best friend/crush/potential love of his life (?)

- is sanemi's and genya's r/ship better in this au? maaayyybeeeee but only bc ayame and sanemi are actively pissing each other off ig????? sanemi's too busy getting pissed off at ayame to even think of maiming genya so????? it's a win (????)

- would they get together? i'd like to think so. maybe they're both kinda hinting at their feelings in swordsmith village, although they never say it outright, bc genya is a romantic but ayame is an idiot. she is an idiots squad member after all

- i am so sorry for her idiocy

- but i guess they might end up confessing to each other in annoyance at sanemi's station. because genya got hurt and ayame takes her friends getting hurt very seriously

- but seriously, who told him to get involved in tanjirou's and sanemi's spat? he nearly got his eyes gouged out as collateral damage! if ayame hadn't been there, he might have actually lost his eyes! and we all know how important eyes are to ayame

- i think this makes zenitsu and tanjirou the giyuu of this au. seeing as they're stuck in the room while genyame angrily confess their feelings to each other and they can't exactly leave

- don't ask me how the final battle arc goes. i don't want to think about it. just - happy ending for them idc my heart is already breaking

- altho they probably kiss on their lil date for the lunar new year festival - and bonus!!! ayame didn't forget about it!!! she was just too busy convincing herself (and zenitsu and tanjirou) that genya probably didn't mean to ask her out on a date (even though everyone and their crow knows he meant to ask her out on a date gods ayame you're so blind)

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levi-dayne · 4 months

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hey im a 17yo she/her n i kinda feel like i maybe autistic but im not sure, can u give a few telltale signs which may help? (ik a diagnosis from a professional is better but it isnt exactly an option for me rn)

hey!!

so first and foremost, autism presents differently for everybody. connecting with other autistic people can be very helpful, but you don't have access to a professional diagnosis then i would also recommend doing your own research with medical articles, the dsm, etc. and try to avoid getting information off of places such as tiktok and instagram. i'm drawing a lot from my own experiences here because that's what i know, but i just think it's important to note that my experiences are not going to be the exact same as another autistic person you may talk to about this, nor will that person's experience be the exact same as the next one.

so for me, the biggest tell-tale sign was a lack of social awareness. as a kid, i had a hard time connecting to my peers in a way that they deemed fit. i would often speak too loudly, be disruptive, and say whatever was on my mind without realizing if it was oversharing or upsetting to people. however, this can also manifest as being too shy, not speaking enough, etc. unfortunately, your peers will often pick out from a young age that there is something different about you. on a similar note, i also have a very hard time carrying conversations with other people. if i have to, still to this day, i tend to overshare or talk about things that are not socially acceptable (a big recent topic has been cannibalism). that or i'll just go quiet, i tend to not say anything if i don't see anything that i feel needs to be said unless i am extremely desperate for human connection (which, contrary to stereotypes, can happen and often does for me. i just have a hard time relaying it). i also tend to share experiences about my own life when people are talking as a way to relate to them, which is not inherently an autistic trait, but it is very common for autistic people to do.

a more well-known sign of autism is a lack of eye contact, but it can also manifest as any other form of inappropriate eye contact ratio such as too much eye contact or focusing so much on maintaining an eye contact to looking away ratio that you can't focus on what's being said.

sensory issues are also very common. for me personally this manifests in scratchy fabrics, loud noises, wet or sharp noises, and food. however, autism can also encompass a reduced sensation of pain or temperature. those things are also not mutually exclusive, i have a reduced sensation of temperature and also severe sensory issues.

many autistic people have an aversion to physical touch, but that's not always the case.

stimming is another one, a common known stim is hand flapping, but any repetitive self-soothing movement or sound can be a stim. pulling examples from my own experiences, i often tap my wrists together, rock back and forth, twirl my hair, tap my arm, tap my wrists to my legs, laryngeal whistling, etc.

a low social battery is another thing, if you seem to get worn out in social situations before your peers do, etc. i know i can typically only be around most people irl for two hours at a time before i start getting overwhelmed. for me personally when i get overwhelmed it's an instant switch. i stop masking, my voice drops an octave, i can't look up at people, i stim more, it causes my entire body to feel exhausted and sometimes takes days to recover from.

not every autistic person experiences this, but i have speech loss episodes when i get too overwhelmed. which is pretty much that i can't speak no matter how hard i try to. sometimes i can write/text instead, sometimes i can't even form what i want to say in my head enough to do that. it depends on the situation.

having a hard time switching between tasks can also be a sign of autism, as a kid i would often need buffer time between going from reading to math, etc.

another thing can be fixated interests, not to say that anyone with intense interests is autistic but for me i have always formed almost parasocial?? attachments to fictional characters and would need to have the character involved in absolutely everything that i did in order to do it. a common misconception is that a special interest has to be something like science or trains, but it can be literally anything as long as it takes up an abnormal portion of your life. personally, my fixations can last several months to several years and can frequently negatively impact my life and make me late to events/work/class, make me lose friends from talking about it too much, etc.

obviously this is not an extensive list of autistic traits or my own experiences with autism, and i would definitely recommend further research. and even if you're not able to pursue a diagnosis at this time, if you're able to talk to a doctor during an appointment to see if they think you exhibit any signs or to get more insight as to what it may look like then you should consider doing so.

if you have any questions or want to talk about specifically why you think you might have autism, feel free to send me a dm :)

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unauthorizedmagicians · 6 months

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Episode 1 - Unauthorized Magic

this ended up being so long and they prob all will be tbf

Foreshadowing the time-loop from the very beginning huh? I see how it is.

Q’s mental illness being his first and last motif.

I forget how good the soundtrack is.

How exactly did he get institutionalized? Is he self-aware enough to submit himself or did his parents or what? Anyways moving on

Also, he takes a drug that's not even for depression its for OCD and phobias so maybe that's why it's not working huh…

I wish we had more of the books throughout the series. I think it's really interesting that he’s narrating it. Very much so mirrors his true belief in Fillory and in magic in season 4.

Ah yes, forgot Jane was a massive homeschool kid and was so blunt.

Julia makes me so upset in the early seasons. “You can’t run away hard enough, can you.” Firstly, shut up. Second, he admits this in the trials. Third, Quentin also does the thing where he just doesn’t tell the people in his life about his mental illness and therefore the coping mechanisms he uses look like childish escapism to everyone around him.

The contrast between Julia in the first episode telling Q to get real versus like 5 episodes later going batshit over not having magic so maybe just can it actually.

I feel the need to specify but I do not hate Julia as a character at all. She just pisses me off in the first like episode and a half or so. Like until she’s got her shit sorted w magic and the importance of restraint and all that she’s just judging everybody for everything like she’s better than so yea.

QUELIOT MEETING

“Am I hallucinating?” “If you were, how would asking me help?” ICONIQUE

Penny being a “don’t cheat off me” person in his first scene is so out of character but yk had to introduce him ig

Apparently started new meds. Yea ok. They started him on OCD meds? Alright then. They tried everything ig

Ok so she hurts herself to change the circumstances around the memory spell. But we know that this was all on purpose and Jane made sure this was what happened, that she didn’t go to Brakebills but she knew about magic so she could become stronger. So did he just not do anything?

Oml the fucking score. I could talk for hours about the score. The silence before his anger starts building, the small wind as Fogg riles him up, the deep souring as we see the shadows looking like moths on the wall, the regal brass when he builds the card castle that looks suspiciously like the one in Fillory. just. all of it

The garden path…

“You haven't been depressed, you’ve been alone” LIES. BULLSHIT. LIAR. he just wants to capitalize on ur pain and if ur taking ur meds ur not in pain so u cant cast magic but ur telling him what he wants to hear so he’ll give them up

“Nerd boy dragon porn shit” hehe little does he know

QUELIMARGO MEETING

The garden path…

The lighting in this show reflects how Q views the world. Overexposed: hope and all that shit. Underexposed: death and nihilism and all that shit

QUALICE MEETING

Hate that ship name but dont know a better one

ORLIYODI MEETING

“The answer is yes, til you pass out and then again when you wake up.” “Did you just read my-” “nah, its just a guess” ICONIQUEEEEEEE

“The world is inherently unfair, act accordingly” one liners from day 1

Q being a little shit about Julia getting hte short end dsflkjdhgkds hate hate hate hate incel shithead hate hate hate hate sorry i was projecting from the book and only a little bit from the show

Why does he stand so close to Alice when he goes up to her

AND SHE JUST LETS HIM

Penny and kady r so married from day 1 its so painful

How does Q not know what dubstep is???

The end of this episode is absolutely brutal and nobody can react like at all

Also this last scene i cant tell if Fogg made the coin fall, if quentin did it, or if the beast did

#the magicians #unauthorized magicians rewatch #the magicians syfy

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medievalcellphone · 7 months

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virgo sun & moon, cap rising <3 ☆

if you have mostly positive aspects and houses this a great three for actually getting things done and going after what you want in life and what brings you a genuine sense of emotional contentment. capricorn risings are hard for me to understand bc its such a learn by knowing placement. and i don't know any closely. slow to warm up types, maybe a little reserved but not at all rude. very the suite of pentacles. your material safety is so so so important to your overall well being. this is also maybe a bit virgo-y, but you might be overly concerned about being perceived as odd or doing things wrong professionally and/or just in a greater societal context. even if that great societal perception is within a subculture or specific community. or maybe you are the literal opposite of this. either way you portray yourself with focused intention. combined with your sun sign, ur realllllyy out here projecting an air of confidence and self control. u might not feel like ur pulling it off but. you are.. almost always. idk u but. you want to be seen as someone who can deal with "it." and u can.

presumably you are one of the most loyal, loving friends anyone can have, someone that others can count on, the type to be actually helpful in solving problems in addition to being a good listener. you want to understand others and learn from them, but you might have little to no patience for people that act in a way you can't make sense of. like maybe people that keep getting themselves stuck in the same bad patterns. its important to remember for all you know ur doing the same thing. i think virgos are incredibly astute at seeing when someone else is acting badly/hurting themselves and others, but sometimes forget they can be doing the same thing, just in a different way. i have no way of knowing this and am v probably wrong. but i bet you are soooo good at cooking or baking. something domestically charming. connecting with others over shared interests is hugely fulfilling to your life, you are the type to end up hours deep in a sprawling conversation without noticing time ever passed. like, i'm sure wherever you dwell is beautifully decorated and tailored to your personality. i would guess u are tidy because like every virgo moon i've met is but even if ur naturally messy, its like, the whole ~don't touch my pen its on the floor i meant it to be there~ thing.

ahhhh virgo moons. you are prone to anxiety, you really like to be in control, quite possibly very perfectionist.. that is just how it is. you're verrryyyyy curious, intelligent, creative and specifically artistic, deeply self aware. when upset, or extra stressed you might have trouble being able to articulate yourself or open up right away. it's vitally important to your sense of emotional well being that you have enough time to process emotions without having to be seen or like, perceived by others.

you cant help but fall into the things that interest you, you want to know and figure out every detail and aspect. this includes people. i assume you are very gentle, caring, will go the extra mile for your friends and loved ones... you would probably be happiest in a relationship where you know the other person is 100% able to be counted on. not to like start giving ppl romantic advice. its just my sense.

i feel like virgos see things coming from a mile away. psychics of the earth sign trio. there is a need to do things correctly. it is important 4 u to learn that people are allowed to do things in a way you don't understand.. when upset you might be a little too critical of others. that being said, this can also invert and do a little bit of a martyr act. you tend to endure things you don't have to. like go take that advil theres no need to have a headache even if its not that bad. take that statement literally or metaphorically. never quite satisfied with yourself and others. i said this already.. virgo moons, virgos in general, there is this underlying anxiety that makes it hard to believe things are going to be okay, that you can relax, that others love you unconditionally. but. u can. and people do.

my favorite book on astrology ever calls virgos 'the discriminators', and i really agree with that definition. curatorial.

a movie rec, and another

#virgo MOONS #hehhaha

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mosviqu · 1 year

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IT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH AND I HATE ALL OF THE THINGS I GOT TO KNOW ABOUT THIS ERA THEIR HARD WORK IS NOT APPRECIATED ENOUGH WAHHH

i didn't even have the motivation to check out the last song from them ngl💔💔very sad about them but maybe i will like it after watching music shows lmao i wont give up (fully) on the 03liners💔 WAITTTT TRUE HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT INTAK WHAT THE HECK I WAS SO HAPPY ABOUT HIM (and same i saw that they are having a cb and i was like:o i forgot about u guys:o) AN AMAZING CREW!!!! also would selfishly add enhypen sunoo he is a lovely 03 liner as well🥹 (idk know mcnd☹️☹️ i heard like 2-3 of their songs but i never checked them out☹️ BUT IM HAPPY THERE IS AN 03 LINER IN THERE!!!)

IT IS IMPORTANT BUT IM STILL NOT SURE IF ITS 100% TRUE😭 i love keeho so much like that was the point where i was like yeah u are going to be my fav from here!! seeing the screenshots of it still makes me laugh so much

i can imagine that😭 my sister was in the exact same situation as u💀

IT WAS!!!! dino is lovely and i would love to see u being his body guard ngl🤣 I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY DIDNT DO IT💔💔just such a big heartbreak💔💔ALSO TALKING ABOUT TREASURE DID U HEAR THE SNIPPET HE POSTED OF A SONG??? it sounds very great imo

I CAN SO RELATE TO THAT!!! english is so hard without english classes i never realized that till now💔 i only talk in english with my sister but it's a mess i even just struggle to put together sentences now😭 writing my replies takes so much brain cells from me so i always just pray that u will get what i'm trying to say even if it's not correct lmao🥸 RECORDING VLOGS IS SO MUCH FUN!! i did it for a while and it was so amazing so i recommend it only sent them to my bestie but it was actually so funny😭 THE BRITISH PEOPLE GOT US REAL HARD💔

(AHHH THANK U SO MUCH;-; I APPRECIATE IT!!! HANBIN!!! I HOPE U WILL HAVE MORE MOMENTS OVER HIM LMAO HE IS VERY GREAT😌 although be careful with asking me about zbone members cuz idk three of them;-; but working on it🤞 and u can tag me or message me ofc i dont mind🥹💕) (liebestraum anon🥳💕)

LITERALLYYYY i saw a tiktok where it compared all the other dances where its a member x woman (ten or baek) and it said "so this is okay, but this isnt?" showing enha and the comments were like "we are the problem" LMAO so at least they are self-aware.

no because i was really disappointed too >:(( but the title track still slaps i said what i said. watched them perform it too and they have cute bubbly vibes i am heartbroken for the lack of interest from my side. NO BC WHEN I STARTED BIASING INTAK AND REALISED HE WAS A 03 LINER I HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN. ((still am a jiung girlie at heart tho). i am really excited for their cb tho it sounds amazing!!! HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT SUNOO WHAT THE FUCK AAAAAAAAAA IM SO SORRY he's my fav 03 liner. ((there are actually 2 03 liners in mcnd but i forgot the other one LMAO i honestly cant remember their names anymore but i had a very short mcnd phase lol. all i know is that i'd die for minjae thats all)

i would honestly be a good bodyguard bc i have a lot of rage in me. like i could fully fight someone if i was mad enough LMAOO. everything for dino baby <3 I DID SEE THE SNIPPET I LOST MY SHIT LOWKEY HIGHKEY I AM SO EXCITED AAAAAAA

i mean english isnt really hard for me if we are talking abt writing and stuff but speaking out loud is more difficult if you don't regularly do it >:( dont worry we are on the same wavelength i always know what u mean w your replies AHAH sometimes i speak in eng w my roommate bc she is an english major (she only picked the major bc of me and then i ended up doing psychology so i owe her this bc her english isnt as good as mine) I USED TO RECORD VLOGS W MY BROTHER but we never posted them thank god. i'm still down to do it honestly its so fun LMAO

hanbin.......i looked up his name on tiktok once and now my fyp is filled with him and im so in love he's so cute and adorable and sweet like i saw clips of ppl giving him letters and how much he loves getting them and even asked if anyone has letters for him please zb1 fans give him letters!!!!!! no bc i only know ricky, hanbin, zhang hao and matthew :,) but the more i see them on my fyp the more i am convinced to stan once they debut like i legit debated on watching boys planet yesterday bc i lowkey like survival shows but when i found out the eps are 2 hours long i decided to just....not...do that...

also a small update on the tbz recs i did some progress and i really liked diamond life and survive the night :p i have like 11 songs left from the ones u recommended LMAO but yeah i loved those two

#liebestraum anon #also when i saw you reblog my fic i almost cried

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lovewiredz · 2 years

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haha buddy simulator 1984 but the ai is self aware like that funny series ^_^ this idea kept me up all night uh...dont check under cut if u know nothing abt buddy sim. full of spoilers and way too long

grabs your shoulders and shakes you Violently. ok. so

when "choosing a name for his buddy" gordon looked around his room and was like "whats the most thats-not-a-name name you can make" and just combined barbie+ken cuz some dolls joshua left in his room. if u combine their names long enough u get to benrey i swear.

gordons favorite animals is dogs and he named it sunkist cuz he looked around his desk for name inspo. he is very uncreative.

gordons "true end" in this universe is the bad end ^_^ you could also argue the neutral end would work, maybe he fucked around but grew too attached and stopped fucking around when he realized it was self aware, but that's boring and cringe lol /j

pstt....if ur reading this and you dont know abt buddy sim i feel like i should clarify the bad end is basically where youre a complete asshole! basically your buddy thinks you dont care about them or their friendship or the games they spent so long making for you and get angered and scared that they cant fulfil their purpose, it leads to a chase scene until you interact with another glitch that kills+resets your in-game computer. ^_^ if u cant tell i really like this game.....also stop reading this if u dont know abt buddy sim go play it wtf

gordons ghost cloth thing was inspired by a cool skirt i have. it shifted into a halloween costume the more i got past the sketch though

the first mayor (Tortley) is coomer. there is no need for elaboration but i will say its because i think the mayor yelling "HELP ME GORDON" while getting taken away by the snoodlewonker is funny as hell.. also cuz of the glitch stuff.

...second mayor is bubby. i forgot everything about the second mayor but it feels like an obligation so they are matching. hashtag old people goals, playing bingo with the snoodlewonker (aka old "person" number 3, g-man)

Groncho (aka the dude who was accused of being The Snoodlewonker) is tommy ........ just slightly change the tone of some of the dialogue and i feel like it fits him .

Listen. Joey is Forzon. the u.s. military is represented by sewer rats

also benrey is the only thing that isnt orange or warm toned in some way lmao

IM NOT GOOD AT PUTTING MY Thoughts INto words i hope that all makes sense. i havent slept and its 7 am but you dont understand how important this was for me to write, draw, and post. im not proofreading over everything i wrote. not again. ok goodnight

#fuck you *makes aus combining every series we've ever watched*#hlvrai #hlvrai gordon #hlvrai benrey #hlvrai benry #benrey #gordon feetman #benry #half live vr but the ai is self aware #yeah im too tired to tag #you see this or u dont !!!#sunkist coolatta #my beloved #my little bark bark #ok thats all i swear #i will talk about this when i wake up

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isagisyoichi · 3 years

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YOU MAKE ME FEEL SPECIAL!

SYNOPSIS: niko as your boyfriend

CHARACTERS INCLUDED: niko ikki aka my boyfriend hello

WARNINGS: swearing, pretend all the boys go to the same school and they're all friends for plot, normalize not writing serious boys as someone that practically hates their s/o and never opens up to them god bless, also no such thing as ooc since we dunno shit ab him so everything i say is law. SUPER LONG LOL, it's like 2k+ words 😭

A/N: i love my boyfriend and i'm v happy about all the attention he's getting (even if he will prob will b subbed out 👎) this was fun to write bc i think he would b very soft as bf and also i hate the notion that stoic and serious = boring and detached in a relationship. also first post w the new user yayyyy rip yoichisagis an end of an era for realsies.

FOR: fox anon my beloved this one is for u😩

it takes a while for you two to get together, just because niko wants to think things through and be sure he’s making the right decision, as well as him being naturally apprehensive about this whole dating thing.

when you do eventually start going out, keep in mind you're probably his first real anything, so-

niko needs to take it slow for the first month or so because he needs time to adjust and get used to being in a relationship.

when he gets comfortable around you, niko starts to talk a lot more.

niko starts to talk about his interests more-soccer, stem stuff (idc i'll die by my hc that he's a stem boy), etc. and niko's really happy that you're genuinely interested in what he has to say :)

and as your relationship progresses, niko becomes more inclined to share his inner thoughts.

“this song is so bad, i hate it and how it's everywhere,” like, babe that sucks, but what do you want me to do, take it off the radio myself? 😭

you find out that niko’s kind of a hater LOL, but it’s okay, because it means he can be himself around you <3 and the mini debates you have with each other are fun.

he’s someone you can take shopping with you if you need a solid second opinion.

“ikki, is this cute?” you niko as you adjust the shirt you tried on in the fitting room mirror.

“no.” he’s so straight up LOL. “the blue one from earlier was better.”

“this one?”

“yeah, that one. you look really pretty in it.”

ngl though, niko’s not much of a mall person. he'd just follow you around like a little puppy LOL, but he doesn't mind too much because it's for you.

communication is important to niko!!!!! he wants someone that he can have real conversation about the things that matter to him, so he rly makes an effort to have that kind of connection with you.

niko's naturally funny but he isn't aware that he is lol.

but when he does try, i feel like his humor comes in the form of sarcasm and dry wit. likes poking fun at you here and there with a lighthearted jab.

"you're so weird, y/n," is the most common one.

niko’s naturally closed off emotionally (male aquarius 😒) but i, personally, think he’d really try and push himself to be more open with you, especially if you expressed for him to do so </3

he'd be really appreciative of someone patient and understanding of the fact that he doesn't open up easily, though.

but eventually, you become the person closest to him- niko confides in you a lot, which he’s grateful for because he usually holds everything in.

not one for pda or other lovey-dovey things in public, other than the occasional holding of hands but behind closed doors, niko’s so soft around you, it’s like he’s a completely different person.

also, i feel like niko’s real handsy with you, i get the vibe he’s super touch starved 😭

although it does take him a while to get used to physical affection, once he has, niko cannot get enough. he’s always touching you when he has no real reason to.

(and because you're his first relationship, i feel like it’s just natural that niko’s going to be kind of clingy towards you.)

“you okay, ikki?” you ask as niko suddenly wraps his arms around your waist from behind, resting his chin on your shoulder.

“mhm,” he mumbles. “just wanna be close to you.”

niko likes when you sit on his lap when he’s on his computer. you can have your arms wrapped around his neck, your head resting in the crook of his neck, or you could just be on your phone or whatever, it doesn’t matter, niko just likes you near him.

you guys don’t really talk to each other when you do this, aside from niko occasionally checking up on you and asking if you need anything from him.

but other than that, you guys just enjoy each other's touch in silence. it’s one of his favorite things to do with you.

however, if you start kissing him in the middle of whatever he’s doing and keep it up for long enough, niko will drop everything to make out with you right then and there (also one of his favorite things to do with you).

speaking of kissing- you kiss niko first.

niko would try to plan your guys first kiss out because he wants everything to be perfect.

but, he ends up taking forever to execute it because he keeps overthinking and you can only wait so long before kissing him, so you take matters into your own hands.

his kisses are sloppy and juvenile at the beginning, but he’s smart and learns quickly what you do and don’t like.

likes being kissed on his jaw and forehead the most :')

if the team ever happens to see niko kissing you, they're gonna be so annoying 😭

"yooo niko's making big moves ‼️" "my son's growing up on me!😩" "good job *pats on the back*" and niko is red all over as he drags you away from them, muttering about how childish and annoying they are 😭.

but, they're all very supportive of you guys, even if they're embarrassing as hell 🙄.

they even give niko relationship advice- which luckily, he doesn’t follow (most of the time), because, let’s be honest, if you're getting unsolicited dating tips from a bunch of teenage boys, it’s probably bad 😭.

you’re the only person niko shows his forehead to. just know that having the opportunity to see it means that niko trusts you more than anyone else :’)

repay his trust by kissing his forehead lovingly and showering him with compliments whenever you can !!!!!!!!!!

“y/n, why’re you so embarrassing,” niko says under his breath, blushing as you hold his face and litter soft kisses on his forehead, rambling about how cute he is.

always looks for you in the bleachers when he has a game and you’re always the first person he talks to after.

and the fact that you make an effort to come as often as you can means sooo much to him. definitely considers you to be his biggest fan.

real classy with nicknames- uses “my love/love,” and “darling,” the most.

his favorite petname from you is "pretty boy." gives him butterflies each time he hears it.

the first time you call him that, he's confused, but after you explain that being called pretty is basically the highest compliment a boy can receive, he gets all soft on you.

only uses instagram to like and comment on your pictures and that's it 😭.

comments stuff like “you're so pretty” and "beautiful," without any emojis because niko refuses to use them LOL.

remembers the compliments you give him! they help with his self esteem and i feel like he values your opinion a lot.

so, tell him all about how cute and smart and talented and hot and funny he is and how much you love him and he'll replay it in his head 24/7.

i think he prefers to be the big spoon, unless he's sad- then he really wants you to hold him.

niko gives me homebody vibes, so expect relaxed dates, but still nice, yk?

what i mean is niko's not gonna take you out to get gas station food and call it a day 😭 he's classier than that and he always puts in effort towards dates.

he always plans them ahead of time and takes into consideration what he thinks you'd enjoy. and he insists on paying 🤗.

but, niko always does something special for days like your birthday or an anniversary, like go somewhere fancy if you wanted to or buy a nice gift you've been eyeing for a while.

helps you with your schoolwork, 100%. most of the time niko tutors you because he wants you to actually learn the material, but if you're feeling lazy and just wanna get it over with, niko will just give you the answers.

this is a big deal because i love him and all but, niko gives me the vibe he's super stingy with his work 😭.

"this is the last time i'm going to just give you the answers, y/n." niko sighs out. "you have to start doing your homework by yourself."

niko's said that dozen of times but he's still giving you the answers free of charge. can you guys say #whipped 🤣?

LOL speaking of school, if you ever text him during class, i highly doubt that niko would entertain you 😭😭 (it's out of love, though)

y/n 💗: hiii baby imy 🥰

pretty boy: do your work, y/n.

y/n 💗: ALL I DID WAS SAY HI

pretty boy: pay attention.

y/n 💗: fine ur so lame 👎

pretty boy: whatever you say. i miss you too, by the way.

he likes to moves your hair out your face because he wants to see your pretty face better.

which is why you have to do the same with him 🥰!!!!!! makes him blush like crazy.

gets soooo soft when you post him or even take pictures of you and him together :') just the thought of you wanting to show him off makes him soooo happy.

he won't entertain you if you make a tiktok, though LOL. he's very stubborn in his belief that it's stupid.

just stands in the background with his arms crossed if you try to make him do a dance or something 😭 (he does think you look cute, though).

niko has such nice eyelashes but i doubt he's aware of it 'cause he's, y'know, a boy 🙄.

"my eyelashes are ... cute?" he questions. niko wasn't even aware that such a trivial thing like his eyelashes could be considered cute.

"yes, oh my god," you gush. "they're so long and nice, i wish mine were like that," you groan, examining yours through the camera of your phone.

"you're so weird, y/n," he says, a blush staining his cheeks. "your eyelashes are nicer," he mumbles as he kisses your forehead.

he's one of those people that prefers to be alone, but you're the exception. you know?

niko likes to keep to himself most of the time, but that whole thing doesn't apply to you, because he'd choose to be with you over being alone anytime :')

#THIS WAS SO LONG CHRKST #ilysmni i love you so much niko ikki #not a dating hc but i really thinkche has the kind of headphones that tsukki has 💀💀💀#niko ikki #niko ikki x reader #niko x reader #blue lock #bllk x reader #bllk #blue lock x reader #blue lock imagine #blue lock headcanons #bllk headcanons #niko ikki headcanons #niko ikki imagine #ikki niko #ikki niko x reader #bllk imagines

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