#kong’s diaryᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ
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introduction (i am not going to live like this anymore)
hello, I’m 空 (kong).
it’s currently midnight on a school night. i have six hours of screen time, an unfinished to-do list, crushing inertia, and a university application waiting for me in a few months’ time.
i’m a good student, and i have high ambitions. yet for the last few weeks i’ve basically worked the bare minimum to keep up appearances, while living in a hole of dysfunction and self-hatred. not working, not reading, not speaking or relaxing. just festering.
i can’t do that anymore. i love myself too much to let this be my future.
so welcome to my blog: project Get Out Of This Hole No Matter What!
i’m a high school student doing my a-levels (humanities).
i speak english and chinese fluently.
updates will be posted to the #kong’s diaryᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ tag.
this will not be a “normal” studyblr. i won’t post pictures (i’m a minor, i don’t want irls finding me). it’ll be more like a diary, or a confessional.
to live fiercely, to inhabit my ideal. to give everything i can to the girl i love the most. that’s all i want. and it’s going to be hard.
but i can do it. i have to.
i don’t have any other choice.
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sunday, 5th may
sleep: 9:30-6:30 (9h)
screen time: 6h 13m😱
wins:
definitely attempted to do some of my tasks🤺
2h history revision because I’m always on that grind✏️
ate delicious food and roamed the city🫀
Got over buyer’s remorse!! bought a coat and didn’t feel guilty because it’s something I needed(I’ve been wearing my dad’s old coat for the past year)🫀
losses:
holy phone addiction, batman📵
been pushing the same 3 tasks to tomorrow’s to-do list for five days now… need to build more reliability with myself, it’s like I don’t trust the promises I make
☆彡
거기 너 I fancy you 아무나 원하지 않아
Hey, I love you (love ya)
그래, 너 I fancy you 꿈처럼 행복해도 돼
'Cause I need you (what?)
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thursday 25th april
sleep: 10-6 (8h)
screen time: 2h 30m
wins:
first time stepping into leadership role🫀
way too much history pre-reading✏️
10min full body stretch and 1 hour of pilates🫁
scheduled project meeting✏️
made posters for school event 📂
school ceremonial dinner⭐️😇
HEATED gossip session🫀
losses:
my entire body aches from practice yesterday🩸
the feeling of loneliness from yesterday is enveloping me and I don’t know why. it’s not like there’s nobody by my side or anything, it’s just that I still feel so empty. i think it’s a subconscious form of homesickness 🎭
which is scary… exams are soon, kong! No time to waste moping around
stayed up past my bedtime doomscrolling 📵
☆彡
still not sure if the pilates was a good idea.... muscle aches still there just more in my abs
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new jeans // get up challenge d1🐇
🎧currently streaming:
🎶new hair, new tee, new jeans, do you see: switch up my look
WORE A NEW OUTFIT!! it’s kind of different from my usual style so I was kind of nervous but I think I looked prettyT_T🐰
Of course it involved denim this isn’t the nwjns challenge for nothing
no new hairstyle though ... step by step
🎵make it feel like a game: revise in a fun way
spent 2h pretending i was on a talk show about history to get through all the content ....
🎵we’ll go on til the end: finish to-do list no matter what
COMPLETED EVERYTHING ON MY LIST🐰
it was such a busy day... team training, meeting w my supervisor to discuss progress, research/hw/revision
🐇sleep: 11-6 (7h) // screen time: 2h16m
day 1 completed⭐️ i really had to push for the last challenge because i always overload my to-do lists, so it's important to try and grow from that.
thank u everyone for supporting the original post, the reblogs are all so lovely. it girls of studyblr joining hands!!!
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get up challenge 🐇
🐰🐰a 6 day newjeans-themed productivity challenge, where i’ll be centring each day around a song from their 2nd EP♡
not so subtly inspired by @zzzzzestforlife , @megumi-fm , and @winryrockbellwannabe ... seeing everyone work so hard is giving me fomo
DAY 1 // NEW JEANS
🎶new hair, new tee, new jeans, do you see: wear a new outfit and step out of my comfort zone~
🎵make it feel like a game: have fun while studying by playing revision games
🎶we’ll go on til the end: finish all the tasks on my to-do list no matter what
DAY 2 // SUPER SHY
🎶i wanna tell you but i’m super shy, super shy: speak up in class and strike up a conversation with someone i don’t normally talk to.
do NOT be super shy today
🎵you’re the top, babe: challenge myself to go above and beyond: 4 hours of fully-focused studying^_^
DAY 3 // ETA
🎵don’t waste it, your time’s a bank: below 90 mins of screen time..
🎶all I need is you on my side: connect with friends I haven’t spoken to in a while~~
DAY 4 // COOL WITH YOU
🎵and I think I like your point of view: think about my research project from a different angle… 60 mins out-of-the-box brainstorming!!
🎶it feels cool with you: spend time with my friends and do something fun!!
DAY 5 // GET UP
🎵get up: wake up early (5:30am) to start studying!
🎶i don’t want to fight your shadow: atp in the challenge I predict that I might be getting tired.. a reminder to keep pushing against inertia and laziness.
DAY 6 // ASAP
🎵hurry up, don’t be lazy: challenge myself to get in 4h of fully-focused studying
🎶so much to do and lots to see: revise all of my subjects and don’t neglect a single! Area!
🎵just for a minute: take a breather by doing a mindful meditation^^
🐇interestingly I'm not that huge of a tokki but this idea has been rattling around in my brain for ages.. I'll do my best!!!!
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super shy // get up challenge d2🐇
🎧currently streaming:
🎶i wanna tell you but i’m super shy, super shy: speak up in class and talk to someone new
I DID THIS!!!! ate lunch with someone i barely know and it was really lovely. put up my hand a LOT in class and asked questions instead of stewing in silence like usual
🎵you’re the top, babe: 4h fully focused studying
only 3h after school but technically I also had 90 minutes of study period in school ….
🐰I WASN'T super shy today!!! and yeah it was embarrassing sometimes but who gaf. I think the spirit of today was met.
🐇sleep: 7.5h // screen time: 3.5h
super shy❌❌ super tired✅✅✅
this challenge was all about having the it girl idol vibe but I just felt like such a fraud today. brain worked slowly, tasks + recovery took longer and I barely scraped the gunk off my towering to-do list.
yesterday a girl complimented me on my work ethic and asked how I always stayed disciplined and I just wanted to burst out laughing.
i guess one of the most idol-esque things is putting on a brave face and working your hardest even through fatigue. so I think I'm still hitting the spirit of the challenge.
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thursday, 18th april
sleep: ~7 hours (1am-8am) (NOT ENOUGH)
screen time: 3h 15m
wins:
analysed sample papers ✏️
took my dog out for lunch 🫀
spent a sick and twisted amount of time essay drafting (3+ hours???????) ✏️
final day of online course ✏️
30 mins of history recall ✏️
began reading the library books I borrowed for research ✏️
Started thinking about packing (dying noise)
losses:
Fighting my own attention span because why the fuck did an UNFINISHED ESSAY take me 3 hours 📵
☆彡
i love my dog so much and she has given me more happiness than I can thank her for. also we're back to the neko atsume screenshots because it's who I am
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🐜☕️trying something new // tuesday 16th april
okay airing out my tiny wins every day on this blog has been Fun and all but I still feel like shit so switching tactics. this is my to-do list for today; i'll reblog with an update again before going to sleep and reveal how much was completed.
second day of online course ✏️
chapter 7 notes for history ✏️
finish reading book 4 extended project ✏️
go for half run half walk 🫁
screen time under 2.5 hours 🫀
☆彡
my outfit today is so fucking cool -> ergo I can't fail. Sometimes I wish I wasn't an anonymous faceless blog because my fits go so hard and I think my face is pretty but I'm trapped and bound by fear of digital footprint
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wednesday, 1st may // my weekly challenge
sleep: 10-6 (8h)
screen time: 2h 40m
forest time: 3h 57m
wins:
wider reading + uni meeting✏️
power hour: history and stats revision✏️
misc homework and cover work for a class I missed✏️
bravely went 2 practice …🫁
all my classes today had such good vibes🫀
losses:
on one hand I’m sooo mature and put-together and can definitely go train w a group of people I do Not know but on the other hand every time I have to beg someone to partner w me I feel a bit of my soul dying🎭
☆彡
i strangely didn’t have a lot of work, even though finals are around the corner. eye of the hurricane.
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tuesday, 30th april // my weekly tracker
sleep: 10:30-6:15 (7h 45m)
screen time: 2h 43m
wins:
project meeting✏️
question sheet for homework✏️
updated research journal and project admin✏️
hosted a presentation for our club📁
attended uni application webinar 📁
could have relapsed but DID NOT!!🫀
made a new friend🫀
losses:
didn’t get to do everything on my to-do list which does happen quite often, admittedly, but it was especially sad today because I wanted to cultivate good revision habits :(
☆彡
urgh... a bad night routine leads to a bad morning routine which leads to a day that’s difficult to set right. Have to keep reminding myself that I’m not lazy, I just have ridiculously high expectations for myself
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monday, 29th April // my weekly tracker
sleep: 10pm-6am (8h)
screen time: 2h 54m
wins:
set up weekly tracker🫀
leadership responsibilities.. lots of public speaking and organising💪
test today after final blurting + essay practices✏️
homework (essay planning)✏️
power hour: history/maths revision✏️
ate well today!🫁
losses:
need to learn how to actually REST and not just fake scroll-for-five-minutes rest📵
☆彡
hit 100 followers a few days ago ,, thank you everyone who reads these.
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tuesday, 7th may
sleep: 10:15-6 (<8h)
screen time: 3h13m
wins:
created my four-week exam revision plan, aka put myself into Crush Mode. it is a very ambitious plan and I will have to work incredibly hard. but if anyone can do it, I can. ✏️
meetings + scheduling + club admin📂
homework!! Little bit of everything✏️
time blocked effectively, worked WITH my to-do rather than against it ✏️
went gardening🫀
losses:
刷抖音停不下来！！！！📵
☆彡
not sure if this is a win or loss but I feel more nonchalant these days ? not as in "I don't care about anything" but I'm not so worried about others' opinions and I don't make such an effort to be liked anymore. both good & bad.
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🫐🪿 5% is better than 0% // sunday 14th april
achievements for yesterday because it was bad but I kept going
ran some errands
spent 30 minutes on fully focused research
worried and fretted about my project for the whole day but worrying = thinking about it and thinking about it = planning. so I am not going to beat myself up about this.
revised a tiny bit of every subject in an end-of-day wrap-up and now I don't feel so lost
finished a great book
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wednesday, 8th may
sleep: 10-6 (8h)
screen time: 4h
wins:
revision plan underway (though I’m neglecting . Much else)✏️
2h sports practice🫁
losses:
energy issues. i get eight hours every night but they don’t seem to work,,?🪫
As a result of this… inertia crashing down…. wasted the evening but I’ll treat this one better, promise📵
☆彡
my hair is growing out and I don't think I'll cut it!!! it's cool to see yourself changing in the mirror
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saturday, 16th march
sleep: 10:30-7 (8.5 hours)
screen time: 5h 16m (I can’t defend myself)
wins:
- morning study/walk. bought bakery bread and fruit
- notes for class 2 and one piece of homework done
- emailed an academic for my extended project
- homework for class 3 completed
- glammed up for a school ball 😇
losses:
- noontime ROT!! only did 2 out of 3 tasks
- actually revolting level of screen time
- did not help someone and was eaten alive by guilt
☆彡
got a huge huge running start to the day and then kind of fell off but had a comeback. anyway I feel pretty (!!!!) and got back late from the party so … i’ll sleep now
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saturday, 11th may
sleep: 11:30-7 (7.5h)
screen time: 5h32m☠️
wins:
math worksheets (~1h)✏️
reading and analysis (~1h)✏️
went to a tournament at another school!! we lost but we fought hard🫁
finished first set of history notes (~2.5h)✏️
started next set of notes (25m)✏️
losses:
was so unmotivated in the afternoon🪫🪫 could have gotten much more done
had a really disappointing midnight rendezvous🤫
☆彡
when I look back on it I got a lot done but I'm still rabid about it
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