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get's railed while thinking !!evil!! thoughts

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I think there's a deep existential sadness to Dimple.. like he's clearly not that bad of a guy at heart. Every time he's tried to take over he's done it in the least violent way possible (he even remarks during his first appearance that he made the LOL cult the way he did because it was the least harmful way to attain that power and admiration. Just by making people laugh), and yet, he keeps insisting he's evil, and that he wants to be god, and that there is no reason to trust him. There's that disconnect, between what he is and what he wants, and what he does and claims to be. Not to mention how in the fanbook he says that he literally doesn't remember who he was when he was alive. So he's been a spirit for a long time. He's been hanging on for very, very long.

I think... however he died, he clearly died unsatisfied. And over time he realized he was still unsatisfied, that he was lonely. Sometimes I think about how being a spirit feels, disconnected from the living, not being able to even be seen by normal people. I think he was plagued by the realization that he couldn't change anything now, that he was dead. Not in a way that was good.

And it kept plaguing him.

So he eventually decided to aim for godhood. To place himself on top. That way, he could be an influence. That way, he could be seen. That way, he wouldn't be alone.

And maybe most importantly, with a goal so lofty, near impossible even, he always had something to reach to. So that way, he wouldn't die.

I think he was afraid of dying most of all. Of passing on.

So. With that in mind, it makes the fact that he made peace with it finally, just for the sake of Shigeo, all the more devastating. This was his everything for possibly centuries. All his fears, his ambitions. And he decided, in the end, that he could let that finally go. Just for that little boy.

For that one person who finally saw him.

For Shigeo, because of whom, he found a new attachment.

To just be a friend <3

I miss the early chapters Harukawa style that made Akutagawa look like he came straight from a Tim Burton stop motion movie 😔

there are twenty seven songs in my félix playlist which means a few more and i can do a monthly writing game. why am i saying this when i have several important wips i am meant to be doing? well, you see

2023 go bye bye

The other day I was showing my partner a stupid Christmas show and in it they kept referring to a felt doll (not even a puppet) as a Muppet because it was purple I guess? I didn’t say anything, but at one point my partner said, “that’s not a Muppet, stop calling it a Muppet.”

Thank you, I love you, you understand me

I miss you all and I wanna come back, but the minute I’m back here I sigh and close the app I just can’t 😭 but I hope you all know :

im so completely obsessed with the loz au byler concept every single post of it I see I HAVE to reblog and then I'm in the tags losing my mind in all caps and then the post just says something like "I think a zelda byler au would be neat"

i will say though, it’s very sweet when you have like a friend who does not know about g/t until you introduce them, and in their blind enthusiasm they chatter about ideas with you as the wrong size, and you’re sooo so glad they’re Getting It but also baby. they’re not getting it at all. you’ve identified as tiny your entire life and your friend is saying “what if you were big! like the size stuff you like! like i think you’d be good in a Godzilla scenario” and you so desperately want to correct every word in that sentence but also you’re just glad they’re having a good time

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ok but the thing is that "hurt" is an adjective, verb, and noun. so the linguistic poeticism is still there, albeit in a slightly different way. yes, "hurt" as a description of a person's state holds true across tenses because it is indeed an adjective, but the fact remains that it's a lexicologically interesting word! personally, what i find really neat is that "hurt" is both an intransitive verb used for the person being wounded and a transitive verb for the act of wounding someone. it's an intriguing concept to think of pain as something that draws connections between people. something that weaves together victim and perpetrator in some inseparable way. that you can't hurt someone without it changing you as well. idk what exactly that says about pain as a human experience, and it's a lot of using imagination and metaphor to extract and extend meaning from language, but it's still fascinating!

neurodiverse tumblr friends, I have some autism questions!! if you have autism, and especially if you were older when you found out about it: at what age did you begin to suspect you had autism? when/if you got an official diagnosis and how you went about it? would you recommend pursuing a diagnosis or at least talking to a medical professional about autism to someone wondering if they may have it? to you, what are the benefits of having a diagnosis/not having a diagnosis (depending on which one applies to you)?

Thinks about Zander and Nicholas