Im having a hyperfixation crisis again for the first time in like years does anyone have advice?

Do you think you’ll ever do art commissions?

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im not really sure. art commissions would let me work at my own pace and make money on the side, but im worried of things thatll get in the way

firstly im more used to drawing for myself. ive drawn other ppls characters and fanart, but those are on my own whims and pace and i dont have to negotiate things with anyone. drawing for someone else can be helpful since i work best with instructions, but im not very keen on doing things im not interested in and i might be hard to work with

i also avoid using online payments when i can, so im apprehensive around making online transactions. etransfer policies arent very kind to artists and theres also the risk of disclosing my personal information

given the industry im going into, im aware that im gonna have to figure out how to tackle these sooner or later, and maybe then ill be confident enough to manage commissions. but right now its fuzzy

talking to a friend about getting back into art and i think the #1 most important piece of art advice i could ever get or give is just "figure out what is FUN to you"

like i think there is sooooo much emphasis on how to build SKILL in art but a lot of it really treats art like a job or like video game grinding, like it's this thankless job that you have to work at in order to reach a Threshold and i know it's not EASY to make yourself have fun but like

imo a solid 70% of the reason i create art is because the Act of Drawing is fun to me. it's fun problem-solving and planning and putting down lines and playing with colors and tools. it's fun to depict little scenes in my head or to create outfits or to find ways to fill the canvas. never forget that creating can be fun. sometimes it's hard and sometimes you have to battle through your own blockades to get there but the ultimate goal should always be to ENJOY it, to find what you enjoy doing and then do it forever. improvement will follow enjoyment.

i think especially with all the debate about ML image generation it's more important than ever to embrace FUN. if you're only focused on the end result it's so easy to get in your own head- to think about what doesn't look good or what skills you don't have yet or to compare yourself to other artists. but photography didn't kill the art of drawing and AI won't either because, simply put, there will always be people who want to do the physical act of making art because it's fun to do! using paints and markers, splashing colors around, doing shitty pen doodles, using the symmetry tool in your art program to do abstract mandalas that are just squiggles formed into patterns. do art like you're 5 and you've been handed markers to pass the time. do art like you're bored in class and you're keeping your brain entertained by drawing stick figure comics in the margins. do art like an absent thing, do art because it satisfies your brain. the goal is not to make something beautiful and perfect, the goal is to make something because your hands need to make and your body needs to make.

Take me home, cunty roads. I'm just a cunty boy who never knew his place. She's cunty, from the song she plays to the prayer she prays. Out in the cunty past the city limits sign, where there's a honky tonk near the county line. improving lyrics one word at a time, i'll be here all night folks

Having ADHD but only having it just enough to get the like 2 symptoms left out of every conversation about ADHD fills me with an apathy that has no practical solution. Rolling up to the ADHD conversation like "Some days I can't focus and everything pisses me off and the best I can do is lay on the floor with music on and scowl at the ceiling until it stops because if I don't then I'll be mean to other people because I have no patience when I get like that" just makes everyone side-eye you because they immediately jump to the conclusion that you want to commit unspeakable acts of violence.

But a lot of people don't know that this is something people with ADHD can experience. The only time I ever see it mentioned is when I go out of my way to find research on it...

I DO NOT. HAVE TIME. FOR A NEW HYPERFIXATION. I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR THIS.

Thursday, August 31st 2023

Another drink, inhale some things

Can't sober up, I'm spiraling

it’s 100% true that you don’t have to be productive all the time and you don’t have to meet some arbitrary standard of what counts as “productive” to have worth as a human being but oh god it is so painful to want to be productive yet not be capable of it

and I don’t mean productive like “I’m way ahead of schedule at work” cuz fuck that corny shit but productive in the sense of like. “I completed all the household cleaning tasks I set for today” or “I read/studied/wrote X amount” or “I made all the phone calls I had to make.” Like personal fulfillment and wellness and daily maintenance.

or even leisurely productivity like “I was able to focus on the book I’ve been wanting to read” or “I spent time working on my craft project” or “I wrote notes for my TTRPG campaign”

Like it sucks so bad to be held hostage by my own brain structure such that I struggle to be productive and accomplish my goals even when it’s stuff I actively enjoy and want to do. I just keep sitting here scrolling through my phone and getting distracted and all the while I’m acutely aware that it’s now been 4 hours since I said I’d start cleaning and I haven’t done anything

man depression is such a sneaky bitch i hadn't realized i was this depressed but the fact that the news didn't hit me harder means I’ve been shutting down emotionally for a while so time to go back to therapy i guess

Friends, wish me luck

we're moving, we found a place last sunday by coincidence and after a bunch of scrambling around put in an offer and it was accepted

i'm not sure when i became the type of person with a realtor and a lawyer, but apparently after being an adult for 12 years you can just end up with these things?

I don't know how to explain to anyone that my search for an all in one planner that gives me everything i need in a planner is killing me slowly and i'm about ready to say fuck it and make my own design because finding something that works shouldn't be this hard or cost me over $70 at best

Hello, please send me the forums and online resources you've used. I want to make a big list.

Criteria: You've found it helpful at some point. It's relatively specialized. Any category. "Online resource" is purposely vague. Magazines, wikis, blogs, etc. They don't have to be obscure.

they should invent a way to write that allows you to multitask also

I’m so thankful I got a bass guitar as a gift recently because school has me extra stressed lately and it’s so nice to have a creative musical outlet like that (even if I’m not very good at it yet)

I have college assignmrnts to do for tonig💥

😓🤬