calling my lover "mine" but not in the way that my toothbrush or notebook are mine, mine in the way my neighborhood is mine, and also everybody else's, "mine" like mine to tend to, mine to care for, mine to love. "mine" not like possession but devotion.
something cool about queering your idea of sex is that you can walk out of a heavy make out session feeling like you had the rawest sex of your life. you can be sitting close at a bar kissing them and maybe you’ve found a way to sit so your knee is discreetly between their thighs and feeling the pleasure it gives them and then feeling them give that pleasure to you. you can be looking each other in the eye and you can feel them inside you from that alone. like you want to tear their clothes off and are hungry for the feeling of their skin and their closeness but even just this feels like heaven, feels connected to them in the deep place where pleasure comes from.
i feel like "being attracted to nonbinary people" has historically been shit on because NB isn't a third gender (fair but some NB people are, or at least aren't binary at all), because you can't tell if someone's NB just by looking at them (fair but that's true of every gender ever,) or because it's inherently fetishizing (shut up lol). but that's had the effect of like. the expectation that transneutral/transother folks are all fine with being sorted into binary(-aligned) attraction & erasing abinary people from sexuality. so i wanna say: i am attracted to agender & neutrois & maverique people specifically. I think binary-unaligned people are hot as fuck in a way that is completely unrelated to binary genders or binary sexuality. i want to have genderless & gender neutral & binary-breaking sex with other nonbinary people. abinary cock and pussy and cockpussy and smoothness* is all hot and cool as hell. i love being NLN and also MLN and WLN in a way completely unrelated to being MLM/WLW.
*did you know that you can get genital nullification and keep an erogenous zone?? because you can! altersex genitalia is so cool :)
mellow, slow sex. soft touches. any nervous energy buzzing around in yr stomach is quelled by those gentle caresses and warm whispers. it's okay, i've got you. the kind of trust in yr partner that washes over you, pulls you in wholly and completely. the kind of love that brings pinpricks of tears to your eyes just from how overwhelmingly tender and sweet and honest it is. nothing can erode the passion surging thru yr veins. nothing can hurt you when the soft skin of your bodies touch. there are no hatching nightmares terrorizing your brain or aching heartbreak tugging at the strings of your soul. there is only room for warm devotion, only space for pure worship.
nsfw tumblr is sooo ethereal. i hop on and BANG! i am blasted with images of beautiful trans/nonbinary people in cute lingerie/tied up with colorful rope. people in the tags i follow are drooling over my body type which i have been insecure over my entire life. my for you tab is filled with posts about breeding and oviposition that would instantly kill a victorian era citizen. i wouldn’t trade this place for the world.