Wait you ship Albedou with Tighnari!? Not to sound rude btw

Hmmm I don't really ship them ?? Like, yeah I clearly don't mind the ship and lol i drew them for fun because it is my main and the one fictional character I'm simping for more than 4yrs now but

I can't see it as a romantic relationship (i am convinced abt tighnari aromantic rep and bisexual sorry) 😔

And my mind was like "what if albedo flirtly provoking tighnari during science session and--- oh." the second I regained my consciousness, my hand already slipped and drew a comic.

does anyone else have that odd. guilt about feeling homesick. like you’ve moved away from your parents you’re independent and there’s nothing wrong with where you are but there’s still that part of you that will never stop longing for your old bedroom / the smell of your mother’s perfume / the way your dad always made you fried eggs on sundays and you can’t help but feel as though you shouldn’t because there’s such an awful childish vulnerability in wanting to go home; the terrible admittance that you crave unfettered, easy love.

Me, when Sebastian joins my party for the first time: Okay, this time I'm not going to forget about you, Sebastian. I'm going to make an effort to use you a lot this playthrough so I can better understand you.

Also me, immediately forgetting about Sebastian while finishing Act 2 and making it halfway through Act 3 before I finally notice his Faith quest: ......................Oh. Right. My bad.

i’ve been pretty quiet on here and avoiding my activity and dms these last few weeks because october was easily one of the worst months i’ve had in a very long time and i lost my family dog of seventeen years and had a medical scare for not only myself but my cat and just all these things happened at once that felt incredibly hard to bounce back from mentally… but aside from being sick atm things are starting to get better for me and my family so hopefully i can actually start being. normal. again soon 🧎

missing clefdraki hours.... silly little fucked up fellas....

sorry to everyone who's been missing me/waiting for something from me, i've been slipping in and out of depressive fog for a week or two (and in general have experienced significantly worse depression than normal for a couple years, but that’s another story)

i long to get back, too; a lot of things to read and ideas to write and people to talk to. love y'all, take care

weeoo

man im having a wanting to die kinda night again :(((((((((

im trying so fucking hard to make friends but i guess i just cant and just gotta die instead

I have this tea cup I made in highschool (it’s really cute and was designed more like those Japanese ones without a handle than it was those fancy English style with even more elements to them) but I never actually asked if the glaze we used was food safe (we all used the same glaze on those cups specifically because the teacher glazed those ones in particular and I don’t remember checking. I glazed and painted every other project but only one of them was something you would use for food and that thing broke a few years ago and was honestly more decorative) and this has haunted me ever since. It’s a super cute cup and I adore it, but I have no idea if I can use it for its intended purpose and while I could buy a lead testing kit I’m not sure how I would check for anything else that might have been in that glaze. I know the color used but not the brand, so that’s not really a help either. The teacher I had left the district after that year because our school district paid art teachers a shit wage and we rotated through them like elementary school kids needing new shoes every year. I’m not entirely sure how I would contact her, but even if I did track her down (something not entirely impossible from what I know about her life outside of teaching us for a year, I would feel slightly weird about it though, even though she was my favorite art teacher) but I highly doubt she would remember something like the glaze she used on one project her students made at a school she taught at for one year. I’m not sure what other testing kits I would need besides lead to confidently say it’s safe enough for my personal use, and it’s annoyed me for several years now.

the thing is. I've said many times that it'd probably be better if I didn't post on here so much, especially when I'm not doing so great. it does not feel good. but. when I don't, it just all stays inside my head and it feels so much worse for far longer, so I really just don't know how I would cope without this.

there is something inherently tragic yet freeing about knowing that, even though you didn't get what you needed when you were younger, it's still possible to build that life for yourself as an adult.

you're not trapped or destined for loneliness. you can always build. again and again and again, as many times as you need to. the love and the freedom and the kindness and the connection, it's all waiting for you. you'll get there.

ohh

I haven’t said it yet but I’m honestly so in love with your writing I don’t know many people who write Gatty anymore and you honestly being me so much joy when i see you’ve posted a new chapter or started a new fix because I know everytime I’m going to love it

As well as your prompts and stuff like that I literally love everything you write 🥰🥰

Oh my gosh, thank you so much! This is so absolutely kind of you to say! I'm so flattered and happy to hear that you are enjoying my fics! I have a lot of fun working on them, even if I do sometimes over think it and then panic that I'm just shouting into the abyss. (Which even if I am, it is still okay because I write because I enjoy it... even if I forget that part sometimes haha)

I know that Matty/Ross is having a bit of a moment, which is fun, but it's always going to be Gatty for me! I selfishly wish more people were writing it still because I really enjoy reading it, but I am so thankful that there still are authors, and it's so special because everyone who is still writing the pairing is so talented! I really enjoy reading all of the different takes on their relationship!

I'm happy to hear that you are enjoying the prompts as well- I have a whole bunch more of those in my inbox I'm hoping to get to soon as well! I apologize that it's taken me so long to get through them, and that my updates have been slow for a lot of my fics - I've been all over the place lately and haven't had the time I would like to write. Hopefully things will calm down soon (unlikely but I can dream lol)

Thank you so much again for reading and for this ask! My Inbox and my DMs are always open if you would like to chat! I hope you continue to enjoy my various project updates and prompt fills! Thank you!

❤️Ally

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I had a realization earlier while reminiscing on past traumatic events that those events did in fact change me as a person and I only just now connected those very obvious dots and now I'm pissed off because do you realize how cool and carefree and extroverted I could've been? This is so bogus, I used to be the popular kid and then BAM. Trauma. Now I'm a hermit who sometimes goes days without hearing myself talk without realizing it. People used to greet me by name, complete strangers i had never seen before in my LIFE, but they knew me because word got around. What the FUCK. I WAS SO COOL AND BELOVED? Now I'm basically if a potato was sentient. AND MY REPUTATION STILL PRECEEDS ME? THERE ARE KIDS FROM YEARS AGO WHO STILL THINK ABOUT ME AND STILL WANT ME TO LIKE THEM? THERE ARE GUYS WHO STILL LIKE ME SO MUCH THAT THEY ARE STILL ASKING ME OUT AFTER ALL THESE YEARS? What a downgrade I became. Today I had to work up the courage to cheer for my cousins soccer game out loud. I used to be EVERYONES hype man, effortlessly. It was like a switch, the way I changed. How do I reset to my default settings? Thanks brain, for protecting me, you did a good job, now please retire so I can be fun again, thanks