Stiles Stilinski and Claudia Stilinski are such an interesting dynamic. Only one person commented on the fact that they wanted to hear about this, but that’s permission to me, so yall have to suffer with me. It’s been awhile since I’ve watched teen wolf so my take may be off, please no hate but I’m open to discussion.

Claudia Stilinski is such an interesting character to me. We know virtually nothing about except how she, especially her death and the way she died affects the Stiles and the sheriff.

Stiles watched her die, the sheriff didn’t. Stiles stayed beside her, the sheriff was at work. Both undergo guilt because of this. This is the exact moment when stiles has to grow up - it fundamentally changed who stiles is as a character, it also defines him in certain moment. To me both characters try and keep their connect to Claudia in anyway they can. This is made apparent with the jeep. That’s Claudia car, stiles refuses to leave it even though it’s unreliable. This could reflect stiles relationship or his idea of his relationship with his mother is unreliable. The sheriff connects to his wife via stiles. Stiles real name - his mother gave it to him, he had the nickname mischief but changed to stiles, I wonder why?? Maybe after his mother died. But they can’t in the end, they can’t let go over her but they can’t hold onto her.

Stiles has a lot of trauma response from this moment. He pretends he’s fine even when he’s not, this is a learned response. He obsessively takes care of his dad, wanting to hold onto the last parent in his life. It also feels like a way to hold onto his mother via taking care of his dad. Literally every way that that stiles acts after his mom’s death is becuase of her death. The way that he loves people after his moms death is an effect of the last months of his mothers life and her death. He cares to a point of obsession (one of the reason I ship sterek, I think they’d balance each other out or just be able to understand each other darkness)

His mother’s disease would have taken precedents over everything else. And even after she died, his fathers feeling would have been more important. The Stilinski’s don’t talk about their feelings, they don’t talk about the times when they hurt each other. It’s almost like they can’t, that there is a disconnect. To me this says that Claudia was the emotional support for both of the Stilinski’s men. Don’t get me wrong, this is not hate on the sheriff. He does try to connect to stiles - they do talk each other about other things in their lives.

In a way I can understand Stiles. My father is a cop. The change in shifts and odd hours would mean that sometimes I wouldn’t see my father for days. Add on the fact that He is the Sheriff, whom the show makes it clear take extra shifts - stiles would be alone a lot. To me this means that his mother was his main source of paternal affection. This was further cemented for me when stiles tells his father “mom would have believed me”

When she dies it almost makes it seem that his care was transferred onto Scott. In most cases this would make Melissa a surrogate mother but in the show it doesn’t feel like that to me. Stiles is extremely independent, when his dad was away at work he would take care of his mother, even after her assaulting him. This would fundamentally change the way he interacts with adults, parents, specifically mothers. So I don’t see him grasping onto Melissa as a mother figure.

But also the way he interacts with Melissa, on one hand he’s almost her equal. He takes care of Scott almost as much as Melissa herself does. In a way their interactions feel like two parents talking to each other. On the other hand, it is clear that Melissa take care of him like he’s her son. But to me the only time when stiles reacts to her authority is when she’s mad, sometimes not even than. And the one time when he’s been possessed he calls her mom.

But also it’s made clear that the Stilinski’s don’t talk about Claudia - like at all. In the first season when the sheriff is drunk he says “I miss your mother”. The absolute shock on stiles face when he says that is so visceral. Claudia lingers over the household, not in a way that is a happy memory. she haunts it. After she dies stiles takes her place. The whole scene “how can I take care of you if I don’t know everything about you / I’m the dad, your the son” Stiles takes care of his dad obsessively, in a way that upsets the the balance of a child/parent relationship.

This is further made clear with the hints that the sheriff got major drunk after Claudia died. And that he threw himself into work once he got sober. Stiles effectively took over the household, putting him in the roles of his mother. We also see how the sheriff reacts to this because Stiles plays both the role of his wife and his son, not reaching the expectation for either. Stiles can never be his mother and yet he is her carbon copy. He wants to be her but all doesn’t at all. This dichotomy between the idea of stiles and the idea of Claudia means that she will always be present in the home. The first parent you will see in stiles face is Claudia. She haunts the narrative via her ghost but also via Stiles.

Especially in season three with the nogitsune, especially when it tricked everyone into believing that he’s dieing the same way his mother did. This is the final act of stiles becoming Claudia. The ghost of his mother has never been as prevalent but in this moment. You cannot tell me that his didn’t absolutely destroy the Stilinski households for months, even after they figured out that it was just a trick. To me this was one of the worst tricks played on stiles, because besides losing his friend this is what caused the Most devastation to him and his father. When he gets the MRI done this is when we see the change between stiles and the nogitsune. The demon has enough power to take over even for a few seconds because of this.

Being his mom especially in this connection is what devastates stiles the most. The nogitsune was in stiles head, he knows what would hurt him the most and what stiles fears the most.

Idk this is just my opinion and take.

Dialogue from Aperitif 1x01 / Mizumono 2x13

"I can see you now." "What do you see?"

More married/domestic bkdk because Hori is fucking tap dancing on my last string-

Just imagine Bakugo manhandling Izuku and literally physically blasting him to where the villian is escaping like "go fetch I'm done with this small fry"

And the reverse works too where Katsuki will toss a loaded (so sweaty, Kacchan ew) gauntlet in Izuku's general direction mid battle so he can Howitzer the villian into kingdom come as if he's done it loads before while the media lose their goddamn minds like how the fuck do they do that Deku didn't even say anything how did Dynamight know??!

JUST FOUND OUT MY SIBLING HAS BEEN READING MY FANFIC FOR MONTHS AND NEITHER OF US KNEW

Me, minding my own business at the grocery store, not expecting to be recognized in public

good evening

I am about to write my first fic that i will ever publish

this post is so I am held accountable and actually finish it

it's a good omens fic set after season 1 where aziraphale and crowley get bored and decide to become teachers for a bit

hijinks ensue

idk how long it will be

Will they miss me?

Just saw an ad for an “ask me about my blorbo!” keychain which is so wild to me because I would rather die than have people I know in real life know that I know what a blorbo is. I hope they sell hundreds.

I came out to several people today bc they were talking about how they dislike the cancel culture around Rowling and I was like I'm not gonna sit here and listen to this without saying anything

And I'm making this post to remind myself I had every right to say something since it was brought up in the group. And I don't have to feel regret and embarrassment just because people know something about me now.

For the astrology ask: MC, Pisces (I already know this but I love the idea of others getting to see how talented you are as well!), 7H, and 10H, please and thank you

Ok LONG answers- its also gonna be :| ones. You gave some thinkers and I did answer these in the morning so might not be as cohesive or intelligent as I thought they'd be. Thanks for them ^____^

MC ⇢ what kind of reputation do you think you have? Oh there are a few reputations I have depending on who you ask, where I am at and what I am doing. At work I’m the person who knows everything- where things are, what you can use in lieu of an actual product, how to do things in the store and where things for store sets are kept. The ongoing joke is I’m the craft store sage. Also at work I’m either that standoffish one or the cool adult. All the younger people I work with like me I think? If I’m with friends I’m the giftaholic mom friend. I like getting my friends things and I do what I can to help or take care of them. Like visiting friends and getting them things they say they’d like but don’t have the money for or helping do chores around the house when I visit. I’m very often getting affectionately admonished for doing dishes at other peoples houses. So I guess I have a reputation of the knows everything tired mom friend?

pisces ⇢ what kind of art are you good at? (painting, dancing, singing, etc.)

I know what you want me to say! I dabble in hobbies a lot. I cosplay, I paint, I write when the mood hits. I like making things or the undeniable joy of being able to turn myself into someone else. I really should get a job where dressing up in a costume is my profession. But I like knitting, spinning yarn, water color painting, putting together costumes. I am adequate at a lot of things and just want the time and less existential dread to do them all <3

7H ⇢ what do you consider green flags in a relationship?

Oh…. well I have been out of the dating pool for now over a decade. Stopped dating when I was in college and then didn’t get back into after. Learned I was asexual and just went ‘well….. okay that explains a lot don’t need that.’ But probably a green flag would be being okay with just chilling. In the same room but not having to be actively doing anything. It could be just sitting in respective chairs or on a couch but not on each other. Sending memes to each other on a phone but companionable. I’m not very affectionate and not good with extended amounts of human contact (see the not in a relationship for 10 years part…. I have kinda lost the okay with skin-ship that I had in college) But being able to be a friend and okay with companionable silence or doing something while in the same vicinity but not needing to BE doing the same thing.

10H ⇢ how do you want people to remember you?

I don’t know if I want people to remember me? I mean finding that someone goes “I saw this and I thought of you and your art or thought of you” is like the terrifying feeling of being known which is both great and OMG scary. I’m gonna guess due to how grew up and trying to not make waves, don’t bring attention to yourself that I don’t exactly expect people to want to remember me. I don’t feel memorable in any capacity. I am okay at things and I try my best but I don’t think that is necessarily a thing to be remembered for. If I can be remembered for helping someone when they needed it, when I made their work a little less bad one day I think that’d be enough.

The "peebs probably shouldn't be on Tinder for his own mental health and well-being's sake"-saga continues. This time with an observation. I don't know if it's a local thing or what, but people around me use Tinder kind of weird. Very few people use their bios, and the few that do basically only do it to list their requirements or what kind of a person they're looking for. This seems strange to me because the whole idea and appeal of Tinder is for the quick, snappy sorting of people into yes and no piles. It would then follow that the best way to find someone you're interested in would be to write a little bit about yourself and then just not choose the people who seem to not be your type. You have to put a small slice of vulnerability out there, the terrifying ordeal of being known and all that, but so would everyone else.

But, it would seem, this is not a common sentiment in my neck of the woods. Tinder feels more like a social media than a dating app, in that it's common to project this unassailable, effortlessly perfect persona. This isn't you looking for a genuine connection or even a quick hookup, this is projecting Personal Branding for some godforsaken reason, and if you happen to get a partner out of it all the better.

I will admit my Tinder experience is colored by not getting all that many matches. I do not believe myself to be a particularly attractive man by local standards, but even accounting for that, Tinder just seems like a bad experience. Doesn't it feel desperately lonely? To be on an app ostensibly about forging connections between strangers, and everyone pretends like they're too good to be on there? Everyone presenting themselves like prospective employers with an opening in their internship program?

I will admit I am generalizing a bit here to get my point across. This isn't everyone on Tinder, even in my area. In fact, the reason I'm still on there is for the people who chose to be on Tinder despite the culture above, and those brave enough to offer up at least a glimpse of their thoughts and feelings in the hope that it'll catch the eye of a kindred soul.

In closing, I also feel like I'm being a bit harsh in my harping on other people's bios. I will concede the point that writing a good self-summary is hard, especially under the constraints placed on you by user attention span and the various design decisions Tinder has implemented to foster the very mentality I've described in paragraphs above. It's hard, but I never blame anyone for trying, and I hope I never will. What I blame people for is giving up entirely and posting the social media equivalent of a Live Laugh Love sign.

Aa

When you remember you have a fic that you haven’t updated in like, over a month that for some reason keeps getting kudos so ur just haunted by it when u get the notifications.

The mortifying feeling of knowing people have read your writing and it makes you feel like the flesh is melting from your bones

That’s probably just what it feels like to be perceived by other people

I want to be known but also how dare you correctly predict my thoughts based on the mini expressions i am making and trying to cover up

ah yes the two most terrifying parts about posting your content online: "oh no what if nobody sees what I made!" and "oh no what if someone sees what I made!"