if you were to serve one of the tma fears, which one would you? I’m an avatar of the vast myself
Oh boy strap in I’m about to give you the Connor/ buried lore
(CW for buried themed horrors)
I would personally consider myself an avatar of the buried. For these reasons:
1. My first memory I can recall is of me drowning.
I was around 4 I think and I was on a canoe with family when it capsized. Despite my young age and horrible memory I DISTINCTLY remember being under the water, not knowing which way was up and being unable to breathe. Time seemed to slow as well. Anyway I was dragged up and spoiler alert I’m still alive I didn’t drown.
2. I almost drowned my brother.
I was 7 I think for this?? We were in a pool and I convinced him to go off with me without our parents into the lazy river. When we went in bc he’s 2 yrs younger and not as confident swimmer, he started drowning and had to be saved by the lifeguard. He’s fine now ofc, so is the other one I wouldn’t share these if they weren’t. This leads me on to;
3. I suffocated by brother.
This one I was 15ish. My youngest brother had just made a cave- alcove- tunnel thing in the sand by digging down and was showing it off to us. To show how big and deep it was he stuck his head in which was when I came up with the incredibly smart idea to stand near the top of the sand cave thing causing it to collapse on his head. It took us a solid 5 seconds to realise oh shit yeah hes suffocating before pulling him out of the sand.
Again hes fine
Both these weren’t intentional I promise
Finally I have a weird love/ hate relationship with small spaces. I get really panicked if I can’t extend my limbs meaning I have to sit on aisle seats but I love the feeling of tight spaces/ find it soothing. I also love caving and was brought up near caves, have a fascination for caves and my dad is a geologist so I have plenty of childhood memories of visiting old mines etc too!!!