#there are people that will exploit that. and while i dont say this to scare you i do think more people should be more wary abt these things
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ur daily reminder that having a caregiver or someone that looks after you while regressed is not necessary for regression and creating "cg forms" for strangers to fill out or looking in unmoderated online spaces is incredibly dangerous!
you wouldn't let someone you barely know look after your child, don't do the same to your inner child.
#this especially applies to age regressors because of the amount of dualcom and just how vulnerable being#regressed makes you.#the idea of “agere only meetups” full of strangers#or “agere forms” for strangers is a very easy way for people with ill-intentions to find people that are mentally vulnerable and use that#there are people that will exploit that. and while i dont say this to scare you i do think more people should be more wary abt these things#that is all goodnight#sfw interaction only#age regression#merkitty babbles
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first of all I love long answers, so no apologies in fact I'll apologize because I plan to ramble on.
I also love the movie but I have so many problems with how little we were given of the Plinth family, that they didn't fully exploit Marcus and Sejanus relationship and the sandwich scene (no ironically I have so much to say about that I may do another post explaining in depth why I hate how they executed that scene) so I feel you buddy
Yes I also think it was a bit of an unnecessary change in that regard, I'm not complaining at all about a scene of Coriolanus crying while looking at a picture of him and Sejanus together, it's cute to see him that pathetic crying and my heart was broken bc we could see again that Coriolanus means the world to Sejanus and yet that happen, but still I think it's more interesting, dramatic and hilarious to witness Coriolanus frustration at seeing that there's a picture of Marcus, of all the people.
Is someone else and NOT HIM, THE ONE THAT INSPIRE SEJANUS. Like as a snowjanus fan Im more into that shit of Coryo in denial screaming and thwroing bc ITS NOT HIM. But thats probably only me /j
You summarized very well many of the aspects in Marcus and Sejanus relationship that drive me crazy. I also belive they had such an unique relationship in the saga, Im so angry bc the movie dont fucking explore them in depth.
AND I AGREED WITH EVERY WORD YOU SAID ABOUT SEJANUS, THAT MOMENT OF KIDNESS IN THE END IT DEFINED HIS CORE, YEARS LATER HE MADE THE CONSCIOUS DECISION TO BE GUIDED BY THE ONE MOMENT WHEN A STRANGER OFFERED HIM HELP AND COMFORT OUT OF COMMUNITY AND EMPATHY.
Yeah it's obvious that much of his character is ultimately shaped by his mother, but he makes a very conscious decision to live by that interaction, to decide that if no one else is willing to make that selfless gesture, he'll be the one to take care of it. Even if the world tells him he's crazy and wrong for going in that direction.
About Marcus I agree that he probably thought that and it makes me so sad because I can't help but wonder what it was like for him, again I know in the book they mention they were more classmates than friends but I don't know, childhood in itself seems to me a stage where you tend to connect deeply with others as you are not yet fully aware of the barriers, and while I can see some classmates already having reservations towards Sejanus because of what Strabo had done and what their parents told lf Plinth family, it seems to me it shows that Marcus was not one of those kids.
So I like to think he thought in his own way about Sejanus. About how nice he was despite the nasty reputation that was forming of his family until finally Sejanus moves in and people tell Marcus that the Plinth's are traitors and other terrible things.
How to reconcile that image with that of the scared little boy he helped and thanked him deeply for it? I think it takes years (and the games ultimately help deepen the rift because Sejanus is safe and they in the district aren't) for him to come to that conclusion.
Then Marcus is reaping and it must have been painful and horrible to see Sejanus standing behind a fence, in an expensive and extravagant uniform, trying to offer him a very hearty sandwich. We know it is a gesture of help and comes from a place of compassion but god I can also see how it is at the same time a kind of cruel mockery.
Because Marcus is going to die and he doesn't need a sandwich, or an apology, he needs to be taken out of there, he needs to do not be killed and forced to kill others. So it makes sense his resentfulness will grow, also the image of Sejanus in his memory as his classmate who did wear a nice suit more expensive than others yes but still was from district 2, still live and suffer the war with them, was destroyed, now he can only think of this Sejanus totally capitol from his eyes, a fucking traitor in a red like blood uniform.
Marcus must have been totally hopeless... We know the people in the capitol saw him as a possible winner but I don't think this was his vision. Like the rest he was a scared kid, probably resigned to his death.
He could not give in to ask for Sejanus' help, to take his hand because what would that mean? That he too would become a traitor, that he was not loyal enough to his family and community? He did not want to die with that weight on his conscience and also facing Sejanus sounds anything but helpful.
He doesn't even know from the sandwich act if Sejanus is the same. He already looks different. What if he turned into one of those whimsical, conceited children? Will he be able to stand talking to him? And what could Plinth do for him? Give him a better weapon? Give him a fucking cake?
There was no point in saying anything. Nor to do it.
I believe the bombing and when he sees a way out is the only time Marcus regains hope and we know what happens to him because of that...
I love recommending caifanes songs that reminds me of Sejanus too much what can I say... And I love even more that you listen to them and see the vision. Im out of caifanes songs for now but if you can handle the trigger warning of spain spanish I can give you:
From the treasure planet the spanish dubb version of Im still here / Estoy aquí by Alex ubago. Its so Sejanus CODED. I choose the spanish version bc its a more youthful voice than the original.
I always apologize for answering too long answers, I genuinely fear being annoying for it 😭
yessss!!! in the movie, I have the feeling that excluding so much of the plinths didn't really show the impact of how fucked up it was what coriolanus did by the end. he stole a boy's whole life. he knew his parents, he knew his mother, and still, he got him killed and stole his life anyway. it's so disturbing when you stop to think about it, but since we don't really see much from the plinths in the movie, I feel like it weights much less than it should (ALSO, YES, THE SANDWICH SCENE WAS A CRIME, it was really poorly executed and another point where it seems to make coryo better imo)
it's so funny to me that scene in the book bc coriolanus says with all his chest that it shows "where sejanus' loyalty laid with". bro really came to the conclusion JUST NOW that maybe, and just maybe, he isn't the center of the world and neither is the capitol 😭 while reading I though of him turning to the camera like a the office episode plssssss (and I absolutely AGREE HELPP, coriolanus screaming crying throwing up because sejanus has a pic of MARCUS, of ALL PEOPLE)
the movie had so much potential to explore their relationship in a more visual way. I absolutely understand why storytelling-wise they would rather to explore of sejanus and coriolanus' relationship.... but marcus and sejanus are so important and interesting and UGHHHHH (and plus, they remind me so much of katniss and peeta, I've seen some parallels that DRIVE ME INSANE and I would actually kill for a 4 hour cut with scenes of them together)
AND YESSSS!!! everything regarding the districts in tbosas, everytime we see something about their lifestyle, is about community. marcus and sejanus were not even friends in his words, they were classmates, and marcus went and helped a child that was probably left out and despised by most of his classmates, and he didn't want anything in return (another thing that drives me insane is how coriolanus is quite the reverse of this; he helped sejanus out of interest, pure interest, and how this is pure capitol, while marcus is pure district).
at that point of the rebellion, the plinths were probably so despised at D2, because the way sejanus cherishes that memory is just so important to me. it's the kind of thing you'd probably forget, but he remembered marcus' name, he kept his pic and everything, and he probably talked about it at home enough for his father to know about marcus and. yk. do what he did at the games to "teach sejanus a lesson". marcus' kindness was THAT remarkable. another thing that I think abt 24/7: what was marcus thinking all this time? we never even see him talking. what were his thoughts? I would actually pay suzanne collins just to KNOW.
during the zoo scene, I felt physical pain because I could only think about how OFFENDED marcus probably felt. because, in his place, I at least would feel extremely offended. because let me get this straight: after your father betrays our district, you leave for this fancy town, with fancy clothing, and now I'm about to die, and then you come here offering me a sandwich? (also, this sets another interesting thing about marcus, he's so proud, and I'm just mentioning it bc it seems like a common trait between people from D2 in the future) and plus, he probably saw coriolanus going to talk to lucy gray for the first time at the train. okay that coriolanus' intentions weren't pure, but how marcus felt that sejanus actually KNEW HIM and didn't go to see him, but this boy who never met this girl actually went to the train station? and then his first interaction with sejanus is him offering him food as if he's an animal?
one thing I read once, and I really can't recall from where, was an interpretation that marcus never even spoke to sejanus (not even to curse him or tell him to fuck off) because it was much better to die with the little boy he knew still on his mind, kind and gentle, than to talk to the boy he doesn't know and discover how he actually changed into something marcus despised.
I also do think marcus was resigned to his death. the way he doesn't even try says a lot, even though everyone agreed that he was the tribute with the most chances. D2 is big, it's not like D12, which is smaller. what would it mean for marcus to return after accepting help from a plinth? what would it mean for him to return after 23 another children getting killed just so he could get out alive?
also, in some form, I think marcus and sejanus' dynamic as tribute and mentor as some sort of anti-lucy gray and coriolanus. they're the reverse of each other.
it's so tragic, really, that he had hope for the first time just to end tragically like that. now, I'm going to punch a wall and cry for at least two days in a corner, because marcus is genuinely one of the most interesting tributes and he didn't even got to fight in the games to be this interesting.
(suzanne collins really went HARD on creating characters this time, not that in thg she didn't, but how is almost every character in tbosas is special and iconic to me?)
and I love getting recommended songs!!! ☝️ NOT THE SPAIN SPANISH TRIGGER WARNING (spain spanish and portugal portuguese are really cousins, it seems) ☠️ first, omg, I was just today thinking abt the characters as disney songs, I'm kinda screaming that you sent me this!!! specially bc as a kid my hobby was listening to different versions of the same disney song, and I RECOGNIZED IT, but I never actually stopped to pay attention to the lyrics and YOU'RE SO RIGHT, I get amazed bc every single song you recommend I stop and stare at the wall thinking of how, actually, it makes total sense 😭
#ask#anon ask#tbosas#sejanus plinth#marcus thg#sejarcus#something something me rambling a lot about how much marcus is my 2nd fav tribute bc lamina is the first something something#they're so tragic I want to die
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how do you think the actions from 3x06 affect lana? i dont rlly remember much but the best person to ask felt like you.
This is an excellent question. I started a google doc not too long ago to jot down my observations on every Svetlana scene and only got as far as her first three episodes, so I've given this some thought. I actually hadn't watched the scene in 3x06 since I first picked up the show, as I always skip it, but I needed to rewatch it in order to draw conclusions about how it affected Svet and, while I was doing so, I noticed some interesting things.
First, I think it's curious that all it took to get Svetlana to the Milkovich house was a call from Terry saying "It's Terry. Send the Russian." As far as we know, the girls at the spa did not make house calls. Which begs the question, why did Terry have the power to have her sent over with just five words?
Second, how exactly did Svetlana get to the Milkovich house? As far as we know, she never owned a car. She also couldn't have taken the L because she shows up without a purse. Is the spa walking distance or did someone drive her over? If so, who? Why would the people running the spa cater to Terry in this way?
Third, it is very odd to me that Svetlana shows up without anything on her person— no jacket, no purse, no wallet, nothing. She's not even wearing clothes with pockets where she could be carrying any personal belongings. Terry makes one quick phone call and there she is at his doorstep a few minutes later, heavily made-up in a short dress and very high heels. There's a metaphor to be made here about her not being her own person.
Which brings me to another point: Terry never calls Svetlana by her name. He frequents the spa enough to be able to summon Svetlana by just stating who he is over the phone, and he's been a client of Svetlana's before, yet he refers to her as "the Russian" on the phone and addresses her as "сука" (which means "bitch" in Russian) to her face. This could mean one of two things: (1) he either never bothered to learn her name; or (2) he knows her name but actively chooses not to call her by it. Both are equally dehumanizing in different ways.
Which leads me to wonder...what exactly was the dynamic between Svetlana and Terry like? We know he solicited her services (presumably) more than once, which suggests some sort of satisfaction with them, but we also know that he didn't believe that she was worth more than "a couple of bucks". As I mentioned before, he also never calls Svetlana by name, and at no point do we see him act particularly warmly towards her. Yet he specifically requests her when he calls the spa...why is that?
Perhaps the most interesting observation I made while rewatching this scene though, is that Svetlana never utters a word in it. Not to greet Terry at the door, not to ask him what she was called over for— nothing. There are no pleasantries exchanged between them. She doesn't so much as nod when he gives her his orders. This suggests that she knows how he works, knows that he doesn't consider her anything more than just some hand-whore, and I don't think it's a stretch to assume that she is probably scared of him. Everything about the way that Terry approaches the situation indicates that he does not view Svetlana as a person, but rather as a commodity— to use, to exploit, to rent as he pleases. And Svetlana acts accordingly.
From the moment she walks into that house she looks completely dead-eyed. The only time she looks anything other than 100% emotionally checked out is when she's looking between Ian and Mickey, taking stock of their injuries and piecing together the severity of the situation that she has just been dragged into. She knows Terry is responsible for what's happening, she can see that he has a gun, and she knows better than to protest or try and leave. The most accurate word I can think of to describe the way that she approaches the situation is: clinically. She looks completely detached.
Now, I know that deleted scenes aren't canon but I want to bring up the deleted scene where Ian goes to visit Svetlana at the spa for just a moment. In the scene, Svetlana tells Ian, "Your face looks familiar." She recognizes him enough to know that she's seen his face before, but she can't place why or from where. And while this might seem impossible given how horrifying that entire situation was, or even odd given that she clearly took note of Ian in that scene, it actually makes a lot of sense and clues us into how Svetlana coped with the situation: by suppressing it.
Back when the show was airing, Isidora said in an interview, "At the end up the day she is a victim of that event as well, and is traumatized in her own way." I think a lot of people assume that Svetlana wasn't affected by the situation because she never says or does anything to indicate that she was, but that's the thing— she never acknowledges it at all. Just like she tries not to acknowledge her father's abuse, doesn't stand up for herself when Kev refers to her having sex with Yvon as 'cheating' (he was threatening her— it wasn't consensual), and doesn't let is show that Kev and V pushing her around is actually getting to her until she finally reaches her breaking point and can no longer hold it in.
Svetlana copes by pretending that her trauma doesn't exist. She suppresses it, she ignores it, she compartmentalizes. And when someone brings it up, she either brushes it aside or attempts to downplay it. When Kev asks her if her father ever sexually abused her, she gets up and walks away. Then in a following scene she casually confirms that he did, as if it's no big deal.
She doesn't make a big deal of her trauma because she so badly needs it not be. Calling a spade a spade would mean actually having to face what she's been through, and she doesn't want to do that. It's easier for her to claim that her father "had good qualities too", and to respond to other people acknowledging the abuse that he subjected her to by correcting them on meaningless details ("it was three-hundred dollars", "it was potato sack"), than it is for her to confront the truth. Because deep down she knows that, if she does, she is not going to be okay. And she needs to be okay.
She needs to be okay because she is poor and she is undocumented and she has a child to take care of. She needs to be okay because she can't afford to not be. Because, if she's not, then where does she go from there? How does she manage to get up every morning? What happened in 3x06 was awful, but people need to keep in mind that that day was not so out of the ordinary for Svetlana. She was sold into sexual slavery when she was just ten years old, was being abused by her father before that, was married to an abusive man who used her for sex sometime during her teens, and probably dealt with her fair share of violent clients at the spa. She's been raped many times over.
It's hard to say, in so many words, how all of this has affected her, because, the truth is, I think there is precious little about Svetlana's personality, and everything that she does, that isn't a direct result of her trauma. Her hyper self-reliance, her inability to ask for help or lean on other people, the way that she grounds all of her decisions on practical bases forsaking any potential hurt feelings, the difficulty she has comprehending others peoples' emotional appeals, her need for security and some semblance of a functioning family, her willingness to forgive any wrong, the way that she accepts mistreatment from people she cares about, and, most notably, the way that she lives her life in survival mode even when she no longer has to. All of these things can be tied to her trauma.
It's easy to look at Svetlana, see how mature and responsible and put-together she is, and assume that she is okay. But, in actuality, all of the things that paint the picture of her being okay are indicators that she is very much not. It just so happens that the manner in which she chooses to cope presents itself in a way that makes her seem extremely high-functioning. But just because she isn't turning to a bottle to get through the day, or going on benders, doesn't mean that she isn't hurting. She is. And what's sad is that the fact that her suffering is so subtle and quiet actually works against her, because nobody ever sees her pain. They just assume that she's fine.
So if she's not asking for help or sympathy, and no one is offering her any, well...
#i didn't proof read this so i apologize for any errors#ask#message#fandom ask#shameless ask#svetlana yevgenivna#shameless#shameless meta#tw sa#tw rape
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✨N's FLASHBACKS!!✨
OKAY, ITS TIME TO COVER THE LIKE. 3 SHOTS OF FLASHBACK THAT WE GOT
Also big thanks to Physics Anon and @runitails for their science contribution on the last Post, Khan and the Nori Closet, when it came to the spirals and their Red Text Equations
Again, EP 4 Spoilers!! Even though its been a while by now..
I'll admit, the following screenshots were not done by me (Cause mine sucked in quality) SO KUDOS TO THE PEEPS I SNATCHED THEIR SCREENSHOTS FROM Caussee I dont remember em (My bad ;-;)
ANYWAYS
^ OH boy her again.. and shes EATING A HUMAN HAND.
I see a lot of people refering her as CYN and honestly. I can't blame em, it fits (Especially with the Solver symbol as their right eye)
Ofc, I also see some simularities between This Drone and Nori
(From the braided sides to similar swooped hair) but thats Lackluster Evidence at best and a mere coincidence at worst, so I dont believe in it... But might as well bring it up-
Orrrrr they could be sisters, i just realized. Making Nori 002 and This Drone / CYN 001.... uhoh.
^ Even with a clearer Quality photo, I got not much to say off of this..
What I can say is that its a Human arm, weirdly blacked out, being carried on some... claw? Its weird. This whole screenshot is weird. Gonna wait on this one.
I SHOULD MENTION THOUGH, FROM THIS PHOTO AND THE PREVIOUS ONE, THERES A VISIBLE PALE YELLOW OVERLAW ON THEM + LINES OF CODE.
It does not match the DD vision that we saw in Episode 1 in either, I checked and it was far different then these flashbacks.
I may be stretching it when it comes to these Flashbacks, do keep that in mind lol..
^ This. This scares me. And its where Physics Anon and Runitail's contributions come into play.
This is a fucking Black hole. And while I don't have Melanophobia (Fear of Blackholes), I know well enough the kinds of effects Blackholes can cause..
Apart from the jarring Blackhole, this is the FUCKING MANSION. THAT MANSION, and its being pulled apart so this blackhole is PRETTY DAMN CLOSE.
A blackhole that big and that close, can only spell bad news to the planet its nearest too, and in this case its Earth. That is if its a Regular Blackhole, and I don't its a typical blackhole...
I think Absolute Solver created this blackhole. From the [null] in the center aka "Nothingness" in a computers eyes to the lines of codes that flash behind it. Remember how Eldritch J collapsed in on itself and floated away as a "tiny black ball" in Ep 2???
It's hard to notice, but there's a Gravity Distortion around those balls... like what a Black hole would have.
Finally, lets bring in the Two Equations / Concepts that Physics Anon and Runitail brought it: Technological singularity and Artificial black hole. Artificial Black Hole concept adds more fuel to the possibilities of a Solver Created Blackhole but Technological Singularity?
To put the Technological Singularity concept into a """Shortened""" definition: A hypothetical Future where Technological growth becomes uncontrollable and irreversible, creating unexpected changes to human civilization...
While Runi mentioned about Drone civilization becoming either Changed or Consumed, I don't think that's the case..
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Human Civilization, more specifically JCjenson, goes and creates the Drone models. These Models are of Similar, if not the exact same, in intelligence to humans and were created for the need of a workforce thats expendable.
Ofc like humans, not everyone wants to be pushed around and exploited by someone else, even if most don't or CAN'T realize this reality. And some rebel, even if its Futile...
Some, whoever, were more successful and Dangerous then others. Experiments, Mutated Coding, who knows, but these Special Drones had the chance to rebel and succeed in it too: With a oily cost.
Most of these drones were numbered with collars, so that JCjenson maybe could try and get things under control, for they knew what could happen if they didn't keep an eye on them....
They knew what would happen to Human Civilization if their Uncontrolled and Irreversible Technology ever reached earth.
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Sorry this took longer then expected, I uh... was struggling a little on how to do this one cause N's Flashbacks are a little wack when it comes to stand alone theories.
Did I stretch information on some? ABSOLUTELY, please yell at me at what things could be different or what I miss cause I probably did miss something..
(Also my brain is telling me to make Nori fanart woooo)
#murder drones theory rants#SORRY FOR HOW BIG AND CHATTY THIS ONE IS. AGAIN VERY WACK FLASHBACKS#I need a 2nd brain of perspective on this one. or perhaps 4 brains
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Hello, Oldie Chinese Diaspora Anon™️ here again to add in my two cents. This time it’s about Chinese indie doll makers refusing to work with anyone outside of China. A lot of great points have been raised here: https://the-bjd-community-confess.tumblr.com/post/702732098587459584/re-b3doll-other-chinese-shops-they-dont-like but I would like to just add in a little bit more. To round- out the picture if you will.
What most folks don’t fully realise is that China is essentially a closed (and closely-monitored) socio-financial system. The concept of “Free trade” is somewhat tenuous at best. And this shows up in internal commerce and the existence of a “Social credit” system (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Social_Credit_System). Part of the social credit system is intimately tied to your financial history, and this is monitored through your public transactions. I hope I am not stepping out of line to say most folks have seen “Ali-Pay” as a payment option cropping up in many commercial places. I’ve explained it off as a Chinese version of PayPal, but that’s an understatement. In order to apply for an Ali-Pay account, you have to prove that you have a Chinese bank account that can be verified. While it might be easy to own a bank account in many countries (even if you are not a citizen of said country), it’s not the same in China. Yet, Ali-pay is so ubiquitous in the country that they have largely supplanted credit cards to become the most utilized form of payment. It’s better utilized than cash. And that’s saying something.
From what I have been told as a first-hand account, foreign travellers find it hard to pay for literally anything when off the beaten path. When not buying souvenirs or high-end items from tourist-traps, the simple transaction of buying street food can be difficult without an Ali-Pay account. But it’s nigh impossible for non-citizens to get one. The local friend had to pay for everything with the tourist paying them back in cash. (Note: This is pre-pandemic. Internal control has been getting worse since then.)
When one exists in a system like this, every transaction can (and is) monitored. Someone can track where the money is going, whether it’s foreign or domestic, and if there is anything that’s suspicious with the purchase. This has also fostered a system where people are highly aversive to cancelled orders (even for in-stock and second-hand items), as well as less-than-stellar feedback. Their “small claims” department of the police will take any complaints over $2500RMB ($330 USD) and it’s highly responsive to settle any dispute quickly. It means people who exist in this system are highly reluctant to work with anyone outside of the system. Foreigners literally have no credit (social or financial) within the system and therefore cannot be trusted. Even the money that’s wired in cannot be guaranteed – banks are unreliable sometimes, after all (https://www.npr.org/2022/07/25/1113528088/in-china-the-banking-scandal-is-causing-some-to-lose-faith-in-the-communist-part) is only about the most recent 2022 failure. There have been many failures before that.)
Seeing new Ali-pay symbols popping up everywhere scares me, honestly. It means the system of distrusting foreigners who are “without credit” is spreading outside of the country itself.
But that’s just the financial transaction, the harder part is shipping. FedEx and DHL don’t work very well in China. You are reliant on China Post (which… honestly, isn’t awful) but domestically, they are reliant on a logistics system that acts like a more efficient version of Amazon delivery. It’s cheap and reliable and you can choose to pay when the item arrives at your door instead of at time of purchase (which has its pros and cons and can also be exploited as well.) Larger companies that have been registered to deal with overseas customers usually have a contract with a logistics company that can ship abroad. But most independent artists do not. Take this, for example: https://www.facebook.com/163904020739383/posts/finally-were-able-to-provide-a-concrete-update-on-the-arc-doll-zilang-adult-ver-/1186736598456115/
Add the language barrier to this whole mix, you can see why most indie Chinese studios would rather give up your business. They put up the disclaimer up top to let you know that they literally do not want your money because of … well, it’s really not worth the trouble. If you are interested in any specific doll from a Chinese indie artist, I would still highly recommend using a proxy. It’s important to look around for a good one, but please understand that sometimes their fees are reasonable, once again, for all of the reasons above. Please, be kind to your proxies.
~Anonymous
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So… I was curious if I could get a professional opinion on what’s up with my Galarian Slowpoke Glockle. (Yes, I had a professional check them out, but I feel like they didn’t do a thorough enough evaluation in hindsight.)
For some reason Glockle just… doesn’t react to damage. Like, at all. The only real sign of physical trauma I can see is scaring around the base of his tail, but that seems to line up with the tail having grown back from being dropped. He seems to REALLY like battling, but I don’t wanna use him in battle given that he LITERALLY DOESN’T REACT TO GETTING HIT! I’m just curious if you have any ideas as to why he doesn’t react to harm. (For reference, he’s been hit by rock throws from my Rockruff, a bite from my Rockruff, and has even had my fairly above average sized Drednaw roll over his tail while he (the Drednaw) was sleeping. No reaction to ANY of it.)
i should preface this by saying that i dont have any experience with galarian slowpoke, however i worked with a small bloat of kantonian slowpoke who had an... unfortunate run in with a couple of awful teenagers. dont worry, all survived- theyre hardy little things. yes, a group of slowpoke is called a bloat. herd is accepted too :)
glockle not feeling an injury to their tail is perfectly normal for a slowpoke, as both forms possess little to no nerve endings in their tails! however, not feeling pain at ALL isnt normal. slowpoke are, well, slow to feel pain, and their senses are dulled, but they feel it eventually.
in my mind theres a few likely possibilities here:
glockle might be, to put it bluntly, not very bright. most slowpoke arent anyways, so a particularly, ahem, dense one might not notice at all. what im saying is he might feel pain, but in such a delayed manner that it doesnt warrant a reaction anymore
he may have abnormal pain responses, as in he IS showing hes in pain, but in an unusual or unnatural way
now, im not entirely sure slowpoke can have this, but its worth thinking about: he could have a rare condition known as "CIPA"; that is, "Congenital Insensitivity to Pain and Anhydrosis." in plain words, the pain receptors arent properly linked up to the brain, and therefore pain signals can not be sent or received. this condition is *very* serious, and if you suspect this may be the answer i reccomend seeking out a neurologist or other such specialist asap. this condition also, in almost all cases, causes an inability to feel differences in tempeature; its also extremely common for people and pokemon with CIPA to bite off sections of their tounges, so these could be good ways to check. remember; even a normal slowpoke will take a few to react.
or, yknow, hes just swole asf. extremely high pain tolerance + slowpoke dopeyness could look like a complete immunity
no matter what, glockle is extremely lucky to have a trainer that cares so much about him! a lot of evil people would see this as an exploitable "feature". i reccomend giving him extra breaks inbetween battles, and doing an extra thorough scan after each one. if regular battle is deemed unsustainable, perhaps glockle could find a place as a little cup mentor? hed still get to "battle" but will be taking significantly lighter blows.
oh and remember; this isnt my area of expertise, i could definitely be missing something. dont panic over anything yet, dont take what i said as gospel, and i hope these theories can help lead you down the right treatment path!
so uh... tldr: in my opinion hes probably either extra slow, a bit weird, buff asf or needs to see a neurologist. id reccomend eliminating the first three first because neurologists are expensive!
#i need to learn to be more concise#also glockle might be the best name ive ever heard#pkmn irl#rotomblr#unreality#pokeblogging#[admin says: cipa is a real condition that affects one in *125 million* people and i find it utterly fascinating]#[also boat is a term used for hippos of which slowpoke greatly reminds me of :)]
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Your earlier reading on max,sophie and Victoria really made me sad :( but it also made me think I’m not saying max isn’t trying but maybe he’s trying the wrong way… a lot of people are always saying that vic and sophie are leeching off him which I disagree with I think that’s they only way he knows how to show them he is sorry but with vic I think it’s not working she wants him probably to acknowledge the problem and try to talk and work it out. I feel like they might not wanna talk their problems out as well out of fear of opening old wounds especially max he strikes me as someone that just wants to brush things under the rug and try to move on not blaming him he might also be scared of what would happen if they try to talk things out
Victoria has preciously said they don’t bring up their parents divorce and what happened afterwards. Just a thought
I noticed it in the reading as well, but the reading was making me emotional, so I didn't want to start crying lol.
Max genuinely wants to address the issues and problems that have led to his father preferring him and utilizing his youth to build his F1 career. He acknowledges the past, but it is difficult for him fully grasp everything that had happened. It's a difficult pill for him to swallow. I hope he realizes it's not his fault because he didn't know any better; how is a child supposed to know that what he was used to seeing his father behave and act towards him and his mother and sister when that's all he's ever known? I see him desperately wanting to mend his relationship with his sister. Because, while his mother does not want him to feel bad around her, his sister feels betrayed and can be cold towards him. After all, he is her big brother, the man who is supposed to protect, support, and assist her. However, Jos's obvious preference for Max and refusal to allow her to participate in racing caused a schism between them. While Max was racing, she was watching her brother, knowing that it was something she also wanted and could do, but Jos was being a sexist jerk. I also see his mother feeling betrayed and blindsided by him. Yes, she adores him; after all, he is her child, and while she is proud of his achievements at such a young age, she wishes it hadn't happened the way it did. The same man who assaulted her was also abusing her son while he was racing… as a child. When I recall Jos abandoning Max at a gas station and Sophie having to go get him (I believe this was after their divorce) and Max still going back to him, I see her heart breaking and her crying. How can a father do that to his child and that kid goes back to them. Sophie was also a racing driver and I see Max at the time put his dad over her.
It always seemed off and weird to me whenever people would say his mother and sister were leaching on him and exploiting him for money. Because anyone who knows what happened would understand. When someone is successful and wealthy, they usually give money/support and help those who have wronged them financially. Because they dont know how to and what happened is a hard pill for them to sallow. Anyone who has been in that situation (or have any empathy) would understand that.
I truly hope that one day his relationship with his mother and sister will be repaired. It's possible that he's being held back by not solving and healing from this.
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Okay.
So to be completely candid and honest with you all, I don't really care too much about this particular twitter drama going on about the left and disaffected white men and boys and how better to appeal to them, I think it's petty and kind of dumb and most of the people weighing in on it are the same that attacked that person for cooking for their neighbors, because ultimately this issue is about being neighborly and about how capitalism has separated all of us, including white men, from our sense of community and building good relationships/allyships with the people around us, but you know what, here it is, my two cents
The system is set up in such a way that falling into this alt-right stuff is the default for all human beings, when we talk about how there is systematic racism and patriarchal constructs ingrained into our societal structure we mean that they are so embedded that they have basically become the systems themselves, resisting them is out of the norm, resisting them is supposed to be hard, it takes even people they directly oppress years to dismantle the racist and misogynistic beliefs they've subconsciously absorbed into their own minds and biases, so for white men who seemingly reep all the benefits going against these systems is especially difficult and these alt-right pipelines target them when they're young and they're brains are still squishy and moldable, it's hard to break away from something you learned to believe as a kid, but it's not impossible and anything that can be done to pull them back is something we should do. That's what diversity of tactics is supposed to mean, for the time being we have to work within these systems and so yeah that means pretty much the only way these kids will get deradicalized is by some dumbfuck leftist streamer, I'm real sorry, but the revolution is not going to come to dismantle these systems in the blink of an eye and fix everything, the leftist movement in America and in the world in general is still so small, there's basically no mainstream leftist news channels, but Fox News is considered one of the most reputable sources of information while actively employing scare tactics, openly lying, and even encouraging genocidal ideologies straight into the brains of over half the population of the entire country, the enemy is so much bigger than us, guys, at this point we dont even have one foot to stand on, we have to engage in guerilla warfare here, our methods are not their methods, we do not want to exterminate or punish, we want to rehabilitate and unify
The fact of the matter is the way these systems are set up is meant to look glamorous to white men in particular while they subjugate everyone else, but at the same time they are absolutely debilitating to those same white men and we need to be able to reach those white men/boys and show them how their lives would be better without them and at the same time talk about the way these systems compounded with the late stage capitalism we are living under means that they're lives suck even more, because corporations are taking away all sense of community and ramping up the division between all groups of the working class to make it easier to exploit them, hence the disaffection, and look, let's be real with ourselves here, when one side is telling you that you're the cream of the crop and it's everyone else who is the problem while the other is seemingly blaming you for every problem it's not exactly a surprise that some dumb fuck teenagers fall down an edgy alt-right youtube rabbit hole and grow up into even worse men.
These systems are the way almost everyone has lived for centuries the dismantling of them is going to be hard and it can't be done without unity, to steal someone else's words who was a much better speaker than I am,
"We're going to fight racism not with racism, but we're going to fight with solidarity. We say we're not going to fight capitalism with black capitalism, but we're going to fight it with socialism." ~Fred Hampton
We must appeal to every person in the world on the left, a better world must involve everyone, and that includes white men, I'm gonna be real I don't really care to police any leftist in the way they talk about white men as a force for oppression, but I do think sometimes talking directly to them in particular is good too, we need to talk to every single group of people on this god's green earth directly and show them the ways escaping from the systemic oppression inflicted by racism and patriarchy and dismantling capitalism will be a net good for every single human being, including white men, that the feelings of disaffectedness these white men and teenage boys in particular are feeling is coming from these systems and their lives would be better without them, not by becoming a pawn in service of them
It is so easy to reduce white men/boys to The Enemy, but they're not, part of leftist ideology is dismantling the prison/justice system's emphasis on punishment which often boarders on cruel and unusual and has been proven to only make the problem worse and cause more reoffenders rather than letting people reintegrate into society to lead healthy productive lives (of course we need to talk about how to reinvest in our underfunded communities and social service programs to combat the prison system problem but that's a different post), we cannot state to want to build a united and kinder world where we focus on rehabilitative justice while turning our noses up on a group of people who need just that kind of rehabilitation
Are white men's issues the biggest issues the left should be focusing on?
God no.
But that doesn't mean it isn't one of the problems that should be on the list, just because it's not high priority doesn't mean we ignore it completely, the world exists in shades of grey, no issue is ever as black and white as you think it is, allow nuance into your life or we will never reach the perfect leftist utopia you so desparately say you want
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i was raised in a cult and i’ve known it for four years but tonight i can’t sleep because it’s hitting me so hard right now and i don’t know why tonight and after so long. like logically i know that it’s a cult and i’ve know for ages, subconsciously longer than before i properly realized it… so why am i having a panic attack over it now? they fit nearly every single item on the BITE model and the leader is a “king” that is supposed to be a direct descendant of the Buddha and they make you pay to take courses to achieve enlightenment and reward you with shiny buttons and giving you a new “spiritual name” and also the king sexually assaulted his students because if you pay enough money and rank up enough you get to have him as your personal “guru” and my mum was one step away from taking him on as her guru before all of the allegations came out. i dont like my mum but i still feel bad for her and it’s really scary and i was brought up to tell everyone about the cult and bring my friends to our meetings and give them books about it and i am always so scared that i accidentally made someone join and what if they got hurt???? and more than anything i just want to make a video or a post or anything telling people about this cult but i can’t because so much of my support circle and friends and my favourite people are in it and i’m too sick right now if i speak up i’d lose them and i’m physically medically emotionally reliant on them. i’m scared to put the name of the cult in this post incase that’s not allowed because you said not to put names of abusers (which makes sense it’s ok) but please if anyone reading this is in a buddhist group that’s making you pay to learn about meditation that is NOT buddhism!!!!!!! they do NOT need your money the “king” is being payed tens of thousands of dollars a year and he wont even talk about that he abused people!!!!!!!! sorry this was really long i just feel like i’m suffocating because i can’t talk about it and i can’t sleep and it’s just… of course i also had to be born into a cult. i can’t just have a rare incurable illness and abusive parents who wanted me to die and terrible doctors who made my disease worse… i also had to be raised in a cult that told me my illness was my fault because of karma from my past life. and at one point my mum wanted to pray for me but she couldn’t because she hadn’t payed to take the class yet that gave her permission to say the healing prayer. not that i believe it would have helped but seeing my mum cry because she thought she couldn’t say words out loud that she already knew was so heartbreaking and i didn’t even realize it at the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fukcfuckfuck
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also sorry i lost the last message i sent in and then life got really blurry for a bit but i hope ur ok
Hi 🍀,
To directly answer your question "why am i having a panic attack over it now?" in my mind it would make sense that, you know, progress isn't linear and so you can have moments like this where it all washes over you and you are reminded of how disturbing that was. I can definitely relate to that with my cptsd.
To also address "what if they got hurt?" I'm assuming you were a child while this was happening, but cults are built to deceive their followers in some exploitative way, and so I just think like, when you're under the spell of a cult so to say, is it really your fault or is it really the cult's fault? Or maybe it's a bit of both? Personally I feel like people who perpetuate a cult's message is maybe not without any kind of responsibility, but I feel like people should be mostly blaming the cult, you know? I think especially as a child it's even more excusable because you shouldn't be expected to know right from wrong necessarily (your brain is still developing and all that).
Also when I read "a cult that told me my illness was my fault because of karma from my past life" I was just like. the audacity of this fucking cult... that's such a fucked up thing to say. I guess it's not surprising that a cult would say some bullshit like that. On top of that, what you said about your mom and how "she thought she couldn’t say words out loud that she already knew" I agree that's really heartbreaking and I think it really highlights how cults operate.
I hope I could help and I hope you've been doing alright. Feel free to comment on this if you'd like, and otherwise know I'll be here.
I'm okay and thanks for asking.
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Eat shit hater.
At least I can come up with my own original shit instead of biting off of your crap.
Until you see what I have done or made of myself when the last place you saw me was homeless in a gutter 20 years ago, nigger.
You're not happy. You're not proud. You're mad that I'm not dead. You're mad that I'm not still homeless. You're mad that I never empowered your church or religion.
You want your miracle story. You want your tale of rehabilitation or recovery, and to praise and give power to people who didn't make it happen the entire way. So you can say "look what we did! We threw him out on the streets, and look at this shiny poodle he's bloomed into now!" Lets praise somebody who didn't make it happen. Let's take power from ourselves and let somebody else bully you or rule above you.
G*d didn't do this. Satan didn't do this.
I DID THIS.
Who do you think got me through it?
Your stupid fucking devil or human skull?
Who do you think made me who I am today nigger?
Who was my inspiration or my example of how to be nigger? I was never part of your club. I never hung out and shared, fashion, hobbies and interests or career skills with you nigger.
Credit and praise goes to me.
Not some assshole that's mad that he can't bully me or boss me around like a younger sibling or an adult kid that has flown the nest from his control freak parents nigger.
I believe in the Law, and there is no other book of rules that I need, or society needs.
The list of "do nots" and forbidden things are already covered in the Law, and punishments and legal processes are already detailed.
30+years of law, then some dickhead tries to tell me to obey this imaginary belief system that has no solid manner of justice, crimes and punishments. To administer their opinion of right and wrong. Or their attempts to "regulate", enforce rules or punish free people.
If they break the law or cheat to win. You better be bigger stronger and smarter than them to make them answer to the rank or power they abuse over you. Like overreaching your boss to make your boss's employer punish him.
Was your dad fair? Or did he beat the shit out of you?
Or did he throw you out and ignore you like a nigger, while sharing the wealth and prosperity with everybody else, like a nigger.
I believe you're going to be a criminally disrespectful piece of psycho-stalker, serial killer shit,
tethering yourself to me like a dog scared of losing its host and the free meals and creative think tank that you exploit and abuse, feeding off the host, betraying and biting the hand that feeds, until the day somebody destroys you nigger.
I'm just thinking what a loveless piece of shit somebody has to be,
to look upon my life or what I have made of it, and hate, ridicule, and criticize.... and wish to destroy, defile or desecrate everything they see.
As if "daddy" said that I'm not allowed to be smarter than him, or exceed his accomplishments.
Am I not "allowed"to be better looking than you or have nicer things than you nigger?
I didn't steal any of these things. I didn't swindle somebody out of the things that belong to me.
I made myself who I am honestly without cheating anybody. In spite of your hate and opposing my intentions to be a person worthy of respect everyday. Nigger. I don't need your permission. You dont need to know my will so you can stop derailing progress and fall in line yourself playing with your pocket-veto power nigger.
Just sabotage everything until I tell you where I'm going so I don't run away from you and never return. Why you fear that is your unspoken guilt. Sort of like, do you have reason to be afraid of me? Have you done something to me to give you reason to be afraid? Did you steal from me? Did you break into my house? Did you poison me? Did you try to murder me? Did I catch your porn and mafia fags playing cia spy games?
You should learn to let go you fucking sleestak. Not try to grapple and assert your grip nigger. you're clinging to the person that can hurt you nigger.
You have no place. You have no center of your own universe. You devote your life, to revolving your life around keeping me captive under your thumb nigger you have no path.
You have no direction. You just sit on your ass and burn money waiting until I decide where I'm going in life, then you follow or try to get ahead to mark territory and plant informants from whatever line of work owes you a favor to make sure I don't grow up to be bigger than you, or become more than you nigger.
Was I supposed to have died?
Your ears don't work until you see your own blood on the floor nigger. Then you hear nigger.
Fuck your current nigger.
Maybe I don't feel like resistance training with you nigger. I'm not some stupid goon.
Is this how you treat your wife or girlfriend nigger?
What if I don't do shit about your opposing current nigger? What if I just sit here and play dead and wait for your immature male ego and butthurt to heal, and let you get your way nigger. How much time do you need for your wounded butthurt ego to heal nigger? Where are you trying to take things as your finish line? nigger.
What else do you need to get even with first nigger?
Okay, now my turn. What else do I need to get even with you about first nigger. How much time should that take nigger?
That's how religion governs right and wrong.
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copy paste of my speech for school
Dear Society!
As you probably know, we live in a system called capitalism. And people often glorify it, because the opposite, communism, is also bad. We grow up getting to know just how “good” capitalism is, using the weeping of history to justify its actions, and drowning any other ideas, calling them communistic, naming them names of nightmares that happened in the past. We took systems which white people made, and turned them into reality. We do not seem to care about alternatives, because we are forced into it. Remember just how, as a kid, you wanted to become an astronaut? Or an archeologist? Or anyone big, or famous? Remember just how sad you probably were when you discovered that just getting the basis of school will be 13 years? After 8 years of forcefully learning almost all completely useless things, that we won’t use in real life anyways, after 8 years of spending hours at home learning and solving homework, while you could do something that is actually a part of your interests. After all the scolding from your parents for your grades, and from your teachers too, because what could possibly be more important in life than grades? Than these imaginary numbers? We were just kids, and the system failed us. They put us, kids, in imaginary roles, saying “you are a girl, you cannot sit like this!”, “you are a boy, and boys dont cry!’, “pink can only be worn by girls”, etc, etc. It failed us because it destroyed our childhood dreams, for the sake of 1% of the wealthiest people on earth. So I, as a person who’s really, really angry at the system, I come out to you, the reader, listener, to society, for a change. We should refrain from using kind language when protesting, because they, the government, that 1%, never will take us seriously otherwise. They won't use kind words to us, they will want to kill us with cold blood, and swipe us under the rug, so the rest will stay silent, waiting for someone who’ll do something! If you won't stand up, no one will! Just because we feel comfortable with the rules, or think that we do, just because we were conditioned to think so, just because we are scared, shouldn’t stop us from ending it all. Thats what they want, they want submission! We should comfort the poor, and make the one % feel completely and utterly threatened for their safety and lives. Boys, aren’t you tired of the fact that you are shamed for showing basic human emotions? For not being an imaginary, rich, strong, stoic man? Aren’t you tired for being shamed for showing basic human affection to other boys? Girls, aren’t you tired of constantly trying to live up to ridiculous beauty standards? For constantly being reminded that you need to be a “lady”? For being called a slut, a whore or worse just because you wore something comfortable? And I don't care that I'm being impolite. People call us women these words, never care about being impolite. Girls, aren’t you tired of people saying “you’ll never find a guy with this behaviour!”? Queer people, aren’t you tired of being demonised by conservative people? Are we not tired of conversion therapy? Of always being skipped when it comes to representation in the media? Of being told that you are “unnatural”? Well, if we want to see a change, we need to make it ourselves, because most of the people are so indoctrinated by capitalism, the government that they won't do it if they don't see a reason. So i am giving you quite a few reasons:
School system was made to teach the youth to wake up early for monotone work in a factory
You are literally forced to ask for going to bathroom
If you are LGBTQ+ you are hated by half or more of your government because their beliefs say so
You will probably work your whole life just so the rich people get higher salary
The world’s air pollution is in 80% caused by 100 megacorporations
Companies disregard morals and public safety in pursuit of profit
Capitalism exploits the environment and natural resources
It proposes little or no solutions to poverty, while any person who’s in that 1% of wealthiest could solve the world poverty and hunger without bankrupting
Fails to pay a living wage to billions of workers
You are supposed to be exhausted and worried you’ll lose your income to die penniless
If you like drawing, or crocheting, or fixing cars, you want to work. You just don’t want to be exploited.
If you believe in something else than christianity, you will probably have to go to school in your holidays, and will not be able to pray as much as you need in some cases (for example if you are muslim)
We made roles that are impossible to fit in. Who said that we need social classes? I’m pretty sure that the world wouldn’t collapse if we would throw them away. The economy would tho. But the economy is a code for the rich, if the economy is getting better, the wealthy are getting richer, if it’s collapsing, they are getting poorer. Of course it’ll be hard at first. I won’t lie, we will have to get used to our new lifestyle. But imagine that one day, you’ll wake up, and decide that you would like a shirt with a specific thing on it. And instead of thinking “hmmm, do i have enough money?”, you’ll ask yourself “hmmm, can i paint the design or i would need to learn how to make it first?”. Imagine that one day you would walk out of your house and breathe fresh air instead of polluted one, get some fresh tomatoes without any chemicals, and just make yourself some sandwiches. Or maybe more, for you and that person that agreed to help you with painting your walls. Imagine a world without electric bills, because you take power from the sun, the wind or the water. Imagine it. Imagine yourself doing your favourite thing, just because you like doing that, in clothes that you made too, or someone made for you, just in your style. Imagine not having to explain why you are not in a nine to five job today, because you wanted to take a day off. Are you tired? You can just take a nap, instead of waiting for the next few hours. Hungry? Your neighbour has some fresh strawberries, and you know how to make a dish from them. You can just work together to make some food and eat. Imagine this. But we cannot achieve this without getting rid of capitalism.
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Today i am writing to not sound poetic....just to pour my heart out.
I have gone through ups and downs in the last couple of months.
There have been good days and bad days. Ans 12/11/2022 the day of the concert was the best day in this year so far.
I dont know what the Almighty has planned for me in the coming days and i am too scared to ask for anything.
Cause the last time i asked for something, i did get it but it ended up being one of the most hurtful and devastating experience of my life.
A cross that i will have to bear for a very long time what i have come to realize.
I can't help but constantly go back and wonder if the person still misses me or regrets giving up on me. I still imagine from time to time fake scenarios thinking that there's a greater view/aspect to this. That they cared about me.
But the truth is, in every step of the way, people just have exploited my good intention, love and care for them and has left me like a destitute.
And that's why when someone says to me i love you, i dont believe them...i know they have another crooked scheme in their mind. When they say they think i am beautiful, i know they are lying....they only lust/fetishize but they wont accept socially. When they say, they care about me i know that comes from a self-fulfilling heroic gesture that is actually empty in its core.
And i cant and dont want to latch onto people who literally has nothing to offer and says i love you.
I have accepted the fact i am always going to be alone. I have accepted the fact, romantically i will never be fulfilled beyond this point.
And i dont want to run my life like that anymore.
I am a human being with certain biological aspects.
Sometimes i wish i didn’t have the need to love or the need for physical intimacy was obliterated altogether.
I think i am already spent.
And i cant help but feel sorry for myself that i induldged in Sam and let myself get broken like this. While he cared so less or didnt care at all.
And the vulture came in and swoop and fed on the rest of the carcasses.
I am done. And i am indecisive.
I Don't think i want to go to USA.
Neither i want to stay here
I want peace. I just want to enjoy the other aspects of life. And i am petrified of losing that. The fact i enjoy art and music and soulful connection is actually something i am proud of.
I was distraught when i couldnt find my pleasure in these things during the darkest time of this year.
I am glad i got it back now.
I Don't want to be vulnerable anymore.
I dont want to be emotionally dependent on anyone anymore.
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I'm so scared to move out of my parents house just because I have so much anxiety about being out in the world alone. I live in a big city and I love it so much but there's a lot of crime and I'm terrified that something will happen to me. I'm 25 and need to find a full time job and move out but I'm just so scared and I feel silly for feeling this way. whenever the subject comes up about me moving or finding a career, I get so upset because I feel like I'm not ready but I can't stay with my parents and have these part time jobs anymore. I don't know what to do because I so badly want to have the adult life I want to have and hopefully even move across the country some day but I just can't shake this fear
First off I wanna say I empathise so much, I have an excuse to stay at home , helping my Mom with my disabled dad and for me finding a job is more about contributing to a safe lil family unit , I do not want to be on my own, and honestly I think that is very human, people need people , even people that want to live on their own they have healthy social lives.
Honestly I think you should have a conversation with your parents about how you feel, are you really unable to live with them while you look for work? There is no shame living with your parents if they let you stay and nobody is exploiting the situation. You could let your parents know how scared you and how adult life is frightening and gives you anxiety. Maybe then your first goal could be getting a part time work somewhere manageable and you could pay rent to your parents. Also online work?
Just saying if I was a parent I dont think Id ever stop mothering my babies not that I would want them to mooch off me but if I had a young adult who was just afraid and needed support I would want to loo after my baby and find a way they could financially support themselves without pushing a vulnerable adult into the cruel world with no support.
Of course if your parents arent willing to give you that support and working to find a way to pay them rent while you work through your mental health concerns then you got to start plan B.
Do you have any family or friends you could live with while finding work? Does your local government or local charities offer support for those struggling with mental health and independence.
Mental health issues arent a joke dont let anyone shame you for a legit reason that hinders you living an a normal adult life. You deserve support, you dont deserve to end up homeless of suicidal when all you needed was the right support.
The difference between a child, teen, and adult is our brain development and capacity of mature decisiveness, if you are an adult you have all the cognitive and maturity status need ed to consent to sexual relationships with other adults, drive, get married , own a house etc etc but if you a vulnerable adult not even one that is cognitively unable but simply one like yourself who is emotionally vulnerable you need support, and I think you are owed that.
I would personally defend this morally using the political philosophiser Rawls Veil of Ignorance (I didnt finish his book but it is a good read , he is somewhat neo liberal but for the sake of having lots of social programs but his ideas have inspired Marxists thinkers too (It is kind of Bernie Sanders erotica )
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Anyway my point is you shouldn't feel guilt nor should you be abandoned for being a vulnerable human being, you say you are 25 but if you where 45 and felt this way I would still feel compassion for you, because you want to get and job and support yourself but you are scared , unsure and stressed, you have a mental handicap and you deserve love and compassion and help.
Remember there is a difference between a person who lives off their parents and exploits their parents, to somebody who lives with their parents but supports their parents or is getting help to support them.
I hope you aren't American anon I hope your countery has support to help you be able to get to working and supporting yourself or supporting your parents if they dont mind keeping you.
I hope that makes you feel better anon (=
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god like there are so many kids in the notes of that post going “i just dont get along with people my age” and as a kid who thought that way that DID ruin my life!!!! being weird and being constantly told i was So Mature For My Age and an Old Soul warped my self image so badly and the adults in my life i befriended never saw a mature teenager but a kid who thought they could do anything an adult could and it really fucking ended up hurting me!!! i didn’t recognize what boundaries should have been there and it wasn’t a responsibility i should have been tasked with anyway but i’ll never know if they didn’t know what boundaries should be either!! like. GOD im just. everything about that post is making my fucking heart hurt
#so many adults in my life were so inappropriate with me and ill never know if it was a neurodivergent thing or if they were just#like that#even the other older teenagers in my life! i sought out older people because i thought they would protect me#and i thought i was so grown and wise and able to handle it and they either believed that or exploited it#god i dated a 16/17 year old (a junior) while i was 13/14 (a freshman) and she dumped me between my own mental stuff#being really bad and scary and being frustrated i wasn't responsible or mature enough#which was extremely valid but at the same time she was almost a senior and i was just starting high school!!!#what did she expect!! she also just got out of a bad relationship so maybe she wasnt thinking straight but like#i dont know!!! so many of my relationships as a kid were with adults who didn't make a point of like...#treating me like i wasnt an adult which i wasnt! and it really genuinely fucked me up and like#ill never be able to say clearly or confidently if those friendships or others between adults+teens are Good or Bad#because those friends still do in my heart mean a lot to me as my first friendships but they REALLY damaged me!!!#its just...the rest of that post was obviously fucking. tumbler disc horse nonsense with no basis in anything#but seeing kids agree with it and that they can have friendships with adults and that its just fine and Not Predatory#reminds me of how i handled things at the time as a stupid kid who thought i knew everything and it SCARES me
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fantastic mr fox: humanising animals, animalising men, and an exploration of masculine identity
‘this story is too predictable.’ / ‘predictable? really? what happens in the end?’ / ‘in the end, we all die. unless you change.’
mr fox, the titular character of wes anderson’s 2009 stop-motion adaptation of roald dahl’s children’s book, is a portrait of two conflicting manifestations of masculinity. he is built to demonstrate the crossover between tradition and modernity, between wild and civilised. characterised as a charming gentleman, almost renowned for his recklessness, mr fox combines his undomesticated instincts with a carefully crafted domestic life. he appears to spend more time manufacturing a perfect home and family than he does actually participating in it. the events of the movie serve to strip away his facade and present both the audience and protagonist with a harsh reality to deal with: the juxtaposing aspects of his identity that he must contend with in order to survive his situation. these aspects are demonstrated through the use of anthropomorphic animals. in essence, the text attempts to convey the message that while you can associate your actions with animal or human traits in order to characterise and frame them, you cannot change their value and their consequences. it serves as a critique of how the nature of male identity is exploited to shunt responsibility, and the movie specifically promotes a more collectivist mentality.
there are four key scenes that mark mr fox’s journey in terms of his identity. initially, we first see his identity openly questioned once he has moved into a new home (a large and expensive tree), just prior to him revealing his ‘master plan’ to kylie, who becomes his assistant of sorts. he asks, ‘why a fox? why not a horse, or a beetle, or a bald eagle? i’m saying this more as, like, existentialism, you know? who am i? and how can a fox ever be happy without, you’ll forgive the expression, a chicken in its teeth?’ he attributes his identity with the ability to fulfil his base desires, like he could in his youth. aspects of his later life such as employment, family, and safety restrict his ability and leaves him feeling untethered from himself. the movie opens with his youthful vibrance and recklessness, and is quickly contrasted with his dissatisfaction with his job, home, and life in general.
MR FOX
i dont want to live in a hole anymore. it makes me feel poor.
MRS FOX
we are poor, but we’re happy.
MR FOX
comme ci, come ca...
does anyone actually read my column?
having been moved out of the hole and into an expensive tree, mrs fox asks her husband:
MRS FOX
do you still feel poor?
MR FOX
less so.
constructing the ideal domestic space for himself and his family does not satisfy mr fox and he yearns for more, which is where is existentialism and ‘master plan’ come into play. domesticity was never going to satisfy mr fox, as he yearns for something youthful and risky and dazzling, adjectives not usually applied to a quiet and content home life. the consequences of this dissatisfaction are drastic and almost immediate.
soon, having been forced out of his new home and underground by an attack from the farmers, mr fox is faced with a situation he cannot charm his way out of. he attempts to apologise to his son and recite a speech to raise the morale of his family, and both of these attempts are shut down by those around him. the facade of his elaborate home, his monologues, even his suits, are abruptly stripped away leaving him with only his actions which he cannot charm his way out of. the reality is that he and his family, his neighbourhood, is stuck underground with no means of food as a result of his selfish actions. this prompts yet another key scene; his argument with felicity, which begins with her viciously hissing and scratching his face.
MRS FOX
why did you lie to me?
MR FOX
because im a wild animal.
MRS FOX
you are also a husband, and a father.
MR FOX
im trying to tell you the truth about myself.
MRS FOX
i dont care about the truth about yourself. this story is too predictable.
MR FOX
predictable? really? what happens in the end?
MRS FOX
in the end, we all die. unless you change.
mrs fox’s physical attack on her husbands face serves as a display of genuine animal ferocity, making mr fox’s claim to being a ‘wild animal’ appear as a flimsy excuse for his behaviour. his chicken theft, which he was insistent upon regardless of the consequences, was motivated not by animal instincts but a selfish desire to feel a particular version of his own masculinity. disregarding the safety of his family actually seems like a natural byproduct of his master plans because he is trying to reclaim his masculinity from a time before his family existed, and in his eyes, restricted him. the very recent loss of his tail, combined with this conversation with his wife, is a harsh reality check for mr fox in terms of the dangers of his masculinity.
the audience sees the outcome of this conversation later on, in the waterfall scene. here mr fox admits to his insecurities and suggests sacrificing himself to the farmers to save the local community.
MR FOX
darling, maybe they’ll let everyone else live!
…
MR FOX
foxes traditionally like to court danger, hunt prey and outsmart predators, and that’s what im actually good at…i guess at the end of the day im just-
MRS FOX
i know. we’re wild animals.
the difference between this admission to animalism and the one from his argument with felicity is that here, both parties gain some acceptance of their animalism without using it as an excuse for their behaviour. the inclusion of others in animalism – ‘we’re’ wild animals, rather than ‘i am’ a wild animal – contributes to illustrate how wildness is not specific to masculinity. it is not femininity vs masculinity but animals vs man.
the movie also questions the nature of an animal in the final key scene known as ‘canis lupus.’ wes Anderson referred to this scene as ‘the reason im making this movie.’ throughout the movie, mr fox alludes to his ‘phobia of wolves’ and shuts down any conversation surrounding them:
MR FOX
scared? no, i have a phobia of them!...a wolf? what’s with all the wolf talk? can we give it a rest for once?
arguably, these reactions are representative of mr fox’s aversion to competitive masculinity. he shuts down any opportunity for those around him to discuss something he sees as more masculine than himself in order to feel secure in his own masculinity. critic shana mlawski argues that ‘the wolf is described as the wildest, most frightening, and yet most beautiful creature in the world. mr fox fears the wolf and yet wants to be exactly like him. we can thus say that mr fox fears pure, wild masculinity yet also yearns to own it himself.’ the scene holds an eerie familiarity to it; mr fox is recognising something that he thought would be a reflection of himself, but the wild animal is no longer familiar to him anymore. he now accepts his role as a husband and a father and no longer fights to overtly express his animalism in the same way as the wolf. the most he can offer the wolf is raising his fist in solidarity. he calls out to the wolf, ‘i have a phobia of wolves!’, which is an interesting moment to admit this in. it’s his acceptance that allows him to admit this. the scene is entirely compromised of male characters: mr fox, kristofferson, ash, kylie and the wolf. mr fox’s admission to his fear allows him to be vulnerable in front of these people he cares about, and to use this as a teaching moment for the young boys.
MR FOX
what a beautiful creature. wish him luck out there, boys.
here mr fox openly admits his admiration for someone else’s masculinity in front of others without showing signs of his own insecurity. he can admire the wolf for what he is without seeing him as competition. the scene allows the audience to see and directly compare two forms of masculinity and animalism, and to understand that there is no one true expression of either of those traits. the wolf has connotations of violence and ferocity, whereas mr fox and his suit and display of multilingualism are entirely modern, but both are masculine animals who are valid in their own right. either way, both animals rely on violence for survival at times.
kupfer frames violence in three ways: symbolically, structurally and as a narrative essential. there are various forms of violence within this narrative, namely mr fox killing chickens and squabs, and the three farmers’ attack on the animal community. symbolically, mr fox’s chicken theft is attributed to his masculinity. while it is often presented as thought-out ‘master plans’, his desire to enact this violence in the first place supposedly stems from his ‘wild animal’ instincts. he associates a time where he felt secure in his masculinity with his actions at the time (violence). structurally, we see the potential for this violence in the opening scene, where mr fox takes his wife chicken-stealing and they become trapped. he is stuck in a fox trap with his wife when he receives the news of his impending fatherhood, a relatively obvious symbol for his view of fatherhood in general. the news of his wife’s pregnancy disrupts his ability to continue stealing chickens, not just on this specific occasion but through the coming years as well. mr fox appears to view family life as an unfulfilling, less raw expression of his masculinity, and is shown to be wholly dissatisfied with his life.
the violence on the farmers’ behalf is almost always in reaction to mr fox’s violence, already giving it a structural framing. boggis, bunch and bean are referred to early on in the film as the ‘meanest, nastiest and ugliest farmers on the side of the river.’ their violence against mr fox and subsequently the local animal community is an attempt to gain back power and status. mr fox’s actions are “humiliating’ and the local news coverage of this exchange between the farmers and animals raises the stakes as now the reputation of these farmers is on the line as well as their power. violence here serves as a narrative essential because it drives mr fox into a situation that forces him to confront his issues with masculinity and splitting between his animal and human traits, giving the text/movie a fulfilling arc. violence is
introduced as inherently masculine, but is decoupled from masculinity by the ending. mrs fox also plays a small but significant role in this; at various moments in the movie she exhibits her own displays of aggression equal in intensity to the men around her, suggesting to the audience that forms of violence should be categorised as human vs animal rather than male vs female. examples of this behaviour include her clawing at her husband’s face, and a parallel between her and a male human character wherein they both connect two wires and shout ‘contact!’, causing an explosion. while this moment is brief, it highlights a distinct difference between animals being violent and men. humans’ aggression is driven by the need for power, whereas that of animals is driven by the need for survival. the man paralleled with felicity only sparked the explosion to destroy mr fox’s home and assert the dominance of the three farmers, while mrs fox used the same form of violence to enact a plan to save her nephew’s life. petey’s song even alludes to this sentiment: ‘well he stole, and he cheated, and he lied just to survive.’
mr fox’s tail becomes a symbol of power; bean wears it as a necktie, and mr fox feels emasculated by his loss.
MR FOX
one of those slovenly farmers is probably wearing my tail as a necktie right now.
…
BADGER
i cant even imagine how painful, even just emotionally, that must be for you… oh but foxy how humiliating, having your tail blown clean off by-
MR FOX
can we drop it?
the use of the tail as a necktie is a symbol of the power that mr fox and the farmers end up jostling to achieve: at first it belongs to mr fox, then to the farmers, and is eventually reclaimed once more by the fox.
MR FOX
you shot off my tail.
[through gritted teeth] i’m not leaving here without that necktie.
when he reclaims his tail towards the end of the movie, it has been torn to shreds and needs ‘dry cleaning twice a week’ to maintain itself. this can be interpreted as a symbol for his evolved definitions of masculinity and power: his masculinity is no longer defined by impressing people or stealing or killing chickens, but in the quiet satisfaction of having a family. the final scene reveals that mrs fox is pregnant again, and instead of her glowing and her husband giving an awkward grin like in the opening scene, both of the spouses ‘glow.’ the structural framing of these pregnancy reveals bookending the events of the movie allows anderson to demonstrate mr fox’s growth and change in his priorities. the domestic life appears to be enough for him, and he no longer seems to find it emasculating,
what stands out as particularly modern about mr fox is how he unconsciously separates himself from both his wildness and his suburban self in his effort to combine them. he uses his ‘wildness’ as an excuse for his violence and selfishness, but is ultimately not willing to participate in truly wild forms of violence and selfishness, such has hunting. his chicken thefts always include infiltrating a human site, like boggis, bunce and bean’s farms, and the fun of it is in outsmarting them, rather than finding those animals himself out in the wild. the local animal community essentially functions as we would expect a rural village occupied by humans to function: everyone knows everyone, there is one local school and various small and quaint homes. while the setting reflects anderson’s signature style, it is also reflective of dahl’s framing of the community in the original text.
mr fox comes across as an individual who believes himself to be above the somewhat backward mentality of his village, that he is the most civilised and dazzling and original, and he exaggerates these traits in himself out of insecurity: ‘if they arent dazzled and blown away and kind of intimidated by me, then i dont feel good about myself.’this is also reflected in his consistent ‘trademark’, his whistle-and-click combination that he uses to set himself apart from other foxes. his home is also a reflection of this:
MRS FOX
you know, foxes live in holes for a reason.
MR FOX
[grunts and tilts head in disagreement]
yes and no.
this insecurity and desire for outsider approval and individuality is inherently human, a quality of his that cannot really be associated with his animalised parts. this precarious sense of identity and self doubt separates him from his ‘wildness’ as it stands, which is only intensified by the fact that he compensates by exaggerating his human traits in order to be liked and feel worthy, as those are the traits he believes have the most value. towards the end of mr fox’s character arc, he is forced to admit that his need for external validation is flawed and unsustainable. when the façade of carefully constructed grandeur is literally washed away by bean, he is left with nothing but his actions and their implications for those around him. foxy reconciles with the relative insignificance of an identity based on other’s perceptions of you when rat dies soon after, reacting to the suggestion that he redeemed himself last minute by revealing ash’s location:
MR FOX
redemption? sure. but in the end, he’s just another dead rat in a garbage pail behind a chinese restaurant.
this moment is also used to inadvertently allow the audience to evaluate the significance of motivation and intention to the value of an action. although rat did reveal useful information to aid the group in saving Kristofferson, mr fox recognises that he only did so because he realised he could not win this fight.
MR FOX
would you have told me if i didn’t kill you first?
RAT
never.
mr fox’s own motivations throughout the movie have devalued his actions as they have mostly been self-serving. as his motivations evolve to centre around his family, he gains the perspective to understand why one’s intentions are so important. while intention does not entirely dictate how good one’s actions are, they certainly characterise the person who’s action it is. your actions have value and consequences as they are, and that cannot be changed by dressing them up or animalising them to distance yourself.
in essence, fantastic mr fox is a lesson in the value of including those around you in your mentality and worldview. it paints masculinity as something that is inherent and complex in nature, but promotes the idea that it is not stuck with its traditional connotations of violence and egoism. mr fox’s emotional development throughout the text mostly centres around his own insecurities surrounding his masculinity and how that causes him to overcompensate in ways that harm those around him. by the end he recognises that more tame and domestic forms of masculinity are just as valid, and that basing his self-worth on how ‘dazzled’ his peers are by him is immature and not constructive. his family now liberates him and allows him to be vulnerable rather than restricting how he feels he can express himself, and as a unit the animals beat the farmers in their game of power-seeking. mr fox recognises and appreciates both his human and animal traits, without using them as a means to excuse his behaviour or to feel bad about his worth.
MR FOX
i guess my point is, we’ll eat tonight, and we’ll eat together. and even in this not particularly flattering light, you are without a doubt the five and a half most wonderful wild animals ive ever met in my life. so let’s raise our boxes – to our survival.
i.k.b
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Can I have Byakuya jealousy hc x gn reader (why tf did I write it like I'm ordering food)
JEALOUSY HCS • byakuya x gn reader
haha, its alright! straight to the point asks are always good to receive /gen. i hope i did this okay, enjoy!
tws/cws: mentions of yandere and manipulation. (not towards you.)
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he doesnt show it that much, but he does get jealous very easily. since its expected of him to be more calm and collected, he rarely expresses it.
there are times where you can tell that he's on his last nerve, its not obvious unless you know him well. but there are certain signs that will show if he's annoyed.
if he says more mean and witty remarks than usual, also glaring at the person with disgust in his eyes, then hes probably jealous. he can get away with being more mean since he's usually like that, but because youre with him it sticks out to you.
doesnt really try to find a reason to drag you away from them. he's byakuya togami, he can and will command you to come with him to the library while youre in the middle of a conversation with the other person.
if they even think about arguing back to him taking you away, think again. he'll immediately shoot down that idea in their head by insulting something that is very personal to them. while theyre trying to think of a response to his comment, he'll quickly rush you to the library.
would definitely run a background check on the person, he has the sources and connections for it, so why not? its partly because he wants to go confirm that theyre not dangerous to be around, and so he has some more material to belittle them with.
straight up just tells you to stop hanging out with them. if you refuse, then he'll be really salty. byakuya doesnt love it when people he cares for go against what he thinks is better for them, so he looks for a different solution. he doesnt want to force you to do something you dont like, so he'll do it for you.
will talk to the person in private, and "lightly" implies that he'll ban them from any establishment that the togamis have a share in, which is almost every big company in the world.
if they still wont back down, then he'll just stick to you until they get intimidated enough to keep their distance and know their place. byakuya will be by your side more than usual, and stare whenever they try to talk to you.
he doesnt want to be too controlling, so he lets you talk to them for a little, before scoffing and dragging you away when his patience for their flirtatiousness wears thinner.
knows how to manipulate people into giving in, he doesnt use this on you, of course, but he does use it on the people that are actively trying to take you away from him.
that sounds very yandere-ish, but he doesnt do so to people youre genuinely close with, only to those who think that they have the power to steal you.
will tell the person that they know something that could ruin their future, whether it be something as small as petty theft, or much larger, he knows all their secrets, and are ready to exploit them if they dont leave you alone.
actually does go through with the ban, so its really a snap to reality when they cant go to the big malls anymore because byakuya informed the staff of your appearance.
with byakuya constantly insulting them, the fact that they cant go to many of the big establishments anymore, and the pressure of him knowing their big secret, they will give up and distance themself from both of you.
when you notice and ask byakuya if he did anything to scare them off, he'll reject the idea and say that they mightve been too mentally weak when interacting with someone like him. while you do know that thats probably not the case, you ignore it, knowing that he wont budge.
he smiles to himself as he realizes his plan worked, and they werent bothering you at all anymore. he felt the relief of knowing that no one is trying to steal you from him, which made him feel great.
#📍 dismissal ∆#byakuya togami#byakuya#byakuya togami x reader#byakuya x reader#danganronpa x reader#danganronpa headcanons
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