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vagueiish · 6 months

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fuck i wish i could write. oliver just signed the deal with raphael (because he constantly feels like he's doing nothing to help the party or anyone and putting his soul on the line is the very least he could do, even though he helps everyone and also is like.... at max approval with the whole party and has finished or done the majority of everyone's personal quests)(he's trusting the emperor less and less, for Reasons, which i guess would involve more writing because it involves personal backstory shit, and he's already burned the bridge with gortash by crashing the party at the iron throne and saving wyll's dad, so his options to deal with the tadpoles are becoming fewer and fewer)(so. raphael it is. for now...?)

and astarion's basically just like 'well that was stupid, but what do i care, it's not *my* name on the contract lol' (even though oliver's apparently the first person he's truly cared for, bb, what are you doing? is this a 'id rather you hadn't, and i'm actually kind of upset but don't know how to deal and also you're a fuckin adult and made your choice, so what's the point in saying anything' moment or what, i am having trouble deciphering this right now)(and i know the dude is an ass, i dont expect him to be Nice, but your honor, theyre in love. and he did sound kind of pissed about it! or irritated/sarcastic??? but! how did he mean it? my brain is not cooperating, i hate this, lmao, i wish there was a follow up convo or something so i could pin down this fuckin plot bunny)

(and i mean. this is deviating into headcanon/oliver as tav specific territory, and is me trying to figure out how it'd figure into the thing i'd wind up writing for this if i do, and again, astarion is an ass and all that, maybe not the most emotionally mature dude in the realms to put it mildly, but he'd know, right? eventually, at least??? that he fucked up saying that? that however he actually meant it, it's going to sound very much like 'i don't actually care about you' to the first person he professes to actually care about?)(and in terms of oliver's canon timeline, i think he signs well after his own 'personal quest' would have occurred. so astarion would know about oliver's mother and all that baggage. not that he'd necessarily know what do to with it, but he'd probably have heard her be all 'yeah, i never actually cared for or wanted you, soo....')(which is an oversimplification and the whole situation is quite complicated, but. that's the gist he gets, so anyway...)

and then karlach. my love. the bestest of girls, she's angry and insisting on going to avernus one last time to save oliver's fucking soul because she's awesome and also because he's her friend and, tangent, i wish there was an option at all times to hug her, whether as a friend or lover. she deserves all the hugs, romantical or platonic or whatever, fuck, i want to hug karlach so fucking bad

and there is something *there* with all of this because oliver, sweet and sad and self-loathing, wouldn't have any of her help. he'd want her to let it go. gently, at first, but of course she doesn't, so then he gets pissed. because this is his decision. because it's not her name or anyone else's on the dotted line, so why the fuck does she care? (hm. sounds familiar.......) let it go. let him help for once, not be a burden on the party for *once* (as if he hasn't spent the whole adventure bending over backwards not just for our merry band of adventurers, but everyone he's come across)(because it's not enough, never enough, it'll never be enough to make up for being him) he isn't worth the trip to avernus, isnt worth her forcing herself to face that place again. and he's rarely loud or angry but he's both now, the exhaustion and frustration and uncertainty and fear re: the future that he's been trying to ignore pouring our of him, horribly misdirected at probably his best friend in the whole group, so of course the rest of the party is going to hear it and it's just.... there is something here, i feel it in me bones

(also. tangentially related, but didn't raphael imply that fucking up the contract would fuck over the whole group and not just whomstever is signing it? said something about hanging you and your friends from meathooks while watching the world burn??? so either he's full of shit or the contract actually fucks over everyone if broken, which..... oliver as tav would not have signed if breaking it affected anyone else, so this might all be moot. i dunno. just rambling)

#long post #but #it's kind of funny because i had oliver bring only astarion to sign the contract #because i imagined oliver wouldnt want the rest to know but he was still unsure about the decision #and wanted moral support lmao #he'd refused at first but overthought it and came crawling back #i dont know. maybe he was hoping the man he loved would try to stop him but he didnt....#anyway.....#so it kind of feels like astarion got back to the rooms and was like 'oh btw he signed the fuckin contract lmao'#which i imagine karlach would flip out on him like 'why the *fuck* would you let him do that?'#to which astarion's snarks like 'what do i look like? his mother?' before maybe having an aha moment #hopefully having an aha moment #and maybe he notices that night that oliver doesnt ask if he's managed to feed at all today #something he's asked pretty much every day since astarions big vampire reveal #in some form or another. sometimes direct 'have you eaten?' sometimes a subtle 'you good?'#maybe he notices and maybe he knows something's wrong. but what the fuck is he supposed to do about it?#fuck. i dont know #there's something here. i know it #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#scott sucks at bg3 #bideo gaems #to the void with love

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vagueiish · 5 months

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it'd take a very specific set of (non-game canon/personal oli backstory, so it'd never actually happen in a playthrough except for Science) events happening in a very short, very specific time frame, but there's a very slim chance oli would help astarion ascend

it's a sad, intensely selfish moment of 'if i don't give him what he's asking of me, he'll leave me, and i don't want to lose this' for an otherwise selfless person. the lives of the spawn, well, he's often been told -- from an early age -- that he's ruined lives by virtue of existing (which is why he must give everything of himself to others, to make up for that.) theirs are just more lives he's ruined. of course, he'll beat himself to shit over it over the years until he becomes numb to it, but still...

but. anyway. that's just a preface to me saying that, holy shit, i think oli with an ascended!astarion would become some kind of criminal mastermind, lmao.

astarion's manipulative one-on-one and shit, sure, but the guy barely thinks even half a step ahead. even with the power he wields, he's not gonna rule shit if he just runs on impulse. oliver's only real sense of worth comes from being useful to people, and astarion wants to rule the world and cover it with darkness, etc.... so he'd take it upon himself to become the 'brains' of the operation, even if he maybe doesn't do so consciously or deliberately?

i don't know. this is a half-developed thought and i'm still trying to pin down oli's character in this universe anyway, lol, so who knows

#i like thinking of ascended!astarion/spawn!oliver simply for oli's development #i haven't dived...dove? doven???#haven't gone super deep into it but it almost feels like he corrupts himself #i mean. i'm sure astarion doesn't help but i'm not smart enough to know how to explain it #at least i can't wrangle my thoughts on it at the moment #there's something here man. if only i were smarter and more creative lmao #i just am liking the thought of the path from 'soft-hearted country boy who just wanted to help'#to 'the quiet presence at the side of the tyrant who may or may not be the real danger between the two'#and he's utterly devoted to astarion -- any of his beloved's actions he might see as bad he places on his own shoulders as his own crimes #because well he couldve stopped this right?#fuck. i dont know #it's all very fucked up to be honest #but it's an interesting thought experiment #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#to the void with love

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vagueiish · 4 months

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….so. like. how do you break someone of the notion that he’s only worth something if he’s useful to people when he’s the player character in an rpg? (this is about bg3 and my current tav)

it’s fun bc it gives an in-character reason to be a completionist, but from a writing perspective? while trying to keep things in line with how my actual gameplay goes? this belief is super reinforced over and over again. esp since there’s no real built in way to be useless. failure is technically an option, but my guy has been rather lucky on the major dice rolls. i suppose i could just throw up my hands and let his actual development come post-game. because i do have some ideas for that. but it’d be nice to have some development happen during the events of the game

…and this is getting a bit longer than i intended so…

maybe i could purposely fail a dice roll during a super important quest or something and see how he copes with the aftermath, but like. idk. he already accidentally destroyed the whole crèche, but that was less him being useless and still loved and more a ‘stop being a dipshit, think before you act’ moment. and it happened organically, which is nice. i don’t want to necessarily force anything, but at the same time, i’m almost gonna have to if i want some change to occur in the game timeline, right? put on my god pants and divinely intervene and all for the sake of character growth

i have this idea that maybe something happens late game where he’s out of commission for a while and needs to be taken care of by the squad. which he absolutely hates because he fully expects them to resent him for it and hate him and so forth, but no. he’s spent the whole journey taking care of them, now it’s their turns to have his back. but then idk how exactly to put him out of commission for a while in a way that doesn’t kill him or something because, d&d universe, magic healing, it’s not like they’d let him stay injured like that. especially since he’s at ‘exceptional’ with all the homies by the end. and also it can’t be something super long because, y’know, mother brain is trying to break free and all that…

or. oh. maybe they see him struggling. the weight of everything is finally to the point that he can no longer smile and wave off concern and redirect any such conversation convincingly. everyone collectively decides he needs a break, so they force him to sit this one out, lmao. and he’s fucking miserable, spending a good portion of the time thinking they’ve deemed him useless and it’s only a matter of time before they get rid of him completely. and it’s double bad, actually, because once he stops moving, The Anxiety asserts itself and The Thoughts start nagging at him and he starts to spiral even further. and instead of opening up, he sets off on his own to take care of a quest or whatever and ends up getting Fucked Up and he needs to be taken care of anyway, but this time with a nice side-helping of lovingly getting chewed out by his companions….

idk. maybe i’m looking in the wrong direction? or maybe i’m thinking too much about it. it’s not necessary to have a character arc to play the game. but, by gum, i fuckin wanna figure this shit out. as a writing brain exercise

#hm. perhaps it’d be a good exercise to ‘novelize’ his canon as i play #get a better narrative sense of him that way #cause it’s super easy to meta game and cheat things a bit when i’m simply playing #the need to win the game tends to trump the desire to roleplay properly a touch too often….#maybe turning it into a fic will help keep me honest?#idk man…..#writing is hard…..#character building also is hard #if anyone sees this and reads it and has Ideas or Advice i am open to it #or if someone with d&d lore knowledge knows of a feasible way for a sick day during the events of the game plz give me #would be ppreciated #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#to the void with love #bg3 tav

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vagueiish · 5 months

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i think it's kinda funny that my perception of a!astarion jumps between 'the most cartoonish of villains, would steal candy from a baby while cackling maniacally' and 'oh. huh. he almost certainly would make spawn!oli murder his entire home-village as punishment for wanting to go back even just long enough to say goodbye, wouldn't he?' they can definitely coexist, but it's a fun spectrum, lmao

...oh. but. the thing is, it wouldn't just be punishment. there'd be some kind of love (or something resembling it, i suppose) behind the order. because he'd have learned some of oli's history, would know that maybe he wasn't quite treated right. at least by his grandfather. and maybe initially he only intends to have oli cut that tie, quite literally, but ofc he insists on going with and he learns even more of oli's history and abuse he suffered at the hands of his grandad and others and the fact that the village knew of ways he was being abused but turned a blind eye.... well. these people have all had a hand in hurting astarion's most precious treasure. and while he wants to rip out their throats personally for their Crimes, he wouldn't want to deprive oli the chance to punish them all himself. at that point, he considers the opportunity a gift, i think.

and if he ends up having to compel oli to do all of this? he'd consider it less completely removing oli's autonomy and more giving him a little push. oli’s heart may no longer be beating, but it never stopped bleeding, after all, and he's still far too soft to even consider giving his neighbors exactly what they deserve. but they do deserve it. and if astarion needs to get oli out of his own way in this, then so be it. he'll be stronger for it. he’ll thank astarion later, surely

#oh. huh.#he manages to twist the whole exercise from a punishment to a reward. fuck…#at least. yknow. in his own eyes #he'd make him kill the children too #would be fucked about it #some shit like:#'would you truly want to leave a horde of orphans to fend for themselves? i thought you were kinder than that #killing them is the humane thing to do surely'#but lowkey jabbing at him #also at some point dismissing oliver freaking out about murdering his entire village #something about how he helped kill the 7000 spawn and also all the people's he killed on the tadpole journey and for astarion since #a few hundred people is nothing #or. shit. it’s a tiny tiny bumfuck nowhere village. maybe a hundred people???#idk. I still need to iron out those deets of his backstory #i have other ideas i want to jump on for writing first if i can just muster up the...everything to do so #and considering spawn!astarion is oliver's canon i'd rather poke around at those first #also this idea is much too involved lmao. probably would not be a oneshot #but i wanna do something with this #wish i had the skill lmao #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#to the void with love

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vagueiish · 6 months

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maybe it's a bit on the nose, but if i ever get around to trying to curate a playlist specifically for astarion/oliver, 'i'll be your mirror' by the velvet underground is sure as shit going on there

#it's a cute little song #and nico's vocals are to me earnest and lovely #obvi towards astarion #but i think my boy needs to see himself through the eyes of others as well #scott sucks at bg3 #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#i think i need a ship tag for these nerds but have no ideas yet.....#to the void with love #also tangent but i feel weird sometimes posting about my son because like #he existed long before bg3 but the little oliver in the game makes it weird lmao #it's whatever

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vagueiish · 3 months

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just thinking out loud about my guy and his story. under the cut bc why not?

so i still don't know the specifics yet. or even most of the generalities, lmao, because im a big ol smarty pants (/s)

but i think.....given his inclination towards guilt and taking responsibility for things that aren't necessarily even his fault (what a lifetime of being told 'your birth ruined our family, it's all your fault' and other things are his fault and he has to do this and that to make up for the damage he's wrought and other assorted heinous lies) instead of choosing between some kind of 'ascension' (and losing himself in the process) and the possibility of healing, maybe oliver's crossroads should be choosing to succumb to -- and be crushed by -- the unwarranted guilt/responsibility he places on himself (thus….losing himself. or straight up dying) or. the possibility of healing, lmao

everyone else has these gods or powerful masters they're dealing with. the closest oliver has is his shitass grandfather (who is far away from the events of the game and shall remain so, so other than the influence he's had on the boy, he doesnt matter) and the spectre of his mother (and the guilt he feels associated with her apparent death) but. mostly he's trapped himself, to be honest

guilt and responsibility and family. those are the keys, i think. maybe should try to fit some kind of deity or all powerful whatever into his storyline - or go back to his warlock story? but him and the way i think of him, he doesnt feel warlocky or like he'd really use the warlock powers, so idk.... - and i can’t figure out how he fits bc maybe the way i’m envisioning him is too small? vs like… being fucked over by a god/demon/vampire lord or whatever? but idk. i like him small...

#i think it'd be fun to do a durge run with oli #he has guilt and self-loathing built in. redeemed durge is like....made for him lmao #or maybe not even redeemed! maybe he’ll surprise me….we’ll see how it goes. if it ever does…#but i want to figure him out first #i mean. i have him figured out mostly #but trying to figure out a storyline that makes sense and slots into the overarching storyline of bg3....#but also that like….is unique? ish??#i suck at this lmao #feel like i have pieces that i’m not sure how to fit together yknow?#like shitty ikea furniture that makes no sense and has no instructions #oli as companion tag #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#to the void with love

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vagueiish · 3 months

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oli might be Inexperienced, but he’s not naïve. he grew up in bumfuck, nowhere amongst rough and tumble folks. and has worked off and on in a tavern for the past decade and change. he knows things. just hasn’t cared enough to experience them

that said, i think it’d be funny if it came out fairly early on that he’s never been with anyone biblically and he plays it up. he can be a bit goofy at times, you see, but also he’d be slightly irritated at the shit he’d inevitably get for never having got any (most likely from asta. just call him asstarion) (and it wouldn’t be he’s ashamed so much as this assumption that because he’s Inexperienced, he won’t know things. he knows things, gdi)

so it wouldn’t be ooc for him to play dumb for shits and giggles

#i have dumb ideas pertaining to this #I want to write the dumb ideas #what’s stopping me? uh…….#nobody else is gonna caaaaare #¯\_(ツ)_/¯#oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#to the void with love

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vagueiish · 4 months

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also changed my mind, my boy gets his original face but is gonna keep his new hair

nobody cares, but fuck it, one of these days i’ll do a proper profile post for him. he’s come a long way in terms of development from where he started in bg3, i’m so proud of him! (and myself by extension?)

#tried to turn it into a multiplayer playthrough with my sib #but then realized i wanted to maintain a familiar party distribution and changed my mind lol #we’ll just do an orc girlz playthrough later……..#scott sucks at bg3 #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#to the void with love

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vagueiish · 4 months

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i do kinda wish i were more inclined towards writing smutty stuff bc i just had a flash of inspiration and have an idea of how things kinda go the first time oli takes the lead with astarion and it's a touch sad (bc that's just my boy, baybee) but mostly cute and dorky

....but i'm not! so it'll just live in my head lmao

#i might talk about it just rambly style if i weren't deadset on keeping this particular tumlr blog mostly sft #could always make a sideblog for the naughty stuff idk lol #i just might....#idk tho. im just kind of not smut inclined in general? ive tried writing it a couple times but never finished #but man. i could see myself finishing this because those earlier ideas were essentially pwp but this?#this would be character stuff using the naughty bits as. um. a lens or something?#idk im not smart enough to explain myself lmao #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#ship: blood sweat & tears (s!asta x oli)

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vagueiish · 4 months

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think i finally figured out the vanity ship name for asta/oli: blood, sweat, and tears

blood is obvi. sweat because oli is a gd workhorse and doesn't know how to take a break. and tears because they're both v sad boys in their own fun ways!

#trying to write but getting distracted by tangentially related minutiae instead! go team!!!#this is just spawn!a timeline tho #since that's oli's canon-canon #idk yet about a!a timeline....#anyway. fun times #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#ship: blood sweat & tears (s!asta x oli)#to the void with love

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vagueiish · 5 months

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oh, man, i think good riddance from hades might be tav!oliver's theme song. or it would 1000% definitely be if his arc ended with him dying. which it doesn't. but still. The Vibe of it is perfect for him

including the song for my own benefit and if anyone wants to listen, idk, it's a good fuckin song. supergiant games all have good music anyway

youtube

#i suppose he might end up 'dying' in the sense of his old self and blah blah blah #but it certainly doesnt happen during the events of the game so far #it's kind of funny that it's like the role of leader/player character kind of enables and feeds into the things he actually needs to Stop #hm #anyway.#such a good fucking song from a good fucking game #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#to the void with love #band and music tag #Youtube

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vagueiish · 5 months

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i don't know if i should just surrender myself to the inevitable and make oliver's color scheme blue, red, and gold (because i got his hair/eye color combo specifically from roy fire emblem. because roy's my boy.)

...or if i should try to follow the thread of my association between him and autumn. reds and oranges (well, brown mostly, but brown is just orange with context) with a splash of green or blue here and there

#i know jack about character design and color and shit #the roy color scheme is aesthetically pleasing for sure #and roy. roy is my boy.#idk if it works for oliver's characterization or whatever?#but idk. oliver is like.... an autumn vibe dude #he can feel more like early autumn. bright and still summery. soft and cozy.#he can also feel like late autumn. winter is here. bereft. forlorn. life slowly fading kinda shit #and one of my favorite descriptions that ive neever used is like.... is hair falls in front of his eyes #like seeing the sky through autumn leaves #ugh. wish i knew stuff about things #chardev shit #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#to the void with love

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vagueiish · 5 months

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tiny list of meme-y/comic-y ideas for if i ever git gud at arting:

that 'are you tired of being nice? don't you just want to go apeshitt' meme with astarion and my tav, oliver (and a small follow up of his response)

(based on this bit from the simpsons): *act three, in the elfsong suite. first shot is oliver in front of the fireplace, angled in such a way as to appear to be seated on a nearby sofa. he is staring intently into the fire. karlach watches him from a little ways away.* karlach, calling over to astarion: oy, fangs. think you might want to check in on oliver. he's, uh... lookin' kinda tense right now... astarion, dismissively: come, now. if he were anything but perfectly fine, i'd know *cut to reveal that oliver is actually so rigid that he's currently sitting on the air a good foot or two in front of the sofa, nothing to support him but his own leg muscles* astarion: ...ah.

#for the first idea:#maybe i've just missed it #but i'm surprised i've yet to see that meme #feels hilariously on point for astarion and a goody two shoes tav #or astarion and wyll lmao #as for the second one....#well. i'm sure my boy is stressed from the weight of.... everything. and it's finally getting to him #plus. in connection with the bit it's drawn from. parental issues coming to claw at him! yaaay!#karlach would probably go check in on him anyway but for the bit she gets to be lisa #and i feel like even if worried...#they'd both be mildly impressed that he'd sat like that with nothing to support him lol #do they take bets and see how long he can hold that position or go and check in on him?#i feel like that particular simpsons bit could also work hilariously with astarion as marge and tav/durge/whomever as homer #he keeps insisting he's fine about the prospect of facing down cazador!#but no. he most decidedly is not #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#scott can’t drawr #to the void with love #bg3

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vagueiish · 5 months

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the answers to questions somebody did ask, but not of me specifically!

i did these tav questions for tav!oliver and because i'm wanting to talk about him more -- and it's my tumblr blog so i do what i want -- here are the answers! (cw: brief brief brief suicide mention at the end. more like a mention of a note, but i don't know, just in case?)

what do they smell like at their freshest? (and/or after a tenday. your choice)

Freshest? Probably basic soap and the coffee he’s most certainly just finished drinking. Maybe fantasy cigarettes/whatever is in the pipe he may or may not have smoked After a tenday, sweat and dirt and coffee and fantasy cigarettes/tobacco/pipe shit and maybe a pungent mix of whatever plants he’s been working with, if any, or woodsmoke or... the scents of whatever chores he's been having to do over the last ten days

what would their blood taste like to vampires?

Hot apple cider. Non-alcoholic, mind you, as he doesn’t drink. But there’s a sweetness and earthiness and warmth to it, like there is to him. Or coffee, lmao, since he practically lives on the stuff, but i think hot apple cider suits him more

how would they kiss their LI?

(kinda viewing this as his companion-style ‘can we kiss?’ response, obvi using astarion because the dude is his LI. idk, prolly answering the wrong, ha ha ha) Usually? At the start of the actual relationship, even after the act 3 graveyard scene, Hesitantly. Something like…’Oh!’ A moment of wide-eyed shock at being asked for a kiss before smiling, soft and shy. He begins to reach out as if to cup Astarion’s cheek, but then…pulls back. Smile faltering ever so slightly under the weight of uncertainty, he’s still not sure he can believe that someone would actually want to kiss *him*. But he looks into his lover’s eyes, gaze flitting to astarion’s lips then back again, and his resolve is bolstered. He gently takes astarion’s face in both hands before leaning in slowly. The initial kiss is brief, a peck, almost as if testing the waters, but he barely parts from astarion before kissing him again tenderly. They stand like this for a moment, two, before Oliver pulls away ever so slightly, resting his forehead against astarion’s, smiling brightly as he laughs. ‘If i’m dreaming,’ he murmurs, ‘please don’t wake me.’ or something along those lines ...but generally speaking, he tends towards gentle and affectionate and being handsy (affectionately so, not like... in a sexy way) and drive-by pecks on the cheek/forehead/temple/back of the hand/random body part, if he ever gets to the point of being comfortable enough to initiate

how do they sleep with their LI (what position, does one steal the blankets, is one too hot/cold, etc)?

He doesn’t really have a set position he sleeps in. Dude is fuckin flippy-floppy. SO i imagine he and astarion often end up getting tangled up, bc i imagine astarion too is a flippy-floppy kinda guy when he actually sleeps. Except on nights where he n astarion end the night cuddled up – spooning (he’s good either big or little) or one on top of the other – they somehow manage to stay relatively still. Astarion ends up with all the blankets, which oliver doesn’t mind; he usually ends up kicking them off anyway.

what does their tent area look like? where do they prefer to pitch their tent (next to water, covered on three sides, etc)?

He sleeps in a shitty, cloth covered, low profile lean-to, the placement of which depends. Like outside, he’ll try to pitch it somewhere where if it rains, he won't get flooded. Uphill? Strategically, basically, something that indicates he knows how to nature. Initially away from the others. His bedroll is worn and hastily patched in places. No blanket or a threadbare one. He has a mortar and pestle, empty jars and potions bottles, various random plants in piles nearby and/or hanging from his ‘tent’ frame. Maybe arrow components, a knife and whetstone, piles of things set up in a way to look like he’s flitting between many projects in quick succession. Like even when he’s supposed to be at rest, he’s still working on something. Also also always a carafe of coffee because he lives off the stuff. A fishing rod propped up next to his ‘tent’. Also a local map and maybe a small notebook? i also like to think that, once the romance is in bloom, he'd set up a fancy little cushion/sitting area that clashes with the rest of his shabby tent area for astarion when they're hanging out by his tent. also he keeps a bottle of blood or two around, just in case

if they had a set of dnd dice, what would they look like?

Probably something basic. Silvery-blue or earthy green and brown, acrylic or resin.

do they collect anything (gems, bottles, keys, etc)?

On the tadpole journey, he grabs every book he comes across with the express intention of reading them. He doesn’t, but he likes to think maybe he will eventually. I don’t know if that counts, though

if either, are they part of the astarion/gale book club (magic & literature) or the wyll/shadowheart book club (trashy romance novels)?

My dude does not discriminate. He likes stories, he likes learning, he is naturally curious. and he’d read whatever if he gave himself the time. So. Y’know. While he never lets himself actually relax and read for funsies, if he did……¿Por qué no los dos?

if they had to be put in a “get along shirt” with a companion, who would it be?

Himself? I don’t know, maybe minthara, I haven’t gotten the chance to see what their dynamic might be yet. But he gets along pretty well with everyone… except he hates himself a lot, sooo….. Well. Hmm. Maybe not specific companions but situationally? He can become something of an asshole if people keep insisting on trying to explicitly/obviously care about and do things for him, even after he’s like ‘ha ha, don’t worry about me. seriously. don’t.’ So whomstever insists on giving a shit about him more than he’s comfortable with

do they prefer speak with dead or speak with animals?

speak with animals. he's accidentally a disney princess, apparently.....

what are their thoughts on clowns?

Just kinda like ‘…okay? i don’t get the fuss’ He has little experience with clowns, honestly, but they’re just kinda… there for him.

their companions are gossiping about them behind their back! who is it and what are they saying?

It’s all of them and they’re all bonding over thirsting over him. Honest to gods, everyone propositions him in game, it’s apparently canon that everyone has a fucking crush on him and i didn’t even have to do anything. Or, while out in the field and he’s busy elsewhere, Shadowheart and Astarion and Karlach all taking bets on the craziest shit they can get him to agree to do if asked because he’s a helper but also he just sometimes does stuff without thinking. He’d never agree to child murder, for example, but he did lick that spider, so…. Where would he go from there? Also in the beginning, i'm sure astarion and shadowheart (maybe others?) are trying to figure out what his deal is. in a 'nobody's that nice and helpful without expecting something in return, he probably kills puppies in his spare time' kind of way. not helped by the fact that he deflects any attempt to get to know him.

what makes them laugh? what does their laugh sound like?

Puns. When directed towards him, clever insults. Maybe a bit unexpectedly, but sex jokes. His laugh is soft. Restrained. As if letting himself express his amusement any louder than a brief, breathy chuckle might get him in trouble. If he does laugh loudly, he’ll cover his mouth, cut himself off and apologize, embarrassed

do they have any inside jokes among their companions?

None i can think of right now. insert the michael scott ‘would love to be part of one some day’ meme here, i suppose

what’s the description of their camp clothes in the inventory menu?

Something about how they’re stained and clearly have been patched many times over the years, though doneso hastily, for purely utilitarian reasons and with no regard for appearances. In a way on the opposite end of the ‘has had one real set of garments for years and so needs to repair his clothing often’ spectrum of astarion, i suppose

what’s the description of their underwear in the inventory menu?

‘Shabby, falling apart, and of little note. Just like their owner’ After the romance with Astarion starts in earnest something like ‘these have been lovingly mended sometime recently.’ would also mention, i’m sure, something fun that astarion would embroider on them.like ‘for astarion’s eyes only’ or ‘astarion was here’ or ‘hello, beautiful’ or something

how do they celebrate their birthday?

By pointedly ignoring it. What’s to celebrate? Which kinda makes me wanna write a thing where he accidentally reveals to karlach that it’s his birthday soon because she seems the most likely to be like ‘oh no, babes, we are fuckin celebrating this shit’. Because he’s her bestie and also she likes a party and i’m sure she wants an excuse to get drunk and eat cake, lmao. Not that she’d need one but, hey, she also gets to celebrate one of her favorite people in the world! win-win-win And she talks the rest of the crew into setting up a surprise party for him. Which, they’re fucking down, right? I’m sure they expect some discomfort on his side – he doesn’t do well with parties, he’s not used to people doing shit for him – but i don’t think anyone is prepared for him, after the initial surprise, becoming furious and storming off when he realizes the party is to celebrate him. Just… not fun all around

what modern day tv show would they binge over a weekend? do they get their LI to watch with them?

MythBusters. He doesn’t try to get Astarion to watch it with him, but I’m sure the dude would be into the chaotic nature of it all anyway. Like the episode where they like… blow a hole in someone’s house on accident or whatever? He’d be down for that

do you have a playlist for your tav? if so, what’s the title + description?

yeah. Not for bg3-verse specifically yet, and i actually have a few for various universes + a masterlist for all songs and prospective songs to sort through. But his general character playlist title is ‘could it be this misery will suffice?’ like his new tag, lol. No description, though.

if you were to try pickpocketing them, what would they be carrying?

Some gold, small hunting knife, mortar and pestle, an empty bottle, some random herbs, small notebook where he tries to keep a daily to-do list (his days are packed, even those dated before the whole tadpole thing, how in the hells could anyone fit this much shit into their days without collapsing???) his mother’s suicide note…

#fuck man maybe i'm biased #but oliver's great and more people should like. get to know him #i want to ramble about him to people :(((#character questions answered #tav qotd #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#bg3 #bideo gaems #to the void with love

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vagueiish · 6 months

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thinking about my boy oli and how i still think he'd be a terrible companion, but maybe not?

at the very least, i think i've kind of figured out what the... end choice? the actual major split in the road would be for his personal quest/arc. which, major spoilers for the ending of bg3, so...

but i think the real Big Choice in his companion quest would be during the 'who should become an ilithid' conundrum. majorly irrelevant if you trust the emperor, so maybe i'm not quite on the right track? because i'm not quite sure where else his story should lead other than 'has he come to value himself enough that he doesn't sacrifice himself at the end just because he thinks that's all he's good for?' and whether he offers to become a mindflayer or has to be persuaded or refuses.

because his arc/story, though the major themes kinda vibe with the rest of the group, is much more lowkey. he has no ties to baldur's gate -- that he's aware of, anyway, having spent his whole life thinking his mother was dead. not knowing she's alive and thriving in baldur's gate -- and no skin in any of the god/devil related shenanigans.

i suppose his patron could enter the arena and remind him of his own pact, but his pact involves him having to have a child before a certain age.... and, honestly, that whole angle does not sound appealing to me right now, lmao. i suppose it would tie into autonomy or whatever, but that feels like a whole ugly can of worms and i already have a plot bunny for that for later on, post-game. it's quite fucky!

but his whole thing is that, his whole life, he's been told that he's ruined lives simply by being born. he feels he has to make up for it by doing whatever he can for others. which makes him perfect as a completionist pc, lmao, it makes character sense he'd do All The Things. as a companion... eh, not so much? maybe throughout the game he offers to do some of the more dangerous things to keep the pc from getting hurt - 'hey, I can read the spooky book if you'd like. that way nobody important gets cursed, should it actually be evil!' 'hey, maybe you should let the bard try his dangerous procedure out on me! that way nobody important gets hurt!''hey, lae'zel, maybe you should let me use the ominous looking chair first. as a test.'(which, I wish that was a fuckin dialogue option, lmao) etc. but i'm...not sure how to make that into a questline

but the major themes of the others involve subjugation to others in some sense. breaking free from that -- or not it's a choice. oliver... his arc, as i'm conceiving of it doesn't really have that breaking free moment? or maybe i'm just looking at it wrong. because all the others' shit kind of boils down to 'do you see worth in yourself? are you worth the effort of healing/recovery? is reclaiming yourself worth the fear and possible danger that comes with eschewing all you've ever known?' or something around there. right?

oli... i don't know. he doesn't really have anything to break away from, at least not in the immediate area. he's already far from home. again he has no immediate connections to the plot or the city, other than his mother, who would definitely factor into his questline.

maybe he starts to realize that what's happening back home actually has been shitty for him this whole time, and he actually hasn't deserved it? he doesn't actually ruin lives simply by existing? maybe if he's not the leader, no longer the one who has to figure everything out for everyone else and so can distract himself from his own issues...he's forced to deal with his own issues.

maybe it's he's finally realizing he's never really been his own person? since his parents died when he was like... 5. the vast majority of what he's done has been for others. p much everything. he doesn't even join the party for himself but to help the others with their tadpoles. the same fuckin issue he has.

i don't know. kinda feels like i'm on the cusp of something, but my brain is fucky. i really do like the idea of the culmination of his personal arc being the mindflayer choice, getting to a place where he cares enough about himself to say no, actually, he doesn't want to do it. maybe to a place he cares enough about himself that you don't even get the option to persuade/intimidate him. he's more than what he can do for others. more than running himself ragged and making sacrifices. he gets to be selfish.

#obviously i could retool his story to make sense for a companion #but i like him more lowkey than the others #relatively anyway. his backstory has some soap opera level drama surrounding him #but it's largely irrelevant to the happenings of bg3. so far #i want so badly to ramble more and more about my boy #and this is my tumlr so fuck it i will #even if i'm rambling into the void lmao #other random companiom!oli facts:#he'd only be romaceable by dudes. and it'd take a long while anyway. it'd almost be like a secret romance #kind of a 'wait. youre bangable?'#player!astarion would have a bit of an advantage in romancing him for Reasons that arent actually all that great #i think it'd be fun if astarion weren't the pc and wasnt being pursued at all #and was refused by the pc when asking for a bite #if there were a chance he and oli could start something #which would be nice if companions could romance each other anyway #but idk. i feel like there's some nice oliver story arc shit in the romance with astarion but i cant articulate it right now #astarion seeks initially only to use oli #oli can see nothing in himself other than what he can give to others #or something idk man #oc: could it be this misery will suffice? (oliver)#bg3 #bideo gaems #to the void with love

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