I have always loved people in a way that would allow them to tear me apart. it took me far too long to realize I should stop loving people who are willing to do that to me.

To You, Frank O'Hara

[ Text ID: What is more beautiful than night / and someone in your arms ]

I am here,

For you,

With you,

Beside you,

Behind you,

Wherever you need me,

I will be here,

Always.

I do not want a conditional love. I will not be the girl who is only loved when it is convenient. I will not be the girl who is only loved when the time is right. I will not be the girl who is only loved when her shape is appropriate. I will not be the girl who is only loved when you decide she deserves it. I would rather live loveless for the whole of my life than compromise for even a second and live a life being told I am not enough as I am, all the time. Because I will love with the ferocity of a blazing sun, unconditional and eternal - so why can I not want the same? It is not impossible, I am wholly capable and exist as proof that it can be done. Any excuse otherwise is simply worthless, a lie to pretend infatuation could ever be love. Love is loud and obnoxious and treats your insides like a poison. It ruins your mind, your soul, your touch, your heart. It takes every part of your being and makes it it's own, as if they never belonged to you in the first place. The only cure is them and their happiness. You can handle the pain if it is in their name, you can take the fire.. but if it's true, they will never let you - because they would feel the same flames of hell without you. I want that. I won't settle for less.

Date Written: 10th of November, 2023

“I never admitted I loved you because you already looked at someone the way I looked at you.”

I want someone who wants me as much as i want them. To fight for me when i want to leave, and hold me on days that are hard. I just want to finally be loved in the way that i so deeply love others.

You will ask for a match and I will give you a wildfire. I don't know how to love small.

Erin Van Vuren

~ Happy Kiss Day ~

🔪Azusa & Rose🌹

Kiss me little by little

bit by bit.

Kiss me

tenderly yet brutally.

lovingly yet painfully.

Kiss me and destroy me.

- Poem by Arun Maji.

FULL POEM

Ok so I’m a little late doing this since I had work all day and a meeting. It was such a busy day but I still wanted to do something cute on kiss day.

• Photo done by Me on IMVU and then I edited it on the Prequel App to make it more cartoon style and I added Azusa’s room background on the Facetune App. •

Longing

-

There's something about the smell of

Spring on the night breeze

That makes me ache for you.

The way it wraps around my skin,

How time seems to slow down.

Seconds seem to drag in both a tedious

And amazing way.

I want to sit with you outside.

And see how you look beneath the moon.

It's warm enough,

I could sneak under your jacket.

Steal your scent.

Hold onto you.

I crave that intimacy.

Where you tell me about your day,

And I watch your eyes reflect the stars.

And that smell of spring

Begins to tangle with

You.

x

my love for you comes in crashing waves, hitting against the shore. sometimes strong, sometimes soft. i drown on you as if you were quicksand, i can’t escape but neither do i try. 

when mitski said "i love everybody, because i love you" it expresses accurately how it feels to be in love, to be overflowing with it. to see and feel love in everything, to quite literally feel that love is in the air.

she told me i could do whatever i wanted to her, so i held her the way i longed to be held for years

Flirtation, Rita Dove

I look up at you

Then look down at my hands,

I see ‘I love you’

Calloused on my fingertips.

Words that have never left my mouth.

'It's so cold,' I say You snuggle closer Your legs tangled up in mine 'You are so cold!' I say As your icy feet drag up my calf I hear you chuckle Your breath on my neck It warms me up I grumble as I hold you tighter 'I wish it was warmer,' I lie I don't wish it was warmer I did, before When you were not so close When I slept alone Now, I only wish for you To get closer Closer still Till your soul binds to mine Till I forget when we separate Closer So I can feel you in my mind Where you are All the time

— inked-withlove

"I tried not to drown myself in this ocean of feelings but always ended up gasping for oxygen."