sadly this is how we end (LS2 x OP81)
oscar misses their meetup again and logan breaks down.
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SHIT. Oscar quickly manoeuvred his way through the crowd. He can’t miss this again. He missed this for the previous two months, and rescheduled this one. He can’t believe he forgot it again.
How would Logan feel? Oscar feels like giving himself a slap across the face. His stupidity is about to ruin everything
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Oscar laughs till his core starts to hurt. He clutches it while leaning forward.
“Mate- it’s not that funny…” Logan says, a smile forming on his face seeing Oscar absolutely lose it over a slightly funny meme.
Oscar gasps for air as he struggles to form words, “No… you… you don’t…”
“Okay Osc, breathe…” Logan says while patting Oscar’s shoulder gently.
He can’t help but smile more seeing Oscar this happy. Honestly, when he first met Oscar, he never thought that he’d ever see Oscar smile, yet alone laugh.
Oscar finally breathes in and stops laughing for a while, his cheeks are red and his eyes have tears of joy in them. He laughed really hard.
“Was it that funny?” Logan says, raising an eyebrow.
“Yes. Absolutely.” Oscar smiles while responding, clearly holding back more laughter.
“Well… I’ll keep that in mind… yea?” Logan chuckles.
This is amazing. It’s just him, Oscar and their emotions. Logan feels loved.
This will never end.
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This will never end.
Logan sits on the bench near the beach. He holds onto a sandwich, one which he bought from the convenience store across the street. He bites into it while watching into the sunset.
He shuts his eyes tightly to prevent the tears from spilling. A sting strikes his throat as he holds it in. He stuffs part of the sandwich into his mouth in a solid attempt to stop his tears.
Osc🐨
[Logan] I'm here
[Logan] 10 missed calls
He turns off his phone and continues eating his sandwich. He picks out a few vegetables which he doesn’t like and places them into the plastic container which came with the sandwich.
It starts to drizzle, Logan sighs, picking his things up and shifting to outside the convenience store, under shelter.
“Logan!” Oscar's voice rings through.
Logan turns his head to the side and sees Oscar running over.
Logan lowers his head and stuffs the final piece of sandwich into his mouth, chewing it silently as Oscar walks over.
There’s an ache in his heart which threatens to spill out as tears.
Oscar stands next to Logan, who’s sitting on the bench.
“Logan, I’m sorry. I was so caught up in everything, I had my phone silenced. I didn’t mean to miss it.” Oscar says, almost pleading.
Logan just subtly nods and dusts his hands, standing up to face Oscar.
“Really?” He questions.
“Yea- I mean, seriously, I wouldn’t miss our meetups, you know that.”
Logan scoffs, “That’s starting to not be the case.”
Oscar hesitates.
“Sorry. I really…” Oscar sighs, “I- I know it seems really bad on me right now-”
“It does. It really does.” Logan musters out amidst his stinging throat and burning lungs.
Oscar stones, a look of surprise crosses his face, like he didn’t expect Logan to say that.
“If you don’t want to do this I’m fine with not doing this again.” Logan says, his voice sounding eerily calm.
“No- that’s totally not what I want. I really want to continue-” Oscar tries.
“Then why’d you miss it three times…” Logan’s voice cracks, “Three times you left me alone.”
Once is a mistake. Twice is a coincidence. Three times is a pattern.
Oscar freezes almost instantly, worry laced in his voice, “Logan- man, I’m seriously sorry for those times, I really had to skip them.”
“And what happened this time? Lando’s party? Another last minute meeting? Training session?” Logan knows he’s being pretty annoying right now but he can’t stop. A burning sensation fully takes over his lungs.
Logan takes a deep breath and tears brim in his eyes, which he wipes away immediately.
Thunder roars in the background. A pretty suitable backdrop for this.
“I’ll make this right. I promise Logan, I will.”
“You missed your chance to do that.” Logan grits his teeth in a last ditch attempt to not cry, “Should’ve done that months ago.”
“Logan c’mon man, you can’t just say that.” Oscar tries again, “I mean- we’ve been friends for this long- can’t just be a few times right?”
He sounds so manipulative right now.
“It isn’t just those few times Oscar.” Logan says, his fists clenching up, “It’s been too long. Every single time I needed you, you weren’t there. Every single time I asked for you, you didn’t deliver. Every. Single. Fucking. Time.”
Oscar wants to say something but nothing comes out.
Oscar takes a step closer to Logan and Logan flinches, quickly backing away.
“Logan- I’m sorry. I’m sorry, please… you know-” Oscar stutters.
“I used to know you… then you changed… everything changed.” Logan scoffs, stuffing his hands into his pockets as more tears surfacing and one of them flows down, tracing his cheek to his cheekbones.
Oscar runs his hand through his hair, his voice pleading, “We’ve been friends for years Logan, you know I won’t just throw that all away.”
“Would you though?” Logan questions which silences Oscar again, “You threw it away in seconds… seconds… when you chose something else over me. Your career over me. Your reputation over me. Everything over me.”
Logan knows how dramatic he’s sounding but he can’t take it anymore. The words just spill out his mouth, his filter disappearing and the words all coming out like a rapid fire machine, unfiltered, pure rage.
“You placed me at the very bottom of your list Oscar.” Logan’s muscles tense up, turning his head away.
“No-” Oscar replies, “No. That’s so not how I see you-”
Oscar clears his throat, “I- I mean you have always been my best friend, a priority. I’ve never seen you as anything less.”
Logan finds that harder to believe, increasingly harder as the months went on.
Logan feels all the rage in him build up, Oscar’s gaslighting him. Oscar’s trying to make Logan come back, like he’s been doing all those years, just fishing out Logan’s pity all those years.
It was a sick joke.
They used to be everything, they used to be each other’s worlds.
Then Oscar walked out.
Liar.
“Liar. You’re a liar.” Logan lashes out.
“Logan-”
“NO! No more of your bullshit. I’m done-”
Then, Logan turns around and storms off into the thunderstorm, he’s drenched but Logan refuses to look back, he doesn’t want to be lured back into Oscar’s sick mind-fuck, he doesn’t want to be Oscar’s little pity puppet.
He hears Oscar calling out for him. Logan! Logan please come back. He shuts his eyes tightly and wipes off his tears, which don’t really help since he’s wet already.
Logan quickly runs off before he changes his mind or Oscar does something.
He hates this.
He falls to his knees in the middle of an alleyway. The rain beating down mercilessly onto him.
Why can’t he ever have one good thing in his life?
Nothing ever works out.
He walks into his hotel lobby, the judgmental stares of the people around him as he trudges across the marble floor, leaving a wet trail. He gets to his room as quickly as possible.
Even the one thing he put all his hard faith into.
Logan sobs violently, bawling his eyes, all his tears spilling out.
He punches the floor and his fist turns red.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck. FUCK.” Logan swears. He covers his face, his wet hair is in a disgustingly stale position and his entire body feels heavy. His legs don’t want to support his body so he stays on his knees for a while.
He feels it all crumbling down, like waves crashing against a sandcastle. That felt real, their relationship was built on sand, that would eventually fall to the elements. Was it?
Was he being too dramatic?
Logan shakes his head violently, the tears rolling down his cheeks endlessly. Anything else would be better right now, he’d even rather be in training right now. Not alone, in his hotel room, feeling trapped by the four walls.
He cries more.
He chokes on more tears.
He hates this. He hates everything. He hates Oscar. He hates himself.
He doesn’t know what he’s supposed to hate.
“fuck.” Logan whispers softly, dragging his body so he’s leaning against a wall, tucking his head in between his knees.
Wishing everything would be different.
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