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wildcatofgreen · 2 years

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Nobody had called her all day.

Strange. She expected at least one call.

Maybe it was just a slow day at the 'Sphere? It can happen sometimes.

Even then, it'd be nice to get a call to hang out with Sony. Take her mind off some things.

Not that she wasn't doing so with Cory--messing with her was always fun, but...

She missed him, for some reason? Maybe she just expected a call that badly.

She really shouldn't worry about it. If he didn't call, then it's all fine. No need to worry so damn much.

She waved her sister goodbye at the end of the day--Cory said she knew how to get home from the museum. She liked the walk--or, the, hovering??? Her boots were weird. And cool. She kinda wants some like her's.

She let her sister be. She needed to think a bit, anyway.

...

Could she really tell her how she feels, after all of this time? It'd be... kind of awkward, wouldn't it?

Imagine, walking up to your best friend and former crush and going ''hi i was in love with you once okay byyyyye''. That'd be stupid. It'd elicit an awkward reaction and she'd be made fun of for it for her entire life. Stones, she didn't want to go through that kind of hell.

...But What choice did she have, really? To tell Lilac how she felt, or to have these lingering feelings grow to be worse than a nuisance. Sure, she could keep it under control now, but what if Lilac came back. She knows what she said--back at the tree house? Really, Carol?

She grimaced. Stupid, stupid wildcat. Can't have her cake and eat it, too. She just can't.

Sony's the one she wants, not Lilac. If she could keep him for forevermore, then she'd be fine! Completely fine!!!

This concept just can't stay in her head though. She's always gotta be the selfish wildcat. Always gotta say and do something stupid. Always always always.

Groaned. Fucking hell, she hated this dilemma. If she was normal, if she was fine, it'd be okay! Everything would be.

But nooooo. Carol Tea can't have that, can she? There just needs to be something, huh?

Whatever.

She's gotta think of a way to tell her. Maybe sooner, rather than later? But how soon is soon, really...?

---

"Hi Carol!!!"

Why was Milla in her room? What?

Wait was that the pipsqueak??? Why the hell...

"Heeeeey, Milla," she put a hand at her hip, squinting, "Can you please tell me what the hell you're doing?"

She and the monkey were sat on her floor, piles of papers surrounding them. Lots of written ones were at their feet, too. Couldn't parse anything from the doorway, though.

"Lady Neera asked us to study your gemerald! We had to go through aaaaaaaaaaall her notes, and then make a bunch of new ones!!!"

"Freezey buddy has lots of notes about your weird gem!!! But me and bunny buddy studied ALL OF IT!!!" The monkey boy raised his hands in the air, smiling wide and proud.

Sorry, what? "Bunny buddy?" Carol was extremely unamused, and slightly confused, by the name.

"He calls me bunny buddy now!" Milla seemed excited, at least, "It's... an improvement from earbird. We're still working on other names!"

"Riiiight, okay--can you tw--"

"OH RIGHT!" The hound shot straight up, then went over to the wildcat's desk, picking up two objects. She then walked over to her wildcat friend, a bright smile on her face. She offered the two objects to Carol--one being a small communicator, designed to be placed inside of the ear of a feline. The other, the wildcat's phone. "Lilac and Sonar have been trying to contact you all day!!!" She put a hand to her chin, one of her ears raised in the air, "I wonder why."

"Oh, okay. Thank--"

LILAC????? AND SONAR???? BOTH OF THEM???? AT THE SAME FUCKING TIME??????????

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO. THIS WASN'T HAPPENING. THIS GENUINELY WASN'T FUCKING HAPPENING.

SWIPE THE PHONE AND COMMUNICATOR FROM MILLA, WALK OUT OF HER OWN ROOM AND SLAM THE DOOR SHUT.

CALL SONAR, IMMEDIATELY.

Ring, ring, ring...

Ring, ring, ri--

"Carol??? Is actually you or is it Milla again--"

"It's me!!! It's me!!!!" She was fucking trembling.

"Oh thank goodness--I thought something happened to you. Zao needed you at the Battlesphere, so I went and called you like you asked, but,"

The rest of his words failed to reach her ears.

...Holy fucking stones, she left her phone this morning. After being so confident about the calling thing. Foxtrot sierra, she's gonna...

UGH! THE ONE TIME, EVERY TIME, EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME THIS SAME THING HAPPENS. STONES DAMN IT.

"Babe? You there?"

Shit, right, she was still on the phone. Complain later, Carol. This wasn't about, well, Lilac at least. She can deal with that anot--

LILAC FUCKING CALLED HER?????

"SORRY SONY, I'LL CALL YOU BACK LATER! BYE, I LOVE YOU!!!"

Click!

CALL LILAC, CALL LILAC, CALL LILAC, CALL LILAC, FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING CALL HER.

Ring, ri--

"Carol?!?!?!"

Holy shit.

Her cadence. Her tone. Her very obvious concern. She could hear it all through the telephone. She almost wanted to scream.

"L-Lilac??? That, that's you, right???"

She was still in disbelief. There was no fucking way--

"Carol!!! I'm so happy!!! I thought something happened to you, and I was really super worried, and, uh," the dragonness trailed off.

It was quiet for a moment. The wildcat eagerly awaited her friend's respo--

"Hi!!!!!"

"Hi Lilac!!!!!"

Even just hearing her voice again was music to her ears. Holy shit holy shit holy shit.

"How's uh, how's the finding Merga thing, going?" She wanted to ask so many questions, so many, but she had to play it cool. Play it real cool, like she always does!

"Good! Not good, actually. I mean, seeing all the sights Avalice has to offer is really something. But I haven't found a lick of her--not yet. I might be getting close, but," she trailed off again.

Silence.

Carol swears she can hear her own heartbeat--

"SO!" She started again, laughing to try and play it off, "How is everything? How's the marriage?"

"Oh it's going gr--"

What.

"Did... What did you just say?" Trembling again. Trembling trembling trembling she did not just ask about that. Right? She misheard her, right???

"How's everything!!!!!!"

"After that!"

"How's the... m-marriage?"

Click.

How the fuck did she know about that already???

#carol's cruisings #carol's adventures #long time no see dragon girl #AAA screams #realizing that those tags are picture tags but whatever ill deal with it LATER probably #wandering dragon #grand alchemist hound

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zibiscusloon · 2 years

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When Chippy meet BonBon (Small story featuring your oc).

A figure can be seen with stars in her eyes but as she spotted a castle nearby. "Is this... is this really Sugarland?"

"IT SURE IS!" A voice stated startling the youngsteer

Just then, the cake-like castle fires and a woman comes out. She spins in the air and tip toes to the ground as she introduces herself, "My name is Baroness Von Bon Bon." And leans to the youngster, "And today's your lucky day." Lifts herself up and spreads her arms in the air, "You get to eat aaaaaaaaaaall the sweet treats you desire." and leans forward with a big grin on her face.

"Hiya Baroness, Names Chippy Chops, are you the witch?"

BonBon blinked "Am I what now?"

"The witch, you know the guardian of the sweet that eats little kids when they eat the candy."

"Ha! your funny! I don't eat kids, I only eat sweets!" Bonbon stated

"But there are rules right?" Chippy asked

BonBon blinked again "Well yeah, two, RULE NUMBER 1) don't tell anyone about Sugarland."

"Oh you don't have to worry about that, I am a great secret keeper." Chippy stated "Whats the second one."

"Why to eat all the candy you want, except of course, my castle!" Bon Bon stated

"Oh that make sense, that castle is totally alive." Chippy stated

"... What- how?" Bon Bon asked, feel as if someone messed with her script.

"Oh it's obvious." Chippy stated "Anyhow your nicer than a witch, you at least give out warning before hand, even if its one of those tempting methods. WELP BETTER GET HOME BEFORE MOM WORRIES!" At this she broke a small candy cane tree and began to lug it him.

The Baroness blinked confused wondering what just happened.

#submission #DUDE. I LOVE THIS. THANK YOU SO MUCH OH MY GOSH-#Chippy being a sassy lil shit as always-#disaster utensils

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pesterloglog · 5 months

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Roxy Lalonde

Act 6, page 5658

tipsyGnostalgic [TG] began pestering golgothasTerror [GT]

TG: jakester

TG: guess who

TG: i cannot say who

TG: i am totes undercover here

TG: on derse

TG: up to my see thru butt in wily espionage

TG: it is getting so cloak and dagger in this bitch u dont even no

TG: the carapace men are all wearing jaunty suits

TG: its like i have become magically sealed in a lame spy fic and now im havin adventures that make no sense

TG: hell even i am dressed 2 kill too bad none of these gents can see what a fuckin fox im being

TG: i would get one to light my cigarette so hard, and then wink this whole bunch of times @ him

TG: and then seduce him for his secrets !!!!

TG: ooh la la this adventure is steaming up

TG: such a racy twist would surely fog up their shiny black shells

TG: nah but bangin a chess dude probably aint feasible or even remotely advisable to try

TG: i wonder how that would work, i dont even...

TG: well you seen em right they p universally do not wear pants

TG: like what is even down there

TG: not a whole lot

TG: ok jake we are getting sidetracked here lets FOCUS

TG: and yo...

TG: dont think that my present jocular attitude and introspection on the subject of chess guy dong means u are off the hook for ruining janeys b day

TG: ur still in some hot water for that pal

TG: you owe her something BIG to make up for your tooly ways

TG: lemme know if you want to brainstorm w me about how to make it up to her

TG: try 2 get your ass out of the dog house

TG: and if you wanna talk about what happened with dirk thats coo 2...

TG: i guess...

TG: i will fix all our shitty friendships single handedly if i got to

TG: like savin 3 dumb bawling teens from a burning building

TG: and then hose their stupid asses down while the building collapses behind me

TG: but enougha that

TG: it is not time for feelings it is time for action

TG: which means you are just the man for the job

TG: the job...

TG: of

TG: doing action

TG: shut up :p

TG: we need to get ready for a battle tomorries

TG: a big one

TG: some sort of like

TG: STRIFE ROYALE

TG: so its time 2 prepare

TG: u should get to prospit

TG: i can explain more when youre there but as long as you havent left yet

TG: i think we could use a bunch of new gear too

TG: gear which i think we shall agree must be diagnosed with THE SICKNESS

TG: ur years of medical training have all been leading to this moment

TG: 2 make sure our showdown shit is ill as heck

TG: so maybe

TG: you can get started on that?

TG: jake??

TG: jaaaaaake

TG: omfg

TG: what is going on

TG: why wont anybody talk to me???

TG: what am i fuckin invisible here

TG: wait...

TG: oh

TG: heheh

TG: no bullshit theres still no excusing ppl ignoring me!

TG: I D not G A fuck WHAT magic bling im rockin or how voidey im being

TG: u a holes are behaving straight up RUDE i dont need this shit

TG: fuuuuuuuck AAAAAAAAAAALL YAAAAAAAAAAALL

tipsyGnostalgic [TG] ceased pestering golgothasTerror [GT]

#homestuck #roxy lalonde #homestuck act 6 #page 5658 #page 5659 #page 5660 #page 5661 #page 5662 #page 5663 #page 5664 #page 5665 #page 5666 #homestuck act 6 act 5 #homestuck act 6 act 5 act 1

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tf-when-i · 1 year

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I had more than 100 tabs open with many different but all important things. Referents for my uni thesis, books I wanna read, webtoons I'm up to date with, websites I can use later on, etc etc etc ETC. Thing I KEEP THERE BC OTHERWISE I WOULDNT REMEMBER AND I REALLY REALLY WANT TO REMEMBER THEM. Well, I just got aaaaaAAAAAALL my tabs delayed and I dont even fucking know why or how. So yea. Great fucking day.

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kmp78 · 1 year

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Cara posted a view from her home - And we don’t consider Cara’s posting trolling? I have never seen someone so pathetically starving for attention.

Well no not in this case because that's her house. She lives there too so if she wants to share pics then that's her right. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Thinnie on the other hand got 1 night of fucking at Casa Leto and couldn't wait to whip out her camera to record aaaaaaaaaaall sorts of angles. 🙄

Wildly different scenarios.

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bogkeep · 3 years

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ah, the mortifying ordeal of knowing others...

it’s a pleasant surprise when the guy making somewhat crude jokes seems to be a lot more respectful about your identity and asking good faith questions about it than you’d initially assume... and a dissappointment when the guy you’ve known longer and better turns out to be an “i’m not homophobic BUT” kinda guy. like ultimately, both are ~*Respecting My Identity*~ but one is able to admit he might say something wrong and the other would be feel ATTACKED if i said something is transphobic.

#ego #yes yes i know being part of a club where most of the members are the stark opposite of my usual social circle is a high risk sport #(demographic-wise that is)#but my archery club is mostly good people i trust #and i personally am willing to have good faith conversations with most anyone regardless of their Lgbt Knowledge #but we gotta be able to get past the semantics yknow?????#i will assume your intentions are good if you'll do me the same courtesy #and like yes sure tell me aaaaaaaaaaall about how you think pride parades are counterproductive #when i've volunteered at several and even held a speech at one once like... what do u want me to say to that #i cant force u to have opinions! many queer people dislike pride parades for the same reason!#but if youre telling me youve never even been to one??????#sorry for the vent adjacent post i am letting the frustration from this one conversation trickle off of me

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mego42 · 3 years

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Shamelessly stealing @foxmagpie’s monthly rec thing without the ability to get my life together to do these on a monthly basis so, seasonal recs! So excited to see if I manage to do this again with anything remotely resembling consistency but i’ve been keeping the notes for approximately 43 years (or since ~september, whatever that means) so by god i’m gonna use them.

found my thrill - s_t_c_s / @sothischickshe

Turner POV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

guys turner is SO OBSESSED with Beth and Rio

both canonically and in this fic

it’s gr9

also features a weirdly soothing and relatable cord untangling moment as a metaphor

truly disturbingly relatable turner pov tbh

relentless boomer disdain, always a plus

led to the creation of this monstrosity, not sure what kind of a monster would do that

War In My Mind - mintletters16

Backread!!!!

post-213, gorgeous character study

guaranteed to make you feEl stUfF

I really love the like, cyclical, fractured pattern of Beth’s internal monologue, it gives the whole thing a really affecting at times dreamy, at times haunted vibe

the end twist is *chef’s kiss*

mourning bells - Ejunkiet / @ejunkiet

Backread!!!!

Later s2 era, Rio’s at a funeral, gets drunk and calls Beth

V short, kind of…..mmm, not sweet, but almost? Idk

It’s got a wistful sort of almost/i can be quiet with you vibe that i go extremely bonkers for

delinquents - foxmagpie / @foxmagpie

Lol are any of you actually not reading this yet?

g o d ch 8 where do i start

First off how ABSOLUTELY VERY DARE for the tragic angst that is delinquents!beth boland. This poor baby, this precious bean. MUST PROTEC

SHE’S TRYING HER BEST AND I LOVE HER

zero percent deserves dean’s clammy hands, no i have not forgotten, tattooed on my brain, will never forgive

I also love love love love LOVE the ruby/stan subplot happening

(and ruby’s mom!!!!!) (seriously though you write the best moms)

oh god and baby beth starting to have confusing feelings about rio?????? *chef’s kiss*

p sure i was just like, straight screaming the entire end of the chapter

the dugout is like, pure serotonin

I can’t even talk about the closet

tHe teNsiOn

thank you i will take eleventy billion

don't give it a hand, offer it a soul - medievalraven / @medievalraven

am a desperate heaux for any fic that features rio and mick friendship

you are all incredibly shocked i know

still would not be mad if this swerved into rio x mick fake dating but beth x rio is cool too i guess

Speaking of things i am a desperate heaux for: DIANE!!!!!!!!

and DATING ANNIE???????????? Blessed

honestly this fic is worth it purely for the assertion that mick watches queer eye

Why don't we go to Venus? - watermelonriddles / @bensonstablers

another grief study!

apparently i was working through some stuff in september, idk, that was like 4 years ago

considering it’s the premise of the fic, i don’t think it’s a spoiler to say this fic is canon divergent and working with the premise that rio killed beth in 302

he is uh, not coping well

extremely haunted you might say

lots of marcus and rhea which is a delight!

rhea is to good for him tbh

i said what i said

truly top notch dream (nightmare?) sequences

the conversation at the end is extremely uncalled for

drop the game - Ejunkiet / @ejunkiet

Backread!!!!

Am going to die mad Beth and Rio didn’t hook up in 211 but luckily this fic scratched the itch

(temporarily, it’s a fairly permanent itch)

Bonus rec: missing scene series i wanna do bad things to you featuring 2x02 and 2x04

Viva Voce - zetuslapetus / @querenaxx

Whoops we woke up married Vegas shenanigans!!

So cute!!!!! So sexy!!!!!

What more do you want?

am desperately obsessed with how beth can’t help stalking rio

feels right, feels organic

this makes me feel a lot of stuff about how they could be without their canon garbage between them

🎶 we could’ve had it aaaaaaaaaaall 🎶

you showed me colors (i can't see them with anyone else) - gild_fire / @gild-and-fire

really into the use of color to illustrate beth’s emotional state, i feel like there’s a word for that but idk what it is

UNIMPORTANT

really nice job capturing beth’s inner vulnerability balanced by her outer stubbornness

am DESPERATELY into Mick playing matchmaker

more please???????

Both Sides of the Law - JoeyLee / @joeyjoeylee

LAW SCHOOL AU! I suuuuuuper love Beth and Rio here (alt pov!! a gift!!!!) I love how initially prickly they are, I love how it’s evolving into a grudging respect, I love how INCREDIBLY AND HILARIOUSLY OBSESSED WITH EACH OTHER THEY ARE and neither one of them seems to see it

listen I know we’re all already foaming at the mouth over this one but as it’s gonna go down as one of my all time favorites it bears repeating/rereccing

cannot stress enough how masterful the use of POV is here, both voices feel completely true and distinct and I love how the alternating chapters revisit, reveal and emphasize pieces of each other

i can’t talk about this fic without hyperventilating

I LOVE IT SO MUCH YOU GUYS

the slow burn is going to ACTUALLY KILL ME

rip, no regrats

Earned It - wakeupflawless / @wakeupflawless

spanking

that’s it that’s the pitch

H O T

living for beth’s exit in the first chapter, rio and i are both incredibly into it

second chapter also features violently possessive Rio who cannot deal with anyone messing with his girl so if that’s your thing boy howdy get on it

shake, baby, shake - openhearts

backread!!!!!

according to my bookmarks this was a reread but ???????

must’ve read it in the fugue state that followed reading for a moment we were strangers which is gr9 and I believe I have recced it before. If not, horrible oversight, reccing it now

beth and Rio POV lead up to the bathroom break, beautifully done, low-key feel bad reccing it bc the end point of both chapters makes me want to throw things but it’s super worth it for the tEnsiOn. ENJOY

What the Sea Wants, the Sea Will Have - flashindie / @pynkhues

I’m assuming all of y’all are already reading this

If not OH MY GOD FIX YOUR LIVES

P I R A T E A U

I’m sorry maybe you didn’t hear me piRaTE aU

meticulously researched, brain-meltingly vibrant, already painfully sexy slow-burning PIRATE AU

god where to start okay so first off, the world-building here straight up breaks my brain, sophie’s put in the work and it SHOWS

second, the atmosphere. i’m generally a pretty like, vague mental picture sort of reader but the sensory detail here grabs you by the throat and like, forcibly hauls you in whether your brain’s wired that way or no

and hey speaking of throats if you, like me, go a little funny about the knees at the idea of beth holding a knife to rio’s throat (he’s fine, calm down), there’s a v excellent beth-in-a-barrel moment for you

oh christ and the sexy tension

it’s gonna be a race to see which slow burn takes me out first, this or law school

Stunner - foxmagpie / @foxmagpie

Another high school AU, this time with baby Rio absolutely head over heels for his older sister’s bff

stunner!Rio has an emotional earnestness about him that I feel like delinquents!Rio has already outgrown and it’s so SWEET I can’t get enough

Desperately cute!!!!!!

alL he waNts iS foR beTh tO bE hiS girL

also unreasonably angsty???????

ANN ARBOR IS NOT THAT FAR MEGAN

A Heart's A Heavy Burden - tooshyforthis / @bathroombreaks

Howl’s Moving Castle AU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love Howl’s!!!!!!!!!!!

perfect opp to roast Rio for being a Dramatique Heaux

and it’s gonna be 9 chapters?????? H Y P E

author’s note boldly presumes I did not know I needed this AU when the reality is I did in fact know I needed this AU, I just wasn’t expecting anyone to deliver

so blessed

author also claims to not be team nose stud and yet it features prominently in all its magnificent glory

what is the truth dot gif

A Bit of a Stretch - septiembre / @septiembur

SO????? CUTE?????????

would be on this list for Rio calling Beth E alone tbh

really really really really really love this Rio POV of being settled into a relationship with Beth

It manages to be sweetly domestic af while still holding the edge that makes brio brio which is a neat trick

@septiembur may be a witch

beth’s approach to getting rio to do yoga with her is hilarious and exactly right, canon-typical amounts of subtlety

1000000/10

Post Break-Up Sex - femalegothic / @bethsuglywigs

stg this was called Hit Shuffle

no matter

h O T

with a side of damn i’ve made some questionable choices in my life haven’t i introspection

(no regrats tho)

(esp not with this fic)

not the point of the fic by a long shot but i’m also extremely obsessed with Weed Eddie, so real

She drains my soul... she drains it not - niham87 / @niham87

ABSOLUTELY OBSESSED WITH THIS CONCEPT

am a complete sucker for paranormal world building that satirizes bureaucracy

Is that a trope? If so that’s my favorite

I did it. I’m picking a single favorite. You know what that is growth dot gif

ANYWAY i love the concept, i love the humor, i love beth instantly clicking with annie

I love her and mick’s sort of grudging professional courtesy

Love beth as a champion of environmental responsibility and all of the underworld being like …...okay??

cannot wait to see where this goes

Nine-Tenths - riosnecktattoo / @riosnecktattoo

*INCOHERENT PTERODACTYL SCREECHING*

sometimes i think about rio putting beth’s hair in a ponytail and have to go lie down

science please explain why this rUinS mE

wait hold on i skipped ahead

HEY KIDS DO YOU LIKE UNBEARABLY CUTE DOMESTIC TENDERNESS

opens with rio sleepily holding beth’s hand to his heart so that’s the kind of thing you’ll be dealing with

uGH theY’RE sO CUTe

idk why precisely but rio adding hair ties to his bracelet collection is my undoing every time

Missed Call - foxmagpie / @foxmagpie

Rio doesn’t come home from a job when he’s supposed to. Beth (and I!!!!!!!) slowly loses her mind

Truly a masterpiece of rising tension

Will literally never forgive her for calling this light angst

I was SO STRESSED OUT

The first person to point out there was an author’s note at the beginning I obvs didn’t read is getting blocked

crush - foxmagpie / @foxmagpie

Listen even though this is centered around two OCs, they are OCs FROM a (n iconic) brio fic AND Beth, Ruby and Rio all make cameos (I mean, Rio’s pretty present since he lives in Mar’s mind rent free bc they are THE SWEETEST MOST ADORABLE BEST OF FRIENDS so idk if i’d call it a cameo but whatever)

and even if it didn’t feature any official GG characters I’d still rec is bc that’s mY SON AND this fic is TOO CUTE

I have so many feelings over mar and rio growing up and not knowing how to cope with girls becoming a Thing in their life and how it affects their friendship and mar feeling left behind but (SPOILERS) at the end of the story rio starts feeling that too and it’s so poignant knowing how that’s going to continue in delinquents

while mar may be my son, i also claim elena’s #1 stan status

before you’re like meg you’re only reccing it bc it’s a bday present ask yourselves do i really strike you as the kind of person that wouldn’t be equally obnoxious about this either way?

truly cannot fathom how hard i have fallen for these OCs i don’t normally do that

@foxmagpie is definitely a witch

The Ottoman - Niham87 / @niham87

look i will be the first to admit that i don’t go near as bonkers over the ottoman line in 308 as y’all do

(don’t get me wrong, i love it!!! I love that he laughs and i love that she’s pleased it just doesn’t hit my lose my whole mind button like idk, the dubby or the 306 convo, idk why)

BUT i v v v much love the context this delightful Rio POV pwp gives it

am also absolutely feral for 209 missing scene fic

and anything that captures the complexity of Rio’s s3 feelings for Beth and how twisted they’ve become

so this scratches a bunch of itches, is what i’m trying to say

Bet On It - zetuslapetus / @querenaxx

*INCOHERENT PTERODACTYL SCREECHING*

That’s what my brain does when I think about Beth and Rio meeting in ch 1

am DESPERATELY OBSESSED WITH the tension between the two of them in this fic

I love how it plays with the ways they have to rely on but don’t trust each other

plus FAKE DATING and BED SHARING (fair warning hasn’t happened yet but the set up is there)

originally supposed to be 2 chapters, already up to 4, prayer circle it goes on forever

do you like drugs (tonight) - s_t_c_s / @sothischickshe

v important focus on hydration, other fic should take note

extremely about the use of cut to and then flashback to enhance the ‘we were on drugs’ vibe

speaking of, beth and rio absolutely would take ecstasy to prove they are fun bc they are the exact kind of idiots that would peer pressure themselves

so glad beth kept her purse, got a bit stressed there for a second, clutches in that kind of circumstance are A Risk

not that i would know

FLAWLESS USE OF VOICEMAIL TBH

really love the ongoing denial that they are remotely into each other while proceeding to demonstrate how they are in fact, extremely into each other, great vibe

rio dances

I know my brain broke too

mmmm bacon

Navigate A Broken Path - flashindie / @pynkhues

*INCOHERENT PTERODACTYL SCREECHING*

I have a long standing tradition of getting unreasonably obsessed with side characters so i’m not like, entirely surprised by how obsessed i am with both Mick and Mary Pat but i never in a million years considered them as a ship

AND Y E T

they fit????? so perfectly?????? It’s amazing how she developes them individually enough that i look at them together and think ah yes this makes perfect sense for both characters

and they’re such an amazing foil to Beth and Rio?

can ships have foils? do i know what a foil is?

unimportant

GUYS you dON’T uNDERStAN d

hell i don’t understand

how absolutely very dare you make me care about YET ANOTHER set of gg ‘verse children

do not read this fic if you have no interest in feelings you zero percent asked for

wHA t hAPPeNED iN aLASkA?????????

A Moment’s Silence - femalegothic / @bethsuglywigs

*makes sign of the cross*

y’all are gonna make me rediscover religion

extremely appreciate the author’s note approach to backstory top notch prioritization

listen it’s basically 3k of beth deep throating rio idk what more you need me to say about it

it is…..good stuff

bless the kinkmeme or fest whatever we’re calling it

praise - civillove / @blainesebastian

I mean you had me at “three times rio calls beth a good girl and one time he really means it”

ephemeral rio

I left that note for myself in here in the middle of the night and haven’t the foggiest what i was thinking but i stand by it none the less

okay okay i think i know what i meant, this fic (as do all of my fav civillove brio fics) has this sort of like, liminal, in the quiet moments feel to them that makes the moments and feelings somehow feel like i’m catching a glimpse of something secret and precious???

idk i just really like it okay

Heart and Soul - riosnecktattoo / @riosnecktattoo

oh look more unbearably sweet domestic tenderness, this time to music

thank you ma’am for my life

rio remembers beth used to play piano and gets her one and revoltingly cute shenanigans result

also hilarity

and sexiness

this fic has it all, truly

shout out to mick who sees no reason to keep rio’s feelings to himself

good girls tumblr fic - prettylittlementirosa / @hypermania

cheating and reccing a whole series

It’s my list and i can do what i wanna

stop crying about it, it’s four fics and they’re all AMAZING absolutely impossible to pick a fav

truly flawless characterization, next level ability to capture evocative mood, cannot get enough

three’s a crowd: who knew ballroom dancing while dean watches and grinds his teeth could be so sexy

(trick question everything about that premise sounds A++++ and boy howdy does it live up)

feel it on the way home: rio tries to break up with beth, it goes about as well as you’d expect

(thE angSty tenSioN)

i want to play the game: [from the floor] i’m still not ready to talk about it

(rio/turner, missing scene, 10000000% a taste of what went down in that hotel room)

june after dark: pitch perfect annie pov, really really love the take that Annie is the baby whisperer, can’t fully explain why but it feels incredibly right

(ANNIE X NANCY COULD WORK SO WELL YOU GUYS)

#fingers crossed these links are right i did not double check #i like to live on the edge #truly mind boggling amount of fluff on this list i surprised myself on that one #no i will not at any point get my shit together enough to write out thoughtful commentary this is a shit posting blog first last and always #fic recs #gg fic #nbc good girls #i'll come up with a tag for these if i ever do them again #check back 37 years from now #or ~~~~~~march #whatever that means

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mangoofthesea · 2 years

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suddenly they're aaaaaaaaaaall about house maintenance and 'do we have enough lightbulbs' when I want to add just one bulb to the shopping list when I'm the one who manages it and keeps track of it all the rest of the time and I'm having to have a conversation about fucking light bulbs at fucking midnight because they decided it matters now when I've been making do for months on all this shit already. oh i want to make sure we have enough lightbulbs and they need to be the right wattage. nope no. nope. not doing it.

#personal #probably deletle later #fuck

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lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar · 3 years

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Hi, I have a question for you. You know, Bruce does a lot of melisma. (When the vocalist goes through the musical notes singing the same syllable). There are certain moments where Bruce sounds de-li-ci-ous for exemple when he singings " Mysteries of Time" in Ghost of the navigator on Rock In Rio. Or when he says "Thy kingdom come" in Afraid of the Shoot Strangers (live in donington 1992). So my question is, what's your favorite Bruce melismas? Or what phrase of what recording you think he sounds deliciously good?

okay, i have to say right away that my answer will not be as long as i would like it to be. even if it's actually a long answer, i would like to add more to it. because this is the kind of question that makes me want to listen to literally every single thing that iron maiden ever did with bruce and all of his solo stuff, every album, every show, every fan recorded concert, EVERYTHING. just so i can have a very big list of my favorite bruce vocals. but i can't because i don't have that kind of attention span.

so from what i gathered from both your description of melisma, and the youtube video that i looked up to hear an example, i put a small list of some songs i listened to today from iron maiden and his solo songs that I THINK he does that in?? (literally just learned that word today, thank you)

this part is not so much to list my favorite of his vocals, but more for me to learn whether i understood it right or not. if i'm wrong, somebody correct me because i love learning about these things:

heaven can wait (just almost every time he says heaven can wait. is that melisma?) if eternity should fail at 2:04 ("and the human RAAAAAAA-aA-aAAAAAA AAAAAAaAaAaAaAaAaAaAace" (i am sorry for my text version of this) and then the other parts of the song that are similar. is that melisma????) inertia at 0:40 ("no wish to move at aaaAAAAaaaall" and then "everything's a stone waaAAAAAaaaall", etc. is THAT melisma??)

there were a lot more that i was gonna add, but i'm taking too long to answer this so i'll cut it short here(god, i only put down THREE out of all the ones i marked down earlier??)

and now i'll go through some of my favorites for his voice(although i actually do love the ones i listed above too), not specifically any melismatic ones, but just good things that make me melt.

first of all, literally any part of the 2005 gothenburg concert has delicious vocals. delectable, even. tasty. yummy. appetizing. (okay that's enough synonyms for the word delicious for now)

if you can name any part from that show, it is automatically my favorite as far as his voice goes. it is SO GOOD. but off the top of my head, the way he ended run to the hills after the last scream of the song is a specific part that i especially love from it. and when he sings the word "king" during revelations. but the whole concert gives me chills down my spine because it's just.. oh my god.

i also love many parts of the nomad. probably my favorite song from brave new world. or at least one of my favorites. mostly the way he sings the song title.

his solo song man of sorrows has some parts that may or may not temporarily stop my heart when i hear it.

i HAVE to mention caught somewhere in time because that's THE SONG. THE SONG that IMMEDIATELY got me hooked on his voice. the way he sings the title of the song. it's the first iron maiden song i've ever heard, at least as far as i know. and the end of my life as i knew it. this is a completely different life that i live now. and i can't imagine it without iron maiden anymore. WHAT DID I DO WITH MY TIME? WHAT DID I LISTEN TO? WHAT DID I WATCH? DID I EVEN KNOW WHAT LOVE WAS? I DON'T KNOW.

okay anyway.

this is actually harder than i thought it would be because there are too many songs and live performances that i could point things out from. i'm looking at the song list for dance of death and i'm just overwhelmed with memories of amazing vocals. and there are many that i KNOW i'm forgetting about because my memory and thoughts feel very narrow and boxed in right now.

I'M TRYING, I REALLY AM.

i need to stop and just post this because i'm going to break my brain trying to think of everything at the moment, even though i didn't even put a fraction of what i would like to. maybe i'll reblog this another time and add more to it when i can think clearly, if i remember.

#this is a giant mess and i am just making it messier the more i edit things #i am sorry but this is my brain in the form of text #I WANTED TO ANSWER THIS BETTER I REALLY DID #every time i tried to think about anything it seems like something kept getting in the way and distracting me #ALL DAY #every time i reread this i feel like i added more than i did but i'm like 'wait that's all i put?? OUT OF EVERYTHING BRUCE HAS DONE?'#i hope i didn't accidentally stop editing a sentence and forgot to finish it or something #that seems like something i'd do right now #but overall thank you for probably teaching me what melisma means #if i did understand it right

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coastaldragon · 3 years

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Dragon Diary 1/7/21

So...this is my resolution for the year.

I wanted to start a kin-related diary. I found myself missing how often I used to muse about myself and my experiences here, and have long since felt...detached from myself. Stuck in the loop of going through the motions of “human.”

A week late on my first entry, but so it goes.

These entries will just be flow-of-consciousness blabbles for the most part. I’ll talk about any kin-related thoughts I’ve had that day, how I’ve been feeling, how my otherkinity has affected my day, etc.

I have a lot of catching-up to do with you all, so the first few entries may seem disjointed and a little long. Lets get started. This is long. And a bit negative. But hopefully they won’t all be.

cw for death and drug mention and health talk like needles and stuff

I don’t quite remember why I dropped Tumblr like I did. I think I was getting annoyed at all the UI changes, and just overall very busy with “real life.” These things happen. I slowly drift away from a platform. Sometimes for weeks, months, or years in this case. Then I’ll drift back. Kind of like a scrap of wood on the waves.

In the time I’ve been gone life has been...interesting. The source of the stress that caused me to awaken in the first place is gone. He OD’d in...2014? 2015? Some time around there. My grasp of time is worse than ever.

We hadn’t even known he’d be using anything. Turned out he was stealing my late father’s remaining fentanyl supply. One of those guys who preys on widows like my mother. He lied about everything. His entire past as we knew it was a lie. And he was just leeching off of us.

It was...hard. I was the one who found his body upon getting home from work. My mother is still traumatized, even now. Even after all he did. She did love him.

I think all that hardened me quite a bit. And I’m sad for it. I’m still trying to soften myself again, but my trust has never been shattered like that before or since.

My now health is...poor. I had a great job working at an independent pack-and-mail sort of place for a few years. Very laid back, when the customers were nice. Helped me build a lot of strength and muscle. Quite enjoyed showing off by hefting 50lb boxes onto my shoulders. Helped me feel less weak in this squishy human body of mine.

But about...2 or 3 years ago [again, time is a myth to my brain] I woke up and my shoulders were just.

Locked.

It felt like someone had stuck paint spanners under my shoulder blades or something. Not only that, but I was weak. I barely had the strength in my arms to lift a half gallon of milk in the morning.

We thought I’d just hurt myself showing off, somehow. So we gave it some time. Took ibuprofen, used pain creams. Took a few days off work.

But it didn’t get better. It got painful. And the moreso. And moreso. And then my back began to have trouble as well. It was spreading. I felt...ill.

So. Doctors. Tests. More bloodwork than I’ve ever had in my entire life. [10 vials at once for one appt!]

My primary, who is a garbage person I never wish to see again, insisted it was just a sprain. Or something. Whatever. But I knew it wasn’t. My mother knew it wasn’t. Everyone I knew knew it wasn’t.

Specialist time! At the behest of my cousin, who has a litany of autoimmune disorders, we hooked up with a rheumatologist. Who I will call Dr.M.

Dr.M is an angel on Earth. I am convinced of it. A full year he spent with me, ordering tests, trying treatments, working with me to figure out what the hell was going on. And we did. And what a mouthful it is.

Ankylosing spondylitis. No, it’s not a dinosaur. [Though I do think I’m ‘hearted for ankylosaurines...I don’t think it’s related lol!]

You can look it up if you like. But basically: My immune system is fucking crazy and attacks all the things. Most places describe it as being a lower spine disorder, and while that is certainly where its centralized in most folks, that’s not all it is.

For example mine is, obviously, centralized in my shoulders and upper back. But it does aaaaaaaaaaall sorts��of crazy shit. Every day is different. Joint pain, exhaustion, GI trouble, stomach upset, lack of appetite, murderous migraines. The usual for an autoimmune illness. But also wacky shit like costochondritis [painful inflammation of the cartilage of the ribs], random organ inflammation like in my kidneys [not fun], lungs [I had a 3-month stint of chronic bronchitis last winter], and even my heart [very not fun.] Sometimes it likes to attack my “integumentary system” aka shit like my skin and hair meaning I’ll have weeks where my hair just. Sheds. Like a damn cat. It gets everywhere and w/ my long-ass quarantine hair it’s so annoying.

This attack dog immune system does mean it’s unlikely for me to catch little bugs like your common colds and stuff, which is appreciated. But it also likes to maul anything else it deems foreign. Like medication! I took Humira shots for a few months and had a “paradoxical reaction” aka it did the literal opposite of what it was meant to, because the injections pissed off my immune system so much it went scorched-earth on whatever it could. Mostly my thighs, since that’s where the injections were. I still get stabbing pain in them and it’s been over a year. [No, I don’t think I can sue Humira over this. Though I have discussed it w/ my Dr.]

This also means that if I do get sick, it’s bad news. Something strong and unique like COVID? Death. Deaaaaaaaaath. Would likely trigger something called a “cytokine storm” aka my immune system nukes everything and my organs die and so do I.

So guess whoooooooo’s been locked up at home for almost a full year now? :’)

I luckily am able to work from home, though it barely pays the bills, and my health has suffered from a lack of being able to Do Stuff I normally would.

As a result I decided to get back in touch with myself.

It started with Second Life, because of course it did. A new dragon avatar came out. Shiny and mesh and easy [by SL standards] to modify. So me and a few friends [some kin, some not] made a group for sharing stuff for the av and just hanging out. It’s fallen by the wayside unfortunately but those nights spent chilling in SL with a bunch of other dragons roaring and goofing off felt really really good.

And then I made a kin Twitter. [And found some exceptionally cool kinfolk in the process.]

Then came Othercon the virtual otherkin convention and OtherConnect, the Discord spawned from the community that rapidly formed within the con. Othercon felt incredible. Panels and lectures about the history of otherkinity and alterhumanity and how we are today and rep in the media and just so! Much! Cool! Stuff! And tons of great kinfolk too!

To not only be within a community but seeing others like me and speaking with them, not just typing back at words on a screen. It was...so very, very reaffirming. It felt like a second awakening almost. I wanted to cry for finally, truly not feeling alone.

And now I’m here. Because I need to be. Because something, deep down, is telling me I’m going to be needing myself sometime soon. So I’d better get started.

I hope I don’t drift away on the tide again. I’ve missed this site, worse for wear as it is.

But I’m a bit tired today. A nasty headache lingering from yesterday’s nastier flare up. Accursed cold fronts. I used to enjoy them but not so much these days. Ah well.

I know there wasn’t much kin talk in this first entry, but as I said, we had a lot of catching-up to do!

#Diary 2021 #dragonkin #otherkin #I'll tag these for now but if folks would rather I didn't I'll keep them to myself. :>

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