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Yukio Mishima has been trending this week for uh, reasons. He was a world renowned Japanese author and all of his work is overshadowed by his actions on November 25, 1970. You might not want to read more about this guy because he is horrible and disgusting, but he's utterly fascinating and the movie about him is brilliant.
He's a really interesting character, to the point that he sounds fictional. He's gay, obsessed with ritualistic death, a right wing lunatic, led a private militia that was halfway to a cult, and also was a legitimately great author. His life is covered in the film Mishima: A Life in Four Chapters and it's easily the most beautiful film I've seen in my life. Look at the stills I posted above; every frame of this movie looks like that. It's all just a series of beautiful paintings with people living in them.
The way the film is structured is that it tells the story of his life in three ways. His past is told in black and white flashbacks with static cameras. This is closer to how a movie from the 50's would look like (specifically ones directed by Yasujirō Ozu). The events of three of his books are told with this beautifully stylized look, with sets that look like stage plays. The events of November 25, 1970 is told in an almost normal fashion, with regular colors and competent camerawork. The past is nostalgic, the present is mundane and only in fantasy can you truly come alive.
Through this movie we see the ideology of Mishima coming through. His nationalism, his sexual feelings and his thoughts on beauty and death all come together. Death isn't just a violent and tragic end, it is in itself a beautiful act. Beauty is the only true goal of life and creating beauty brings honor. Growing old and ugly is an act of hate; to die at your peak is to give love back to the world. It is therefore treasonous to live long enough to die peacefully. He pities what heaven must look like now; when men died young and beautiful it was paradise, but now it is filled with old men.
This is an objectively insane way to view the world but it is also fascinating. How much of this was what he believed, and how much of it was just begging for attention? In one instance when asked why he moved to the right politically he said "because the left was full". It was a joke answer, but he clearly wanted to be in the spotlight. His shield society was a paramilitary group dedicated to living a virtuous life of beauty, honor and old ideals. It was also a group of good looking, athletic young men led by a (barely) closeted, conservative gay man. So much of his life could have gone differently but also he was pretty much in control the whole time; he was independently wealthy and revered on the world stage. He could do whatever he wanted, and apparently the way his life went *is* what he wanted.
What's special about Mishima, both in the film and in real life, is that he's a smart and eloquent guy. In films the guy with a crazy worldview is someone like Travis Bickle from Taxi Driver or D-Fens from Falling Down. Travis couldn't understand the alienation and loneliness he felt and he couldn't find any healthy solutions. D-Fens was smart enough but not emotionally strong enough to confront his problems or deal with them maturely. These are people that could benefit greatly from therapy (other examples include Joker from Joker, Rupert Pupkin from the King of Comedy, Frank Murdoch from God Bless America, Patrick Bateman from American Psycho, Tyler Durden from Fight Club and so, so many more).
These are either 20 something year olds that are lost in the world, alienated and lonely, or 40 something year olds with a mid life crisis when they realize that everything has fallen apart. People who don't know where to go, or realize it's too late to change things. Travis Bickle had basically no friends, no family, no charisma with women and a lot of rage and anger. D-Fens lost his job, his self respect and was estranged from his ex-wife and daughter. These are people who's lives are shit at best (Patrick Bateman is a bit of a subversion. He is rich and successful, but his life is completely hollow, his relationships are shallow and he personally is very, very pathetic. I need to write about American Psycho later that film is great too.).
Mishima is different. He's smart enough to understand his issues and how to find help. He's got the money and means to do so. He's famous and rich enough that he could basically get away with anything weird or eccentric so long as it was harmless. On the world stage he was a popular author, and at home he led a life of political activism. If he was unhappy he could easily find healthy ways to fix it. His self destruction was the most avoidable of any of them, yet he's the only one that existed in real life. You expect these people to have serious personality flaws and unfixable (or seemingly unfixable) problems, not to be poetic writers that adhere to healthy living and regularly journal about their emotions, while enjoying respect from their peers and fulfillment in their work.
It's a hell of a film. Paul Schrader has not written or directed anything better (he actually wrote Taxi Driver too, so he had some experience with this type of character before) and it stands out as an incredible experience to watch. Like, Mishima's life is public knowledge and you can probably guess how it went, but I've purposefully not said what happened on November 25, 1970 because I don't want to spoil it. It's an event that actually happened but it's better for you to find out via the film than some wikipedia page.
#film#movie#cinema#paul schrader#yukio mishima#mishima: a life in four chapters#taxi driver#martin scorsese#patrick bateman#american psycho#travis bickle#rupert pupkin#the king of comedy#joker#joker (2019)#god bless america#Frank Murdoch#D-Fens#falling down#fight club#tyler durden#Yasujirō Ozu#japanese film#lgbtqia#lgbtq community#lgbtq
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Falling Down (1993)
#Falling Down#Falling Down 1993#Garfield#Car Window Garfield#D-Fens#Michael Douglas#Falling Down Rewatch
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i've said similar before (as have countless others on here before me) but i'm taking a moment to say this again:
IT'S OKAY TO LIKE MEAN/BAD/HORRIBLE AND EVEN JUST DOWNRIGHT PURE EVIL CHARACTERS
and i think it's wildly stating the obvious to say the following but apparently there are still some folks who need to hear it:
CHARACTERS AND THE STORIES THAT THEY'RE FROM ARE NOT REAL; THEY ARE ALL MADE UP BECAUSE STORIES ARE MAKE-BELIEVE AND CRAFTED FOR OUR ENTERTAINMENT
irl, i seriously dislike mean people. i despise bullies. i can't think of anything worse than a person who does 'evil' deeds to others and enjoys it. granted, i can at times end up feeling sorry for some of these arseholes bc a lot of the time there are genuine reasons for their poor behaviour; sadness/trauma/mental illness/etc. but that isn't me dismissing that behaviour, i'm just trying to have some understanding and empathy for their suffering because it's clear that it's effecting their humanity, y'know? it's often a sad reality, but does not mean i would excuse a person treating others badly.
STORIES ARE NOT REALITY
the characters from the books/tv show/movie/play/podcast etc that you like are not real. they are dreamt up to help us learn lessons from a young age, to make us laugh at their stupidity, to help us see that those who have found themselves on a dark path are mostly there because something terrible happened to them. these characters are brought to life for us in sometimes terrible forms—those truly dreadful villains—to help us work vicariously through emotions we all suffer with from time to time, the irrational feelings we can have of revenge or world domination lol. there is anger that we, as a race, all have to deal with, intrusive thoughts that we all sometimes struggle with. when we feel ourselves wanting the badguys in the movies to win, it can help us to manage these kinds of real life feelings we suffer, and it might mean we can learn how to deal better.
it's like wanting to punch someone. i would personally never actually want to do that—but occasionally as humans we might feel like we want to.
DOING THINGS LIKE USING A PUNCHBAG OR AGGRESSIVELY CHOPPING WOOD CAN BE THE SAME KIND OF REPLACEMENT ACTIVITY AS ENJOYING A MORALLY BAD CHARACTER. IT IS TAKING A FEELING AND RELEASING IT SAFELY WITHOUT DOING ANYBODY ANY ACTUAL HARM
also, none of us are perfect creatures! none of us. liking a bad or morally grey character can sometimes be because you might see some of their toxic traits in yourself, and feel better about the fact that even though you have faults, at least you're not as bad as they are. or maybe you know somebody like the character, someone who—even though their actions are wrong and you don't agree with them—has had a terrible life and you have some understanding of why they behave in the way they do. maybe the character helps you understand that person more and have more empathy for them and others like them?
AND SOMETIMES BAD GUYS ARE JUST GOOD FUN
baddies get to do the things we sometimes wish we could! who doesn't occasionally wish they could do a michael douglas d-fens in falling down?! or have the whole world kneel at their feet as loki does?! or be so be clever and cunning you can get away with any criminal plan you damn well choose like james moriarty?!
even the 'pure evil' characters in media are written so that we love to hate them, otherwise we wouldn't care about what happens to them, and caring about the story and it's characters is the whole point. and even if you just wholeheartedly love them—like you completely adore those vile bastards, regardless of all their evil deeds—that's okay! they're not real. just because you enjoy a character like hannibal lecter doesn't necessarily mean you want to murder and eat people, you just like a character who does terrible things because they have been written to be liked.
IT IS ENTIRELY NORMAL TO BE ENVIOUS OF AND/OR SIMPLY ENJOY A VILLAIN, BECAUSE THERE ARE SHADOWS AND REFLECTIONS OF OURSELVES, ALL OF US, HOWEVER BIG OR SMALL, IN EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM
so, the paramount thing to remember is:
VILLAINS AND BADDIES AND MEANIES IN MEDIA ARE! NOT! REAL! THEY ARE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS AND IT IS ABSOLUTELY FINE TO ENJOY THEM BECAUSE THAT IS THE VERY THING THEY WERE CREATED FOR
anyway, thank you for coming to my ted — *gets shot by the bad guy*
#purity culture#fuck off!#characters#morally grey characters#bad guys#I LOVE 'EM#*sing-song voice* because they're not reeeaaaal#lol#blorbos#toxic characters#hannibal lecter#james moriarty#d-fens#loki#i hope i'm making sense#the brain fog is strong today#but i really just had to get this out#(again)#fandom#bullshit#etc#mention of shooting
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D-Fens aka Harold Smith
D-Fens aka Harold Smith
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hi !! i came from ao3 and as a drabble request maybe you can do hobie meeting miles’ friends (e.g. ganke or maybe some ocs)
love ur work 🫶🏽
Miles spends most of his weekends with Hobie.
And lunch periods.
And patrols after school.
And evenings.
And– well, you get the point.
Still, despite the easy way they fell into each other’s lives, Miles’ worlds remain mostly separate.
His parents have met Hobie, that’s at least one secret Miles no longer has to keep. He brings Hobie to most of his family’s parties as a plus one, and his mother always sets an extra place at the dinner table for him – Miles doesn’t even have to ask anymore. But it’s more than that.
Hobie himself is his own world to Miles.
There’s home, and then there’s Hobie. There’s hero work, and there’s Hobie. There’s school, and still, there’s Hobie.
In all of the challenges Miles must face, through the dangers that each day brings, and despite all of the lies and alibis he has to create— Hobie is there. Tethering him to the things that really matter, to the person he really is.
But when Hobie comes crashing in through his dorm window, words collide.
Miles’ friends at school have known something is up. Especially Ganke, who sees his roommate even less than usual. For the most part, Ganke assumes it’s spider-related extracurricular activities— but he’s pretty sure fighting crime doesn’t make you smile at your phone and kick your feet.
Or sneak out of the dorms after hours.
Or doodle hearts on everything.
Or— well, you get the point.
Regardless of the telltale signs, he’s busy with his own interests. If Miles has something he wants to tell him, Ganke knows he’ll say it when he’s ready.
That’s how he thought it would play out, anyway.
Ganke is used to the window of their dorm room being open. Miles is in and out, constantly. Which, really, could be worse. He’d rather have Spider-Man as a roommate than half the other kids at this school— only it’s not the Spider-Man he’s expecting that swings in.
Hobie’s boots land heavily on the hardwood flooring, making Ganke cringe. The kids in the dorm room below already hate them, and this has surely guaranteed that another passive aggressive note will be slipped under the door in the near future. Ganke shakes his head, he can deal with that at another time, he has more pressing matters at hand.
The boy in front of him seems restless— agitated— but not dangerous. His head snaps as he looks around, the lenses of his mask narrowed as he searches for... something.
Ganke doesn’t exactly have training for a situation like this. He stays standing near the outskirts of the room, unsure.
“Uh, can I help yo-”
“I’m looking for Miles.”
Ganke has to blink several times to maintain his composure. The silence does nothing to curb Hobie’s distress.
“Sorry, sorry. I just wasn’t expecting the accent. Wow. You are super cool though.”
The lenses of the mask stay narrowed. Hobie knows Ganke. He recognizes him from pictures and stories that Miles tells about their antics, so he knows Ganke is aware of Miles’ alter ego— he’s just not grasping the urgency of the situation.
“Listen, alright?” Hobie says, not bothering to hide the slight edge that cuts through his voice, “Miles went out last night to fight a bad guy — a really bad guy — and no one’s been able to get ‘hold of him since. He should be here. Do you know where he is?”
Ganke shrugs slightly, trying to feign apathy.
“I don’t really keep track. I’m not really his ‘guy in the chair,’ y’know?”
It’s not his finest moment. He can tell Hobie is frowning even with the mask obscuring his face.
Ganke has to physically place himself between Hobie and the door to stop him from storming out. He might not be Miles’ “guy in the chair,” but letting a superhero from another dimension walk through the halls of their private school seems like a really bad idea— especially when said superhero seems amped up enough to go through hell and back for Miles. It doesn’t really seem like a good headspace to be thinking through any decisions.
“He’s fine, okay?” Ganke tells him, “he was here this morning!”
Hobie stills, waiting for him to elaborate.
“I think he’s got class,” Ganke explains, eyes darting to the clock on the wall, “he should be coming back soon if you…want to…wait.”
He can’t really take back the words once he’s said them, but he has no idea how he’s going to keep the protective vigilante distracted until Miles gets back. Hobie seems skeptical, he hesitates, and Ganke thinks that he won’t even take him up on the offer— and then he sighs, pulling off his mask and relenting.
Before Ganke can stop himself, the words are out of his mouth.
“How are you even cooler under your mask?” He asks. It must’ve been the right thing to say, since despite his worry, Hobie cracks a smile.
“I was this cool the whole time.”
—
Every part of Miles is sore. All he wants to do is lay down and never think about bad guys or biochemistry or both ever again.
He thinks he did okay on the test, passed it at least, but he could’ve done better if he had slept at all or could hold his pencil without his bruised knuckles aching. To say he’d gotten a little beaten up was an understatement. He can’t even message his friends to complain about it because his phone snapped clean in half during the fight. God, his parents are going to kill him.
He turns the key to his dorm, pushing it open, but stopping dead in his tracks at the scene in front of him.
Ganke is sitting on the top bunk— it’s Miles’ bed but it’s not that unusual for him to be up there. What is unusual is that Hobie is sitting beside him, perched on the metal bed rail with a video game controller clutched in his hands— tapping away while Ganke cheers him on loudly.
Miles puts his bag on the ground, kicking the door closed behind him.
“So, uh, what’s going on here?”
The game is immediately forgotten, Hobie discarding the controller as he drops down in a fluid motion to put his arms around Miles.
“I told you he’d be back, see?” Ganke says, peering down at them with a smile that’s a little too smug.
Hobie pulls back from Miles, one of his hands finding Miles’ cheek as he inspects him for visible injuries.
“I’m good, I’m good, I promise.” Miles lets out a breathless laugh, before a realization hits him. “Did you cross dimensions just to check on me?”
“You haven’t been answering messages from anyone.” Hobie says pointedly.
“I know, my phone broke when-”
Ganke leans forward, interrupting the moment.
“Miles, you didn’t tell me the person you’re dating is so cool! I can’t believe you didn’t bring him around sooner!”
Neither of them can hide the red that colors their cheeks.
“Yeah, well,” Miles shrugs, “I guess he is pretty cool.”
#:D!! thank u i hope u like it 🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾#fens fics#punkflower#flowerpunk#spiderverse#my computer is no longer with us so i’m praying mobile posts this in a decent format#i’ve never written ganke before i hope this reads well ksjdjskfk
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A couple steamworld heist doodles because I'm excited about steamworld heist ii, even though it's a totally new cast
#art#traditional art#doodles#steamworld heist#steampunk#piper faraday#sally bolts#fen#gabriel “seabrass” stubb#beatrix “bea” baach#valentine butterbolt#dora d adventura
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Oooooh for fluff month, do you think Liam and Fenris would be borrowing clothes? :D
oh yeah absolutely! Although Fenris is the one who does most of the stealing borrowing lmao
#fenris is not the only offender but certainly the most regular offender lol#fen is slighter than liam & has more tight clothes so borrowing the other way round is harder xd#my ocs#oc: liam hawke#my art#i was gonna draw something Properly but the last couple weeks got a lot more busy than anticipated |'D
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@stupidrant this is the official, SMS approved (hopefully) gif everyone should use whenever they encounter a fandom troll.
#because any other reasoning just wouldn't work on those people#yesterday stumbled across another troll comment (though not a new one) from an Odin apologist#saying that Odin 'never abused Freya' and women like her 'always lie about those things'#alas there's no option to post gif responses in the YT comment section#otherwise I'd be doing that on a hourly basis whenever seeing nonsense like this; or posts about how#'Thr*d and Atreus should get together; because apparently a girl punching a boy in the face before trying to#chop his head off as he lies helpless on the ground (which she would've done if her mother hadn't interfered) after calling him#'a killer just like his father'; or a boy 15 years of age playing a parent to girl's actual parents - one of whom is#a semi-functioning literally gigantic alcoholic who slaughtered this boy's people and bragged about it in front of him -#is a basis for healthy romance#rather than an actual healthy and equal and caring relationship between Atreus and Angrboda#who trusted him when he admitted he had no idea what he was doing and agreed to share responsibility with him#which was supposed to be his all along but that he wasn't ready to take just yet#in addition to opening up about her own pain of losing both parents just to help him feel better#and aiding him in embracing their shared heritage which was what Atreus wanted from the moment he#learned of his giant background and 'Loki'#that is on top of taking care of Fen while Atreus embarked on a quest of his own (both times) and being the only one who could#sooth him back into human form during his animal transformations using only words of support and physical gentleness
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Second Daddy Strahd commission, this time he is not pleased with you.
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it's hard work being the main guy in a fandom, luckily now theres more people and they are nice to me and we all post about our silly underrated thing :D
#idk#& juliet#& juliet musical#&j#and juliet#and juliet musical#juliet musical#monty#fen#garf#these are the main guys but isabelle and fin also post sometimes and i love them#i love my mutuals :D
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Color Wheel Challenge - PINK
Loving the design of @dnd-thrrasir 's adorable Fen. They were so much fun to draw! Thank you for participating!
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i like to draw her creepy. don't ask why
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3 and 5?
3. Which character is the hardest to write for?
Right now I'm gonna say Fen (BOTW link), im kinda of flip-flopping with how I want him to act around the others. In some ways I love the I'm angry at everyone but I also like the oh man, these people have helped me out I'm gonna be a good sport about it
5. Do any of the Links have Full Names?
They do! Most of them do actually
Skipper (HW) - Admiral Link of the 10th crystal core.
Sky (SKSW)- Crimson breath of the celestial sphere
(Hylia's chosen) - Crimson wave of the great expanse
Chronus (OOT/MM) - Link 'Chronus' Lon
Sprite(LOZ1/2) - *Is just sprite*
Fen (BOTW)- *He dosent know his full name*
Tempest (WW/PH/ST)- Link 'Tempest' Lineset.
Saga (OOS/OOA/LTTP/LA)- *Is just saga*
Twilight (TP)- Link 'Vald' Lon
Smithy (MC/FS)- Link Bontari Smith.
#exodus au#au answers#ramble corner with major#corner answers with major#anon beloved!#Thanks for the interest in my AU!#:D#exodus twilight#exodus fen#exodus chronus#exodus sky#exodus smithy#exodus saga#exodus tempest#exodus sprite#exodus skipper
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Update on Fen
It's been a rough few days for my boy
#fen tag#d&d#dungeons and dragons#changeling#druid#so basically his lover got possessed by an evil god's avatar and on our second confrontation he ripped my man's heart out of his chest#and murdered him#and fen's soul shattered and he was brought back against his will by the other characters#which is why he looks so broken now#my dm is actual satan and i love every second of it#anyway i need a fantasy therapist STAT#tw#body horror#slight gore
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