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crazycatsiren · 1 year

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No no you don't understand! I want to watch this show/movie, read this book, listen to this podcast, etc.! But I must be in the right mindset and the exact head space to begin, or I just can't!

#actually autistic #autistic adult #late diagnosed #autism #asd #autism problems #autistic life

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themaskedlady · 1 year

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river-from-alderaan · 1 month

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being autistic in a world made for allistics kinda feels like being in the backseat of a car desperately trying to be a part of the front seat conversation

#autism #actually autistic #autism in women #allistics #neurodivergent #late diagnosed #late diagnosed autistic #autistic isolation #autistic sadness #level 1 autism #low support needs #high masking #autistic female #autistic feeling #allistic world #neurotypical world #idk how tags work

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lottiestudying · 9 months

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there’s something so freeing about identity

acceptance.

i don’t punish myself for existing anymore.

i’ve accepted life and living, and that i will have to live

this life through, like this. as autistic.

so best make the trip to heaven a good one, i guess.

i hope everyone can have the validation of an ASD

diagnosis, who needs one.

to hear that doctor say “you have autism”.

to have that

f r e e d o m;

that validation.

that it gets better.

you’re free from hiding in two worlds now—no longer faking it in the real one, or trying to get into the neurodivergent one.

it doesn’t happen automatically, not suddenly,

it moves slow,

like the tides,

but you move with it.

you flow.

and your mind feels like yours, not someone’s head

you borrowed for a day.

and that’s beautiful.

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post-ASD diagnosis musings.

it does get better.

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adhbabey · 2 months

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I wish we understood that most kids who don't get diagnosed until later in life are kids of abusive and neglectful situations and often have a deep relationship with childhood trauma to cope with their situations.

It's not that the kid is less disabled or less needing of accommodations or anything. It's just that the parent ignored their needs and cries for help and assumed that they were a normal kid, or just a kid with "issues", never going to label those issues or otherwise.

So please stop being ableist towards those who are late diagnosed or self diagnosed or whatever. Just stop being ableist and assuming you suffer worse, just because you got noticed of something wrong with you.

Many people just have to cope with their disabilities on their own from childhood and already harbor a ton of imposter syndrome and internalized ableism from their experiences.

Its really sad and frustrating to experience ableism from other people who have faced the stigma themselves. So please, be kind to those who are disabled adults who haven't had the same experiences as you.

#babey posts #ableism #late diagnosed

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eryenah · 2 years

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any other neurodivergent teachers just have the urge to like,,, corral all the kids with ieps/504s/accommodations/who stand out/etc. and just tell them it’s okay to ‘actually’ be who they are? ik it would require violating hipaa but i can’t help but want to make sure as many kids as possible have the chance to grow up differently than i did

i used to want to run a boarding school for this reason but the logistics seem impossible 😭

also, it pains me to listen to my coworkers talk about their “problem” students and guessing that they might be neurodivergent. i keep thinking about how much i would have liked to have a teacher who openly stimmed while they were in the classroom or did literally anything else associated with neurodivergence bc even if the students were nt, the fact that they will spend years trying to unlearn the message that there’s something wrong with them is concerning???

why is it so hard to get people to be nice to each other :/

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brytnoter · 2 years

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Quick notes from a long journal entry I made in December 2016 that shows my autism, before I had any idea I was autistic

Being taken advantage of in friendships

"Getting too attached to people"

"I'm an outsider"

People who are "like me" that I lock on to and don't have to "perform" for them

Alone time = can think about anything A person is present = mind goes blank, can’t converse

"how are you" (what does it MEAN)

why can't i think of anything to say, ever

or just blurting out about anime theories to work colleagues who have never even seen any series in their life

"the inner flame gets ignited and it's so easy to talk about books"

Need to FEEL a connection before I talk to someone “properly”

"why do customers STOP AND CHAT when they ask where an item is”

If I get interrupted out of listening to music it takes me minutes to focus on the conversation being had. And then more minutes to get back to whatever I was doing

Irritation that is not controllable and goes away only when it is done with you

"how do i not be an outsider"

#autism #autistic #late diagnosed #white #high functioning #low support needs #verbal #hyperlexic #burnt out gifted child #this is just my experience #listen also to nonverbal/high support needs/poc autistics #self diagnosis is valid #2016

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audhd-space · 1 year

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the most telling experience of me being autistic when I was growing up was sensing conflicts and arguments between my parents but could not work around the logic why adults refused to be truthful and vulnerable with each other

my logic is that, it’s more efficient to be truthful but technically that means I don’t understand social cue

#autistic realisation #late diagnosed #actually autistic #neurodivergent #social cue

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neurodiverseuniverse · 10 days

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is it weird that i like to spend the night at my best friends house even tho im in my late 20s now i guess??? i feel like some friends wouldn’t mind but the person i least suspected to be weird about it is being fucking weird about it rn

#actuallyautistic #autistic #neurodivergence #adhd #late diagnosed

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hello-patricks · 2 months

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The wrong career

I have been working on coming to terms with the fact that my ideal career paths are closed to me.

I wanted to be a project manager, because the stages of a project make sense, because watching something grow is cool, because applying some procedures to make an idea get concrete sounds amazing.

But I'm time blind. Time passes as an abstract concept, something that surprises me everytime I look at an old message and suddenly it is five years later, and the deadlines do not mean anything, and the pile of documents to work with are meaningless, worthless.

And I wanted to be a product manager, but somehow working up the ladder always got in the way. Technical acumen, yeah got that. Strategic analysis, yeah, totally. Ability to understand both the business imperative and the technological constraints, yeah, perfect, and oh the most important, be able to navigate the social politics of the enterprise and connect with people and understand their unspoken and often emotional needs.

Yeah, no. I can't.

What has happened is that I work superhard, burn myself out, and leave the place only for the chummy charming new manager to slid over, take the project and convince everyone to work on what I started - but without attribution or recognition for me.

Easier and healthier has always been to work on a specific idea, just a technical thing, with rules to follow and specific deliverables, sometimes all on my own, perhaps a process that gets repeated over and over again and has a clear definition of done.

But my inability to work as a project manager, the burnout, the impossibility to work to a hundred deadlines or listening to 10 people wants and desires has always been a burden, one where I blame myself for not being able to understand, to follow up, to convince and enlist others, to show them all the reasons why my idea is logical, makes sense, is strategically beneficial.

I have always blamed myself.

Now I know I could have aimed somewhere else, I could have made it easier for myself and help those around me. I'm afraid it is too late, though.

#autistic #actually autistic #late diagnosed #career

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crazycatsiren · 1 year

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It's either "I must do this thing RIGHT NOW or I'm going to lose it" or "the stars and planets aren't in perfect positions so it'll happen when that happens" and nothing in between.

#actually autistic #autism #asd #autistic adult #late diagnosed #autism problems #autistic life

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themaskedlady · 1 year

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cluethegirl · 1 year

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weed when you're autistic is no longer just like the happy little thing you get to make you dizzy and think things sometimes it's cathartic as fuck I am in a really good rock like a little baby and i have no judgement over my thoughts so i can just let them go and even still i act more neurotypical with the people around me so i don't even get followed around as much by people in stores. Like i litterally went to Saks while high for a *really expensive but cheap sample of * fragrance and the ladies were so nice to me???? and helped me out??? I felt like I was in a world full of love and even though i didn't even buy the rollarball i wanted to get because i didn't like it they were so nice about it and i was like " omg this is why were all addicts if we weren't diagnosed and put into therapy before kindergarden" this is the only way i can feel safe and well fitting into society. Anyways so you know how Armani just released their new line and they

#Ouid #that last hashtag was also funny because it's like the plant and the tree sap that they use in fragrances #I can't wait to spend all night on fragnatica until my eyes bleed #autism #actually autistic #late diagnosed #but not actually because i was diagnosed but my parents hid it from me because i finally started speaking #after having cleared all my allergy foods out of my diet #which made me more apt to speak because i could open my mouth without throwing up #and pain made me too anxious to talk #and so yeah they were like #OMG our little retard daughter can speak we don't need her in therapy she's cured she can join circle time with the other kids #anyways i like autism i just wish i had access to all of the therapy #i also think i have adhd because appartently it's common #i hope this doesn't make me an addict #also i'm wearing the ariana grande body spray and it's much less sour than the edt #and a little more lactonic notes #ok bye #claudia speaks #my arm is sore

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moomatahiko · 10 months

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in mourning

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littlequeen7 · 1 year

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I had such a hard time thinking of things for this. Made me realize how boring I am besides my fucked up mental health lol

Also not trying to be insensitive or joke about the lobotomy thing. I have autism, ADHD, OCD, GAD, CPTSD and chronic depression (which I'm sure all feed off of each other and make it hard to differentiate symptoms). So, quite literally I would have, at the very least, been institutionalized 50 years ago.

*Hypnagogic hallucinations are basically sleep paralysis hallucinations without the paralysis.

Here's the alligator lizards mating if anyone is curious:

I had a scientist that studies alligator lizard mating habits (who had never seen the mating irl) message me on iNaturalist to ask if he could use my photos in some of his work. Coolest animal experience ever.

#poll #relatable poll #polls #alligator lizard #inaturalist #autism #adhd #late diagnosed #hypnagogic hallucinations #sleep paralysis #paranormal

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brytnoter · 2 months

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reminder that MASKING doesn't mean

"acting neurotypical"

it means

"suppressing autistic traits"

#autism #late diagnosed #low support needs #masking #autistic #high functioning #asperger's

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