I hate how obsessive I get. It isn’t normal, it isn’t healthy. And it does me more harm than good. You’d think though, really, that being obsessed would make someone flattered. Apparently not.
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bpd culture is thinking its stupid when people say "stop making having bpd your whole personality". bruh it's literally a PERSONALITY disorder wtf do you want me to do about it?????
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I feel like a bad partner because of my bpd. My episodes are exhausting. I'm exhausting. I can't help I'm broken, but I can help my behavior. I'm so sorry. I know I apologize too much. I'm sorry you have to walk on eggshells. I feel guilt, knowing that a different partner could be easier for you. I feel guilt knowing practically no one will put up with me. Why do you?
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bpd culture is talking about healthy friendships and boundaries but getting pissed off when your fp gives anyone else more attention than you
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Romantisized Borderline.
If you have bpd this may triggers you!
Why the fuck would people even do that?
"I wan't a borderliner as my significant other."
No you don't. Its hell for you and for them.
You want someone who is absolutely obsessed, to the point just a wrong breath make them think you hate them.
You want someone who's probably is suicidal, self-destructive and self harming? "I can fix them." No you can't. Neither i think you can stop them.
You want someone that is extremly lovingly and affectionate only to become distant, ignoring and maybe even offensive in a eyeblink because they got triggered into Splitting or rage?
You want someone that probably feels offended if you need time for yourself or do spend time with your friends and don't answer your phone.
You want someone that may shouts and yells in one moment, only to cry and feel guilty in the next moment, maybe begging you to stay?
You do realise that its not just from time to time, but every fucking day? If they have a bad day's maybe even hourly moodswings?
You want just to help them? Thank you, but that's not your task in a relationship/friendship. Take care of yourself because the chance that you just ruin yourself is high.
Fuck, imagine cuddling in bed in a comfortable silence, they overthought something and suddenly push you off, just because a single though.
Wanna know what the worst is?
Maybe you noticed that I am extremely aware of my bpd. But that doesn't mean i can change, or fix myself. Because with the sudden overwhelming emotion, my mind is drowning in things like selfhate and that everyone will leave, no more awareness or control. I think its like that for many borderliners.
Please don't romantisize something people are suffering from. Thank you.
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BPD culture is feeling bad when people say your blaming your behavior on BPD when you're putting in every ounce of your being to change and act differently while explaining how your BPD makes your symptoms appear and why you act that way because of it.
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I don’t wanna be alone. But I feel so guilty involving people in my mess off a life. I’m turbulent. I’m distant. I’m clingy. I’m sensitive. I’m difficult, as fuck. I can be such a terrible person, when I get hurt. And I always get hurt. I hate myself so much. I wish I could feel things normally. I wish I was normal. I hate bpd. I’m cursed with bpd. And life is agonising.
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bpd culture is holy shit please sexualize me but also coddle me but tell me how stupid i am but tell me how special i am i wanna hurt so good because of you but youre so nice please never leave
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bpd + ppd is aah i love my fp!!:))) i love him i lov. do you think hes faking it??? does he actually care about me??? what if this is all a ploy hes using to secretly throw me down from the inside??? what if awwwww he said he loved meeeee<3333333 what was i thinking about<333333333
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The urge to just destroy myself. To cut off everything. To go radio silent on everyone because my brain is absolutely convinced I'll be best off alone, locked in a tiny little box.
Why can't I just have a moment to breathe? To actually enjoy my bit of happiness I get here and there.
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