shoutout to she/her trans boys and he/him trans girls ily all

Max Stirner - The Unique and Its Property (1845)

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if the word gender means this nebulous feeling independent of sex dimorphism most of u r on abt then there rlly is only one gender i wholeheartedly believe that

No matter how you identify, being afab and realizing that you don’t actually have to do the things expected of you is honestly kind of amazing. Thankfully I grew up in an environment where emancipation was encouraged, but even then ridding myself of this idea that I have to make it clear through clothing, make up and styling that I am a woman is just so good. You can chop that hair off, you can wear baggy shirts and baggy pants. You don’t have to ever give birth. You don’t even have to have penetrative sex with a cis man. You don’t even have to have sex. Or a romantic partner. You’re not obligated to perform anything at all. You can just be a human, gender less and free. You can float through life and still do everything you enjoy but without reaffirming gender all the time. You can be anything in this true form of yours, a woman, a man, nothing, everything. You don’t have to convince yourself that you’ll have motherly feelings one day and that you’ll eventually want to have kids. People have told you your whole life that “one day you’ll want XYZ” and you’ll be able to understand that none of the things they told you will happen, actually happen and that your life is your own. You are gonna be able to be yourself and do the things that feel right to do outside of the prison of gender.

Btw if you see this post and immediately are going to reply something like: “But what if I enjoy-“ this post isn’t for you. Maybe consider that people are allowed to have a different experience than you.

hey so for those who for some reason didnt read the "gender nihilist" in my bio, DO NOT FOLLOW ME IF YOU'RE A FUCKING TERF.

me not believing in gender/sexuality doesnt mean i am dumb enough to deny the existence of trans people.

terfs are fucking stupid, you are NOT welcome here, trans people exist and love and deserve to be able to do that without weirdo ass people failing at being feminists by attacking them.

i just got followed by a terf and i could not tell you what about my profile lead them to do that but i have gotta snuff out that trend real fucking quick.

Could I please request headcanons of the papas with an S/O they've recently gotten together with where the S/O is very touch starved but unsure how to initiate any kind of touching/physical affection?

Done and Done! Please Enjoy! :)

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Papas with a new Touch Starved S/O Who Can’t Initiate Physical Contact

Papa Nihil: He doesn’t want to come off rude, but the Grandpapa isn’t shy to directly ask you what’s wrong. He noticed that you’ve been together a short time but you don’t seem interested in hugs or cuddles. Which is FINE with him, he just wants you to be honest with him. Does it make you uncomfortable? Does he smell bad? Is he too pushy? Truthfully, you are thankful that he brought it up first. You were happy to sit Nihil down and explain why you have difficulty making first moves. He listens intently and is happy you told him. Nihil emphasizes that there isn’t anything you can’t tell him! He then asks if you would prefer he regularly start with touches, and you happily agree! This works splendidly for you as you get more comfortable asking for more.

Papa I: It was one of the first things he noticed about you, back when you were both a casual fling. The way you would nervously shuffle while casting hungry glances at him. Papa realized that you might have been shy, so he was happy to take the lead. He’d always make time to lift his arm up and watch as you eagerly clung to his side. Or how calm and content you were when you’d walk with your arms intertwined. Papa has never really broached the subject. You both seemed content with the arrangement. Though one day he did off-handedly mention you were allowed to touch him first. You felt a bit embarrassed, but the conversation lead to a talk about your needs and wants. Now you both have non-verbal cues established for when you need touch. It’s been bliss ever since!

Papa II: He immediately picked up something was off when you both first became an item, he just couldn’t figure out what. Papa was a touch surprised you didn’t climb all over him like some of his past flings. At first he thought you were just being respectful of his space. But he caught onto your longing looks whenever you thought he wasn’t paying attention. Papa put it to the test one day when he carefully wrapped his arms around you. You practically melted in his embrace and buried your face in his neck. Papa chuckled and started to rub your back, feeling how much you needed this. “Oh little one, you do know you can always ask for your Papa’s affection. Yes?” It was an awkward conversation after, on your part, but you were grateful for it. Papa isn’t a clingy man, but for you he is happy to be more physically available.

Papa III: You don’t have to wait long to get what you want. Papa is a VERY physically affectionate partner. Not just with bedroom needs, but basic acts of physical intimacy. He is most comforted when you two are making contact of some kind. He loves hand holding, playing with hair, snuggles, random hugs, and just using any excuse he can to lean on you. He noticed very early that you never really initiated these small acts yet were famished for any attention! It’s during one of your many cuddle sessions does he finally bring it up. He assures you he doesn’t mind, but are you wanting him to initiate more often? You eventually have a nice conversation where you open up about how hard it is for you to ask for this kind of thing… he’s always happy to indulge you! He also grins so big later in your relationship when you make the first move. He’s so proud of you!

Papa IV/Cardinal Copia: you both were at an awkward impasse. Copia is just like you. He CRAVES physical affection and praise… but he has to be in the mood to come onto you first. Which he does regularly, but you noticed that he increasingly looks uncomfortable trying to touch you. When you finally ask why he looks scared to hold your hand he breaks down and admits that he’s trying to respect your boundaries. After talking you discover that this entire time Copia thought you were touch OPPOSED! He has been navigating your relationship thinking you were not into small acts of physical affection. Poor guy, you practically laughed in his face when he told you that! But it was actually you laughing in relief. It lent to your much needed conversation about what you both wanted in the future.

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What is one supposed to think of a woman who only wanted to be a complete “woman”? That is not given to all of them, and some would set an unattainable goal in this. She is, however, female in any case, by nature; femininity is her quality, she doesn’t need “true femininity”. I am human, just like the Earth is a planet. As ridiculous as it would be to set the Earth the task of being a “correct star”, it is just as ridiculous to burden me with the calling to be a “correct human being”.

-Max Stirner

wait I haven't noticed this before, but the next world mural is in line with Noid's ideology

"True love is only possible only in the next world - for new people it is too late for us. Wreak havoc on the middle class"

Noid - "In the true life of tomorrow, every woman will be an innocence.

Noid - "A life is true if it's free from fear and internal division among oneself. And others -- mankind has seeds of greatness in it. A germinal will come, a return to trueness. It will be hard core."

Noid - "Have you been listening to what Egg's been saying? Love is *hard core* man, and a mother's love is the hardest core of all..." Noid - "Well, they *loved* her. They put all their love in her and forgot all about the rest of us."

Which reminds me:

Fuck the World - "I can answer that. Many men keep searching for *the one*. For so-called true love, which is actually just obsession masquerading as kinship. The thrill of the chase, the hollowness that fills your chest cavity after catching it." (...) one must think of a way to fuck the whole world -- and not get caught up in fucking some *one*."

(The church quest is full of Scooter references and Fuck here sounds like he's quoting the first line of How much is the fish?: The chase is better than the catch - it's all connected lol)

True love is only possible in the next world/ true life of tomorrow where all women are innocences!

And I think this is all in line with Chernyshevsky's views about nihilism which has been discussed in this post

The line about fucking the whole world instead of putting all your love into one person also makes me think of a love that is not about thinking that you own your monogamous partner, but a more free kind of love that is present in Chernysevsky's book

Also, I feel like there are different versions of nihilism in Elysium, for example Zigi's father in Sacred and Terrible Air is a nihilist, but he says St Miro's nihilism isn't real nihilism, and it's a disappointment. So I'm not saying Noid is the same as Zigi, who wants the whole world to just disappear. Piss and Fuck seem to be also more into what Noid is talking about. Then there is Esteban and Hulio from Full Core State Nihilist (story on Martin Luiga's Medium set in Elysium) who are edgelords just fucking around (? I'm still not sure what their deal is)

the transphobes are all like "youre saying biological sex isnt real" your damn right i am biological sex isnt real either

learning abt anatomy in college biology is so great cause. gender roles really don't mean anything. sexual dimorphism is fundamentally meaningless. the reproductive systems are just organ systems they have zero meaning. biology is inherently without meaning by nature i love it. do what u want be what u want and be happy bc our brains r what invented the concept of meaning. xoxoxo

can i make it anymore obvious

This is a small silly request, but any hcs on how the papas react to their s/o that has a funny laugh? Like for me I end up snorting if I’m laughing too hard. So something from snorting to wheezing while they laugh(or anything else you can think of)

This is so cute! XD I'm happy to write this one!

Papas with an S/O That has a Funny Laugh

Papa Nihil: Adores it so much. It brings so much joy into his life! According to Nihil you just sound so excited and full of life when you laugh! At first you thought he was laughing AT you, but you've come to find he's laughing with you! He'd also have no room to talk. Ever since he was a young man he's always done this thing where if he makes himself laugh too hard he just starts wheezing. Nihil's laughing too hard laugh just sounds like he's been smoking cigars every day since he was born.

Papa I: If anything he finds your laugh wonderfully unique and sometimes adorable. Especially if you're the type to wheeze or snort giggle when you get too worked up. If you laugh during the rare time Papa tries to be witty and make a joke you make him feel validated that his humor isn't just, "dry old man humor." He has admitted to you at least once that your laugh is one of the ways he finds you in a crowd. It's one of your qualities that never fails to charm him and bring a smile to his face.

Papa II: You were very reluctant to start seeing him romantically at first because of your laugh. Mainly because you were afraid he'd either find you annoying or that you were forcing yourself to laugh around him to suck up to him- both of which he hated. But he seemed unphased by your laugh when he accidentally got you going with a dry comment he made. You thought he was going to scowl at you but instead he smiled and nodded. He finds your laugh very honest and sincere. Because to him, there are too many people who try to cover their insecurities to 'impress' him. He just wants someone unafraid to be themselves.

Papa III: Your laugh makes his entire day, especially if you have a loud one. Mainly because he loves to laugh and loves to make YOU laugh! You having such a strong reaction gives him a sense of pride in jokes and general mischief. And if you ever felt self conscious of it? Papa will tell you that you should never be ashamed for having something so unapologetically your own! Who WANTS to sound like other people? Your laugh is just yours! And it's AMAZING! Honestly, like Nihil, he probably finds excuses to make you laugh when he can!

Papa IV/Cardinal Copia: Funnily enough, he's always been self conscious of his own laugh. Copia has been told many times he laughs like a weasel or very rodent like. So to know his partner, the person who has his upmost respect and adoration for, has an unconventional laugh makes him so happy. He's never judged you for your laugh. In fact, he thinks it's beautiful how much pure joy is in it! It makes him smile in pride every time one of his corny jokes gets you to cackle or snort. And he can't think of a greater time than you laughing together!! You make him feel less strange about his nasally laugh!